It is a bit unnerving to drive over there when it's raining - such as it is today - and see a muddy driveway.  It didn't help that a tanker tractor-trailer rig came through today.  They always seem to pick the worst days to go in there.  I need almost 3 grand worth of gravel.  Couple that with spending around $3,500 on getting laundry in and I've got serious debt going.  

Is it worth it? I dunno, but I have to say that the driveway is going to be a major turn off for anyone driving in and out of there.  And it's supposed to rain the next 4 or 5 days.....

I've got a cash problem and I just don't know what to do besides going back to work or taking out another loan.  Or using credit cards - the same as taking out loans but higher interest rate.  

It's a quandary.  A real pickle.  A backed-into-a-corner feeling. Almost futile - dump the money into it and the what?  I'll be real happy, tho, if all of these people show up Monday and Tuesday. It would be 4 long term renters - which would be a nice cash infusion that I seriously need right now. Pay for as much gravel as I can afford out of the business account while still being able to pay bills and then move on with the laundry setup on credit.  

Even 3 loads of gravel would help immensely.  Still $1,700 delivered.  I think they had some cheaper stuff but only by $50 per load cheaper.   Not really a big savings to take lessor quality product.  I was definitely going to have one load of the gravel brought over, but looking at that driveway today, it's pretty  much mandatory I get that situation fixed - somehow. 

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A hazmat gig that keeps getting put up that is located in the town at the border just off the Interstate.  When it's time, I'm going to apply there and see if I can snag something decent. It's daywork and it's local. And I think they pay pretty well.  There's a couple of places that have caught my eye that are larger operations, are local and have ongoing driver needs. They don't post their wages so that is a mystery.  It isn't worth applying until I'm ready to get back to trucking.  

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I'm a bit off today.  It's just going over there and seeing that driveway like that.  And it's still raining. The rain is supposed to stop at 1 am but then pick up again early morning and rain all day long, yet again. In fact, we have days and days worth of rain coming - if the forecasters are right.  So I'm sitting here wondering how I am going to pay for all of this. Put another 7 grand on credit cards? Yikes.  I mean, I'm really struggling with what to do here.  These oil workers probably don't care as much about a driveway - they are all driving duallys with 4 wheel drive in already dirty pickups, that's their lifestyle.  

But that doesn't excuse a miserable driveway. It's not complicated what happened. They brought in a grader that graded what was left of original top layer of gravel? Right out of existence. Ever since that monstrosity did that, the driveway has degraded immensely. I think they were actually going to put down a new layer of gravel with me paying half of it - before they sold the well and who knows what the new people want.  Nothing, I'm sure.  I don't know about this particular company, but they all have a reputation for not giving a damn about driveways. If equipment gets stuck, they'll send over earth-moving equipment to unstick it - which will cause immeasurably MORE damage.

I'm not a multi-million dollar company with it's own legal department as these gas companies are.  But I do think I will send them a professional letter, laying out what the previous company was going to do, promised to do.  The worst - I think anyway - if it's a non-confrontational message is they can say no thanks.  

I'm just going to go to bed. It's almost 11:00 pm.