So, after being requested to do so, I wrote up a detailed accounting of what happened at cheniere and sat on it for 2 days - until today that is. He didn't want it until tonight and obviously I'm not going to be sent out on any more runs until they decide whether I stay or go.  

I'm not going to wait on a potential "go" decision and will be putting out applications at places that look like they are decent, pay somewhere in the range I want and are home or mostly home daily.  
That may be a challenge, of course, especially the home daily part, but that is where my search will begin.  The money I have been saving for land will just have to be spent on living expenses if it comes down to that.  If so, I have enough money in my account to last probably 5 or 6 months if I don't do anything but pay bills, eat and not go out to eat or any of the other things I occasionally do that cost money.  

I have to say here that I never intended on this job being a permanent one, I just wanted to get some money saved up and then find something different that doesn't keep my out for days at a time.  That gets old, I'll tell ya right now.  The normal 600 plus miles per day and 14 hour shifts are part of that thinking.  Sure, there are shorter runs, but all of the shorter runs cost 14 hours and more.  I figured 3 more years or so and then find something different.  

Anyway, I am partially at fault for the event that transpired there, of that I won't lie about and didn't with the accounting I sent in. Clear conscience and also they probably have asked for and received the accounting from the security guards. Tho I have to wonder how that supervisor could possibly defend his demeanor during that event in going off the rails, yelling and completely unprofessional conduct. That facility is a multi-billion dollar operation, but, if they don't have any recordings of him going off then it's their word against mine and I will simply accept the fact that my word will be discounted and my employer, the "at will" people that get rid of people all the time - are going to dismiss me.

I am not wanting that kind of outcome, but I'm definitely mentally prepared for that, including the idea of having to go tomorrow and clean out my stuff out of the truck.  There will be no hard feelings, I"m not going to become agitated there, I'll shake the manager's hand if he allows me to do so, say nice working with you and move on with my life.  

But again, if that's what happens, I'm going to focus my search on lucrative local jobs.  Now that I have 3 solid years of accident free tanker experience, perhaps I can get on a fuel gig.  Or some other type of tanker setup that pays - usually much better than dry vans, reefer or flatbed hauling.  I have experience in all of that and more.  There are other tanker companies that go to the loading plant - but I haven't heard anything great from the drivers there about how the company treats them.  

Enough of that. I am hauling dirt today from the pile that was dumped. I'm almost half finished hauling the dirt but the project in the back is almost full.  The holes have been filled around the yard and the hole in the front yard is finished. Meaning I have more dirt than I needed.  I'm going to haul several loads to behind the shed and dump a pile there for future use, I did that a few years ago and ended up using all of it. The rest I  guess I'll just have to dump in the stream. The next heavy rain that comes will wash all of that away.  Speaking of rain, I need to get that stuff out of there on the side of the house before that happens. So I"m gonna haul another 10 loads today and try to finish up tomorrow. Even if my company lets me stay on, I won't have any work tomorrow.  

And as far as the news goes? I'm not watching any of it.  I shut it off after the projected Biden win for the most part.  Today I've watched nothing but a few clips of Biden continuing to claim he is going to "unite the nation".  Biden isn't the person that will united this nation, neither is Harris. They both have blasted Trump and supporters for years now but especially heated up after they won the democrat nomination.  We've been labeled racists forever and I'm sick of it.  The left haven't even stopped calling GOP names, it's still going on, which is why I decided to shut off the news for the most part and just take a glance here and there. Michelle Obama took a huge swipe at republicans, not just trump and so have a lot of hollywood elites, left politicians and definitely left media types gloating and smearing trump supporters.  If that's their formulae for uniting a divided nation, I have news for them.

As it stands, my belief is that only the Lord can unite this nation and I'm not sure that's going to happen. Or if it does, it will be under severely dire circumstances which force us to have to band together against a common enemy.  

I AM curious as to what Trump is going to do with his last days.  I know the election is only projected to Biden, but I don't see anything concrete happening that will change the outcome regardless of if there is fraud and faulty machinery that was allegedly giving Biden votes that should have been counted as Trump and so on. He could probably get the Senate to continue on with appointing Federal justices if nothing else.  Might as well get something accomplished in his last days.  If there was some miracle and Trump somehow were to win this election, the chaos that would ensue isn't something I even want to think about.  

And the news just in that Alex Trebek has died at the age of 80.  RIP

With that, I"m heading out the door and hauling more dirt.