Tuesday. I'm totally worn out. 2 early load times in a row has taken it out of me.  To get anything done around the house today would be stretching it. Not to mention James mom and step dad are here and are pretty much running everything.  I'm pretty much decided to just do the bare minimum today and rest, cause I'm being sent back out tomorrow. If my manager gives me yet another early load time, I'm going to be forced to have to say something about it. There are plenty of other drivers, let them have that fun as well.

The difference between the 1st load and 2cd in terms of how I feel the rest of the day is substantial. It's only an hour and a half difference, but that difference determines whether I'm going to be feeling good or feeling like hell.

I called the dealer today and got a "we should have an answer about what's wrong with it by the end of the morning".  Well, IMO, they should have had that done yesterday.  Did they put me off? Did they put other customers above this?  Do they know what's wrong (ie: bad transmission) and not wanting to deal with it?  Why didn't they diagnose it yesterday?  I didn't get into all of that, I played it cool and just said ok, thanks.  I'm still somewhat convinced that it isn't going to need a new transmission since it worked fine the next day.  It doesn't slip, it just decides it isn't going to work. Like an electronic actuator not working properly or something electrical.

Of course, that could be a nightmare determining what's wrong in and of itself.

I was looking at my latest paycheck.  Even with all the time I have taken off here and there without pay, I have still grossed $40,000 this year and we're only half way done with it.  Near the end at Ferguson, I wasn't even making that much yearly.  I have 10% going to 401k which has already accumulated a huge amount considering the short period of time.  I do not, however, have any access to it. I mean, there is access but I have no URL to visit whatever site and credentials to get into it. I want to up it to 15% and look at what level of risk it's in.  At least, as long as I'm here.  I still haven't decided whether to roll over my 401k from Ferguson, mostly only because I haven't decided on whether I'm staying.

However, from a logical standpoint, it stand to increase much more with more money in it.  I've also got almost $100 per week being automatically transferred into a savings account.  That is, for now, emergency savings backup.  If/when it hits around 10k, I'll think about other things that it could be used for.  Actually, I think I might up that to $150 per week, I'm interested in having reserve cash around in case anything happens.  After that, I can really focus on bringing down debt.  I'm doing some of that now, but not anywhere near the point I want to be at with it.

I suppose I should just be happy with the money and leave it at that and stay at this place but there are 2 things that bug me.  First is the truck situation. The truck I am driving now has an issue that has been in the shop twice for and has yet to be fixed.  When this issue comes on the screen - it comes and goes - the cruise control doesn't work. My leg hurts at the end of the day holding that accelerator down all day long.  Yet, when I have taken it into the shop, they say "could not duplicate" the issue, so they don't do anything.  In other words, all of that disappears off the screen - yet the codes show there IS a problem.

I'm very tired of that.  This is what happens with newer trucks that get a lot of miles on them.  Issues, unending issues.

The second thing is I like to be home every night and off weekends.  I have grown somewhat accustomed to this lifestyle and frankly, Ann has been keeping me on overnight and 2 night runs for a while, so that's better. But this idea of working most Sundays gets old. It's ingrained into my mind and apparently my system that Sundays are a day off, not a day to spend 14 hours working and driving in a truck.  Last weekend I had Saturday off and Sunday on.  2 weekends ago I worked the entire weekend through Monday or Tuesday I think. I just fight in my mind with this stuff.  Do I deal with it or move on?

Perhaps my dad's advice of stick with something for at least a year really does apply here.  Do it a year, if you have the same sentiments after that year is up, no loss, move on to something else.  I think I'm about 7 months into this place, a long way to go to reach a year. After a year I would qualify to purchase one of their trucks through their program and stand to make a ton more money.  That is a long  ways off. It's on the outer reaches of my mind tho.  I'm really tired of being broke - well I'm not broke now but I was at Ferguson and using credit to survive.  I've bought numerous things that I have put off for a long time now and still saving quite a good chunk of change while doing it.

Well, I'm going to work tomorrow, that's what's here and now. And I'm doing much of nothing today.  Things I need to do, yes,, like a visit to Walmart, but nothing imperative that I can't go without.  I'm concerned what's going on with the SUV, but that's in their hands. I have no decisions to make until they tell me what's wrong with it - or better - it was something not too pricey and they just fixed it without demanding payment.  I kinda had to clear my mind of that for that man's words were really eating me about "we're not going to replace a transmission" on a vehicle I just purchased and only drove 200 miles before it died. That speaks to me of a pre-existing condition.  Whether they knew about it or not is unknown.

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So tomorrow is Cheniere.  A place I love to hate.  She hasn't sent me there in a while and I haven't missed it.  The load time is late - 11 am - so I won't even get down there until around 6 pm.  If it goes like last time, I will be unloading late at night and then, even if I have hours available, I won't want to drive anywhere excepting to get out of that area and get to a place where I can fuel and get a cup of coffee the next morning.  No, I'm confusing two places. Last time I was down there I had no hours left to drive anywhere and I had to drive out of the complex and park in the parking lot across the street for the night for the mandated 10 hour break. 

Welp, it's getting late and I think I'm going to hit the sack. No early rise but still want a good night's sleep if that's possible.