Warning. This is a bit of language in this post.  Sorry, but not really.  I've had enough of a certain situation that has been irking me for a long time now.

So, I was told on Friday that "I don't believe in asking for raises".  I was also told that I need to do something to make myself stand out to even think about getting one.  Well, darn, I bust my ass every day, I whatever they ask without complaining. I show up to work early.  I take the initiative to do things that aren't asked of me.

This dude had a conversation with the GM who apparently okay'ed a pay raise, but then my manager decided he was going to hold it up and informed me that "we're paying a decent wage'. The HELL you are.  It's about $2.50 per hour lower than much of anything else in the area and even more for certain types of work.

So, I have put in a LOT of applications this weekend.  I had to call on potential employer and tell him I can't take the job.  Not because I don't want to, but because I made a promise to the home owners to take care of this place while they are gone and I can't do that if I'm gone 30 days at a time.  The real plus to this job was 4 or 5 months of being home, not working at all.  Getting paid the same wage as when I'm not out there. I mean seriously.  Sure, you pay the price being out so long, but 4 or 5 months off?  Getting paid?  Paid hotel every night? No double bunking?  $49 per day per diem on top of base pay?  Seriously, I could deal with that.  I would just miss my Dane incredibly, though. That would be a major draw back.

So, that job isn't exactly gone, he asked me to please call him if the situation ever changes. I said yes, when the homeowners move back here.  But that could be a long time from now.  My challenge has been to find local jobs that pay what I want and hopefully no night driving junk.  Or if it is night driving, it's not driving the entire time.  If I have a position where I"m in an out of the truck, I could probably deal with a night job much better. Still, it messes with your sleep cycle and I already have enough issues with that.

I spent 6 hours filling out apps yesterday, going to see if I can find anything else available after getting done with this post.  I'm coming down off of a month and a half of a lot of traveling.  Some of it was a high, some of it was pretty sad, but I can't say I didn't like the traveling.  Went into debt for the wedding trip though.  I need to find a job where I can get my bank savings account back up, my checking account way back up and not be near zeroes, which is a very recent thing, like in the last few weeks. Now, I am crunching numbers.  Writing down the entire budget. I'm half way done with that. Expenditures versus income.  I haven't done that in quite a while because I haven't had to. Bills got paid, 401k getting it's share, savings account getting it's share and still money left over to play, do whatever I want.

The real solution is to just get out of his hell hole I am in with this abusive manager and get out of there.  I'm done with it.  Benefits be damned, working for an @$$hole isn't worth it. I've gone well out of my way and beyond much of anything I would normally do to simply accommodate for this dude, but I've had enough. After that meeting, where before he said he was going to go to bat for me to get a raise, to now, changing his whole tune? SCREW that shit.  Sorry for that language.  Not good excuse, I've just allowed myself to be walked all over and used as a doormat.  Any reasonable offer I get to get out of there, if that occurs, and keeps me local, I'm taking. If that doesn't work, I'll talk to the homeowners about talking a regional job where I'm home on weekends.  That still has me home enough to deal with stuff if anything arises.

I can definitely get a regional job, pretty sure anywhere. There are LOTS of them out there. The only ones I would consider is home weekends, every weekend.  I'm holding out for now for I have put in a large number of applications and there are more I can apply for.  I have been trying to find the fracking industry stuff, but everything I have found so far is out a week at a time at the least, most of them want you out for 21 days minimum.  Just not interested in that, at all.

This is my entire focus right now, find a new job.  I said before that I was waiting until after Caleb's wedding. What an awesome time that was! One for the memory books.  It was one of the best times I have ever had, anywhere, really.  It was so cool seeing old friends and meeting some of Caleb's friends that I have seen and occasionally commented with on Facebook.  I mean, if that could be done all over, I would be all for it!  But those are once in a lifetime type of events, that one just happened to click perfectly at every turn. So fun! Even mom was having a blast. For 80 something plus years old, she did damn well in stamina and enjoying the moment. Really, I was so happy. I am also glad my brothers did not show up. That would have been hell.

My middle brother got into it with mom on Mother's day - 3-1/2 months ago, hasn't spoken to her since.  How do you dis/shit on your own mother on Mother's Day?  I despise him now.  It was bad enough the crap he pulled on me, or writing off dad to the point he hadn't spoken to him in a decade and a half, but mom? Mom is cool, she doesn't start shit, she takes a neutral position on everything, she tried to maintain the peace, but my middle brother is an asshole, there is no other way to put it.  He is pure, unadulterated asshole.  Jerkoff to the nth degree.  Stuck up little - person to put it nicely.  Arrogant, egotistical, thinks he's the cat's meow. He's an idiot. A moron of the worst kind.

He has isolated himself and he can live with it.

I started going back to church a month ago. I had stopped going because the church I was going to was just plain too far away.  This one is 5 minutes away, the preaching is totally in alignment with what my views of the Bible are, the people are nice and friendly, the worship service is good.  I know, I don't much sound like a person going to church after the language above, I offer no apologies.  I have my breaking points and that is one of them. The bible teaches us to respect out father and mother. My middle brother does none of that.

Well, anyway, I am hopeful to hear back from one - or hopefully several - of these companies this coming week.  I won't be let down if they don't. I'll keep punching out applications at a fervent pace until something connects.  I am very determined.  I'll switch to regional search if I have to, but I am getting the bleep out of the place I am at now.  I refuse to work for a person that treats his employees the way he does. 2 drivers, 2 inside salesmen and me looking for a new job.  Does that say anything?  It's not just me. Plus the dude that left a few months ago.

So what else is there? Umm, full work week coming up. Tho this week was too. I've just had a lot of time off lately.  Next weekend will be a 3 day weekend for Labor Day.  I'll take that.

Anyway, posting this one before I get distracted and don't post it for a week lol.