Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Wednesday 8/10/2011

Wednesday

So, I get on the computer at home this morning, check Facebook and here is another message from Rey, the ex-slob-tenant. He informs me is "god", screwed my mother all night long and that "I am coming up to Phoenix in 2 weeks, we need to put on some boxing gloves you need to be respecting me" and other BS that isn't really worth going into.

The problem Rey is having in this situation is that one of his best friends - she went to high school with him and has known him all his life - also likes me. Not in a sexual way, just that Rey brought her to my house when he was in the alleged car accident for her to help him. We hit it right off. So, Rey calls her up and she is giving him an earful, more than just one ration of stuff, telling him to pay me the rent he owes me.

Meanwhile, Rey is claiming his ex-wife came over and left the money on my table, which is a large load of donkey-dung. My continual question is: please send me her phone number so I can call her and ask her.

I have no idea what is going on with the Tucson police, whether they contacted the Phoenix police, no clue and not going to lose any sleep over it. The point, however, of all of this is that Rey is talking a big talk, but clearly he is nervous. I mentioned the fact that he is a drug addict (addicted to Percosett or anything similar drug he can get his hands on) and he sells them, apparently, to people he knows in Tucson that use them to get high with.

I did write him back this morning and ended my statements to him with that fact that he is lost, has no peace, needs God.

Meanwhile, I continue to write ads for the room and continue to get - not that much response. But, I have been through this before, it's only a matter of time before someone shows up to look at it.

I get on the news and the top story is Wisconsin - again. This time the end result of the recall efforts the dems tried against the GOP in their attempt to oust 4 of them. None of them were ousted. That would seem to put those union workers in the minority. It would also seem to speak, to me anyway, the tone of the country. The only thing the dems can regurgitate over and over is to "increase revenue", ie: more taxes. We don't WANT to be taxed more, I do believe at least some of us would like to see the tax rate go DOWN, not ever upward.

Yesterday, I checked my 401k account, my stock was down about a grand. This morning? Back up $500. Weird stuff.

Ummm, that's it for now. I pulled a HUGE order yesterday to deliver this morning. Not quite finished with it, but it's about $110,000.00 worth of material. That's a LOT of product. The semi is almost totally full and WILL be once I get through with loading the rest of it on. Nice to have a good load going out - we haven't had an order this big since the crash in 2008.

G'day.

ben

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Tuesday 8/9/2011

Tuesday
So, the situation carries on. Rey calls me - on my home phone not my cell phone (he never calls me on my home phone is the point) and leaves a message that "whatever you did to that girl, I am not going to pay you what I owe you. I hope you please take me to court", blah blah, blah: yada, yada, yada.

I called him back and of course he didn't answer his phone. I left him a message: Number one, I didn't even speak to that girl, 2, YOU left the room trashed and 3, I will be happy to take you to court as you have no case to stand on, you will lose.

Left it at that. For now. Wondering if the Phoenix police are going to show up to my doorstep. Who knows.

Completely changing the subject as that man and his BS are certainly not worth the dog s*** the man's morals are made out of and definitely not worth wasting more than a few minutes of my time here and there on, it looks as if my vacation is going to occur next week.

I have been so preoccupied with other things - namely trying to get that room rented after doing a major clean up of it - I haven't let there be any space to think about what I might do on a vacation ... or.... just stay home. I've got half the camping gear acquired to go camping. So, get with the program and get the rest of the stuff this week, I guess.

Stock market. I can only say that I have been reading for quite some time now and even repeating what some of the economic gurus have been saying for quite a while: get out of stocks by summer. That we are headed for a double-dip recession or even a depression. I can't sit around worrying about it, but I did shift my 401k holdings to the lowest risk, lowest whatever thing they had available some months ago. The government can't save us, that's the end of the story for me.

......and let's NOT waste another trillion dollars trying to save the economy, thank you.

Anyway, work day almost here, plenty to do to keep me busy, which is always a good thing.

G'day

ben

Monday, August 8, 2011

Monday 8/8/2011

Monday 8/8/2011
So here's the situation.
Rey left Saturday night in the middle of the night. He had told me earlier that day that his ex-wife was going to come over on Sunday to pay me the rest of what he owes me. I didn't believe a word he was saying at the time he said it and voiced my concern about him just taking off and leaving me hanging.

But what am I supposed to do. The next morning, yesterday/Sunday, I go look in his room. An utter and total disaster. Had to have a carpet cleaning company come over and get all the goo out of the carpet.

Come last night, about 7:30 pm. I call Rey. He doesn't answer, some woman/his newest/millionth girlfriend answers. Says Rey is at work. Funny, Rey doesn't start work until this week. Funier: Rey never goes ANYWHERE without his cellphone. She hangs up on me, I call back. We do this a few times, Rey just didn't want to speak to me, I was going to force the issue.

I call back again. This time a girl answers the phone and says "oh, you like me?" and hangs up. I hadn't spoken a word to her. I call back again. This time the woman is back on the phone saying she's calling Tucson police. Go ahead, call them. She hangs up again.

Next thing I know, Tucson police is calling me on Rey's phone. They had my name, not hard to do considering Rey knows who I am but apparently trying to intimidate me with that knowledge. I again ask for Rey, is Reynaldo Rodriguez there?

The officer - or alleged officer anyway, but he sounded like one, certainly talked like one - states that I have called there "41 times and they are stating that you are harassing them". No, officer, I am not harassing them, I am calling for Rey Rodriguez. The officer then states that I had made the statement to the little girl, saying that I had stated that "I like you", apparently in some sexual intonements.

No again, officer, I did not talk to the little girl, is Rey there? Well, I am writing up a report and I am going to have Phoenix police come over there, what you have done (in saying such to a little girl) is a serious crime. Well, officer, I didn't talk to ANY little girl and as far as the phone calls, Rey owes me money and I have the right to call him. Now, he can ask me to stop calling for any given day and I will do that.

Please stop calling, the officer replies and goes on his hype about writing up this report. Whatever, I never did get an answer as to whether Rey was there or not. The officer hangs up on me and I decided to let it go - for then anyway. I also went outside waiting for the police to show up, taking his threat seriously that they were going to come over and......what......give me a hard time?

It's a worse offense to make a false report to police officers such as that woman did and coaching what is apparently her little girl to lie to officers about me saying something to her. Although lie detector tests aren't admissible as evidence in court, they certainly hold weight with police departments around the country. I didn't agree to do such, however, because Phoenix police never showed up. At least not that I know of. I was tired and went to bed after about a half hour of waiting for them.......which doesn't mean they won't show up today, lol.

Never once did I cuss that woman out, harass her, threaten her or anything else for that matter. My continual request was to speak with Rey, but not, I did not believe her when she stated that he wasn't there. Rey lived over here long enough to get to know his habits including his cell phone habits. That thing is glued to him 24 hours a day. He is talking or texting on it continually.

Regardless of whether the police do anything else, it is not going to stop me from calling him, once a day, until I either get the money or.......more likely.......he'll probably get a new phone with a new number. I did make the point to the officer that the number I was calling was Rey's personal cellphone, not some house phone somewhere where anyone, including little girls apparently, can answer it.

Whatever. I will eventually, probably, let it go. Right now, not. It isn't just that he owes me money, it's also that he totally trashed that bedroom. He also "promised" - though admittedly I didn't believe him at the time - that he was having his ex come over to pay me.

Time's up. Time to go to work.

G'day.

ben

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Sunday 8/7/2011

So Rey - left the room trashed. Left in the middle of the night, now I know why. The carpet has huge stains on it, there is trash laying around all over the place and it's basically going to take some time to clean all of that up. This is easily the worst that any one has ever left a room. Only Mary comes close because of all the holes she put in the walls for hanging pictures and junk, but that really wasn't that hard to fix. I may very well have to replace the carpet in that room.

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Long interlude. I decided that attempting to clean that mess up with my home carpet cleaning machine would be a waste of time and probably wouldn't get it all up AND, if that being the case, it would be permanently stained. I found a company on Craigslist who said they would be out here between 12 and 1:00 pm. That done, I started looking for a new mattress for that room, the one I had in there was trashed. Found what I was looking for on Craigslist and that is being delivered between 2 and 3.

Meanwhile, I am attempting to decide whether to go to church today or not. A lot of distraction in my mind usually means I may not get much out of church plus I wanted to be here when the guy showed up to clean the carpet. But, I decided that not going to church wasn't an alternative, making lame excuses simply wouldn't cut it. So I went. I had shut off the ringers on my phones, both of them were ringing and showing missed calls.

I tuned that out and got into the worship and then received the message that was delivered, but near the end of it, I can admit I was getting ancy, I wanted out of there and the more I wanted out of there, the long it went on. Things always seem to work out that way. I did get quite a lot out of the message today, including feeling some amount of remorse for the words that I spoke about the now ex-tenant. I can get mad and really dish out the - verbage - to say the least. Words can be powerful weapons, even IF the person you are speaking the negativity about doesn't hear what you are saying.

I got out of the service and called the carpet cleaning guy back - he was on of the messages left. He answered, I told him who I was and he said: "Oh, are you the one with the Great Danes?". If people don't remember anything else about my place, they ALWAYS remember the giant dogs! Yes. Well, he replied, I have already been to your house and the job is finished. I had left the money with the trailer tenants to pay him in case I wasn't going to get home in time. The man saved the carpet, too. It is completely clean and there is no residue or even "dying" of the carpet from whatever had been dumped. It was money well-spent in this case, new carpeting would have cost much more.

So, the only other thing is the new bed. I wasn't about to try and re-rent that room with that mattress in there.

There has been a noticeable change in the atmosphere around here with this man gone - a very GOOD change. I'm going to have to own up to the idea that when a person comes into my home and is not a good fit, even if they are paying rent on time, they need to go. It only takes one person to sour the mood of an entire household and now that he's gone........well I just didn't realize how much of a negative influence he had on this house.

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Another time lapse.


New bed arrived. Very comfortable. Room is almost done. Needs a few spots painted on the walls but that's it. A couple of bites from some people looking for rooms - I have not responded yet. Just plain don't feel like it, I have done enough for a Sunday and I still have pond stuff to deal with. I don't think I want to show the room to anyone today, but it's good to get all of that mess cleaned up, the mattress replaced and the carpet cleaned and have it ready to go. I am not OCD about cleaning, but if there is a room in my house that I know that is gross, to me, it makes the whole house feel like it's nasty.

Yes, indeed, it's after 3:00 pm and it's time to take it easy. The ponds can wait, just have to feed the fish at the very least.

Had a discussion with Caleb. He said he's taking the week off. I simply replied that the longer you wait to get back to work, the harder it is to get back into it. I know this for a fact, didn't make it up. But that's up to him. I will give him another freebie week, but after that? He better start doing something - college; work; or even ministry. I don't care which, but I will not have him sitting around here idle forever. Don't get me wrong, he's a GREAT kid and I KNEW there would be some time lapse to adjust to going from what he was doing at that camp to coming back to the big city, but life isn't offered to us as "easy". I have a slew of troubles in life, the tenant issue above is just one of them. But, keep on plugging, keep on moving and now? Really seeking the Lord.

G'day.

ben

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Trailer

I have been looking for a trailer for the "homeless" couple for a while now. I mean, I have one that they are living in, but it's not very nice.
My search was accelerated today in going to 2 different places to try and find one. The first was in Casa Grande, a 47 mile, one-way drive to get there and see - another old trailer that was allegedly in good condition.

The problem a lot of older trailers have is damage from a roof that has leaked from rains at some point or another. It doesn't look good and worse, it's a lot of work to properly fix the problem. A LOT of work. Upon looking at this trailer, I had hopes, but that was the outside of the thing.\
Going in? Well, I mean, really. The flooring was buckling under my weight - meaning old and will have to be replaced. The ceiling was not only buckled in 2 places, it had caved in. Obvious water leak damage. Paneling on the walls was dry rotted or peeling. The aesthetics of this trailer? Not very nice. One of the windows had several, window-length cracks in it.

The flip side: they only wanted $700 for it. I can sell the other one for at least $500 meaning that if it was any kind of decent upgrade, it would probably be worth the $200 net loss in the end. So I was seriously considering it. The plumbing works, the electrical all works, the propane works. It had a built in microwave; oven; stove top; nice sized refrigerator.

The one they are in now? None of the electrical, water or propane works. Further, the holding tanks leak. Giving it serious thought is simply because for $200 net loss to have all of that working? Probably worth it.

But I got home, uploaded the pictures and gave it much more serious thought. One piece of junk for another. In reality, that is really what it would be. It's old - 1979. I can deal with that, but I do have an ulterior motive here. I am throwing that out at no extra charge, btw. These people aren't going to be living here forever. Pretty much guarantee that. They don't WANT to live here forever, they want to find some way to get into an apartment or some kind of normal housing.

I want to put a trailer up on my mother's property up north - she has offered many, many times over. I haven't asked, she obviously would like some company up there. I wouldn't mind, and I will probably camp out up there when I get the week off from work - which hopefully is next week. I haven't seen her in a while and I would LOVE to get out of this valley for a while and get out of this horrid heat.

So, I sat here considering this other offer. It's a 5th wheel trailer. From the looks of it, in much nicer condition, though I didn't know what year/how old it is. So, I called his number. No answer, left a message. Then I wrote him an email also saying I would like to come out today if it isn't too late to take a look. I had no more sent that email than he wrote me one - having not gotten my call or listened to my message or read my email to him - getting a bit nasty because he had made an offer to help and I was snubbing him.

Hmmmph. Oh well. He calls a few minutes later, apologetic. We had a good conversation and I decided to go see it. The problem, though, is that I don't want to commit to $3,500 for a trailer. Especially an older one. He is willing to take a down payment and then monthly payments. I'm just not willing to pay that much for an older thing unless it is in excellent condition.

I get there and this thing is a good sized trailer. It is also newer than the one in Casa grand which is a 79, this one is an 88'. Awning gone, first thing I noticed though not uncommon in Arizona with the sun baking them and destroying the fabric. A bit costly to replace. Door has issues, but he told me about that in advance. The rest of the trailer, though was solid, good looking and in decent shape - on the outside that is.

I walk in. I start examining the walls, ceiling, appliances, flooring, everything. I am not new to travel trailers/RV trailers, I have an idea of what to look for. The first thing I am looking for is water damage to the ceiling from openings in the roof. I am looking at the condition of the walls. Is the papering coming off, is the wood behind it rotted. Is there a lot of damage to drawers, doors and appliances in terms of things broken, ripped, torn, whatever. Is the flooring solid. Not the carpet or tile, the wood underneath it. Walk on all of it, heavily. See if it gives.

Lots of things to look at and consider when buying an older unit. This one is in remarkably good condition. It has some minor issues, yes, but nothing that can't be easily fixed, sans the door. The window is missing and that might take bit of fooling with to get it righteous, but other than that, it just needs some minor cosmetic stuff inside and that's really it. Okay, I am guessing the roof will need a coat of the tar like substance, but still. It's in great shape.

I was listening to this man that owns the thing tell me how much it moved him the ad that I had written. I am not known for not giving out the details of things in my writings. I do sometimes leave out details that are unimportant to a story and that just take up too much space and - leave the reader rather bored - but, for me, I write the way I want to and that usually includes much minutia. There are many people that are turned off by that kind of writing - I can't help you. Thousands if not millions of other blogs you can read if you don't like this one. He went on for half an hour of how good it was going to make him feel to help someone out, and in that spirit, he lowered the price by $1,000. NOW I was feeling comfortable about buying this thing. $2,500 for a good unit that, if taken care of, will stay good for a long time to come.

Yes, very good, indeed. This is the kind of thing where I can trust the people that are living in it will take care of it, Mark and Lynnette will. I can fund projects here and there to revitalize portions of it. The only thing this thing is lacking that kind of turned me off is the generator is gone. This is pretty common in older units: people sell the trailers but remove the generators. Generators aren't cheap but it kinda sucks to see that they have been removed. Oh well. My mother's property has electricity running to it now, so no biggies.

That's it. He lowered the price, I agreed to a down payment and monthly payments thereafter until it is paid off - interest free - and that's the end of that. It will take about 8 months to pay it off.

No, I don't have it. Details of that are still under way. Title, notary public, bill of sale, moving it, moving the other trailer.

Saturday 8/6/2011

Standard and Poor can go piss off. The government did not default on it's debt, downgrading the U.S. credit rating was a dumb move, IMO. Although I don't think too highly of the circus clowns we have running the Federal Government, I highly doubted the entire time this carnival atmosphere going on over there was ever going to actually end up with the US not paying it's bills, even IF the debt ceiling wasn't raised in time.

Tenant moving out today. He owes me money and I am going to get right in his face and demand it about the time he starts moving junk out. Though, I was informed a few minutes ago he was already moving stuff out half the night. His car is parked out front, so he is at least still here so that I CAN confront him on the unpaid rent issue. Meanwhile, I got busy this morning and posted a room rental ad on Craigslist. Going to get even busier once he's gone and go in there and clean the carpet - and whatever else needs cleaned or repaired.

Today was supposed to be the start of my 9 days off. I am really ready to get some time off of work, thank you. They are looking at letting me have next week off instead. It's kind of hard to plan anything when you hear at the last minute whether you actually are getting the time off or not.

Going to a store today to get new rugs for my bathroom. I don't really shop for such, it will take longer to drive there than it will take to go in, find something, pay for it and leave, lol.

Caleb is not going to California, apparently the event is overbooked as it is. I asked him about going back to work, he said he would be doing that - next week. Oh, I replied, but didn't give my real thoughts on it. My real thoughts are: go back to the store, get reinstated and get back to work. But that's just me. If I'm not working, it's because I am unemployed and am looking for a job. That's the only reason other than perhaps if a health issue stopped me, which I hope never happens.

Speaking of work, I got what I asked for - I guess. My manager got an email from the ops manager asking him why I was hauling a stick of pipe on my truck with only 2 straps on it. We're talking a 5 pound stick of pipe. The pipe was on the deck of the trailer, butted up against dunnage that was holding up 4 fire hydrants - about 2,500 pounds worth. In other words, that stick of pipe being held down by 2, 4-inch straps and kept from moving forward in case of a "deceleration event" occured - wasn't going anywhere.

Technically, DOT could write me a warning for it, but I doubt they would. Still, with the new regulations, I COULD get a warning or even a fine for it. In the case of a warning, they are as bad as a ticket in the eyes of any company nowadays because of these new regulations.

So I wrote the ops manager an email saying that DOT probably would not do anything about it because of the way I had it on there, but that from now on I would go ahead and strap it down according to the law, which in that case would have needed 4 straps.

I did, however, take it much further than that. I expressed my angst about seeing others of our drivers hauling 20,000 pounds of pipe with only 3 straps holding it down. The pipe is 20 feet, 4 and a half inches long, meaning it requires 4 straps. But, we get a "penalty" strap because we don't have headboards on the front of our trailers, so in reality, to keep with the letter of the law and in this case, safety, we should have 5 straps on all of those loads.

The man writes back, apparently excited about that new information, new to him anyway, and declared that ALL loads with ANY pipe on it would now require 5 straps for all drivers in our division. Lol. What's the problem with that? 2 things. I don't have enough winches on my trailer to cover that many straps if I get a load with a bunch of other stuff on it and the time it takes to put on additional straps. The first is easily fixed: simply go buy more winches and straps, the ops manager approved it without asking. The second I couldn't care less about, the extra time that is. I am paid by the hour, doesn't bother me at all. I already do it, anyway.

It's the other drivers who, undoubtedly, are mad at me for bringing up such a thing. Well, the problem with their lack of sufficient strapping is that it is getting the entire company into trouble under these new regulations. Get enough warnings against drivers in any single, given company, and the DOT will step in. DOT has given itself broad, far-reaching powers with these new regulations, including the ability to shut down an entire fleet of trucks. So let them get mad.

Enough. I am just waiting until stores are opened to go out and get some things done.

G'day.

ben

Friday 8/5/2011

Friday
It was just wonderful to come in here this morning - work that is -- and have the alarm go off. Why? Because the keypad to disarm it isn't working correctly. I tried to press the first number in the passcode - I don't know, maybe 50 times?....and it would register.

So, the monitoring company calls, is everything alright? Yes, excepting this blasted alarm! I was sitting here for 15 minutes listening to this shrill, high-pitched noise going off in my ears.

Gag. Here's a good one: all of a 2 day notice for moving out. Cool, huh? This was from Rey, last night, who walks in and gives me the news. "Thanks for the advance notice, Rey". I was obviously not happy about getting such a short, abrupt notice. He is moving back to Tucson. He cannot hold a job down, anyway. Too long a story to go into right now, don't feel like it.

I just love it, though, when people play games like this. Whatever. This is like the 4th or 5th time he has announced that he is moving out over the last several months, I'm figuring it's probably time for him to go.

I was offered yet another trailer, this time a rather large looking 5th wheel RV trailer. Oh, and yet another response, this from a guy who says he has an older one that he wants to sell and will come down in price because of what I am doing with it. Not in a big hurry for any of this, really, I'm waiting to see if the IRS gives me the money back in the second round of returns or not.

Well I'm done with this one. That alarm going off was completely an unecessary intrusion into my brain this morning going off for THAT long.

ben

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Caleb's Rap / Handgun


My son made a rap video with some friends.  





So, I took the gun in today to a gunsmith. This gun looks brand new, like it hasn't been fired very many times, but I still don't trust it, it belonged to someone else and who knows. I'm not going to have the thing blowing up in my face and paying a dear price for my ignorance on guns and whether they really are in good enough shape to fire and not have any problems with it.

So, I took the whole thing in there - carrying case with gun, 2 clips - one of them loaded - and all. The guy opens the case, looks at it, starts messing with it, inserts the empty clip, looks at it again: This gun is in new condition, there is nothing wrong with it. If there IS something wrong, the worst it's going to do is jam/misfire, but it's not going to blow up in your face and you don't have to worry about it. Take it to the range, run some rounds through it and make sure it runs them okay. If not, you can send it to Smith & Wesson and they will fix it for free. Oh, and I freely admitted up front that I don't know much about guns.

I have heard the comments in these gun stores from customers making derogatory comments about people who own guns but don't know how to use them or talking about people that don't own guns and how stupid they are. And they knew - what - exactly - the first time THEY picked up a gun? When I picked the gun up at the pawn shop the other day, a man was standing there checking out a gun they had for sale and making extremely derogatory remarks about people who are uneducated about such.

Well, I won't ask his forgiveness, I think it's dumb to speak about people that way who are trying to learn, but are starting from scratch. I know enough not to point the thing at anyone even if I "know" it isn't loaded. I now know how to unload the thing and clear the chamber of the round that is in it in both the shotgun and the 40 caliber. I am still stuck at the clean and lubricate part, but that's because I haven't tried yet. I don't need to clean it until after I shoot it, I am reading. Unless it hasn't been cleaned in a while. It isn't rocket science, frankly, but since it is a thing that can and is designed to kill animals or people, one much exercise extreme caution, obviously.

I also do not leave either of them loaded. The shotgun has shells in that holding tube on the bottom, but there is not a shell sitting in the chamber. Okay, so it's sort of loaded. It doesn't take much to get a shell from that tube into the chamber, we have all heard the "chink - clink" sound a shotgun makes when you pull that thing back and then move it forward again. Pulling it back both ejects the shell in the chamber and gets a shell from the tube read to put into the chamber, pushing it forward loads the fresh shell into the chamber. This may seem like basic, elementary stuff to gun enthusiasts, again, I freely admit my lack-of-knowledge. I'm in no hurry, I just take my time, examine the things and then figure out how it works without accidentally shooting it.

As for the handgun, the loaded magazine is not in the gun. It is in the carrying case. It takes all of a second to push the thing in there and get a round in the chamber, ready to fire.

Whatever. I'm happy to learn and will be happy to take the courses to learn even more. On that note, I am going to look up Shooter's World and see when I can get in the next weekend classes.

Friday is almost here and the end of the work week. I am ready for this week to be over and would really be ready for the 9 days off in a row if - it would have worked out.  As it stands, it appears I may be the next week off instead.  I need some time off right now, that's all I can say about it.

ben

Thursday 8/4/2011

Church last night. Prophetic training. Totally out of that realm, I plan on getting my mind, soul and heart back into it. I haven't engaged in such in well over 7 years and it was like starting over. But it was cool.

Rained cats and dogs last night, but mostly dogs, thankfully, as I don't really like cats. More to the point, I won't have to water my plants for a while as the ground is saturated, a good thing.

I have had a couple of replies to my most recent ad for a travel trailer or RV in "decent" condition. Meaning everything works. If the carpet is trashed, no problem, but the propane lines and water lines should be in tact and the holding tanks should be without leaks, amongst other things. Oh, and definitely the electricity should work throughout the trailer. One lady had hers listed at $1,300 in fair condition (which, if it really IS in fair condition, it would work). She then contacted me and offered it for $1,000.00. I rejected that offer and offered $700 plus free delivery, of which she accepted.

But I haven't even seen the thing yet, so I am not committing to buying it until I do. If it IS in okay condition, I could sell the other one for $500 and only be out $200 on the deal.

The other offer was for an "older RV", of which I have not contacted the individual yet because.......I got that email this morning and it isn't even 6:00 am yet! Lol, I don't go calling people this early in the morning excepting contractors to whom I am making deliveries because, at this time of year, they are already on the job site, working away and trying to get as much done before the afternoon heat hits.

Oh, Caleb: he produced a rap and it's posted on his Facebook page. Crazy kid. This rap, however, isn't about killing people, taking and selling drugs and having sex with everyone you see, it's actually about God. I dunno, it was pretty cool, actually. He had a friend in the video with him who was - smiling too much. Sorry, you don't really smile much doing rap, even if it IS about God.

I figured out the S&W40VE - my new 40 caliber handgun. As I said before, I am new to the world of guns. I have fired some off before, but I didn't load or unload them, just fired them and gave them back to their owners. I sat there and played with the thing - unloaded of course - until I got the hang of it. Not that much to it, but now I have to figure out how to take it apart, clean it, lubricate it and put it back together again.

I was thinking just follow the manual's instructions, which I might try, but I might also just take a course in it. Who knows. I bought some kind of ammo that is for use for target practice - I have no idea what the difference between that ammo and the "personal protection" version is, but I want to take thing to a shooting range and fire off a couple dozen rounds to get used to it, that and my 12 gauge shotgun while I'm at it.

I'm done. Time to get on the clock and get to work.

G'day.

ben

New Company Policy - CSA 2010

Today, something that I figured would happen, did.
I didn't know exactly WHAT they were going to implement, but I figured that they would make some kind of rule or policy concerning commercial drivers within our company relating to the CSA regulations that have come about that make a warning as bad as getting an actual ticket.

The company is having every driver read and sign a document. The document lists infractions and what is going to happen to you. Basically, if you get pulled over and are giving a ticket or a warning, you will be issued a written warning by the company and you take a day off without pay. If it happens a second time, you get another written warning and you are docked another day's pay. If it happens a third time within 12 consecutive months, bye bye, baby, you are history.

This is a side-effect of the new regulations that I knew was going to happen when I started examining these new regulations last year: companies will have no choice but to get rid of drivers that get too many warnings because, enough drivers getting too many warnings and the government can now come in and actually shut that company's commercial vehicle operations down.

I stated in this blog last year that a lot of drivers are going to lose their careers over this new regulatory BS and I am standing behind that statement. This isn't reckless drivers that have a lot of accidents or even tickets, either. I haven't been in an at-fault trucking accident since 1985. I haven't had any kind of ticket in about 12 years now. Many other commercial vehicle drivers are the same. But, the FMCSA has "determined" that these new rules will help identify "unsafe" drivers and target the companies that employ them.

It's a total load of BS. When America starts running out of truck drivers who have been forced out of the occupation because of this junk - give it a few years before a crisis starts rising up for truck driver shortages, you'll see it in the news - then and only then will this become a public issue with scrutiny to identify that the side-effects of these regulations are going to get "rid" of otherwise excellent drivers who post no threat to the motoring public on the highways and byways of America. (finishing this in the morning).

Here's the biggest problem: DOT (Department of Transportation) officers out on the roads. There are a large number of them in any given state that have as their main duty the directive to pull over commercial vehicles, all day long, do inspections and write fix-it tickets or hand out warnings.

The problem is the "god-like" attitude that many of these individuals exhibit and the fact that they will find something wrong with your truck, regardless of how good a condition it is in. Case in point was a driving who was driving a brand new truck that just came off the dealer's parking lot. Mr. Dot decided to PUT THE TRUCK OUT OF SERVICE, not just hand out warnings, after he pulled the truck over. The driver balked at this "official" and asked for that as supervisor be sent out, who, when presented with the facts, did an over-ride on the officer's "judgement" and let the truck and driver go without any warnings.

That was an extreme example, but it isn't that far off, at least where I live in Arizona, where these DOT officers are hanging out in their pickup trucks and randomly pulling over big rigs and - handing out warnings or tickets.

My take? If I get pulled over again and am handed a bogus warning, I am demanding a supervisor. I don't care if I have to wait 3 hours. The truck I drive is in excellent condition. We keep it that way on purpose: to ward off these officers that seem to take joy in giving grief to truck drivers.

The fact of the matter is, however and as already stated, there is going to be fallout with these new regulations that may or may not have been intended. I have no idea what the intentions of those people that crafted these regulations were: to get rid of drivers/shut down trucking companies or REALLY make the roadways safer to travel with trucks on them?

Let me tell you something, to make the roadways safer, it is far often more true than not that it's people driving cars and pickup trucks that are messing with trucks on the roadways. Cutting trucks off and slamming on their brakes in front of them; doing all kinds of idiotic, stupid moves that, in my case, sometimes makes me mad because the move that that person just did almost got THEM killed.

I could write incident after incident where someone - usually texting or talking on a cellphone and paying NO attention to the driving that should be their number one priority - just makes moves in traffic without even looking, apparently. I have almost run into several of them because they inserted their vehicle directly in front of mine without any forewarning or signals being used, totally out of the blue, you have a car that's going 15 mph slower than you are and you are both trying to not run into the car AND not jack knife the truck at the same time.

Whether my statements here actually come true remains to be seen in reality. But mark my words: it might take a couple of years, maybe less, but this situation is going to implode upon itself when drivers who have had successful, 10, 20, 30 plus years are suddenly finding themselves unemployed and unemployable in the field of commercial driving because of these new regulations.

ben

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Wednesday 8/3/2011

Wednesday
If one is eye infected, why not go for 2 for the same money? My eyes are itching. REALLY itching, it's hard to keep my fingers off of them. I would have expected the antibiotics to have at least started to do the job of healing it by now, but my right eye is still blood red and the left eye isn't far behind it.

People are going to think I have been smoking pot!

I was standing at the M-Power machine yesterday, waiting for a character to finish. I was watching him shoving singles/dollar bills into the machine. He was covered with sweat. I think he put 4 bills in there, enough electricity to do what? Have a hot shower? Before he was finished, he looked up at me, eyes as bloodshot as mine, though I suspect for completely different reason. I felt it coming: can you spare some money?

He had that look and there was no other reason for the guy to be looking at me. He scratched his head and apparently decided it wasn't worth it, finished the $4 transaction and left.

I see that scenario over and over again at those machines, people putting barely enough on the card to last them the rest of the day. Nothing grandiose about any of it, I just watch with interest and wonder what kind of financial chaos those people are facing if they can't even afford to put on more than a day's worth of money for their power. I have had thoughts on numerous occasions to go back to getting a regular, monthly bill, but I think I am more happy to pay it in advance and not have to worry about a huge bill coming.

Caleb apparently is happy enough driving around that old car. Better than nothing and the AC works, plus it gets about 22 mpg in the city. Not bad for an old, full sized car.

Non-paying tenants. The Army reservist is going to have to go, I guess, unless she can come up with a full month's rent, because it's starting to get well beyond anything I want to tolerate. She only works at the reserve and that doesn't pay that much from what I know. She has no vehicle and I don't have any idea whether she's looking for a job or not.

Well I am getting off early, I have an email in my company account asking me to get to work as soon as I come in. I'm not really feeling all that great this morning, I decided to drink my coffee for a few minutes first before logging on to the clock and getting start, which is exactly what I did. Church tonight, hopefully I will have enough energy to go and get in on that prophetic training/activation.

G'day.

ben

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Cash Only, Please

I walk into the pawn shop to get my gun that I won on the Auction Arms auction. This particular gun shop sells all of it's guns on Auction Arms and starts all bidding at 1 penny with no reserve. So, this guy at the counter asks me if I have cash to pay for the gun today? No, I have a credit card. Well, he replies, this gun is a cash-only deal because it came from another store. Made no sense to me, whatsoever, since the "other" store is one of THEIR stores. I grumbled a bit on that one because the answer was unsatisfactory, it did not explain why I could not pay with credit or debit.

Off to the bank I go. At least it was only 2 miles away. Back to the store - where it took forever. You have to fill out a form and then they have to do the background check. I don't know, but it didn't take NEAR that long when I bought the 12 gauge shotgun to get the background check done - like a few minutes and it was over with.

I promised myself that if I got a handgun, I would take the CCW permit course and learn a bit more about guns than what I know. The shotgun is a home use only thing, I ain't carrying that thing around anywhere except I will probably stow it in the trunk of my car if I ever go camping. Nothing wrong with having a bit of firepower available in case - bear/mountain lion/whatever. I have to say that when I used to go hiking into the thick forests, I really wished I would have had a handgun available. This gun is pretty light, lighter than I expected. Anyway, there is a shooting range not too terribly far away that gives all kinds of gun courses.

I didn't buy ammo for the handgun yet - hopefully Walmart has what I need. It came with 2 magazines and came in it's original carrying case, along with manuals and a gun lock.

Well, anyway. My eyes are itching like crazy - not just the infected one but both of them. It's rather miserable because it won't stop. My infected eye looks no better after 2 days of antibiotics than it did on Sunday afternoon. People do a double take, every time. I look at them, say at a vendor to pick up pipe or whatever, they look up at me, look down and then shoot their head/gaze right back and my right eye. I feel like a circus clown.

Interlude. My mom. She is such a wonderful person. We have had our disagreements, but nothing that ever kept us apart from communicating with each other for too long. She sent me a very nice card (just opened it a few minutes ago) for getting well. I unabashedly say to the whole world that I love my mom, she is a great person and has such a beautiful heart.

That's it for now.

ben

Tuesday 8/2/2011

Tuesday

So, I just got done reading a rather dramatic story about something that happened to Caleb while up at the camp in the moutains. Most people do not believe in such encounters with the Lord, so I don't even know if I will share it, but it was incredible to say the least. What I will say is that I expect to see him do things other than what he originally planned to do with his life, simply because the hand of the Lord is upon him. It certainly wouldn't surprise me if he ended being an evangelist or a pastor of some sort.

Anyway, this so-called debt deal? I like Putin's take on it:
"The country is living in debt. It is not living within its means, shifting the weight of responsibility on other countries and in a way acting as a parasite,"

I am not really dwelling on this situation at this point, it's gone on every day in the news for weeks now and it is growing really, really old.

My right eye is no better today than it was yesterday, even with the use of the antibiotic drops. If it isn't better by Friday, off to the doctor yet again.

I won the auction yesterday, I will be heading to that store on the way home today to get it: a Smith and Wesson 40VE.

Argument yesterday that erupted into anger and yelling. No, I wasn't involved with it until I was dragged into it which is when I asked both parties to settle down. The situation has been evolving. It's the Chihuahua. I asked them - the trailer tenants - to train the dog. I told them before I even gave them the dog that it would be prone to barking at everyone and that they would have to train it not to do so.

Well, they haven't even tried to train it. The dog barks at everyone that walks into the house if it's outside and yes, it's getting old. The kid tenant was talking to Lynnette about it last night, he was calling the dog a piece of s***, she was saying it was not and then eluded that the "dog is a good judge of character", intoning that Mario, the kid tenant, is a bad person.

I don't know how she thought he was going to respond to it. I mean, if you are going to say something like to a person, expect to get an earful right back, which is exactly what happened. When the yelling starting between the two - in my kitchen - that's when I put a stop to it.

Mario then asked me what I thought about that dog doing that stuff to everyone. So, I did address Lynnette - not in anger - but in a calm way. I started in on pack mentality - which she clearly wasn't receiving, shaking her head no as if the pack mentality doesn't exist. Well, I have done the research, I have read a LOT of material from a LOT of different dog experts and there is one constant with all of them: dogs operate in packs and humans in a household - all of them - should be considered as pack leaders.

I wasn't taking her denial of my statements lightly, either. After going through all of it, she gave me a funny look and asked me: what WHAT are we supposed to do? At the very least, immediately get up and grab the dog when it is showing that aggressive behavior and tell it NO! in a very loud voice and let it know that that behavior is unacceptable.

This didn't really go over too well with her and she got up and walked out. This isn't the end of this, however, now that it's started, I am going to follow through with it. The dog will be trained or I will find a new owner for it. Period.

Done, time's up gotta get to work.

G'day.

ben

Monday, August 1, 2011

Sickness and other junk

Finally "vindicated" with this prostate infection and the absolute pain that one endures. My mother told me my dad used to get that and it was EXTREMELY painful and that he would have to take a week off of work! It's like no-one believes me when I say I have (or had, now) this infection and how much hell it is.

Yet, I have an eye infection. It is glaringly obvious even from 50 feet away, I know this because a contractor asked me if I got into a fight. Ummm, no, why? Your eye!! One of our salesmen this morning said: "You probably already know this, but your right eye is blood red". Yeah, I know, it's infected, I am on antibiotic drops to deal with it, thanks. You seem to only get "sympathy" if anyone can see what your malady is. Well, I am not dropping my drawers for anyone except a doctor and even if I did, you wouldn't SEE anything unusual. Whatever. Just an observation. The prostate infection makes this eye infection look like like chocolate pie with whipped cream on top is all I am saying here.

My manager - forgot - about my vacation request. I had heard nothing back from him on it, but the main branch manager emailed him today asking him if I could post-pone my vacation. I heard my manager on the phone talking about it and he asked me while still on the phone: did you ask for a vacation? What vacation?

Remember when I submitted the request about 6 weeks ago? I'm pretty sure he didn't feel too great about completely forgetting a vacation request and I had already blown it off: it was not going to happen, don't ask me how I knew that I don't really know, but the main manager verified that thought. We are opening a new store in Yuma and our main branch is going to be sending truckloads of material down there - meaning they will be short-handed and a vacation isn't going to happen.

I am going to say that it's probably good that it has been post=poned. I was going to try at least 1 night of camping, but I don't have all the gear yet. I am working on it, but my pricing and other people's pricing don't always agree on Craigslist items. I make an offer and if they don't accept it, I move on unless they make a counter-offer that is reasonable, which they usually do not make. I do not get in a hurry when trying to acquire things via Craigslist or eBay - or a gun auction.

I am currently bidding on a Smith and Wesson 40VE (40 caliber). It's in "fine" condition, which is good enough for me, the real thing is the price of this baby: it's not gotten out of hand on the bidding but, there are still 3 hours left. I have wanted a shotgun and a handgun for some time now. I have the shotgun, I want the handgun. I have a bid on that is bidding in proxy for anyone that might try to step it up - but the high bid I have on that proxy is also as high as I will go. If I lose, I will just start over again.

The anti-gun crowd can say what you want, but the fact that law-abiding citizens are able to carry concealed gives criminals a reason to be apprehensive when thinking about robbing people. Who knows who has a gun hidden on them? Look, there are FAR more gun advocates in this nation than there are those that are against guns. Just because the anti-gun people have a loud voice doesn't mean that the over-whelming majority of Americans are NOT anti-gun, whether they own one or not.

The situation in Norway with that killer going on an hour and a half killing spree would not have happened that long if that country had laws allowing civilians to carry. If some crazed killer was coming at me shooting everyone in his way and just shooting everyone, I wouldn't think twice about pulling a pistol and firing at him. There isn't any valid argument that a person can make that would sway me from acquiring guns and learning how to use them. I don't have little kids running around my house, which is a decent argument, I guess, if you are a reckless gun owner and don't have the guns locked away from their reach. There is no compelling reason, in my view, to not own a gun unless you don't feel you could kill someone.

You see, if someone comes into my house with a gun drawn and I happen to have a pistol or a 12 gauge shotgun handy, rest assured that person is going to die if they don't shoot me first. Arizona DOES have it's version of the "Castle" doctrine. In your home, you do not have to "retreat" first. You have the legal right to shoot a person that is threatening yours or someone else's life. In fact, that doctrine does not just apply to inside your home. The key factor is that you must believe (validly) that your life is in danger. In Arizona, if you come upon a person that is raping another person, you can kill them. I have read this straight from the statutes, not from someone's opinion, btw. A person in the act of rape can be shot dead, period.

The Debt ceiling. Now that the information has come out that there CAN be revenue increase after Boehner said it wasn't possible on this latest bill, I am looking for Tea Party backed senators and House members to take a definitive stand against it and frankly, I hope they do and I hope it's enough to stop this bill from going through. The federal government takes in ENOUGH money, DEAL WITH IT!!

College and my son. My ex wife doesn't quite get it. She wants to do all the leg work for him in finding out how to get grants and filling out the forms. I'm all for Caleb going to college and all for whatever grants he might qualify for, if any, but at the age of 18, I am NOT all for trying to do EVERYTHING for him. I think the best thing to do is sit down WITH him and have him fill out the forms and help him along the way if necessary. I don't really believe we learn much in life if we have everyone doing everything for us. You can't really fend for yourself very well if you DON'T LEARN HOW TO FEND FOR YOURSELF. My son isn't stupid, but he will stand aside when either of his parents are attempting to "take control", a thing I pretty much abandoned with him a while back and definitely now since he's considered adult age. Adults should learn how to cope with life.

I'm done, and yes I am starting to feel better now that I am off those horrid antibiotics. Okay, they aren't "horrid", they just drain me of energy and make me feel like - jello, as I stated in an earlier post. Amazing I made it through last week feeling like that. I am at - 70% now. The eye infection has been giving me headaches and I can still feel the effects of those powerful antibiotics, so I am definitely no where near 100%. Not that I am complaining, I have been sleeping like a baby for the most part on those pills, something I don't normally get for that many days in a row.

ben

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Sunday 7/31/2011

The call from the doctor yesterday indicated both blood and urine cultures are normal. I didn't check that until this morning.
However, my eye was blood red this morning and has been in some level of discomfort for about a week now. It was looking particularly bad today and more discomfort, obviously, it isn't getting better on it's own.

Yup, a trip back to the doc, 3rd trip in less than 2 weeks. The doc put some orange junk in my eye and checked it for tears. No tears, it's just plain infected. Antibiotic drops and I am out of there.

I am done with the Levaquin and hope that I never have to take that stuff again. My last dose was yesterday afternoon, the dosage is once every 24 hours, it is now 3 hours past the final 24 hours and I am feeling a bit better.

Caleb is back, of course, getting a bit settled back into things but I think this week or next he leaves for CA and there for a week and then back after that.

I never did get a confirmation about my intended vacation from my manager. He isn't very good about that, though. I have found that such things are sort of left up in the air until the week before the vacation. Well, if I had airplane tickets or some other thing planned that had money dumped on the table in advance, that wouldn't work out too well.

I'm not really into writing today, so, I think I'll call this one quits.

Later.

ben

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Saturday 7/30/2011

Here's my take on this political bantering going on with the debt ceiling: Democrats don't want this thing to reappear during the election because they know it will kill Obama's chances of getting re-elected. That's it, that's all this all about. I sit here and listen to the Dems in the Senate complaining about Republican's refusal to compromise - that's nice, but BOTH sides are unwilling to compromise on the key issues.

I'm gonna tell you one thing for sure: if whatever comes out and they really do kill the deduction for mortgage interest, the whole lot of them can go jump in a lake. I'll vote for Ron Paul for president if it comes down to that and I will vote for anyone BUT an incumbent. I'm not a single issue person, really, but they have already done away with a lot of deductions, the mortgage interest deduction is the last of the Mohicans. What ALL of them should be focusing on is cutting spending, period. If they would all shut up and get off the national TV junk and get busy, maybe they could actually get something done. At this point? Let the "default" date set by the President come and go and see what happens.

I am half leaning towards going and looking at another travel trailer today. This one allegedly has everything working in it. Water, electricity, propane. I dunno yet, just going to go look at it. I am trying to talk the lady down in the price. I could get rid of the thing sitting out there and recoup 2/3rd's of the loss and eat the rest.

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I got out of the writing mode and into other things. I'm out of it.
G'day.

ben

Friday, July 29, 2011

More

I was just about to call that camp up there in the mountains when my ex called me. After 16 years of marriage, some things are still weird. Timing and having the same thoughts about things that pertain to both of us at the same time and contacting each other at those same moments.

So, I told her I was just about to call up there. Got off the phone and got - whoever. That person explained they were having a dinner at the Spaghetti Factory in Phoenix at 5:30 for their crew and then they would be done around 7:30pm. Well, 7:30 is in about 20 minutes. I asked if they had rides back home or if my son was going to need a ride. Probably going to need a ride.

So, I call the ex back and let her know. Then, not 5 minute later, my son calls. Lol.

Now? It's a quarter day later and my son called just now: they JUST got there to that restaurant. It's 7:20 pm. By the time they get out of there? I will be wanting to be in bed, not driving to downtown Phoenix! I'm on day 9 of these antibiotics and a definitive pattern is going: take the pill about 3 or 4 in the afternoon, feel like crap for the rest of the day. The next day, feel slightly better but still fatigued until - the afternoon when we start the cycle all over again.

I finally scored a tent today. I had thought the one I was going for had "only been used twice", according to the ad, I must have gotten my ads mixed up and didn't realize what I was getting until I got to the Chandler Fashion Mall parking lot to meet the guy that was selling it. This thing is brand new. It was in an unopened box and clearly, once he pulled it out, it had never been out of it's carry-bag that comes with it before. This was a no-brainer.

Next? Lantern. Battery operated lantern, that is. A sleeping bag, a cooler, a 5 gallon water jug and a pad to put on the ground. Or, if I'm really going to spoil myself, a camp cot. The most expensive items are now out of the way.

Sent out the rest of the tax junk today. Not holding my breath: these circus clowns in Washington don't seem to be able to come together on this issue of raising the debt ceiling. They don't all look as equally bad, though, at least not to me. The House put something out, something the Senate or Obama has yet to do. They like to bad-mouth the GOP enough, but they haven't produced anything. Harry Reid needs to simply go away. Retire. Enjoy life, cause' buddy, your obnoxious attitude is repulsive at the very least. Oh, the point of this paragraph? IF the government shuts down/runs out of money, I don't necessarily see a tax return anytime in the near future.

My fishies are doing well. I am not acquiring anything else for those ponds. Haven't in a while, actually. Well, I take that back. Wasps or some related thing are eating up some of the particular varieties of plants I have in the ponds. Really annoying me. They sell a wasp thing at Home Depot - it lures them in there and they can't get out. Those things work GREAT for houseflies!!

Speaking of bugs, cockroaches. Since the "roach cleanout" that I paid $150 for, we have seen cockroaches. They have been back twice. They will be coming back a third time now. Though we have only seen a couple of them in a few weeks time, that's a couple too many. I will call them back - and back - and back until they get the problem eliminated, since that is their guarantee. Not like it was free, either. I despise cockroaches and I do not want them living in my home, period.

Well, guess I am getting offa here and waiting for a phone call.

Friday 7/29/2011

Friday

Sky overcast this morning. Nice. Not nice if it rains, this is month end and I believe fiscal year end as well. Bonuses depend on getting in as much as we can, job sites shut down because of rain would not be a good thing today.

Speaking of work, our company is having a "year-end" party. Fiscal year end, that is and this time? Dave & Buster's. Pretty much it's a free-for-all at these parties, but they haven't thrown one in 3 years like this. The last few years have been at parks or the GM's house because corporate wasn't allowing the expenditure to spend buccoo bucks for an open bar and unlimited entertainment options at this kind of place.

Well, anyway, Caleb comes home today. I'm guessing 2 months in that kind of environment and coming back to this environment is going to have an ajustment period. Up in the mountains, cool, clean air, not too much weighing on you and then back to the big city - yuck!

Oh, I forgot about his trip to CA. Well that's only going to be a week, allegedly and the back here.

Umm, I'm still out of it. 2 more days of this antibiotic and it's done. Dunno whether the infection is gone or not, just don't want to take any more of this junk. I haven't been wanting to take this stuff since 2 days after starting it.

I'm tired of the debt-ceiling talk. I wonder how serious these debt scoring companies REALLY are with their talk about down-grading America's credit rating. They would be screwing themselves along with everyone else in the American boat. Just curious if it isn't a bunch of hot air, steam included for free. Maybe throw in a few smoke and mirrors while you're at it.

I got my spiff for doing the selloff of the drip irrigation junk. Not very much money for all the time dumped into it. I would have been happy at minimum $500 for all of what I put up with in getting that stuff sold. Nothing I can do about it, there was no specified amount given when I started in on that venture and so, I only have myself to blame. At the same time, when I did start that venture, I had NO idea how long it was going to take or how many phone calls, emails and ads I was going to have to take and place.

Live and learn.

Ending this one.

G'day.

ben

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Thursday 7/28/2011

Day 8. I just took the 8th antibiotic pill. It's only one pill a day. One pill can do that much to a person, gag.

Finally got into the accountant's office and got - quite a stack of paperwork. $425 for $3,000. I'll take it.

I"m out of it. Take a pill at around 3 or 4 pm and then conked out for the night. Saturday is the last pill.

Caleb comes home tomorrow! Yayyyyy!

My dad called me - wondering how I am doing.

When someone other than family asks you how you are doing, what do you say if you are not doing so well? I'm fine, to bypass it or I'm not really that great? Does that person asking that stuff really care, anyway? I told one person after they asked: "not so well, thank you". You see? If you aren't really feeling all that well and really have something going on, people don't REALLY want to have to deal with your answer.

My conclusion? Why ask if you don't want to hear it? You are acting like you care, but you don't really care that much. It's just a thing to say: "How's it going?" or similar greetings.

I'm out of it.

G'nite.

ben

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Wednesday 7/27/2011

I did not write an entry this morning because as soon as I got into work - about 5:25 am - I had to get on the clock and get to work. No biggies. I am starting to feel a bit closer to normal again, not quite there but definitely feeling better. However, I have had a pain in my side that I cannot explain and I did go back to the doc's today.

The doc said it is probably kidney stones. Can I please catch a break here? What is going on, anyway? One thing after another? I was directed to continue taking those unbelievable antibiotics until they are gone. I caved in. They make me feel like crap, but they are doing the job. After Saturday I won't have to take them anymore - unless, of course, the infection isn't gone and I go into some sort of relapse.

So, the doc says, time to give blood, another urine sample and a cat scan. A cat scan!! You know, I know lots of people that are terrified of those machines because you get sent into that chamber and apparently the door is shut on you. I can understand the phobia there, but I am not afraid of confined, small places, never have been, doubt I ever will be. However, I do not like being exposed to x-rays - any of it. I don't want to go through airport scanners and I don't like having x-rays done on anything in my body. Call it whatever you want, but I don't think we should be exposing ourselves to such. Yet, the benefits of such a scan are unmistakable. If there is something wrong in there, that thing is going to find it.

Today also marks the first time that I had blood drawn that I did not get dizzy. The aide that was drawing the blood said that guys are always afraid. He went on to say about how they are also afraid of injections and whatever else. No sir, I am not afraid of the pain, there really IS no pain in drawing blood. A tiny pin-prick and that's it. It's AFTER it's drawn and the dude has left the room that I start feeling it in my system. I get nauseous and I always insist on laying down while they take it.

I felt nothing today. And no, I have no fear, whatsoever, of injections. Doesn't bother me in the least. I can see people bleeding out and that doesn't bother me, either. Well, it doesn't make me sick, obviously someone bleeding profusely is cause for concern. My blood pressure has come back down. Inexplicably, the last 3 times I have had it checked, it was WAY higher than normal. Today? 118/75. Not my normal range, but better than them telling me 139/85. I'm normally between 105 and 110/60 to 70. That is without medication, lol.

Changing the subject, I called the IRS today. They told me that carryover does carryover - but to 2005, not 2008. What is the reasoning behind that? He had no idea, only that Congress had passed legislation whenever long ago, apparently, that states the personal casualty carrover goes backward first and then, in my case, to 2006 and if there is any left over, THEN to 2008. Let me guess, Congress figures people might not get to it in time to get the carryover for PREVIOUS years, so do that. I cannot get anything for 2005 or 2006. If there is enough, I could get something for 2008.

Right now? I am getting the taxes turned in, get my 3 grand and then decide whether it's worth all of that trouble to continue on with all of this. I didn't go get my taxes today cause' - I went to the doc's instead. Taxes can wait another day, I will go tomorrow and get that stuff from the accountant and get it sent out.

Moving on, I sent Caleb a Facebook message this morning. He wasn't replying to my emails and he really doesn't have much access to using his cell phone up there. The date changed for him to come home - Friday instead of Saturday. My son doesn't necessarily get all the facts about things in the future down - analytically, I am going to have to work with him on that. Think through things, the potential consequences of whatever you are doing. Go through every possible ending that you can think of in your mind and then make decisions. Okay, that's me, that is definitely not everyone. Perhaps I should just leave it alone and he can figure it out for himself - or not.

So, when I read that I figured what was coming next: the dinner that the organization is going to have for the counselors is not up there, it's in Phoenix - I'm guessing a nice restaurant. Meaning he doesn't need a ride back. That was a letdown for me, I wanted to pick his brain for a couple of hours while driving back. I can do that at home, but not for that much time. It would have been no inconvenience, whatsoever, to drive up there and get him, but, he's his own man so let it go. He still has a LOT to learn about just living life, my intrusions won't help that much. I mean, we all had a lot to learn at that age, no-one is discharged from that scenario that I know of.

I think I still have a lot of learning left to go, in reality, but, not about the basic facts of living on your own and how to survive it. So, Friday night he is coming over here, that was his "request". He was asking me if it was okay to spend the night here! Lol. I have never told him he couldn't stay here, in fact, to the opposite, at the same time, I HAVE told him if he isn't working or going to school, he better plan on finding new digs, cause' baby, this ain't gonna be the place. His mother allegedly told him the same thing (I have doubts about that, but that is what she told me).

So, if he's going to go back to work at Albertson's, providing they give him a job (they told him they would when he gets back to set the record), and his grand parents have enough money set aside for him for his first year of community college, then the money he earns at work should be going to a savings account - at least a good portion of it if he's going to stay at home - to pay for next year.

In reality, I have my doubts he's going to stay at home. If he gets a good enough job to pay for a room somewhere, I am guessing he will be on his way out. It's just the natural way of things. But who knows. I am not over-bearing and I don't make a lot of demands on him at this point besides cleaning up after himself, so we'll see what happens.

Meanwhile, today is Wednesday and tonight is church. I am not going. I cannot stay up that late with this drug having the effect it does on me. It fatigues me and I identified the feeling today: I feel like jello. I just feel like a jellied mess walking around in some amount of weakness and hoping for a better day to come. I will go on Sunday morning and that's the best I can do at this point. The pastors, at least, are fully understanding.

I'm still working on getting camping equipment. I have nothing but the stove and stove pans I bought a few weeks ago. I have been looking for a tent at a good deal but still in great condition. I found one and am trying to get it. Schedules aren't working out, unfortunately.

Other stuff in the workings. Learn how to hunt being on that list. Why? Something I have always wanted to learn. The best time to learn such is with a family, growing up as a kid, going out on such treks. My parents were anti-gun and anti-hunting. Kinda struck that one out. Ponds. Still loving them, but have decided against any plan about a bigger one for now. It would be nice to have one, large pond instead of 3 small ones, but, that just isn't going to happen right now. Cost is the operative word here.

Fall. Would it please get here? Sooner than later, thank you. Get to August, get through August and at least the worst of it is over, though September is hardly cool here. Unless an extraordinary year, it is usually quite warm through September as well, with real cooling to be seen in October. Why do I live here? I ask myself that a lot. The answer is: my son, dad and mother. There is nothing else holding me here.

I'm done. 2 more work days left this week, I'm ready for the weekend and I can say that probably, it will be more laying around and doing nothing.

ben

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