Saturday - 8 am

Sleeping in late today isn't an option.  Unfortunately.  I can do that tomorrow, church doesn't start until 11.

Yes, I have today off but it isn't really off per se.  This is why I need more 2 day off stints in a row than what I am getting and that is apparently going to happen, at least temporarily.  I didn't ask for it, no.  It's just that all 4 drivers are up and running now.  This last several weeks of grinding away working every day or skipping one day - last Sunday - but having to do Sunday's work on Monday and Monday's as well has worn thin on me.

The fact that I am taking 8 days off in a week and a half is of little consequence at this particular moment.  And vacations are usually more tiring than every day life.  I am looking forward to it, yes, I'm just tired and want a break.  That ain't happening today as I was informed a tree fell over the driveway last night, the driveway itself needs dragged with the tractor yet again and there is grass to be mowed not to mention the mound of dirt. 

I doubt I will do all of that today, but I"ll get as much done as I can before the heat melts me into a puddle of dried up bones and I drag myself home.

I would really love to just have the park to deal with an nothing else.  

The day isn't getting any younger and I am leaving here in about half an hour, I just want a few moments to drink some coffee, reflect a bit and set my mind to the tasks at hand.  

As you know, the family is on vacation and the dude won't be back until next week with his oldest kid - that's a product of another relationship before this current one.  That's a long story not worth going into right now.  I can say that it is nice to not have the sounds of screaming kids - well one in particular does most of the screaming - and not having to hear the constant dealing of parents talking with children attempting to instill some wisdom into their tiny brains.  I have been taking care of 3 cats, a dog and the fish. 

The cats are a chore in and of themselves, I am finding out.  I have never really dealt with them, they aren't my animals and they really don't spend much time with me, they are mostly Taylor's other children in a sense and they take care of them.  Water, food, clean out kitty litter, one goes outside, comes in at night, etc.

As for anything else? Well, I will work for 5 or 6 hours today and then I will treat myself to eating out.  I have been doing very well on this berry and vegetable diet.  Nuts, salmon, cutting back on tuna since I am reading that they have levels of mercury that can be dangerous if you're eating a lot of it.  Canned salmon it is!  Alright, oven cooked some frozen filets last night and they were very delicious.  The only red meat I have eating in the last 3 weeks was on father's day and that was a hamburger. 

I will very likely eat a small steak with potatoes today and I won't regret it at all.  I think if I could incorporate this diet semi-permanently, my internal health will be much better, especially cholesterol levels.

Speaking of that, I need to get over to the Health Expresscare place and get my DOT thing done.  I really should do that today, it's just  going to have to wait until Monday.  That is the absolute latest I want to wait for that.  Mostly, I just want to get as much of the 2 years out of that as I can.  You go in a month early, you just lost a month on that card by updating it early.  I have to pay that out of pocket..

And this ridiculous notion that now another person is on vacation trying to get approval for this septic permit. I am very dissatisfied with this septic company.  They did great the first time around, this time they are slacking and making ridiculous excuses. "I don't know what happened!". 

BS. You dropped the ball, you put my file in a cabinet somewhere and forgot about it.  I'd rather they admit the truth about it than making up stupid, unbelievable stories.  Meanwhile, the owner is on the local gossip group posting photos of their "current work" they did this week installing 3 systems.  Nonsense.  Take care of my situation and I'll get back to you on reviews.  Right now, I'm just not reviewing this experience, I'll let it go for a myriad of reasons.  Mostly, because if I put up a negative review, that may end up hurting me with the installation.  If they decided they didn't want to do it because of it, I wouldn't care, there are other players in town and in the region.

I don't know what else. Need to order some jeans, that's what else. I can't find my size at any Walmart.  They rarely carry my waist size and apparently they are snatched up when they do. I order them on line.  I am trying to lose weight/fat, yes, but that is apparently going to be a slow process, in the mean time I'd like some new digs to wear for this trip.  Maybe 3 new pairs of plain Jane jeans, we aren't talking anything fancy here, I am not that kind of person at all.  I like my jeans and t shirts.  I can afford more expensive clothing, I just choose not to.

In fact, I really don't live a fancy life at all.  I don't really care anything about that. Probably because I was brought up in poverty.  Old house with no AC at all - I didn't even know what AC was until we moved to Arizona.  Just plain food served but it was good.  Nothing fancy, one TV in the house, all the things you might remember as a child if you have been around for a while.  Playing outside was our thing and we loved it, contrary to what's going on with kids now.

Parents let their kids play unendingly on video games. The ones I encounter are spending their entire summers just playing video games.  There is a saying that has been created by gamers that is called "Touch Grass".  It is used when a person shows their stats on a game, in this case Fortnite. It shows their wins, hours played etc.  Other come on and say you need to touch grass, meaning get your @$$ out of the house and do something else, like touching grass, lmao.  Every new season on Fortnite, you start at zero again in your games won, hours spent etc.  You see people with ridiculous amounts of hours and then they look at mine and I'm like, yeah, I have a job, a business and a life outside of gaming. 

I like to play but my whole life doesn't revolve around it. It can't. I have goals and I want those goals realized.  That doesn't happen sitting at a desk behind a computer monitor. I'm not even in the game right now at all, it's completely shut down but Epic - the owner of Fortnite, is sending me notifications that I am invited to so and so's party, in this case "Strong Guppy". They come up with really weird names lol.  

The thing is, a lot of these people have aspirations of becoming champs and winning money at the game.  That is possible but highly unlikely. You have to be really good.  You watch the pro's and they are worlds ahead of me on that game - but I don't play the game to win money, I just like playing the game.  It's fun and there is a social aspect to it as well if the other players have mics.  If they don't, it's still fun albeit reduced level of experience.  

Anyway, I'm not even playing that this morning.  I'll get wrapped up in it and I need to get to work.  My coffee is done, just need to make some ice water, heat up some coffee for the thermos, have a piece of bread - toasted with fake butter and get out of here.  Oh, and put that new chainsaw together I received weeks ago and still have yet to use, lol!

G'day