I wish I could sleep.  This knee pain persists.  It feels like it's subsiding a bit, but it's still enough to wake me up every time I turn in bed.  Stay in bed 10 hours and get 5 hours of sleep? Gag. It's great weather, I am contemplating going out and working anyway.  Time isn't going to wait for my knee to heal....Probably a bad idea, the real way for this type of injury to heal is rest, not using it as much as possible, not straining it. I"ll have to be on my knees digging out that trench, standing up bending over constantly picking stuff up

There's allegedly some dude moving in today.  You know the story, they say they're coming and they don't. But there is something that has been eating at me and I finally remembered what it was.  I think a lot of my descriptions on these directories talk about long term as well as short term.  I'm going to look in a while, I'm just trying to get myself awake at the moment.

The reason is some or even many RV'ers that are traveling full time or even just going on vacation mode don't necessarily appreciate long term RV'ers.  It's sort of a snubbing.  They think the long termers are possessive of the park and it's amenities and that they own the place. They can "tell" because there is a lot of "stuff" outside of their rigs.  

I'm not trying to deceive anyone, but I don't want the long term stuff in any of those directories.  I am pretty sure the local ads are the only way to find those types of people.  

If after a few months, I don't start getting reservations for overnighters, I'm going to just fill it up with long term people and that will be that.  It will change the entire venue. I'll let people put up fencing if they so desire and make it more homey.  It would be far better to get overnighters coming in consistently - apparently that can take even years to get them coming in to the point your park is full or nearly full most of the time.  

I don't have years.  I can put in stuff that will bring them in such as a pool, but right now? I don't have the money for that and I don't see it being a good risk for taking out a loan to get one.  In fact, if I were to take out even a "smaller" loan, it will still have to be a lot of money to build a pool, a bath house, laundry, a pavillion and put in at least 20 more spaces.  That's easily 200k.  50k pool, maybe more, 25k bath house/laundry combo, 15k pavillion and at least 100k to put in more spots.  That's because I would have to put in another septic system, run the electric even further back and the water line.  The cheapest thing would be the water line, it's just hook into the existing line.  Electric would cost a lot more than I spent already.  Underground line new spaces?  I'm looking at 40k minimum just to run the line and install the pedestals.  

This is a dream, maybe a goal? Nothing is set in stone, is pretty much what I'm saying here. RV park, mobile home park, tiny home community, mixture of all 3, whatever works.  I don't really care - I just don't want a trailer trash setup.  

I ponder lots of things that are unattainable.  I wonder about things I can do and why they don't seem to be working.  I know from reading experts in the field and park owners it can take a long time to get to the point you are mostly busy.  But I expected a bit more than what I am getting now, especially with all the local advertising. The directories that reach across America?  I need reviews, I'm pretty sure that is at least one thing holding up getting the reservations, that and some amenities I don't have people consider "must haves".  I didn't expect to spend as much money as I had to spend building the park.  Costs went up - well beyond original quotes.  

Shoulda, woulda, coulda, should have gotten the quotes in writing.  Buy the stuff up front if they need to and I could have paid them up front.  

Now what.  Go back to work, that's the end of the story. Once I get this knee better, I am going to work to get the stuff done I need to get done and then I'm going to start looking for a job.  I'll start local and work out to regional.  I just won't do OTR.  There's far too many regional jobs to worry about having to go OTR.  I don't need to see America via the driver's seat of a tractor-trailer rig.  I've seen most all of it from coast to coast.  Just never been to Alaska and obviously you aren't going to drive to Hawaii. 

I dunno, but these things occupy my mind - probably too much. I think it would be relieved if I could at least get in enough people to pay the bills to start with.  

I am going to the bank today. I cannot access my account online, they never sent me a debit card and I have to go TO the bank to see what transactions have transpired. The idea that you are starting a checking account without getting a debit card at the very least is absurd in my thinking.  The idea that they won't allow me to access the account without jumping through their hoops is a bit ridiculous as well. They have by now sent "small amounts around $1" to verify it's me. I have to verify the account by inputting the exact amount those transactions were for.  Well how the Hercules Hondurans do you check it if you cannot access it? This isn't a lot of walking and I want this situation dealt with.  

On another note, day 4 of Keto.  232 starting weight, 224 this morning.  Now, I don't know what, exactly, has been lost but I doubt you can lose 8 pounds in 4 days of fat, so I assume water weight or something, I really don't know lol. I'm committed to losing at least 24 more pounds - getting to 200 - before any cheats, at all.  I don't care how good the food looks, I'm not going to just live with a fat belly and thighs. It's foreign to me, just really exploded after I got off of Keto because of high cholesterol. 

I'm just going to work with chicken, turkey and fish and run with it.  I'm still in "trace" ketosis. Who knows when it will get into the medium range, but just changing diet has already had benefits.  It will take awhile to get rid of this belly, but if I can make it 25 more pounds, this belly an thighs should shrink considerably.  

Oh, and I need to go check on the tent campers - and get that new chainsaw out of there, a thing  I completely forgot about last night.  I have no reason to trust them - I just don't trust strangers anymore.  They could be decent people, they could be thieves, they could be anything in between.