Ssaturday - early

I've got to take this load to Arkansas, offload it and then I'm off until at least monday.  A lot of jacking around with the schedule has occurred and a lot  of nothingness in the communication department has also occurred to the point I had to force the issue. 

Basically, I could have taken the early load today because I forced the issue. What I didn't know about the early load is that the manager changed it  from having to arrive at 8 am to having to arrive at 7 am.  He caters to this new driver, gives him priority and preferential treatment.  I most certainly got into it with the manager about this s*** yesterday and I didn't care the outcome at that point.  The manager didn't communicate with his dispatcher of whom he had directed days earlier to give me the option to either load on Thursday or load on Friday.

Because of the way I felt - physically not emotional - I do not regret loading yesterday but the whole thing blew up in my face because of the ridiculous way they run this company.  

I get these glimpses of what another job would be like, I just feel like it's so much energy and time and starting at the bottom all over again that I don't want to do it.  And yet, at some point, they will probably push me too far and I'll just show up with the truck in their yard, park it and leave. Permanently.  

To help the poor or not, that isn't really a question. Jesus wants us to help the poor but the question is, how far do you go with it? When the poor are living at your RV park and they are lying to you about paying rent and dragging and stretching it out month  after month, where do you draw the line?  When do you say ENOUGH WITH THE LIES< GET YOU AND THAT THING OUT OF MY PARK!  

I knew getting into this that the mentality of people who do not prioritize rent will be the same whether it's renting rooms in a house or renting a spot in an rv park.  If you give them an inch, they'll take far more than a mile.  To the point that I'm really struggling with this issue of how to treat the poor respectfully and still run a business.  After all the bs and the person telling me she would pay yesterday? I was driving into my park in the truck yesterday and they were dragging that thing out of there.  

And they left an absolute mess. They had installed a sand box for the grandchild that was visiting fairly frequently - they took the sand box but they spread the sand over a 20 foot section.  Instead of removing it like they said they would, the spread it out. I have about a 6 inch thick covering of sand now.  I was looking at the blocks, the wood and all of the sand and got fairly angry.  Help people out and they screw you up the @$$.  

I'm still a but peeved but I've had to let the anger go.  It's not helping me and they don't care. I tried to contact them and text them and received nothing back, of course.  If I were to see that lady right now, it would not go over well, I would say things I would later regret saying. She goes to the same church I go to.  They claimed all this bs about getting caught up on the rent, I had my reservations but I gave them 3 more days.  Was it a mistake? In the sense of money, no, I had already shut off the electricity to the thing since they weren't staying there and were allegedly moving back in;. I didn't want to pay to cool a trailer that isn't being used. 

I've BEEN paying for that trailer to be cooled and heated for quite a while.  That's what led this situation to a head: pay me money.  

What I find amazing is the priorities people set. They would rather prioritize anything else over having a place to have a roof over their heads?  This is very strange thinking to me. IT used to be people would put their living arrangement first and then pay everything else as they could. Now? 

It's not been bad with some other people who needed time to get caught up. One retired couple needed help and I helped them and now they are paying back an extra $100 per month.  My rates are far from exorbitant by the way.

Well, enough of this for now.  It's time to go to work but I had to write something to get it off of my chest.  It's going to rain today and I want to get this stuff over with.

G'day