I was soooo tired yesterday.  Driving was a chore.  Moreso than usual when I'm tired and still have hundreds of miles to go.  It is highly likely I will never do the Houston trip - which was the previous trip before this one - like that again.  Getting up that early just messes with my head and takes days to recover from.  Drive down there the day before or convince the manager that yes, they don't care if we show up later because of their demands.  They weren't even ready to take the load off when I got down there. Their tank was at 150 psi, that's about 100 pounds of pressure too high for me to open the valves and start letting liquid out. I only mention the Houston trip because it was still messing with me yesterday and that was days ago. 

I can't even go into what the rednecks at the plant I was at yesterday were saying about BLM.  A bit racist, putting it mildly, replete with N bombs.  They asked me if I knew what dan means.  Dan?  Dumb Ass n******.  Uhh, yea, sorry, that isn't amusing. But, no one said there isn't any racism going on in this nation. I just don't believe it's near as bad as the media would like to portray it.  But then again, who knows?  People like this two, 50's aged white male adults I was talking with yesterday could be more prevalent than I believe.  It's Alabama, tho, that's the south, probably more of it in that region than other regions of the US.

No, I'm not naming them or calling their company and trying to have them fired.  They can believe whatever they want, I don't have to agree with it but I don't believe in destroying people's lives because of it.  This cancel culture was born out of the pit of hell and I'm not going to engage in it.  I can guarantee  you that if I did call the company and filed a complaint, those two dudes would be immediately fired.  Providing I was believed, of course.  It's a very large corporation and they have a name and reputation to sustain.  I could go on social media, find pics of these two guys, post them on Reddit or Twitter or wherever it works and call them racists and then see their - lives destroyed.

This is what is going on in America right now.  The Cancel Culture.  It's an immediate effect, as anyone that follows the news knows full well.  A bunch of spoiled little devils that weren't reprimanded or spanked when they were kids grew up and here's what we got. The participation trophy holders, envious, selfish, little brats.  You offended me! I'm going to get you fired!  There's a reason I don't have my current company I work for posted anywhere  on the internet.  I think I took a pic of me and the truck and posted it somewhere that I need to find and get rid of it. These people don't care if your life is ruined.

Back to these two guys. Racism is bad.  I fully agree with that, based on the Bible and God's principles, not some earthly concept.  But - so is a lot of other stuff people do.  People that are otherwise "law abiding" citizens, got some "stuff" going on.  I'm not going to spend my life going around trying to find the skeletons in people's closets. We've all got them and we all should probably have a bit more humble attitude towards others whose skeletons aren't in a closet, they're out in the open.  These guys must have figured I would agree with them, because they full know the aftermath of what would happen if they were exposed.

I'm just saying all of that because I gave a lot of thought to that when i was driving back yesterday - 10 plus hours of driving gives plenty of thinking time lol. I grew up in racism, I know how these guys think and why they think it. When I submitted my life to the Lord, my thinking changed.  Dramatically.  God is the Creator, we are the Creation. All skin colors, all nations of the earth. 

Well anyway, daddy left about 30 minutes ago with the boys.  Mom wanted time off from the kids.  She loves her kids, but she gets really annoyed with them.  They are young and they are very needy at that age.  Dad went to an old friend's place about an hour's drive from here, they are going to spend the next 2 days there. The 5 year old told me he's sorry he's leaving and informed me that he misses me when I leave.  I thought it odd they were separating like that for a few days, but then again, sometimes that's healthy, I think, for a couple after they've been together so long and especially now when hours are low and they are home together a lot.  I dunno, whatever works.  I was going to leave myself after finding this out today, I assumed she was having lady friends over. 

Nope, she said, I want alone time.  However, that alone time apparently doesn't mean that I am not going to be involved with it lol.  She restarted Keto, so dinner tonight.  Then she wants to go swimming so can I help take the cover off the pool?  Sure.  I'm not swimming tho, don't really feel like it. Oh, we carefully take the cover off the pool now to make sure the leaves and junk that has accumulated on it don't end up in the pool, thusly defeating the purpose of having a cover.

And then asked if I had any plans tomorrow.  Nope, I'm happy to be home a few days.  We're friends, mind you, this isn't anything sexual at all.  Just saying that because I know how some people think.  But we are good friends, pretty close as friends go.  I don't know what her mind was on that, but I suspect going out to eat somewhere is on the list.  I wouldn't mind going out to eat, but I'm not cheating again.  After the last cheat? No thanks.  It takes too long to lose the weight.  I'm down to 211 this morning after checking, that's going in the right direction, finally.  I decided today that I wouldn't cheat again until I'm at 200 pounds.  And after that, no cheats until 195 pounds. And after that, probably 190 and then? I'm good.  190 is 34 or maybe 33 pant waist size. Good enough. 

Uhhh, like 8 hours later, lol.  Got distracted with James getting the kids and rushing around everywhere to get everything and pack it in his truck. 

I'm going to Brownsville early Sunday, that's all I have left to say here, lol. Tomorrow off.