Friday, October 28, 2011

Wingin' It

I don't know what I'm doing.
I just play it as it comes along.
Neighbors want wars, I try to disengage.
When they bring it to my doorstep, I just do what I think is right.

Or, I'm trying to get in line with the Lord and all kinds of
temptation hits me. Resist it? Yes. Resisting, kind of hard work,
actually. Human nature and desire is pretty strong stuff, I must admit.

Trying to get back into church? Ummm, lol. If anyone has read this blog
at length, then you know the internal wars that go on when church time
comes. I'm getting much better at that, though. 9:30AM Sunday morning
comes, I'm hopping in the shower, getting dressed, and out the door for
the 10:00 am service. But the mind still battles.

But my old pastor wanting to restart some kind of relationship?
That was a curve ball that my son threw at me last night - though I
seriously doubt he fully understands what that all means to me and
I figure this Sunday meeting he wants to have over coffee - though I
insisted on dinner at say, Applebee's, why not? - we might go into
all of that if he really wants to hear that story. If he doesn't,
no sweat off my back, but he is a part of that family - my ex-pastor's -
as much as a part of his own parents. I've never held it against him
to have that kind of relationship with those people.

But I do wonder where all of this is going.

Or what about this travel trailer business and getting one up
on my mother's property? This seemingly came out of nowhere.
I mean, I came up with that idea, I think. It seemed to be the
thing to do: get up to the mountains and have a place to crash out in
and even watch a bit of TV if I want to, but mostly enjoy a nature and
also spend a bit more time with my mom.

But this stuff just comes at me. I'm very perplexed by this
situation with my ex-pastor, because he shunned me in church.
Not, we were sitting in a private office and this situation occurred -
which would have been bad enough - but in a church service. Not that he
declared it to everyone. He certainly made it unerringly known to me,
that's for sure.

I wonder if I could find it within myself to go there.
I would first have to answer the question as to WHY I would want
to even think about going there after all that has transpired.
However, there is one thing that I am at least 99% percent sure that
is not going to happen: I will not be getting back together with
my ex-wife, a string I would have to believe is attached to such
an event.

I dunno. Life is pretty strange stuff at times, maybe most of the time.

Eddie - the kid that has been walking Coco 3 days in a row - wanted to take
Duke today. I was hesitant about that. Duke is bigger than Eddie in both size
and weight. He's a nice doggy but sometimes gets in his head that another dog
is some sort of threat and goes after it. I let him take Duke with some
instruction about Duke around other dogs - just don't let it happen.

Well, they were gone a LONG time. I was out front, working on the yard, some
pretty tedious work if I do say so myself. It's going to take a while to get
it all done. Something like 90 minutes later they returned. Of course: walking
around a dog THAT large garners attention and you get to talk to people about "your"
dog. Still, I freely admit after that much time passing that I was starting to get
worried.

Tomorrow? The rodeo tenant wants to take one of the dogs up into the mountain preserve -
trailhead 2 blocks from my house. Yeah, go for it. I suggested Coco since she lasts much
longer and is also not a problem with people or dogs. If the guy rides horses and bulls,
I can pretty much trust him with one of my dogs.

Me? I want to continue with the front yard. There is so much rock to move around, yikes!

I am watching the final game of the World Series. At least at this point, it's not looking to good for the Rangers. Walking runs in = not a good thing, especially in the most important game of the entire season. Well, that happened earlier but certainly a defining moment in the game. I am a fan of neither team, but I like it to be a good game, especially this one. Whoever wins - takes the Championship.

G'nite.

ben

Friday 10/28/2011

Ahh, the joy of Friday.

What great plans do I have for the weekend?
Just continue to work on the landscaping stuff.
Hope that the wallpaper shows up today so we can
get a start on that as well.
Maybe try to get to one of the prayer groups they started this week.
They - the church - are continually asking for volunteers to work
whatever - a fair type thing that the church is hosting for local
residents - I finally gave in and decided to volunteer for a couple
of hours at a dunking tank thing. You know, like bobbing for apples
or whatever.

How do you kill a kid? I don't get it. They found the remains of
that 11 year old kid that went missing along with his mother. The husband
has been charged in the death of the mother and the boy. I dunno, but I
fear for a person going around killing kids, not fearing what may happen in this
life, it's the next life that would worry me. The guy could have offed himself
and that would be a bit better than him killing his wife and kid.

So, one of the financial experts claims that there is some form of recession every 4 years and that - 2012 of course is another 4 years up. I even heard one of them state that
getting the max benefit out of your 401k - at least putting in as much as you can get matching funds from your employer - is a no-no right now. Apparently the thought is that you are going
to lose all that money in there, anyway, why bother to save money that's going to disappear?

I'm not willing to go that far with it. Not yet, anyway. I paid down 1 401k loan and will pay down the other 1. If nothing else, I will be able to borrow up to 50% of it if it's just going to disappear. I'm not necessarily "into" this doom and gloom business, but I do read both sides of the story, there isn't that much coming out on the other side of it. The government would like you to believe that we are slowly coming out of the recession. My answer to this is to simply save money in a bank savings account. It's already been taxed and it isn't subjected to the stock market. It isn't necessarily growing too much in interest, but at least it's there.

I don't see a lot of anyone suggesting to just save your money. I don't see other, viable alternatives, frankly, so I am going to continue with what I am doing and save cash in a bank account and still have 5% taken out in the 401k and see what happens. This world's economy and God's economy are 2 different things. Last time I checked, God wasn't broke. As many point out, the answer to this problem is really quite simple: go out and spend money. Buy new products and infuse the money into the "system". Of course, when most people that used to have money don't have any - what money are they supposed to spend?

I don't lose sleep over this, lemme tell ya. I have spent a considerable amount of my adult life in the "poor" bracket and the realities of living without are all too well known to me. I know how to survive when there is nothing to live off of. Unpleasant realities, perhaps, but reality never-the-less. Living in a house with evaporative cooling that doesn't work very well in summer. Going 7 or 8 months without hot water because I couldn't afford to buy a new water heater. On and on that story went. I'll have my travel trailer up on my mother's property next year, Lord willing and I will still have the other one here. I can live in a travel trailer - not the most pleasant thing on earth but better than the streets.

But, I hope that the economy doesn't get that bad and that people aren't roving the streets in gangs, invading people's homes to forage for food and all the junk that the extreme doom and gloomers are predicting.

Whatever the case, I am still employed and........
it's time to go to work.

G'day.

ben