Tuesday - night

Today was a bit rough.  Fasting that is.  I almost didn't make it through it.  I was weak, tired and hungry.  Last time I did this I don't remember feeling this bad on the second day.  I got up eeeeaaarrrrlllyyyy again, 3 am to be precise, got up there early but the product wasn't coming out particularly fast.  It took an hour and 42 minutes to offload, significantly longer than any previous loads and I had thought some of those loads were taking forever to drain out.  

By the time I got home, I just went to my bed and passed out.  Not for too long, maybe half an hour. After that? It was someone cooking chili, permeating the entire house with that wonderful smell. Endless ads for food this and fast food that.  It's amazing how food you would normally turn your nose up at? You'll eat in a heart beat if you could.  The finished chili was the real tough one.  I just wanted a bowl of it. Just ... one...bowl.

But, I thought, I have made it this far, I just want to go through until tomorrow dinner and then end the fast.  That will put me a few hours short of 3, 24-hour periods which is fine.  

Safe to say I've made it through today, no way would I just blow it off now that it's almost bed time. Tomorrow morning? I dunno, I'll face that when it comes.  Lord willing that tomorrow comes, you just never know in this life.  

I did nothing on the property today, I had no energy even tho it was so beautiful outside.  I'm looking towards the future, if I am to live any length of time and preferably without Alzheimer's which runs in my family lines, I'm going to take measures now to reduce the risk of it and cancers and other things.  Yes, if you do your research, you'll find that prolonger water fasting can help reduce the risk of all of that and more.  

Oh, and that dog.  He decided this morning to pee on the end of my bed while I was taking a shower. I know this because I walked up to the bed end after taking a shower to lay out my clothing and my feet were in wet carpet.  I looked down and sure enough, that dog had peed on the bed and it dribbled down to the floor.  He was immediately ejected to the great outdoors and he spend the entire day out there, only bringing him in a little while ago. 

What would possess that dog to do something like that I have no idea.  I do know in the mornings, when I go into the bathroom to shower, he wanders around the room. That will be no more, he will be going straight outside and I guess I'll have to get a giant kennel to put him in whenever he needs to be left in the house.  Last thing I wanted was to take up more of this room with more stuff.

Oh and the other thing.  I was feeling a bit euphoric today. That is a possible side effect of ample amounts of dopamine being released while doing a water only fast.  That felt good - while it lasted lol.

I didn't feel like rummaging through trash today tho I was tempted to.  The dumpster is completely full and I know my guests don't ever fill it up that high during a normal week excepting in some cases when people leave and apparently decide to dump everything in their trailer.  Once I start putting in new lots, I will have to get a larger dumpster and then, I will have to figure out a place to put it that is somewhat away from trailers but close enough to walk to it - AND - not even possible for people who live on the street to commit theft of services and dump their trash into my dumpster.  I've pretty much decided to put it next to the shed, there aren't really many other places to put it.  

If I ever get to Phase III, I will be out of land after that.  The gas lease is back there and stops anything from going further back unless I want to start something new behind the least - of which there is around 700,000 square feet of woods, trails and whatever else.  I would love to build a house back there.  Out of the question for now.  

The only other option for land is next door, totally undeveloped land but the owner apparently isn't interested in selling. Lots of people have tried to contact the man, he doesn't even respond to them.  

Anyway, it's time to go to bed. At least I don't have to get up at 3.