Going through the complexities in my mind of what it would take to up and haul off, leave Phoenix, Arizona behind and start a life in a different place.
That's called a lot of stuff to do if it gets that far.
So much so, in fact, that I stopped my mind from going there. House, dogs, ponds, car, job, houseful of stuff to get rid of or just continue to rent out rooms with the older couple in charge - I have started down that road in the thought processes, but had to put the brakes on.
What if this wasn't meant to be? Lots of questions swirling around in my mind about all of this. The confirmation from the Lord is what I really seek and until I get that, well, I will let this relationship go where it will, but any plans to actually move there or re-marry will be sitting there, waiting for the arrival of that confirmation. I don't really know the Lord's will in any of this and that I must know. Confirmation can come in many forms. Usually it is more than one "thing" or "event" or words spoken by someone. I'm praying towards that end.
However, I am still going to pursue this until it either bears fruit - which in the end would be marriage - or the train runs out of diesel and stops in it's tracks. To that end, I have found some pretty cheap airfare to DFW and then a Greyhound bus for the 3 hour ride or however long it is to her place in eastern Texas, not far from the state line. In fact, Spirit Airlines runs out of AZA, is probably something like Southwest Airlines in otherwise being known as the cattle carrier airline - herd em' in there and pack em' in like sardines - but it's less than 3 hour flight, I can deal with that to get a $196 round trip ticket! That's right, 200 bucks round trip to DFW and the Greyhound is $52 round trip as well. I was knocking my brains out trying to find a cheap flight into her town or one near it, including SHV, and though I found lower priced bookings, nothing in the range that I was looking for.
I truly hate and despise Greyhound buses. Not because it's a bad busline or something, but because of all the noise and usually kids screaming and making all kinds of noise. But I learned a long time ago how to deal with it - I have taken a LOT of Greyhound bus trips my lifetime: get out the earplugs and go to sleep. Wake up every 30 to 60 minutes, look around, note that the nightmare continues on, and go back to sleep. If I don't do that, I tend to start feeling like I am going to go insane. Heck, some flights I have taken haven't been all that great, either, especially the time sitting next to a man that was somewhere between 350 and 400 pounds. This was before they started charging extra heavy people 2 seats worth of airfare. This guy's blubber was all over my left arm and he was also sweating.
It was pretty gross.
Well, I'm going to have to finish this one later, looking up at the clock? It's time to leave for work!