I am so tired.

I got in here at this hotel around 2:00 am, got to bed quickly and slept very well.  

But I woke up groggy and out of it.  

I then started thinking about my 11:30 departure.  If I leave then, it will be the middle of rush hour traffic in Houston.  

I just don't have that in me today.  Not after that grueling drive last night.  My dispatcher got me 2 days here for a reason - so I wouldn't have to be rushed out of here and I'm going to take advantage of it.  I won't leave here until 12:30 at the earliest and at least let some of that horrid traffic die down a bit by the time I get there.

I'm just sitting here in a daze. These late night drives are just not my cup of tea. 

I don't complain about it tho. Not yet anyway, tho they have been dumping them on me a lot more than in the past.  The new dispatcher, I dunno who is saying what into her ears, but drivers tend to complain about everything, whining like little babies.  

But when you do that, you can also get - treated like that.  I just try to stay on dispatch good side and do whatever they ask of me without questioning it.  They did ask me last night if I was planning on delivering last night or the next day? They don't like to hear "the next day". That adds 10 hours plus however much longer it takes for you to get down there. 

Not to mention I'm in a day cab, I can't just pull over anywhere and go to bed.  They got me this hotel down here yesterday, sent me the info and that was my motivation to complete the drive.

The news yesterday, on a different note, wasn't exactly good.  The septic install company called and went through a whole list of things they could do to help me get the project completed.  Septic, electric, water, even clearing the land and making the lots.  

Yeah, I thought, what's the price tag for all of that? 

Well, I did get a ball park for septic and it was not what I wanted to hear.  I was hoping in the 16-20k range, he said they have done many RV parks and just got through doing a 30 hook up lot for another place.  Oh? I wondered how many people are building RV parks around here?  What kind of competition am I in for?  That isn't going to stop me, but money could.

He said based on that 30 lot install, I am wanting 25 to start out with, it would cost around 26k.

I'm pretty sure I gasped, involuntarily, over the phone.  

If sewer costs that much, how much is it going to cost to get electric in there? I wondered but not out loud.  This is just for 25 spaces, not the full park's worth. So basically, there is truth to the idea that a 75 to 80 site park would cost me somewhere in the 80 to 90k range.  

Let's just say that wasn't the most pleasant of news and got me to wondering how much this entire set up at only 25 spaces would end up costing me and if it would be just better to get the whole thing done.  Meaning all of that nonsense filling out all of those forms and paying a company to do all of that work to give projections and estimates. 

When you don't know what to do, don't do anything.  At least in a scenario like this.  The water is already installed and I will find out how much to at least get power to the park.  I mean, if I never build a park on there, I am still going to want electricity to do something else.  Such as buy old mobiles, install them, fix them up and rent them out.  What's the difference? A lot less hookups for one.  No one has to be on site 2.  Less money is the end result, less revenues but a lot less hassle as well.

That would be plan B, a plan I am not currently interested in, but it's there, on the shelf, if it comes down to it.  Hide them in the woods, neighbors won't have to see any of it, lol. There are, actually, old and trashy looking mobile homes on the street. Not many of them but there are a few and they don't look good.  

Plan C would be to do nothing with the property on a commercial basis and just look forward to eventually building a cabin in the rear of the property and call it done, drive trucks for the rest of my life or as long as my health holds out and deal with it.  

Building a cabin on the rear of the property at some point in the future is actually something I would like to do regardless of any commercial operation at the front of the property.  There is a lot of room between the two.  Which would, in my mind, make it essential to at least put up 5 or more mobiles and say here ya go, maybe put in 5 or so RV lots for permanent use, not the kind of operation I am wanting to build.

I'm not giving up, lol, but the reality is that this operation I want to get going even on a small basis is going to cost far more than I anticipated and I would have to come up with some serious cash in loans and also have some reassurances in my mind that once it's done, the thing is going to take off and fill up. 

And that, might be hard to do without amenities such as a pool or a bath house.  

I feel lethargic right now.  No energy, just blaaaah.  Like, I could just go back to bed and sleep for 3 more hours.  

But, it's daylight, I am going to take a shower and I am going to force myself out of here.

G'day