I, uhh, find it strange I guess. People who are married, one of them dies and the other one shows their emotional distress over it. That's not the strange part. The strange part is a month later and they are dolt in love with someone else like the passing of their previous mate never existed.  They are suddenly all happy and the world is all right with them.

I can't and probably won't ever understand that. 

On the same note, I have a friend whose wife died and he has been in such despair for going on 2 years now, you can tell simply from looking at pics of him that he has let caution go to the wind.  He is still crying daily, drinking heavily, I can understand that.  You're married for 30 years, your mate is the entirety of your existence and then that mate is gone . That would mess with me too.

But just changing gears and going on to someone else?  I think people need some counseling after such things occur. Not because they are psychotic, but because they need help walking through their emotions and their thoughts.  I keep saying I might go through another episode of counseling and I might actually do it. My life isn't bad or horrible, I just think it would help me understand what I'm thinking and why I'm thinking it.

Then again, a degree in business from a college would probably help me immensely. Sometimes I feel lost and tho I do ample research, I still don't feel like I have a grasp on it.  I haven't heard anything from the IRS on my tax return and that leaves me uncomfortable. Then today, attempting to deal with the state of Texas Comptroller office.  I try to fill out the fields as best as I can and I have to do Google searches to even understand what some of it is asking.  I don't want or need the government focusing on my for tax purposes. I've tried to be as thorough as possible, doing what they ask for tax purposes, but who knows if I got it right? 

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Verizon phone paid off, unlocked and ready to switch.  I was just up that way, not going there again today.  I'll try to get that done tomorrow after work.  I'm already having to pay Verizon another month's worth of service, so no great hurry.  Oh, well I was just up where the T Mobile store is. 

I'm contacting Mark at the house tomorrow - are you sure you are ready to have the internet turned off over there? I will be gleefully happy to rid myself of Cox Communications after they went from $99 per month for unlimited internet to installing "tiers" that have me over $200 per month.  I despise these large corporations for they are always greedy. Cox, Dish Network, Directv, even the smaller companies are upping their prices drastically to the point - who needs it? I want some in-home entertainment for sure, but at the prices they are dictating? They can keep it. 

Try going to 6 Flags with a family of 6 and spending under a grand for the entire day. Good luck.  I mean, if you want to drive there and back the same day and save a hotel stay, okay.  If you don't eat anything at the park and paying $18 for a frigging hotdog, okay.  I'm not joking about that hotdog price. It's a large corporation. Disney far worse.  They charge these prices because rich people don't care and will pay it out and everyone else? Suffers.  Average families can't afford to go to Disneyland or World anymore.  Not to mention the woke factor.  

I'm getting on a rant and I'm quitting.  Let's look at politics.  Nahh, let's not.  Same old s***, different day.

Let's look at the rest of this day?  I'm just relaxing now.  I've done the boat, potential tenants for the park, T Mobile and other things.  I haven't started laundry, I guess I best get busy with that.   

I'm getting offa here and going to watch a movie.                                                               

 Tuesday day-off

The problem is finding the right length shaft with enough thrust that doesn't cost 2 thousand dollars.

I am talking about a trolling motor that will be sufficient for a boat the size of mine that weighs as much as mine does and add the weight of 5 people onto it.  I'm thinking at least 90 pounds of thrust if not more.  Walmart has lots of 28 inch shaft motors, just not long enough.  The warnings are abundant: if you don't buy on with long enough shaft, it obviously is either not going to even go into the water or it will pop out of the water as you are cruising along. 

I also don't want a piece of junk, I want one with a lot of good reviews. Minn Kota is one of the top of the line brands but boy howdy are they also expensive.  Still, I don't want to get stuck in the middle of a lake and have no way to get back to shore.  I've gone the route of buying "cheaper" stuff before in other types of things I am doing and end up having to go back and buy something more expensive because the cheap thing - didn't work.  I don't want to make that mistake here. Most if not all of these companies that build these motors say once you put it into the water, there are no refunds.  

So, I'm just going through seemingly endless web searches attempting to find the right size - which I believe is around 54 inch shaft and at least 90 pounds thrust. We are big heavy people, lol. Okay, we're not that bad but still, you want enough thrust to move the boat at a decent pace.  This and a new cover are the last of the Mohicans on bigger ticket item expenses for this thing.  

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Done.  Ordered and gonna be a minute before it gets here.  They don't have what I need at Walmart, they had it online and I wanted to use Walmart for the protection plan. 

And, the State of Texas sent me an email saying they are going to cancel my ability to operate my business. Why? Because of some form I apparently didn't fill out and send in to them. That was a bit disconcerting : )  Form is printed out, I will fill it out today and mail it - today. I have until the 6th of August.  Nothing like a lot of pre-notice to ensure you have time to do it.

If they sent me a letter in the mail, I didn't see it.  It would not be fun to try and get my business authority back, it would cost a lot of money and completely unnecessary. It's a tax thing, but I owe them no taxes so there is that.  In fact, they tell you you don't owe taxes if your total income was below 2.4 something million last year. Yeah, I come nowhere close to that...unfortunately. It would be grand to be taking in millions of dollars per year! I could employ my own tax person to deal with that nonsense and I wouldn't have to worry about it.  My small time operation doesn't warrant the need for such a person and neither could I afford one, at least not if I want to make any kind of money off of this operation.

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Well that was a PITA. I decided that "expedite" was the operative word for that form, turns out I had to fill out 2 forms and I had to look up a lot of information in order to accurately fill those forms out. Guess it's good I had the day off? Nahh, I could have done it after work.  

I'm guessing my work schedule is the next 4 days starting tomorrow, off Sunday and then work, work, work.  Probably a pretty accurate guess.  

As for everything else? Well, gonna eat something cause I have had nothing today beside a fingerful of last night's dinner, literally it was just what I could pick out with my fingers, it's afternoon and I'm starving.