I am overwhelmed with grief for a man I only knew through reading his internet postings. He was one of my uncles. I only encountered him a few times and that was before I was 10 years old. I read his Facebook postings - he kept a blog-like posting of things that were happening to him as the disease advanced. https://www.facebook.com/bill.barkley.98
His beloved doggy died suddenly on him last month, he had posted and pics of him with the dog. Dogs bring out things in us human folks. That is a fact. You see the pic and you might understand what I am saying.
That's uncle Bill. The thing that gets me about this photo? This looks exactly like my dad, of whom I haven't spoken with in over a year and I have absolutely NO idea how he is doing. I finally got their phone number and have been calling and calling and calling, with no answer. Ugh. I want to see my dad. I don't have good feelings about his situation.
Uncle Bill posted that picture last month. When I read what happened with the doggy dying, the thought came to my mind: he won't be with us next month. I have been hearing futuristic events about my and other people's lives since I was a teenager. I distinctly remember this: He's going to die next month - it was pictured in my mind in huge words like you would see on a billboard. How do you tell people that stuff? You just don't. Why do these things even come to me? Well, this one about someone's death isn't a daily occurrence.
I want to take a pause in life and say, okay, I need to deal with this and move on. And if it were immediate family, I would. I've been having a bad feeling about my dad for a few months now. But nothing like the words flowing through my head about my uncle.
I have to get away from here. I need the solitude that the excursions to the mountains used to give me. There are no mountains around here.
For all the things that happened today, I just can't anymore with this.
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