Friday - morning 8 am-ish

I kind of posted yesterday's post this morning lol, forgot to do that when I went to bed.  I decided last night I best start getting to bed at a reasonable hour so 10:15 pm it was.

I got up early simply because i had 7 hours of sleep and after that? Hit or miss. Might get to sleep, might not.  

I have no idea when I might get a phone call from the alignment shop or a phone call from management saying, gee, they had to order parts.  Whatever the case, I am ready to go get it. I don't have to do anything else beyond that today, tomorrow is when I start back into the grind.  Starting back on a weekend.  Yuck. 

Then again, weekends you typically get loaded faster.  There is sometimes a silver lining in a cloud of undesirable "things to do".  

As for the situation around here, who knows.  I was asked if I want to move to Colorado. That wasn't my first thought.  Or even second. But after a bit of conversation I think I fairly well identified why that person wants to move there and I simply said that changing your geographical location will not offset any despair or depression caused by severe marital stresses.  

One thing I know that helps is personal counseling. I have actually thought about going through that again.  It's kind of a mental/attitude/outlook checkup.  When I went through it several decades ago, it wasn't actually too pleasant.  Those counselors aren't trained to sugarcoat as well they shouldn't be.  And they dig dig dig into your past and identify things that are causing you experience or see things the way that you are.

I haven't decided yet, I feel like you should be 100% to go through the process no matter how difficult it becomes to continue on with it.  It's been what, 3 decades since I did that? I think that I might benefit from another round of it.  

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As usual, I get busy or interrupted with "stuff" and leave the blog and come back to it later. Like 9 hours later lmao.  I got the truck out of the alignment shop.  They had a huge list of parts that needed to be replaced including the king pins.  THAT would definitely cause some of that problem I was describing in earlier posts and hadn't even thought about that as a potential problem.  

They said it's good to drive until they get the parts in, so I'm on the hook for working the next 4 days.  Not the end of my world, but I was astonished to see a paycheck with 3/4's of my pay on there. Like, how did this manager invent this for me? I looked, he gave me an excessive amount of money for just moving the truck around.  I don't know how he gets away with that stuff but I'm glad he does.  He's pretty good about stuff like that, it's the communicating that needs serious improvement. 

And I just spent several HOURS trying to figure out how to move files from an old computer to another.  I first tried the microsoft one drive method.  I ended up wanting to just chuck the old thing in the trash but I persisted until - I gave up on that. I tried other methods and finally got to the memory card.  

I was using AI the entire time, I am absolutely sure that if I didn't have access to it, I would either have spent days trying to figure it out or I would have  just said screw it.  I almost said screw it as it stands.  

But I have never done that before and there are a LOT of steps to take to first download the photos and apps to the card and then upload them to another computer. The whole point of doing this? Well, I have photos on that old computer that aren't anywhere else.  I have been wanting to do this for a long time, but I knew it would turn into a major ordeal and I was right.

However, what forced me to do it today?  My rv park reservation system app disappeared on my new computer and wasn't on my laptop either, it used to be on both?!!!  

I can't have that park without access to it. I don't really need the reservation system atm for I have all spots rented to long term, but I do need access to the card processing software that is also in that app.  I don't get a lot of credit or debit card payments now, everyone wants to pay either cashapp, venmo, paypal or cash.  But, I have one hold out that wants to use that card and I really need the ability to do so.  I just wish I had more spots for some overnighters.  

Enough. I"m going to bed early enough to get a decent night's sleep.  Or try to anyway.

G'nite. 

 Thursday - late afternoon

Just got home a few minutes ago. Took much long than it should have to get the truck and trailer and get back down here with it.

Why, you ask?

Because when I arrived there, the mechanic was doing something to it. Upon inquiry, he said the truck won't start.  Uhh, how long have you known about this? Since this morning.  Ok, I wonder why they didn't tell me.  He fiddled with it for quite a while before I just left and went to the office.  Chatted there then back to the truck.  Hung out there for quite a while and then realized this isn't going to happen anytime soon.

During all this back and forth, the manager was indicating he wanted to go to Plan B. I knew what he was going to say before he even said what it was: No thank you. I don't want to drive that truck - referring to a pile of trash truck that I had no intention of getting into. I gave my reasons and I just held firm, even tho he kept bringing it up.  Nope, fix THIS truck and let's get this over with.  

I went to the driver's lounge and went to sleep, actually. No one was in there - there hardly ever is - and I was tired from not having a good night's sleep. The manager came in after a while, chatted with me, brought up that POS again, nooo, thank you.  

Another 30 minutes and the manager came in again, it's done.  So, I go to the truck, turn it on and off several times and confirmed it was working. However, the seat wasn't. It wouldn't air up and it was sitting all the way down on the floor. Then I noticed wires hanging from underneath the truck and actually laying on the ground!  

But, another mechanic had shown up and he fixed those issues and I finally got out of there. Drove it back to my town and decided that yes, I'm taking it to the shop now, why get up at 6 am when I don't need to?  So, I dropped the trailer in their yard and then pulled into a bay. They wasted no time - literally seconds after I parked it - pointing out the fact that there is one new shock absorber but the other 3 are leaking oil. 

"We will check this truck out from front to back and give them a quote".  

He made it sound like there was going to be a lot of work.  I don't care at this point, another weekend off would be great.  I doubt that will happen but you never know!  

I called my friend, she came and got me and we got home ... to... the guy.  He came into town to visit the boys and apparently to discuss this marriage situation.  He told me a few minutes ago he apologizes in advance, but things might get a little ugly...

I want no part of it, not my crusade and none of my business, at all.  If they want to fight and argue, I only think they should not do it in front of or within hearing range of the kids.  They don't need to hear that stuff.  Just going to throw them into mental chaos.  But, who knows? Maybe face to face they will keep it civil?  I simply asserted a few times that I am divorced twice and not my fish to fry. 

....So now the oldest comes into my room crying, they are arguing out front, in front of the kids, something I hoped they wouldn't do.  AT 11 years old, it's going to be hard to process all of that. I don't recall them ever getting into real arguments or if they did, I never witnessed it.  

Not trying to sound unsympathetic, but I'm starving. It's almost 5 pm and I haven't eating in about 24 hours.  Not by design. I mean, yes, I am doing intermittent fasting but I don't go this long.  I was thinking I'd be up there, get in the truck, leave and be home no later than 1 pm.  I should have known better.   `