Sunday - morning.

Hotels have been using the ever lasting excuse of Covid to not serve any kind of breakfast, this hotel is no different. They have coffee and that's it.  Well, that's better than nothing!

I have 40 minutes until I can even got on the on-duty clock.  I didn't sleep well last night, not because the room wasn't quiet or the bed wasn't comfy, I'm just tossing and turning.  That's ok, Sunday drives are usually the easiest, get this trip over with and go home - hopefully anyway - and get some sleep.  

The property can stay on a shelf until I hear anything new.  I'm doing no research and haven't been looking for any other properties, that got old long ago. I've already got a pre-determined path for the property anyway, I've written about that several times, I'm just on hold at the moment.

Adventure and challenges are what interest me, tho, hence the property sort of takes close to the top position in my mind.  Everyone needs challenges to stay ... involved in life I guess I'll put it.  Without new challenges, adventures or something to pique your curiosity and perhaps confront you with decisions and things you have to do to get past that challenge, life can get pretty boring.

Goals are also good.  I've always had goals and have pursued them until either realized and done or to the recognition that they are unachievable and create new goals for something different.  My trucking career has been a continuous goal of sorts until I got to this job and have stopped looking for anything "better".  Money and home time were the goal, I've got a bit of best of both worlds going.  Not that I'm happy with this career, but at least I've got it as good as it's going to get.  I think.  Lol, no, I'm not looking for a new job either.  If the company decides at some point my services are no longer needed, that is about the only time that I can think of in my current state of mind that I would start looking again.

There is a Facebook group filled with our company's drivers and many of them are of the thought that there is no job security in this particular company.  I don't believe anyone thinks that after seeing them let go managers, dispatchers, drivers without, in most cases, any good reason.  Ok, the drivers were probably warranted. One ran over an automatic gate and did 10k worth of damage. They didn't get rid of her at that point, but her productivity was in the tanks.  She'd take several days longer than anyone else getting trips done, pull over and sleep for long periods of time.

Turns out she was just trying to make it until the end of last year when she would qualify for the level of Social Security she wanted before retiring.  This lady boasted how she had "nothing" saved for retirement.  Several times over, I heard her bragging how she literally had zero money saved.  I just couldn't fathom that.  

The other driver was a drunk.  He would sit in the office after hours with half a gallon of Wild Turkey and sit there drinking until he passed out.  One day, he forgot about the bottle and got up and went to his truck. A middle management guy found the bottle. They couldn't prove it was him but they had their suspicions.  They were just looking for a good enough reason to fire him and they found it after the driver started cussing out a shop manager at a Peterbilt repair facility.  He was pissed because they kept calling him, telling him the truck was done and then he'd show up and - the truck wasn't done.  Although I can see getting a bit upset, he went off on this dude.  

That's really the liquor speaking tho.  I would see him at the yard in Brownsville so lit up he didn't even know where he was. He'd brag about how he got up at 5 am and started drinking.  Insanity.  He even had the gall to tell the manager that he was a "functioning alcoholic".  She never reported it, but the company fired his @$$ after that deal with the Peterbilt shop.  

The point is that I have no job security regardless of how well I behave myself.  I don't expect it with this company and therefore I won't be shocked if they come to me one day and say it's time to part ways.  I probably won't even bother to ask why, don't really care. If you're just a number/name on their computer screen and nothing more, I'm not going to bother hearing a lecture on whatever their reason is.  Many trucking companies are - or were anyway - like that. We are in a different trucking landscape now, tho, with companies begging for drivers to come to their greener grass and experience higher pay! and better home time! Better home time is an empty promise that most companies won't honor. Recruiters will bald-faced lie to you about home time, new trucks, perks - whatever they think you need to hear to quit your current job and join up with them. 

I don't even have it in my mind what I would do if they let me go, tbh.  Just a bridge I would cross if the bridge presented itself.  Probably look at local jobs tho.  Maybe try to get on with a fuel hauling company. 

Well, I stopped keto diet when we went on vacation and never went back on it.  Amazing how fast the fat piles back on!  I'm thinking to fast all day today and tomorrow and maybe even the next day. Not just for dieting sake, tho, but for seeking the Lord.  Haven't decided on that yet, hence it's good there isn't any food downstairs for breakfast.  I usually do drink coffee - black - on a fast just to keep the caffeine headaches away.  It's enough to stop eating, coffee isn't off the list, just can't add any creamer.  

Kick starting Keto is relatively easy if you just don't eat for a few days, your body is going to go into that mode by itself.  Instead of who knows how long before you get into ketosis.  I'm ready for another diet, tbh, but I haven't decided which and right now? I need to get this gut back off of me.  I don't wear fat well lol.

With that, I bid you a happy, enjoyable Sunday. Don't forget to worship your Creator today!

G'day.