So, we're all sitting around last night shooting the breeze, it was starting to get late.  I was left in the dark as to whether there was going to be a run today or not.  But it was 9:00 pm, so there wasn't any idea that my manager was going to send me anything that late, I started to make plans for today.  In fact, Taylor made plans for me, lol, asking if I could pick up the boys while she went out and did some shopping for their upcoming Anniversary day together, which they want to do on Saturday. 

I said sure.  Not 5 minutes later, at 9:15 pm, my manager sends me a text with a run to Mapleton, Illinois.  I'm like what?  I look at the load time: 5 am!!  Meaning getting up at 3:00 am to get there on time with everything I have to do.  UGGGGGGHHHHHHH, was the type of thoughts going through my mind.  I asked her why so late with the text?  She was in a manager's meeting all day long, they don't allow them to use their phones or computers while in those meetings.  That's pretty freaking lame and stupid.  How do you tie up a driver manager/dispatcher all day long and don't give them opportunity to do their jobs?  I couldn't blame her so I didn't.  I figured that since it's a 3 day trip (at least), I'll be back on Saturday so I can watch the boys and they can spend the day together, alone. 

That plan may change of course.  If I get to the plant tomorrow and they tell me the same thing they have told me a couple of times before: we can't take this today, sorry, well I'll be stuck up there at least 24 hours.  In fact, to be honest, I'd like to get stuck up there with extended detention pay, sitting in a company paid hotel watching movies, playing on the net and just kicking back.  There just isn't anything unappealing about that to me, especially the "getting paid while having fun" part of the fact of being at a decent hotel.  But for their sake, I do hope they get me in and out of there in a couple  hours time. 

Speaking of anniversaries, yesterday was my son's one year!  He says things are going great, yes they have had a few issues here and there, but he was informed by numerous married people that that is normal, especially at first.  Yes, I can attest, that is definitely normal and if you can work things out, that's a big plus.  I sent him a generous contribution for the day. 

Well anyway, I got up at 3am, did all the junk, felt like hell, to be honest because I only got about 4 hours of sleep.  It's just what it is: I can't get this "thing" out of my head on those nights when I know i have to get up early and because of knowing that, I don't sleep well.  I slept for a little bit in the driver's room at the plant, but that was short lived.  When I got out on the road, gag.  I was fighting to stay awake.  I thought, I"m going to have to stop up the road and take a 30 minute nap. I can't be driving like this all day long.  So, 90 miles down the road I stopped at a Love's, parked and fell fast asleep. If I hadn't set the alarm, I have no idea how long I would have slept.

I felt better - not great but better - after that and at least was functional.  Another 5 hours down the road and I had to take the 30 minute rest break to get all of my hours.  I needed it anyway.  Yup, same thing fell asleep with alarm set, felt much better after that.  Drove out the day, thought about driving through Saint Louis but I was going to hit it full head on at rush hour so I am stopped in a small town just south of there.  I'll get going around 4:30 am and sail right through that town at that early of an hour, there will be very little traffic. 

Not much fun having to sit here for 11 hours but this is the area where I usually stop on this run because going any further means hitting Saint Louis and almost always at rush hour.  No sense in the aggravation for only a 45 mile addition to today's driving.  I'll be at the plant at 8:00 am, hopefully get the thing offloaded and then have around 6-1/2 hours of driving time to head back this way.  Hopefully make it to Searcy Arkansas and then maybe 4-1/2 hour drive the next day home.  In a perfect world, lol. 

And speaking of truckstops, I got to this one at around 5:15 pm.  It's not huge, about 20 spots.  There is another one across the street that is larger than this one.  There was a truck that pulled in ahead of me who got a space, I got another space and in a matter of 10 minutes, all the rest of the spaces were filled up  The truckstop across the street was full when I looked at it coming off the Interstate.  This is what we deal with on a daily basis.  I had a nice place to park in a dirt lot next to a restaurant up the road about 4 miles, but someone must have ruined it for everyone, because they installed no overnight parking signs all over that dirt lot - totally unused, not an entrance or use for anything. 

Last time I came through here is when I found that out.  Very disappointed.  I found a gravel lot to park in last time as I was almost out of hours and the place I am at now? was full.  I was going to go there again if necessary.  It has zero amenities therefore not attractive to most truckers. I just wanted to get a sandwich and access to a bathroom if possible, hence why I"m here.  This parking dilemma - you can Google it, it's a nationwide issue - is not going to get better anytime soon.  I just try to find places that aren't at truckstops where no one else is or very few trucks.  Out of the way spots that most truckers would shun.  My company actually prefers that we don't park at truckstops, but no way they can make that a rule.  You're out on the road and want a shower? You best hit up a truckstop or get a hotel room.  You want access to a toilet? Same thing.  Food? well, that one is debateable.  Most truck stops are grease filled, calorie laden junk food that isn't good for you anyway. This one I"m at makes fresh sandwiches from scratch, made to order, much lower calorie stuff, delicious. 

I'm going to deal with that dilemma tho.  I'm going to buy a roast and a pack of boneless skinless chicken breasts, cook them up, package them in small sandwich bags and freeze them.  Grab a bag or however many I need for however long the trip is and just eat lean meat sandwiches on the road.  I've been buying deli meat at Krogers but I never know how much to buy.  I eat the stuff but end up giving it to the dogs after I've had it too long.  I thought about just buying that and freezing it, but James and Taylor have a commercial grade meat slicer, much cheaper to just buy large quantities of meat, cook it up, slice it up, bag it up and walaah.  It'll stay good in the freezer for months (at least) and I won't have to worry about last minute deals like today, getting dumped with a run late at night. 

Ugh, the truck next to me has a reefer unit on it. That's a refrigeration unit attached to the front of the trailer to refrigerate the trailer. NOISY. No, I'm not leaving here, lol, I'm just going to pull up about 5 feet and reduce the noise.  No way would I want to haul reefer units just because of that endless noise. They go on and off and on and off - well you get the idea.  It's much worse if you're in a sleeper and that thing is hanging up over top of you , just behind you, making all that excessive noise allllllllllllllllllllllll night long. Ridiculous. There we go. Pulled up 10 feet, no more noise, just the purrr of my truck's engine, which I am quite used to now. 

Well plenty more but I've been discussing stuff on the net.  Almost out of data for this month so no movies for me tonight.

Record time.  Literally.  3 days for a 4 day run.  I had 657 miles to do today and I didn't think I would be able to get it done. Get caught up in traffic for a bad accident (happens frequently), get caught up in traffic in any of the 3 cities - Nashville, Memphis or Little Rock and it's all over.  But, because of where I stopped last night, the timing for all 3 of these cities was perfect.  Little Rock was close - very close to rush hour and getting caught up in that would have ensured me another night on the road.

Instead, I'm sitting at my desktop in my bedroom and watching a movie.  What did this pushing it hard do for me? It gives me at least 2 nights home in my own bed instead of one.  And, I've asked for Saturday off.  I have no idea if I'll get it, but Taylor and James are going to celebrate their 5th wedding anniversary and they asked if I could watch the kids.  Yes, if I'm home.  There isn't really any good reason she can't give me Saturday off, not like I'm asking for Sunday as well.  But it's whatever to me.  I hope I get it, if I don't they understand and oh well.

The lack of weekends off is starting to burn me out.  My friends are off weekends, I don't see why I can't get at least on weekend off per month.

A rather odd side effect to this job, at least for me, is the fact that I am starting to become a night owl. And even more strange, I sleep much better and feel much more rested when I wake in the morning.  I actually feel better if I stay up til midnight and get up at 6 am than if I go to bed at 9pm and get up at the same time.  That doesn't really work for the early load tho.  But other than that, I'm a bit amazed.  I'm also starting to like night driving again, a thing I had given up on long ago.  But, the roads are almost void of traffic and there is a strange thing that occurs in my mind in such driving. Can't really explain it.  I'm just saying that such as last night?  I got to the exit for the Petro where i was going to spend the night, felt fine and blew past it.

Another 50 plus miles past it to the point I had 8 minutes left on the drive clock.  Been doing a lot of that lately, dragging the clock down and taking a chance at whether there will be parking.  Okay, I take that back, just remembered I was going to stop at a Love's down the road and take a shower. The lot was completely full.  I didn't bother to get off at the exit, the place was in full view from the freeway.  Here's the kicker, the place I finally ended up deciding to go to and calculating that I would make it - but just barely - for time charges a fee.  At least according to the app I use to find parking.

Well, I had no alternatives, pay the $12 and move on.  Except when I got there, there were no signs about pay parking and there wasn't the security officer in a vehicle chasing me down as the app reviews said there were.  I felt no obligation to go in and ask since there were no signs out there. I just parked the truck in the back, slept like a log, got up and was half-excited about the potential prospect of getting home today.  But I can't predict what will happen on this nation's highways on any given day.  As evidenced by a 30 or so foot enclosed trailer on a pickup truck that had crashed on the other side of the freeway.  I saw that 30 minutes into driving today.  The entire back half of the trailer was trashed - totally unwrapped and whatever was in there - pastries I guess considering the words on the side of the front of it.  The truck was overturned. It had just happened, there were a bunch of kids wandering around, I guess dad working with his children?  I dunno but I didn't stop. It was on the other side of the freeway and there were already numerous vehicles parked and people standing around.  There were no first responders there yet, I saw them coming up as I was driving south towards Nashville.

I hit Nashville around 10:30 am, amazingly small amount of traffic, just motored right through there.  Looked at mileage to Memphis and figured I would get through there at a good time as well and sure enough, hardly had to slow down. Only Little Rock was calculated at arriving not long before rush hour at 5:00, but I hit it early enough to avoid a major traffic jam.  After that it was hammer down - don't get too cranky, the truck only goes 65 mph - but I had that thing going that speed as much as I could keep it up there.  I got back to the yard with 33 minutes left on the drive clock, I could have gone another 34 miles!  Lol. 

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Now see, it's the next morning, Tuesday to be exact.  I stayed up until 1 am, a thing I never used to do, slept like a baby and now I feel great.  It's very odd to me because a few years ago I was having serious sleep issues and was going to bed earlier and earlier attempting to get even 3 or 4 hours of sleep. I mean, spending 10 hours in bed to get 4 hours of sleep. And now, stay up late, yes I slept til 9 and awoke out of a deep sleep actually, which was rather strange in itself.  Takes awhile to really wake up coming out of that. But, I have nothing that is imperative to do today, I'm taking it easy at least for a bit, I figure I'll have a run tomorrow and I figure it will be back to Cheniere. I hope I'm wrong, but that's what I'm bracing myself for.  I have come to hate that place and that run, I guess I'll have to figure out a way to make it enjoyable, even if only in the hollows of my mind.

Anyway, I am working through the freezer full of meat. They don't have time to cook the stuff, but I"m home often enough to get the older stuff out, get it thawed and get it cooking.  No smoker today for me, I don't really feel like tending it all day long.  Its fun, actually, when I want to do it, but that's not today. This brisket I got out is full of fat anyway, so I just seasoned it and dumped it in the slow cooker.  Hopefully by the time they get home from work it will be done.  Make some scalloped potatoes and some sort of veggie and call it dinner. 

Meanwhile, my new AC unit in my room! Yes!  I'm no longer sleeping in the heat and I don't have to sit here all warm with the bedroom door wide open trying to get some of that warmth in here.  It will be short lived since it's already August, but there is still plenty of hot and warm days to be had, helps me sleep through the night.  I just don't sleep well if I'm too warm.  I can sleep through cold, but not heat. 

Politics?  I'm sick of Trump did this and Trump did that junk.  Keep it.  The endless accusations are getting boring and irritating.  None of it ever comes through with anything, or, if it does, it was a sexual encounter before he became President.  Now, if they find out a Bill Clintinish thing he has done in the Oval Office with anyone other than his wife, talk to me about that and I will denounce that as much as anyone else will. This latest accusation are tapes that have him allegedly saying the N word.  If it's true, that's sick.  He'll be roasted alive for it. 

I have nothing much else. I decided to get a Keurig coffee machine.  I love that stuff, absolutely love it.  The only thing good about Cheniere, I have to go in the guard house every time and they have one of those machines in there with literally hundreds and hundreds of the pods that go in it.  I make a nice steaming cup and enjoy that until I get to the waiting area.  Actually, that place makes me stop and have the truck searched, then go to the guard house and hand them 3 forms of ID including a TWIC card, then into another gate to hand the ID"s over again, then into a waiting lot, where I am eventually escorted through yet another gate where I have to show those ID's yet again. Get the idea why I hate going there? It takes way too much time and it doesn't pay enough for the time spent.  That's all there is to it. Up the pay - by at least $150 per run, and I'd be a lot happier about it. 

I'd rather get sent out on a 3 day run tomorrow and get back into time watch the kids on Saturday so those 2 can have some much needed alone time with each other. 

Well, enough of this, I have stuff to get done today. 

Long day.  I pushed it hard.  It's Sunday and the roads are always much freer of traffic than on any other day.  Get the miles in and get them over with.

Well this started yesterday tho.  I was determined to make it to the Hardy's last night in White House, Tennessee. Yes, that's the name of the town, you can look it up yourself. There is a Hardy's there and a small truck parking  lot behind it.  I stopped there the last time I took this trip to West Virginia, there aren't that many spots but it wasn't full, I was hoping for the same this time.  At the loading plant at 11:00 am, out of there and drove out the day. 

On the way up, I saw a truck blow a scale - there is no PrePass at this particular scale, if the scale lights are flashing, you best pull in there.  I was right behind this truck and saw that ...and.....saw the
State Trooper sitting there at the scale house with his brake lights on.  He wasn't even checking weights unless they can do that remotely?  I dunno, but I saw the Trooper start moving as soon as the truck blew by it and I knew what was happening.  It's a pretty good fine from what I hear for getting caught doing that. 

I pulled into the station and pulled up on the scale - nothing. No other vehicles there.  It's usually that way at this place, one Trooper and no-one else. Well, he was gone.  So I pulled through, drove on up the road a few miles and there it was.  The Trooper with that truck pulled over. 

A few hours later, driving through Little Rock, Arkansas, my GPS was telling me to get off the highway and take a detour? Whyyyyyyyy?????  Both GPS's showing red on the road.  Figured an accident.  I got off at the exit and then proceeded to drive on a frontage road for a couple of miles past a LOT of stopped/slowed traffic. When I got up to the scene, it was a very gruesome accident. I mean, it was bone chilling.  It was a late model Jeep and parts of that vehicle were scattered all over the place.  The Jeep itself was mangled, it had slammed up against a bridge overpass concrete post -  huge thing.

I just sat there for a while lookiing at firemen working the scene. No ambulances there.  A sheet over the driver's seat area  The person was obviously dead, the firemen weren't doing a rescue operation. This was a "retrieve the body" operation.  We all sat there for probably 10 minutes waiting for them to let us pass, this accident was affecting both the Interstate and the frontage road, just that I passed hundreds of vehicles so I knew GPS didn't steer me wrong - IF - I was getting through there anytime soon.

But getting through there wasn't really on my mind.  I see things like this and it gets me to thinking about life. I'm not going to go into all of that, it's getting very late and I"m starting to finally get tired.  I have 10 hours to sit here tho, no choice in that matter.  But I did sit there watching State Troopers doing their measuring stuff and firemen going back and forth and moving around, but not at the Jeep itself,  I didn't think at first there was anyone in the Jeep because of their actions, I didn't understand why they were even there or what they were doing.  Well, when we were finally let by, I got to a point where I could look and see what's under the sheet. 

I probably shouldn't have looked, but the firefighters got the best of me: is there any one really under there?  Cause when they put the sheets out, there is a or more than one dead person underneath there.  Right? That's what I always thought and not the first time I"ve seen the sheets and the dead people.

This was gruesome. Gut wrenching.  Just mind shattering stuff here. This isn't the movies, this was real. This person's head was smashed into the steering wheel. The skull was caved in, eyes bulging out, face contorted. I mean, contorted.  It was sickening to see a person's life ended like that.  The body was shifted at different angles. I didn't take a pic of that, I took a pic of the vehicle.  I'm just not going to do that to a dead person. I can only imagine those pics getting back to loved ones, no and no. 

I have myself to blame for looking under there, but, it isn't the end of my world, I hate seeing that stuff and it affects me, but I've seen it many times before.  I've seen hundreds and hundreds of accidents out on the roads. It's just you don't normally see the dead.

Well, I moved on from that.  When I got to the Hardy's many hours later, it was jammed packed.  That was disappointing. I know it sounds dumb, but the coffee at that Hardy's is out of this world.  Just amazing stuff. I couldn't find anywhere to park and the Loves' down the street was jam packed again.  I took off.  I'm driving and frantically looking at the app for parking spaces at truck stops.  The next place up the road showed "lot is full".  I bypassed it,  I was running out of time.  I pushed it that day to get past Nashville and not have to deal with traffic.  Lol, tho I probably should have thought about the fact that "traffic" anywhere on a Sunday isn't going to be anything near the same as traffic during the weekday. 

I saw a Matco truck stop on the app, it hadn't been updated.  It's up to truck drivers using the app to update wherever they're at.  I drove up to to it and lo and behold, ONE open parking spot.  Next morning, after getting a decent cup of coffee - not the best but not bad - I drove it on out to West Virginia, only stopping for fuel and making haste of that. I wanted hours left over for driving out of West Virginia. The reason is because I have not been able to drive past Lexington for want of hours ot drive and anywhere to stop. 

There's a lot of factors to today and getting as far as I did. But I got to the plant in Charleston, dropped the trailer at a holding location, hooked up to the trailer at the delivery station, dropped it  elsewhere, back to the loaded trailer, backed it up to the loading station, then back to the empty trailer, got paperwork done and got the hell  out of there.  When I was approaching Lexington, it was obvious that I could get across the Bluegrass Parkway and to a truckstop well before I would run out of driving hours.

The Petro down the road from Elizabethtown was my goal.  Now, through all of this, I was talking to my son, it's his anniversay and I was congratulating him.  It'a already been a year since he got married!! Anyway that was keeping me awake and I was very glad to hear from my son.

When I got to the Petro exit, I already knew that I could drive another hour - so I did! I figured to try and make it close enough to make it back to the yard tomorrow. It may or may not happen and if it doesn't, oh well no biggies. It's about 650 miles to the yard from where I'm at. I'll hit Nashville at a non-rush hour traffic time, I should get through there fast enough. 

Dang there was so much more I wanted to write.  But 'm fading now.  Time to go to sleep. 

I actually got 2 days off for the 34 hour reset.  It usually doesn't work out that way, but I hinted at needing a couple of days off.

I did not hint about Cheniere, however.  I made it perfectly clear that 1. my next paycheck is going to be substantially lower than any other check because you are sending me there continuously and 2. there are plenty of other drivers that can go down there.  Some of them can't because they don't have the credentials. Well gee golly willickers, go get them!  They don't want to for obvious reasons.

She doesn't force them to do it, some people refuse to go down there, but I have to? She actually asked me when my Safety Council card expires.  I don't know the card is in the truck. Shortly after I got hired a group of 3 of us went to take the training - 8 hours of hellish miserable monotone people talking about things that have absolutely nothing to do with what we are doing down there.  I don't care if it was paid.  Regardless, it's good for at least another 3 months. 

The other thing about Cheniere is it's driver unload.  Most other runs are not.  So we're also wasting the amount of time it takes to unload the truck which is usually at least a 3 hour process from the time you enter the plant until the time you leave it.  And often times much more than that. 

I have spent literally hours on the phone today with ATT, Direct TV and a few other service providing companies.  I couldn't access my account on Directv, as it turns out the reason was because my account had been suspended.  Why? The lady didn't know, I assume it's related to the fraud that whoever pulled on me using one of my phone numbers with ATT, one and the same company now.

We went through an hour on the phone before she fixed it AND offered a bunch of credit to my account (hundreds of dollars worth) for the inconvenience. I didn't even ask her for that, I was simply attempting to access my account online to pay the bill.  That's how I pay all the bills that aren't set up as auto pay.   But, while I got that figured out, ATT was more dicey. 

You see, I got the "free" 2 for 1 phone deal at the beginning of this year.  I have asked repeatedly about why the bill went up almost $40 considering the second phone is "free" and there should only be an additional $15 plus tax charge for unlimited phone and texting.  I ended up calling headquarters - if you ever need to call a company's headquarters and can't find the number, use Hoovers.  Just put the name of the company in the search field and put Hoovers next to it.  You will see something in the resulting list that says "company profile" by Hoovers and if there is a corporate number, you can be rest assured it will be listed there. Many companies will tell you they don't "have" a corporate number or they "don't know" it.  That's an obvious lie and I learned how to circumvent that years ago when I stumbled across the hoovers website. 

Anyway, we got into an elongated discussion an it turns out they charge a $40 data access fee for each line.  I was flabbergasted, because that phone doesn't have any data.  I only have data on my phone the other two they have to use wifi to connect to the internet and such.  It got pretty heated after a long while of him basically identifying ATT as a scam company that doesn't disclose all the info upon "upgrading" your account.  They even charged me a $25 "upgrade" fee. What a bunch of crap.  I'm paying them for the service and they want to charge me a fee to - use their service above the fees I'm already paying to use their service? So it's a fee for a fee? 

I was pretty outraged after that phone call and hearing all this junk.  I refused to hang up, I told him he'd have to hang up on me and that would be that.  I've got a year and a half on this phone payment contract, after that I'm departing ATT forever.  I may stick with Direct TV, but ATT cellular service I will never do business with again.  For now, I am going to eat it.  The only other option is to pay both phones off, but since I have only had these phones for 8 months, I still have a lot of paying off left to go, over $500 on each.  It may come to the point that when I get them paid down to around $200 each, I'll pay off the phones, get out of the contract and go to Verizon.  Or go somewhere else.  I don't liike Verizone customer service, but their coverage is far superior to everyone else. 

Anyway, that has consumed 2/3rd's of my day.  Just what I wanted to do on my days off. I just didn't want to deal with this stuff because I know the aggravation that ensues when you call these people,.  Most of the issues I am having with various services are now taken care, but a few left to go.  I need to fix my computer so I can plug in a "thing" in a port for it to run some sort of service to get movies that I want to watch off of it for free or next to nothing and reduce my current Direct TV bill by around $100.  I'm paying for that here, I'm also paying for it over there.  That just went up by $50 but they are covering it so no concern to me about that one.  This one tho I want to bring down.  And I still need to get my car totally cleaned out, find the title and get rid of it.  That will bring down my monthly insurance payment which is pretty high right now.  That's another project - see if i can find cheaper insurance. I've tried a few companies but so far, no better offers have come my way.

Get an insurance quote is also time consuming and can also be very aggravating.  I'm not doing that today.  I think I: am going to ask for 3 or 4 days off, whenever it's convenient, to take care of personal stuff.  The car, the insurance, stuff that needs to be done around here.

As it stands, I also had a window unit installed in my room today. AC unit that is.  This room gets warm. I know there' not that much time left before winter hits, but I have trouble sleeping at night.  This room I'm in is huge, but it's an add on. It was a garage or carport and they obviously didn't put in enough insulation.  The central AC outlet doesn't have that much coming out of it either.  I just decided I wasn't going to lay there in the middle of the night, uncomfortable, ;trying to sleep because it's too hot in here.

I still have laundry to do and cook dinner. I have a chicken fryer brining in the fridge, it's ready to be cooked.  Yikes, it's almost 3:00 pm.  I probably should think about getting that sucker in the oven.  I am also awaiting whatever I'm going to get dumped with over the weekend.  I don't get weekends off, hardly ever. I have to specifically ask for it and then it's "I'll see what I can do".  Ok, what does that mean?  I'm telling ya, the only thing that keeps me at this company right now is the money. If that weren't there I would have already high tailed it out of there.  I have no loyalty to any company anymore, they don't have any loyalty to you.  They really don't.  They can cut you at any time and they'll think nothing of it.  I have no tenure at this company and I don't see any reason to cut them any slack when it comes to who is getting what runs. 

It affects my paycheck, that is reason enough in itself.

And, now that I have this AC unit cranking, my room is nicely chilled!  Very nice. 

I may write something up later, but I have stuff to do now.  There is no reason to assume I have tomorrow off, I may or I may not, but if I don't, I need to be ready to go.

I'm not happy with work right now.

In the last 5 runs, 4 of them have been Cheniere, including being sent out on this waste of time run today at 1:30.  I texted her asking about it, she didn't reply with anything but the load information.  So, I told her it's almost always more than a day trip and I only have 13 hours left on my clock.  Oh that's okay, you're getting 7 over night.  Great.  So, I have 20 hours to waste on a trip that doesn't pay anything.

I verified that by looking at my most recent pay stub.  Wasting 2 days going down there and back, I got less than $400.  Using 2 days going down to Browsnville I got almost a grand on one particular run, tho admittedly that had some detention pay in it.  Since I know I'm not going to make it home tonight - even if there were the chance of having enough time, I wouldn't get home until 4 or 5 am and I'm not going to waste an entire day feeling like s*** because I stayed up all night long trying to get home - I'm not going to say anything to anyone when I get down there. I'm just going to pull into the lot and sit there and probably go to sleep,  If they want to make me wait for 10 hours, great!  I'll get detention pay at least and make the waste of 2 days worth something.

Last trip - which I got home yesterday from - I had 5 hours of it.  Just not enough to make that particular run worth it.  In fact, in this case? I'd just as soon something happens at the loading plant.  And make me wait 5 hours there.

Whatever the case, I got another company newsletter from this company of which I absolutely laughed at.  The CEO is complaining of driver retention and that they are going to start a "new" program to find ways to keep good drivers.  I have several suggestions but giving them will probably get me on a "list" so I'll refrain.  Or maybe I'll send it through an email that isn't associated with my name.  Of course, there is the ID that goes along with those email addresses that can be traced back to other email addresses.  I wonder if they'd go that far with it? Probably just best to keep my mouth shut.

The thing says  "In 2017, even though we hired almost 2,000 Drivers (sic), we also lost Drivers due to various reasons.  Most of these Drivers left within the first 6 months of being hired".  I could give them several tips.  Don't hire people on and then not have trucks available to drive when they are done with orientation.  Don't use orientation as a tool to instill "fear", make people feel welcome to be there instead of telling them how many ways they can get fired for doing this and that and leaving out the welcoming party stuff while doing so.  Don't promise new drivers new trucks and then not only not give you one, but also diss you to your face while doing so, that's a BIG no-no in the trucking world.  Don't dump drivers from one truck to another to another, drivers want to have their own truck, not be moved around like US Mail going from one truck to another.

Don't play favorites.  It will get back to those new drivers eventually. Don't make new drivers go unload cryogenics, giving them absolutely NO training whatsoever on how to do it. "You'll figure it out".  Can you imagine the fear of unloading a substance that is highly flammable, explosive, volatile, kept at around 150 below zero and can give you freeze burn upon contact and can also suffocate you if a big spill occurred?  Yeah, that.  And more, much more actually.

I'm here, stuck here for at least a year, in my mind anyway, to get at least the minimum experience to be able to move on to another company, make the same wages and get better treatment.  I sit at a table at the loading plant and we all talk among ourselves - drivers from all kinds of different companies. And here it is, yet another snail mail from the company wanting drivers to recruit new drivers.  In a pig's eye I will, not with the crap that's going on here now.  Sure, you get a couple thousand dollars but you are recruiting someone to a place that doesn't have their s*** together.  And then that driver blaming me ? No thanks. 

Well, that's that for my crying episode today.  Meanwhile, grin and bear it.  Go into work in a couple of hours, get the truck loaded and get on the road to that miserable place.  At least my bank account is happy, tho with these runs my paychecks will be significantly smaller, which is my gripe about this run.

Of all the things my mind has wandered about to spend money on, I have actually done none of it, at least, nothing more than what I've already reported on this blog.  New TV, boat, 4 wheelers, etc, none of that stuff.  If I could get my savings up to 10 grand, that would just propel me on to wanting to save another 10 grand and then, I could get the property I want or perhaps a start on rental properties.  I needed a "new" vehicle, I'm comfortable with that.  I am looking at ways to reduce my monthly expenditures, got a start on that yesterday with complaining to ATT about over priced services. They were all over it, amazingly enough.  Oh we'll help you out with that! They actually did, too, I was amazed and shocked at the same time. 

Direct TV is next.  All the movie channels we still have here, Donny was paying the additional amount for those, but he's over at the other house now and I don't need all of that extra fluff. I'm not even here long enough to enjoy all of that.  I figure to cut out the movie channels altogether, that should save around $75 per month, maybe more.  They wanted to dump Direct TV altogether, but I'm not at that point.  I want certain channels - they aren't premium channels but they are cable channels. 
It's optional services I can save on, things like water and electricity not so much. 

Well I'm gettting off here.  Finish laundry, take a shower and go deal with this junk. 

So I got out of the hotel, got into the truck, got the trailer - they had moved it to the rack at the plant themselves and saved me the time of using up HOS hours to do all of that and unload it.  Hooked up to the thing and walaah - half the lights not working on the trailer.  Figured that one out quickly - wires pulled out of the pigtail connector, took all of that apart, but the wires back and reconnected it and left.  I figured to try and make it to Prescott, Arkansas and leave myself just a short 140 jaunt to get back to the yard after that.

Well I realized around 7: 00 pm my manager hadn't contacted me so I figured I had the weekend and Monday off! woohoo!!  Yeah, no.  It was 8:36 pm and I got a text - load Sunday for Cheniere.  GAG. That is by far the latest she has contacted me with a load.  I always figure by 7:00 pm if she doesn't contact me I'm not getting one the next day, or if it's Friday I don't have to work that weekend. Instead, I drove 3 hours today and will spend the entire day tomorrow fooling with Cheniere and probably have to spend the night somewhere cause' if everything doesn't go perfectly, you aren't going to do a day trip.

So that carries me into Monday and then? I'll be out of hours.  Maybe 13 left on the clock.  That's enough for a day and then nothing.  Of course, if she's got more going than drivers to cover it, rest assured she'll dump me with whatever - would have to be something I can get to same day - and then I would have to  spend my 34 hour reset on the road.   The only good thing about that is that that is a guaranteed hotel stay. You don't get paid for detention or anything, but the hotel is covered by the company.

Anyway, I'm worn out.  I know I spent a night at a hotel but that trip just took it out of me.  I'm not sure about tomorrow, sometimes this feeling carries over into the next day and then I'm useless. Couple that with tomorrow being Sunday and it's a recipe for disaster.  There is something that clicks in my head on Sundays that this is a day off, time to relax...yet, I am forced to work most Sundays, last weekend being a notable exception.

So here we go. 
Same old thing loading at the plant yesterday - except that it was early load.  IE: be there at 5:00 am.  Definitely wasn't liking it since I haven't done an early load for a while now.

Spent the day yawning, trying to stay awake, etc.  I mean, it was after 4:00 pm when I finally felt awake and not groggy.  Long day.  But what made it longer? Around noon, my Iphone crapped on me. Yup, the screen did a funny dance and then, boom, black.  The phone was still working but I couldn't do anything with it.  Now, that's a problem because I use GPS off of it.  My truck has a Quaalcomm with GPS but they don't have it enabled for whatever reason.  It's also a problem if I have an issue or if something happens out on the road.

We are reminded of terrorists and potential hijackings allllllll the time.  Company newsletters, sheets handed out to us, even training we have to do all mentions it.  I can see it being used as a giant bomb, that stuff if you could get it to explode would take out a city block from what I'm being told.  Don't know if that's an exaggeration but I do believe it has lethal potential.  The experts at the plant loading it know more about it than anyone and they reluctantly stated that yes, it can explode.  Not sure why they were reluctant to confirm that, everyone else was saying it all along.  Just kind of the "fear of God" thing they want you to apparently have while transporting it. 

I got over that quite a while ago.  I have utmost respect for it, yes, but fearing it doesn't work. That would just create a lot of tension every time I drive and I can't have that. 

Anyway, I already knew where I was going yesterday. 67 to I-55 and then a short jaunt on I-55 and then stop in a small town at a restaurant that has truck parking. After that? I would have to look on the map.  Good thing I carry one with me just in case.  I got to my favorite restaurant annnnnd.....they had put up "No Overnight Parking" signs all over the place.  Note, trucks only parked in a dirt lot where no one else parks, not in the way of anything, not a parking spot for cars.  This is what truck drivers experience everywhere.  The last time I was up there, I parked there overnight and so did a few other trucks with no problems. I spent money in the restaurant, I tipped well.

I'm really getting tired of this anti-truck sentiment around the country.  I would love for all of us to just stop driving for a week and then we wouldn't have annnnnyyyyy more problems.  Like magic, truckers would be respected again, the hate for trucks would be magically turned into where the hell are they and why aren't they bringing us.... everything.

Nix that one.  Drove back down to the 2 truckstops I had passed the small town before and they were already completely filled up, no parking spaces anywhere.  Ugh.  Well, out of the other small town I had noticed an empty lot.  Note: I was almost out of time.  It's park the truck now scenario or go over hours and then issues with the company.   I went back up, looked over this lot, there was a semi trailer already parked there, just went for it. No signs saying not to.  This is America today.  Truckstops are full and mostly any other places don't want you there.  I mean, it was 5:30 pm and those two places were already full!

No one bothered me tho.  Truck driver came in at around 4:00 am and hooked up to his trailer. I was getting up at 4:30 am anyway so not a big deal. Meanwhile, I had unplugged the phone after trying everything else, I couldn't get it to reset because when you push the reset button, it brings up a prompt on the screen asking if you want to shut it down. Well since the screen wasn't showing anything and touching it all over didn't do squat, it wouldn't reset.  Well, I got going around 4:45 am.  The low battery signal did finally show up on the screen.  I just kept pressing the button hoping to drag the battery down so far even that wouldn't come up.  After a couple of hours - I was 3-1/2 hours away from my destination - I finally just decided to plug it back into power outlet and hope it would work.

Walaaaaah!  The thing loaded up, the screen came on asking for password, input that and here we were, back in business.  It took 17 hours to do that.  I can tell ya, I learned alot about myself in those 17 hours that I didn't know.  Or didn't realize I should say.  First off, I have become totally reliant on the phone and that lady that is crammed inside that phone telling me where to go.  It was odd to have to pay attention to every sign to make sure I didn't miss my exit. I thought, if I did miss my exit and didn't see it when I passed it, I wouldn't even realize it!  Maps interrupts you if you miss a turn and tells you to turn around or take another route.  I don't remember using a road atlas in any recent times.  Maybe 15 years?

But it wasn't bad, actually. It as making me think.  When I was at the parking lot, I had nothing to do so I got out of the truck, got out the road atlas and planned the rest of the trip for today.  It was just an interesting experience to go without a smart phone for that length of time.  Can't watch videos, get on Facebook, look at the news, nothing.  I can't say it was bad, it wasn't great but it gave me a new perspective. 

Now, getting up here. Here being somewhere south of Peoria near Chicago.  We have a regular customer up here. In fact, this is the place where I was driving that Volvo and it broke down and spent time at a hotel waiting for it to be repaired.  Same place.  I got to the plant hoping it wouldn't take too long to unload so I could get some hours driving in and get back down the road. 

Not so fast.  

I got in the plant, the dude gets on the phone with me at the guardhouse: You're going to have to wait until tomorrow.  Lol.  My "let's get out of here as fast as possible" sails completely deflated and my "let's get paid to sit for 30 hours at a hotel prepaid by my company " sails arose.  Really?  I became jubilant at that point.  How can you complain about sitting in a hotel room all day long, watching movies, on the net, or just sleeping and getting paid for it the entire time?   These are the trips that I truly love.  I don't care if I don't get back tomorrow.  It's really not that important. My dogs are in loving hands.  The baby at the house is extremely sick with a nasty cough and I don't need to be around that anyway.  I was running from him anytime he started coming at me - he likes me for whatever reason and always wants me to hold him.

But when he's that sick? No thanks bro! I was glad I was going on a 3 day trip and now it's going to be 4.  I was just sick with that same crap not that long ago, the whole house was.  Getting out of there is the best thing.  So here I am, in a company paid hotel, using hotel free wifi, in Pekin, Illinois at a Holiday Inn Express on the top/3rd floor.  I'm loving life right now.  It's not even noon yet and I have the whole rest of the day ahead of me to do nothing or find something to do if I want to or whatever. 

BTW, this happens frequently on this run.  I haven't had it in quite a while, I've been boogying to Brownsville and back, but that's shut down until next week.  It's only shut down cause the customer down there forgot to order more product and the slots for it filled up for other companies.  Once the slots are full, that's it. There's no slipping anyone in there.  You have to wait your turn and that probably means someone is in trouble at that plant in mexico, cause they are normally getting at least one load a day delivered down there.  The product I haul will shut a plant down if they don't have enough of it in their storage tanks.  Up here, the customer has full tanks sometimes and they just wanted the product because of that "slot" thing I just mentioned.  They order it whether they need it or not, if they don't need it, they pay for the driver to spend however much time at a hotel.  It's that or yes, they shut down as well and they are screwed. 

What I really like, besides getting paid to do nothing, is the Holiday Inn Express is a nice hotel.  And there is a Walmart across the street I can go shop for supplies and there's an Applebee's across the other street to have lunch or dinner at.  But I am not hungry, I stopped for breakfast up the road since I knew it would take a while before they would actually get my hotel room. 2 hours, actually. I have lunchmeat and fixings in the truck and am trying to discipline myself to not eat out on the longer trips.  The Brownsville trip I made an exception. There are plenty of places where I can stop and get a quick bite to eat and on the cheap.  I'm not broke but I see no good reason to just waste money just .... because?  I haven't lived my life like that up until this job, no sense in changing now.  I'd rather "waste" the money on things that I have wanted for years or even decades.

I paid most of the outstanding amount on the dentist - yes I have payments on it but the cash I had to pay is almost done.  I wanted that out of the way before buying anything else.  The SUV I bought on payments only, they didn't ask for a down payment so I didn't give them one.  The payments are quite reasonable considering the kind of ride it is. That thing was over 50 grand when it was new.  It's in excellent condition.  Not good, not fair, excellent condition inside and out.  I'm not complaining about that, I am going to complain about the high insurance rate I was given by my existing insurance company, so I'm currently looking at quotes. 

The next thing I want is a 55 inch TV for my room.  Or, rebuilt my desktop computer - it's going on 6 years now, it needs gutted and redone.  Or I may just replace the hard drive in it and sell it. Hard drives are cheap and you don't have to worry about someone getting your stored info, even if you have "erased it", which we all know it can be recovered.  And I need a new laptop.  Considering waiting til' black Friday or Cyber Monday for either or both of them tho. It's not really that far off.  Well, okay its almost 4 months until Black Friday, but the deals are incredible.  That's one where I would show up to Walmart and buy a very large screen TV at an incredible price. 

None of those are imperative to have, excepting the desktop really is starting to slow down. I was just going to replace the hard drive but I thought about it, this thing being as old as it is, I should just start from scratch and have a whole new system.  It's hard to decide what to get tho. There are so many different motherboards and processors available out there.  Hard drive, power supply will be easy, but also a good video card without spending a fortune. 

Well anyway, I think I will double my hourly pay and get some of the online training I need to get done - done.  I can drag it out for hours and hours and get paid the same for doing that as I am for sitting here waiting.  A memo was sent out to all of our terminal's drivers to get all of it done.  I had no idea how much training they had dumped in there.  "If you don't get some of those done, they will stop giving you loads to certain places".  Oh, does that include Cheneire? Lol, they can not give me those runs and I"d be as happy as a bug in a rug!  They weren't enthused, I didn't care, it eats up a lot of time watching these long, boring videos with some dude with a monotone voice making it even worse.

Nothing else new in my world.  I don't think.  I do think I'll do another Trump post cause' I'm tired of people beating down Trump supporters as if we have some sort of deadly disease. I am not one to back down to such things, especially the amount of lies and exaggerations the left is making about Trump and his supporters.  Read: supporters.  We don't worship Trump, we aren't in a cult, we support him as much as the left was supporting Obama.  There is no difference.  The narratives have gone to the point of being outrageous, frankly. 

Just FYI, I'm not some some stupid dimwit that just "follows the leader", ie: Trump. I have been following politics for many years.  I am not "falling" for Trump, I'm following what he is doing and what the left's reaction to every move he makes is.  CNN, MSNBC, NBC, ABC, HUFFPOST, Vox and MANY other "news outlets" are nothing but anti Trump propaganda machines.  They don't care about facts, the truth or reality.  If you are an anti-Trumper, trump hater, on the left, progressive - etc ad nauseum, you  are the crowd that is being deceived.  You hear the liberal MSM, democratic "leadrers", Hollywood elitists and others mouthing off their hatred for Trump, I choose to look at numbers, graphs and the will of the American people. 

I've had my IQ tested, it came out at 133.  Do you Trump haters have anything like that? Do you go beyond your emotions to validate or dismiss anything and everything, much less all things Trump?  Please spare me your strawman arguments, your deflections, you raw anger and hatred.  Go find Jesus if your life is that miserable, mine is not. 

You want to have an argument about Trump and what he's done, let's have at it without all of your vitriol, emotional outbursts and dismissive rhetoric pumped out by your masters: the liberal MSM, the DNC, Nancy Pelosi, the Indian, Schumer and all the rest of them. I will stand up to any of your parroted talking points with FACT and NUMBERS, not emotionally drawn rhetoric.  Get over yourselves, look at the economy as the NUMBERS ARE PRESENTED and verified, and congratulate AMERICA for an outstanding state of being in terms of earthly existence.  EVERYTHING that Trump does is condemned by the left.  I wonder why? Because you are power hungry.  You don't care about America, you don't care about it's citizens or it's citizens well being, you want POWER to orchestrate your progressive idealism over all the rest of us, and I can narrow it down into a few words: Redistribution of wealth.  You want to take MY money and give it someone else? I worked for what I have, I don't give a shit about people that want to take my wealth and give it to themselves because they feel entitled to it. 

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Enough of that. 
You want to go drama on me about Trump, I'm going to come right back at you, whoever you are, all of you. I do it on a daily basis in large groups, doing it on my blog is even easier. 

As for my personal life, which is what this blog is mostly about, I am heading off to Mapleton, Illinois tomorrow.  This is an easy trip. 3 days if I remember. Tomorrow is load at the plant and try to get minimum 600 miles in, then 10 hours later, the other 100 plus miles, get to the plant, get the thing unloaded and drive out whatever I can that day after it's done.  I don't even do the unloading there, the plant does all of that.  Not that I even care about unloading this cryogenic liquid anymore, I've been doing it long enough I am at least "comfortable" that I can deal with any situation arises.

Until, of course, a situation arises that I haven't deal with, lol.  There isn't much room for error with this stuff.  You really have to be on top of it when unloading, the entire time, totally focused on it, keep your mind off everything else.  I do not have a cellphone out at the plants I have to unload in.  Well, that's because a cellphone can ignite the stuff if it were leaking but also because it is too distracting. 

I stopped by the dealership today, we all shook hands, they gave me my new license plates - apparently Texas sends them to the dealer, not your home - and parted ways. 

I'm a pretty happy person right now, sans all the political bs going on in America right now.  Lots of reasons, some of it personal , some of it not.  Biggest thing with me is getting my spiritual life in order.  After that is family - some of that I don't think will ever be resolved but my son and I are tight at least and I have a great relationship with my mom.  My brothers, I'm pretty much living my life without and have given up on it.  Too much conflict, not based on my but based on parental junk that I have no control over and deep seated bitterness - and - though - a hatred for "religion".

I don't espouse religion, I promote relationship with Christ.  Religion is almost all about man, relationship is promoting a deep, heart conversation and love for and with the Lord.  Man's idea of religion in religious churches is a far different cry than what the Bible speaks about having a relationship with Christ.  God wants to speak to you. Man made religion wants to  control you.  That's about the easiest way I can define it.  God doesn't want to control you, he wants a heart relationship with you. 

That's where I'm going currently.  Getting back into church is a part of that.  Money comes after all of that.  Its nice to have, yes.  It's nice not to have to worry about bills, yes.  At the same time, I spend a lot of time out on the road to earn that money.  There's a trade off and not necessarily a good one. I often question myself if saving for retirement is really a good goal. Or saving for property, or all the rest of these earthly things. What does any of that have to do with the eternal kingdom of heaven?

Well whatever. 3:15 am comes early. I'll undoubtedly sleep like shit tonight. Every night when I have to get up that early, I don't sleep well and it's unexplicable.  So, tomorrow will be run on something around 3 to 4 hours of sleep even tho I'm going to bed in time for at least 6 and that will be that. 

President Trump threatens a government shut down if dems don't agree to the wall.  I say he should have allowed it to stay shut down last time for want of a budget that was nothing but more of the same old tax and spend crap that either and both parties have been engaging in for ever. But, Trump wanted all that money for the military budget plus we got dumped with a bunch of other stuff that is either needless or could be trimmed way back.  I'm seriously concerned about the nation's debt, fiat system be damned, the interest payments on that debt is the THIRD highest budget item on the list.  Where do we draw the line?  Apparently never, just keep throwing money away on worthless social programs and increased payments for social security, medicaid and the almighty military.

I agree we need a strong and vibrant military.  No questioning that from my perspective.  But do we need to literally foot the build for most of the world and having these bases all over the place? If we are protecting any given nation, shouldn't they finance it as much as they possibly can within their own budgets?  There are strategic bases that we should pay for if those countries don't, but not all of them.  The one thing I don't have a problem with is spending 20 or 30 billion on an advanced wall that will aid in helping keep illegals from stepping foot into our nation.  I'ts not an end all, but with increased Border Patrol agents and using technology, we could seriously cut down the numbers. 

But it's baffling to me a nation that takes in that much money in revenues from taxes every single year and yet we can't even balance our budget, much less pay down the debt? Instead, we are in deficit spending, increasing the debt and increasing the interest payments while we're at it.  Tho honestly, I never really saw Trump as a president that would do anything about the debt.  If we don't fix Sociial Security, it is going to go bust eventually.  The system needs to be shut down, give a grandfather clause to those of us paying into it all our lives, opt Millenials and whatever the name of the next generation is after that out of it and instead simply have savings accounts if we are even going to force them to save at all.  I'm dumping at least $400 per paycheck and often times more into 401k every single paycheck. In 10 years, it still won't be enough.  But it's better than not saving at all.  If I go into retirement with 200 grand I'll be lucky.  That's not much but coupled with SS I will be able to survive on a limited income.  Probably still rent out rooms and do all of that stuff that makes owning a house much easier to deal with.

Whatever the case, I'd be happy if the next president we get after Trump is actually one that will sit down at the table and start to discuss real reform of the way we spend money in this nation as a whole and how we are going to address SS, medicaid and the growing debt.



Moving on to other things.  Cheniere is not a day trip.  I have distinctly come to that conclusion.  It happens once in a blue moon, but mostly it does not.  Yesterday was no different.  If anything goes wrong at either end, it's toast.  The toast occurred at the loading plant.  A hot truck came in and it took 4 hours to deal with.  It had been in the shop and oxygen had gotten into the tank. That's what's referred to a hot truck: oxygen in the tank. They apparently don't want any oxygen in there at all and won't load it until they purge it out of there.

Well I knew it was going to be time to take a nap when I got to the loading rack and 4 iso trailers and one regular trailer ahead of me.  I figured 5 to 6 hours and I wasn't let down. 6 hours later I was out of there and completely gave up on any notion of getting home that night.  I was up to 1:45 am last night unloading the truck and then spent 10 hours in their parking lot - I had about 45 minutes left on the clock when I was done which wasn't enough time to get anywhere.

So  I didn't get home until a bit ago which was around 4:00 pm.  Now? I asked for Sunday off to go to church.  So, tomorrow is a preload for another driver - was hoping to have 2 full days off but a preload isn't tooooo terribly bad, not great but not bad either.  Unless some crap happens again and I'm stuck there half a day.  But THEN, I have to go back to Cheniere Monday! I very much hate that place because it pays nothing like other runs and as quite involved.  It's just a waste of time, really.

Now I find out that the new Cheneire plant near Corpus Cristi isn't opening up in a few years as workers at the existing facility claimed. Instead, they're firing up next month and it will take dozens and dozens and dozens of runs down there to fill up their bullets.  That's what they call them. Giant tanks mounted sideways so I guess they look like giant bullets. Bullets that hold over a million gallon a piece.  Meaning constant running. Because that's going to be dumped on us on top of everything else. If we can't cover it, they'll siphon it off to another company that hauls ethylene and that's something our company desperately doesn't want to have happen, meaning we are going to be very busy.

I just looked up the actual address, they're calling it Corpus Cristi but it's actually in Portland, Texas.  Not much of a difference lol, just across a bay it looks like from Corpus Cristi.  It's 418 miles from my house, probably not much different from the plant since it's both due south of here.  That's better than the 232 of the other Cheniere - but not that much better.  It makes it a 2 day run and that isn't really all that good for 2 days, not like Brownsville which is a 562 mile trip one way.  They really need to up the pay for short trips to make it worth the trouble.

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Saturday evening.  Stayed up way too late last night playing a game with everyone here, like I didn't get to bed until almost 1:30 am.  Yeah, that's just too late. I didn't have to get up early this morning but I've been paying for it all day long.  I got the trailer preloaded at the plant and after taking it back to the yard, I decided to crash in the truck for a couple of hours before even going back home lol. Note to self: midnight is the latest I can stay up before it has very negative effects on me the next day, regardless of how late I can sleep in.

I am  becoming more of a night owl with this job tho, getting used to staying up later and still feeling good the next day as long as I can get enough sleep.

Anyway, we are going to church tomorrow.  That is a good thing, I haven't been in a while.  11:00, the only thing I don't care for is the drive 2 towns over.  There are churches here but they want to go to one over there.  Which is fine as I said we can take my ride but I won't be driving : ) I am very happy to be a passenger for once. 

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3 day post here lol.  Today came, we went to church. Very nice,  good worship, good message, very good message.  Loved it.  It's a giant church, the only issue I had with it.  Not really into them, but it's better than not going at all. I have work tomorrow and yes that Cheniere run, but I don't have to be at the loading rack until 1:30.  That really isn't all that great, tho, because it means I have to be out very late just to get the truck unloaded.  After that, it will mean sitting in their dirt parking lot again for 10 hours and then driving home.  It's just too late a start time to be able to finish it in 14 hours.  I won't get out of there until 4 at the earliest, I won't get to Cheniere until 8:15 to 8:30, it's at least 3 hours in there unloading, by the time that's done it's close to midnight and then I'm going to drive home? Heck no!!  I voiced my dissent this time in getting two of them in a row tho.  That run doesn't pay well enough to get it all the time. 

Anyway, today is clean day.  I vacuumed my floor, got laundry fixing to do the dusting and straightening up stuff.  It's already 1:35 pm but that's kind of what church does. It eats up your morning and usually part of your afternoon.  But it's worth it.  Just I think we need to find a church around here to go to, at least save 35 miles each way of driving.  There are plenty of churches here, just keeping going to different ones until one of them resonates. 

Other than that, status quo.  My bank account continues to grow.  I get through all the bills and there's always still more in there than last paycheck.  It's very encouraging.  That's beyond 401k, totally separate accounts with my bank savings account and my checking account.  I'm tempted to double the amount being automatically directed into savings to be able to save for a significant down payment on property.  They're going to want it with my credit where it's at.  I figure I'd probably have to save around 20 grand to do that.  Only 16-1/2 grand to go! lol

Still if I could find property at a grand an acre, I could really get a nice chunk of property with that much down.  I want at least 50 acres, 100 would be optimal.  Wouldn't mind that part of it could be zoned commercial rental and put in a small mobile home park for extra income.  Out in the county, that shouldn't be impossible to do.  Devote 10 acres to it and slowly build it up.  I'm always dreaming lol.  I look at some properties around here and wonder how they can ask that much per acre. $11,000 per acre for undeveloped property? It's not all like that just saying that's a bit ridiculous.  I have seen it at a grand an acre, more common is around 2 grand per acre for undeveloped property out in the country.  Horses, cattle and maybe some pigs.  No chickens, thanks. Dirty creatures, worse than any of those others mentioned. 

Well whatever.  I'm setting myself a goal to watch less news.  I ;think 90% of the so-called news is Trump bashing and I've seen more than enough of it. Every single week, a fresh new narrative comes out to find a way to impeach Trump.  I mean, the stuff that happened say 3 weeks ago is already forgotten.  It's quite amazing - and outrageous at the same time.  Trump comes out with solid numbers that any president would swoon for and all the press can do is dismiss it and tell us it isn't sustainable instead of simply saying great job Trump!

I don't need that as a daily mental diet.  Not that I venture over to the likes of CNN, Huffpost, CBS, MSNBC and the like - I don't want anything to do with increasing their ratings. 

Well, enough. Off to get some stuff done. 

Well.  Got back this morning around 8:00am .  I was trying to get back from this trip last night but I ran out of hours.  Like, 139 miles out. I could have easily made the rest of the trip. I was wide awake, not sleepy at all, but but but the Feds, the FMCSA mandating rules that are "one size fits all".  Because some dude or dudette sitting in an office in Washington thinks that statistics are the sole indicator of how to make rules that affect MILLIONS of people, they have the power, they don't care what the people affected think...and the industry is suffering because of it. 

Older drivers make up 70% of the driving force and guess what? Many of them are getting sick of the regulations and are leaving the industry.  Time will tell, but since there is a tens of thousands of drivers shortage already, we may start seeing even more of a change in the trucking industry. Drivers are getting much higher wages, across the board.  Maybe the big mega carriers are still paying lower than the rest but the pay is definitely going up over all. Driver retainment is a big issue in most trucking companies agendas.  Money talks - enough money overcomes the negative aspects of the industry over all.

Now, as the for the trip itself, there is a portion of that trip that is just spectacular views. The Bluegrass Parkway is just an awesome drive.  Getting through that, through Lexington and over to West Virginia, well, WV has a lot of road construction going on and it slows down progress substantially.  It's really a drag because it limits me for going back to Lexington and then I have to stop. There is only one truck stop on the bluegrass parkway, it's very small and it's highly risky to drive there and possibly find out there is no parking.  But even beyond that, without all that construction I would have been able to make it back to I-64 and then I would be able to make this trip a 3 day trip instead of 4. 

But I'm not complaining too much, it was a good trip, I just don't want to do too many 4 or even 3 day trips too often.  Not my call but my manager knows I like the shorter trips. 

So that's what I"ve been doing for the last 4 days and I just didn't feel like getting out that little notebook to write up an entry, save it for when I get home.  I did not stop at a hotel, I had thoughts about it but there wasn't any point in the trip where I was stopping early enough in the day to warrant staying at one.  That's because the load time that started this trip out wasn't until noon and that really throws a trip off.  Oh, there was one night when I was out of hours, down to a few minutes, got to a Loves truck stop and there was absolutely no available parking spots.  I had 8 minutes left on the clock.  I looked at the apps. there was "parking" shown at a Hardy's down the street.  Going down there, yes!  I was at 4 minutes left on the clock before I finally got stopped and done for the night.

There are numerous articles about the shortage of parking spaces as well as the shortage of drivers.  More and more trucks, not much more parking equal a parking nightmare.  The app I really liked to find the obscure places that most people wouldn't bother with quit, they decided to dump the app.  That one had all kinds of places - bars, restaurants, whatever.  Maybe only 1 or 2 spots to park, but most drivers want truckstops, I don't care anything about truckstops excepting to get fuel. 

I'd love to see an app going that was just for the "unknown" places. The need for them is getting greater.  Even last night. The loves I stopped at to park? It wasn't 7:30 pm and that place was completely filled up.  Fortunately there was a truckstop across the interstate - I thought it was a undesireable place at first but it turned out to be quite decent inside. They need to upgrade the exterior to meet the same quality that they have in the inside of the place. 

I asked for Sunday off. If not this Sunday, then the next.  I need to get back into church. Taylor wants to go, I want to go, let's go!  She said she would see what she could do.....I really only get commitments for time off if it's something I'm asking for in advance and especially if it's something pressing, such as getting my teeth done.  But, she did say that it's important to go to church, so that was a plus.

I don't really have anything else right now, well I do but I need to get some stuff done lol.  Like a load of laundry.  I have no idea whether I'm being sent out tomorrow and if I am, I want to be prepared.

I guess I sent my mother into despair tonight unintentionally. 
We were on the phone talking for quite a while and inevitably the discussion went to my middle brother.  This is the dude that threatened to break my bones and send me to the hospital in a series of dozens of test messages sent out to all of us when he decided that he didn't like what I had to say about the family to extended family members.

I'm not going to a Christmas "party" with a person that has threatened my life without simple protections, called concealed carry. Nothing I don't do anyway excepting in the truck tho I've had thoughts of having a small handgun in there because of the crazy freaking people at truckstops and some of the people you encounter out on the highways.  I could hide one quite well if I really wanted to. It's not illegal excepting in states that don't honor the concealed carry license, ie: reciprocal agreements.  I don't need reciprocal agreements going to Brownsville, I dunno about going to West Virginia, where I'm headed tomorrow, but I don't carry one with me anyway. But this does give rise to the idea of at least having something in there. A baseball bat, a billy club or just a tire thumper the doubles as self protection. 

It's likely better that I just don't go to these "parties". My son told me a few weeks ago he won't take his wife to those parties after my middle brother - of course - started in on them.  And may not go to them at all even without her.  I can't blame him. I dunno what's happened to my brother, but whatever it is, I want nothing to do with it. His threatening to send me to the hospital, beat the shit out of me, break all my bones, do what he said he "should have done growing up" was insanity. I haven't heard from him since - not that I want to, I have completely written him off in my life and if I did, indeed, encounter him at a family function, I would have nothing to say to him.

You won't show up to Christmas with a gun.  No, not open, not even noticeable.  Whatever, I just said I won't go to Christmas functions anymore and that will be the end of that.  I can visit my son and his wife, my mom, maybe my oldest brother tho I don't really think he cares either, just not hostile about it.  Another dysfunctional family, what else is new in America?  But I'm not showing up to a place where an individual has openly stated his intentions to attempt to severely hurt me and nothing has been said since then.   No thanks!

I'm looking on a map trying to figure out a different way back from Charleston, West Virginia besides the route that every app I've tried gives me to get back.  The reason is, coming back, once you get to Lexington? There isn't much of any place to stop off the Bluegrass Parkway.  I've been to one single place the truckstop apps give and it has very limited parking.  Very much a roll of the dice driving there and hoping there is a spot anywhere for 10 hours.  But after looking at a map for a while, it's obvious the time lost in stopping early - around 560 miles - doesn't equate to the miles increased in going another route.  I dunno, but tomorrow is Sunday so I expect to make a lot more miles than I would on any weekday. Should be interesting to see how far I can get? 650 miles maybe?

Whatever the case if I make it back to Lexington area early enough, I will stay at the Red Roof Inn again. I very much afford myself a night at a hotel on the way back if it's possible on any given 4 day run. 

Okay. It's late. Time to go to sleep.

In Brownsville, at the America's Best Value Inn.  I really like this place for the price.  Granite top tables and counters, tile flooring, nice  comfortable beds, nice clean lazy chairs, good internet.  I wasn't going to do this today, I was certain - just because of what's been happening down here recently with 2 and 3 and even 4 empty trailers waiting to be picked up - that I would just spend the night in my truck and take off in the morning.

Au Contraire..  When I got the truck loaded this morning and back to the scale house - which is on the property as well - I saw the new driver's truck sitting there. Didn't really think it strange, tho. He was the first load and waiting for certification on the product that we have to take with us on all trips unless they tell us at the plant they will email it ahead of us.  It's an analysis that the chemists do there on every single load to make sure it fits within parameters of quality and purity. 

Anyway, he came out as i was getting out of the truck to go in and get my paperwork on the load.  I didn't know where he was going and thought nothing of it.  In fact, I was worried I wasn't going to get out of the plant in time to get down to Brownsville and get it done in one day.  My objective was to get there, spend the night and get back up to Longview tomorrow and spend a Friday night with my friends and probably at least Saturday. 

So, I drove almost 8 straight hours without stopping.  When I did stop, I checked the elog and saw that I had plenty of time to get down there, even with fueling time and the mandatory 30 minute break.  I didn't rest easy tho, lol, I got out of that truck stop as fast as the clock would let me.  Lo and behold, while pulling out, I see this other drive passing by.  What the hey?  This dude should have been way further down the road since he left loooong before I did.  

That was strange seeing him passing by like that.  I mean, he should have almost been to Brownsville by my calculations and 2 hours ahead of me on time.  Whatever. His truck goes way faster than mine, I'll say that.  He's an owner operator but I doubt he'll get away with driving for this company for long at speeds over 65 mph.  Not my concern tho, if he gets away with it, all I can say is, I would like to too!  Anyway, I took my normal - fastest - route to the yard down here.  He apparently did not.  I'm guessing he didn't want to pay the tolls. So I actually was driving down one side street and him another and met up at the exact same time at the yard. 

He should have beaten me by hours.  Well, I got unhooked before he did even tho I waited for him to back into  a space and I was behind him.  I pulled out from under the loaded trailer and went driving out back - to find one trailer back there.  Hey, HE was in the yard first.  And as an owner operator, he will not get detention pay, that's for company drivers only.  I backed up out of his way and let him get under that trailer. The yard people were leaving, I waved them down. "When do you expect another trailer here?".  "Tomorrow morning" "Do you know what time?".  He didn't know, and I said thank you and instantly decided to drive to the hotel

On my way over, I checked all the hotel site - Priceline, Expedia, Hotels, etc. The prices for this place were high! I didn't want to pay that much even tho I am getting an hourly pay to stay here.  So I just walked in and the dude said, I'll give you a special price. His special price was the normal price I've been paying of which I instantly said yes and thank you! 

I figure at least 12 hours of detention pay, 2-1/2 of it will pay for this room,, the rest is money in my pocket.  And, if the dude is correct and a trailer shows up sometime in the morning, I'll be able to make it home tomorrow evening or night depending on what time it shows up.  I figure to leave out of here at 8am and see if anything is over there. It's only a mile away, I'll leave my stuff in  here and if there isn't, just come back and relax for another couple hours and then check out, get over there and wait.  Very happy this turned out the way it did. In reality, that trailer could not show up for another day and I'd have no problem with that.  But they are usually right when they say it's going to show up at some general time.

Well, it's kinda getting late. Not that bad, almost 10:00 pm. I was going to watch the news but the sound cut out on that channel for unknown reasons.  There isn't much on TV I want to watch, I just wanted to see the news really. 

Thoughts running through my head. Winter will come, the northeast will get cold and then they will want drivers to go up there for however long and drive in hellish conditions in shit trucks and not even making that much money compared to what I am making here.  I"m certain I don't want to do that again.  But what if they force the issue?  Force it back. Fine, if you want to make me go up there, you had better make sure they have a good working truck with everything in working condition.  You''d best make sure they don't give me a trailer that has lost it's vacuum seal (and hence, it's insulation, to keep this 395 below zero stuff cold).  I won't be forced into this s*** again without verification that the equipment is good and if I get there and it isn't, I'm going to tell them adios, Im going back to Texas. 

They can force this on me because I opted for higher pay when I signed on in trade for agreeing to be sent off wherever for a week at a time - tho that's quite unrealistic - if work gets slow here.  I will not drive a truck again where I am driving at night and can't see anything because the headlight bulbs are bad to the point you have to look at the lines on the road to be able to see where you're going.  And a HOST of other issues. 

On another note, my son is moving from one apartment complex to another in August. Their lease is up and they found a better place with an extra bedroom for less money.  "We'll have an extra bedroom in case you're in the area". That's his way of saying if you come to Phoenix please come stay with us.  I've given considerable thought to his upbringing and thought: I could have done better and done some things differently.  I dunno, sometimes I struggle with that.  I think I did the best I could but I see things I could have done better.  I was kinda short with him on various occasions when I probably have been a bit more tempered.  No one can say, however, that I was absent in his life.  I won't say that because I know it's not true, even tho the ex - at one point long ago in a court - was agreeing with this judge that "you raised him by yourself".  I"ll never forget the internal outrage I had against that judge making a totally unfounded statement like that without even asking me my take on it.

I'll also never forget getting in that judge's face and giving her a taste of her own medicine, threat of jail be damned. 

Whatever the case, I think I'll end this one.

G'day. 

Auto pay done.  On the Expedition.  I have far too many bills to keep up with all of this. 3 houses worth of utilities, satellite and internet. One house for mortgage and another for rent payment.  Okay, my house is still pay online, I'm not going to do autopay on that and we aren't given an option to pay the rent at the other house autopay - and with some of the problems we've had over there, I would much rather have it on a written check anyway.  Anyway, I don't have to worry about the SUV payment and if I ever want out of it, it's a call to the bank to get it removed.

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That was yesterday.  Today, I have a full day off finally.  Only thanks to this interim dispatcher who doesn't really know what she's doing.  If she doesn't give me a run tomorrow, I'll take that day off as well but then I'm going to be asking her for work.  Which will run me yet another weekend of course.  I just take whatever days off I can get now and relax and enjoy them regardless. 

Well, not that I wanted to - at all - but I called the dentist. Let's get this over with. One more crown and a filling and I'll be done for now.  My bottom front teeth need work - but they can wait.  After I get done at the dentists I'm going to see if the vet has an opening to get Addler in and get some shots - heartworm and tic/flea.  This region is over run with tics and fleas and we all know dogs getting bit by them can get all kinds of nasty diseases and things, not the least of which is heartworms.  But, I have to get done with the dentist first, gasp at the sticker shock - I owe at least a thousand cash beyond the credit care - pay that up and then come home, sit down, take a deep breath. 

I mean, that's over 8 grand for teeth and a vehicle that's 16 grand, payments on both.  That's a lot of debt to incur all at once, but, the payments are affordable, especially with this job.  It's not anything I could have done at Ferguson, at all.  I would still be driving that old Buick and having to dump money into it - tires, interior, gauges, all kinds of stuff.  Instead, I'm driving what I hope will stay this way: an excellent vehicle that's like floating on a cloud driving down the road. 

Anyway, dentist appointment in 45 minutes - the place is literally 3 minutes down the road so I have plenty of time lol.  Then, off to Walmart to get some things including new leashes for the dogs.  I have my other ones over at the other house for them to take the dogs out front whenever neighbors want to see them.  The neighbors on that street are infatuated with Addler.  Kids and adults alike.  I need leashes because I want to get back into working out and no better way than brisk walks for 30 minutes to get started with.  If I can get that routine going at least 4 or 5 days a week - and that means going for walks while out on the road since I"m not home half the time - maybe I can ease back ito the gym and start out with a couple days a week pumping iron and getting rid of my gut. 
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That and try to find ways to eat more healthy while out on the road.  I get very tired of truck stop food.  It's just calorie laden garbage that may taste good but does nothing good for your body.  It's one of the main reasons I hate even going to truck stops, but I have no choice for getting fuel.  Most of them have Arby's, McDonalds, Wendy's, "cuisine" of that nature.  Any so called healthy menu is still quite unhealthy compared to eating at home. 

No need to waste a bunch of time writing about that stuff tho.  It's just a matter of finding places where I regularly go, such as Brownsville, that's not too far of a drive and can get a healthier meal. 

Ugh. Checked my credit score.  Kinda figured.  Credit card use is"way up" because of using almost all of that CreditCare card to pay for dental.  My usage ratio is up to 51 percent now.  My payment history is slowing going back up, it's at 91% and should slowly keep rising as each of those late mortgage payments fall off, month by month.  Credit age - they give that medium impact on your score.  It's average at 4 years 7 months.  I mean, that seems like a long time? But apparently not to them.  The one thing I am working on is paying down my credit cards except credit care. I'm just making monthly payments on that right now but everything else I'm throwing money at whenever I can to get the levels back down.  All of those payments add up. 

So much so that I'm going to write it all down today and see what all of this credit is costing me per month. Between car and teeth payments, that just added almost $500 per month.  Those balances are far too high right now to make any significant impact on them, the better idea is to pay off lower balances and get rid of some of the payments altogether.  I'm going to have to look into it tho, I thik you still need to use all of those cards here and there for the companies to keep the account open.  Meaning spending grocery or gas money on credit cards but then pay them off each month so no interest accrued.  I've got a couple within range of paying off pretty soon here.  Fingerhut I paid off several months ago and never bought anything else. I have like 4 grand credit available with them.

Well whatever.  Just thoughts running through my head.  I think while I'm out I'm going to go to woodforest bank and open up a savings account. I want to have one for vacation funding.  I'm definitely wanting to go somewhere next year, even if not London.  Seems like London is a rather volatile place right now, not sure that it's a good time to go over there. 

Today marks day one of my manager's vacation.  I'm hoping to get a couple days off, even 3 if possible, but without asking.  I don't want to get on some kind of "list" of people that don't get what they want.  I'd rather work and tough it out for a while.  I've been working every day.  I got in yesterday around 11:00 am from the Brownsville run.  Hopefully that doesn't occur again where I'm having to do "other" things before I can leave on the run. It was worth some bucks tho so no huge complaints, just that it drags out the run longer.  And now that they are mostly having empty trailers waiting down there for us, it really only makes good money if you are cranking that run out in 2 days, have a day off and then back at it again.

I'm going to Cheneire again today.  It will not be a day run. That's guaranteed because I am not getting on the scales at the loading plant until 12:30, meaning the earliest I'll get out of there is 3:00 pm, then 4 hours 15 minutes down to Cheniere, that's 7:15 pm, but I"ll call it 7:30 and then at least 3 hours to unload.  I won't want to drive back after that.  Guaranteed I won't.  I might drive a couple hours and get it half done or something, but I'm not going to be rolling into the yard at 2:30 am and getting home at 3:30 am.  That will just ruin my day tomorrow. Far better to shut down before midnight, get a good night's sleep and then finish out the ride.


Meanwhile, I've started to bring debt down. It's going to be a long road but I'm well on the way.  After I pay most of the month's bills, I look at what I have left and then make a decision on how much to pay towards any given credit card - which there are quite a few of them. Some are at zero balance, some are at low balance and then there are 3 or 4 that are at higher balances, the highest of which is around $2,700.  But, that one was well over 3 grand before I started this endeavor, so I can feel good that it is, indeed, coming down. I rarely use credit cards any more.  Only if I want to put a purchase on a card for the guaranteed backup that you get in protection from the card provider for purchases.  That would be higher dollar amounts, the likes of which I am not interested in doing much of for a while. 

I'd love to do a "cash only" endeavor for a year like I did a long, long time ago. It changed the way I deal with debt.  I think another dose of that would be helpful, but I have far too much transactions for paying bills over the internet. When I did cash only, I literally did cash only.  It was a tough year, I'll have to say that, but when it was all said and done, I learned a lot of valuable lessons.  Debt is easy to get into, harder to get out of. 

But now that I have a lot of this going down versus up, I'm going to pay off the lower balance cards and get them down to zero so I can direct more money to the higher balance cards on any given month.  That's how the experts explain the best route to do it. Whatever you paid on one card, once you pay it off, add that to a payment on another low balance card and so and so forth until you have everything paid off. 

I was going to do a loan and pay all of it off at once and just have one monthly payment, but after looking at how much I would end up paying in the end, I changed my mind.  Even with interest the cards would not amount to as much as I would pay with a loan.  Just have to discipline myself to make sure I continue to pay this debt down and get it behind me. Doesn't help that I just dumped almost 6 grand onto a credit care card to fix my teeth, but as far as I'm concerned that was an investment that needed to be done. My front teeth were gross, ugly, nasty looking.  I mean I was one of those people that didn't open their mouths much when smiling. It was something I had wanted done in forever.  I still have one visit left and that will be over with.  One more filling and one more crown.  There is other work that I would like to have done, but it can wait until next year when I get a fresh $1,500 on my dental insurance and spend it on bonding on my lower front teeth to get them looking good too. They aren't bad now, just need some tidying up. 

Meanwhlile, I am also going to open up yet another savings account for a trip to London.  I am not necessarily it's a good time to go, but it's not until the beginning of next year some time.  Lol, a sample search of dates next year first class for 2 people is 6 grand round trip.  I guess not.  Seems like a long way to fly in coach tho, all cramped up for that length of time.  Hmmm, premium economy adds more width and leg room.  I dunno, going to search the internet and ask for suggestions on finding the best airfare. 

I don't have to go to London for my first overseas trip lol.  It's just where the lion's share of matches for DNA came up from the DNA search.  I'm thinking of doing the other DNA search one that has a lot more people signed up on it and more data might be available.  My DNA results were mostly in the London area and east of london towards the shore.  But Australia came up strong and other parts of England as well. 

New ride is working beautifully so far.  No engine or transmission problems, just glides down the road.  It's a longer version of an SUV. I was noticing on my way home yesterday the large numbers of the "regular" SUV's that really don't have much room in the back. They have 3 rows of seats and almost no room behind the last row at all.  Yes, I know you can fold the seats down but that extra room is really something I need for some of the things I do without having to hook up to a trailer.  So far, I"m very pleased with this decision even if it is a Ford.  I haven't really owned a Ford since I was a teenager.  I've had Chevy, GMC, Subaru, Nissan (I will NEVER buy a Nissan again after the last fiasco and a brand new truck that had a bad engine), I think that's the gamut since I"m mostly a Chevy/GMC person.  But for the price, I really think I got a good deal.  That thing sold at 51k when it was new 7 years ago.  It has 120,000 miles on it, if I can get to 200k miles without any major issues, I"d be very happy. 

And yes, I"m still wanting to get 2 more 4 wheelers. That would come out to around 3 grand give or take.  I'm a "live life while you can live it" person, not just wait until you retire and then what? You're old, not as energetic or even have money options to do such things.  Do both is my thinking. I have a large amount of money going to retirement every paycheck, I at least have that covered.  I still have that money mom gave me to invest, I haven't had a lot of time to look into wading into the stock market, but I guess I need to make that a priority. 

Beyond financial issues, of which I really am focused on to deal with debt, there are spiritual things that are pressing me.  I haven't been to church in a while, mostly because I work almost every Sunday.  Wednesday night services? Working.  I'm really missing the worship environment.  I'm not big on the other people going who may or may not have sincere intentions of going in there, mostly shallow people that have no working knowledge of the Bible of which the allegedly hold so dearly or even that much into worship.  I mostly go to church for the worship aspect of it.  I've had enough dealings with people in churches that I really can't look at it as a social outlet.  Too many backstabbers, gossipers and people that judge each other over petty stuff. "Take the log out of your own eyes before you try to take the speck out of someone else's" or however that is actually worded.  I have enough personal issues, I know what I need to work on I don't need someone coming up to me and shoving their version of my reality in my face.

I don't take kindly to such things and I will push back.  It's one thing to be accountable, entirely another for people to push their opinions on how you should be living your life.  If you were able to scrutinize their lives, you would likely find a barrel full of garbage in their baggage as well. 

Anyway, really something I want to work on. 

With that, I bid you a good day, for I want to watch the news, get caught up on the Trump/Putin meeting and get ready to head out for 14 hours of non stop go go go.