Friday - noonish

I didn't sleep well last night, something about this fasting keeping me awake.  I didn't get out of bed until being IN bed for 10 hours, but some of that was due to the fact that I had to get up early every single day for 8 days in a row.  I wanted a sleep in day and I got one, tomorrow will be the same as will Sunday.

I did eventually get over to the park and get the mowing all done.  Amazing how much ground that Bad Boy mower can do in a short period of time. It looks so nice when it's nicely mowed and I really need to get to doing that on a more frequent basis.  

I got a reprieve from the weather as well.  Overcast and the temp in the low 80's, far better than the 106 real feel it's been previous days.  

As far as fasting goes, I did not quit this morning as I thought I would have to.  I was way too hungry last night and I just thought tomorrow morning would be the end of it.  Well, I've made it 15-1/2 hours into the 5th day and I can't say I'm bright and energetic1 but I can manage.  

I'm not going to go into 6 days so I will probably drink some of the bone broth around 3 - 6 hours short of 5 full days - and then eat something an hour later.  Eggs and avocados. So just 2-1/2 more hours and I will quit.  I wanted to get as much of the cell restructuring as possible and some of that stem cell release upon refeeding.  Ideally, I would keep fasting another 5-7 days, I just can't do it and work at the same time.  

Unless it rains tomorrow, I'm going to go back over and finish everything else up with the tractor and the bush hog attachment and then probably will go ahead and hook up the blade and do some work on the driveway. The driveway is a never ending issue, it will be unless I ever get asphalt laid. At 20k, that isn't going to happen anytime soon, but I might have the entrance fixed with an asphalt entrance, it keeps getting messed up and I'd like to get it squared away.   

Yup, hunger is starting to creep back in, pretty much solid on the 3 pm thing. 4 and 3/4 days is enough.  

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I stopped at 4 and 2/3rd's days into it.  I couldn't deal with it anymore, drank a few cups of bone broth.  Maybe an hour and half later, had some egg white mix mixed with spinach and a couple eggs cooked into it.

After that, it was salmon, broccoli and salad.  

I figured out the total tab for that: 15 net carbs and less than 900 calories.  Well, I give AI credit for figuring out the calories.  My weight will go back up after eating, to be expected, but I"m fully in ketosis and intend on staying that way for a while. Or quite a while.  I want to lose this gut and badly.  It is unsightly and that much fat isn't good for anyone.  

But...my but shrank and my waistline as well. I can fit into my pants again and no longer worried about going to buy the next size up .... unnnnless......keto doesn't work? I can't imagine it not working, I am going to be keeping track of both carbs and calories every day.  A good day in my mind is less than 1,000 calores.

And with that? It's actually quite late, I'm going to bed. 

 Thursday - evening

Today didn't start out badly, I had something going on in my gut area, not sure what that was all about but otherwise I wasn't hungry or too fatigued. Got up to Gurdon and unloaded that truck in 45 minutes, which is great.  Got back and got hit hard with extreme hunger. Like an unreal amount of hunger.  Crazy stuff. It slowly went away, but the fatigue that came after that was also amazing.  

I'm not sure what possessed me to take the quarters to the bank and then go get a haircut, but it wasn't the greatest idea, especially sitting in the barber shop chair.  Just felt so hungry and tired.  Ok, this is almost over. I am pretty sure I won't make it until 9:00 pm tomorrow night, I'm just trying to make it til tomorrow morning. Get up, drink some of that wonderful bone broth, wait an hour and have some eggs and avocadoes.  

Or whatever.  

I just ordered a bunch of keto stuff to be delivered from walmart. No way am I going to that store feeling like this, I am pretty much stuck here the rest of the night.  It's that or eat.  I want the 12 or more hours of fasting before I break it. I'll be in day 5 and right now, that's good enough for me.  

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Ugh. 4 full days completed.  Almost 10 pm, I think I'm gonna call it quits for the day, go to bed and then in the morning, very likely get up and drink a few cups of wonderful bone broth. I don't see myself going the full 5 days, but I can probably make it 4-1/2. The thing is, I don't want to be out there too late in the morning trying to cut grass in the heat that has his this region.  

I'd have to wait until 9:00 am to get to 4-1/2 days. I kind of want to get at least that far for the cellular fixing that goes on inside.  5 full days is better, but whatever.  

 Wednesday - mid afternoon

I was lucky today.  Or blessed.  I got to the washout early - and they did the washout without charging the extra fee since they were all there already.  Got out of there quickly and to the plant. Lo and behold, one of the few decent loaders they have left working there? Was there.  I was done loading at 9:30 am.  Out of there, to the truck stop, fuel and home a little after noon.  Not bad, not bad at all.

For once, the last 3 loads have been ridiculous. 4 hours 10 minutes 2 days ago waiting, and hours waiting the 2 loads before that one.  

I couldn't sleep last night and it was related to fasting. This wasn't the normal "gee I just can't sleep", this fasting stuff was keeping me awake.  It was therefore amazing that I wasn't dog tired the entire work day.  But, it caught up with me after I got home and I immediately laid down in bed for a while.  

This fast has been one of the rougher ones. Not so much the hunger but  the fatigue and weakness.  It hits me, hard. It doesn't last forever but when it hits me, it's time to stop whatever I'm doing and sit or lay down depending on where I'm at and what I'm doing.  

I almost gave up earlier.  I just thought, if I eat now, I will regain my strength.  Then I looked at my belly and said, April Fool's!  No, really, I did look at my belly and that was enough to say not, I'm pushing on.  I have to make it at least 3 full days.  Tonight at 9:00 pm will be 72 hours/3 full days.  I will make it and there will be no sense eating that late at night so I predict that I will make it to tomorrow morning. 

I almost never eat in the mornings so I am predicting that I will make it at least until tomorrow afternoon. That puts the goal of 5 days within reach. I can't make any predictions beyond that, if this doesn't get any easier, I don't know if  I'll make it until Friday. And if I do, I probably won't go too late in the day before eating. That's because I have Friday off and I need to get stuff done at the park. 

Kind of hard to do when you have no energy.  I've got this excellent bone broth. It is store bought but it's top tier.  It's what I intend on drinking at least an hour or so before I start eating anything.  I will probably have an avocado and a few eggs after that, get my digestive system back operational and not overload it.  After that, probably some fish and green beans.   Amazingly, they tell you not to break a fast with salad.  I never knew that so I won't go that route.  

Anyway, if I do indeed make it to Friday, I'm not sure when I'll eat.  I will eat Friday if not before then, that's a fact.  5 days of this is plenty and enough. The thing is, it's getting really hot during late mornings and on into the evenings.  The best thing to do is get up semi early and get that mowing done before the bad heat of the day hits.  

I have half a mind to go over there right now and get some of it done - but that's because I'm sitting and not doing anything lol.  

Lol. The weather channel says it's 93 degrees out right now and feels like 106 .  Probably rethink that one lmao. Summer doesn't official start until the 21st, but you couldn't convince me that this isn't summer temperatures.  No wonder I was drained after getting out of that truck - the ac as I have stated many times over - doesn't work correctly.  

I'm thinking I should get up early tomorrow morning - like around 4 am - and get the Arkansas portion of the run done earlier so I don't have to endure excessive heat driving back.  And after that, I have the rest of Thursday off and not going back to work until Monday!  Yayyyy!

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Got completely sidetracked and I'm going t o bed.  I might get up at 4:00 am, then again, I might not. I'm not setting the alarm clock for then, but I tend to wake up at different hours of the night for no particular reason, if it's around then, I'll probably drag my butt out of bed and get it over with.  

 Tuesday - evening

Manager just dumps 3 loads into the tablet without asking, well he did ask about one of them.  He told me yesterday he's thankful for all the work I've been doing, you're welcome. Then he said he can't fill the load slots up for Wednesday - tomorrow. "I don't even get a single day off?"  

He started going into his spiel and I just said ok, I'll just load, whatever.  He mentioned the weekend but would "figure  it out". He said nothing about me working on Sunday.  What did he do? Tried to give me Friday and Saturday off.  

Not a happening event. I'll have worked 8 days in a row, before that only a single day off and worked like 4 or 6 days straight before that.  I want to go to church.  I simply texted him a message after seeing that junk in my tablet: I do not want to work on Sunday.  He knows this.  His sick drivers are coming back, make their @$$es work  Sunday.  

He texted back: Copy, thank you.

I checked it again hours later, a few minutes ago actually and it significantly changed. Now I'm off Friday through Sunday. Yes, that's what I need. Time off to do other stuff.  These people are all chomping at the bit to get started on the piping project, I can have them over on Friday, I'll sit there and supervise them while I"m working on the tractor and mowing grass on the bad boy.

How do you supervise and do that at the same time? Just show them how to do it and then check up on them periodically. I don't think they would try to get away with slacking off, I just want to be sure they do it right.  Could probably knock that sewer stuff out in one day.  Maybe if there are no complications. Yeah, right! lmao I guess I could work Saturday on it as well, but why would I? Well, money of course.  Not the love of money, but the need for it.  Once I start buying the rest of this stuff it's gonna run up a bill.  It's geeeet'er done! time at that point. 

Oh, the condo I reserved for the vacation yesterday? Turns out that was a  total scam.  This is how it went down. I put the card info in their system and had them reserve the room and allegedly run the card.  I checked the card and it didn't show anything, I thought that odd. The next day, I get a text from  - whoever it was - saying hello to my first name and "we are excited to host you soon". I responded back in kind but then? 

It got funky.  "Can you please confirm if you were charged for the booking?"  I thought little of this at first, so I checked. No. I used a bank credit card, btw, that way I have protection in case of stuff - just like this actually.  He then claims the card system has been "fluctuating and down that's why your card wasn't charged". 

This is starting to get odd, I thought. I use a card system and it doesn't "fluctuate" at all. So he goes straight to paying him through Apple Pay, Zelle or Venmo. I'm playing along with this but I am starting to smell a scam.  I'm going to send a random phone number money without identifying who this person is? I couldn't figure out apple pay - I receive money through it I have no idea how to send money and I don't really care, I only use it for one guest that prefers to pay that way.  Whatever, it's fine.  

So I said well I have Zelle. He sends his email info to send it to: yazmonlove@gmail.com. Feel free to send him an email! LMAO.  And then says his name is Yazmon Horton.  I check the confirmation email, it's listed with a person named Mary something or other.  But I don't tell him that, I try to go through the process.  Zelle comes back and says it's not a registered user.  

"I can send it but it says you aren't registered with Zelle?"  "It's registered".  I no longer smell a scammer, this IS a scammer. "This is sus. It says the owner's name is someone else".  He never replies back. Of course not, I've caught him and he isn't get a red cent from me.  He screwed up on a couple of things. First, you aren't sending a person money for a business - well people do with me at mine but that's in person, not on a text with someone you have no idea who they are.  Once they say apple pay and the others, you know something's off. Second, the owner's name was completely different than this dude's.  Third, he didn't have the amount right, he told me $360 but the card "charged" me $340.  

I texted him again today but no reply. Of course not, this person probably doesn't even live in the US.  

I went to the bank today to drop off some quarters and the teller said nope, that's a scam.  But, if the card didn't go through, it probably never will and you needn't worry about it excepting to check it to make sure it doesn't happen.  I'm thinking I should get a new card.  Isn't that what you would do? I think I should have just said cancel that card and have a new one sent, please.  

I've been so busy I didn't really give that much thought - until now.  

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I finally am going to get some time off - and - this guy is going out of town with his family up to a cabin in  Arkansas somewhere. Great! I will still get out there and mow and if I get a really wild hair, I'll get down into that ditch and start piecing it together by myself.  I dunno, but it's a half an hour until bedtime and I think I will retire to bed early.  I'm 48 hours and 30 minutes into this fast. I have a slight headache but everything else is good - mostly because I'm not doing anything but sitting.  I have to work in the morning, hopefully I feel ok.  I mean, I could drive right now if I needed to, just would be a bit of a chore.  

Oh, and we found a hotel right on the beach. I mean, this place faces the ocean and it's not a scam at all. We are going to have to get 2 bedrooms and so a little pricey but oh well. My little laundromat quarters will pay for it.  I spent a lot of time today looking for a place and this was the one that hit with us.  Not just because it's on the beach, but also reasonable priced, excellent reviews and just overall looks good. Right near all the tourist junk as well and restaurants.  

I'm done.  

 Tuesday - afternoon

Experienced some pretty good fatigue today, I forgot to take my sea salt this morning. Makes a huge difference when you are water only fasting.

To explain a prolonged fast on water only (versus other types of fasts where you are still eating calories but limiting yourself to certain foods or not eating certain foods for religious purposes), will take a minute. I have done extensive research on this subject over the years and I find nothing harmful about water only fasting at all.  Neither do the scientists writing the journals, the health care sites writing about the benefits of fasting and other resources. 

There are side effects of course.  The most notable one is keto flu.  This occurs on the keto diet when you first start it if you haven't prepared yourself for it, but it can also happen when you are on a prolonged water fast for your body goes into ketosis regardless. The first time I tried keto, I was flat on my back for 10 days.  It was pretty bad and had many of the same symptoms of the flu.   You can experience weakness, fatigue, dizziness - well you get the picture.

The benefits, however, are amazing.  Joint inflammation will be greatly reduced.  Insulin resistance goes way down, this is a huge benefit for diabetics but anyone trying to lose weight.  Heart health and blood pressure are improved.  After around day 3,  you go into autophagy, which is recycling and cellular cleansing process, you can just look it up more than I want to go into here.  After I think 4 days stem cells are, well I'll copy and paste a little info here: 

Immune System Reboot: Prolonged fasting (typically 48–72 hours) breaks down older, damaged white blood cells. This depletion triggers hematopoietic stem cells to generate a new, healthy immune system. [1, 2, 3, 4]

Intestinal Regeneration: Research from MIT News indicates that while a 24-hour fast forces intestinal stem cells to burn fatty acids instead of carbohydrates, it is the refeeding phase after the fast that sparks a massive surge in regenerative capacity. [1, \Blood Stem Cell Rejuvenation: According to Columbia University Irving Medical Center, fasting-refeeding cycles can reset the metabolism of aging blood stem cells, making them function almost as efficiently as young stem cells. [1]

I can't get rid of the dots now lol.  Whatever, it gives you an idea of what can happen in your system when you are fasting and stem cells are affected. It has also been shown that if you are going to receive chemotherapy for a cancer condition, a prolonged fast before you get the chemo will aid cellular degradation and keep your immune system at healthier levels. 

You can also grow new brain cells, amazingly enough. Remember, this is prolonged fasting I am referring to here, not intermittent fasting.  There are more beneficial side effects but of course you are going to drop weight. You can't help it, your body runs out of glucose and it starts feeding on your fat for energy. Bypassing the stomach altogether and giving it a break from eating as well. 

Although I have no intention of doing this, I have read testimony from several people over the years who went on a month long fast and noted that at the 21st day, their vision clear up to 20-20.  It actually fixed their vision somehow.  

No, I am going to just try to make it to tomorrow night and then if I feel like I can do it, go another day and if that happens, another and then quite on night 5.  Fasting basically gives your body a chance to start fixing itself, plain and simple. Doctors don't want to tell you this stuff because they live off of you coming in there and getting endless prescriptions and checkups and pharmaceutical companies want you taking their drugs forever.  They want to treat the symptoms, they don't want to fix the problems which most of those pills can never do. 

This guy here is the ultimate in fasting knowledge, this is just one of many videos he has on youtube, if you are interested in learning more, this guy and Dr. Berg - you can look him up he has a ton of videos on it as well and they are both doctors - will give you the lowdown of fasting.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qw8wMELZ5dI

 Monday - afternoon

Well, first off, the manufacturing plant, where I waited hours to get loaded and then when a person did come out, it was a manager.  This is indicative of the personnel problem they have and not being able to keep the help.  After finally getting me loaded? I had to wait 1 hour and 15 minutes for paperwork.......

Today, the year long stay person finally showed up, he was supposed to be there on Saturday. I had told the hotel reservation chain that if he doesn't show up today, I'm either charging you or the reservation will be canceled.  This guy has a brand new chevy pickup and a brand new trailer..  Don't ask me, I saw it when I pulled in, by the time I got back to where I wanted to chat with them, they had left.  No, they didn't leave with the trailer, lol, they just went wherever, who knows. 

The park is now completely full and the first time I can say that every space is occupied by long term people.  

I spent so much time at work today I had no energy to speak of to go get the stuff for them to start work out there. 

I also started a water fast today - well I had black coffee and some unsweetened tea, both things allowed on such a fast - so that's playing on me as well. As I said previously, I am going to get into ketosis and I am going to stay in ketosis. IF I somehow fall out of it, just fast a couple days again.  This will be coupled with intermittent fasting  -- you don't eat for 18 hours and then you get a 6 hour window to eat in - and I am going to be counting calories.  

The vacation is now completely booked. We are going to New Orleans first - I guess they want to see haunted houses and such.  I might end up at a Black Jack table lol, haven't been in a very, very long time.  That's just overnight. I found accommodations for 2 families, the rest are meeting us in Gulf Shores. I am very good at finding good prices on whatever we need, which is why I would have liked the opportunity to scout out accommodations in Gulf Shores as well.  I wouldn't say it's overly pricey considering all of us are chipping in to pay for it, but as I said, I'm good at finding bargains on good rentals. 

Many people will not go to the trouble I will go to in order to find a  nice place at an awesome deal.  Regardless, after Gulf Shores, it's off to Dentin, Florida which is a couple of hours away.  Why? Because we want to, lol. Actually, the rest of them were cutting the vacation a wee bit short.  We thought, why are we driving that far and only staying 3 nights? So, we're staying an extra 2 in Destin.  

It's a beach front apartment or condo or whatever you want to call it. It's within walking range of the beach, which is basically right there and it's absolutely beautiful. It's also a high rise building, would love to get one of the upper floors.  Florida beaches are, IMO, the best in the country.  Well I don't know about Alaska or Hawaii, never been to those and I'm sure some of that is awesome as well.

However, when comparing Florida beaches to the Gulf or California, I'm giving Florida a win.  Clean, clear water, beautiful.  I've actually spent a great deal of time in Florida in the 80's.  I was down there in the 90's as well but I haven't been back since then. This is the panhandle, not going down into the peninsula area.  Which I'm glad because then there might be talk of Disney World.  Have you seen the cost of getting into that place? When someone says you best be ready to spend 10k for a family to go for a multi-day visit, they aren't joking.  

Anyway, I'm glad to have all of that over with, I spent a lot of time finding this place in Destin. A lot of web sites to comb through before finally finding "the one".  Very reasonably priced and very, very nice accommodations.  

I have to deliver tomorrow and then...who knows what.  They haven't dumped anything into the tablet.  I will argue with them if I have to, I want a weekend off. They could have me working Thursday and Friday and then Saturday and Sunday off, thanks. Especially now that we have a new driver.  As stated previously, a driver quit. Another driver had a serious health issue come up, I think he's finally starting back up this week. That takes the pressure off of me to have to try to fill in for 2 people's worth of missing drivers.  Well 3, actually, counting myself as well. Or is it counting me as well?  Lol

Oh, so anyway, the vacation, next month. We have 2 days worth of pet sitting we still need to cover, just remembered that. Figure out what we are going to be cooking. All 3 places we are staying at have kitchens.  I want to save a bit by not eating out all the time. Restaurants are expensive and tho I don't mind having a few meals out, I'd rather we figure out what to cook in advance and bring it with us.  I don't know if there are entrance fees to the beaches, not worried about that. Probably entrance fees to haunted houses.  And there is a water park in Destin we are also thinking about going to.  It has a HUGE lazy river plus all kinds of tube slides etc. 

It isn't overly pricey.  My mind is slowly getting into vacation mode, it's been a while since I've been out on a real vacation.   But for right now? I"m fasting and that's draining my energy supplies, at least today. The first day can be a bit difficult, the second day usually gets easier, the third day is a tossup, you might feel fine or you will go through bouts of extreme hunger that eventually dissipate.

It doesn't really get any better on days 4 and 5 - I haven't decided to go that far with it, yet.   If I feel like I can do it, I will definitely go 5 days but if I only make 3, I'm good with it. It's just that work factor where you're busy half the day and getting drained.  

 Sunday - evening

Done with working the entire weekend, the dispatcher, bless her heart, has me also working Monday and Tuesday.  That's 6 days in a row working and only a day off before I started this 6 day run, I am do and need a couple days off.   She has no idea what she's doing. She just fills the slots and has no clue about driver's desires for particular days off or how they want to handle things and she doesn't care, it's not normally her job.

The manager is back and I will be having a discussion about this coming weekend. There isn't anything particularly important going on, I just want it off.  I worked this entire weekend, last weekend I worked Saturday and I don't even remember the weekend before that.  I lost track of all of it. I know I had 5 days off being sick and they accommodated for that, so I try to keep things like that in mind when they are working me to death. 

We do have a new driver, he just started yesterday. I saw him coming into Gurdon when I was leaving.  Someone gave him my phone number for a little while later I got a call from him.  He had no idea what to do.  Which outlet do I pump the fluid into? Probably the east but you need to go into the plant, find the on duty manager and have them sign off on your paperwork first and also have them determine which tank they want you to pump into.  It's all up to them. I go into the glue pit and look at the levels of both tanks so I can tell them where it's at when I find them, they are usually very busy and don't have time for it. 

In other words, you will wait.  He "got it" and I just told him if he has any other questions don't hesitate to call me. At least he didn't try to show up before me.  He was told to arrive at 11:00 am and it was 10:30 am when he actually arrived. I'm all good with that, I got there at 8:30 this morning. 

It's taking longer to get weekends done up there for a very disgruntled employee who was fired called in death threats (this was a month ago) and was going to "shoot up the place". Who knows when they will lift that, but until then? I have to have them come and unlock the main gate to let me in. But it doesn't matter, that's where the scales are so they would have to come anyway. On the weekends, the scales aren't open, the security people have to weigh you in and out.  

I'm hopeful this new driver both works out and isn't a total jackass. He sounded ok on the phone anyway. 

Strange things happen on the highways - every single day actually.  I was driving up to Gurdon on I-30 - east bound in other words - had caught up to a truck and put on my signal to come over. There was a group of motorcycles coming up on the left lane - they had been sitting out there forever - I wasn't going to cut them off but I was seeing if they would let me in.

They did not.   So I slowed down behind the truck, let them pass and then got over.  I passed 2 trucks actually, there was one right behind the other. I got back over pretty quickly, I try to be a courteous driver.  A pickup pulling a trailer came up beside me, I woman opened the window, leaned half her body out the window and had both middle fingers glaring at me, lmao.  I just laughed at them.  What on earth?  

They passed me and got over and then another pickup with a trailer came up and yes, another female got her head and upper body out the window and was also flipping me off! LOL! .

They got behind the other pickup who was following behind the motorcycles.  I didn't cut the motorcycles off, lol, I won't do that regardless. Did they think I was somehow provoking the motorcycles by putting my turn signal on?  They were not following closely behind the motorcycles I didn't even know they were with them.  

Whatever. I pulled out my phone and aimed it out the windshield, they were likely going to cut me off and possibly brake check me.   They didn't even get over.  I make it plainly visible that I have that phone aimed right at them and if they pull anything, it's going to be recorded. Honestly? I didn't even have the thing recording, lol, I just do that when I want to trick people who are acting erratically out there to see that they are not going to get away with anything, or at least think they aren't  and just move your ass on, get out of my line of sight and take  your idiotic wrath and rage elsewhere. 

I really want out of trucking. That desire gets stronger and stronger.  The park is - well it's supposed to be full. Some sort of company that finds accommodations for corporate people had called me several times reserving a lot for someone coming in - for an entire year.  I had said yes, they said he was arriving on the 6th.  That was yesterday and a no show.  I told them today I am losing money - I literally turned someone away assuming this person was showing up.  

The point is that it is possible that I could fill those 4 lots I have been wanting to get going.  Very possible.  I am going to go buy the stuff I need to give to the man tomorrow - it's glue and stuff to put the pipe together.   And someone stole my stepladder - $150 worth gone.  That was quite a while back, I never replaced it.  Other than that, I have most of the pipe I need to finish the sewer line portion of it. 

He has a buddy that has some sort of mini trackhoe he says he'll ask about trenching a line for the water line.  I gotta get this going, it's been idle long enough. I'll get my @$$ down in there if I have to, I'd just like some help with it.  It's pretty hard work.  Not impossible for a lone person to do it but  an extra set  of hands and eyes makes it  soooo much easier.  

Well, the day is gone. Almost anyway. 8:00 pm.  Oh, well this company told me to hold the spot. Yeah, I"m gonna start charging them the nightly fee, I have their credit card on file. I will be telling them tomorrow that I am going to start doing that and if they don't want me to, immediately drop their reservation and I'll just let it go. But I ain't holding it forever.  IF this person does show up, the start date will be Saturday - yesterday and I will charge accordingly.  I don't mind this kind of setup, I've done it before and it's quite convenient getting that money monthly without any hesitation.  

I'm starting a 3 day fast tomorrow.  I'm going to force myself to lose weight. It's getting ridiculous and I'm just ready to do something about it. I don't want to take pills - you've seen those pills and now you are hearing about some serious potential side effects.  I have adverse side effects to lots of common drugs that don't give other people any problems. Doctors think I'm making stuff up or something,  I don't tolerate that stuff. I will take your pills if I don't feel like I'm dying while I am taking them.  I get testy right back with them, is there some reason I would just make stuff up?   

Fasting? The only side effect is hunger, lol. I'd love to make it 5 days but I'm only shooting for 3, 5 is really hard, I've done it but barely made it through it. After that, I'm back on Keto but this time, no or very little diary products.  In other words, that high fat stuff.  Not good for the cholesterol count I found out the hard way.  

I think I'm going to take my leave of this, go watch tv for a while and then call it a day. 

 Friday - evening

The kids are gone. Finally.  Just yea, we needed a break from that.  I am not the parents so i can say that without anyone judging me, tho I deal with them all the time.  I love them to pieces, almost their entire lives, we have lived together but yea, I like my breaks from that stuff.  The grandparents have them, they want them and they are capable of dealing with them - or not - who knows but they do love them so there is that. 

I call them my nephews because the parents have always referred to me as their uncle. The kids understand I am not blood relative but they call me uncle anyway. There are other uncles and aunts involved who are also not blood related. Understand that this family has no other relatives living anywhere even remotely close to where we are. Clarification in case there was confusion.  It's easier for me to say "these are my nephews" than go into a long, winding explanation of what is going on.  

Anyway, I got up to the plant to deliver this morning and lo and behold, there is another one of our trucks unloading.  Note that this truck definitely shouldn't be there. I wasted zero seconds contacting the company.  I did not pull any punches, I am SICK of this SHIT.  That was a text to dispatch, the manager immediately called me. 

He spent several minutes apologizing, so I'll give him that.  I told him to be there at 7 am. Yea, the guard shack informed me he got here 20 minutes ago.  That means he arrived at 8:20, not 7 am.  Manager confirmed - they track everything, all trucking companies do.  The manager tried to take responsibility - he doesn't want me or anyone worth a s*** to leave - all well and fine, but...obviously this wasn't his fault. It's the driver who didn't give a sh** who arrived whenever the HELL he pleased who was instructed to sh ow up at 7:00 am.

I stopped short of ultimatums for the manager was really going out of his way to try and appease the situation.  I told him I got my @$$ out of bed at 5:30 am to deliver, NOT GET MY ASS OVER HERE TO WAIT FOR SOME AHOLE DRIVER TO SHOW UP OUT OF HIS TIME SLOT. Thank you. Venting? Yes, in fact I am.  I was going to inform him it will be a flat $150 fee every time from now on this happens. 

It will occur at some point. A person will show up whenever they want to, it will be in my time slot and I will demand $150 extra fee.  I don't care if he agrees to it or not, I really don't. I'm done with this, it's just his endless apologies got to me so I let it go.  I told him flatly: "this time".  I feel for him. He's working with a junk fleet, low pay for drivers - I was quitting so they gave me more -, not-so-great-benefits. Their health care insurance sucks. Badly. 

I'd write more but fatigue has kicked. It's 8 pm and I could easily go to sleep right now. I won't, instead I'll feed my dog and get some other stuff done and then go to bed.