I'm going to see my mom within the next 30 days and hopefully not too late.  I dunno if she has a day, week, month, year whatever to live.  She is pushing me to come get the truck, but I think she just wants to see me, as I also want to see her.  Might be the last time I see her in this earthly realm.  She offered the truck a couple of years ago as part of my inheritance after she passes, apparently she wants to take care of that now.  I dunno, it'll be nice to have a pickup, yes, but the means of getting it means another person's demise. 

In this case, her eyesight is going out.  I had no idea, the last time we talked she said she had 20-20 vision from all the stuff the eye doctors did.  I have no idea what happened between then and now, I will just wait to ask her in person.  I just have to figure when.  I'd like to just go on Memorial Day weekend, it would be a one way ticket since I'm driving back, perhaps the ticket won't be quite as expensive?  I dunno, I think I have enough credit card points to cover airfare.  

This isn't really a good time for me in case I'm coming off any other way.  Felt like a gut punch once she started talking the way she was today. It wasn't that she was down or anything, it's just that it's obviously getting close to the end.  She didn't say that the docs gave any timeline, they just told her she needed brain surgery, the bubble would end up doing - something I guess at some point and that would be the end of it.  

My son called her today after I informed him the news of what's going on and he had a good conversation with her as well.  This isn't, however, one of those times where I can put off a visit until the next-of-never, it must happen soon, at least in my thinking.  

These trips aren't particularly expensive if I incline myself to keep it that way.  Airfare covered, I don't have hotel expenses and I don't have travel expenses in town beyond an Uber to her house from the airport and an Uber back.  

Anyway, it's getting late and I am getting up at 5:30 am so I am getting offa here. Just got back a little bit ago from soccer practice, both boys went. The younger just likes to go and find other kids to play with, the older has the practice and the coach is really trying hard to teach them the science of how to win games versus what happened last game on Saturday. They just haven't quite gotten it through their heads that you don't all just bunch up in a group where the ball is traveling, you keep yourselves spread out and once one of your team mates gets the ball, he/she can kick it across field or up ahead to someone waiting.

They just kept getting bunched up last time and the other team took advantage of it.  Now, the other team is in a youth traveling league and it's highly competitive, the kids on our team are all new to the game or maybe have a year of soccer from the last season under their belts.

Well, I just don't feel like writing right now.  

 Well.

When your mother tells you that her health is in a slide, you listen.  She is not one to complain about her ailments and health issues.  She wouldn't even say something about it unless it was something serious.

When she told me today that she is giving me the truck now and that, indeed, her health is in decline, I have no choice but to come to the conclusion that she may be in her final days among the living on this planet.  She's well up there in years.  

So, I'm planning a trip very soon back to AZ.  There is nothing else as important to me in this world than my mother.  I want to see her before she passes on.  She isn't laying on a death bed, she is home and dealing with it, but the writing is on the wall.  I will fly out there, spend a few days visiting and then drive back.  

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The new people decided that they were going to take half a dozen trash bags out of the shed today and have nearly used up an entire roll of paper towels. Note that a roll of paper towels in there usually last weeks if not a month, they don't get used that much.  They were also hanging out in there and that's when I said enough and contacted her about it.  They brought back the bags and left the shed post haste.  Sorry, but I gave specific instructions when they first came in and were already pushing it well beyond the line.  

I mean, I'm basically doing them a favor giving them a place to stay, quite cheap, while they figure out what they are going to do, but I have determined I am not going to let them stick around indefinitely.  

I've got one lot available atm and another coming available at the end of the week as the family of 3 have found a house to rent out and yes, they needed to get their space back. It's a pretty small trailer that they've been staying in for quite a long time now.  I don't blame them. Just makes it a challenge to get all of these spots re-rented in such a short period of time.  

I was stuck at the plant today 3-1/2 hours. They again decided to preload a truck at my appointment time.  As in, they started loading it a half hour after I arrived. There was no way to back into the bay where I load for that bay they were using blocks it.  After they finally got it loaded, they were having a problem with a valve so it was another hour plus to get that fixed and then they started loading the trailer.

I just don't appreciate this company I am working for and I've never seen a plant put their trucks ahead of outside trucks that have a set appointment time - all to preload their truck first. Like, that truck isn't even going out anywhere after they load it....

I need to make up my mind about a tractor. Do it or dump it out of my mind, it's been occupying too much space in my mind for some time now, I need to get that dealt with.  

And I don't really have anything else to say right now.  

 Monday semi-early

I do, indeed, have a run today. Well, at least until they tell me something different.  

Pro Hamas protesters around the country on our college campuses, spewing anti-Semitic filth and acting out like idiots.  Colombia university protesters want the university to "divest" from doing any business with Israel at all.  :You look at the information that is coming out now with eyewitnesses that were there when Hamas killed 1,200 innocent Israeli citizens...and raped and tortured even more.  You also find out that some of these protesters have no connection at all with the universities they are protesting at. 

Why are we negotiating with these people?  

Anyway, I don't have a lot of time here, I was writing an entry yesterday and completely spaced it.  The new tent people...the jury is still out.  I took them to the store yesterday, they were hungry, had nothing left to eat and no transportation. That is a big red flag to me.  People without transportation usually start trying to get others in the park to take them places.  My thoughts also tend to gravitate towards the possibility of theft.  I don't think the mother is a thief, the kids? Who knows.

I've been off work for 5 days and that's hopefully over for a while? Yea, who knows with this company.  If I don't get a good 8 days in a row of work going here I'm going to have to start talking again.   I was waiting this thing out to see what would happen after the pay raise.  However, the plant is up and running and loads are being picked up and delivered to it.  

I don't have to go to the washout today, hence I'm still sitting here and got up later than normal on purpose.  

I guess I best be getting out of here, tho, it's a quarter after 7 and I want to be in Lufkin at around 9:30 am. 

G'day