So, I had Friday and Saturday off.  Then Sunday and Monday tied up with a low paying run. And now told by the dispatcher that there isn't any work tomorrow - 2 runs.  In the last 5 days as of tomorrow, I will have had a $450 paying run.  I know for a fact others have been running and so - I couldn't just take this anymore.  I didn't unload on the dispatcher, I just stated the facts.  Of course, she may take that as unloading on her, but it was respectful and courteous.  

I can't pay my bills on $450 per week. That's 5 consecutive days with only one,  low paying run. No, no thanks.  There's a local job running 5 days a week and no weekend work that pays more than that that I can take and have weekends off. Not that I want it, it would be a huge pay cut.  But I'm not going to continue to deal with whatever is going on with this dispatcher.  I'm already taking a pay cut with these weeks where there's a normal paycheck and then there's a - nothing paycheck.  

Whatever the case, it has become evident that other drivers complain to get their way - and they - get...their...way.  This isn't even second hand info, it came straight from my manager's mouth today.  

So I confronted her on it.  I've done the passive, nice, whatever is cool way about it and it's getting me nowhere.  We had a few comments going until I finally told her that the work is there.  There is one particular driver that gets the Brownsville run every single time. He literally does nothing else.  There are others that get good runs most of the time. And then, the rest of us.  

I'm just not going to sit back and have this served on the dish of "there are no other runs" when I know there are other runs, they just are giving them out to select people.  For unknown reasons, it's wearing thin on the rest of us, but to have this kind of stuff going on for this many days in a row? I'm going to start speaking out. After my last comment, she didn't reply.  I didn't expect her to. I expect my manager will be calling me tomorrow and telling me how it is. Or attempting to explain it away. Or whatever.  I'm tired of the excuses. The work needs to be handed out fairly to everyone, just as they all have said it would be - yet they aren't delivering on it.  I guess they don't understand that there are enough of us that talk to each other on a regular basis to see what's going on? 

If I were just going by my own observations, that could be totally off. When you are talking about people who live in the yard and see what's going on plus everyone else that are seeing these same people pulling certain trailers all the time?  There is an issue. It's come-what-may to me.  I've never had such a high paying job - but I'm back to square one with this dispatcher and making far less money than I should be.  I've given some thought to finding a local job anyway for attempting to get this business up and running - if I ever get the land, lol.

Meanwhile, today, the realtor contacted me wanting me to give her permission to speak to the lender.  I guess, she can't really say anything that hasn't been already said.  But checking my email I saw why. The lender had asked from both of us whether it was the property on the east or the west side of the tract split?  The realtor had made it obvious that it was the east side in a reply comment, but I definitely had to back that up.  

I do not want, under any terms, the property on the west, that land is more than half of it gobbled up by easements which you can't build anything on.  It's the property on the EAST that I want.  Please and thank you.  My realtor then texted me after sending that to everyone. Thanks for that, it seemed obvious to me that it was the east portion of the split.  There is and there will be nothing new about the property for a while from the lender and so, I must try to get my mind off of that subject somehow.  

There was no interest in finding another surveyor. The seller's realtor put in an order for a survey the day we made the agreement and that is that.  Just bite my tongue and wait.  I may go over to the property again since the dogs like it and it's free roaming without having to deal with anyone else.  other than that? I've seen this property, it's time to get this thing done and over with so I can start making actual steps towards my dream of becoming financially independent.  

Or I'll go to the hunting property to let the dogs roam and not get so tied up in my thinking of what to do with it.  I can do all of that if/when the thing closes and it's in my name.  My chickens don't hatch until the deal is done, the down payment is made, the other fees are paid and I have the paperwork with my name on it in my hands.  

I won't stop looking at information on RV parks tho.  It's interesting stuff for the quirks and the mindsets of the people involved with it.  I can't just shut this stuff off in my mind, I can only try to squelch the thoughts of this particular land until it's a done deal.  

Anyway, I have tomorrow off - i was fully expecting to be sent out tomorrow and I wasn't particularly happy to find out there is nothing but "2 loads". I haven't found out who got them or how long they have been sitting.  

Anyway, off to wonderland, watching reruns of some of my favorite shows.