Woke up this morning - in Brownsville of course - got hooked up to the trailer and took off. Developed a headache.  Nothing brain killing but it went on throughout the day. I slept well last night, but I didn't get enough sleep - that because of the night before and getting 3 hours of sleep. That's the kind of thing that can mess with me for days. 

Well, this thing nagging at me, I forced myself to drive to the yard, get the truck unhooked from the trailer, do my paperwork and email it through the scanner in the office and then? I went into the still running truck and went to sleep for a while . No, I did not head home, I had to get a nap, it was getting bad. 

But....I was in the office with another driver and he was griping endlessly about the work situation. He's been there a long long time.  He was complaining about our manager - and yes, there are legitimate complaints. But he clued me in on some of the stuff she does that is ridiculous.  It's way too much for me to type in tonight, maybe some other time, just that she is really absent minded. I have noticed this for a while now.  You say something to her, she forgets and does something different than what you asked.  She has a really bad memory.  Even the people at the loading plant have issues with her memory issues.  

But the thing that really got me going? This driver told me she was interviewing a person to become another driver! What the hills full of dog crap sand is this? We don't need any more drivers! AT ALL!!!!  We literally do NOT need a single driver, we need to get rid of some drivers.  "Well, he's only going to do the Baker run". Who cares? The Baker run isn't a gold mine but it's good enough if there is nothing else going on. Far better than Cheneire and the casino - when the impulse hits me - is on the way back.  Note I didn't say on the way up. It is on the way up, but that run you go up to Baker, drop and hook, and the make it back to the casino that night.  

I'm just leaving my options open at the moment.  I want to see if she will keep me busy after having a conversation with her about it, but I suspect this has nothing to do with her and everything to do with switching over to a new company.  If I'm not on track to making a minimum of 75k this year, I will be finding greener pastures.  

Two days off - starting tomorrow.  I don't want 2 days off. At most, right now, with my financial situation, one day at most.  I'm really ready to go back out tomorrow morning. That isn't going to happen but that's where I'm at. I will text my manager on Monday morning - when am I going out again? I will probably escalate this tho. Why are we all sitting around for days at a time and you are allegedly hiring more drivers?  Fear of an employer has never been a problem, tho I respect her as a person she is a very nice lady.  But nice doesn't pay the bills....

So what am I going to do for 2 days? I have no idea.  There's plenty of housework to do.  I really need to get my 4 wheeler fixed and take it out down at the Sabine river and do some riding.  

But.....the situation with Rene? UNBELIEVABLE.  She started texting me last night about how evil I am that I let Jeff "stay" because "all you care about is getting the rent paid". Notwithstanding the fact that she agreed to let Jeff stay, without any input from me about it, saying they had worked it out and hence, all would be fine, over two freaking months ago. She was drunk and called me a "jackazz" at least a dozen times. I maintained my composure excepting to tell her she is drunk - several times actually. Because she was totally pissing me off.  I've bent over backwards helping this person, seriously and literally have done everything in my ability to help her out - and this is the thanks I get? Screw that.  I blocked her on my phone eventually, she wasn't going to shut up and I wasn't going to have anything to do with it. 

It got bad enough that I asked James to go over there and get my dogs.  And that he did.  He went straight over there, got them and brought them home.  Yes, they would watch my dogs while I"m gone, no, I really don't want to do that to them, they have enough on their plates.  Tho, James absolutely loves Addler.  He rough houses with Addler all the time.  Gets Addler into a headlock and eventually gets Addler on the ground lol.  No, there is no pain or animal abuse, thanks.  It's playing, but Addler is a tough dog, that boy can handle some stuff.  Not that James is hurting him in any way.  Just to say that they are in very good hands. 

And, Rene declared she was leaving for Michigan.  Okay, Bon Voyage!! Hasta luego, taco baby!  Don't let the get shove your ass the rest of the way out when you leave! No, I didn't say any of that, but it came to mind sitting there reading endless texts condemning me as the devil himself. 

No good deed goes unpunished. Try to help people in life? Sometimes you see positive results, other times, definitely not so much.  But per the former, Mark and Lynnette are a good example of helping people and them? Helping themselves after getting their lives back in order. 

Whatever. I've had enough of her.  

And...it's late. I went off to a hotel to sit and think about things. Away from driving endlessly on the road and away from a noisy house where such meditation may not be impossible, but not exactly likely when the kids are going off.  It wasn't the most affordable thing to do in light of current situation at work, but it was definitely the right thing for me. Time to go to sleep.