Wednesday - mid afternoon

The loading plant has not 1, not 2 but 3 new-hires learning how to load trucks.  So, it's taking longer to get loaded, a lot longer.  The flip side to that is when these individuals are fully trained - if they stick around that is - there should be no  "shortage" of loaders to deal with the sometimes larger amount of trucks coming in all at once.  I was here 2-1/2 hours today, ridiculous for sure, but there were fully 4 trucks waiting to get loaded and 1 just started getting loaded when I left.  

Yesterday, I was approaching the septic service place north of the town I live in and thought, it would be good to just stop on the side of the highway, go in, fill out the paperwork and get that over with versus driving all the way back to my Park, get in vehicle and drive all the way back up there.  So I did.  I couldn't have been in there 5 minutes. The man just handed me forms to sign, said he'd fill in the rest, took a copy of my debit card to pay the $650 fee and that was that. It's sent to the sent for approval and then they can come out and install another system. 

So far, I've only found one person charging me $3,500 for 2 days worth of dozer application.  I just need to figure out a way to get it done without all of that expense.  It is likely that I could smooth out the new lots enough with the box blade on the tractor and just  ensure there is enough gravel to smooth out any rough spots.  Leave the rest of the area untouched for now, I just don't want to spend that kind of money on it.  I can't really afford to spend that much money on dozer work right now.  And I really think I can get away with that box blade set up.  The first 3 lots would be on already graded terrain anyway from the first install.  

Which reminds me, I need to find a 200 amp metered panel and a stand for it.  I know where to get the underground piping, there is a place that sells it maybe 2 miles from the park.  I also need to think about getting 3 pedestals.  I'm just sort of waiting for the approval for the septic first before I take any more monetary moves.  Let's not get the cart before the horse, but for stuff I don't know where to get from, I can at least get that accomplished by finding suppliers and getting pricing. So I will be working on that the next few days.  

Actually, I should be able to just find the part number and model of the main breaker boxes out there already on those boxes and get that going easily.  The stand I have no clue about, a trip to the local Elliot electric should help with that.  No, wait.  I don't need another stand for the first 200 amp breaker setup. I already have one that has room for another box on it.  That will save some money and time.  A breaker box with meter will probably be around $300.  Pipe and fittings for the first 3 lots will probably be around a grand. Make that 2 grand.  Pedestals are around $500 each, metered.  3 truck loads of gravel at $850 per load.  Rent a min ex for around $450 for one day's use.  $1,500 to have power line hooked to meter box.  

See how that all adds up? Quickly?  But the meter box and getting power to it is just one time, not for each lot.  It's still going to cost, regardless. 

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Very long interlude.  Got busy with stuff. Night time and bed time are here...

 Tuesday - early

Yesterday, I was supposed to go fill out the forms to get the septic system process started. Instead, I was stuck at that plant for 3-1/2 hours, waiting.  "I have to load a truck it'll take an hour" ended up taking 1-1/2 hours, then load then another hour to do paperwork.  Why? Because their system wasn't loading required information properly.  

Anyway, that's where that is stuck.  I have to go to Gurdon today but usually I'm home relatively early for that.  Right now, I am trying to find someone to do dozer work, I am going to get a quote from my contractor when he comes out to look at where to place the septic tanks.  

I've been finding it hard to get back into the pushup routine ever since I got sick - twice in a row.  I'm slowly getting back into it, but the idea of doing them somehow isn't that great.  Yet, the outcome wasn't bad at all, that's what will motivate me to get full fledged back into it again.  I just want to start doing them earlier which will make it more appealing. 

There isn't a lot else in my mind right now.  The idea of expanding the property has been occupying my mind since I decided I was going to go for it, do it as much by myself as possible and get this thing going the direction I want and need it to.  When you read about SS and it's alleged fate if Congress does nothing about it, there is a likelihood that it's going to run out of funding and then it's completely reliant on workers paying into it.

The problem is that there is a large number of baby boomers in the system, more than there are workers to fund it, according to the data I have read anyway.. So, you start looking at losing 25% of your payments every month.  I don't know how much I would get in payments, but whatever it is, I'm guessing it's not even enough in and of itself to pay for everything much less taking 25% off of it. This was the motivation to get into a business from the get-go.  

Get the operation up to around 50 or more lots, get them filled up, stop the trucking nonsense and just focus on the business from that point forth.  These 14 lots will get me up to 28.  14 more would get me close.  I guess the goal would be 56 with 4 septic systems.  That would probably be the end of it.  56 would be plenty of money after all expenses, employees and taxes.  I think, anyway, I'd need an accountant to review all of that, not there yet and no need for it - yet. 

Anyway, time to get ready to leave for work. Trucking work, that is.  Hopefully back early enough to get over to the contractor's office.

G'day. 

 Thursday - afternoon

Well that was a bit of a let down. 18 hours after I submitted the loan request, they rejected it.  I figured since it was taking them so long that that was a good sign. Apparently not.  I don't know if I want to try another loan company for I don't want a lot of hard hits on the credit score inquiries.  Doesn't look good, they say anyway, because they think you are desperate if you have too many of them.  I may have been asking for too much money for unsecured loan tho.  I'm thinking of going through the company that gave me a much smaller loan, at least I have a history with them.

I think, however, that that is almost meaningless to these loan companies.  

I'll think about that for awhile.

Meanwhile, the septic dude hasn't called back and I am getting nowhere with mowing companies that will do the work without charging a fortune.  

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Many hours later.  I texted the septic guy again. This time, if he wasn't going to respond, I'm going to start soliciting bids from elsewhere. This guy has the best reputation in the entire county, he's just so inundated daily with texts and phone calls he can't keep up with it.  It's good to be busy, but at the same time, you can piss your customers off to the point they go elsewhere. 

Well, he replied and said he'd give me the same system I already have at the same price.  Now, I got that system before all of this inflation crap hit everyone. I'm like wow!  I wasted 2 seconds and replied "let's do it".  That leaves me enough money to get the dozer work done, however that's going to happen....I figure when I get him out there to look at where this is going to go, I'm going to ask him what he'll charge me to level - well flatten - out the area. It isn't large by construction standards and shouldn't cost more than half a day, a day at most. 

If some dude is going to charge me $3,500 to do that work for a "couple of days", I might as well go with a trusted contractor who knows what the Hercules he's doing and with one of the best dozer operators I've ever seen in my life and I can tell ya, I've been to lots of construction sites and watched a lot of them doing their jobs.  The $3,500 dude is the one who gave me that quote a few days ago. I just balked at that.  

So, I think I have the  septic down.  Meaning, it's the first step and we're taking it.  Now let's add some spice to the dish.  James says the people that use him all the time for his handyman services are going on extended vacation this summer and he's going to need to find some extra work. I've got just the thing for him: ME!  James wants his money, of course, but he won't try to ream my with ridiculously high prices.  He's very fair, he's very efficient and he does a good job.  I don't need perfection but if I did, I'd pretty much turn to him. I don't really need the knowledge in this affair, I know what I'm doing, I need the extra hands. 

So I have determined, at least preliminary stage, that I can just line the main driveway with back in spots.  That could change, but right now? I doubt it.  Building another driveway would be costly.  Just the gravel alone is very expensive nowadays, it's absolutely amazing how much money they want for rocks.  

If you can't tell, I'm getting myself fired back up for the vision. The goal. The means to an end, the thing I need to get done before it's too late for me and I'm all worn out, can't do much of anything, age gets the grip and you are just sitting there wondering why you didn't do this, that and the other thing when you could have done it. I don't want to rely on social security. I don't trust the government to pay me every month and be totally dependent on it.  I'll take the damn money if it's available, I've worked many decades for it, but I want to be prepared for not government "handouts".  

There is a certain element of conservatives that call SS an entitlement, and so it may be..... on paper.  In a computer data base.  But in reality, you and I - well I am guessing you anyway - paid into that system for many, many decades and you sure as Hondon Hondurans want something back out of that stuff. Especially with the government spending trillions  of dollars on what amounts to more fraud, waste and abuse than it does helping anyone do much of anything! I want some of my money back just for the fact that the government is just doling out money for bulls***.  Make a contract, give it to some "company" and they do little or even nothing to "earn" their pay.  

Anyway, I'm kind of stoked right now about getting this party started. The Park that is.  That tractor is still there, I give the kid a monthly discount for the use of it. I'll be needing it for spreading rock.  It isn't enough to smooth out the land, it's just not a big enough blade and not enough weight to force the blade to stick with the same plane.  

Enough. Now that a quarter day has passed - I started this entry 9 hours ago and just stopped and kept coming back to it - I feel better. Yes, I was denied the loan, I looked into a few others. The best I could get was 19.99%.  That's ridiculous.  It's better than CC rates but it's still high. I mean, it would save me some money.  Sofi rejected me, I guess I should take a look and see why. Prosper rejected me because I already have a loan with them.  Accredited said yes - but to that 19.99% interest rate. I'm not through looking, as long as I don't get a hard hit to get an initial offer.  To my credit score that is.  I figured that since CreditKarma said my approval odds were outstanding and offering a $50 guarantee if rejected, I should get the loan.

Every time I've tried that with acquiring credit cards and personal loans in the past, it always worked.  Oh, I think Upstart offered me a loan, but it's not near enough and the outcome isn't worth it.  

I just realized I have second load tomorrow, I don't have to get up early!  I'll take the sleeping in when I can get it, I never ask for it tho. I'll take the early load just to get the day over with and have free time galore.  

 Wednesday- mid afternoon

So I was asking this dude off of Facebook Marketplace a price to go ahead and do the dozer work on my property.  I figure half a day will do it easily.  It's almost entirely just smoothing it out, we're not talking moving or bringing truckloads of dirt or anything beyond taking down a couple of burn piles and smoothing out the rest.  For a dozer, this will be an easy job.

I sent him pics of everything and then said it's approximately 1-1/2 acres.  His price? $3,500.  

He wants to drag it out several days and just milk the cow.  Well honey, my cow isn't completely full of milk at the moment, I'm just trying to expand my operation so I can get some  more money flowing in, save some of it so I can expand it further - etc.  I'm not paying that much money for such a small amount of work. I figured more like $1,500. So, my quest to either find a dozer to rent or one with an operator at a more reasonable price continues.  

Meanwhile, the septic contractor finally got back to me - just a few minutes ago actually. He's been out of town, he'll get me a quote tomorrow morning.  I intend on moving on this quickly. I want to try and get 3 lots in right off the bat - well within a month or two time anyway.  Everything takes time.

Getting the septic installed - time.  Finding a dozer - or a blade - time.  Getting a contractor out to install the meters - time.  Then me doing the trenching and installing pipe and wire - time.  It's the initial stuff that takes up the time, after you start trenching and running your lines/pipe, it goes much faster, the basic stuff is out of the way.  But as far as I'm concerned? I'm full tilt into this.  My "let's gooooo!" gear has been engaged, let's get this moving along.  A lot of this is going to start with how much they want for another septic. The same size/system I got 2 plus years ago is going to cost more today.  That was before inflation took off and pricing of everything skyrocketed.  

That's what is occupying my mind at this point.  I don't want a half-@$$ed setup, I want it right but it doesn't need to be fancy.  

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I've got that kid at the park asking what size I need? Dozer that is.  Umm, I dunno, not a huge one.

The application for a loan to pay off credit card debt is in. It's through CreditKarma and I get $50 if it's denied.  That's their guarantee. I really want this loan, dunno if I"ll get it. They asked for a lot of documents, all of which I sent to them immediately.  The interest rate is ok, good enough, the payment would dump almost $900 per month in outgoing payments and I would be in a much better place financially, plus my credit score would sky rocket.  

This is NOT debt relief. That is almost scammish in nature, a thing I have delved into on this blog previously. Basically, you don't make any credit card payments to any of your creditors, the money instead goes into an account where after it's built up enough, the debt reduction company makes an offer to a cc company for half or less of what is owed in exchange for cash. 

But meanwhile, your creditors are breathing down your back.  They try to tell you that all calls will go to them. All well and fine if that's true, but the fact is: you are screwing your creditors and your credit score will tank drastically and probably stay down there for a long time to come. 

No, this is just a flat out loan.  It's 5 years, yes, but I would be paying off those cards indefinitely.  I mean, who knows how long it would take at skyrocketed interest rates?  I won't go too much more into this now, I don't know if I'll be approved. 

Enough. Time for bed. 

 Tuesday - early afternoon

First off, the unload went faster than it has in a quite a long time. 46 minutes and that trailer was emptied out of 45,000 pounds of liquid resin (glue).  The drive home was a bit longer for I-30 had construction going on that had the lanes showing red on both Google and the other map I have on my phone. I took the scenic route which saved a lot of time but still took longer.

At this point in time, I have almost convinced myself to say screw the giant loan, get the septic system and start installing lots one at a time until I have 14 more in there, however long that takes. And yes, it would take quite some time, but I wouldn't be in a huge amount of debt doing it.  I'd say give it a year to finish it since I don't have all the money up front anyway.  I have enough for that septic system and then I'd have to come up with enough to install 2, 200 amp meters on the existing panel and have it wired into the wires coming off of the telephone pole.

I can't and wouldn't think of doing that part myself.  The rest of it isn't exactly easy, per-se, just not as technical. More time consuming. Do one lot at a time as I can afford it.  But, trench out the trench for say, 5 lots at a time. Those mini ex machines are costly to rent and I could actually dig out the trench for the entire 14 lots in one day.  Just don't want to do that since it will be quite a while until I can get them all done.  

I haven't fully convinced myself of this plan for it would entail me doing all of the work beyond installing the septic system and installing the line from the telephone pole to the panel - it's only like 15 feet, but they charged me $1,500 for that last time.  From there to the lots I would be doing the rest. That's the electrical, water and sewer line.  

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Many, many hours later.  I basically procrastinated on taxes.  Just something I didn't want to do. Quickbooks didn't exactly make it easy, but it did make it easier.  I had to go through an entire year's worth of bank statements, power bill statements, etc etc etc.  When I thought I was done with everything, it told me I owed 8 thousand dollars!  I didn't take that much out of the business last year, I was keeping the cashapp payments and the paypal which amounted to maybe 15k.  It was showing me getting paid 44k.  

I figured out what was going on and re-did what needed attention and then I came out with me being owed almost 3k.  Yes, I reported the cashapp and paypal, I really need to get a business version of it going so it goes straight to my business bank account.  Anyway, I think I have it right.  I paid and obscene amount of taxes off of my trucking job which is basically what saved me from owing anything.  I celebrated with a glass of iced tea replete with fake sugar (monkfruit).  

That ate up many hours but I figured if I set my mind to it I could get it done in one day.  I didn't want to have to pay a penalty on top of any potential taxes.  

Taxes superseded everything today.  I played a few games, we watched a movie that ended a few minutes ago and that's that.  

Tomorrow I intend on looking at the front of the property to see what it would take to install 14 lots up there.  It looks like an entire truckload of gravel per lot.  It's just short of 14k pounds from a calculator I was using.  $450 meter pedestal, $850 worth of rock, at least a grand worth of underground wire to get from the meter stand to the first lot, Probably $500 worth of sewer pipe to do the same and $200 worth of water line.  That's it, you've got rock, wiring, piping and a pedestal.  

But that's not really it, lol. Mini-ex rental, dozer rental, whatever else I'm not thinking of.  Oh, yes, there will have to be another trash dumpster, more internet - however that is going to happen, another bathroom and laundry room.  However, I don't have to have a laundry room or a bathroom in order to get it all started.  I just want to get a few lots in to start with.  I turned more people away today.  This isn't as risky doing it this way as it is with taking out a loan.  You have the risk that you can't fill the lots and you have all this money you owe on a monthly basis.....

I won't get a second dumpster tho. I'll just get a much larger one.  

Anyway, that's where my thoughts are at atm. At least as far as the business goes.  

There's other things on my mind, of course, but securing my financial future - well part 2 would be nice to get started at least.  I basically need part 2 - 14 more lots and then part 3 - 14 more after that - to be able to afford the park, everything it will need with that many lots (paid employee), and my personal bills/lifestyle/health insurance, etc.  14 more after that would be the icing on the cake.  But then it's a lot more work and more amenities - at the same time, you are bringing in some serious cash. Anyway, let's just think about part 2, shall we? lol

Sunday

I"ve got several entries in past many days that were never input. 

I was sick for 7 days to the point that I missed 6 days of work and regretted it - not at all.  I'm finally getting better, just a bit of a cough, went to work on Friday, they gave my Sunday off for whatever reason, I didn't ask for it and they had asked me to work the entire weekend.  They did, however, call this morning early and I did not answer that call.

Mainly because I was sleeping and the ringer was off.  I don't care, we have had a busy day today and it's not over yet. In 45 minutes we're leaving for a restaurant to meet with the group and then going to a Passion play at a different church than what we normally go to. This was a suggestion from a member of the group, I initially said yes while the rest of the family said no. 

We are all going now, lol.  

Considerable thought to my current dilemma.  

The dilemma is getting endless phone calls for long term and having nothing available.  To the point I finally contacted the contractor and asked what just installing the septic would cost. I can't do that myself and wouldn't want to, frankly.  Out of my expertise, I'm not even a novice with such things.  My idea atm is to install it near the other one and build on the other end, towards the main road.  This is not optimal but that's what I am thinking, so that I can eventually expand the back portion. I was looking and I think I can dump 14 lots up near the front without too much grade problems. Even if it's a bit more than what I have on other lots now, I am looking for long term. They can block one side of the trailer up as high as they need to, this bothers me not. 

It's really where I am thinking of going with this right now.  It's less than 10 grand to install that septic system and then probably - $1,500 per lot if I'm doing it myself, that's less the mini-ex rental. I think that covers everything else. We're talking sewer line, water line, power lines and pedestals.  And rock.  Maybe a little more than that, 2 grand per lot? I don't have to build all the lots all at once.  I can do whatever I can afford and do-it-as-you-can-afford-it type of deal. 

What I really need to do now, if I can qualify, is to get a credit card loan to pay off all existing high interest debt and get that taken care of, plus a barn loan and a new riding mower.  I'm tired of that old thing I have, it's worked well enough but I keep needing to dump money into it and when I want to use it and it's not working? Not good. 

I'm going to have to pay someone now to mow everything again, the grass is getting long. 

Trust me when I say I don't want to do lot installs myself.  I don't have the energy I used to, I'm looking into that. Not that I think I can de-age or something, but certain supplements and drinks you can take and losing weight that will at least increase energy levels to the point I can do the trucking, come back and do everything else.  

I think the point here is that I am not going to go through all of that loan process to have them potentially deny me the loan.  I won't need a loan to get the septic system installed and then I will have to find a way to get a dozer to level everything out.  

I wouldn't mind installing a couple of 100 amp outlets as well this time around for mini homes or even small mobiles. Well, mobiles might need a bit bigger amperage. We're not talking old junkie garbage, we're talking new rental units, job required, proof of income, sizeable down payment, back ground checks, the whole 9 yards. Industry standard, in other words, people know that landlords want to know about the people they are letting into their rental units. 

How are you going to do that? Let me work one thing out at a time, please.  

Credit is basically the key to running most businesses.  I have been looking into that.  I don't have the reputation with any local banks I need to basically get what I want when I need it.  When I say I've been looking into all of this, I mean I've spent time trying to figure this all out. If there's anything that is true, it's the fact that I freely admit I have waded into unknown waters and at times it feels like it's been full of predatory sharks waiting to pounce at a moment's notice.  

Whatever the case, work and life plods on.  I am unhappy with my current situation and I am slowly growing motivated to change that, permanently.  14 more lots probably wouldn't eradicate the need to keep working a regular job but it would come pretty close to it.  It's the health insurance that I worry about, it is costly.  65 is still years off for Medicare.  Caid? I can never remember, or even know the difference.

Anyway, don't be shocked if in the near future I post pics on my Facebook wall showing yet another septic install.  It's that or a large tank and for the cost of large tanks, you might as well just get a septic system for only a bit more money.  

There are many other things going on, of course, I haven't written in quite a while. Guess I really just got burnt out on writing blog entries when it's the same old stuff, day in and day out. Just seems extremely repetitive and monotonous - read: boring.  

We went to church today, of course, I always do that if I am off on a Sunday.  We are so busy today that I don't have time to work on taxes, they aren't done yet and I really don't know if they will be in time.  It is what it is.  I'm not going to stress over the IRS and their threats. I haven't received any threats, it's just this existential state of continuous dark mode over the country with the IRS looming over anyone they want to target and subsequently, ruin their lives if they desire to do so.  

The government can ruin your life without legitimate cause, that's a fact and I dare anyone to attempt to contradict that statement. I try to do nothing to upset the government, taxes are a thing out of my league, at least when you're talking about a business and a full time job.  Paying a CPA is extremely expensive.  I prepared my taxes last year and received nothing back from the IRS either negative or good.  You don't really want to hear from them at all, if you do you can expect that day to be a "Monday" type of day.  

I'm sort of all over the place with this post.  I wrote in a previous post that I want to be with my mom at her 90th, I don't think I posted that entry.  That's in September and Lord willing, I want to be there for that event.  

I don't know about you, but I've been watching the news quite a bit lately. More than I have been for a while.  Trump is going at a lightning-speed pace with everything he is doing with the southern border, tariffs, etc, lots of stuff, lots and lots of it. DOGE uncovering unbelievable amounts of waste, abuse and fraud. I just read this stuff in awe. I am not surprised that there's fraud, but the level of it is unreal!  150 year old people on SS?  Checks being written by computer generated nothingness with no accountability?  Endless nonsense! Yes, let's fire a bunch of people that aren't serving any useful purpose and well beyond the need that the federal government has to keep it's doors open. MAKE IT MORE EFFICIENT. I remember the days when a government job wasn't highly desirable because it didn't pay that much and you really weren't going to make a career out of it.

Now?  

I'm going to end this and post this one before we have to leave, in a few minutes.  

 Saturday - mid morning

Yesterday was probably the most miserable day I've had in a long time.  This was the day to go to the yard in El Dorado, pick up an empty to take to the washout in Crossett, pick up a washed out empty  and take it to a chemical plant in Bastrop, LA, load, take it back to the yard and then go home.

The reason it was so bad is because I got sick again.  That night I slept very poorly because of it and maybe was operating on 4 hours of sleep.  I was just fighting fatigue and feeling yucky all day long and it was a long day at 13 hours.  It didn't help that it took longer than necessary at the yard for the manager to get the necessary paperwork - that should have been ready when I arrived and then it took forever at the plant to load.  Top that with ridiculously slow speed limits in both Arkansas and LA and you have a long, long day.  

In fact, after leaving the yard in Eldo on the way back, I had to stop and take a 20 minute nap. 

I have the entire weekend off and I needed it.  I got 2 days worth of pay for yesterday so it's basically the same as having worked 6 days this week.  That's good enough and the only thing I am doing this weekend is going to an IHOP breakfast this morning for one of the kids in our group - we celebrate all of their birthdays - have breakfast, come home and rest.  Tomorrow the same, church, home, rest.  

Credit score raised 21 points for unknown reasons, looked at it and just thought, well that's nice.  I have numerous loans offers to pay off credit card debt that are becoming much more attractive now with much lower interest rates than it was only a few months ago.  I may take one of them.  I've become quite good now at not using credit cards for much of anything. I've cut back eating out to the point I am no longer bleeding money out of my checking account, if I took one of those offers and if they actually give it to me, I could cut expenditures probably around $800 or more per month.  Yes, you read that correctly.  Plus, the loan has an end date. 

Credit card debt can go on for a very long time depending on the amount of money you owe on each individual account.  The goal I had was to keep my expenditures in line with amount of money coming in and I  have finally accomplished that.  I also have a loan to keep me afloat while I was taking time off of a regular job to get the park built.  I could pay that off and pay off most of my card debit and lose a lot of outgoing payments in exchange for a bigger monthly payment - but still far less than what I am paying now.

It is going to rain all day long.  Thunder/lightning right now, we were under tornado watch for 3 days in a row and today they are saying still a strong possibility of tornadoes.  Not a fan, thanks.  I am a fan of the rain noise when I can stay home and do nothing.  Note that I am making a caveat to previous statement: I will probably sit here today and start going through paperwork.  For taxes, that is.  

So what about a park expansion loan? Definitely a real possibility I will go for it after I get taxes done.  They will want the tax return for documentation.  No rush here, interest rates have come down which is what I was waiting on, the dream is to build the park big enough to live off of the income with no outside jobs.  The reality is: No clue if I can get a loan that big or not.

I need amenities to go with a bigger park. A large building with an office, a C-store, a small gaming room, a couple of bathrooms with showers, more laundry capacity.  My laundry is getting used every day.  I don't much care for it for it fills up my septic system quickly.  The aerator sprinklers spray it out but still.  I have no choice, it's septic or nothing and you certainly can't have people living their with nothing. The only alternative is a large tank, say 10,000 gallons, buried and the waste goes into it and then you have trucks coming regularly to pump it out.  

Every 6 days, I would have to have it pumped by my calculations and with that much liquid, it would cost a lot of money per month.  I actually want a larger septic put in this time if I do get a loan than what they are recommending.  

I am facing untold hours worth of work to get my taxes done, that's a fact. 

And then, there's politics.  Maybe later.  I need to shower before we go to the IHOP event. 

G'day.  

 Thursday - early

Couldn't sleep so just got up, got out of bed, took my shower, etc.

Yesterday, I get a call from the manager.  Do you know what happened up at Gurdon?  After a bit of conversation, yes I had seen someone had made a spill, no I didn't know who did it and I didn't alert anyone because it looked like it had been there a while and the plant already knew about it.

Well, the plant didn't know about it until they found it, meaning the driver that caused the spill didn't report it.  He sent me pics to verify that it looked like the pics he sent? Yes.\

I then sent 4 suggestions to eliminate this issue of a driver spilling glue all over the place and not reporting it to the plant.  One of which was implemented immediately by the plant manager.  Drivers will now have to report to the manager on duty to have them verify that that delivery area is ok. 

This will cause the driver/s who are doing this stuff to pay more attention to what they are doing so they don't cause the spills in the first place or, one would hope, ask for help in determining what they are doing wrong that is causing it in the first place.                                                                                                  

I was in the mindset that although I am creating more work for myself - finding someone to come out and look could be a problem at times - I am also creating a stop for the plant to say yes, we have implemented a plan and we are dealing with it.  Otherwise? Our company could easily lose the contract next time it comes up for potential chopping block. 

Meanwhile, I'm watching Trump imposing a 25% tariff on all imported automobiles.  And other tariffs I do believe on goods being shipped to our country from nations all over the place.  The left is, of course, having a meltdown over this, the same as they claimed Trump is eliminating SS.  BTW, the price of eggs is coming back down.....

What Trump pointed out is past Presidents allowing the world to walk all over us, basically, charging tariffs on goods coming from our country to their but not getting the same treatment in return. He is forcing their hands and I applaud it.  Canada says they are going to fight it - yet Canada charges us some of the biggest tariffs that exist on the planet for different goods. Plus, we cannot compete in many markets around the globe.  I've known this about China for decades, I didn't know the problem was persistent in so many other countries.  They either make it impossible or near impossible for US business to do business in their countries while they are free to do whatever here?

The imbalance is obvious, the correction will hopefully work.  

We have rain forecast for most of the day, hasn't started yet.  It did rain for a few seconds yesterday, but the real threat were the tornado watches.  Not warnings per se, but still the conditions existed to for tornadoes to form. There is still a tornado advisory - be prepared! the caption states. Be prepared to do what, exactly?  Meet your Maker, perhaps.  

About out of time here.  The water billing at the AZ property is still and issue and I just paid an almost $800 bill for the last 2 months.  You read that correctly.  It appears they are reading the meter wrong, they have drastically cut the water usage in order to try and mitigate this situation. If the electronic gadget that sends out the info to the truck in the neighborhood is wrong, it doesn't matter how much water you stop using, you are still going to have a huge water bill if that's what that gadget is sending out.  So, I'm calling the city yet again today to get this problem resolved. I still have it in the back of my head that there is a water leak somewhere that they aren't finding, but first I want to ensure they are sending someone out to read the meter in person, not rely on a digital readout on a computer display.   I can't and won't afford those kinds of water bills, that  is completely outrageous. 

Well, out of here.

G'day

 Tuesday  - night

The manager calls me on my back from Gurdon this afternoon.  I've got a really big favor to ask you.

When a company says that to you, you just steel yourself and hope it isn't terrible.  I was thinking maybe he wants me to go down today and load for whatever reason. But, I thought, the tanks up there are almost full, there is no need for that.  I had no clue.

We have a tanker that needs preloaded for an OTR driver and it has to go out. Now, don't take it the wrong way, he doesn't come off forceful, demanding or anything like that. It's more like a desperate plea.  Ok, I replied....  Well, it needs to be loaded on Friday.  You'll come up here, hook to a trailer, go to a plant that's about an hour and 15 minutes away, load, bring it back to the yard and then drop it and go home.  

I was thinking, that's going to be a long day.  It's 2 hours and 45 minutes to the yard, so there's 5-1/2 hours of driving to and from the yard alone.  2-1/2 hours of driving back and forth to the plant, hook and drop plus pre-trips, and then at least an hour to load if not more.  There's at least 10 hours right there.  

But then he threw in the gravy: 2 days worth of pay for 1 day's work if you'll do it. In other words, the pay I get for doing a full run which takes 2 days.  Didn't hesitate, sign me up!  Give me that 3 days a week and I'm good, lol.  That will never happen, of course, but it would be wonderful.  I worked 6 days last week, Sunday off and now looking at minimum 5 days this week.  It won't be surprising if I am loading this weekend as  well, one of the drivers on our dedicated run is starting chemo therapy for prostate cancer. 

So, late run tomorrow to Lufkin, usually a late run the next day after to Gurdon but the driver that is doing the first run will be leaving by the time I normally show up for the first load, so I'll just leave at normal time for that.  Thursday night go to bed a bit early and hope I can get some good sleep for the busy Friday. 

There really isn't much else going on worth talking about.  The house in AZ has $400 water bills all of a sudden and I am now going to find a plumber to go over there and find out what's going on..  Mark thinks they are reading the meters wrong, I doubt that, especially since I called the city and they came out and checked it.  He's getting up there in age, I think there's a leak somewhere he just isn't finding. I just asked Mark to shut off all the faucets and any water outlets and then look at the meter.  If that thing is still showing numbers moving, there is a leak.  I can't afford those water bills, that's what I know.  It needs to be dealt with and soon.  

I have had no complaints at the park besides the overnighters that bombed my Google business with a pretty horrible review. I'm still fighting with Google about having it removed since most of it is completely false.  I haven't even started on taxes yet, I figure if I get a day off this weekend or the entire weekend off, I'll use that time to sift through endless paperwork, organize it and get the taxes at least started.  I procrastinate on it because I hate doing it.  

Anyway, just an update on things going on around here. 

 Tuesday - early

In the latest of the piles of trash Musk and his crew has been digging up, we find out that millions of social security numbers had been given to illegal aliens during the Biden administration.  A museum that in terms of numbers and context given to the amount of money spent on it (some woke green thing that no one wanted to see, basically), wasted millions of dollars in its construction and a lot more in yearly expenses.  They shut that sucker down.  

And a lot more has been unearthed.  We watch an unending field of judges blocking a lot of the actions the Trump team wants to take to get rid of this woke ideology and the waste, fraud and abuse of our system called the federal government.  Musk's own livelihood is at stake with the shunning of his electric vehicles, yet he plods on.  I have been watching all of this with great fascination, for I never thought such an endeavor would be taken in my lifetime. One thinks that democrats are so hell bent on destroying our society as we once knew it that there is no way the federal government could basically be audited. 

And then we hear that people's ss benefits are being stripped away.  That is completely and utterly false, but the media fills people's brains with it, the propaganda machines never stop churning out their machinations to deceive as many American citizens as they possibly can. I watch some of these democrat senators and house members saying things that are completely false and I wonder: do they even believe what they are saying? In the end? I don't think they do. 

The irony is that all of their endless accusations and yelling and screaming ended up with a major lost election and possibly more in upcoming elections.  Their message doesn't work and it doesn't work because people are sick of the character assassinations, they want a message that helps them personally, not a message that assails some person sitting in a fancy building in Washington DC.  Even the staunchest progressives are coming out against this idea that democrats should just keep moving forward with this nonsense.  

Regardless, I spent the weekend working on Saturday and relaxing on Sunday.  Church, Applebees and home, to be more precise. And thinking about my life and where it's going. Seemingly nowhere.  Sure, I have a small business. It's great, I guess.  It's not really meaningful in the Kingdom of Heaven excepting I'm helping people with "low cost housing" as it's identified on the County roles.  And then there's this character that basically did a hit job on my business through the Google community by posting a review that is mostly false.  And posting pictures. One of which is a dilapidated old house next door that has nothing to do with the RV park.  I have disputed that and one other pic he posted.  

The first pic you see when you google my business is of this old house.  I guess I just need to take some pics and upload them so that that disappears? I think that's how it works, I'll be doing that soon.  

But in the grand scheme of things, that enterprise is rather meaningless. It's just a means to an end: some sort of financial security in my old age.  That's all it was ever intended to be.  I wonder if I could change the scope of the business and add something that actually has it pointing to our Lord Jesus Christ? 

The kids must be having issues this morning, it's 6:00 am and I haven't seen them yet.  Meaning, they are dragging.  I assume when I see them some pouty and unhappy faces. 

Not a bad day, really.  I went to bed at 9:30 and woke up around 4:15 am.  Couldn't get back to sleep so just got up early.   

I'm just thinking of what I can do to change the direction of my life.

And with that, the day has started, the kids are present and I am about to leave for work.

G'day. 

s

 Thursday - night

Some person left a pretty foul review on my Google.  Much of it was completely false, a few things were correct and the rest exaggerated. Like someone out to get me for reason I have no idea.  It was an overnighter, they were treated very well.  The guy took pictures of the house next door and posted them as if they are on my property.  They also took a pic of the damage on the side of the semi trailer parked in the back - out of the RV park (the truck I drive).  

They went on about a homeless encampment in the back (there is no homeless encampment back there and never has been), said there were no cameras anywhere (3 cameras on the property atm), said the shed looked like it was bought from Home Depot, continue with the fact that the shed couldn't have been up to code, seemingly disparaged the people staying in the park, totally trashed the street the park is located on and the nearby city.  I think the only thing that was true was the cigarette butts, a thing I have been trying to get under control with certain people.  

Oh, and "wild dogs roaming everywhere". There are zero "wild dogs", there are some dogs that wander on the property from nearby residences.  I'm not talking about the Rotties that were causing problems, one of them is dead the other hasn't been seen in a while.  This person referred to an American Bulldog as  pitbull and exclaimed that the park isn't safe and don't walk your dogs at all!  

I left a lengthy reply.  I had a friend review it for I cannot possibly be unbiased in such a situation, I am going to defend my park regardless. Oh yes, a little doggy park with a small patch of grass. Now that was a total lie. The doggie park is 85X90 feet in dimension and is much larger than most dog parks I see at RV parks anywhere online or in real life.  It is completely covered in grass.  I have already protested this review but that probably won't work, there is a 2cd route you can try that gives you the opportunity to contest it. At the very least, take those ridiculous pics down, especially of the house next door. That is totally unrelated to the park and it is hardly visible to people in the park.  

I mean, I knew sooner or later someone would leave a negative review, I had no idea I was going to be assailed with such a bad review that it left me seething with anger.  Yes, I got angry because much of it was false.  I'm over that now, had to regain my composure and just get over the emotional reaction and deal with it.  That was yesterday.

Today, I get a text from one of the kids in the park (18 year old) saying "there is no water!!". OH NOOOO! I didn't think, I just asked questions, I was on the road at the time.  After that conversation, I asked someone in texting whether their water is working? Yes, it's fine.  No idea, I had visions of water spouting all over the place or possibly and underground leak.  When I got back from Gurdon today, it took me all of 30 seconds to figure it out.  He had taken the hose off of the spigot, but there was a brass fitting someone had attached to the spigot.  It is apparently some sort of pressure reducer or one way valve. 

Whatever it is, it was preventing water from coming out.  I removed that and walaah! emergency over, contacted him, told him the problem and moved on.  

I have late load tomorrow, which sucks but whatever.  It usually doesn't mean a lot on the loading day, it normally means getting back pretty late on the delivery day.  So tomorrow, I will probably be back by around 3:30 pm, Saturday around 5 at the latest. Going to miss some sort of expo they are going to (the folks here) but I have been pretty lucky with weekends the last 2 of them so I won't be too disappointed, plus I have Sunday off, back to work Monday on first load and then another load on Wednesday that is also second load.  

I think the manager is holding a grudge for me telling him I wasn't going to work a few Sundays ago because we were going to the zoo.  Boo hoo. 

Back to the park, I: know it is lacking of any major amenities, it's one of the reasons I have to lower my pricing than most other places nearby.  Location is always everything.  Oh, this dude also said the neighborhood is SCARY!!! LMAO.  I'm going to need to aggressively ask for reviews now to bury that one.  I don't get them often, it will be the first one people see if I don't get it down the list.  In reality, the worst thing that has happened is people living in the park and those people are gone. That and people dumping trash in my dumpster that don't live there.

From my understanding - now anyway - if they dig under your property, they have to have the mineral rights to be allowed to do so.  This is referring to an energy company wanting to do horizontal drilling underneath 2 of my properties acquired through tax lien sales.  I don't know what you think, but a company that is going to make untold millions of dollars off of the energy released under the ground should be able to pay more than a few hundred dollars to have their drilling operation going underneath my properties.  I asked one guy I thought would have an idea, he didn't know at all.  He just knew that it pays nothing like it used to.  Note that the drilling isn't taking place on either property, just going underneath it.  

Providing she makes it that long (I certainly hope she does) - she doesn't have any huge medical problems atm, but life is weird sometimes - I want to be at mom's house for her 90th birthday. That's in September.  It's not a great time of year to go to AZ for it's still warm, but time doesn't stop for any of us and all of our days are numbered. When you start talking about being in your 90's, well anyway.  It will be a double whammy going there and no vehicles to drive, Uber and Lyft are plenteous out there and plan the budget accordingly.  Probably won't do a lot of visiting anyway (other people that is).  

I'm just throwing out random thoughts here. I think an ice machine is a great idea for the park, it's the part about how to force people to pay for it that is stopping me. I don't see it as a money maker, I see it as a machine paying for itself.  Electricity and water.  

I'm still playing the Fortnite game, but I try to be on at times when all the kids are at school so I don't have to hear all of that nonsense.  Ridiculous.  They argue and fight with each other when you're playing on teams on who gets what out of a vault or kills or looting chests and such. They'll grab someone else's stuff and then they start getting angry with each other. The only other game I can think of that induces such anger in these kids is Monopoly.  The 8 year old here was temporarily banned from the game for his anger issues.  

 They start bragging how good they are and then others will start arguing who is the best.  I am not interested in hearing all of that s*** and I don't care if they play with me or not.  Mostly not, thank you. I do not seek anyone out at all.  They come to me, all the time.  My "party" frequently fills up with 8, 9, 10 plus people.  If I got on there right now, the party would fill up with people and the lobby would be full. And then I would hear things like "why does this always happen with you?!".  

I HAVE NO IDEA.  Ok, probably 75% of them don't even have microphones, but the ones that do? Annoying.  The game is fun;, yes, but it's fun playing by myself.  Once the lobby is full of people, I tend to just press the power button now and get off of the game.  

Umm, what else.... there is something I am not remembering.  Well while I'm searching my brain for the forgotten shelf, I am slowly bringing myself up to trying to get this SBA loan for expansion.  I  think I'm ready for the risk, I'm not mentally prepared yet for the rigor of having constant questions.  Weeks of unending emails, texts and phone calls asking about this, wanting that, etc ad-infinitum.  I don't k now how else I'll go forward without a loan, I certainly don't have that kind of money sitting in my bank accounts.  The other thing I think is holding me back from trying is my credit score.  I wonder if, at the end of the day, they will reject it for a low credit score.

BTW, I now firmly believe credit scores are a scam.  Some of it is warranted for assessing risk for people that clearly have financial issues, the rest of it is bs.  If you pay your bills on time, all the time and have no late pays for many years, you should have a decent score regardless of how much debt you're in. You have established that you believe in making your payments all the time and on-time.  There is no way that your score should take a 20 plus hit just because you paid off a loan in full. I don't care what their reasoning is, in my view, as of now, it's just a way for banks to charge higher interest.  It's all about greed and we all know banks are full of that. 

I continue to watch these judges trying to stop Trump from deporting illegal aliens. Or stopping dismantling USAIDS.  Or shutting down the Education department.  Etc. I just think that Trump is going to get the job done one way or the other.  They're not going to be able to impeach these judges, too many votes are needed and they don't have it. I don't really think that's the way to go about it anyway.  

I think I'm done here. It's getting late and tho I don't have to get up super early, I still don't want to be getting to be too late.  

 Wednesday -night

 Yes, I have been slacking on blog entries.  I have been getting busy with other stuff and the folks from Arkansas are here but are leaving tomorrow. They have been here since last week.  

There isn't a whole lot to discuss here.  I paid a kid to do the grass over at the park today $60, admittedly cheap but that's what he quoted.  After he got done he then asked if he wanted me to have him come back and quoted $200 for any future work.  No thanks.  3 hours using a lawn mower for a 17 year old isn't worth $200 for me.  It's good for now.  It will stay good a couple of weeks anyway.  

I can't give anyone a spot for working now anyway, the park is full excepting lot 1 which is kept open for overnighters.  A dude came in  today wanting a spot for a month and said he had put in a reservation for it.  I missed blocking out some stuff and that allowed him in there.  No, I can't do it.  He got mad, but he should have called anyway.  I refunded his money, sent him his receipt and recommended another park in the area. 

I'm watching the news on and off.  It's basically the Judicial branch V the Executive branch, at least from what I'm seeing.  The Trump administration is calling them activist judges.  I have never thought highly of the government, so yes, they very well could be activists using their positions of power to thwart Trump's plans to get rid of these barbaric Tren gangsters.  He'll just have to figure something else out. But note that the judge specified that it isn't that these people can't be arrested and jailed, it's the position he's taking that Trump can't use that old law to do it with.  

I don't know, but if they're off the streets, that's good enough until they come up with plan B.  Democrats have been making themselves look very childish and ridiculous.  It is unbelievable to me that they are taking the side of the Tren gangsters simply because they hate Trump. I wonder if any of the people that voted for some of these politicians are having second thoughts?  

And the outrage democrats are having over Elon Musk's  DOGE efforts, LMAO.  Don't buy Tesla's! Do you hear these big name politicians denouncing these people who are burning down Tesla charging stations and dealerships? No, of course not.  They continue to out themselves as the deranged, evil people that they are.  If this continues, I would foresee a very easily won set of elections in the next coming years.  

If nothing else, Trump has at least all but stopped the huge flow of illegals flowing over the southern border and ICE is busy rounding up the ones that made it in here. They are in for a busy 4 years. After that, your guess is as good as mine. Will we get another 4 years of a Biden-style president or of some conservative/Republican?  

Yes, I am still doing 100 pushups per day, have completed 75 today just 25 more to go. I have started to diet, but nothing too serious. Just wading back into it.  Had a salad for lunch - fat free dressing low calorie and chicken in the salad, had one of the pork chop leftovers from 2 days ago when I got home but sort of went overboard at dinner with 3 slices of pizza. Not gonna beat myself up over it. again I'm just trying to wade back into dieting - eating healthy is what I should say. Dieting has such a negative aura about it.  It's something that you start that you know you will eventually break.

Tax time is looming and I haven't even started on it yet.  I dread going through all of that stuff, looking at receipts and inputting them into the system and trying to make sure I get the numbers right on everything.  I mean, if the IRS ever audits me, I'll have to pay through the nose for an accountant or some sort of person that can "defend" me against those people. Nothing you really want to go into alone.  Well, I would if the accountant cost too much money.....

The AC on the truck is back to working sporadically.  That versus what it was before with the heat stuck on. We discussed having it fixed here in my town, I will look into it after the weather gets much warmer.  Right now, I can turn it on, it works for a while, then turn it off, deice the evaporator and then turn it back on. 

I also have been making waves at the loading plant.  They are consistently making us wait for hours after our appointment time is and I just had enough.  Went in there 2 days ago and asked very loudly when they expected to load my truck?  Not in anger, but to get everyone's attention. I don't care if management doesn't like it, this job is not that great, losing it wouldn't be a catastrophe.  Anyway, this dude comes out to my truck after I made my statements in the control room and started lecturing me about how they are short-handed and yada yada yada.  I didn't ask for anyone to come out and I just looked at him.  I'm not intentionally trying to get myself banned from the plant, but I am not going to put up with a bunch of guff either.

That plant doesn't treat their employees very well, especially when it comes to pay and that's the bottom line.  

Today, I received a notice in the mail that they want to bore underground to get at some gas well or whatever it was and they want to buy the mineral rights to one of my properties I bought at the auction.  Their lease pay? $237 per year, lmao.  They aren't drilling on the property, they want to go underneath it. They have to have the mineral rights to do that and I'm not selling out for measly 200 plus bucks.  Unless some expert tells me it's not worth more than that.  I'm going to dive into that and the legalities of it. I just asked a native Texan about it, maybe he'll have some info.

And I just read there is a company that is going to start installing fiber optics in our town!  Oh myyyy, just what we need, the cable internet company here is  atrocious.  

That's about it. Heading up to Gurdon to offload tomorrow, then start another run on Friday - late load unfortunately but hopefully I'll get Sunday off since I'll have worked 6 days in a row.

Thursday morning

Late load, no sense in leaving too early when they have been making us wait on the first load so long. I don't want to sit in their parking lot forever.  

I have been turning away even more business and it leaves me uneasy to have to do so. Like, what am I waiting for? Even if the return is less than if the interest rate was lower, there's still money to be made.  I wasn't really interested before but now there are all kinds of people wanting places to stay here.

There is a giant power plant being torn down that is going to take a couple of years supposedly, then they are going to build a gas plant in it's place. And then there's the Interstate project that starts whenever, not really sure, they said this year.  On top of that, you have the energy sector here which is a booming business churning out natural gas all over the place. 

The thing that got me to wondering was having 6 spots open for a fairly long amount of time.  If I can't fil these, I was thinking, what makes me think I'll fill 25 more?  And then there's having to hire someone, a thing I have never done and really would have to use the help of an accountant to get that set up and going as cheaply as possibly on the financial side.  

I was thinking today, paying a person $15 is a good wage around here. But if you work 40 hours a week, that isn't that much money.  That's only $2,400 per month before taxes.  I can't imagine having to try and live off of that kind of wages.  

Anyway, we started dieting on Monday.  That's just cutting out alot of caloric intake for me, she is doing a low carb thing.  I just said no, I'm just going to eat a lot of salads and dinner will just be small portions for me.  I don't drink soda and I don't eat a lot of sweets as it stands, that isn't the hard part. 

The hard part is I like my pastas and potatoes and basically heavy meals.  I remember back to the days when I needed to lose weight, I would just eat mostly salads and eat nothing after 6:00 pm.  No set time when I could eat again the next day, just don't eat too late.  So that's what I've been trying to do, but admittedly sometimes dinner doesn't happen around here until 7 or so. 

I'm still doing the 100 pushups per day even tho I finally hit the 100 day mark.  No sense in stopping a good thing and soon I'll be adding on to that. Right now, it's enough to try and diet, I really need to lose some pounds here.  I've hit 30 pushups per set and last night I got as far as 40 on the first set.  I'm still trying to hit the goal of being able to do 50 pushups per set, a long way away from that, I think.  But it's a goal that I want to hit and after that I don't really think I need to feel like I need to do more than that in one set.  50 is good. 

There isn't much else going on. The 3rd kid is coming from Arkansas on Friday. They have different spring break time than here, the kids here already had there spring break, so it really makes no sense to me that the other one is coming while these kids are in school every day.  But who am I and really isn't my problem excepting that it disrupts the entire scenario here, especially with the grandma coming to stay the entire time as well. She tries to take over the entire house, change the rules, let kids get away with whatever and I have to come along and say no thank you, they aren't allowed to do that.  

The other thing coming up in a few months is they are taking off for an entire month.  When I say they, I mean the entire family. The man is going for 2 weeks I think, maybe a week, not sure, but he can't stay a month because of work.  Still, I'll be here alone 2 weeks and that's going to be interesting.  Her family is in Colorado and she wants to spend time visiting with a rather large family she grew up with. 

Right now, I'm seriously putting my mind to thinking about getting that loan, or trying to anyway.  My credit score isn't the greatest with the debt ratio, but with the collateral involved, it's worth a try at least. Plus and now-established business.  

Well that's it. I need to get ready to leave here, it's after 8:00 am and tho I don't want to get there too early, I don't want to be showing up too late, either.

G'day

 

 Sunday - morning

Heading to the zoo in a few minutes.  I'm sort of glad to have the days off, sort of not. No idea what they're paying me for break down pay and staying in a hotel overnight.  If it's like everything else, probably not that much.  I'm itching to get that loan and get out of this endless cycle of trucking nonsense.  You just really have no concrete schedule to work with, you are stuck wondering week to week or even day to day what your schedule will be.  

I often just get a couple of loads in the tablet and then they wait to see what's next.  If they are waiting, I am waiting.  Meaning, who knows what hours I will work.  

I figure i made the manager mad by not taking the other truck and also not working today.  As I said previously, I don't care.   I'm going to get some time off here and there and  if they don't like, whoopdee doo.  September of this year will mark 2 years at this miserable place and all that I committed to.  

A 20 plus year driver quit a few weeks ago.  Junk trucks being the reason for him, break downs galore.  His wasn't that bad, at least not comparatively speaking, but as soon as another certain driver got into the thing, he trashed the transmission.  This particular person has now trashed 2 transmission and 1 differential.  I know they have trouble getting help, but keeping people like this around is not helping them either.  The only reason they like him is he'll stay out and just do one load after another after another instead of going home like I do. 

This trucking work life sucks, to be more pointed about it and is driving me to reconsider yet again attempting to get a business loan and just go for it.  If I can get one, it will be a huge risk, at least as far as I'm concerned, for the only way it pays for itself and pays me is to stay mostly full.  The park that is.  People keep telling me to go for it and maybe I will, but I have huge reservations.  Yes, I have turned a couple of dozen people away, but what if that doesn't happen if/when I get a loan with 3 to 4k per month payments?  Lost my life savings and have nothing to show for it, at all, that's what. 

That's what really keeps me reserved about getting into a huge loan.  I was thinking maybe just get a smaller loan and do the work myself, only paying contractors to install a new septic system, the rest I would have to do myself.  But it's still 68k worth of gravel, 21k for the septic system, another 20k worth of electrical and 15k worth of pipe.  There's 124k right there and add 5k for good measure.  Then there's equipment rentals and whether I can even get a dozer on site without having any dozer experience. However, to pay the contractor, we're closer to 300k.  I figure add 15k for equipment rentals.  Saving over 100k doing it myself, but where do I find the time if I still have to do a trucking job?

I can tell ya, my energy ain't what it used to be.  Growing old has several disadvantages and the energy levels going down is one of them.

Meh, we are leaving.

G'day. 

 Saturday - afternoon, early

We are going to a friend's daughter's 1 year birthday party in a bit.  I've done nothing today beyond cleaing the kitchen and making lunch for kids.  Unless the schedule changes - which it easily could - I don't intend on fixing the driveway and other stuff on Monday.  Someone ran over the orange cone I have over a pothole. It is highly visible with reflective tape.  Sorry, but I call such people idiots.  Those cones aren't cheap anymore.  

After the party I am going to walmart to return electronics that don't work that I bought on Walmart site and delivered, get some other stuff I need, take the boys to get $8 haircuts at Great Clips and then who knows what.  It will probably be late afternoon by the time we are done with that.  

Currently, the tablet has Tuesday as my next scheduled day of work.  He was going to have me work "Sunday/Monday".  Sorry.  I don't do this all the time anymore and I don't care how mad he gets.  I'll quit or he can fire me, don't really care.  If he starts paying me back with late loads, same difference, I'll go find another job.  I am seriously tempted as it stands to go ahead and apply for the expansion loan, interest rates be damned.  It's just that I don't really think I will qualify for having a low credit score due to too much credit card debt.

It fell another 20 points when Flagstar sold my loan to some other company.  You'd think your score goes up when you pay off a loan right? I found out long ago that isn't the case at all. The games they play with credit scores. I used to think well, I make all of my payments on time, so I should have a good score, right? NOPE.  These so-called experts lump everyone into the same category and treat everyone the same.  If I have a lot of debt, that therefore means I must be close to defaulting or even bankruptcy.  It's higher risk in their view, which it may very well be, but if I couple it with collateral, a large amount of collateral, I should still be able to get it, right?

Who knows, but seeing how the system works, I'd venture for the "no" department. Hate to be negative about it, but the games these companies play with credit scores I find to be ridiculous.  My property is worth minimum 400k.  Probably 500k.  But we'll go with 400k.  I'm looking for probably around 300k.  I've done the business loan calculators, as long as I could eventually get the place filled up, it wouldn't be impossible to make the payments and do everything else i need to do.  In the end, I'd actually need about 75 lots to be able to afford to live off of that income, make the payments and have at least 1 employee.  I would be able to take home minimum 8k per month after taxes. 

The expansion would take me to 40 lots.  I might need an employee with that, not really affordable but I can't deal with 40 lots by myself and still work a job.  Expansions have to be done in phases.  I'd ask for enough for 60 more lots but that would cost so much more money and I don't want to take that kind of risk with my life savings that I used to build this venture.  Ok, it was about 17 years worth of savings, still quite a lot of time and effort put into saving that money over time. 

To get to 70 lots, I'd have to expand up front, which would mean bringing in many truck loads of dirt to help level it out.  

Anyway, I'm at 25 more lots right now in the works tho I haven't really worked anything.  They wanted info that I would have to go to a bit of trouble to get and after I had thought about it, I just stopped.  

We're fixing to leave and I'm sitting here racking my brains trying to think of everything I need from Walmart. My trips there are infrequent and unwanted. I go because I have to, not because I want to.  The electronics I bought is $25 and change, that alone is enough to get me to go back and have that money refunded to my debit card.  

If I really needed anything, I'd say I need a much larger bedroom or a separate office.  I'd go for a house expansion, but this isn't my house and I'm not dumping that kind of money into something that isn't mine.  We really need more space. The kids are in the same bedroom and the oldest boy is getting the independent thinking that starts to creep in the older they get.  Plus, the younger gets him into trouble all the time, if they had separate bedrooms that would eliminate a lot of it.  

My house in AZ has lost a lot of value over the last year.  It was at around 350k, now it's at 280k. At least I'm not underwater with it - yet.  I find it amazing that the value went down in that allegedly red-hot real estate market.      

 The seething hatred.  It's astonishing, amazing and unbelievable to watch. 

People who hate Trump hate him with a passion. It occupies their thoughts, or at least it appears as if it does, continuously or certainly quite frequently.  They hate him because people told them to hate him.  There is no objectivity to their thought processes, not if you just by what's coming out of their mouths or, more pointedly, what they are posting online.  

I have lots of lefty friends on Facebook and the individuals who are obsessed will post 10, 15, 20, 30 times a day memes and other nonsense telling us why we are immoral for voting for him and we don't love Jesus and all the rest of it.  

The lies that are being fed these people are astounding.  He's going to cut SS, Medicare, stopped feeding kids lunch at school and really a seemingly endless list of things they say Trump is busy doing.  Maxine Waters said that Trump is setting up the context to start a civil war.  I could go into a long list of things from memory, but I dare not.  I have grown calloused to the endless streams of denigration coming from the left.  I don't care what they think anymore, they can spout off all they want. It's why they lost, or a certainly high on the list of reasons why Trump is  now our President.

I always love the lies about Medicare and SS.  Democrats say this every single election cycle yet you never see any of that happening even when Republicans are in control. NEVER.  And leftist voters are starting to come to terms with that fact.  I have seen countless on-the-street interviews with every day citizens, people who were brought up in leftist households and were told their entire lives about how evil the right is - and all the rest of it. Just not going to go into the depths of what anyone that has ever followed politics should already know about how these people have been raised and led to believe utter lies.  

And now, you have Schumer caving to vote for the continuing resolution bill to keep the government open after going off - as the rest of them - to shut down the government. Do you remember Pelosi chastising Trump for shutting down the government?  The party of bigger government is better?  The party that has always said you should never allow the government to shut down? Literally the entire lot of them saying that?  Now there is infighting in that party the likes I don't recall ever seeing.  They have no clue what to do, none whatsoever.  The entire thing is imploding.  Their pathetic and endless name-calling didn't work.  

Anyway, one of the leftist friends did a call-out post on me that she tagged me in so it showed up on my Facebook feed.  I left it up for quite a while to let people see how these people are acting out.  Their rage clouds any reasoning or objectivity. This particular person posts endless memes and Twitter quotes and lots more about how evil Trump is and what he's doing to the nation dozens of times a day. Not just once a day, twice, 5 times, 10, whatever. It's at least dozens.  That's an unhealthy obsession.  

Welll, it's quite late, I was just reading some of her posts yet again. I will not be commenting again on her feed.  She is unhinged - I see a lot of these people online on a daily basis.  

I'm downloading a huge file to operate this fancy mouse I bought for gaming.  It's an interface for the mouse has far more switches on it than a regular mouse.  It eliminates a lot of the keys you would otherwise have to use on a keyboard.  I'm still playing Fortnite tho it's getting to be a drag talking to people.  Well, I have already reported this anyway.  The stats say that around 85% of Fortnite players are aged 18-35. That's all adults.  

Yet, you mostly just run into kids when talking on the microphone in the game.  Parents think the game is for kids only, I don't know where they got that idea and there is a myth that the game is only for kids. And I can tell ya, kids act out in that game to great extremes.  It gets ridiculous and I just start blocking them.  Or a parent gets on there. Who asked for my son's full name? No one, I replied, no one asks for names on here, it's an unwritten rule.  I do tell people my first name if they ask tho.  

I just wish more adults who are already playing the game would use the mics.  There are a large number of players that don't have or use mics at all.  

Gonna close this one.  I need to start thinking about getting taxes ready.  I did them myself last year. The IRS never contacted me back with yea or nay or hey, you owe use 2 grand or whatever.  They can always get you even years afterwards so you never really feel like you are in the clear.  I've read enough horror stories about it.  

I'm not worried about it, if they say something, it is what it is. I did my best and I'll do my best this year as well. I don't try to get away with anything and I have all the receipts and the bank statements and other documents.  

 Friday - evening

I got in the truck yesterday, went to Gurdon, unloaded and drove to El Dorado.  The mechanic clearly doesn't want to try to deal with this AC.  He got as far as getting it to work again, the same as it was before.  Which means you turn on the AC and the compressor comes on and stays on until the evaporate freezes over and then you have nothing.  It turns into a deal where you are turning the fan on and off.  

One caveat this time: the fuse sometimes blows.  So, he handed me like 15 fuses and wished me luck. Actually, they were trying to dump me into another POS truck and I said no, I'll just stay with this POS truck. The mechanic laughed but he's tired of it as well.  He was also hammered with work.  My manager was the one that decided I should get into that other truck, I just politely said no thank you. 

So, I'm home now after much discussion and possibly taking it to a shop in town here. There are at least 4 diesel shops in our little town, maybe more.  Why? I don't know.  Maybe because 2 major highways connect and lots of business.  

The manager then wanted me to work Sunday and Monday. No thank you again. I think I was pissing him off but I've had enough of this s***.  Drive junk, drive illegally sometimes because of constant nonsense with these trucks and trailers, then try to eat up every single weekend.  Whatever. We're going to the zoo on Sunday and I don't want to miss out on that. I haven't been to a zoo in forever and everyone - the entire crew of people that all hang together, is going.  

The driveway is in horrible shape. I'm going to have to go out tomorrow and deal with it.  Last on my list of things I want to do, but it absolutely needs to be done.

James fixed the mold mess in my rv park bathroom. It looks nice, he doesn't do half-@$$ed work.  He also placed the router box up on the pole.  I need a longer extension cord to make it work.  I'm going to buy a 100 foot cord and that will take care of that problem temporarily permanently, lol. 

Beyond that, grass needs mowed.  So, I have my work cut out for me.  Yes, I'd rather pay someone to do it. But if you hire a company, they want steep rates that I cannot afford.  If you hire a person to work by the hour to cut grass, they'll tell you they do it by the job.  I just tell them good luck now.  You have a 17 year old talking to me like he's some sort of contractor.  No, you aren't.  I provide the equipment and the fuel,  you provide the manpower. It's hourly work.  

But they talk to you as if they have a full fledged business replete with 40 years experience, insured and will take responsibility for any damage they might do.  Yeah - no.  It doesn't work that way. If you are an actual business, what is your LLC or business profile?  Phone number? Address?  Basically, quoting it by the job is a way to greatly increase the amount of money a person is going to make on any given project. Well and fine for pro contractors, not so much for lawn mowing. 

My manager scheduled me for Tuesday of next week lmao.  As I said, I think he got mad and shrugs from me.  They don't have an power over me. I could lose the job tomorrow and think nothing of it beyond gee, I need to go find another job. I wouldn't be thinking: Gee, that was such a great job I just lost, I'm so down and out.  This company loses drivers all the time and for good reason. I've bent over backwards to keep the manager happy, if he gets mad, I really don't care.

Day whatever of the pushup challenge. I think I'm getting close to the end of the challenge.  I've missed 2 days the entire course of this journey and made up for it the next morning on both days.  At the end of this, I will likely keep going and add another routine along with it and seriously considering starting some sort of disciplined eating regime.  Such as Keto but not keto, can't do that anymore.  I also said I was going to start doing bicep workouts, that will likely start at the end of this as well. The end will just mean the beginning of a new workout with more stuff added to it.

Wow it's day 98 of the pushup challenge!  I have almost made it.  I thought maybe high 80's or low 90's and still some time to decide what to do next.  Well, I'll bring in a couple of dumbells into my room after day 100 and continue on with pushups and add the bicep stuff. Whatever else, haven't decided yet. I have 2 days to figure it out.  All I know is that I don't want to quit. 

There are many days when I absolutely feel like just skipping the day.  The 2 days that I did is because I completely forgot about it. I have also been looking into doing 200 pushups a day.  100 in the morning and 100 in the evening.  

Anyway, I slept ok last night, the room at the Hampton was quiet and the temp was perfect.  Just that I went to bed late.  And so, time to get offa here.  

Tuesday - night

I pushed the issue with the truck, the mud flap destroyed, but I did it through the DVIR (Driver Vehicle Inspection Report).  I black-listed the mud flap - I figured if I get pulled over, I'm going to at least have it showing that the company knows all about it.  It was yesterday before corporate said no, he can't drive that truck, it must be fixed.  That was when I started hearing from people.

It came to a head yesterday.  Stop at Love's I guess? was my direction from the lead mechanic.  I knew they wouldn't do it.  This after the road crew mechanics that had shown up to fix the truck on the side of the road also refused.  Do you know anyone in your town that can do it?  I think so. I told him the name of the place.  He dismissed it, for unknown reasons. This particular outfit is widely respected in this region. They have several shops in various towns and they have a huge one in my town, replete with numerous wreckers. Their bread and butter is towing trucks or doing the removal missions of crashed trucks on highways.  But they have great mechanics and a repair shop as well.

I didn't reply. This company isn't paying me enough money to continually be having to deal with this junk.  I just let it go until this morning, when he texted me again: are you going to take it to the place we discussed yesterday? Yes, I replied, I'm leaving right now (I actually was leaving).  I took it over there, about 5 miles away, told them my story, the mechanics came out, looked and said "we'll give it a helluva try!".  

That's my kind of attitude.  I told them I don't need factory new, I just need it functional.  They figured it out, straightened out some metal, drilled holes, install the mud flap, put in a new light and tightened down the fender nuts and good to go.  

I drove up to Gurdon, offloaded the product and yes, went home. There was no point in going to the yard, but the time I would have gotten there, it would only be maybe a half an hour before the mechanics went home. I told this to my manager and he agreed.  Can you load tomorrow instead and then bring the truck and trailer to the yard on Thursday after delivering? Yes.  Let me say here that I do not want to go up there.  It's fixed enough. But the AC in the truck isn't working and it's starting to get warm enough out that while sitting and idling, it's getting warm inside of the truck.  

I informed them I wouldn't be driving another summer going through what I did last summer and they didn't try to argue with me.  I put up with enough hell from this place and I've lowered it on my priority list considerably. My Park comes before this ridiculous job.  I spent my retirement on it, I am going to make it work.  The job is supplemental income.  

A new couple moved in today.  A black couple, I should say. It's only significant because I've never had any black people in there.  Don't confuse these statements with racism.  I have no issue with any race, I rather like mixed company. I don't do DEI and all that nonsense, but there is a place for immersing yourself in different cultures and learning about different ways of thinking and living life.  

I had to ask a long term guest to please help show them where i want the trailer.  They wouldn't have found it or it would have been difficult at best to explain it over the phone, this guy knows where I was talking about and loves sticking his nose in other people's business.   

So yes, tomorrow is early rise for Nacogdoches washout/Lufkin load.  

Oh, btw, I don't really think I am addicted to Fortnite/gaming.  I put the game down and walk away from it frequently.  I did play for a couple of hours with the nephew tonight until we finally won a Victory Royal!.  We were at the end of the game - meaning there were 5 people left and 2 of them were us.  It shows you how many players are left in the game with a constant update.  

We had gotten stuck in the storm - the storm slowly kills you, it moves in intervals and if it overcomes you, you have limited time to get out of it. It slowly takes away your health until you are dead.  Well, the newest update has this bullet thing that you ride on, I was able to escape it, my nephew was not. We were talking to each other on the mics/headphones albeit we were sitting right next to each other, lol.  He said don't worry about me! Go try and win!  I couldn't have saved him anyway, I was almost dead when I got out of the storm.  The plus side is my shield health was at 100%. The storm only takes away physical health, not shield health.  

So, when you get into a fight with someone, if they shoot you, it first takes away shield health.  Anyway, if I had had med kits - they bring you back to 100% health - and 3 of them - I could have gone back and saved him, but I had none.  Had just used the last one while I was escaping the storm so I wouldn't die before getting out of it. Well, there were 2 other people left.  One of them started shooting at me immediately, but I had my Legendary Twinfire shotgun out already. I shot him dead easily. Then I started running, looking for a med kit.  

I found one and was taking it when I saw footprints.  The game gives you clues on when someone is near you or approaching you.  I"ve learned - those footprints mean someone is very near, do something!  In other words,  don't just keep taking the med kit, drop the rest of it and prepare for battle!  A shot rung out and I ran, turned, put up a build quickly.  

A build is either a metal, brick or wood wall that you can put up to stop incoming fire from hitting you. The most common are wood builds.  I ran backward and got far enough to put another build behind it. I am no great Fortnite player, I do what I can to survive.  I knew they were coming, but I think they expected me to cower and just get blown away. Not so fast, Harry.  As soon as the second build was up, I pulled out my legendary shotgun and then immediately went after that person.  You are far better off on the offensive in this game then defending yourself.  I ran around the first build I put up, the person was crouching there, took a show at me but I fired off a single round out of the shotgun I won!            

If you are a person my age, you would be very surprised how masterful an 8 year old can be at this game and easily outgun adults who have different mindsets. You see, in  a  battle like that, you wouldn't in real life just run up on people without a care in the world and just hope you would win. In this game, players just run up on each other and shoot at each other point blank range. I have watched the pro's tho, they don't always  do that. They depend alot on builds.

Enough of that. A rather complex game, at least to me, which is what makes it engaging for me.  

I must be approaching day 90 of this pushup challenge. I have 25 more to do tonight and I'm done, and yes they'll get done. I have not done it the way they wanted it done and I don't care. I'm happy to just be doing them. 25 at a time. 

I really would like another worker to help out with the park.  It just doesn't seem possible to find a decent person to do it. 

It's almost 10 pm and 5:20 am is looming, time to finish my pushups and go to bed.                 

 Saturday - evening

The ordeal started yesterday.  What is this ordeal you speak of?

Well, I got to the loading plant 20 minutes before my loading time. I was instructed to go ahead and back into the loading bay.

10 minutes later, a dude walks up, says he was told to tell me that I was there early and ;they had to load another truck first - THEIR truck.  I hear this story all the damn time from these people.  But I just complied and said ok, moved out into the parking lot and waited.  And waited.  Watched the loader take a truck into the back and load it, then come out and put a truck into our bay, load that, then honked at me to move into the bay, but then started unloading another truck that had shown up and hour and a half after I arrived.  

I was pretty much fuming at this point. I'm waiting 2-1/2 hours to load? Waiting on their trucks? 

When I got into the control room after they loaded me I let loose. Hadn't done that up until now, but enough is enough.  I sarcastically stated "I figured you'd load a third truck before getting to me". He thought I was joking, my next words confirmed that fact that I was not joking at all. I let loose.  I don't mean in anger or condescending or threatening, just facts.  It ended with "you loaded those 2 trucks ahead of me and they are still sitting in the parking lot". And why did you start unloading that other truck that came in late?!

I was there 3-1/2 hours because of it. My manager called just after I had texted him, but he hadn't seen the texts. He wanted me to lose my Monday off for "drivers are sick and broke down trucks".  I know he's lying, he does that a lot. Someone probably asked for the day off, he could just tell me that instead of making up a bunch of stories that aren't true.  So I went off on this plant and how they are constantly loading their trucks before they even think about getting to us,; what is the point of having an appointment time if you aren't going to come even remotely close to the time you are going to actually load?

I would rather sit at home and wait than sitting in that truck.  I could have left 2 HOURS after I actually left and arrived near time to start loading. MORE than 2 hours, actually.  He said he hears this alot and it's time to confront them on it.  I didn't believe a word he said, he's told me this before and nothing changes.  This time, however, I will call him up late next week and ask if they agreed to do anything about this situation?

After that; I go to Love's, fuel up and then drive another 30 minutes and Kablaaaam!!!

Another trailer tire blows out, this time the tread came almost all the way off, slapped up against the rear bumper and the light box and destroyed all of that. I pulled over onto the 'shoulder' - almost nonexistent there - mostly in the grass - got out and looked. Left side bumper - destroyed. Mud flap - destroyed.  Left side light box bent all the way back against the trailer, lights destroyed and wires hanging out the holes where the lights used to be. 

Yup, I made the phone calls and then got out my Switch game.  If I'm going to be stranded, I might as well do something I like to do while waiting endlessly.

It was close to 3 hours before i got out of there and they mechanics did not replace the mud flap.  We went back and forth on that one, they were supposed to do it.  You just need to drill holes in that flange and it will work.  No, it's too thick, look at it, it won't work.  If you have a drill, yes it will work.  They refused to do it.  It's not legal to drive around with no mud flaps back there for obvious reasons.  

I drove it back to the park, it was getting late and no one that could actually do the work would be open.  And no different this morning, no way I was going to waste many hours of my day trying to find a place to take it to to do all of that work.  The trailer is junkified nicely, it needs to go back to our yard and have the mechanics there fix all of it.  I just hoped and prayed today that I would make it past all 3 weigh stations and not get pulled over.  

40 miles out, the fender came off.  Unbelievable. Fortunately I had bought the U bolts to fix it previously and had left overs, put that back on and got back to the Park safely. I do not want to pull that thing like that any longer.  I'm not sure what to do, for they want me to bring it up there to fix it but the manager wants me to work Monday. I'm off tomorrow/Sunday.  I'm sure as all get out not dealing with this nonsense tomorrow.  I have gone through an earthly hell this week with all of this s***, I'm due a day off.  

Not to mention the AC still doesn't work and the heater is still stuck on and it's going to start warming up quite a lot this coming week.  It is likely that I will load Monday, deliver Tuesday and then back to the yard Tuesday after loading and then - probably spend another night up there while they try to figure out this wiring nightmare on the truck concerning the AC system.  

The only other thing of consequence today was that a couple called desperately looking for a place to park their travel trailer.  Park it, not stay in it. I said sure, I have plenty of room - which I do.  They showed up later, they were coming up from Houston. The issue is that the man is starting a new job in Chicago on Monday and they need to get home by tomorrow so he can get ready for it. Pulling a trailer, they said, would drag it down and take too long.  No problem, it can stay here as long as you need it to.  It's a bumper pull, if I happen to need to move it I can do that with my truck or SUV.  But I had them park it in a place where it shouldn't need to be moved at all.  

As for the rest of the evening, we are going out to eat.  The youngest birthday party was earlier, a bunch of family friends and their kids came over, cake, party, playing and they all left.  Short affair comparatively speaking to other times when they all come over and we play cards for many hours.

The newest proposal is go to the zoo next Sunday and have a group outing.  Sunday isn't a good day for outings for me, if I'm off work, I just want to go to church, go to my usual Applebee's eating and then go home.  But, I haven't been to a zoo in ages so that actually should be fun.  

I'm tired.  The next door neighbor's dogs started barking around 3:00 am and it went on for an hour and  a half or so before they finally shut up.  I  was getting irritated and was going to text the people and ask them politely to silence their dogs, I can't sleep, I have to get up early, please.  If it happens again, I'm definitely going to contact them, unacceptable.  This town has noise ordinances as most towns do....not trying to start a neighbor war but I like whatever sleep I can get.

The fall out from Democrats childish and selfish outbursts at the Trump speech is becoming brutal. Even party members are bashing the representatives that engaged in that ridiculous and heartless action especially. That senator from Pennsylvania Fetterman I think, just blasted them all and that dude is a flaming democrat. 

The party is falling apart at the seams and these politicians are completely clueless.

Anyway, I'm done.  Just wanted to write about the latest happenings.