Hmmm, well for all the superstitious people out there, prepare yourself: tomorrow is Friday and falls on the 13th.
I have decided one of the best ways to find a new place to live is to simply keep my eyes open. I drive all over the place in the east valley - which is where I prefer to live - there are "lower income" areas all over the place. Whether they accept hundreds of pounds of dogs, who knows. There is one thing for certain: after 2012, the government is allegedly going to start coming after people for taxes owed on the difference in a short sale and if one is going to get it done, best get it done this year.
Moving is such an arduous task, though. I can only say that I am happy that I do not have a LOT of stuff. I have stuff, just like everyone, but not piles of things that would have to be moved. Mostly furniture more than anything. I have to get myself into the mode of yes, I am leaving this place regardless and keep that mode up for quite a while before I will even force myself into this action. I could start the short-sale process today, but to sell it before I even know where I am going? Lol. Not going to happen. I'm going to check the maps for county islands and land and see what's available in those areas as well. Some of it is well out into the boonies, but I work in Chandler which is a bit closer to the boonies. I guess I'm saying with these dogs, there aren't a lot of rental options out there.
A pre-cursory glance at the Craigslist housing ads shows a LOT of rental units allowing dogs. However, it is doubtful that most or any of those places are going to allow Great Danes, much less 2-1/2 of them. I suppose I could just write up a form letter and start sending it out to all of them in my price range. There are both houses and apartments alike claiming dogs are allowed. The arrangement would include a room for Mark and Lynnette, if they so desired to move on with me as this would be an ideal situation, at least for me.
In that case, it would have to be minimum 3 bedrooms to accommodate for Caleb as well. The only type of "apartment" I would even consider is a single story situation. There are many duplexes and quadplexes over in Mesa, probably at good rates I am guessing. Not far from Caleb's job or school and Mark and Lynnette prefer to live in Mesa, anyway.
That is, undoubtedly, the first area I am going to start looking in since it is loaded with houses and other types of rentals that would be in the price range I am looking for.
I have only mentioned to tenants here that I am thinking about doing this, I haven't concretely sealed that in cement yet as I am working on another refinance option, a lead I was given by a mortgage broker at a large bank who says she has worked with this particular company for 15 years and they are good at getting things done. If I could JUST bring the payment down another couple of hundred bucks a month, I wouldn't even think about moving out of this place. That would be the one thing that would keep me in this house. It would make it a good rental unit - at say $800 per month, a house with 5 bedrooms would easily rent in this market. Perhaps it would at a grand a month, too, but, I don't want to take that kind of chance.
In that scenario, I would have to start saving up a substantial down payment on another house since banks aren't really all that kind about second loans - but with enough down payment that situation can be altered.
Well, the day's work is almost here and near time to leave for work. As of lates, plenty to do at work and today? Plenty of driving to do as well.
G'day.
ben
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Wednesday 1/11/2012
Back to regular, 5-day work weeks.
Meaning today is hump day and half way through.
A couple of weeks of very short work weeks sort of spoiled me, lol.
Not a lot going on besides that of which I have already discussed.
I am guessing, on that front, that to short sell this house and find a place to
live that will accept the dogs, it's not going to be a very pretty place, even if a
rental.
Like, more of a dump than anything. I could live with that for a couple of years
for the tradeoff of getting rid of this house that may never be worth what I bought
it for and getting into something much more reasonable that is even nicer than this place.
When I say dump, I am thinking one of those trailer parks with dirt lots and lots of
hoarders, drunks, drug users and the like.
So, I will look for something a bit nicer than that, lol. This is prep stage - find several
options first. If one fails, others are available to fall back on. Get money saved up - moving
isn't free and neither are deposits. Determine if I REALLY want to do this or is there a
better alternative. Dunno. Have searched it out, really. Refinancing- at least so far - has
drawn a blank. A lower payment would keep me in this house. The payment I am making
now? Is enough nowadays to be paying for a 4,000 square foot, 2 story house with all the upgrades
and amenities. I'll take the top floor and rent out the bottom, lol.
Whatever. Another page in the book of this life.
Out the door, heading off to work.
G'day.
ben
Meaning today is hump day and half way through.
A couple of weeks of very short work weeks sort of spoiled me, lol.
Not a lot going on besides that of which I have already discussed.
I am guessing, on that front, that to short sell this house and find a place to
live that will accept the dogs, it's not going to be a very pretty place, even if a
rental.
Like, more of a dump than anything. I could live with that for a couple of years
for the tradeoff of getting rid of this house that may never be worth what I bought
it for and getting into something much more reasonable that is even nicer than this place.
When I say dump, I am thinking one of those trailer parks with dirt lots and lots of
hoarders, drunks, drug users and the like.
So, I will look for something a bit nicer than that, lol. This is prep stage - find several
options first. If one fails, others are available to fall back on. Get money saved up - moving
isn't free and neither are deposits. Determine if I REALLY want to do this or is there a
better alternative. Dunno. Have searched it out, really. Refinancing- at least so far - has
drawn a blank. A lower payment would keep me in this house. The payment I am making
now? Is enough nowadays to be paying for a 4,000 square foot, 2 story house with all the upgrades
and amenities. I'll take the top floor and rent out the bottom, lol.
Whatever. Another page in the book of this life.
Out the door, heading off to work.
G'day.
ben
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
The Final Question
It's been a long and tough inner battle, both mind and heart.
To short sale or not. Your credit is trashed - but not for that long, I have found out.
Less than 2 years. Some people less than 1 year and their credit is up near where it was
when they did the short-sell on their house and walked away from it.
They are renting wherever and saving money to put a down payment on a new
house.
When I heard last week that this kind of thing is not a long-term trashing of your
credit score, I then started looking into this all over again. If you look at it from a
purely business type of mindset, the ONLY logido is to get out of the house and do
it as fast as possible. My house is almost 50% underwater. When you start looking
at the statistics that it may be as far out as the year 2023 before I can even break even?
That pretty much sent me over the edge. I do NOT want to live in this neighborhood
forever. A young guy at work just bought a new - and very nice - house with only $4,500 down.
Another short-sold his house about 7 months ago. His credit score is almost back to where it
was before he sold it and got out of it. My mortgage company jumps all over the "opportunity" - for whatever reason - to get the paperwork started on a short-sale. I don't get it. I mean, it was as if they wanted me to do it!
The final great question, however, would be: where would I live? Even the "experts" that are encouraging people to do so get to this question and have some reservations. If I wanted to keep my dogs, that eliminates all apartment complexes of any decency. I don't want to rent a house. This is the next dilemna with this situation that I will have to answer before I even think about short-selling this place. I'm not the sort of person who just dumps your dogs because it creates an inconvenience.
There must be a reasonable answer to this and I am going to search it out and hunt it down, if it does, indeed, exist.
Well, that question will be occupying the next coming days. But now? Bedtime.
To short sale or not. Your credit is trashed - but not for that long, I have found out.
Less than 2 years. Some people less than 1 year and their credit is up near where it was
when they did the short-sell on their house and walked away from it.
They are renting wherever and saving money to put a down payment on a new
house.
When I heard last week that this kind of thing is not a long-term trashing of your
credit score, I then started looking into this all over again. If you look at it from a
purely business type of mindset, the ONLY logido is to get out of the house and do
it as fast as possible. My house is almost 50% underwater. When you start looking
at the statistics that it may be as far out as the year 2023 before I can even break even?
That pretty much sent me over the edge. I do NOT want to live in this neighborhood
forever. A young guy at work just bought a new - and very nice - house with only $4,500 down.
Another short-sold his house about 7 months ago. His credit score is almost back to where it
was before he sold it and got out of it. My mortgage company jumps all over the "opportunity" - for whatever reason - to get the paperwork started on a short-sale. I don't get it. I mean, it was as if they wanted me to do it!
The final great question, however, would be: where would I live? Even the "experts" that are encouraging people to do so get to this question and have some reservations. If I wanted to keep my dogs, that eliminates all apartment complexes of any decency. I don't want to rent a house. This is the next dilemna with this situation that I will have to answer before I even think about short-selling this place. I'm not the sort of person who just dumps your dogs because it creates an inconvenience.
There must be a reasonable answer to this and I am going to search it out and hunt it down, if it does, indeed, exist.
Well, that question will be occupying the next coming days. But now? Bedtime.
Tuesday 1/10/2012
Well, not much time here.
I called Josie last night - she is being moved to some sort of treatment facility where they are going to evaluate her and decide what to do with her. My pastors really want to go down there and minister to her, but, that can't happen until this process is over, apparently.
Day 2 of fasting. I am spending time in the Word and seeking the Lord while skipping a meal. Also giving up things that I normally do in order to focus on it. They have, apparently, shut down the prayer days for this thing to do at home instead of corporately.
Mary called last night. I didn't get into it with her about the situation with my sister-in-law - not worth it. Just let it go. I was tired and ended that call quickly.
George - one of my tenants - facing surgery soon that is going to have him off of work for quite a while. He had been in a bad car accident that - well it really messed up his body because it was a rollover type of thing. The surgery is to attempt to fix his wrist - most of the bone is gone there.
Other than that, life is grand! Lol.
G'day.
ben
I called Josie last night - she is being moved to some sort of treatment facility where they are going to evaluate her and decide what to do with her. My pastors really want to go down there and minister to her, but, that can't happen until this process is over, apparently.
Day 2 of fasting. I am spending time in the Word and seeking the Lord while skipping a meal. Also giving up things that I normally do in order to focus on it. They have, apparently, shut down the prayer days for this thing to do at home instead of corporately.
Mary called last night. I didn't get into it with her about the situation with my sister-in-law - not worth it. Just let it go. I was tired and ended that call quickly.
George - one of my tenants - facing surgery soon that is going to have him off of work for quite a while. He had been in a bad car accident that - well it really messed up his body because it was a rollover type of thing. The surgery is to attempt to fix his wrist - most of the bone is gone there.
Other than that, life is grand! Lol.
G'day.
ben
Monday, January 9, 2012
1/9/2012
So I decided to a fast of some sort in keeping with what the church is doing and, ostensibly, what everyone else in the church is doing together.
I won't be doing a water only fast - well I might on a weekend day but not during the week when I have to work. I can maybe fast a meal during the week and probably skip something I would normally like to eat such as meats.
In keeping with this I just spent some time in the word - online - love going to online sources cause' you can read whatever version you want in however large print you want to make it : )
No idea what's going to happen this week at work, could be in for a roller coaster ride.
Can't really comment on that, but, I will hope for the best.
G'day.
ben
I won't be doing a water only fast - well I might on a weekend day but not during the week when I have to work. I can maybe fast a meal during the week and probably skip something I would normally like to eat such as meats.
In keeping with this I just spent some time in the word - online - love going to online sources cause' you can read whatever version you want in however large print you want to make it : )
No idea what's going to happen this week at work, could be in for a roller coaster ride.
Can't really comment on that, but, I will hope for the best.
G'day.
ben
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Church
Truly wonderful people at the church I am going to. I mean, I haven't connected with everyone there - yet - but everyone that I have, well, it's pretty cool. Susan showed up a few minutes late, no biggies. She had told me that "all churches are the same" within the same types of churches, which I simply stated my opinion: "Oh no, they are NOT!".
Susan was warmly greeted by numerous individuals, including an older lady who encouraged her to become a part of the family - I mean it was such a genuine offering of love it was amazing. But, I guess that's what you expect from a sweet, little older lady : ) Susan was astounded by the entire experience, but mostly with the pastor himself. We were leaving after several people introduced themselves to Susan and the pastor came up quickly. Susan asked if he would come to her church, lol, that it was "dead" and he could infuse some motivation into it.
I was a little surprised to find out about a 21 day fast that starts tomorrow. Lol. I wasn't prepared for that. I have done up to something like 10 days fasting, but definitely not 21 days. I'm gonna have to give that some thought and prayer today and see how I can do that. This isn't any particular type of fast, there are many kinds of fasts and we were all urged to seek the Lord and find what He wants us to do.
Well, anyway, Susan had this gift card to Paradise Bakery - I gave it to her for Christmas, lol - she invited me and we went and had a good time eating delicious salads and talking about a wide range of things. She repeatedly informed me how "good looking" I am, somewhat suggestive to say the least at least from what I read into it - but nothing to get too concerned about. I am not biting right now. Interest in finding a mate - yes - interest in rushing into anything with anyone - definitely on the NOT list. If I am to find anyone, it's going to start out as a friendship first - and that means no sex involved.
Well, we left the restaurant, I bid her goodbye and headed to the Chinese buffet. Not to eat again, but because Mark and Lynnette have been feeding me regularly, actually. I don't ask them for it and I don't really want to take their food - they aren't exactly rich. But they always say it's cool. They LOVE the food from this particular Chinese restaurant. There are 8 buffet tables with all kinds of very good food on it. Not all soggy and gross like many Chinese buffets. They have an employee monitoring the buffets at all times and that person calls out - in some form of Chinese - whatever is needed. The food is made fresh is the point, not gobbs of it made hours in advance and sitting around - getting gooey and nasty.
The point? It's VERY low-priced compared to any other Chinese restaurant around and considering the quality of the food, it's no wonder that place is doing bustling business every time I go in there. $3.97 per pound, that's what their take-out costs. You pick and choose what you want and that's the cost.
Mark is a very picky eater - but he devours all that food whenever I bring it home. Lynnette the same. Caleb loves it, too and yes, I have always loved Chinese food, just not the stuff that sits around for hours or is even served "fresh" but is still quite soggy - YUCK!!
Day winding down. Weekends never seem to last long enough and then the new work week arrives. I got a lot of nothing done this weekend. I guess the push I forced myself through with the Christmas party and all that I did every day - working after getting off of work in an attempt to get the place "perfect" - sort of took it all out of me. I am "recovering" from that push. At the same time, someone I know has "invited" me to work out with him 4 days a week at the gym. I have not given an answer to that - yet. That's a lot of working out - but it's always easier when you are doing it with someone else. The problem is that person lives in Avondale - it's something like 20 - 25 mile drive one way. Doing that 4 days a week after work is hardly palatable.
However, working out again - is.
G'nite.
ben
Susan was warmly greeted by numerous individuals, including an older lady who encouraged her to become a part of the family - I mean it was such a genuine offering of love it was amazing. But, I guess that's what you expect from a sweet, little older lady : ) Susan was astounded by the entire experience, but mostly with the pastor himself. We were leaving after several people introduced themselves to Susan and the pastor came up quickly. Susan asked if he would come to her church, lol, that it was "dead" and he could infuse some motivation into it.
I was a little surprised to find out about a 21 day fast that starts tomorrow. Lol. I wasn't prepared for that. I have done up to something like 10 days fasting, but definitely not 21 days. I'm gonna have to give that some thought and prayer today and see how I can do that. This isn't any particular type of fast, there are many kinds of fasts and we were all urged to seek the Lord and find what He wants us to do.
Well, anyway, Susan had this gift card to Paradise Bakery - I gave it to her for Christmas, lol - she invited me and we went and had a good time eating delicious salads and talking about a wide range of things. She repeatedly informed me how "good looking" I am, somewhat suggestive to say the least at least from what I read into it - but nothing to get too concerned about. I am not biting right now. Interest in finding a mate - yes - interest in rushing into anything with anyone - definitely on the NOT list. If I am to find anyone, it's going to start out as a friendship first - and that means no sex involved.
Well, we left the restaurant, I bid her goodbye and headed to the Chinese buffet. Not to eat again, but because Mark and Lynnette have been feeding me regularly, actually. I don't ask them for it and I don't really want to take their food - they aren't exactly rich. But they always say it's cool. They LOVE the food from this particular Chinese restaurant. There are 8 buffet tables with all kinds of very good food on it. Not all soggy and gross like many Chinese buffets. They have an employee monitoring the buffets at all times and that person calls out - in some form of Chinese - whatever is needed. The food is made fresh is the point, not gobbs of it made hours in advance and sitting around - getting gooey and nasty.
The point? It's VERY low-priced compared to any other Chinese restaurant around and considering the quality of the food, it's no wonder that place is doing bustling business every time I go in there. $3.97 per pound, that's what their take-out costs. You pick and choose what you want and that's the cost.
Mark is a very picky eater - but he devours all that food whenever I bring it home. Lynnette the same. Caleb loves it, too and yes, I have always loved Chinese food, just not the stuff that sits around for hours or is even served "fresh" but is still quite soggy - YUCK!!
Day winding down. Weekends never seem to last long enough and then the new work week arrives. I got a lot of nothing done this weekend. I guess the push I forced myself through with the Christmas party and all that I did every day - working after getting off of work in an attempt to get the place "perfect" - sort of took it all out of me. I am "recovering" from that push. At the same time, someone I know has "invited" me to work out with him 4 days a week at the gym. I have not given an answer to that - yet. That's a lot of working out - but it's always easier when you are doing it with someone else. The problem is that person lives in Avondale - it's something like 20 - 25 mile drive one way. Doing that 4 days a week after work is hardly palatable.
However, working out again - is.
G'nite.
ben
Lol, just got done watching a short video of Samuel Jackson scolding whoever owns guns because you "won't put them down". http://www.takepart.com/video/samuel-l-jackson-blames-you-not-guns You are, apparently, the problem. I wonder where America would be right now if this same sort of rhetoric held true 200 years ago.
I don't go around taunting people with my guns - I don't even let people know I have them for the most part. It's quite amusing to me that a man can stand there saying such when, in reality, he is on the big screen in several movies, seen using guns and threatening people with them. Not real? No, it's not, but it makes him like a true, unadulterated hypocrite. If he REALLY believed that guns are so terribly bad, then he should not have taken roles in movies that basically glorify guns.
It's a nice, cool winter morning and I am headed off to the shower. Love to take a long, hot shower on weekends when I have time to do it - weekdays it's less than 5 minutes and I am out of it to get pre-work rituals done.
Off to the races!
I don't go around taunting people with my guns - I don't even let people know I have them for the most part. It's quite amusing to me that a man can stand there saying such when, in reality, he is on the big screen in several movies, seen using guns and threatening people with them. Not real? No, it's not, but it makes him like a true, unadulterated hypocrite. If he REALLY believed that guns are so terribly bad, then he should not have taken roles in movies that basically glorify guns.
It's a nice, cool winter morning and I am headed off to the shower. Love to take a long, hot shower on weekends when I have time to do it - weekdays it's less than 5 minutes and I am out of it to get pre-work rituals done.
Off to the races!
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Life Can Be Pretty Strange
So, a bit ago, I get a phone call.
Didn't recognize the number on the cell phone.
Hello? Hi Ben. It's Josie and she's calling me from a hospital down south.
She goes into this elongated - and somewhat unbelievable - story about how
she ended up in the hospital after her family believed she was trying to commit
suicide again. I listened for 10 minutes before her phone cut out and then I called
her back. She was in the middle of something, she is being detained at the hospital for
72 hours. She said she would call me back tomorrow and finish the story.
Obviously, she is not going to church with me tomorrow.
Before that, I get a phone call from my sister-in-law. I knew what this was going to be about:
Mary. Who started what with who? I wasn't there, I wouldn't know. Yes, actually, I would and
do know. Mary hasn't changed on iota since I used to hang out with her in our teen years.
Which isn't a good thing, in case you were wondering. Susan - my sister-in-law - tells me
a completely different story than what Mary had told me, including Mary's alleged and daily
use of marijuana.
At this point? If you want to smoke your brains out of your head, be my guest. I have absolutely no desire, whatsoever, to smoke dope and that's that. If true, it would certainly explain some things about Mary and her behavior that I observed when over there last week. I smoked pot for 7 years in my youth, I have a bit of experience with it.
I have come to believe that when you hear 2 completely different stories about the same incident from 2 different parties that were there, you probably don't necessarily believe that either party has given you the whole picture and you attempt to mesh the two stories together and find some middle ground and use that as a base reference point. Notwithstanding the fact that both parties are adament that they are right and the other is wrong. Or, more pointedly: that one party is telling the truth and the other is lying.
I'm going to limit my interactions with Mary at this point. Not that I won't visit again, but I am not going to be over there as much as she would like me to be. As for Susan, I started talking about church tomorrow morning. I throw out the lure and see if there are any bites. Yep, I do it on purpose: drag people into church if they are consenting and see what happens. She said she would meet me there at the start of the service. Whether that is actually going to happen or not, who knows. I just know that I fully intend on going to church in the morning regardless of what anyone else is doing.
Oh, and Mary allegedly told Susan that she is thinking about getting back together with her ex - even though she told me differently. Of course, that doesn't really bother me, I am not in love with Mary neither do I consider her a girlfriend nor am I involved with her in any way at this point excepting as old friends. And that is where it's going to stay. The part about her getting back with her ex is what doesn't bother me, the allegation that she lied to me about it - does. But, I had questioned her a couple of times about it anyway - it was odd to continue to see and hear her spending so much time with that guy and have her continue to tell me that she is "just" friends with him.
Whatever. Monkeys don't grow in barrels.
Goodnight.
ben
Didn't recognize the number on the cell phone.
Hello? Hi Ben. It's Josie and she's calling me from a hospital down south.
She goes into this elongated - and somewhat unbelievable - story about how
she ended up in the hospital after her family believed she was trying to commit
suicide again. I listened for 10 minutes before her phone cut out and then I called
her back. She was in the middle of something, she is being detained at the hospital for
72 hours. She said she would call me back tomorrow and finish the story.
Obviously, she is not going to church with me tomorrow.
Before that, I get a phone call from my sister-in-law. I knew what this was going to be about:
Mary. Who started what with who? I wasn't there, I wouldn't know. Yes, actually, I would and
do know. Mary hasn't changed on iota since I used to hang out with her in our teen years.
Which isn't a good thing, in case you were wondering. Susan - my sister-in-law - tells me
a completely different story than what Mary had told me, including Mary's alleged and daily
use of marijuana.
At this point? If you want to smoke your brains out of your head, be my guest. I have absolutely no desire, whatsoever, to smoke dope and that's that. If true, it would certainly explain some things about Mary and her behavior that I observed when over there last week. I smoked pot for 7 years in my youth, I have a bit of experience with it.
I have come to believe that when you hear 2 completely different stories about the same incident from 2 different parties that were there, you probably don't necessarily believe that either party has given you the whole picture and you attempt to mesh the two stories together and find some middle ground and use that as a base reference point. Notwithstanding the fact that both parties are adament that they are right and the other is wrong. Or, more pointedly: that one party is telling the truth and the other is lying.
I'm going to limit my interactions with Mary at this point. Not that I won't visit again, but I am not going to be over there as much as she would like me to be. As for Susan, I started talking about church tomorrow morning. I throw out the lure and see if there are any bites. Yep, I do it on purpose: drag people into church if they are consenting and see what happens. She said she would meet me there at the start of the service. Whether that is actually going to happen or not, who knows. I just know that I fully intend on going to church in the morning regardless of what anyone else is doing.
Oh, and Mary allegedly told Susan that she is thinking about getting back together with her ex - even though she told me differently. Of course, that doesn't really bother me, I am not in love with Mary neither do I consider her a girlfriend nor am I involved with her in any way at this point excepting as old friends. And that is where it's going to stay. The part about her getting back with her ex is what doesn't bother me, the allegation that she lied to me about it - does. But, I had questioned her a couple of times about it anyway - it was odd to continue to see and hear her spending so much time with that guy and have her continue to tell me that she is "just" friends with him.
Whatever. Monkeys don't grow in barrels.
Goodnight.
ben
Saturday 1/7/2012
I was going to go shooting with Mary, but apparently she decided to go twice this week already - with her ex-husband. I'm not really into that kind of thing - the ex being around that is, even if I have no "intentions". I have been asking her about it - she says he's just a friend and that's that.
Yeah and I was just dumped out the back of the watermelon wagon. I am not feeling that motivated to go that far today, anyway, so I just cancelled out on it. After saying I didn't want to go shooting, she then asked about doing something else. That was 2 hours ago, now she is attempting to call me, but I have totally changed my plans for today and have no desire.
Anyway, I am hoping to get up enough motivation to get up on the trailer roof and start on project number 2 today. If not that, then something else. I should have emailed that kid to come over and do some more work, I have plenty for him to do and he is an energetic worker, one of the few I have had over here that actually does something besides expecting to get paid for next-to-nothing.
Tomorrow, Josie is supposed to come over before church and then we will go to church. This is the biggest priority of the weekend - it will supersede anything else. That being because of the state of mind she is in and wanting to end her own life.
Well, that's the end of this line. I have nothing else I want to speak about on an open blog - plenty I would LIKE to speak about but I am not going there. The situation will play itself out - for good or bad - and then I may or may not have some decisions to make - but it is totally subjective to how it all works out. The feeling isn't good and some of what I have been hearing isn't all that good, either. But I don't tend to make drastic decisions based on how I "feel" about something when it's a situation that is this - important. I just tend to ride the wave and see where I end up at. Maybe it IS time for a change, however.
Whatever the case, I am done with this one. Going to go out to the trailer and take stock of what is going to have to be done to get that project finished.
Later.
ben
Yeah and I was just dumped out the back of the watermelon wagon. I am not feeling that motivated to go that far today, anyway, so I just cancelled out on it. After saying I didn't want to go shooting, she then asked about doing something else. That was 2 hours ago, now she is attempting to call me, but I have totally changed my plans for today and have no desire.
Anyway, I am hoping to get up enough motivation to get up on the trailer roof and start on project number 2 today. If not that, then something else. I should have emailed that kid to come over and do some more work, I have plenty for him to do and he is an energetic worker, one of the few I have had over here that actually does something besides expecting to get paid for next-to-nothing.
Tomorrow, Josie is supposed to come over before church and then we will go to church. This is the biggest priority of the weekend - it will supersede anything else. That being because of the state of mind she is in and wanting to end her own life.
Well, that's the end of this line. I have nothing else I want to speak about on an open blog - plenty I would LIKE to speak about but I am not going there. The situation will play itself out - for good or bad - and then I may or may not have some decisions to make - but it is totally subjective to how it all works out. The feeling isn't good and some of what I have been hearing isn't all that good, either. But I don't tend to make drastic decisions based on how I "feel" about something when it's a situation that is this - important. I just tend to ride the wave and see where I end up at. Maybe it IS time for a change, however.
Whatever the case, I am done with this one. Going to go out to the trailer and take stock of what is going to have to be done to get that project finished.
Later.
ben
Friday, January 6, 2012
Friday 1/6/2012
2 nights in a row without hardly getting any sleep equals - sleeping like a log the third night and now? Groggy.
Usually will last well into the morning, too, been here, done this but not the end of the world, either.
I will be glad when Iowa, the vote counts and all the hype is over and done with.
It isn't always the greatest feeling when you are 6 days into the month and nothing has been paid to you by any tenants. The draining effect on my bank account - when paying bills and watching it go down - is almost scary. But, I expect to be paid by one of them today or whenever he reappears and another on the 9th. The third - he always pays when he gets his paycheck but it's always a week or so late as far as the rent is concerned.
Nothing pressing on bills now - I paid almost all of them so I have time, I guess. Just going to not spend money excepting on bills for a while and let the numbers go back up a bit. Well, I do have some things to buy for the trailer, but it can wait. I expect to get all of the necessary information to file tax return by the end of this month. I am also still awaiting word as to whether I will get the safe driver award for 2011 or not. That would be a huge help in getting that trailer done and over with.
Whatever the case, my time is up.
G'day.
ben
Usually will last well into the morning, too, been here, done this but not the end of the world, either.
I will be glad when Iowa, the vote counts and all the hype is over and done with.
It isn't always the greatest feeling when you are 6 days into the month and nothing has been paid to you by any tenants. The draining effect on my bank account - when paying bills and watching it go down - is almost scary. But, I expect to be paid by one of them today or whenever he reappears and another on the 9th. The third - he always pays when he gets his paycheck but it's always a week or so late as far as the rent is concerned.
Nothing pressing on bills now - I paid almost all of them so I have time, I guess. Just going to not spend money excepting on bills for a while and let the numbers go back up a bit. Well, I do have some things to buy for the trailer, but it can wait. I expect to get all of the necessary information to file tax return by the end of this month. I am also still awaiting word as to whether I will get the safe driver award for 2011 or not. That would be a huge help in getting that trailer done and over with.
Whatever the case, my time is up.
G'day.
ben
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Thursday 1/5/2012
Whatever happened to my entry this morning? It disappeared into cyberspace.
It may still be in the Dashboard as a draft, who knows, but I definitely posted it and it gave me the confirmation screen - really weird. I usually do not post drafts - lots of them in there, too. I just start over, it doesn't take that long and it is "fresh", lol.
Mary attempted to call me today several times- but I was on the phone attempting to get a situation with a company's product mitigated. I wrote to her on FB while on the phone - she has already gone out shooting at Sycamore Creek. Oh well, Caleb wants to go and the next time our schedules mesh, we will go and that's that.
More news on the 350 man front. He informed Randy that Randy is "living off the government". I don't speak to Randy at this point, Mark does. No biggies to me, he can talk to whoever, but I choose not to have anything further to do with Randy until/if/when/probably never he apologizes to me.
What I found snorting-your-drink-you-were-swallowing-out-your-nose funny is that this guy does NOTHING. He lives off of his mother! This guy claims in court that he has a medical condition that keeps him from working yet he's out there trying to build the fence! ROFL!!
So tomorrow is Friday already. I have been told that there is Saturday work, I have not heard back whether I will have to show up for that or not. Usually not - they don't like OT. They rather use salaried employees. Nice, aye?
A more interesting note was a visit to our store today. But, I am not going into that. Too much potential for problem in writing such on a public blog. One that I have reason to believe a certain individual from my company found through a means that also won't be discussed here. Not that I care, but the kind of detail that came out today - revelation to say the least. But it will prove interesting, to say the least, what might become of it in the near future.
I got the truck and the forklift stuck in the yard today. Yes, indeed. The new yard is a - nightmare. It has a thick layer of landscaping rock that just causes tires to sink into it. We cannot, basically, use that yard - a lot of square footage - until something is done to alleviate the problem. It took me 2-1/2 hours to get the semi and the forklift unstuck.
I dunno, but working on Saturday isn't necessarily all that wonderful. Holiday on Monday - meaning that I would be working for free because I would have to work all the hours that I didn't work on Monday and then anything after that to get OT.
Whatever. I'm tired. I busted my butt today and I haven't slept well 2 nights in a row. Going to bed early - yes.
G'nite.
ben
It may still be in the Dashboard as a draft, who knows, but I definitely posted it and it gave me the confirmation screen - really weird. I usually do not post drafts - lots of them in there, too. I just start over, it doesn't take that long and it is "fresh", lol.
Mary attempted to call me today several times- but I was on the phone attempting to get a situation with a company's product mitigated. I wrote to her on FB while on the phone - she has already gone out shooting at Sycamore Creek. Oh well, Caleb wants to go and the next time our schedules mesh, we will go and that's that.
More news on the 350 man front. He informed Randy that Randy is "living off the government". I don't speak to Randy at this point, Mark does. No biggies to me, he can talk to whoever, but I choose not to have anything further to do with Randy until/if/when/probably never he apologizes to me.
What I found snorting-your-drink-you-were-swallowing-out-your-nose funny is that this guy does NOTHING. He lives off of his mother! This guy claims in court that he has a medical condition that keeps him from working yet he's out there trying to build the fence! ROFL!!
So tomorrow is Friday already. I have been told that there is Saturday work, I have not heard back whether I will have to show up for that or not. Usually not - they don't like OT. They rather use salaried employees. Nice, aye?
A more interesting note was a visit to our store today. But, I am not going into that. Too much potential for problem in writing such on a public blog. One that I have reason to believe a certain individual from my company found through a means that also won't be discussed here. Not that I care, but the kind of detail that came out today - revelation to say the least. But it will prove interesting, to say the least, what might become of it in the near future.
I got the truck and the forklift stuck in the yard today. Yes, indeed. The new yard is a - nightmare. It has a thick layer of landscaping rock that just causes tires to sink into it. We cannot, basically, use that yard - a lot of square footage - until something is done to alleviate the problem. It took me 2-1/2 hours to get the semi and the forklift unstuck.
I dunno, but working on Saturday isn't necessarily all that wonderful. Holiday on Monday - meaning that I would be working for free because I would have to work all the hours that I didn't work on Monday and then anything after that to get OT.
Whatever. I'm tired. I busted my butt today and I haven't slept well 2 nights in a row. Going to bed early - yes.
G'nite.
ben
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Scaled Back Eating
I gave into eating a lot of junk in the last month and a half - and gained 5 pounds while doing it. Lots of pie and cookies and this, that and the other thing being shoved in my face. Especially that caramel pecan turtle pie - oh my goodness.
I am not giving in now and it has nothing to do with New Year's Resolutions. It's simply going back - a bit more extreme though to make up for what I have indulged in - to what I was doing before Thanksgiving hit and ever since then until New Year's.
I can't believe I let myself go like that. Not anymore. I didn't eat today until 3:30pm. I didn't eat yesterday until late, either and have only eaten twice on both days. It won't stop, either. I can do without food. I get hungry and eat, yes, but if I'm not hungry, I don't sit around and eat the "mindless" junk food. Today was a fluke, though, I was looking for somewhere to stop and eat and there was nothing but garbage food available at whatever places a large truck can find a place to pull into.
I thought, "I'm hungry, time to stop". Something else intervened and said: "Gee, and you want to be a 300 pound man, yes?" Drove right on by those places and quelched the hunger desire with sheer, utter determination. Yes, I am aware that quelched is not a word, but it should be, lol. Funny thing? I wasn't morbidly hungry when I got home and ate a portion of a shrimp platter and was full.
Later, I was offered a sloppy joe sandwich. High calorie? Maybe, but only 1? Notta problem.
It will be this way for a while, too. I will decline whatever sugar or fat filled junk I am offered.
Hmm, time got away from me.
G'nite.
ben
I am not giving in now and it has nothing to do with New Year's Resolutions. It's simply going back - a bit more extreme though to make up for what I have indulged in - to what I was doing before Thanksgiving hit and ever since then until New Year's.
I can't believe I let myself go like that. Not anymore. I didn't eat today until 3:30pm. I didn't eat yesterday until late, either and have only eaten twice on both days. It won't stop, either. I can do without food. I get hungry and eat, yes, but if I'm not hungry, I don't sit around and eat the "mindless" junk food. Today was a fluke, though, I was looking for somewhere to stop and eat and there was nothing but garbage food available at whatever places a large truck can find a place to pull into.
I thought, "I'm hungry, time to stop". Something else intervened and said: "Gee, and you want to be a 300 pound man, yes?" Drove right on by those places and quelched the hunger desire with sheer, utter determination. Yes, I am aware that quelched is not a word, but it should be, lol. Funny thing? I wasn't morbidly hungry when I got home and ate a portion of a shrimp platter and was full.
Later, I was offered a sloppy joe sandwich. High calorie? Maybe, but only 1? Notta problem.
It will be this way for a while, too. I will decline whatever sugar or fat filled junk I am offered.
Hmm, time got away from me.
G'nite.
ben
Wednesday 1/4/2012
The hands free cell phone fiasco rages on.
I am asking other truck drivers if their company was prepared for it - so far all of them have said yes. One of them stated he had to sign a form that states that he agrees not to use a hand held cellphone while driving his truck.
Our operations manager sent out an email advising us that he has ordered some sort of device for the trucks. I have no clue, I am not up on bluetooth devices and what is used to make them work.
Whatever the case, the U.S. responded to Iran's statement, in a fashion that I would expect our nation's military to respond, something like swatting a fly. Iran can send out all the ships it wants, how is that going to deter us? Are they going to fire on one of our battleships?
I'm tired this morning. Did not sleep well last night - makes for a looooong day at work. Gag.
benh
I am asking other truck drivers if their company was prepared for it - so far all of them have said yes. One of them stated he had to sign a form that states that he agrees not to use a hand held cellphone while driving his truck.
Our operations manager sent out an email advising us that he has ordered some sort of device for the trucks. I have no clue, I am not up on bluetooth devices and what is used to make them work.
Whatever the case, the U.S. responded to Iran's statement, in a fashion that I would expect our nation's military to respond, something like swatting a fly. Iran can send out all the ships it wants, how is that going to deter us? Are they going to fire on one of our battleships?
I'm tired this morning. Did not sleep well last night - makes for a looooong day at work. Gag.
benh
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Tuesday 1/3/2012
Well, here's the beginning of the work week - and the start of new CDL driver rules.
I'll be curious to see if there is anything from corporate about this on the main news board or in emails or from anyone, for that matter.
I'm curious to know if Iran intends on starting a war with the U.S after Iran's army chief gave a statement "recommending" one of our Navy's largest ships in it's entire fleet to not pass through the straight of Hermuz again. I had to take a lookit Google and see what this strait looks like. I dunno what the U.S. response is going to be or if we are going to stop sending our ships through there - but I would find that a highly unlikely move.
But who needs another war.
My internet is running so slow, my Verizon broadband router is faster. I am waiting for my new router/modem to come via UPS - tomorrow unfortunately - and find out if that is what the problem is with my internet connection. According to the tech, it is. According to a supervisor, it might be. According to more people, who knows. This is how Qwest runs it's operation.
So, no sense on going on with this, plus it's soon time to leave for work. But it's only a 4-day work week, which is nice.
G'day.
ben
I'll be curious to see if there is anything from corporate about this on the main news board or in emails or from anyone, for that matter.
I'm curious to know if Iran intends on starting a war with the U.S after Iran's army chief gave a statement "recommending" one of our Navy's largest ships in it's entire fleet to not pass through the straight of Hermuz again. I had to take a lookit Google and see what this strait looks like. I dunno what the U.S. response is going to be or if we are going to stop sending our ships through there - but I would find that a highly unlikely move.
But who needs another war.
My internet is running so slow, my Verizon broadband router is faster. I am waiting for my new router/modem to come via UPS - tomorrow unfortunately - and find out if that is what the problem is with my internet connection. According to the tech, it is. According to a supervisor, it might be. According to more people, who knows. This is how Qwest runs it's operation.
So, no sense on going on with this, plus it's soon time to leave for work. But it's only a 4-day work week, which is nice.
G'day.
ben
Monday, January 2, 2012
When Your Life Flashes Before You............
I watched a video of a young man that died of some sort of heart condition. He had cheated death 3 times before that. In this video was a statement about a total life recall.
I've had it twice. It may not be what people might imagine.
A total life recall happens in a flash of a second. For all intents and purposes, it is quite supernatural. You see and hear every single thing you did in your life, every word you spoke, everything. It's so fast yet you know what's happening.
On both occasions that it happened to my I thought I was going to be dead in the next few seconds because of the events that were taking place. For reasons unknown, I am not yet dead. Maybe not totally unknown - God and His will are what I will give that credit to - but it's interesting to look back on one own's life and sit in wonder.
I am only saying that seeing that gave me cause' to sit back and reflect.
I've had it twice. It may not be what people might imagine.
A total life recall happens in a flash of a second. For all intents and purposes, it is quite supernatural. You see and hear every single thing you did in your life, every word you spoke, everything. It's so fast yet you know what's happening.
On both occasions that it happened to my I thought I was going to be dead in the next few seconds because of the events that were taking place. For reasons unknown, I am not yet dead. Maybe not totally unknown - God and His will are what I will give that credit to - but it's interesting to look back on one own's life and sit in wonder.
I am only saying that seeing that gave me cause' to sit back and reflect.
1/2/2012 Monday
Qwest is now Century Link. That's nice, but it certainly doesn't change the level or quality of service you get from them, which is usually at the very low end of the scale. We also like to call it piss poor customer service.
Exactly what I received from Qwest in the last week until, after going through earthly hell with them, I got hold of a supervisor that actually could do something about the situation and help to remedy it.
My issue was slow speed. They sent out a guy last week to check it - he said my modem is bad (I'm making this story shorter without going into a lot of details of back and forth stuff). I called a supervisor who said the modem might be bad or might not be. ??? "You're field tech said the modem was bad". It COULD be bad or it couldn't, he states and tells me he will call me back at 3:30pm that day - the time I told him I would be home.
He never called back, but when I got home, I checked the speed, back up to what it is supposed to be. Great. Then, yesterday, down to 2208 MBPS. Internet dragging badly, I called up repair again. Guy says he wants to send out a field tech. Already been done, I replied. No matter, he's going to send one anyway. Skipping a lot of it, the field tech sort of comes out to my house this morning. He actually parked his truck down the street. He calls me. I am so and so, was out at your house the other day, I already told you what is wrong with your service: your modem is back.
Great, I tell him, tell that to everyone else that insisted on sending you out here today. He gets a bit testy with me, I simply asked to speak to his supervisor - he'll have him call me back. No call for about 2 hours, that guy leaves where he was parked and did not come to my house. That was enough for me to demand a new modem for free. I paid over $100 for the one I have now, I am NOT paying for another one, at least not with THIS company.
Long story short, cause' this story goes on forever, talking to a lot of people including 3 different supervisors and finally a supervisor in Boise, Idaho, earlier: free modem being sent to me, should be here on Wednesday. I simply said that after all I have gone through with this service, I am not going to be buying a new modem, or if I have to, it's going to be a Cox internet compatible modem, not a Century Link compatible modem and I am going to switch services. Yes, I have this lady's phone number, she treated me well and that's all I really wanted in the first place. On top of that, if a technician has to come out here again, the visit is on Century Link, not on my tab.
Changing the subject, I am a bit fuming at my company for this situation with the change in the rules for hand held cellphones and no notice, whatsoever, being given about it. The company isn't prepared for it, either. Drivers do not have blue tooth devices with our phones for hands free, voice prompted use. If the company knew about this new rule and the change that is effective tomorrow, they would have already bought all this stuff for us and more importantly, we would have received the notice of the change LONG ago.
A potential $2,750 fine for using a handheld cellphone is nothing to laugh about. The potential fine against the company is $11,000. What trucking company or company that has it's own fleet of trucks hasn't already dealt with this situation? All I can say? I am not getting stuck with a $2,750 fine. I will NOT be using that cell phone in the truck tomorrow at work, period. Unless they go out today and buy blue tooth junk and all that - even then, I need time to figure out how to use it. It might be simple - I wouldn't know, I have never owned or used such and never had a desire to do so.
Whatever. I don't get it is all. I have to search this stuff out to make sure that I am not doing something that isn't in compliance with D.O.T. rules, which are always being changed or modified.
Whatever again. Just completely annoyed by it. Anyway, today is "holiday" and I decided to do nothing. Sit around on my @$$ all day long like all the drug users around here - excepting I am not doing any drugs of course - and be lazy. Not that there is anything pressing to do, anyway. 4 day work week in-queue - with a useless phone, lol - but I like the idea of a shorter work week if nothing else.
That's it. No travelling today, no working, maybe some puttering outside but that's it.
G'day.
ben
Exactly what I received from Qwest in the last week until, after going through earthly hell with them, I got hold of a supervisor that actually could do something about the situation and help to remedy it.
My issue was slow speed. They sent out a guy last week to check it - he said my modem is bad (I'm making this story shorter without going into a lot of details of back and forth stuff). I called a supervisor who said the modem might be bad or might not be. ??? "You're field tech said the modem was bad". It COULD be bad or it couldn't, he states and tells me he will call me back at 3:30pm that day - the time I told him I would be home.
He never called back, but when I got home, I checked the speed, back up to what it is supposed to be. Great. Then, yesterday, down to 2208 MBPS. Internet dragging badly, I called up repair again. Guy says he wants to send out a field tech. Already been done, I replied. No matter, he's going to send one anyway. Skipping a lot of it, the field tech sort of comes out to my house this morning. He actually parked his truck down the street. He calls me. I am so and so, was out at your house the other day, I already told you what is wrong with your service: your modem is back.
Great, I tell him, tell that to everyone else that insisted on sending you out here today. He gets a bit testy with me, I simply asked to speak to his supervisor - he'll have him call me back. No call for about 2 hours, that guy leaves where he was parked and did not come to my house. That was enough for me to demand a new modem for free. I paid over $100 for the one I have now, I am NOT paying for another one, at least not with THIS company.
Long story short, cause' this story goes on forever, talking to a lot of people including 3 different supervisors and finally a supervisor in Boise, Idaho, earlier: free modem being sent to me, should be here on Wednesday. I simply said that after all I have gone through with this service, I am not going to be buying a new modem, or if I have to, it's going to be a Cox internet compatible modem, not a Century Link compatible modem and I am going to switch services. Yes, I have this lady's phone number, she treated me well and that's all I really wanted in the first place. On top of that, if a technician has to come out here again, the visit is on Century Link, not on my tab.
Changing the subject, I am a bit fuming at my company for this situation with the change in the rules for hand held cellphones and no notice, whatsoever, being given about it. The company isn't prepared for it, either. Drivers do not have blue tooth devices with our phones for hands free, voice prompted use. If the company knew about this new rule and the change that is effective tomorrow, they would have already bought all this stuff for us and more importantly, we would have received the notice of the change LONG ago.
A potential $2,750 fine for using a handheld cellphone is nothing to laugh about. The potential fine against the company is $11,000. What trucking company or company that has it's own fleet of trucks hasn't already dealt with this situation? All I can say? I am not getting stuck with a $2,750 fine. I will NOT be using that cell phone in the truck tomorrow at work, period. Unless they go out today and buy blue tooth junk and all that - even then, I need time to figure out how to use it. It might be simple - I wouldn't know, I have never owned or used such and never had a desire to do so.
Whatever. I don't get it is all. I have to search this stuff out to make sure that I am not doing something that isn't in compliance with D.O.T. rules, which are always being changed or modified.
Whatever again. Just completely annoyed by it. Anyway, today is "holiday" and I decided to do nothing. Sit around on my @$$ all day long like all the drug users around here - excepting I am not doing any drugs of course - and be lazy. Not that there is anything pressing to do, anyway. 4 day work week in-queue - with a useless phone, lol - but I like the idea of a shorter work week if nothing else.
That's it. No travelling today, no working, maybe some puttering outside but that's it.
G'day.
ben
Sunday, January 1, 2012
New Cell Phone Rule For CDL/Truck Drivers
I got through the internet frequently to find whatever new is coming from the Feds in the terms of new regulations. The level of expertise that is required to be a truck driver in having to know so many regulations - the trucking industry is the MOST regulated industry in the United States - is going to the levels that the pay level is going to have to be increased significantly to attract people who have actual brains and can do more than handle a steering wheel.
Why should I have to spend my own personal time looking at all of this stuff and educating my company about things they haven't even heard about and not getting paid extra for it? Why should I have to be dumped with exhaustive numbers of regulations that are predisposed to the opinion of a law enforcement officer? That's right - you could ask 100 commercial enforcement officers the same question about whatever - especially technical questions - and get numerous different answers that have no relevance with other answers that would be received.
I am exposed to more risk than most people realize. I have to concentrate at high levels the entire time I am driving - certainly in city driving which is most of what I do. I CONSTANTLY watch traffic not only in front of me, but beside me on both sides and behind me, plus side streets coming up and attempting to constantly change the level of reaction to the potential threats that are coming. If I run over a car and there is a family in it, even if it is not my fault that I just turned human beings into mince-meat, I would have to live with that in my mind and heart the rest of my life.
There is absolutely no way, in my mind, that with all this regulation coming out that the same Federal agency isn't forcing every single driver in the United States to go through exhaustive training on more than just that stupid test they are giving for a regular driver's license that an ape with half a brain could pass.
The Brainiacs that are coming up with these regulations are completely clueless. I would like to have a video camera installed on my truck dashboard and have all driver's that are breaking laws in front of me be ticketed by virtue of that camera. I want all drivers to have to go through training - including graphic video illustration - on the effects of recklessness enacted in front of a semi-truck. If we are to absorb this kind of stringent, potentially career-ending regulation, then the rest of the motoring public should have to be subjected to the same thing, because honey, it's the drivers of car and pickup trucks that are causing the most accidents with heavy trucks.
I predicted when I started reading about CSA2010 that there will eventually be a huge reduction in the CDL driver pool because of elimination and that it is going to in turn, affect the American economy. Trucks delivery almost everything. If vast amounts of drivers are going to be disqualified either by the Federal Government or by the companies that hire them. you are going to eventually see serious shortages of all kinds of merchandise in every venue. This new ruling? It's a potential $11,000 fine for the company that the driver is driving for if he/she is caught talking on a hand-held set while driving and up to $2,700 for the driver.
This new ruling came out at the end of last month and goes into effect - 2 days from now, I am just finding this out today and NOT by my own company. I was going through the FMCSA site and saw the "final rules" coming out. I just sent out emails to the general manager and to the operations manager. I will not be answering the phone in my truck while driving, period, unless they want to get hands-free, blue-tooth devices installed in the truck or blue tooth headsets with voice command.
I'm not paying for it, either. Let the trucking companies absorb this cost, they have more of a voice to the Feds than individual truckers do, though if truckers would truly unite, it would be a different story. For example, if it were truly possible to coordinate a shutdown of all trucks everywhere in America for a week - that would change the entire situation immediately. Truckers could, actually, shut down the American economy if they really wanted to.
Money talks. That's all I have to say about this. I may not be flying a commercial jetliner, but I am subjected to more regulation than any of them are. It may take more technical knowledge to fly an airplane, yes, but they aren't flying in city-type traffic, either. They aren't being "cut off" by other airplanes numerous times per day, etc. ad-nauseum. Why should I settle for all this increasing regulation and not demand more pay to equalize it? Yes, it IS going to affect the economy and that's that.
Why should I have to spend my own personal time looking at all of this stuff and educating my company about things they haven't even heard about and not getting paid extra for it? Why should I have to be dumped with exhaustive numbers of regulations that are predisposed to the opinion of a law enforcement officer? That's right - you could ask 100 commercial enforcement officers the same question about whatever - especially technical questions - and get numerous different answers that have no relevance with other answers that would be received.
I am exposed to more risk than most people realize. I have to concentrate at high levels the entire time I am driving - certainly in city driving which is most of what I do. I CONSTANTLY watch traffic not only in front of me, but beside me on both sides and behind me, plus side streets coming up and attempting to constantly change the level of reaction to the potential threats that are coming. If I run over a car and there is a family in it, even if it is not my fault that I just turned human beings into mince-meat, I would have to live with that in my mind and heart the rest of my life.
There is absolutely no way, in my mind, that with all this regulation coming out that the same Federal agency isn't forcing every single driver in the United States to go through exhaustive training on more than just that stupid test they are giving for a regular driver's license that an ape with half a brain could pass.
The Brainiacs that are coming up with these regulations are completely clueless. I would like to have a video camera installed on my truck dashboard and have all driver's that are breaking laws in front of me be ticketed by virtue of that camera. I want all drivers to have to go through training - including graphic video illustration - on the effects of recklessness enacted in front of a semi-truck. If we are to absorb this kind of stringent, potentially career-ending regulation, then the rest of the motoring public should have to be subjected to the same thing, because honey, it's the drivers of car and pickup trucks that are causing the most accidents with heavy trucks.
I predicted when I started reading about CSA2010 that there will eventually be a huge reduction in the CDL driver pool because of elimination and that it is going to in turn, affect the American economy. Trucks delivery almost everything. If vast amounts of drivers are going to be disqualified either by the Federal Government or by the companies that hire them. you are going to eventually see serious shortages of all kinds of merchandise in every venue. This new ruling? It's a potential $11,000 fine for the company that the driver is driving for if he/she is caught talking on a hand-held set while driving and up to $2,700 for the driver.
This new ruling came out at the end of last month and goes into effect - 2 days from now, I am just finding this out today and NOT by my own company. I was going through the FMCSA site and saw the "final rules" coming out. I just sent out emails to the general manager and to the operations manager. I will not be answering the phone in my truck while driving, period, unless they want to get hands-free, blue-tooth devices installed in the truck or blue tooth headsets with voice command.
I'm not paying for it, either. Let the trucking companies absorb this cost, they have more of a voice to the Feds than individual truckers do, though if truckers would truly unite, it would be a different story. For example, if it were truly possible to coordinate a shutdown of all trucks everywhere in America for a week - that would change the entire situation immediately. Truckers could, actually, shut down the American economy if they really wanted to.
Money talks. That's all I have to say about this. I may not be flying a commercial jetliner, but I am subjected to more regulation than any of them are. It may take more technical knowledge to fly an airplane, yes, but they aren't flying in city-type traffic, either. They aren't being "cut off" by other airplanes numerous times per day, etc. ad-nauseum. Why should I settle for all this increasing regulation and not demand more pay to equalize it? Yes, it IS going to affect the economy and that's that.
Josie
So, I am cruising along today, cleaning the ponds out and doing this that and the other thing type of minutia. Temps are perfect, weather great, what could happen today?
Josie calls me totally out of the blue. I had thought about her yesterday while with Mary.
Josie is the widow of one of the best friends I have ever had who died 1 year ago, yesterday/New Year's Eve Day, quite suddenly and out of the blue, btw.
She started crying on the phone immediately. Her family has all but abandoned her. She has tried to commit suicide 3 times, she confesses, in the last year. She got aneurysms from the cuts and has had to spend time in the hospital because of it. She is at the end of her rope - the bottom of the barrel - and she called me because she had no-one left to call.
It got intensely emotional quickly. But, I have only 1 answer to life and what it deals us. She was married to Boe for 46 years, I think it was. Yesterday was the 1 year anniversary of his passing. She doesn't know what to do, she doesn't know where or who to turn to. I could do nothing present the Lord to her. I have no other answers. I wouldn't try to give other answers because there is nothing to fill a void like that excepting the love of the Lord.
The pain is, she stated and it was obvious, as intense today as it was 366 days ago when he passed. I asked some pointed questions. I can't not. It's vital to dealing with the issue if you are really going to get to the root of the problem. You can play mushy-mushy and say how it's going to get better - when you know unless something changes, it is not going to get better, it is going to get worse. She will, eventually, find a way to take her own life if this situation isn't radically changed.
I offered to walk with her through this - but through the church.
So, I contacted the pastor through email and awaiting his reply. I am asking him to contact her and hopefully pray with her and give her some of the warmth that comes through someone that has that anointing on their life. He definitely has that. I know he will call her, it's a granted given. That is his heart towards the Lord and for people.
The "stuff" in life is never-ending. I can only explain it through my beliefs. We aren't here to just live our lives and that's that. We are here to love the Lord and love one another. I know, what are you saying when you just posted such and such about your neighbors. Yup, I don't much care for them. But I have also hoped and prayed that some sort of conclusion that is amiable in the end will come. I don't know how, but with God, all things are possible.
I came back in the house shortly after that call, sat down, began to absorb all of that and Caleb came out of his bedroom. I shared with him the phone call and we both shed some tears. I don't care what anyone thinks, it's a tragedy when a person has lost hope in life to the point that they want to end it on their own.
For the sake of the my long-time friend who is now in heaven and because of the love the Lord and the love that the Lord has for all of us - and for the sake of Josie, I am going to exert whatever energies I have and can give to trying to help her walk through this.
Josie calls me totally out of the blue. I had thought about her yesterday while with Mary.
Josie is the widow of one of the best friends I have ever had who died 1 year ago, yesterday/New Year's Eve Day, quite suddenly and out of the blue, btw.
She started crying on the phone immediately. Her family has all but abandoned her. She has tried to commit suicide 3 times, she confesses, in the last year. She got aneurysms from the cuts and has had to spend time in the hospital because of it. She is at the end of her rope - the bottom of the barrel - and she called me because she had no-one left to call.
It got intensely emotional quickly. But, I have only 1 answer to life and what it deals us. She was married to Boe for 46 years, I think it was. Yesterday was the 1 year anniversary of his passing. She doesn't know what to do, she doesn't know where or who to turn to. I could do nothing present the Lord to her. I have no other answers. I wouldn't try to give other answers because there is nothing to fill a void like that excepting the love of the Lord.
The pain is, she stated and it was obvious, as intense today as it was 366 days ago when he passed. I asked some pointed questions. I can't not. It's vital to dealing with the issue if you are really going to get to the root of the problem. You can play mushy-mushy and say how it's going to get better - when you know unless something changes, it is not going to get better, it is going to get worse. She will, eventually, find a way to take her own life if this situation isn't radically changed.
I offered to walk with her through this - but through the church.
So, I contacted the pastor through email and awaiting his reply. I am asking him to contact her and hopefully pray with her and give her some of the warmth that comes through someone that has that anointing on their life. He definitely has that. I know he will call her, it's a granted given. That is his heart towards the Lord and for people.
The "stuff" in life is never-ending. I can only explain it through my beliefs. We aren't here to just live our lives and that's that. We are here to love the Lord and love one another. I know, what are you saying when you just posted such and such about your neighbors. Yup, I don't much care for them. But I have also hoped and prayed that some sort of conclusion that is amiable in the end will come. I don't know how, but with God, all things are possible.
I came back in the house shortly after that call, sat down, began to absorb all of that and Caleb came out of his bedroom. I shared with him the phone call and we both shed some tears. I don't care what anyone thinks, it's a tragedy when a person has lost hope in life to the point that they want to end it on their own.
For the sake of the my long-time friend who is now in heaven and because of the love the Lord and the love that the Lord has for all of us - and for the sake of Josie, I am going to exert whatever energies I have and can give to trying to help her walk through this.
350 Man
Short and sweet: the City of Phoenix had removed 350 man's property across the street from the active list. I decided this time, the third time, to write the City of Phoenix Neighborhood Services department and tell them that if they didn't enforce the same rules that they do with everyone else, namely: no storage is allowed on a residential property unless there is a structure on the property with at least 750 square feet ( I think, somewhere around there) - that I would call the City Council and file a grievance with the City.
Well, as I stated in the last entry, ponds are on the priority list today. The pumps get clogged up because of the time of year it is and leaves falling all over the place, getting into the ponds and the pumps are powerful enough to drag all that stuff on the bottom of the ponds to the pump. I was out front dealing with the smallest pond when I looked up - for no particular reason - and realized that all of that stuff had been removed from the property.
Meanwhile, the people next door - the other side of which I have had years worth of problems with - are collecting vehicles. I am going to look into just how many vehicles a person can have for one residence. I don't know that there is a restriction, but I am going to find out. Between the 5 vehicles on the street and the 3 vehicles in the driveway - we have a total of 8 vehicles, only 2 of which are ever used.
The hoarders behind me? Left a bag of grapefruit on top of my shed and made a cute little statement on it. I don't know if that's a peace offering or perhaps they have injected poison into the fruit itself. Lol, probably not the latter, but who knows.
Randy - is talking to me through Mark. That's the way it is. I will not speak to him until if/when/if ever he apologizes for his total and pure BS. Other neighbors drive by his property, stop in front of it and start shaking their heads. And not nods of approval, either. The situation with my neighbors is hardly made up or even exaggerated even a little. They are slobs and hoarders, period.
Back to 350 man, I received a letter from the Justice Court yesterday, but only saw it today when I got home from Mary's. 350 man's appeal has been dropped because he took no action on it. I was prepared to write up a lengthy rebuttal to whatever he might say, but I didn't actually do it because? Not worth the waste of time going through that if he isn't going to follow through with the appeal. Now he is stuck with the Injunction Against Harassment for the full 365 day's worth and Randy is also considering filing against him.
350 better not bother me - at all - is all I can say about it. He is such a d*** that I would have no reservations, whatsoever, in calling the police, handing them the paperwork and telling them what happened - provided there are witnesses anyway - and having him prosecuted.
Oh, back to the hoarders behind me: they have done absolutely NOTHING to clean up the property that is in violation. Not only have they not cleaned it up, they have brought even MORE junk onto that property. The status on that case is still at "ticket issued". Freaking human pigs. I am also going to inquire with the City about that - well they aren't going to be opened tomorrow, so on Tuesday or this coming week, whenever I remember to do it during their normal business hours.
Even more. Mark just came in and said that Randy asked him to ask me if I wanted to go halves with him to finish the fence near the back of our properties. Yeah, half my @$$. The guy is so cheap he'll find the stuff for free, the stuff he finds won't match the block that is already there and it will look like s***. He won't care what it looks like, either, meaning he won't try to align the new block with the existing block.
In other words, it is a project I am going to have to do, unless he starts doing it without my input or help and then I will hope to be able to cover over his job with enough stucco type stuff to make it look good.
I had no intention of this entry getting so long, especially about this particular subject, but there it is. The ponds are finished - for today anyway. The bathroom is clean and only have light cleanup in my bedroom and yes, I am done for the day.
Well, as I stated in the last entry, ponds are on the priority list today. The pumps get clogged up because of the time of year it is and leaves falling all over the place, getting into the ponds and the pumps are powerful enough to drag all that stuff on the bottom of the ponds to the pump. I was out front dealing with the smallest pond when I looked up - for no particular reason - and realized that all of that stuff had been removed from the property.
Meanwhile, the people next door - the other side of which I have had years worth of problems with - are collecting vehicles. I am going to look into just how many vehicles a person can have for one residence. I don't know that there is a restriction, but I am going to find out. Between the 5 vehicles on the street and the 3 vehicles in the driveway - we have a total of 8 vehicles, only 2 of which are ever used.
The hoarders behind me? Left a bag of grapefruit on top of my shed and made a cute little statement on it. I don't know if that's a peace offering or perhaps they have injected poison into the fruit itself. Lol, probably not the latter, but who knows.
Randy - is talking to me through Mark. That's the way it is. I will not speak to him until if/when/if ever he apologizes for his total and pure BS. Other neighbors drive by his property, stop in front of it and start shaking their heads. And not nods of approval, either. The situation with my neighbors is hardly made up or even exaggerated even a little. They are slobs and hoarders, period.
Back to 350 man, I received a letter from the Justice Court yesterday, but only saw it today when I got home from Mary's. 350 man's appeal has been dropped because he took no action on it. I was prepared to write up a lengthy rebuttal to whatever he might say, but I didn't actually do it because? Not worth the waste of time going through that if he isn't going to follow through with the appeal. Now he is stuck with the Injunction Against Harassment for the full 365 day's worth and Randy is also considering filing against him.
350 better not bother me - at all - is all I can say about it. He is such a d*** that I would have no reservations, whatsoever, in calling the police, handing them the paperwork and telling them what happened - provided there are witnesses anyway - and having him prosecuted.
Oh, back to the hoarders behind me: they have done absolutely NOTHING to clean up the property that is in violation. Not only have they not cleaned it up, they have brought even MORE junk onto that property. The status on that case is still at "ticket issued". Freaking human pigs. I am also going to inquire with the City about that - well they aren't going to be opened tomorrow, so on Tuesday or this coming week, whenever I remember to do it during their normal business hours.
Even more. Mark just came in and said that Randy asked him to ask me if I wanted to go halves with him to finish the fence near the back of our properties. Yeah, half my @$$. The guy is so cheap he'll find the stuff for free, the stuff he finds won't match the block that is already there and it will look like s***. He won't care what it looks like, either, meaning he won't try to align the new block with the existing block.
In other words, it is a project I am going to have to do, unless he starts doing it without my input or help and then I will hope to be able to cover over his job with enough stucco type stuff to make it look good.
I had no intention of this entry getting so long, especially about this particular subject, but there it is. The ponds are finished - for today anyway. The bathroom is clean and only have light cleanup in my bedroom and yes, I am done for the day.
1/1/2012 Sunday Happy New Year!!!!!
Happy New Year, everyone!
I managed to stay up until around 1:15am last night.
An interested night, to say the least. Mary decided that she wanted to drag some firewood over to a party that was going on out in front of a house a few blocks away. She asked if I wanted to come with her. No. She basically had a mini-cow so I relented - but I've been there and done that, most likely everyone would be drunk and acting - drunk.
I was not off, in the slightest little bit, with that assessment, either. My sister-in-law had called - I find out she lives like 5 blocks away from Mary - we all headed to this party. I was having a few beers, yes, but I was determined that I was not going to go overboard with anything. We got there and I was offered shots of fine Vodka and numerous beers. I had a couple, but I then quit. There was a fire pit out front in the driveway and Mary shoved a log into it.
Then some woman - drunk and belligerent - started trouble. It was a no burn day in Maricopa county - they issue those when the pollution gets too high and they don't want people using their fireplaces - the woman started barking at Mary about how much smoke the wood she put on there was making. The rant went on and on and finally Mary dished some pork back to her, which made this woman really mad. Turns out she doesn't even live there. There was a simple solution to this problem, btw, something I learned when I was a kid.
Simply throw more kindling on the fire, get the fire really hot and get the wood burning well and the excessive smoke will dissipate. I wasn't getting into this argument, I wanted nothing to do with it, I didn't even want to go in the first place. Well, I was chatting with perfect strangers but finally had had enough. Let's go, Mary, now, thank you. We left and went to Susan's house - my sister-in-law and spent 45 minutes over there. Then back to Mary's house to blow off some fireworks with the kids, ring in the new year and that was the end of that. I crashed there for the night - no hangover for me but going to bed that late throws my internal clock system off so I'm tired today. I knew I would be. Mary wanted me to come back today and tomorrow - no thanks. I have stuff to do and I haven't seen anyone in the New Year at my house, including my son.
My ponds need some attention - not too much but still. I want to get up on that trailer and finish the other project I started up there now that the AC project is done and that thing is up and running. I don't know that I will do that today, probably tomorrow. Basic house cleaning duties, etc etc etc. Not to mention Coco was starting to get rather annoying over there - she wanted to go home this morning and that was that. She is all kinds of crashed out right now.
So, I am sorta kicking back right now, trying to get the motivation up to get some things done and I am sure I will at least get my bathroom and bedroom cleaned today and the pond pumps unclogged, but if I get nothing done other than that? I'm good with it.
We are officially in the year when the earth is going to end and life is we know it is going to disappear. At least that's what those that believe the Mayan calendar hubba bubba believe. I don't happen to believe that - at all. It is also allegedly the year that another recession or even depression is going to hit. I have no "belief" systems on those kinds of things, if it happens it happens. Nothing I can do about it. Certainly, it seems to me, our society is changing to reflect the financial circus that is going on all around us in terms of the way people are living.
Perhaps, in some sense, it isn't such a bad thing. Such as the news that a lot of people have shut off cable/satellite tv because they can't afford it. Cool, find something else to do like we did in the "old" days where we watched a bit of TV here and there, but certainly our lives didn't revolve around it. Perhaps the roots of where we came from might take hold. I have no faith in the politicians to do anything but spend more money. I don't really like any of the candidates that are likely to win the GOP nomination, I think they are all full of it.
Eventually, some degree of civil unrest will undoubtedly have to occur to change the course of America back to some semblance of what it once was. I have at least some degree of certainty that that is what the Occupy this and that people are up to. I only know that I have armed myself and if some civil chaos starts, my home is my castle and that's all I am going to protect - the castle and the people that live in it. I hope that doesn't happy, really. But, people are getting tired of this economic condition, especially the have-nots.
I am not going to make any New Year's resolutions this year. I have already resolved to do several things in my life which started last year and I am continuing on with. So, I guess I could say I resolve to continue on with what I had resolved to do and started to do some time ago. Church being the biggest one - getting back into the flow of it and getting past internal issues of the heart and mind. The trailer is another one, though not a huge priority, the thing is well underway with it being paid off, new wallpaper, AC fixed and in position to get more done on it. Other things that are my own, personal business that I won't go into on an internet site that is readable by anyone in the world.
So, I have no idea what 2012 is going to bring. But, good, bad or ugly, God is in control and my faith is in Him. There IS no-one else to turn to. That's the end of the story, for me anyway.
So, I am going to enjoy today, the first day of the year. It is a beautiful, gorgeous day outside, at least in Phoenix, AZ, the weather is perfect and though I am a bit tired, I am going to go out for a while and enjoy it. Probably come back in and take an hour's nap and then see what I might do with the rest of the day.
Happy New Year, again.
ben
I managed to stay up until around 1:15am last night.
An interested night, to say the least. Mary decided that she wanted to drag some firewood over to a party that was going on out in front of a house a few blocks away. She asked if I wanted to come with her. No. She basically had a mini-cow so I relented - but I've been there and done that, most likely everyone would be drunk and acting - drunk.
I was not off, in the slightest little bit, with that assessment, either. My sister-in-law had called - I find out she lives like 5 blocks away from Mary - we all headed to this party. I was having a few beers, yes, but I was determined that I was not going to go overboard with anything. We got there and I was offered shots of fine Vodka and numerous beers. I had a couple, but I then quit. There was a fire pit out front in the driveway and Mary shoved a log into it.
Then some woman - drunk and belligerent - started trouble. It was a no burn day in Maricopa county - they issue those when the pollution gets too high and they don't want people using their fireplaces - the woman started barking at Mary about how much smoke the wood she put on there was making. The rant went on and on and finally Mary dished some pork back to her, which made this woman really mad. Turns out she doesn't even live there. There was a simple solution to this problem, btw, something I learned when I was a kid.
Simply throw more kindling on the fire, get the fire really hot and get the wood burning well and the excessive smoke will dissipate. I wasn't getting into this argument, I wanted nothing to do with it, I didn't even want to go in the first place. Well, I was chatting with perfect strangers but finally had had enough. Let's go, Mary, now, thank you. We left and went to Susan's house - my sister-in-law and spent 45 minutes over there. Then back to Mary's house to blow off some fireworks with the kids, ring in the new year and that was the end of that. I crashed there for the night - no hangover for me but going to bed that late throws my internal clock system off so I'm tired today. I knew I would be. Mary wanted me to come back today and tomorrow - no thanks. I have stuff to do and I haven't seen anyone in the New Year at my house, including my son.
My ponds need some attention - not too much but still. I want to get up on that trailer and finish the other project I started up there now that the AC project is done and that thing is up and running. I don't know that I will do that today, probably tomorrow. Basic house cleaning duties, etc etc etc. Not to mention Coco was starting to get rather annoying over there - she wanted to go home this morning and that was that. She is all kinds of crashed out right now.
So, I am sorta kicking back right now, trying to get the motivation up to get some things done and I am sure I will at least get my bathroom and bedroom cleaned today and the pond pumps unclogged, but if I get nothing done other than that? I'm good with it.
We are officially in the year when the earth is going to end and life is we know it is going to disappear. At least that's what those that believe the Mayan calendar hubba bubba believe. I don't happen to believe that - at all. It is also allegedly the year that another recession or even depression is going to hit. I have no "belief" systems on those kinds of things, if it happens it happens. Nothing I can do about it. Certainly, it seems to me, our society is changing to reflect the financial circus that is going on all around us in terms of the way people are living.
Perhaps, in some sense, it isn't such a bad thing. Such as the news that a lot of people have shut off cable/satellite tv because they can't afford it. Cool, find something else to do like we did in the "old" days where we watched a bit of TV here and there, but certainly our lives didn't revolve around it. Perhaps the roots of where we came from might take hold. I have no faith in the politicians to do anything but spend more money. I don't really like any of the candidates that are likely to win the GOP nomination, I think they are all full of it.
Eventually, some degree of civil unrest will undoubtedly have to occur to change the course of America back to some semblance of what it once was. I have at least some degree of certainty that that is what the Occupy this and that people are up to. I only know that I have armed myself and if some civil chaos starts, my home is my castle and that's all I am going to protect - the castle and the people that live in it. I hope that doesn't happy, really. But, people are getting tired of this economic condition, especially the have-nots.
I am not going to make any New Year's resolutions this year. I have already resolved to do several things in my life which started last year and I am continuing on with. So, I guess I could say I resolve to continue on with what I had resolved to do and started to do some time ago. Church being the biggest one - getting back into the flow of it and getting past internal issues of the heart and mind. The trailer is another one, though not a huge priority, the thing is well underway with it being paid off, new wallpaper, AC fixed and in position to get more done on it. Other things that are my own, personal business that I won't go into on an internet site that is readable by anyone in the world.
So, I have no idea what 2012 is going to bring. But, good, bad or ugly, God is in control and my faith is in Him. There IS no-one else to turn to. That's the end of the story, for me anyway.
So, I am going to enjoy today, the first day of the year. It is a beautiful, gorgeous day outside, at least in Phoenix, AZ, the weather is perfect and though I am a bit tired, I am going to go out for a while and enjoy it. Probably come back in and take an hour's nap and then see what I might do with the rest of the day.
Happy New Year, again.
ben
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