Coming up from Brownsville. 

First thing's first tho.  Dispatcher sends me another run for Brownsville in the morning.  "Is my truck fixed yet?".  She didn't know, even tho she promised to find out yesterday.  She instantly replied she didn't know but she will get me a hotel room tomorrow night - obviously intending me to drive this other driver's truck again.  I didn't refuse, I just don't want to drive his or anyone else's truck.

My truck apparently isn't going to be fixed until Tuesday - at the earliest.  But hey, if she's going to get me a hotel room I'll just take that and run with it. Probably stop at the same town as I did last night - with one change - they can pay for either a Holiday Inn or a La Quinta room instead of the Deluxe Inn.  I'd do the Deluxe Inn again under the same circumstances and if on my own dime, but on the company's money they can pay for a major brand chain.  

Next:  My realtor.  Uhh, I don't think they legally can close on Tuesday, the rules say they have to give a 3 day notice before closing and they haven't sent anyone....anything.  She went off on that title company and said she would never use them again even if it meant losing a sale.  I finally lost it - well, not full blown melt down but I've had enough of this shit with this title company. A bunch of incompetent idiots.  So I took the bull by the horns and said "How about we tell them Friday and if they don't like is they can kiss my a**. I'm not going to have these people dictating my life like this".  

I had to cancel the day off with my dispatcher again.  I was very apologetic.  What else could I do?  I can't control these people at this title company. The thing that is even more frustrating is they have all kinds of rave reviews from people - it's a mom and pop type thing and is locally owned and operating.  She said it's okay! and said no problem. But I don't owe her anything, I've done all kinds of favors for her and got little in return until I got the bobtail to West Virginia and now 2 Brownsvilles in a row.  And if I"m lucky, something else on Monday since I don't have to have Tuesday off.  

The whole thing pissed both of us off - the realtor and I - and we started mocking this title company.  She's going to have her say, I will wait until it's done and over with - if that ever even happens - and then I"m going to let them know exactly how I feel about them in on uncertain terms and that is going to be face to face or a phone call. Then I am going to blow up reviews with statements that no one will look and say, gee, he really likes them!  This nonsense has been going on waaaaaay too long.  

I don't really know when this is going to happen. I've all but given up on this shit show I call a "search for property". I'm disgusted with the whole system and the incredibly lethargic way you have to crawl through it to actually get land.  I made it clear to my realtor, tho, that I am in control of the closing date now.  They can suggest a closing date and I will have to agree to it.  Here I was getting excited that Tuesday was finally the end of this incredibly long road to getting property and now?  

I'm really at the verge of giving up on this.  Maybe this just wasn't meant to be. There's been way too many roadblocks.  What kind of hell am I going to go through to actually get the operation up and running if I do actually get property?  How long does a person contend with a dream before that person says screw this, the dream isn't obtainable?  

The only thing that is actually stopping me right now is the fact that I also despise trucking and very much want out of it.  I don't care how much money I am making doing it, it sucks and I'm done with it.  But I can't BE done with it until something else takes its place.  

Whatever. I'm just a wee bit disgusted right now. 

Just going to go to bed.