Monday - semi early
Strange dreams last night. Those kinds of dreams where there are people you know (my dreams rarely have anyone I know in them, they are almost always people I don't know, have never seen before or if I've seen them I certainly don't remember them) in odd circumstances. Just kind of woke up out of that and decided it was time to get the day rolling. I doubt I have many more days off after today, if any. Tuesday was their target, no guarantee of that but that was their decided restart day.
The grandma and the oldest boy are coming this week. And staying a week. This is the lady that is rude, short, obnoxious and interrupts anyone/everyone in the middle of a sentence. When called out on something, she never apologizes and I'm done with her. Obviously, James isn't done with her since it's his mother, I want nothing to do with her. Too many of these interactions with this person have led me to the point that I don't even want to be around the house when she's here. The idea that she is staying an entire week....
She also takes over the entire living room where she sleeps and starts dictating to the kids what they can and cannot do. We have had exchanges about that as well. When James and Taylor leave, they don't ask me to watch the kids. This is normal around here that I watch them when they leave, but when she's here? No, she takes over. It was a while back that I decided I didn't care if she thinks she's the boss and just started doing my normal thing, something she doesn't like. She's on a power trip and wants control of those kids to the point they come running whenever she calls out loudly throughout the house.
She did that a while back and I just kept the kid with me for a few minutes to see what would happen. She yelled his entire name, which is when I got up and walked out there and informed here he was with me. She could hardly stand it. I live here, she does not. She has this idea that she is going to build a big house and we are all going to go live in it -under her roof. NO thank you. If that day ever comes, I will have a tough decision to make, for I am not going to be under her "law" and "rules" in her house. I didn't sign up for that and I want nothing to do with it.
She admitted quite some time ago to Taylor/James that she is jealous of my relationship with the 2 that live here. Yes, well that's pretty obvious. Going around being a mini-dictator and trying to somehow brush me out of the picture isn't the way to go about having a closer relationship with those kids. She is grandma and blood related, so there is that, but you can't expect to have the same closeness to a person when you live 3-1/2 - 4 hour drive away and show up here and there compared to a person that actually lives in the same house. Hence, she wants to move down here and set up shop. I feel like I best start making moves to have some kind of dwelling place over at the property. Hence another reason to build or have built a large barn. 40X16 - at least.
A portion of it made into a living space with an open floor plan replete with full kitchen and bathroom. Nothing fancy, but a complete setup. I don't want to move from here, not at all. But if there is writing on the wall, it's trying to tell me to be prepared. I have property, I have a place to build, get it done. That isn't going to happen overnight, so I have time. In fact, her hubby doesn't want to move down here at all, I suspect from the verbiage I have heard in the past that her moving here wouldn't occur until he passes away, if, indeed, he does pass first.
So, that is on my list of things to do. Even better would be a barn with 2 stories. Bottom floor, workshop, entire top floor, living area. A couple of bedrooms, a large bathroom and kitchen and the rest living area. But that would cost a lot of money since I know I couldn't build such a thing myself. I could attempt a single floor building, 2 stories is out of my league.
Just not looking forward to her coming and staying that long. She just had all 3 kids for 10 days, what on earth does she need to stay down here that long for? They seem powerless to do anything about her. She does what she wants and unless you stand up to her, you are one of her subjects. Yes, it's that bad. It's been that bad for a long time, it wasn't an untenable situation until there was a court battle for the oldest boy and visitation rights were established. The boy is also a total mess. I won't get into the details, it's private stuff that doesn't need to be floating around on the internet.
Her, however, I have no problem discussing here. Because it affects me greatly. I suppose I could get a 5th wheel over at the park for personal use. Park it behind the shed and would have to run 50 amp electrical over there. Money I don't have, a bridge I may have to cross. If I ever had to move out of here, I would likely sell the park and move elsewhere. Nothing keeping me here. Again, this is a possible scenario but one that I have certainly run around in my mind on numerous occasions. Especially when she is showing up for an extended stay. I'm not really the loner type, living alone has no appeal to me whatsoever. Find a woman, lmao. I've had real luck in that department lol.
Well, one thing here. She has toned it down recently. We don't really even talk to each other now. I stay away from her and I don't want any interaction. If/when she decides she isn't royalty that needs to be bowed down to, perhaps things can change. Maybe.
I think I'll shut that off for now, in my mind that is. She's coming, she's staying, I have no say in the matter, if I did I would tell her to get a hotel. She doesn't need to be taking over the entire damn living room and I'm not the only one that thinks that way.
Going to get ready for the day instead. Go get the trailer, get the asphalt stuff - I don't want that stuff in my SUV, hence the trailer - and probably a couple more bags of grass seed.
Back on keto. The gut has grown too large, shirts/pants starting to not fit too well, I'm on a cycle of weight on, weight off that I don't much care for. I went off keto for quite a while and now I'm paying for it. Don't care that much, just that this diet is so strict. Thanksgiving will be an excuse to get off of it for one day, that's it. Ill eat my potatoes, pies and whatever else we are having. Actually, we are doing "Friendsgiving" with a total of 19 people in the house. That's on the Saturday after Thanksgiving. I don't even know if I'll be able to be here or not.
Actually, I am on a fast right now. Like, eat-nothing type of fast. And nothing to drink beyond water, coffee in the morning to keep from getting withdrawal headaches. It's keto kick start, plus helps with other things. It's the fastest way to get back into ketosis.
Anyway, I'm going to finish what I'm doing and get outta here, get that driveway at least partially done.
G'day
