Well, I called my dad and wished him a Happy Father's Day! He sounded good, we had a good conversation.  We laughed and joked and talked a little politics and God and such - and then the call was over.  The hard part is realizing that this conversation that took place 20 minutes ago? He has already forgotten about.  I think I'm going to call him once a week instead of every couple of weeks just to hear his voice before whatever happens with him - happens.

I got full blown into the problems with this Jeep today.  Apparently computer problems are a constant factor if/when people have problems with them.  I was going to buy a used one out of a wrecked vehicle - and then started reading the problems people have with used AND remanufactured.  It's a $50 gamble to buy the computer from the wrecked Jeep.  At least you have an idea that the thing must have been working before it crashed - otherwise it wouldn't have been on the road, right? But it sounds like a nightmare some of what people have gone through with those things.  A few people suggessted to posters on forums to get the thing running and get rid of it.  I'm just sitting here considering my next step with it.

Meanwhile, my landloards are definitely moving.  They  just don't know where, yet, the company hasn't made those decisions yet.  But, it means a lot is going to change around here for me and I'm going to be smack dab back in the middle of room rentals again.  I really wish they had a 4th bedroom in here, it would make paying for the house much easier for I could charge less and not have to try to lure a limited market into a rather expensive room.  Lots to think about there and lots of work to do around here to spruce the place up.

But, the humidity and heat have hit full blown and it's unbelievable.  I don't envy people in AZ right now having to endure 119 degree heat but the humidity here takes a while to get used to.  I have a bit of a break tomorrow morning at work, the truck is loaded and ready to go and it's about a 7 hour round trip run.  That makes Monday morning much easier to deal with.

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Above written last week. Haven't felt much like writing, plus I've gotten heavily involved in a political debate forum.  But, I think I'll take a couple days off of that stuff, it starts to get = aggravating? = unnerving perhaps, seeing the views of people from all sides.  I mean, viewpoints that you - or I anyway - would never expect to even exist in a "civilized" society.  You read these people and come to understand that they actually believe what the are saying.  And then you come to concllusion that if enough people thought that way, our nation would be screwed. As it stands, Trump isn't doing so well in the polls, but then again, I don't give polls a high level of creedence.  I look at them, yes, but I have always had trouble understanding how they could use 1,000 people in a "scientific poll" and then say that that represents the views of hundreds of millions of people......

I finally broke down and bought a grill.  I've been wanting one for quite a long time.  What am I working for if I can't enjoy a few extras in life?  $200 plus propane cylinder, we put it together yesterday.  Because of "bad" instructions, they only have picture instructions with no words so if you have a question, well, you're on your own, put it together and then? Take it back apart because it wasn't supposed to go together that way even though the instructions appeared to show it a different way. Is this the product of an illiterate society? That can't even read a set of instructions so make it all pictures like a picture book in kindergarten? Just curious.

At least all the parts were there, nothing missing.  Couldn't fire it up, though, new cylinder arrives Tuesday.  Though, I could have bought on locallly for the same price and I probably should have just done that.

On the news front, my landlady showed me a pic yesterday on her phone.  It was of a pregnancy test show plus for yes, she is pregnant!  Yay! Told them they need to do it and get it over with.  Not that they were listening to me, lol, but I always thought it better to have siblings closer together in age.  Perfect time for it. Summer just starting, she'll be into the heaver part of it during the winter months and having the baby before next summer.  Only drawback is they are moving.

Which is the other "news" though I have already written about it.  They haven't got their marching orders yet - ie: where they have to move to. I've received several hits on the rooms and some good sounding prospective tenants.  But I don't know if they can wait that long.  It's gonna be a while longer before they get out of here.

Of course, everything that occurs has ripple effects.  Such as them taking their animals out of here.  I can't have Addler in the back yard, alone all day long while I'm at work.  I hate to get another dog but I just don't like the idea of him being along for extended periods of time.  He's a very social dog and I suspect if left under those conditions he would start trying to get out of the yard.  Cross that bridge when I get to it I guess. I don't want another Dane, I don't think anyway, 2 of them would cost a fairly hefty food bill, though I've had 3 of them in the past.  I fed them cheaper dog food.

The upkeep of the house will fall squarely on me, plus making sure the tenants are "good neighbors" and not creating problems in the neighborhood.  Plus the basic rules I impose on tenants - this is stuff that people shouldn't have to be told to do, but in my experience, some of them have to be told anyway.  Electricity consumption and cleanliness being the top 2 on the list of things that some people have to be informed of. Especially when considering a one payment for everything type of situation where some people are tempted to abuse it.

Other than that, I had KAG contact me yesterday.  They are interested in having me come to work for them. The lady said she thought there was a local job available in Shreveport and after a conversation about it, she hung up and then called me back several hours later.  No, she said, I contacted them and found that the only thing available is a regional run. Out 1 to 2 nights and back. Nice, I thouught, too bad this situation here, I could deal with that.

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It escaped me that this weekend is the 4th of July weekend, meaning an extended holiday with 3 days off.  Which will fly by quickly but I'll take it over nothing.  I'm undetermined whether to do nothing and enjoy the time off or fly through some projects and get some stuff done.  Well who knows, I'll decide that then.

Well it came to light today that they are moving. No, it was last night.  I asked cause' there was some talk that was a bit unsettling.  I'm not really wanting them to take off, not that they have a choice.  His dad showed up and that is where 2 plus 2 still equals 4.  I'ma need your help tomorrow moving that motorcycle.  I haven't ever seen the thing, but it's in a shed out back that is locked up.  I saw it today though, lol.

I got into this discussion with the landlord's dad today. It's a 1975 Harley Davidson something or other, not really up on Harleys. .  It had been sitting on a special motorcycle jack for a few years.  It was frozen and wouldn't let down, the jack that is, hydraulics.  They went back and forth about this for quite a while and I got tired of it.  I want done with this, get it off the jack, get it on the floor, get it out of the shed and onto the concrete and then we can move on.  How heavy is this thing? I asked.  It's too heavy to lift.

I've heard this too many times in my life.  I'ma lift this thing up, the front wheel will hit the floor, pull it out when the motorcycle clears the jack.  I wasn't prepared for the weight of it, though.  I got the thing up but the dad didn't pull the damned thing out from underneath. I can't just hold it up indefinitely so I let it back down.  We tried this again.  I lift the thing up, the dude is older, much older, he just doesn't have the umph to move heavy stuff. I ain't holding it against him, but please move so your son can get it out of there, cause' I can tell you right now, that jack doesn't weigh anything even remotely close to this motorcycle.

The thing was deceptive in appearance. Didn't look that heavy.  I don't know what it weighed  but the first try I slightly pulled a lower side back muscle.  Nothing severe at all, but the second try I was in position, the third try, I had to give directions.  When I lift this up, pull it out! Please!!!  After finally getting the thing on the floor, it was getting it out of there.  I pulled that freaking thing but it was giving far too much resistance. When we got it down on the concrete, and pushing the issue cause pushing it up onto the trailer like that wasn't exactly anything I was interested in, he had  the thing in 1st gear.

But this just created a new situation in my life. I don't even know how this is going to go down, they don't know where they are being sent off to yet.  Which is not my concern, the concern is having to move all of my stuff out of this room and into a smaller room so that this room can be rented at a higher rate.  Guaranteed that smaller room won't pan out for as much needed to keep this place afloat.  I don't feel obliged to do this, but I don't mind either.  It's like my house in Phoenix.  I own it but I am not running it. So, they get a lot of leeway to do whatever they need to do as long as the rooms stay rented.

Really.  Just the idea of making friends with people and they are gone.  I'm so tired of life going this way.  It's been happening as far back as I can remember, even in single digit age, several times over just in that era.  I'm going to get to know this person or those people and then they are going to disappear?  Well but they do have a goal of coming back after he has been with that company for 18 months he can come to Texas and work locally.  They are from here, they don't want to lose their house.

Okay.  Nothing new under the sun.  Accept it, deal with it, move on.

Just got off the phone with a rather extensive discussion with mom about the group text message chaos where my middle brother literally blew up.  I mean, he went nuts, lost control of his temper, made all kinds of threats of physical harm against me and basically made himself look like a total a-hole.

That group text has all but been ghost-towned. My mother is still posting in it and I will say something just to try to keep it going, but my middle brother went on a 2 day rampage on there and then said goodbye and hasn't posted anything since.  He also hasn't spoken with mother since. I don't care one way or the other what he thinks about me, but give it a rest.  My mother is the nicest person you will ever meet. When it comes to us 3 boys, she treats it completely equitably, fair and no favoritism shown towards any of us.  She does this on purpose, of course and I agree with it.

Anyway, I braved the waters to call her today and find out what's going on, how she felt about it.  I mean, I have no clue, really.  She didn't go "off" on my brother, but she definitely said he had lost control of himself and that I wasn't wrong to stand my ground in declaring his apology - not an apology at all.  He said he was sorry I felt threatened, not, I am sorry I threatened you.  The texts are unbelievable, rambling and go on for 2 days.  I thought my brother had gotten over his anger issues, my mother corrected me about that today.

She also said this is an issue both of my brothers have been bringing up since I was 5 years old.  What? I didn't understand what she was referring to.  Well, she said, you were extremely sick when you were young and almost died X number of times and you were a full time project, I had no choice.  True.  I had asthma attacks that almost took my life on numerous occasions. We didn't have all of this stuff there is nowadays to deal with it.  I remember counting up to 90 seconds not being able to take a breath.  Try waking up in the middle of the night with that going on in your body and coming to realize it out of dreamland.

So now, I have a bit better understanding of their  resentment.  I thought their beef was against dad, now I am finding out it is against both my parents and me, for having to take up all of - her time - dad wasn't around much - in dealing with my asthma and allergy issues.  I was allergic to dairy and chocolate and whatever else I can't remember plus I had asthma attacks that were brutal and whenever sickness hit me it was far worse on my system with everything else than what occurs in most people.

But now, I realize I am allegedly the spoiled child.  Yet, my mom has always told me: You'll figure it out, you always do.  I don't ask her for anything.  I have never asked my brothers for anything, either.  If I have a serious issue, I do not even think about asking family for anything.  It's just not an option. My dad has helped me out in the past, but again, I didn't ask for it or even allude to it.  If life goes to hell, then to hell it goes.  Nothing I believe for but bad things happen.

Well whatever.  My brother's rantings sealed the deal.  We will never be a family.  It just isn't going to happen.  Or, if it does, it's a miracle of God and nothing else.  I have doubts that I will ever see him again.  I have been dealing with this all of my life, it doesn't have the impact that perhaps it would when someone gets that revelation the first time.  I am used to it, it isn't going away, I still would like to see it happen, but my hope for it to happen in real life is gone.

Mother wants me to come visit, I need to do that so I am going to try to figure out the best time and the cheapest route to do it.  I know the cheapest way there is to drive to dallas and get on a Southwest flight.  But there is gas to get there and back, parking for the car while I'm gone, transportation toa nd from PHX, spending money, trying to get down to see dad if possible, seeing my son, friends and visiting my house.  I'm going to have to take a week off and do this.

Well whatever. I'll figure that out, I just want to get some other things out of the way first.  Plus she's up in the moutains all the time  during the summer so a visit would have to correspond with her being in the valley.  I dunno, but I wouldn't mind spending another night in my trialer up there.  It's so peaceful and serene.  It's a getaway from the noise and confusion of "real life".

Per the Jeep, I was informed that the computer had been "repaired" once before.  Who repairs a computer in a car?  I've never even heard of that, you just replace the computer.  Now I am reconsidering my decision to have it towed. Perhaps the $75 spend on a replacement computer is a good gamble.  I've got 2 considerations pointing towards the computer, though not defnitive.  Still.

I'll decide that this week.

Anyway, time for bed.

Well let's see.  My middle brother's blow-up this week.
I don't really want to even go into that.  Just unbelievable though.

Man coming over today to look at the Jeep.  I'm not going to do anything to it until I find out what's wrong with it. I mean by saying that in cleaning it up and changing the oil and all that. If it's an expensive repair, I may put it off.  Find out soon enough, the guy has the computer hookups to plug into it to find out what's going on with it.

My application was denied for LTC - License To Carry. Well, the statement in the letter was it is held up because....the class instructor forgot to date the paper next to his signature.  Further investigatin - which meant calling him and finding out what's going on - found out that he didn't date any of them.  He signed one of the,made copies of it and that was that.

Turns out this guy has made other mistakes in the past.  He's a bit older and usually has his wife helping him do the classes but that day we were there, she wasn't available.  Not the end of the world, I just dated it myself and told him what I put on there so he could put it on his copy of it and faxed it back to the TXDPS.  I'm sending it in the mail, too, just for good measure.  From the looks of the letter they sent me, though, that  is the only thing holding it up, otherwise good to go.  But, it could take - forever, lol for this to actually get worked out and get sent to me.

Now that California won a ruling from an appeals court on CHL's, apparently the masses are swarming the classes and subsequently swarming states processing centers with applications.  So, who knows when I will actually get the license.

As for my landlords, we are in limbo right now. We don't know what the answer is going to be from his employer as to whether they are going to move or not.  I ran an ad anyway to find out what kind of market there is here.  It's a bit pricey for the rooms at $500 - but that includes everything and the rooms have private bathrooms, which is really what people want.

I'm still reeling from the heat yesterday.  It was 97 degrees with similar humidity.  Just wasn't ready for that at all and I had to spend a good portion of the day outdooors.

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Dude came over to look at Jeep.  Checked the fuel pump, spark plugs and engine compression on all cylinders.  Compression good.  Started digging around and found that there is no igntion coming into the coil pack.  Well that will do it, lol.  He tried messing with some stuff but finally said he doesn't do electrical, that's out of his realm.  Which is fine, at least he admitted it instead of trying to buy stuff and try it out.  He did say it looks like all roads lead to the computer and that I could get one cheap if I wanted to try that out, but that's only  guess.  I did find computers on line relatively cheap.

But I've been down this road before.  Replace computer and sensors and all kinds of stuff and then find out after spending a lot of money it was the wiring harness that needed repaird.  That was with the car I gave to my son.  It worked for a long time after that, but the money spent on such an old car was hard to justify.  It was just that once I got into it, it was hard to just  say, well, I spent this money, it still isn't working, lets' try again and see if we can get it.

If I would have had the thing towed to an electrical shop to begin with, I would have saved a large sum of money.  The vehcile has a good body, a good engine and transmission, tires are good.  Interior is decent too.  It's in pretty good shape.  There is a shop in town that advertises it specailizes in electrical problems, I'm considering using some of my savings and having it towed there and get a definitive diagnostic.  I have already priced  new computers, up there in the $400 range but reconditioned, guaranteed ones are in the $200 range and junkyard versions that are also guaranteed start at $65 and go up.

Okay, well home alone tonight. Landlords were invited to a house warming party that apparently is really a heavy drinking affair.  Which is none of my concern, just that they aren't planning on coming home tonight.  Which is good if they are going to tie one on.  They found a sitter for the baby for the night as well.

Well that's it for now.  I have numeorous drafts - blog entries that I never finsihed or posted - that I want to clean up either discard or finish or merge together into one.