Well, after looking at my credit accounts, I can safely say I need to stop spending money on "stuff".  And I will be starting  - actually about a week ago.  

Regardless.  I'm not going to go into too many specifics since this is on the open internet, but another driver came to me this morning while I was sitting in my truck, as I'm doing now, waiting on an empty trailer.  He gets the first one that comes in, I get the second - which isn't slated to be here until mid to late afternoon (and if it gets too late, they are SOL for me getting back there before tomorrow morning).  

He uhh - wants to hand me something.  I was a bit shocked considering what "it" was.  Not really, thanks. 

Then, after he had just started asking me, the police show up.  A lot of police show up. They are looking at me, sitting in my truck. Uhh, dude, what did you do?  Well I didn't kill anyone, he says.  Well that's good! geeze, didn't expect that kind of response.  "They're here for me".  

Police come to my truck, look at me and say, are you __________________ insert name here?  No, that's him.  I wasn't trying to out him, but since he was standing right there and he wasn't trying to run or hide, it seemed the thing to do at the time and he knew they were coming for him.  

My curiosity is more than piqued at this point, I'm involved in this to some degree now, what is going on? One of the police takes me aside and tells me that he had called the suicide hotline.  Oh dang! Yup, when people say they are ready to kill themselves, they call us to come intervene.  Yeah, sounds about right to me.  At least try to talk to the person and see if they can get him/her into some counseling, take him in for evaluation.  I'm not going to go into details of his history since that would give all of this away.  

And I'm not really going to say much more about it here.  Just the whole thing took me by surprise. Cops asking me if I knew anything about this? No, I talked to him earlier he didn't say anything about wanting to do anything like that!  Driver contacted me later - he told the police he was alright, tho they grilled him for quite a while - but at the end of it, the police said they can't force him to go get an evaluation.

Well, ladies and gentlemen, if you go so far as to call a suicide hot line and tell them you are ready to kill yourself, you are 1: in serious trouble and need immediate help and 2; you need counseling, or even a psychologist to examine you and help you deal with whatever it is that's eating you. You are obviously crying out for help.  You look at people and you can't tell that's going on inside of them.  I talked to him earlier he seemed perfectly normal.  He was in the truck stop waiting for his number to be called to take a shower. 

Okay, IMHO, you really need Jesus.  People ignore God until they - need God.  They don't think they need God and shun Him and even attempt to mock Him, but in the end, even on people's death beds (I've seen it personally) - many people who said no thanks to the Lord change their tune at some point in their lives.  Money, fame, power, earthly happiness - none of that takes the place of the Lord Jesus Christ, the Father God and the Holy Spirit.  It just doesn't, regardless of what anyone thinks.  But, when you say that kind of thing to people who think that way, the say stop shoving religion down our throats. Well sir, if you think that little bit of a statement is shoving religion down your throat, I can see why you are distressed.

Anyway, I hope the man finds help, I encouraged him to see a counselor at the very least and that's about all I can do.  

On another note, another person I know is considering becoming a surrogate mother for a couple that can't have babies.  She already has kids and doesn't want anymore, but says she is fine with carrying the baby until birth, it's the responsibility afterwards that she doesn't want to deal with.  I can understand that, kids are a handful and they take up a lot of time, energy and money.  The young ones need constant supervision and can't really do much of anything for themselves.  They get a little older and they can start dealing with things themselves but still need a lot of supervision.  Teen years I suppose they are at the point - you hope anyway - they can deal with most things themselves and don't need endless supervision. The DO need some supervision, just not constant or even near constant.  

I think it very noble of her to offer that to these people. I did suggest that she really thinks about it, maternal instincts can be very strong and maybe the person wants the baby after all.  But, she says she has given it consideration for a long, long time now and this is the first real opportunity for her to do so for someone.  She knows these people so they would stay in contact throughout the child's life.  It isn't a surrogate mother for some random people.  

And then there's little old me.  No word on the SUV, the ATV or the property.  Lol.  I'm calling the shop today to ask again if they have the part yet?  And if not, can they track it or find out what's going on? Cause' I'm spoiled and I really don't like driving hot vehicles in summer temperatures.  Feels like you're in a sweat box with the high temps and high humidity.  

Since the ATV shop never called back, I'll assume they had to order a new master cylinder. I'm not calling them today, I've had enough excitement for one day and I'm facing driving late into the night.  I will text the contractor again to see where we're at with the septic permit.  It's a bit after noon and I think I'll take a nap and try to prepare myself for the drive that's coming regardless of when it gets here - unless it's night time and then I'll just leave out tomorrow morning.  

Yes, I have been watching the latest mass shooting. Gruesome, horrifying and heart-breaking.  I guessed yesterday that someone knew about this man being unstable and afterwards? yup, the man was known to be unstable and no-one did anything about it.  That is where the breakdown is, IMO.  If someone has guns or if someone is talking about killing people or whatever it is that indicates this person is capable of carrying out such a gruesome thing, someone should probably say something.  Just like the dude today.  Should he be carrying guns in his state of mind? IMO, absolutely NOT. That doesn't mean he would go off on a killing spree, but no one wants him to shoot himself, either.  If you aren't going to say something to authorities, convince or at least try to convince the person to seek help. Offer the person help to find help. DO SOMETHING as a caring human being.  Gun control laws have no or very little effect on people intent on doing what the man did yesterday at that 4th of July parade near Chicago.  

That's my little rant, I'm not going to spend any more time on that subject.  I am going to get offa here and take nap.

G'day