Not going to say much here. Just that it was a 12 hour day after we finally got started and not it's after 11;00 pm, which means it's after 1 am my time.  This used to be my lifestyle, working 12, 14, 16 hour days and thinking nothing of it for the most part.

Well, considering the lack of sleep and the fact that I haven't worked these kinds of hours in a long time?  I definitely am not going to sit here and claim it's a piece of cake.  The last load we weren't supposed to loat at all. Just drop the trailer and someone else was going to come for it in the morning . But the plant operator was insisting we stay for loading and take the trailer out of there.

So, we did.  But there were multiple problems on the plant side with the loading operation and it took hours to get done, hence why we didn't get done until late.  

The flip side of this is that we aren't starting until 11:00 am tomorrow morning.  And allegedly a light work load.  

Anyway, the day is finally done and I'm elated. 

G'nite

 So..they didn't have a trailer available for us this morning when it was time to leave, I was sent back to the bunkhouse.  Apparently there will be one arriving in a while.  2 hours at the time I got back here, they said anyway and so far, there are no texts being sent out of an ETA for the trailer.

I tried to go back to bed, actually, and sleep, but sleep  has departed from me, at least this morning.  It's very cold in this house, there is definitely no  heat turned on and the only thing I have going for me is the heater in this room. There are no heaters in any of the other rooms and no thermostat on the wall anywhere to turn on a furnace. 

We were slated to do 2 runs today but apparently because of the trailer issue, it's only going to be one.  So, the time is cut in half. 

IF that's true, that will at least help me make it through this day. The wind is howling now and the rain is relentless.  I thought for sure I had brought a thermal top with me, I must have ditched the idea at the last minute thinking it wasn't going to get too cold. Remember, I didn't bring a coat.  No place to put it for one and two, because it didn't appear it was going to be this cold. I did check the weather forecast for this region before I left.

Well, it's a quarter of 10 and still no word on a trailer. I'm pretty sure we'll go out today, I only want to because I don't get paid for staying at this ridiculous bunk house. If I do even one run, that's enough to get their full day training pay. And yes, I have looked up airfare back, one of my credit cards has enough points to pay for full airfare back and then some.  Another doesn't, the third I couldn't remember my login credentials, but no matter. And yes, I could take off tomorrow afternoon if I wanted to.

I'm trying to fight this feeling that this is all jacked up and just get out of here, but this IS jacked up. Too many things. Still, just going to fight the urge to depart hence for thither yonder lands, hope I get some sleep tonight and am going to go down to the office and see if it was them, tho I have no idea why they would be banging on the door like that?\

Meanwhile, a newer tenant is blowing up my phone complaining about lot 10 throwing rice near their car. No clue. But, they keep texting so I told them I would ask the man if he did it and if so, to please stop. That wasn't enough, he has to go on and on - and on. Yes, sir, I get it, you are unhappy. Thank you for contacting me I will deal with it. 

The only other thing was a Hipcamp booking for lot 3 for tonight.  It isn't a lot of money but the temps are back down again so electric use will be small. I'd rather make a few less dollars than getting nothing in on any given lot.  I will likely be having several lots empty out in the next month, but I'm leaving lot 3 open for now. Anyway, I'm getting off of here. Want to be ready to go for whenever the text comes that it's time to leave. 

 Monday - early

I don't know if I want to continue on with this.  This sleeping arrangement is miserable and I can't deal with it.

Last night, I went to sleep at 8:30, I was going to try to make it until 9 but tht just didn't happen....

In a very deep sleep, like the kind you probably wouldn't wake up from for many more hours at least, my senses jar me awake.  I hear this banging noise. Almost scary, I don't know if there are people trying to break in or what? It was very loud and incessant. 

Half awake, I finally got up and went to find out what is going on?  I thought maybe another driver showed up for training and they couldn't figure out the keypad to get in.

Walking out of my room, dazed and still not fully awake, I go to the door. No one there, banging continuing.  I then realize it's inside door that comes from a set of inside stairs - going where I don't know. The outside on the bottom floor?  The office? The laundry room?  At this point I understood that it wasn't a driver, it was a person either from the RV park or an RV coming late. 

The pounding went on for a while, I wasn't answering it, nothing I could do to help them and getting annoyed that they woke me out of a deep sleep. That noise eventually ended but the late night laundry?  People were literally in there until after midnight doing laundry. Bang bang bang, clink, clink, bang, etc.  Yes, I was awake for a long time after that. I have no idea how much sleep I got, but it wasn't much or enough. 

So you start adding this stuff up. $15 per day for food allotment, which apparently ended on Friday, tey took the card and said someone else will be needing it. The nearest grocery store is 16 miles away and they make it difficult to leave here. There is only one, very old, driver's vehicle and it's only available M-F 8:00 to 5:00.  Constant noise. Not just at night when you are trying to sleep, but kids screaming and playing right out the window. 

Old trucks. The newest one in their fleet is 2017 is what I was told.  Bring a sleeping bag, there are no sheets on the beds.  And whatever else I am forgetting atm, I am very tired.   Oh, no heat in this place.  My room is heated, the rest of this house has no heat, or if it does, they aren't turning it on, there is no thermostat anywhere up on this floor.  

I'm going to grind through this day, I"m up, had a cuppa, shaved, showered, dressed.  But I am going to contemplate whether I want to continue on with this.  There will be no goodbyes if I decide this place isn't right or even good for me. I'll just book a flight and get out of here.  If you think I'm joking, you may want to rethink that. It's pretty hard to go through 9-10 plus day constantly on the move without enough sleep and these people have created this sleepless nightmare with this setup they have here.

And it's not just being on the move, it's attempting to pay close attention to what is being taught and capture all of it in the memory banks.  

Heavy sleepers wouldn't have a problem with this, I am not anything even remotely close to being a heavy sleeper.  I was so tired last night, tho, it took a minute of that banging before I finally was forced to wake up. I had ear plugs in and the fan on to cancel/create noise to drown out the Interstate. Oh, yes, the interstate. Forgot about that one. 

It's only Monday and 5 full days of this, at least, before I can leave here?  With little sleep?  I dunno, 

It's supposed to rain all day long here today. It's raining right now and probably has been all night long.  

This has just turned into a miserable ordeal.  I'm too old to be treated like this, I can find another job, somewhere else.  It's weighing heavy on my mind.

With that, I am going to gather my things and get out of here, walk up to the yard and get in with my next ride.  

G'day

Edited: it’s pouring rain outside. No rain coat.