The, uhh, doctor, was a bit out of sorts, I do believe. She was not necessarily focused - a day after the death of a loved one, perhaps, might do that to a person. I tried the empathy route: my best friend died a month plus ago.
Yes, that helped ease the situation in the room. I don't know what her notes said on that computer, but she had totally forgotten that she was going to cut things out of my flesh and that a full body inspection was to be done.
Not cause' I WANTED any such thing, but that she ordered it the first time I went there. I just went along with wherever she was going with this, but I was giving hints along the way. She wanted to "freeze" things again on my flesh. I suggested that when I was here the last time, you were talking about cutting things off. She said something about the full body exam last time, I mentioned that that hadn't been done and that you were talking about doing such this time. After a while of this, a light turned on in her head and she remembered all of it.
Well, she says, do you want to do the exam today or just put it off to some other time? No, thank you, let's get this done today. I didn't bother to mention that the $50 co-pay isn't exactly appealing and let's get all of this done NOW, don't ask me to come back again for awhile unless there is some serious issue. She's a nice lady, I cut her huge slack for going to visit family of the deceased and then coming back to work the next day. Okay, now I am taking off my clothes to the underwear and putting on a gown.
She finds - I don't know, this went on for quite a while - 30 of them? Basil cell lesions all over my body. Legs, arms, face, neck and back. Unbelievable. I'm thinking what the heck am I living in this damned desert for. Get OUT of this place. Go to Minnesota where it's currently 28 below zero or something. Yeah, THAT sounds wonderful.
She didn't cut out the stuff in my arms that she said that she was going to do last time. Instead, she got out the Nitrogen thing and started freezing all of it. Face, arms, legs, back. "Did you know you have huge lesions on your lower back?". No, thanks for telling me. "You have sensitive skin, we're going to have to deal with this redness". Yes, I hope we do. Look, it's not that she's a nasty person, or even putting it nasty, it's just that the news is becoming increasingly - depressing really - as this goes on, and on, and on.
We get to this "thing" on my upper back that I didn't even know was there. She was particularly concerned about that. So much so, that she cut a good sized chunk of flesh out. It doesn't feel particularly good at this point in time, either.
I'm not in a good mood right now. That visit today, in and of itself would not have put me in a bad mood, it would definitely get me thinking about things, but not a bad mood. No, but then this kid tenant calls me and tells me I need to write him up a statement for Arizona's "free" health care declaring the amount of rent he is paying me per month. He didn't ask me, it was a demand. Like I MUST do it for him. I got off the phone quickly with him - I am at the line with this guy. That's the line where you cross and some very negative things will start issuing from my mouth.
Then I found out that tonight, it's going to be even colder than last night. A low of 27?!!! The HIGH today was 47. Yeah, I know, the rest of the country is in a blizzard and minus zero temps, I'm sorry and I hope that everyone comes through that okay. I am just not used to this kind of winter. I"m sure that some scientist somewhere will try to find a way to attribute all of this to global warming.
However, the agitator for me about the cold tonight are my plants. Some of it isn't going to survive, even if covered up, if it gets too cold for too long a period of time. I have my C-7 Christmas lights covering 2/3rd's the side of the east side of my house in plants. If some plants out front die, I can deal with that, dig them up, throw them out and do something else. But over THERE, where my ponds are? NO thanks. Those lights put off some amount of heat, that coupled with being completely covered up with blankets and I am hopeful for a good outcome.
You know, some days you just put behind you and put them out of your system. This is going to be one of them. It didn't get any better, with the kid tenant who has no clue in life. Sympathy and empathy with your common man is non-existent with this person and after he started up with his stuff, I snapped at him and gave a very clear signal that I didn't want to hear it. It's amazing this person has made it this long in life without learning basic, elemental respect and common courtesy for your fellow man. I don't know, but he departed for his room after that and I haven't seen him since, which is a very good thing, thank you.
You wanna go on? I wanted to print something off of my old computer - I don't have this computer connected to the printer, that is going to change. I tried to bring up the internet and the freaking thing got error messages and took forever to get there. The usage of the computer is going to be changed from administrative to the "lower" tier, don't remember what it's called. The lower tier does not allow downloads and restricts lots of sites.
Then, I had to worry about my dogs in the cold tomorrow morning. Put the sweaters on them, that's what I will do. How long will that last? Not long. I already spoke with Lynnette, one of the trailer tenants, she will GLADLY come in here with the dogs. Okay, well, they're going outside until she brings them in, but I won't worry cause' yes, they will have heavy sweaters on and that will be sufficient. She is going to get up and bring them in.
It's just one of those days. I haven't even gone into all the crap I've read on the news, or the terrifying situation going on in Australia.
Uhhh, so this entry is done.
Looking for a bit better day tomorrow.
ben
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Thursday
I don't think it got quite as cold as the weather people thought it was going to. They were predicting a hard freeze, yet I just checked the temp and it is 32 degrees. Yes, I just checked another source, it's 32 degrees. I believe my plants can survive that, it's the 25 degrees they were forecasting that had me worried.
Meanwhile, my dogs are giving me stares this morning as I put on their sweaters and herded them out the door. Sorry, doggies, but with those sweaters on at least you'll stay warm. They are all short-haired dogs, not exactly the kind of coat necessary to keep warm on a cold winter's day. The trailer tenants are going in the house this morning. Lynnette said around 8, I'm guessing they are in there right NOW, lol. Well, they'll take the dogs in with them is the point. I guess they feel they need to have a valid reason to be in the house, this apparently fits the bill.
I'm absorbed with the Egypt chaos going on. Now the military is doing something to at least put a stop to the violence, that's a good thing, I'm curious to see where this is all leading. Are the protesters really going to be able to get 1,000,000 people out there? If they could, that would be a sight to behold.
My back is hurting. I have had chunks of flesh ripped out of my body on a few occasions in my life, it ranks right up there with the worst of it. I have no idea how much she cut off of there, but it must have been a good sized amount cause' usually, stuff like that doesn't last very long in the pain department if it's small.
As for all the bad news she gave me yesterday, I just have to shrug my shoulders. I can't do anything about the past, I can only look towards the future. I haven't used much sun screen in my lifetime, so, my left arm has a lot of "stuff" on it. She told me I better start using sunscreen on my arms as well. I have been using it on my face since she told me to - even though there is now a suspicion floating around that sunscreen can cause cancer.
Saturday is my 47th birthday. I don't really know what to think about that. I sorta feel as long as I'm in my 40's, I'm not really that old, but don't say that to the younger generation. According to them, you'd think I already have one foot in the grave.
I don't know, but I am seriously considering going back to the gym. There is a Gold's Gym about 3 miles away from my house. I spoke with an individual on the phone yesterday, he would not, of course, give me a price over the phone. Typical sales pitch, sounded like a car salesman. Come in, sit down and we'll figure out what you need. You mean, come in, sit down and sign on the dotted line, don't you? I didn't ask if it was a contractual arrangement, if it is, I won't be going to that gym. Too many other gyms no longer require contracts.
I think they just want to try and persuade you to sign up. I AM serious about working out at this point, which is the only reason I called. I could hit the gym on the way home from work 3 days a week to start. Not going to set any weight loss goals at all, just want to get in there, get on the cardio machines and take advantage of a much greater selection of free weights. Plus, they usually have a machine that works on your abs.
I think I could get into it again, but this round, I want a portable music player of some sort, one that you can download music to. You know, the kind of music that motivates you? I know plenty of rock and other style music that gets me moving, lol.
Well, I finally got out of him - the dude at the gym on the phone - that the "average" monthly fee is about $25, which is what I expected. A FAR cry from the days of yesteryear where you were expected to sign at least a 1 year contract and the fees were much higher than that.
I'm just about at the end of the "thought" process - do I really want to do this - and into the yes, let's get with it. If I find I simply can't muster myself to getting in there at least 3 days a week, I'll drop it and feel stupid for not having enough motivation to work out at an organized venue. I think that is enough motivation in itself.
Right now? Well, I'm not very motivated to go out into the freezing cold and start pulling orders to load onto the truck to go out to jobsites, but, that's the nature of the business I am working at and really have no choice...........
...g'day.
ben
Ben - I have to do the same thing with my skin. I go twice a year. All the sun damage from the beach and outdoors comes to get you. Cheers on your 47th. I'm 47 in March so you can be the "old man" in the bunch.
At our age, putting cardio ahead of weights makes the most sense. You need at least 30 minutes of that 4-7 times a week Ben. While you are at it you should most likely take a baby aspirin everyday and a fish oil cap or two.
I go to the gym/pool or run 6 days out of 7. Do I love it? Not necessarily. I go because I have to keep my heart strong and my blood pressure down. I enter races to keep me motivated otherwise I might slack off just a bit.
Bobby, good advice. I worked out at gyms for quite a number of years. They have the equipment I want to use. There is this mountain climbing machine that is like walking up stairs, but the difficulty level can be set to whatever you like. That is the one I like the best. Sweat like a pig for 45 minutes and you're done, head over to the free weights.
I find a bit more motivation when I'm around other people that are doing the same thing for pretty much the same reasons than trying to do it alone. I know you work out like crazy, I'm not even close to that right now, 3 days a week would be a good start at a gym, I think.
Yes, I have spent much of my life outdoors. Not a bad thing, really, I don't know that mankind was even designed to spend most of our time indoors anyway, but living in a desert with sun beaming down lots of UV rays has taken it's toll. Hind sight, shoulda put on the sunscreen, but, at least I did start wearing long pants and wearing shirts a long time ago instead of walking around in shorts and shirtless - this situation would be far worse if so.
ben
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