Saturday, January 7, 2012

Life Can Be Pretty Strange

So, a bit ago, I get a phone call.
Didn't recognize the number on the cell phone.
Hello?  Hi Ben.  It's Josie and she's calling me from a hospital down south.
She goes into this elongated - and somewhat unbelievable - story about how
she ended up in the hospital after her family believed she was trying to commit
suicide again.  I listened for 10 minutes before her phone cut out and then I called
her back.  She was in the middle of something, she is being detained at the hospital for
72 hours.  She said she would call me back tomorrow and finish the story.

Obviously, she is not going to church with me tomorrow.

Before that, I get a phone call from my sister-in-law.  I knew what this was going to be about:
Mary.  Who started what with who?  I wasn't there, I wouldn't know.  Yes, actually, I would and
do know.  Mary hasn't changed on iota since I used to hang out with her in our teen years.
Which isn't a good thing, in case you were wondering. Susan - my sister-in-law - tells me
a completely different story than what Mary had told me, including Mary's alleged and daily
use of marijuana. 

At this point?  If you want to smoke your brains out of your head, be my guest.  I have absolutely no desire, whatsoever, to smoke dope and that's that.  If true, it would certainly explain some things about  Mary and her behavior that I observed when over there last week.  I smoked pot for 7 years in my youth, I have a bit of experience with it.

I have come to believe that when you hear 2 completely different stories about the same incident from 2 different parties that were there, you probably don't necessarily believe that either party has given you the whole picture and you attempt to mesh the two stories together and find some middle ground and use that as a base reference point.  Notwithstanding the fact that both parties are adament that they are right and the other is wrong.  Or, more pointedly: that one party is telling the truth and the other is lying.

I'm going to limit my interactions with Mary at this point.  Not that I won't visit again, but I am not going to be over there as much as she would like me to be.  As for Susan, I started talking about church tomorrow morning.  I throw out the lure and see if there are any bites.  Yep, I do it on purpose: drag people into church if they are consenting and see what happens.  She said she would meet me there at the start of the service.  Whether that is actually going to happen or not, who knows.  I just know that I fully intend on going to church in the morning regardless of what anyone else is doing.

Oh, and Mary allegedly told Susan that she is thinking about getting back together with her ex - even though she told me differently.  Of course, that doesn't really bother me, I am not in love with Mary neither do I consider her a girlfriend nor am I involved with her in any way at this point excepting as old friends.  And that is where it's going to stay.  The part  about her getting back with her ex is what doesn't bother me, the allegation that she lied to me about it - does.  But, I had questioned her a couple of times about it anyway - it was odd to continue to see and hear her spending so much time with that guy and have her continue to tell me that she is "just" friends with him.

Whatever.  Monkeys don't grow in barrels.

Goodnight.

ben

Saturday 1/7/2012

I was going to go shooting with Mary, but apparently she decided to go twice this week already - with her ex-husband.  I'm not really into that kind of thing - the ex being around that is, even if I have no "intentions".  I have been asking her about it - she says he's just a friend and that's that.

Yeah and I was just dumped out the back of the watermelon wagon.  I am not feeling that motivated to go that far today, anyway, so I just cancelled out on it.  After saying I didn't want to go shooting, she then asked about doing something else.  That was 2 hours ago, now she is attempting to call me, but I have totally changed my plans for today and have no desire.

Anyway, I am hoping to get up enough motivation to get up on the trailer roof and start on project number 2 today.  If not that, then something else.  I should have emailed that kid to come over and do some more work, I have plenty for him to do and he is an energetic worker, one of the few I have had over here that actually does something besides expecting to get paid for next-to-nothing.

Tomorrow, Josie is supposed to come over before church and then we will go to church.  This is the biggest priority of the weekend - it will supersede anything else.  That being because of the state of mind she is in and wanting to end her own life.

Well, that's the end of this line.  I have nothing else I want to speak about on an open blog - plenty I would LIKE to speak about but I am not going there.  The situation will play itself out - for good or bad - and then I may or may not have some decisions to make - but it is totally subjective to how it all works out.  The feeling isn't good and some of what I have been hearing isn't all that good, either.  But I don't tend to make drastic decisions based on how I "feel" about something when it's a situation that is this - important.  I just tend to ride the wave and see where I end up at.  Maybe it IS time for a change, however.

Whatever the case, I am done with this one.  Going to go out to the trailer and take stock of what is going to have to be done to get that project finished.

Later.

ben

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