Well that was interesting.
Just got back from Brownsville - unfortunately no detention pay- there were 2 trailers waiting for me when I got down there. But, when I pulled back in tonight, there were a bunch of drivers all sitting outside talking. I had 25 minutes of stuff to do, but when I got done I joined them. 2 drivers quit. One of them there 6 years, another was standing there telling me about it. The one standing there has been sitting around in the yard so much, he just couldn't deal with it anymore. Actually, he's not quitting, he's transferring over to a different division. 18 down to 16. It needs to go down to between 12 and 14 to keep us sufficiently busy.
We've simply lost work to other trucking companies because of the period where we couldn't keep up with the demand last year, the production plant went out and solicited other companies to take up the slack. But they are taking more than the slack, they're taking a large chunk of what we used to do away from us. And some of the prime, money making runs we aren't getting anymore.
Now, if we could get rid of the 2 "loaner" drivers from another division, we might be getting somewhere. But, apparently we can't. The division where those drivers came from allegedly is so slow the manager didn't want them to come back. But, the story that came out tonight is that they were busy, but busy doing "callout" work - it's work where you are contracted out to a plant to do whatever they want you to do - and they didn't like it.
Well tough s***. We don't need them. I was wondering why I was busy around Christmas and New Year's - everyone went on vacation. But now? Back to the same old junk of not enough work and tonight - 13 of the 18 trucks sitting in the yard. I'll be curious to see if I get a run this weekend. I"m also curious to find out if anyone else is going to quit. But, there are opportunities in other divisions, you don't have to quit to do those, but I am not interested in any of it excepting perhaps the gasoline division. They're over in Shreveport. I don't know what the pay is tho. The rest of the divisions I wouldn't be getting home much.
I dunno what to make of all of this. I get so little information I feel like I'm totally in the dark. My manager was complaining yesterday morning about all the bitching going on - they were texting her all weekend about it. Drivers complaining about other drivers and people complaining about not having enough work. Well I can see about the second part. Anyway, for right now, I"m going to just sit back and watch what happens. I'm kinda hoping more drivers will quit and then perhaps the remaining will get enough work to keep us busy and getting paychecks. But, I have to have a run this weekend. Even if it's a Cheniere run, I need something.
Oh, and the driver I was talking to? He's the driver trainer. They aren't losing some schmuck losing him, he's the go to when anyone has a question about what's going on.
Well whatever. Uneventful trip both ways? Not hardly. I was driving along when one of my GPS alerted me to a "new route". Huh? I looked at the map, Highway 59 had a really long yellow line on it and then an even longer red line. Meaning no one was moving and in that area? Had to be an accident. The other GPS was showing the red line but not giving me a change of route. I was hesitant at first, but I thought, this will only cost me a few extra minutes going around this, I'll just do it.
And Lord have mercy am I glad I did. Because when I went through a couple of small towns and thorough some slow speed limit areas and finally back to Highway 59, it takes you on a bridge over 59 to get back to the other side. What did I see? To the north a line of vehicles as far as the eye could see. And right there, just past the bridge? Well it was a tractor trailer right. It was blocking the entire highway- like as if it were crossing the highway from a side street. Except, there was no side street there. It was perplexing - but there was State Troopers on the south bound lanes - opposite side of the highway - standing under a gazebo they had put up - in the middle of the highway. I didn't know what I wasn't seeing, but for them to be doing that, it must have been bad.
When I got on southbound 59 and got to the other side of the truck, it was one of the most gruesome sights I have ever seen. The vehicle - whatever it was - was just completely crumpled up into kind of a ball. I found a story on it and a pic - but it just said at least one person was dead with no further info. Yeah I don't imagine anyone in that vehicle surviving.
Well whatever. At least driving through Houston today was a breeze. Much faster than normal.
I'm just a bit concerned about my income right now. I'm still going to wait this out for a while and see what happens. And fill out job applications here and there.
Free day tomorrow - at least. I'm going to smoke some ribs, have a fire, and try to get some stuff done. And work out. I say "at least" cause I don't know how long before I get another run. But, tomorrow's paycheck? Pathetic. Reminds me of Ferguson days. Next week? I'll get nothing.
It's late, I'm outta here.
Thursday, January 17, 2019
Tuesday, January 15, 2019
Dang.
Note to self: Next time I find out I'm off for extended days off, look up airfare to Europe.
Less than $600 round trip?
There's a flight with a layover in Paris. There's all kinds of flights, just that one had 3 layovers coming back. I like layovers in cases of trips to places you have never been before.
Only a couple hours tho, not much you can do in a couple of hours anywhere.
The point is simply that a $550 round trip flight over the ocean and going to Ireland? I would have done that on a 3 day trip in a heartbeat. My bag is already packed, always is. Trucker - and stuff.
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I finally, after a number of years, unfriended a Facebook friend. A black person, openly anti-white and allowing her friends on her wall to consistently attack me, over and over and over, for years. I had finally had enough when they all showed me the door and she did nothing about it to stop it. If people are being attacked on my wall, I'm going to do whatever to stop it. It was her anti-white stance, tho, that even tho we had some great conversations over the years - was what did it. I normally do not unfriend people like that. Note that I wouldn't unfriend a person on the basis of a political stance that is completely opposite of mine. That's an entirely different thing.
Anyway, final day off, I finally got the text for the run tomorrow to Brownsville. Obviously, I would love an extended detention down there to help with the time off. I can hope, but I won't be let down if it doesn't happen. Next week's paycheck will have nothing on it. Literally, not a single penny unless I opt to use vacation hours. Debating that. Maybe I'm not so broke that a missing week's paycheck doesn't matter.
The only thing that really concerns me right now is that Caleb is now - suffering yet another setback. He's suffering from Bell Palsy. Apparently it was caught in time before it got "wicked evil" is what I call it, for I have seen it's effects on a person's face first hand. And that person? It took well over a year to recover from it. I want to send him some money to help him out because he's been off work so long. He's not a lazy, welfare consuming person. He has a good work either. My dad used to help me out when I was hurting financially, I feel compelled to pay it forward. Note that my son didn't ask for money.
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Well took care of that.
Next on my agenda of spending even more money is getting my bottom front row of teeth fixed. This is something that should have been dealt with when I was a kid. Should have been braces back then. But now? One tooth is being pushed back from the 2 on either side and the 2 on either side of those 2. My guess is the middle tooth will have to be removed and some form of braces to set the others in place. Or something - whatever it is, it will cost thousands of dollars and I will go into even more debt.
I went to a store called Ollie's today. Never heard of it til' they came to this little town and opened up a shop here. My friends are all rave about it, have been rave about it since before the store actually opened. I just figured another "dollar store" type of thing, but I was quite pleasantly surprised, when, after taking Rene to Dollar General (she had no ride) and taking her back, I decided to get a bite to eat at the local Applebee's and then, there it is, right there in the same shopping center. Went in and wow! The prices!
I'm in this huge room with barren walls. They had canvas prints for unbelievably low prices and really nice looking stuff. I mean, no Picassos but I'm happy. 3 of those and a small stand for my Keurig coffee maker - it currently sits on the bathroom sink - and a small heater for the bathroom - it's freeing cold in there in the morning, some new bath towels and I was happy.
But it was this morning that threw me for a loop. The phone rang, woke me up out of a dead sleep. It wasn't exactly early in the morning, I was sleeping in, again, on purpose. I didn't answer. It was Rene, tho I didn't answer because it was her, I wasn't fully awake and wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. That's the way I am in the morning. Let me wake up, take a shower, drink a cuppa then I can talk.
So I let the call go ---- only to get the same call coming in for a second time. It rang 5 times before I finally answered it. Long story short: the male tenant in the house over there admitted to the new female tenant that he does meth. Oh, how wonderful!! I mean, just so grand! Yeah, I tell everyone before they move in there: NO DRUGS, THAT WILL GET YOU EVICTED. So, the new lady was talking about moving out to Rene. I mean, stop the manipulation, give me a chance for crying out loud. When I say no drugs, I mean, NO DRUGS. We're not doing that shit and I won't tolerate it. If you have a prescription for a drug, wonderful. But if you're cranking on crack or meth, get the hell out of the house.
So I just said great, let's get rid of him. I thought: I'm going to go through hell trying to find another tenant - yet again. A month for this one that came in now - but she's a gem as far as I can tell. Not being sarcastic, she's really a sweet lady. Now? I'll have to find another one, hopefully and potentially pay another month's worth of utilities. This is getting old, frankly. I'm willing to ride this out for a while because otherwise, I have even more money at stake for a broken lease, but really?
Ended that call only to get another one a few hours later: what if we worked with him to get off the drugs? Huh. They were all gung ho to get rid of him a phone call earlier and now they want to work with him. Blahhhh. I just listened. So, is Maria good with this? Maria is the new lady. Yea, we were "just" talking about it before we called you. Okay! This is all your choice, you have to deal with it, I don't have to live with it. I have heard nothing else back, he was cranking today and Rene didn't want to approach him until tomorrow and get past the high.
See, if Rene can't make this work, which I have been pounding into her head - if you want this to work, you have to want to bad enough to make concessions, give and take, not make demands on other people living with you that are unreasonable - then I'm bowing out of this in April when the lease is up. Yup, she knows this, I made this clear. Make it work. My name isn't going to be on the lease after April if you can't show that you can create an environment that causes people to want to live there. I have zero desire to deal with this any further if this doesn't get better.
I don't want another month where I'm shelling out over $450 to pay for the utilities.
Anyway, it's getting close to bed time, I have work in the morning. Finally. And as always, I at least hope I will get some detention down there.
And, ongoing, still doing the Keto diet. I'm down 26 pounds. Which is only a pound down more than my last update on it - but it is a pound down, not up. My workouts, which haven't been that many, are resulting in extreme soreness, starting 2 days after the workout. It will get better over time.
But, with that, time to get offa here.
Note to self: Next time I find out I'm off for extended days off, look up airfare to Europe.
Less than $600 round trip?
There's a flight with a layover in Paris. There's all kinds of flights, just that one had 3 layovers coming back. I like layovers in cases of trips to places you have never been before.
Only a couple hours tho, not much you can do in a couple of hours anywhere.
The point is simply that a $550 round trip flight over the ocean and going to Ireland? I would have done that on a 3 day trip in a heartbeat. My bag is already packed, always is. Trucker - and stuff.
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I finally, after a number of years, unfriended a Facebook friend. A black person, openly anti-white and allowing her friends on her wall to consistently attack me, over and over and over, for years. I had finally had enough when they all showed me the door and she did nothing about it to stop it. If people are being attacked on my wall, I'm going to do whatever to stop it. It was her anti-white stance, tho, that even tho we had some great conversations over the years - was what did it. I normally do not unfriend people like that. Note that I wouldn't unfriend a person on the basis of a political stance that is completely opposite of mine. That's an entirely different thing.
Anyway, final day off, I finally got the text for the run tomorrow to Brownsville. Obviously, I would love an extended detention down there to help with the time off. I can hope, but I won't be let down if it doesn't happen. Next week's paycheck will have nothing on it. Literally, not a single penny unless I opt to use vacation hours. Debating that. Maybe I'm not so broke that a missing week's paycheck doesn't matter.
The only thing that really concerns me right now is that Caleb is now - suffering yet another setback. He's suffering from Bell Palsy. Apparently it was caught in time before it got "wicked evil" is what I call it, for I have seen it's effects on a person's face first hand. And that person? It took well over a year to recover from it. I want to send him some money to help him out because he's been off work so long. He's not a lazy, welfare consuming person. He has a good work either. My dad used to help me out when I was hurting financially, I feel compelled to pay it forward. Note that my son didn't ask for money.
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Well took care of that.
Next on my agenda of spending even more money is getting my bottom front row of teeth fixed. This is something that should have been dealt with when I was a kid. Should have been braces back then. But now? One tooth is being pushed back from the 2 on either side and the 2 on either side of those 2. My guess is the middle tooth will have to be removed and some form of braces to set the others in place. Or something - whatever it is, it will cost thousands of dollars and I will go into even more debt.
I went to a store called Ollie's today. Never heard of it til' they came to this little town and opened up a shop here. My friends are all rave about it, have been rave about it since before the store actually opened. I just figured another "dollar store" type of thing, but I was quite pleasantly surprised, when, after taking Rene to Dollar General (she had no ride) and taking her back, I decided to get a bite to eat at the local Applebee's and then, there it is, right there in the same shopping center. Went in and wow! The prices!
I'm in this huge room with barren walls. They had canvas prints for unbelievably low prices and really nice looking stuff. I mean, no Picassos but I'm happy. 3 of those and a small stand for my Keurig coffee maker - it currently sits on the bathroom sink - and a small heater for the bathroom - it's freeing cold in there in the morning, some new bath towels and I was happy.
But it was this morning that threw me for a loop. The phone rang, woke me up out of a dead sleep. It wasn't exactly early in the morning, I was sleeping in, again, on purpose. I didn't answer. It was Rene, tho I didn't answer because it was her, I wasn't fully awake and wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. That's the way I am in the morning. Let me wake up, take a shower, drink a cuppa then I can talk.
So I let the call go ---- only to get the same call coming in for a second time. It rang 5 times before I finally answered it. Long story short: the male tenant in the house over there admitted to the new female tenant that he does meth. Oh, how wonderful!! I mean, just so grand! Yeah, I tell everyone before they move in there: NO DRUGS, THAT WILL GET YOU EVICTED. So, the new lady was talking about moving out to Rene. I mean, stop the manipulation, give me a chance for crying out loud. When I say no drugs, I mean, NO DRUGS. We're not doing that shit and I won't tolerate it. If you have a prescription for a drug, wonderful. But if you're cranking on crack or meth, get the hell out of the house.
So I just said great, let's get rid of him. I thought: I'm going to go through hell trying to find another tenant - yet again. A month for this one that came in now - but she's a gem as far as I can tell. Not being sarcastic, she's really a sweet lady. Now? I'll have to find another one, hopefully and potentially pay another month's worth of utilities. This is getting old, frankly. I'm willing to ride this out for a while because otherwise, I have even more money at stake for a broken lease, but really?
Ended that call only to get another one a few hours later: what if we worked with him to get off the drugs? Huh. They were all gung ho to get rid of him a phone call earlier and now they want to work with him. Blahhhh. I just listened. So, is Maria good with this? Maria is the new lady. Yea, we were "just" talking about it before we called you. Okay! This is all your choice, you have to deal with it, I don't have to live with it. I have heard nothing else back, he was cranking today and Rene didn't want to approach him until tomorrow and get past the high.
See, if Rene can't make this work, which I have been pounding into her head - if you want this to work, you have to want to bad enough to make concessions, give and take, not make demands on other people living with you that are unreasonable - then I'm bowing out of this in April when the lease is up. Yup, she knows this, I made this clear. Make it work. My name isn't going to be on the lease after April if you can't show that you can create an environment that causes people to want to live there. I have zero desire to deal with this any further if this doesn't get better.
I don't want another month where I'm shelling out over $450 to pay for the utilities.
Anyway, it's getting close to bed time, I have work in the morning. Finally. And as always, I at least hope I will get some detention down there.
And, ongoing, still doing the Keto diet. I'm down 26 pounds. Which is only a pound down more than my last update on it - but it is a pound down, not up. My workouts, which haven't been that many, are resulting in extreme soreness, starting 2 days after the workout. It will get better over time.
But, with that, time to get offa here.
Monday, January 14, 2019
Getting into it.
My manager is apparently under the gun from drivers that are engaging in "backbiting and bitching going on". Well, truck drivers do that. I think a lot of that stems from living in trucks and getting a rather shitty outlook on life. It's compounded at our yard because there are literally no driver facilities there at all besides a bathroom. No showers, no laundry, no driver room, no kitchen facilities excepting a microwave. It's very lame for a company making as much money as they are to leave people sitting in such conditions. These are drivers that rarely go home.
I do sympathize with the drivers in that department, but the bitching and backbiting has little to do with that. It's the slowdown and people sitting around much more than they are used to. So everyone is trying to assess other's work load and whether it's fair or not. Well, I didn't make near as much as some of these other drivers last year - they were up in the 6 figure department - but I don't care. I don't want to be on the road as much as they are. I am making very nice paychecks for the most part and tho I'm in the 80k range, that's more money than I've ever made.
I've heard some of the bitching first hand. Some of it is actually on par and they aren't really taking it to the manager, just people venting, I have no problem with that either. So I can only surmise that drivers are actually complaining to the manager herself about all of this slow down stuff. Wait, I just remembered that one of the drivers said that several have gone in to her office complaining. There's a fine line in my view to draw to keep yourself in good graces with a manager when it comes to complaining.
Although, from the Ferguson fiasco, there is definitely a time to address foul situations that shouldn't exist and even go above a manager's head if necessary. None of that got me anywhere with that company, but it did do one thing: weaned me enough of wanting to be at the place and now, even tho this company has a lot of middle and upper management issues, I'm much happier than when I was there. I'm sure I could probably do better tho and I do put in an application here and there of a place that looks really good.....and by that, I mean excellent pay and home every night. Long days? Sure but I already do 12 to 14 hour days, that's something I've finally gotten used to.
I saw an ad yesterday of a place paying 82 cents per mile! But out 6 days at a time. I just don't want to do that. At least this job I might have a few times here and there where I'm out extended, but it is mitigated with enough runs where I get back in a day or 2 days.
Anyway, she tried to tell me that I couldn't have a Brownsville run - which I changed my mind about Cheniere - cause of the bitching. Well excuse me, but I didn't make this error on the scheduling, you did and you offered me Brownsville and I decided now that I want it, Cheniere won't hardly give me any miles to make up for lost time. So then, she texted me while I was in the shower and then called me, so I called her back. She simply stated that she would give me Brownsville. I replied the only reason I asked is because I'll have been off for 6 days. She agreed and that was the end of that. I'm guessing she doesn't want me saying anything about it to anyone, and I won't. It's not favoritism when everyone else gets a run and I don't.
But I just figured that 2 days with a cheniere run is a waste of my time, I might as well take an extra day off but at least get something with some miles on it. And a potential for detention pay - but even without detention, the Brownsville run is a LOT more miles than Cheniere.
Okay, well enough of that. Issue abated and moving on. I've thought about my future with this company. Switching over to the newly formed company but run by a competing company that runs it's trucks into the ground. Do I want to spend my final working days here? Probably not. Just it looks like I need at least 2 to even 4 years of hazmat tanker experience before any of these better, local companies will even consider me. I get it: dangerous materials and very costly if you have a rollover, they are looking for the cream of the crop and they are putting up the wages to get them.
I've really got to try and make a decision. Cause' it gets harder to quit a place the longer you've been there and the more benefits you start racking up. That was the case with Ferguson. I miss all that time off but I don't miss being broke. I'm basically at the "final" stages of my working career. Whatever I choose, it's going to have to be good enough to carry me into retirement. If I get a good local offer, do I take it? Likely won't make as much money but a 5 grand decrease in pay for a better setup might be worth it. I'll be 55 next month. If my health holds out, the earliest I can retire is 62. Which isn't optimal for SS, better to wait at least 3 more years. I dunno, but in the next few years several drivers where I'm working are going to retire, they are near the age.
As for today? Nothing much. It's cold outside, I've been burning fires every day except one since I got back from last trip. I dunno if I"m going to do that today tho. I instead think I should probably reorganize my room. I'm also interested in replacing this old futon I have in here for Adler. I would like to get a new one that actually functions. In other words, can be put in to "couch mode" easily. This one started falling apart so I have had it in bed mode for a long, long time now.
It'd still be the dogs bed but I'd also put a plastic covering over the mattress to keep it from getting dogified. Didn't do that with this one and it's pretty much ready to be discarded into the trash can. A new futon isn't that much money anyway, I've seen decent ones for $160 range, delivered to your door. I just want to make this room look nice and 2 whole beds taking up all the space isn't going to work for me. It's really the only thing I spend money on , is upgrading the room. I mean, yes I bought a vehicle but that was necessary. Anyway, I need to ask permission to get rid of this one it's not mine and I basically would be replacing theirs with a nicer one that doesn't have dog smell all over it.
Well anyway, I think I'll get out of the house and just go sightseeing or something. Going stir crazy.
My manager is apparently under the gun from drivers that are engaging in "backbiting and bitching going on". Well, truck drivers do that. I think a lot of that stems from living in trucks and getting a rather shitty outlook on life. It's compounded at our yard because there are literally no driver facilities there at all besides a bathroom. No showers, no laundry, no driver room, no kitchen facilities excepting a microwave. It's very lame for a company making as much money as they are to leave people sitting in such conditions. These are drivers that rarely go home.
I do sympathize with the drivers in that department, but the bitching and backbiting has little to do with that. It's the slowdown and people sitting around much more than they are used to. So everyone is trying to assess other's work load and whether it's fair or not. Well, I didn't make near as much as some of these other drivers last year - they were up in the 6 figure department - but I don't care. I don't want to be on the road as much as they are. I am making very nice paychecks for the most part and tho I'm in the 80k range, that's more money than I've ever made.
I've heard some of the bitching first hand. Some of it is actually on par and they aren't really taking it to the manager, just people venting, I have no problem with that either. So I can only surmise that drivers are actually complaining to the manager herself about all of this slow down stuff. Wait, I just remembered that one of the drivers said that several have gone in to her office complaining. There's a fine line in my view to draw to keep yourself in good graces with a manager when it comes to complaining.
Although, from the Ferguson fiasco, there is definitely a time to address foul situations that shouldn't exist and even go above a manager's head if necessary. None of that got me anywhere with that company, but it did do one thing: weaned me enough of wanting to be at the place and now, even tho this company has a lot of middle and upper management issues, I'm much happier than when I was there. I'm sure I could probably do better tho and I do put in an application here and there of a place that looks really good.....and by that, I mean excellent pay and home every night. Long days? Sure but I already do 12 to 14 hour days, that's something I've finally gotten used to.
I saw an ad yesterday of a place paying 82 cents per mile! But out 6 days at a time. I just don't want to do that. At least this job I might have a few times here and there where I'm out extended, but it is mitigated with enough runs where I get back in a day or 2 days.
Anyway, she tried to tell me that I couldn't have a Brownsville run - which I changed my mind about Cheniere - cause of the bitching. Well excuse me, but I didn't make this error on the scheduling, you did and you offered me Brownsville and I decided now that I want it, Cheniere won't hardly give me any miles to make up for lost time. So then, she texted me while I was in the shower and then called me, so I called her back. She simply stated that she would give me Brownsville. I replied the only reason I asked is because I'll have been off for 6 days. She agreed and that was the end of that. I'm guessing she doesn't want me saying anything about it to anyone, and I won't. It's not favoritism when everyone else gets a run and I don't.
But I just figured that 2 days with a cheniere run is a waste of my time, I might as well take an extra day off but at least get something with some miles on it. And a potential for detention pay - but even without detention, the Brownsville run is a LOT more miles than Cheniere.
Okay, well enough of that. Issue abated and moving on. I've thought about my future with this company. Switching over to the newly formed company but run by a competing company that runs it's trucks into the ground. Do I want to spend my final working days here? Probably not. Just it looks like I need at least 2 to even 4 years of hazmat tanker experience before any of these better, local companies will even consider me. I get it: dangerous materials and very costly if you have a rollover, they are looking for the cream of the crop and they are putting up the wages to get them.
I've really got to try and make a decision. Cause' it gets harder to quit a place the longer you've been there and the more benefits you start racking up. That was the case with Ferguson. I miss all that time off but I don't miss being broke. I'm basically at the "final" stages of my working career. Whatever I choose, it's going to have to be good enough to carry me into retirement. If I get a good local offer, do I take it? Likely won't make as much money but a 5 grand decrease in pay for a better setup might be worth it. I'll be 55 next month. If my health holds out, the earliest I can retire is 62. Which isn't optimal for SS, better to wait at least 3 more years. I dunno, but in the next few years several drivers where I'm working are going to retire, they are near the age.
As for today? Nothing much. It's cold outside, I've been burning fires every day except one since I got back from last trip. I dunno if I"m going to do that today tho. I instead think I should probably reorganize my room. I'm also interested in replacing this old futon I have in here for Adler. I would like to get a new one that actually functions. In other words, can be put in to "couch mode" easily. This one started falling apart so I have had it in bed mode for a long, long time now.
It'd still be the dogs bed but I'd also put a plastic covering over the mattress to keep it from getting dogified. Didn't do that with this one and it's pretty much ready to be discarded into the trash can. A new futon isn't that much money anyway, I've seen decent ones for $160 range, delivered to your door. I just want to make this room look nice and 2 whole beds taking up all the space isn't going to work for me. It's really the only thing I spend money on , is upgrading the room. I mean, yes I bought a vehicle but that was necessary. Anyway, I need to ask permission to get rid of this one it's not mine and I basically would be replacing theirs with a nicer one that doesn't have dog smell all over it.
Well anyway, I think I'll get out of the house and just go sightseeing or something. Going stir crazy.
Sunday, January 13, 2019
Well Sunday.
Blahhh.
There is literally nothing - fun - to do.
Plenty of "stuff".
Clean my room, laundry, rake leaves, etc.
What I need is either a boat or a working 4 wheeler.
I can't figure out what's wrong with the big green one.
I'll have to hire someone to come out and figure it out for me I guess.
I'm pretty sure it's a fuel delivery problem tho.
I'm fixing to call that guy with the big party barge boat - otherwise known to us older generation as a pontoon boat. It's got a 90 horsepower motor on it which is enough to get it going fast enough to tow tubes. Tho this isn't the time of year to be in the icy cold water, it is always the time of year to go out to he middle of a big lake somewhere and go fishing. The deck on the boat literally has nothing - the furniture is all missing, the only thing that is on there is the control panel. And the cover is on there, but it's folded back to impossible to tell what condition it's in. Still, if the thing was cheap enough, it would be worth buying it and finding furniture to put on it. They usually have a couch and at least a couple of living room style padded chairs.
Weight still going down very slowly compared to when I first started this diet, but the gut is rapidly disappearing. Surrounded by chips, breads, crackers, potatoes, sugary treats and other forbidden things, I have held my ground. I'm sort of proud of that fact because I even survived the Holidays.
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Day is gone. I spent a good deal of time working out with the new weight equipment. My chest has turned into blubber and I am determined to change that. I was going to wait until I was under 200 pounds, but that no longer interested me. I can lose weight but there is still the element of conditioning and getting muscular again. That will take some time. That will take quite some time, actually. Muscle isn't added quickly, not like fat. My second workout, the first was bicep workout and it trashed my arms for 4 almost 5 days . Extremely sore.
I'm guessing today's workout with different muscle groupings will result in the same. I figure that because by the time I was done working out, my entire body was quivering and shaking. I can't bench press anything even remotely close to what I used to do. Kind of unnerving. Actually a bit disappointing. It is what it is, now that there is a set sitting on the back porch, I can and will go out there whenever I'm home - and haven't already worked out - and spend half an hour out there more.
I also did a bunch of incline situps. Lock your legs on the leg holders and fire it up. The thing is sit at a steep, backward incline. Pretty intense. By the time I had done 5 sets of those I was done for the day.
It was the natural progression of this diet to start working out again. It was just a matter of when, not if. Diets will lose the weight but they aren't going to rip your muscles. And frankly, all of my muscles were getting pretty small. The bicep workout a week ago showed very nice results after 7 days. I didn't try to lift as much as I can today, I was just doing repetitions, but I remember the last time I was working out that I could do 75 more pounds of repetitions easily. I'll work back up to it, hopefully anyway. I have no high expectations. I just had expectations of losing the weight. Muscle gain isn't the highest priority, it's just a goal that can be met or not and I am fine with it either way.
I mean, I'm going to be 55 in less than a month. Getting old doesn't mean having to get fat but it also shouldn't have unrealistic expectations, either.
Everyone gone tomorrow, I'll likely get some stuff done around the house. As for now? Watch a movie lol.
Blahhh.
There is literally nothing - fun - to do.
Plenty of "stuff".
Clean my room, laundry, rake leaves, etc.
What I need is either a boat or a working 4 wheeler.
I can't figure out what's wrong with the big green one.
I'll have to hire someone to come out and figure it out for me I guess.
I'm pretty sure it's a fuel delivery problem tho.
I'm fixing to call that guy with the big party barge boat - otherwise known to us older generation as a pontoon boat. It's got a 90 horsepower motor on it which is enough to get it going fast enough to tow tubes. Tho this isn't the time of year to be in the icy cold water, it is always the time of year to go out to he middle of a big lake somewhere and go fishing. The deck on the boat literally has nothing - the furniture is all missing, the only thing that is on there is the control panel. And the cover is on there, but it's folded back to impossible to tell what condition it's in. Still, if the thing was cheap enough, it would be worth buying it and finding furniture to put on it. They usually have a couch and at least a couple of living room style padded chairs.
Weight still going down very slowly compared to when I first started this diet, but the gut is rapidly disappearing. Surrounded by chips, breads, crackers, potatoes, sugary treats and other forbidden things, I have held my ground. I'm sort of proud of that fact because I even survived the Holidays.
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Day is gone. I spent a good deal of time working out with the new weight equipment. My chest has turned into blubber and I am determined to change that. I was going to wait until I was under 200 pounds, but that no longer interested me. I can lose weight but there is still the element of conditioning and getting muscular again. That will take some time. That will take quite some time, actually. Muscle isn't added quickly, not like fat. My second workout, the first was bicep workout and it trashed my arms for 4 almost 5 days . Extremely sore.
I'm guessing today's workout with different muscle groupings will result in the same. I figure that because by the time I was done working out, my entire body was quivering and shaking. I can't bench press anything even remotely close to what I used to do. Kind of unnerving. Actually a bit disappointing. It is what it is, now that there is a set sitting on the back porch, I can and will go out there whenever I'm home - and haven't already worked out - and spend half an hour out there more.
I also did a bunch of incline situps. Lock your legs on the leg holders and fire it up. The thing is sit at a steep, backward incline. Pretty intense. By the time I had done 5 sets of those I was done for the day.
It was the natural progression of this diet to start working out again. It was just a matter of when, not if. Diets will lose the weight but they aren't going to rip your muscles. And frankly, all of my muscles were getting pretty small. The bicep workout a week ago showed very nice results after 7 days. I didn't try to lift as much as I can today, I was just doing repetitions, but I remember the last time I was working out that I could do 75 more pounds of repetitions easily. I'll work back up to it, hopefully anyway. I have no high expectations. I just had expectations of losing the weight. Muscle gain isn't the highest priority, it's just a goal that can be met or not and I am fine with it either way.
I mean, I'm going to be 55 in less than a month. Getting old doesn't mean having to get fat but it also shouldn't have unrealistic expectations, either.
Everyone gone tomorrow, I'll likely get some stuff done around the house. As for now? Watch a movie lol.
Saturday, January 12, 2019
Drones have fascinated me since their inception and made public through news media and ample stories about them both for good and for bad. I fancied myself owning a nice one day, but not before I got a few cheap ones to figure out how to use them and probably crash them before figuring them out. I don't really talk about it much, just something that interests me.
I could see flying all over and taking pics or videos. Not that I want to see into people's back yards and what they are doing there, but in public. I figure if someone were flying a drone over our back yard I'd want to shoot the thing down. That's kind of peeping Tom territory in my view. But if you're out in the public, you are fair game.
I got a drone for Christmas. I didn't ask for one, I don't remember saying anything about drones recently at all. My friends said, well, you exhibited interest in them so, here ya go! It was a pleasant surprise. It's a cheaper model - but that' exactly what you want to start out with. Something if you crash and destroy it, it's not going to end your world. Cause' those things? You can spend thousands of dollars on them if you so desire and have the spare money laying around.
So for the past several days I've been quite miserably failing at flying the thing and crashing it. Fortunately not from any great height and it's survived some rather bad crashes lol. But tonight? I finally started getting the hang of it. This one won't just sit there and hover in place, it keeps moving around all the time so you have to keep moving the joysticks to keep it from crashing. That was what was the hard part: starting out with one that won't just hover where it's at.
Apparently if you want one that does that, you are going to spend a lot more money on it. Yet, I thought, what better way to learn than to have to keep adjusting the controls to keep it from crashing into something? My problem has been that I panic as soon as I start to lose control and then? I really lose control of it! lol. A couple of times into the ceiling fan flung 15 feet. I figured it was toast after that but alas, I was wrong and happy to be wrong in those cases. Other much more minor crashes. I guess they figure you're going to crash and break them, this one came with several extra fan blades. So far I haven't had to replace them.
But as I continue to practice, the panic mode is going down and presence of mind staying longer to simply make the right maneuver to keep it from crashing. The only thing about this one - and perhaps all of the cheaper models are like this - is that the battery only lasts about 10 minutes. Maybe 15, haven't really kept track, just that it doesn't last very long and then you have to recharge it. That's a plus tho, it's a rechargeable battery.
That's my current fascination. Not likely to go away, but very likely going to want to up grade to something you can fly with GPS and stability function. And of course a good camera. I'll wait on that tho. I want to practice on this one - and buy another if this one breaks before I get good at it - until I feel very comfortable with it. Like, no panicking and no crashing. I've been doing it both indoors and outdoors. The wind today was blowing that thing around and I wasn't having much luck with it outdoors, but indoors, I was in the kitchen several times just hovering it a few inches above the floor and just keeping it from crashing into anything. Right now that's my goal. This one has features to do crazy maneuvers. Hopefully I will be able to try those before I wear the thing out.
`But today has been an interesting day. Besides one of the kid's birthday today, James also said he wants to start hunting next year. Yay! I'll go hunting with you! My elation was a bit subdued when he said he wants to do bow hunting. That's nothing I have ever done. But I don't think he has, either. I dunno. I guess there's really more of a rush to hunting with a bow. You're going to have to be close, right there, to the deer or whatever you're hunting - but in these parts it's mostly deer - to kill it. He said next year tho. We just got to this year. I'm not sure why it was next year but I would guess it's a money issue. I'd offer to buy the stuff and we just go and do it. But I don't want to come off as the guy with money and those that don't. People have dignity and I don't want to intrude on that.
But another revelation today: someone at the company Taylor works at offered her to come and fish at his lake whenever. Hey that's pretty cool! The lake is stocked with catfish (not the biggest fan), bass and something else I can't remember. I like bass tho.
Tomorrow, I'm calling the guy with the 28 foot party barge and see how much he wants for it. The boat looks in good condition, I don't know if the motor runs - that's a deal breaker if it doesn't - but there is no furniture on it. It would need work and it would have to go at a cheap price to be worth buying.
Look, I need more to do than just staying around the house when I'm off, or going to see a movie, or running around town. Al well and fine, but I want entertainment and there are certain things that interest me that would provide that. It doesn't need to cost a fortune, either.
Anyway, Saturday - is almost over. Listened to Trump giving a phone interview on Judge Jeanine's show a few minutes ago. I'm not a big fan of Jeanine's but I watched to hear what Trump has to say about the shutdown. The stakes are higher now with federal employees not getting paid and airports reporting too many sick call ins to keep everything running. People will quit. They already are.
Wait and see.....
I could see flying all over and taking pics or videos. Not that I want to see into people's back yards and what they are doing there, but in public. I figure if someone were flying a drone over our back yard I'd want to shoot the thing down. That's kind of peeping Tom territory in my view. But if you're out in the public, you are fair game.
I got a drone for Christmas. I didn't ask for one, I don't remember saying anything about drones recently at all. My friends said, well, you exhibited interest in them so, here ya go! It was a pleasant surprise. It's a cheaper model - but that' exactly what you want to start out with. Something if you crash and destroy it, it's not going to end your world. Cause' those things? You can spend thousands of dollars on them if you so desire and have the spare money laying around.
So for the past several days I've been quite miserably failing at flying the thing and crashing it. Fortunately not from any great height and it's survived some rather bad crashes lol. But tonight? I finally started getting the hang of it. This one won't just sit there and hover in place, it keeps moving around all the time so you have to keep moving the joysticks to keep it from crashing. That was what was the hard part: starting out with one that won't just hover where it's at.
Apparently if you want one that does that, you are going to spend a lot more money on it. Yet, I thought, what better way to learn than to have to keep adjusting the controls to keep it from crashing into something? My problem has been that I panic as soon as I start to lose control and then? I really lose control of it! lol. A couple of times into the ceiling fan flung 15 feet. I figured it was toast after that but alas, I was wrong and happy to be wrong in those cases. Other much more minor crashes. I guess they figure you're going to crash and break them, this one came with several extra fan blades. So far I haven't had to replace them.
But as I continue to practice, the panic mode is going down and presence of mind staying longer to simply make the right maneuver to keep it from crashing. The only thing about this one - and perhaps all of the cheaper models are like this - is that the battery only lasts about 10 minutes. Maybe 15, haven't really kept track, just that it doesn't last very long and then you have to recharge it. That's a plus tho, it's a rechargeable battery.
That's my current fascination. Not likely to go away, but very likely going to want to up grade to something you can fly with GPS and stability function. And of course a good camera. I'll wait on that tho. I want to practice on this one - and buy another if this one breaks before I get good at it - until I feel very comfortable with it. Like, no panicking and no crashing. I've been doing it both indoors and outdoors. The wind today was blowing that thing around and I wasn't having much luck with it outdoors, but indoors, I was in the kitchen several times just hovering it a few inches above the floor and just keeping it from crashing into anything. Right now that's my goal. This one has features to do crazy maneuvers. Hopefully I will be able to try those before I wear the thing out.
`But today has been an interesting day. Besides one of the kid's birthday today, James also said he wants to start hunting next year. Yay! I'll go hunting with you! My elation was a bit subdued when he said he wants to do bow hunting. That's nothing I have ever done. But I don't think he has, either. I dunno. I guess there's really more of a rush to hunting with a bow. You're going to have to be close, right there, to the deer or whatever you're hunting - but in these parts it's mostly deer - to kill it. He said next year tho. We just got to this year. I'm not sure why it was next year but I would guess it's a money issue. I'd offer to buy the stuff and we just go and do it. But I don't want to come off as the guy with money and those that don't. People have dignity and I don't want to intrude on that.
But another revelation today: someone at the company Taylor works at offered her to come and fish at his lake whenever. Hey that's pretty cool! The lake is stocked with catfish (not the biggest fan), bass and something else I can't remember. I like bass tho.
Tomorrow, I'm calling the guy with the 28 foot party barge and see how much he wants for it. The boat looks in good condition, I don't know if the motor runs - that's a deal breaker if it doesn't - but there is no furniture on it. It would need work and it would have to go at a cheap price to be worth buying.
Look, I need more to do than just staying around the house when I'm off, or going to see a movie, or running around town. Al well and fine, but I want entertainment and there are certain things that interest me that would provide that. It doesn't need to cost a fortune, either.
Anyway, Saturday - is almost over. Listened to Trump giving a phone interview on Judge Jeanine's show a few minutes ago. I'm not a big fan of Jeanine's but I watched to hear what Trump has to say about the shutdown. The stakes are higher now with federal employees not getting paid and airports reporting too many sick call ins to keep everything running. People will quit. They already are.
Wait and see.....
That was it. My manager had my name on her pad, scratched it off without actually giving me a load to haul anywhere. She called me this morning apologizing profusely. Basically, it's 5 days off again. She actually went into work - on a weekend - to find out what she had done. I mean, what am I supposed to do? Bitch and moan about it? I just said I forgive you this time and chuckled. I could make a huge issue out of it, but I think that now that this has happened, she probably won't do it again. Good enough. Of course, I could have had a good 2 or 3 day run out of those 5 days at least.......2 paychecks from now is going to not be so great.
But, that sent me on a tizzy again looking for cheap airfare to Phoenix and it simply doesn't exist. not like the "good ole days" when you could look up last minute air fare, airlines trying to sell out planes, and find the deals. And yes, I checked all kinds of sites, the ones I have always used and some that I haven't. $355 round trip from Dallas was the cheapest thing going, even with Spirit red eye flights. Further searching revealed cheaper, red eyes that would have me in Phoenix for 24 hours and flying late at night. It's not really worth going over there without hitting at least one weekend day to visit friends on their weekend off.
Moving on and attempting to get that notion out of my head, I have today, tomorrow and Monday off now. Do I take vacation hours? Or just eat it? I dunno.
But if I'm not going anywhere, productive use of the time is warranted. There is a large amount of yard work that needs to be done. I got a very good start on it a few weekends ago, but a lot of driving since then hasn't given me any time to further the activities. Front yard needs totally raked up, back yard needs mowed and partially raked. However, the next door neighbor - up from us - we're on a hill - never cleans their back yard and cleaning up the concrete over there is like a waste of time. You clean it nice and then rain comes and washes all their s*** onto our property. Just like it was before you cleaned it all up. I was thinking of putting flashing that we have left over along the bottom of the fence line to stop the flow of their leaves, twigs, dirt and whatever else, but I suspect that would be a waste of time as well.
But, that sent me on a tizzy again looking for cheap airfare to Phoenix and it simply doesn't exist. not like the "good ole days" when you could look up last minute air fare, airlines trying to sell out planes, and find the deals. And yes, I checked all kinds of sites, the ones I have always used and some that I haven't. $355 round trip from Dallas was the cheapest thing going, even with Spirit red eye flights. Further searching revealed cheaper, red eyes that would have me in Phoenix for 24 hours and flying late at night. It's not really worth going over there without hitting at least one weekend day to visit friends on their weekend off.
Moving on and attempting to get that notion out of my head, I have today, tomorrow and Monday off now. Do I take vacation hours? Or just eat it? I dunno.
But if I'm not going anywhere, productive use of the time is warranted. There is a large amount of yard work that needs to be done. I got a very good start on it a few weekends ago, but a lot of driving since then hasn't given me any time to further the activities. Front yard needs totally raked up, back yard needs mowed and partially raked. However, the next door neighbor - up from us - we're on a hill - never cleans their back yard and cleaning up the concrete over there is like a waste of time. You clean it nice and then rain comes and washes all their s*** onto our property. Just like it was before you cleaned it all up. I was thinking of putting flashing that we have left over along the bottom of the fence line to stop the flow of their leaves, twigs, dirt and whatever else, but I suspect that would be a waste of time as well.
Friday, January 11, 2019
So I apparently have 5 days off total. I didn't work yesterday, today and no work sent for the weekend which includes Monday.
I don't actually mind time off here and there. But I don't want this kind of time off on a regular basis. But whatever. I was looking at airfare to Phoenix. Why not? I could leave tomorrow and come back on Monday. But, the airfare is excessive on last minute flights. I've tried a slew of different sights and going to the airlines themselves. Well, I guess I could afford it, just seems such a waste for a few days.
Yet, I'd love to visit my son in his time of suffering and just spend some time with him. His hand is messed up, bad. Wire and screws to put everything back together.
I don't think so. I'd take a road trip somewhere for the fun of it, just don't know where to go. Wish there were some mountains near here.
I dunno. Sitting around here for 3 days seems like a waste.
I might think of something, or I might succumb to do nothing. One of the kids birthday celebration is tomorrow night, but it's nothing that I need to hang around for. There will be a bunch of kids here for it and I can think of other things I could be doing. Not to mention it's a short event. Serve cake, hand out presents, bye! Lol.
No natural wonders around here - within a few hundred miles even that I know of - to check out. The green 4 wheeler isn't working. Maybe I could figure that out tomorrow and go out riding? Haven't done that in ages.
I saw a 28 foot party barge - a pontoon boat - on a side street for sale when I was coming home from a chicken joint here that sells baked chicken - keto friendly stuff. No price on it and in need of work. The seats are all gone off of it. But even if i bought the thing tomorrow? Now way it's ready to go this weekend. Not to mention Texas requires you to take some kind of course before you can boat on their waterways.
4 wheeling sounds good tho. I think I'll try to figure out what's wrong with that thing tomorrow. Take the dogs and they can trot along with me along the river.
Or not. Just in a conundrum. I'd really like to fly back to phoenix. Red eye flight, one day there, come back that night, wasted, toasted, trashed as far as sleep goes? It's not worth it. Better flights take it up to the $500 range.
I'll just let this pass out of my mind.
Just do stuff around here. I dunno why I was snubbed for a weekend run.
But I'll find out.
Then again, I wasn't making any friends today in the company. I made call, after call, after call to various locations around the US to find out why I am not receiving the break down of every single run, such as was given until - today. I was getting quite irritated, especially with a certain lady operating incoming calls in Ohio.
I've been annoyed ever since those phone calls. I really shouldn't have to go through all of that just to speak with the payroll department.
Whatever.
I don't actually mind time off here and there. But I don't want this kind of time off on a regular basis. But whatever. I was looking at airfare to Phoenix. Why not? I could leave tomorrow and come back on Monday. But, the airfare is excessive on last minute flights. I've tried a slew of different sights and going to the airlines themselves. Well, I guess I could afford it, just seems such a waste for a few days.
Yet, I'd love to visit my son in his time of suffering and just spend some time with him. His hand is messed up, bad. Wire and screws to put everything back together.
I don't think so. I'd take a road trip somewhere for the fun of it, just don't know where to go. Wish there were some mountains near here.
I dunno. Sitting around here for 3 days seems like a waste.
I might think of something, or I might succumb to do nothing. One of the kids birthday celebration is tomorrow night, but it's nothing that I need to hang around for. There will be a bunch of kids here for it and I can think of other things I could be doing. Not to mention it's a short event. Serve cake, hand out presents, bye! Lol.
No natural wonders around here - within a few hundred miles even that I know of - to check out. The green 4 wheeler isn't working. Maybe I could figure that out tomorrow and go out riding? Haven't done that in ages.
I saw a 28 foot party barge - a pontoon boat - on a side street for sale when I was coming home from a chicken joint here that sells baked chicken - keto friendly stuff. No price on it and in need of work. The seats are all gone off of it. But even if i bought the thing tomorrow? Now way it's ready to go this weekend. Not to mention Texas requires you to take some kind of course before you can boat on their waterways.
4 wheeling sounds good tho. I think I'll try to figure out what's wrong with that thing tomorrow. Take the dogs and they can trot along with me along the river.
Or not. Just in a conundrum. I'd really like to fly back to phoenix. Red eye flight, one day there, come back that night, wasted, toasted, trashed as far as sleep goes? It's not worth it. Better flights take it up to the $500 range.
I'll just let this pass out of my mind.
Just do stuff around here. I dunno why I was snubbed for a weekend run.
But I'll find out.
Then again, I wasn't making any friends today in the company. I made call, after call, after call to various locations around the US to find out why I am not receiving the break down of every single run, such as was given until - today. I was getting quite irritated, especially with a certain lady operating incoming calls in Ohio.
I've been annoyed ever since those phone calls. I really shouldn't have to go through all of that just to speak with the payroll department.
Whatever.
Well then.
The battle for the wall continues and as more data comes out, it's making democrats look rather foolish on their continued stance against a wall. Democrats have wasted hundreds of billions of dollars - Obama's stimulus package and the ACA just to name 2 of them - but they think an actual barrier to stop people from simply walking across the border is a waste of money? This has turned into a circus, the Dem leaders are the clowns and we all sit back and watch it as it plays out.
The whole thing is making them look extremely petty.
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Home for another day. I didn't want to go out today, so I just didn't ask my manager when I'm going out next. If I do that, it usually means I'll get sent out. Well, I've been on the road a lot, a couple days off are good for the mind, heart and soul. I am feeling particularly unmotivated today, even worse than yesterday. Tho, I did get some stuff done yesterday at least. It's only 9 am, there is plenty of day left to at least do some cleaning if nothing else. Regardless, it's Friday and the weekend is upon us, I can't afford 5 days off so she'll hopefully be sending me somewhere tomorrow, Sunday or Monday.
I finally got what appears to be a correct weekly paycheck. But I have no way of telling and a phone call to the payroll department was answered by a message to leave my name and number, which I did yesterday and of course haven't heard anything back. This company sucks on the communication level, in fact, pretty much everything on the corporate level is ridiculous.
Well this day turned nasty on me. Apparently I have picked up the stomach bug that is going around. 4 visits to the bathroom so far.....
Good thing I'm not on the road today, gag.
The battle for the wall continues and as more data comes out, it's making democrats look rather foolish on their continued stance against a wall. Democrats have wasted hundreds of billions of dollars - Obama's stimulus package and the ACA just to name 2 of them - but they think an actual barrier to stop people from simply walking across the border is a waste of money? This has turned into a circus, the Dem leaders are the clowns and we all sit back and watch it as it plays out.
The whole thing is making them look extremely petty.
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Home for another day. I didn't want to go out today, so I just didn't ask my manager when I'm going out next. If I do that, it usually means I'll get sent out. Well, I've been on the road a lot, a couple days off are good for the mind, heart and soul. I am feeling particularly unmotivated today, even worse than yesterday. Tho, I did get some stuff done yesterday at least. It's only 9 am, there is plenty of day left to at least do some cleaning if nothing else. Regardless, it's Friday and the weekend is upon us, I can't afford 5 days off so she'll hopefully be sending me somewhere tomorrow, Sunday or Monday.
I finally got what appears to be a correct weekly paycheck. But I have no way of telling and a phone call to the payroll department was answered by a message to leave my name and number, which I did yesterday and of course haven't heard anything back. This company sucks on the communication level, in fact, pretty much everything on the corporate level is ridiculous.
Well this day turned nasty on me. Apparently I have picked up the stomach bug that is going around. 4 visits to the bathroom so far.....
Good thing I'm not on the road today, gag.
Thursday, January 10, 2019
The Wall fiasco continues on....and on....and on....now we are seeing Trump moving towards a national emergency to fund the wall. The debate is ridiculous. The federal government is mandated to secure our borders, a point that dem leaders conveniently leave out. The news is nothing but the wall wall wall now.
Whatever the case, I slept a solid 10 hours last night. I mean, I woke up a couple times but went right back to sleep. That's how tired I was. Just not getting enough sleep several nights previous to it and plus putting in a full 14 hour day yesterday - I had 10 minutes left on the 14 hour clock when I was done last night - not including going to work and coming home, which is full of things needing to be done in itself.
Yesterday really wasn't worth that much money. I figure around $300 to $340 depending on how much detention time I get paid for. I'm ready for another Brownsville run with a few days worth of detention thrown in . I'll take whatever I can get tho and most likely now that my Cheniere credentials are renewed, I"ll be getting dumped with those runs. I dunno but I hope to get sent back out again tomorrow somewhere.
But, with the room finally rented and the lady that moved in seemingly content to stay, I'm hopeful anyway, that takes a lot of pressure for $400 worth of bills off of me. I paid all that out last month since I never was able to get anyone in there - tho I didn't think it would happen during December anyway. I also dumped this load all on Rene - it's up to you, Rene, to make this work. If you can't give and take, she won't stay and I'll be tempted to bow out of this contract - another 3 months to go - pay my share of it and wash my hands of this.
The house itself is a problem tho. It's small, I can't imagine it's over 1,300 square feet. Good guess on my part, looked it up on Zillow, it's 1,274 square feet. Trust me, if you were to see the house you would call it small. The monthly rent at $800 is way over priced and the insulation in the house is not sufficient. The gas and cooling bills are ridiculous for the amount of square footage. A mortgage on this house would be around $400 per month, which would make it much more appealing and perhaps do upgrades to it. But I'm 100% positive I can't get a second mortgage right now.
So I dumped it on them. Come March, find a house that is owner financed or otherwise alternative funding such as rent to own. Get back to me. Or find another rental house that is bigger. Take some of the initiative and find something that will work with bigger bedrooms and at least 2 full baths. They are motivated. Perhaps some of the problems with people getting cranky with each other is based on the smaller rooms and all of them crammed at one end of the house - versus such as I'm living in now, rooms are separated - well separated.
Whatever. I just don't want to be the only one doing all of this. The problem with this town I'm in his that a lot of these old homes were built with only 1 bathroom. I just looked again, a vast majority of them are 1 bath. Finding 2 full baths or even 1-1/2 baths is pretty difficult. What I am noticing is bigger houses for less money.
Agenda for today: not sure. It's already 11:30 am, I have no regrets getting up late. I probably could have slept another hour. Or more. A few things tho I should get done now that I think of it. Cook some meals for the road and freeze them. Now that I have a microwave in the truck, I can reheat meals versus trying to find meals with low carbs. I'm still on the keto diet. Finding it difficult to cross below the 200 pound barrier. Been stuck around the weight I"m at for several weeks now. I also intend on working out today - 30 minutes or so with the weights.
Oh yes. I forgot. Transfer my balance from Capital one to Citi which is offering balance transfer with substantially lower rates for 12 months with no transfer fees. I kinda racked up a bit of debt for my new TV and my new laptop. Everything else at Christmas I paid in cash. It's less than $500, I'll have it paid off in a few months.
And finally, still can't review settlement sheets on my pay stubs. They took it down for unknown reasons. This shows each trip I'm getting paid for and breaks it down by the mileage pay, stop pay and detention pay. It's the only way I know that I'm getting paid everything. They announced they are no longer going to send the paystubs in the mail - which has all those sheets included. If I can't see the settlement sheets, I'm completely in the dark. I mean, I would have to start keeping detailed recording of trips and everything I should get paid. I wasn't doing that because the settlement sheets show all of that and I have a very good memory when it comes to what I did on any given trip.
Regardless, my pay stub is already up there for tomorrow's pay. It's much more in line with what I should be getting on a weekly basis.
Whatever the case, I slept a solid 10 hours last night. I mean, I woke up a couple times but went right back to sleep. That's how tired I was. Just not getting enough sleep several nights previous to it and plus putting in a full 14 hour day yesterday - I had 10 minutes left on the 14 hour clock when I was done last night - not including going to work and coming home, which is full of things needing to be done in itself.
Yesterday really wasn't worth that much money. I figure around $300 to $340 depending on how much detention time I get paid for. I'm ready for another Brownsville run with a few days worth of detention thrown in . I'll take whatever I can get tho and most likely now that my Cheniere credentials are renewed, I"ll be getting dumped with those runs. I dunno but I hope to get sent back out again tomorrow somewhere.
But, with the room finally rented and the lady that moved in seemingly content to stay, I'm hopeful anyway, that takes a lot of pressure for $400 worth of bills off of me. I paid all that out last month since I never was able to get anyone in there - tho I didn't think it would happen during December anyway. I also dumped this load all on Rene - it's up to you, Rene, to make this work. If you can't give and take, she won't stay and I'll be tempted to bow out of this contract - another 3 months to go - pay my share of it and wash my hands of this.
The house itself is a problem tho. It's small, I can't imagine it's over 1,300 square feet. Good guess on my part, looked it up on Zillow, it's 1,274 square feet. Trust me, if you were to see the house you would call it small. The monthly rent at $800 is way over priced and the insulation in the house is not sufficient. The gas and cooling bills are ridiculous for the amount of square footage. A mortgage on this house would be around $400 per month, which would make it much more appealing and perhaps do upgrades to it. But I'm 100% positive I can't get a second mortgage right now.
So I dumped it on them. Come March, find a house that is owner financed or otherwise alternative funding such as rent to own. Get back to me. Or find another rental house that is bigger. Take some of the initiative and find something that will work with bigger bedrooms and at least 2 full baths. They are motivated. Perhaps some of the problems with people getting cranky with each other is based on the smaller rooms and all of them crammed at one end of the house - versus such as I'm living in now, rooms are separated - well separated.
Whatever. I just don't want to be the only one doing all of this. The problem with this town I'm in his that a lot of these old homes were built with only 1 bathroom. I just looked again, a vast majority of them are 1 bath. Finding 2 full baths or even 1-1/2 baths is pretty difficult. What I am noticing is bigger houses for less money.
Agenda for today: not sure. It's already 11:30 am, I have no regrets getting up late. I probably could have slept another hour. Or more. A few things tho I should get done now that I think of it. Cook some meals for the road and freeze them. Now that I have a microwave in the truck, I can reheat meals versus trying to find meals with low carbs. I'm still on the keto diet. Finding it difficult to cross below the 200 pound barrier. Been stuck around the weight I"m at for several weeks now. I also intend on working out today - 30 minutes or so with the weights.
Oh yes. I forgot. Transfer my balance from Capital one to Citi which is offering balance transfer with substantially lower rates for 12 months with no transfer fees. I kinda racked up a bit of debt for my new TV and my new laptop. Everything else at Christmas I paid in cash. It's less than $500, I'll have it paid off in a few months.
And finally, still can't review settlement sheets on my pay stubs. They took it down for unknown reasons. This shows each trip I'm getting paid for and breaks it down by the mileage pay, stop pay and detention pay. It's the only way I know that I'm getting paid everything. They announced they are no longer going to send the paystubs in the mail - which has all those sheets included. If I can't see the settlement sheets, I'm completely in the dark. I mean, I would have to start keeping detailed recording of trips and everything I should get paid. I wasn't doing that because the settlement sheets show all of that and I have a very good memory when it comes to what I did on any given trip.
Regardless, my pay stub is already up there for tomorrow's pay. It's much more in line with what I should be getting on a weekly basis.
Tuesday, January 8, 2019
The agony, the hell, the misery of going through that unbelievably boring, long-winded s*** called training for Cheniere. I'm not sorry to say that. They said I didn't have to do the whole thing, just a "refresher". Yea, the refresher from hell. They shaved off 3 hours and 15 minutes, big deal. I had to sit in front of a computer and watch a 1 hour and 45 minute presentation on general safety at sites. Nothing I heard was new, at all. I answered 50 questions at the end and then moved on to the Cheneire modules.
That is the one from hell. Because you have to sit there for over 2 and a half hours, you can't get up, you can't go to the bathroom, you aren't allowed any kind of drinks or food in there. It's just plain retarded. Treating grown men and women like kindergartners because of the stupidity of a few people. I literally hate that place. To make things worse, I didn't sleep worth a petunia's petal last night and I was fighting sleep the whole through both of those presentations. And as the last time, the Cheneire presentation goes over all the things a new hired employee would have to learn, but I"m not a newly hired Cheniere employee and I don't work there. 90% of the presentation was meaningless. It had zero relevance on what I go in there to do. I don't need to know about theory operations theories, guidelines and rules. I only need to know their safety regs and I already have that well down, thanks.
I don't even want to go there, but when times are tight, anything will be better than nothing. She has been handing out those runs quite a lot, the plant must have been brought back online again. So anyway, I texted I was done with that miserable nonsense and she just laughed. She knows what it's all about. A complete waste of time, that's what. Besides the operations stuff - which has no bearing on what I do in there - it's all common sense stuff. And it was chock full of multiple choice questions as well. Around 100 of them interspersed throughout the presentation, same exact thing as last year.
Anyway, that evil is done and over with. I don't care if I get paid for it. I'd rather pay them NOT to do it!
And darnnit if I didn't forget to get my new shoes. I get a $125 perk for new steel toed shoes at this company every year. My last ones are a long ways from wearing out. I'm going to find some steel toed hiking style boots - I have to buy them steel toed - but I'm not going to let that kind of voucher just disappear. Just that I got out of that place and the first thing I thought of was food - over to Cracker Barrell for Keto friends pork chop, ham and eggs and then? Home. No, back to my town to get a hair cut. Wash the SUV and then I went to get the dogs and then went home.
Tomorrow, a run to Houston. This is legitimately a day run if it works out right. 227 miles down, they get you right in, unload as fast as possible and start right back. There are reasons I couldn't make it in a day, of course, the biggest factor is the loading plant, but even if it goes a little over, I can still make it. That short of a run isn't worth more than a day's worth anyway. It's no more than 8 hours of driving total which leaves 3 hours to load at the plant and 3 hours to unload at the delivery station. Something has to go really bad to not be able to do that run in one day.
Now then. We have this ridiculous border wall argument going on and on. Now Ted Cruz has rolled out an idea to take Chavo's fortune and use it to build the wall. I guarantee you that if that's possible, dems will find something to complain about it. They don't want Trump to win, they want their power back and they don't care how it has to happen. The ends justifies the means. They have taken the moral low road, not the moral high road that they endlessly claim they are taking. I'm sick of all of this. Politics in the US is completely broken. It's pretty disgusting.
Okay, well today is the 3 turned 4 year old's birthday. I have nothing for him. I just remembered now. Lol. Oh well. I'd give him a few dollars but that wouldn't mean anything to him. He doesn't understand the concept of money yet.
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Breakfast for dinner was the announcement and that we did! I filled myself up on keto friends meats and a huge omelette. I haven't felt full in days. We sang happy birthday to the 4 year old, cleaned up and here I am. Waiting on Trump's speech. I'm more interested in the spin the likes of CNN and MSNBC will put on it than what Trump has to say. I already know what he'll say. Or at least I think I have a very good idea.
Annnnnddddddd......get ready for tomorrow. Early enough rise at 5 am. It will be a full, long day. I hope I can sleep better tonight than last night. If I don't, I won't make it back tomorrow. I'll pull over somewhere on the way back up and go to bed and think nothing of it.
C'ya next time.
That is the one from hell. Because you have to sit there for over 2 and a half hours, you can't get up, you can't go to the bathroom, you aren't allowed any kind of drinks or food in there. It's just plain retarded. Treating grown men and women like kindergartners because of the stupidity of a few people. I literally hate that place. To make things worse, I didn't sleep worth a petunia's petal last night and I was fighting sleep the whole through both of those presentations. And as the last time, the Cheneire presentation goes over all the things a new hired employee would have to learn, but I"m not a newly hired Cheniere employee and I don't work there. 90% of the presentation was meaningless. It had zero relevance on what I go in there to do. I don't need to know about theory operations theories, guidelines and rules. I only need to know their safety regs and I already have that well down, thanks.
I don't even want to go there, but when times are tight, anything will be better than nothing. She has been handing out those runs quite a lot, the plant must have been brought back online again. So anyway, I texted I was done with that miserable nonsense and she just laughed. She knows what it's all about. A complete waste of time, that's what. Besides the operations stuff - which has no bearing on what I do in there - it's all common sense stuff. And it was chock full of multiple choice questions as well. Around 100 of them interspersed throughout the presentation, same exact thing as last year.
Anyway, that evil is done and over with. I don't care if I get paid for it. I'd rather pay them NOT to do it!
And darnnit if I didn't forget to get my new shoes. I get a $125 perk for new steel toed shoes at this company every year. My last ones are a long ways from wearing out. I'm going to find some steel toed hiking style boots - I have to buy them steel toed - but I'm not going to let that kind of voucher just disappear. Just that I got out of that place and the first thing I thought of was food - over to Cracker Barrell for Keto friends pork chop, ham and eggs and then? Home. No, back to my town to get a hair cut. Wash the SUV and then I went to get the dogs and then went home.
Tomorrow, a run to Houston. This is legitimately a day run if it works out right. 227 miles down, they get you right in, unload as fast as possible and start right back. There are reasons I couldn't make it in a day, of course, the biggest factor is the loading plant, but even if it goes a little over, I can still make it. That short of a run isn't worth more than a day's worth anyway. It's no more than 8 hours of driving total which leaves 3 hours to load at the plant and 3 hours to unload at the delivery station. Something has to go really bad to not be able to do that run in one day.
Now then. We have this ridiculous border wall argument going on and on. Now Ted Cruz has rolled out an idea to take Chavo's fortune and use it to build the wall. I guarantee you that if that's possible, dems will find something to complain about it. They don't want Trump to win, they want their power back and they don't care how it has to happen. The ends justifies the means. They have taken the moral low road, not the moral high road that they endlessly claim they are taking. I'm sick of all of this. Politics in the US is completely broken. It's pretty disgusting.
Okay, well today is the 3 turned 4 year old's birthday. I have nothing for him. I just remembered now. Lol. Oh well. I'd give him a few dollars but that wouldn't mean anything to him. He doesn't understand the concept of money yet.
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Breakfast for dinner was the announcement and that we did! I filled myself up on keto friends meats and a huge omelette. I haven't felt full in days. We sang happy birthday to the 4 year old, cleaned up and here I am. Waiting on Trump's speech. I'm more interested in the spin the likes of CNN and MSNBC will put on it than what Trump has to say. I already know what he'll say. Or at least I think I have a very good idea.
Annnnnddddddd......get ready for tomorrow. Early enough rise at 5 am. It will be a full, long day. I hope I can sleep better tonight than last night. If I don't, I won't make it back tomorrow. I'll pull over somewhere on the way back up and go to bed and think nothing of it.
C'ya next time.
Monday, January 7, 2019
So my casino visit last night was a loss. I drove straight up to Barnsdall without stopping, dropped the trailer and then headed back south - for only 30 miles tho, lol, I had to take a 30 minute break. After that? Down to the Choctaw Casino and Resort in Grant, Oklahoma. I figured I'd have a little fun, get a bit at chili's and go to bed. I could have walked out of there with near $300 over what I started with, but I didn't. Sometimes, you just don't get up and leave when you know you should. But I had fun and I only lost $100, which isn't anything near the recent wins I've had, so it's whatever. I expect to take a few hits when I go into a casino here and there, the odds are stacked against you. It's really that I only play blackjack and I both get lucky and play the way the online training tools teach you.
At least I got up and left when I hit my maximum loss that I set - which is usually just a whim I do whenever I enter one of those places - when I got there.
Anyway, the news is the 3rd room is finally rented in the other house. And it appears, at least, that this lady is intent on staying a while. She has a parrot and 2 dogs. The entire house now is funded by people living off the government - disability benefits. My only output here is she needs a bed. I got her one. If she stays awhile, expense worth it. If not, that thing will come over here for Addler. Actually it's a futon, but this one is really nice and a great price. Addler sleeps on a futon now. I don't bother folding it up anymore, it was falling apart doing that every morning so I decided to just leave it down in bed formation. I want to get rid of it tho and get something that is easy to fold up and put away when he isn't sleeping on it and I want it out of the way. 2 large beds in a room take up a lot of space and also doesn't give me the appearance I want for my room.
I'll be looking for something in the near future. But, I'm also really looking for a trip somewhere.
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Ugh, I was tired last night, stopped writing this and went to bed early, like 9:30 pm early.
No idea when I'm going out again, another day off would be nice but I won't turn down a run tomorrow. Goals today: haircut, get trailer registered, replace battery in Jeep, cook dinner and be ready to go if it happens that I'm going out somewhere. Like, cook a chicken fryer. Figures I'm home for no-one being around, cept' the doggies of course.
I found a local job in the endless emails I get from Indeed - I signed up for them with specific parameters - that pays $50 to $75k per year. I wouldn't be interested in the 50k junk but the 75 k would be close to what I'm making now, I'd be home every night and the ad says you only work average 48 hours per week. In the last 7 days I've put in over 70 hours. I know, people think trucking is easy. Well get behind the steering wheel of one, buttercup, drive endlessly and be away from home all the time, do that for a year and then get back to me.
The industry has very little allure to pull new drivers of whatever age into it even with excellent pay. A lot of that may have to do with the training process. You do 3 weeks of class study and parking lot maneuvers and then you get your permit and go out on the road with someone, living in a small box. 2 strangers living in a small box....for months. Until the new driver is ready. They'd have to pay me an extra $7,500 bonus to deal with that an even then I'm not sure I'd do it. First and foremost, above and beyond the concerns of living with someone like that, is the idea of having a new driver behind the wheel and no way to correct that person if they are getting themselves into a dangerous situation. Not with hazmat anyway. New drivers don't start out in the hazmat industry, thank God.
Anyway, I'm going to apply at that job today. Our company is losing drivers tho. The paychecks aren't coming for a lot of people and those people - are leaving. Even at this rate of pay, some people just don't know how to save and burn everything up as soon as it comes in. In other words, paycheck to paycheck, barely surviving financially. I don't get that but that's the way it is. I mean, some of these guys made over 100k last year and they're still broke.
At the moment I could last about 4 months without pay if I used both my checking and savings account money. And I am slowly stashing cash at the house. I want a couple grand in green paper bills in case something in the economy goes drastically wrong - which I hope it doesn't - but it pays to be prepared. The new freezer is almost full and about to start in on the second freezer. Lacking on dry goods tho. We have some but not enough to withstand a natural or man-caused/made disaster. Not for any length of time. I also want to get a generator and have the ability to keep that freezer going if the power shuts off. And of course keep at least 10 gallons of gas around. I'm waiting for Harbor Freight or some store to have a sale on them.
But this idea of making all that money and having nothing saved for emergencies is incredible to me. I've got both my cash stash and X amount automatically being transferred into my savings account every week. Plus a very large chunk of change going into 401k every paycheck. Funny when people look at you in shock when they hear you saying things like that in response to people saying they are broke. But, the parking lot tells the story. One of them has a brand new Jeep - about a $70k version. Various brand new pickups. Make more money, spend it on more toys and more expensive houses, equals nothing in net savings. I guess cause I lived a large portion of my life in poverty that I absolutely have not tried to equal my standard of living with the current wages I'm making. I know this can go away and hell can come at me. I've treated myself here and there - new laptop, new 65 inch tv, upgraded my vehicle but far from a new one. It's 8 years old. In excellent condition, yes, but no way am I getting into new vehicle payments.
Well, unless it was one of those little tin can death trap cars. At least they get good mileage lol. Actually, if it wouldn't hurt my credit score, I'd refinance that vehicle loan right now. I could bring the payment down around $75 per month. That's a pretty good savings on a 5 year loan. But I'd be getting another credit check on my score and right now,I have a high number of them. Some of those will fall off this year, I think, I might do it after that happens.
Hmm, well I best be getting about the day. The clock never stops.
At least I got up and left when I hit my maximum loss that I set - which is usually just a whim I do whenever I enter one of those places - when I got there.
Anyway, the news is the 3rd room is finally rented in the other house. And it appears, at least, that this lady is intent on staying a while. She has a parrot and 2 dogs. The entire house now is funded by people living off the government - disability benefits. My only output here is she needs a bed. I got her one. If she stays awhile, expense worth it. If not, that thing will come over here for Addler. Actually it's a futon, but this one is really nice and a great price. Addler sleeps on a futon now. I don't bother folding it up anymore, it was falling apart doing that every morning so I decided to just leave it down in bed formation. I want to get rid of it tho and get something that is easy to fold up and put away when he isn't sleeping on it and I want it out of the way. 2 large beds in a room take up a lot of space and also doesn't give me the appearance I want for my room.
I'll be looking for something in the near future. But, I'm also really looking for a trip somewhere.
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Ugh, I was tired last night, stopped writing this and went to bed early, like 9:30 pm early.
No idea when I'm going out again, another day off would be nice but I won't turn down a run tomorrow. Goals today: haircut, get trailer registered, replace battery in Jeep, cook dinner and be ready to go if it happens that I'm going out somewhere. Like, cook a chicken fryer. Figures I'm home for no-one being around, cept' the doggies of course.
I found a local job in the endless emails I get from Indeed - I signed up for them with specific parameters - that pays $50 to $75k per year. I wouldn't be interested in the 50k junk but the 75 k would be close to what I'm making now, I'd be home every night and the ad says you only work average 48 hours per week. In the last 7 days I've put in over 70 hours. I know, people think trucking is easy. Well get behind the steering wheel of one, buttercup, drive endlessly and be away from home all the time, do that for a year and then get back to me.
The industry has very little allure to pull new drivers of whatever age into it even with excellent pay. A lot of that may have to do with the training process. You do 3 weeks of class study and parking lot maneuvers and then you get your permit and go out on the road with someone, living in a small box. 2 strangers living in a small box....for months. Until the new driver is ready. They'd have to pay me an extra $7,500 bonus to deal with that an even then I'm not sure I'd do it. First and foremost, above and beyond the concerns of living with someone like that, is the idea of having a new driver behind the wheel and no way to correct that person if they are getting themselves into a dangerous situation. Not with hazmat anyway. New drivers don't start out in the hazmat industry, thank God.
Anyway, I'm going to apply at that job today. Our company is losing drivers tho. The paychecks aren't coming for a lot of people and those people - are leaving. Even at this rate of pay, some people just don't know how to save and burn everything up as soon as it comes in. In other words, paycheck to paycheck, barely surviving financially. I don't get that but that's the way it is. I mean, some of these guys made over 100k last year and they're still broke.
At the moment I could last about 4 months without pay if I used both my checking and savings account money. And I am slowly stashing cash at the house. I want a couple grand in green paper bills in case something in the economy goes drastically wrong - which I hope it doesn't - but it pays to be prepared. The new freezer is almost full and about to start in on the second freezer. Lacking on dry goods tho. We have some but not enough to withstand a natural or man-caused/made disaster. Not for any length of time. I also want to get a generator and have the ability to keep that freezer going if the power shuts off. And of course keep at least 10 gallons of gas around. I'm waiting for Harbor Freight or some store to have a sale on them.
But this idea of making all that money and having nothing saved for emergencies is incredible to me. I've got both my cash stash and X amount automatically being transferred into my savings account every week. Plus a very large chunk of change going into 401k every paycheck. Funny when people look at you in shock when they hear you saying things like that in response to people saying they are broke. But, the parking lot tells the story. One of them has a brand new Jeep - about a $70k version. Various brand new pickups. Make more money, spend it on more toys and more expensive houses, equals nothing in net savings. I guess cause I lived a large portion of my life in poverty that I absolutely have not tried to equal my standard of living with the current wages I'm making. I know this can go away and hell can come at me. I've treated myself here and there - new laptop, new 65 inch tv, upgraded my vehicle but far from a new one. It's 8 years old. In excellent condition, yes, but no way am I getting into new vehicle payments.
Well, unless it was one of those little tin can death trap cars. At least they get good mileage lol. Actually, if it wouldn't hurt my credit score, I'd refinance that vehicle loan right now. I could bring the payment down around $75 per month. That's a pretty good savings on a 5 year loan. But I'd be getting another credit check on my score and right now,I have a high number of them. Some of those will fall off this year, I think, I might do it after that happens.
Hmm, well I best be getting about the day. The clock never stops.
Saturday, January 5, 2019
Well it's a new day.
Just trying to put myself in a more positive thinking mode.
Cause after the information from my manager yesterday, I definitely went into dark thoughts. No employer will ever be perfect, but an employer that isn't paying it's employees is definitely a problem. People are quitting and/or talking about quitting. I'm not there yet. But the fact that I couldn't access my trip pay sheets online last night was irritating. I wanted to find out what I had been paid for.
This is all due to the worst transfer of one company being shuffled over to another that I have ever seen anywhere. All kinds of stuff has happened - negative stuff, things an employer doesn't want to have happen - but the pay stuff is the deal breaker. Tho, some employees are getting paid for trips that they didn't do. It's ridiculous. The only way to keep on top of this is to see what they are paying out and what they aren't. I don't understand why they aren't getting this taken care of immediately? They stand to lose even more drivers in the midst of desperately trying to recruit new drivers? If this stuff goes on the internet - the pay situation - that isn't going lure anyone to the company and will drive anyone thinking about switching over, away.
Just a frustrating situation. Supposedly we are to "let it ride a couple of weeks, it should work itself out". That isn't particularly encouraging, either.
Anyway, per the diet, I am kicked out of ketosis lol. I guess I ate too many carbs yesterday. Must have been the marinara sauce I had with my chicken. It was low carb but admittedly I at a huge helping of it. Hopefully shouldn't take long to go back into it. I'm back at the same plateau I was at. Then again, I've lost a lot of fat, perhaps that's just the way it works when you are close to your goal weight. My arms are still somewhat sore from that workout 4 days ago. I'm not working out again until that passes. Like hopefully by the time I get back from this trip so I can do a chest workout. I'm getting serious about working out, but my body doesn't like it lol. Just have to slowly condition it back into whatever peak performance a person can get at my age. At least, if nothing else, I've at least temporarily eliminated this idea of growing old and fat. Growing old, yes, fat, hopefully the tide is turning for a healthier set of Golden years.
Speaking of age, I will pass a milestone in a month. I will turn 55. Seems surreal. Just the "other" day I was 48, and before that I was 41, etc etc etc. I dunno, but since I'm going to be officially a senior citizen, I'm going to take advantage of whatever discounts are to be found out there for us old people lmao. I dunno if joining AARP is worth it, they've been sending me brochures since I turned 50.
Well, I got back yesterday late afternoon and now preparing to leave again in a few minutes. I kind of like a full day off in between trips, but right now? I'll take whatever she'll give me cause' they're still complaining about this slowdown. She wanted to dump me with Cheniere yesterday and I just laughed. Sorry, but my training has expired, you know this. She just said, oh darn. You literally cannot get into that plant unless you have a current safety training card. You can take a load of chemicals down there and beg and plead and they'll just smile and tell ya no. I don't miss the place, I haven't been in there in quite a while and it will not hurt my feelings if I don't have to go back again for a long, long time.
Well, see ya on the flip side!
Just trying to put myself in a more positive thinking mode.
Cause after the information from my manager yesterday, I definitely went into dark thoughts. No employer will ever be perfect, but an employer that isn't paying it's employees is definitely a problem. People are quitting and/or talking about quitting. I'm not there yet. But the fact that I couldn't access my trip pay sheets online last night was irritating. I wanted to find out what I had been paid for.
This is all due to the worst transfer of one company being shuffled over to another that I have ever seen anywhere. All kinds of stuff has happened - negative stuff, things an employer doesn't want to have happen - but the pay stuff is the deal breaker. Tho, some employees are getting paid for trips that they didn't do. It's ridiculous. The only way to keep on top of this is to see what they are paying out and what they aren't. I don't understand why they aren't getting this taken care of immediately? They stand to lose even more drivers in the midst of desperately trying to recruit new drivers? If this stuff goes on the internet - the pay situation - that isn't going lure anyone to the company and will drive anyone thinking about switching over, away.
Just a frustrating situation. Supposedly we are to "let it ride a couple of weeks, it should work itself out". That isn't particularly encouraging, either.
Anyway, per the diet, I am kicked out of ketosis lol. I guess I ate too many carbs yesterday. Must have been the marinara sauce I had with my chicken. It was low carb but admittedly I at a huge helping of it. Hopefully shouldn't take long to go back into it. I'm back at the same plateau I was at. Then again, I've lost a lot of fat, perhaps that's just the way it works when you are close to your goal weight. My arms are still somewhat sore from that workout 4 days ago. I'm not working out again until that passes. Like hopefully by the time I get back from this trip so I can do a chest workout. I'm getting serious about working out, but my body doesn't like it lol. Just have to slowly condition it back into whatever peak performance a person can get at my age. At least, if nothing else, I've at least temporarily eliminated this idea of growing old and fat. Growing old, yes, fat, hopefully the tide is turning for a healthier set of Golden years.
Speaking of age, I will pass a milestone in a month. I will turn 55. Seems surreal. Just the "other" day I was 48, and before that I was 41, etc etc etc. I dunno, but since I'm going to be officially a senior citizen, I'm going to take advantage of whatever discounts are to be found out there for us old people lmao. I dunno if joining AARP is worth it, they've been sending me brochures since I turned 50.
Well, I got back yesterday late afternoon and now preparing to leave again in a few minutes. I kind of like a full day off in between trips, but right now? I'll take whatever she'll give me cause' they're still complaining about this slowdown. She wanted to dump me with Cheniere yesterday and I just laughed. Sorry, but my training has expired, you know this. She just said, oh darn. You literally cannot get into that plant unless you have a current safety training card. You can take a load of chemicals down there and beg and plead and they'll just smile and tell ya no. I don't miss the place, I haven't been in there in quite a while and it will not hurt my feelings if I don't have to go back again for a long, long time.
Well, see ya on the flip side!
Friday, January 4, 2019
First and foremost on my mind.
Started at 9:30 am when my son called me. They were about to take him in for the surgery.
He was nervous. Dad, I looked up this stuff on the internet and people can die from the stuff they use to put you under.
Wow, ok, he's thinking he's going to die on the operation table. I reassured him: that hardly ever happens. This is in God's hands, you are going to come out of this alive and well! I was on the road, somewhere in northern Arkansas. I'm sure I would have some nerves going into an operation too. I reassured him the best I could, we "hugged" over the phone, told each we love you and that was that.
I prayed after that. My thoughts went to the Lord. And asking Him to intervene, to give Caleb peace and to guide the doctors. As bad as the injury is, tho, this isn't anything difficult for specialists. They do this every day. They know what they're doing and they do a good job at it, usually anyway. But they told him he would likely have wrist problems the rest of his life.
It's motivated me to find out who did this, why they didn't stop and yes, make them pay. I'm going to be contacting some private investigators and see if they can say whether they can find this person or not. From what I was hearing, the police weren't especially motivated to find whoever committed this crime. Hit and run, injuries? Definitely a crime. I'll be working on that next week.
Well, I drove all the way back to the yard, spent an hour and a half there with the mechanic and doing paperwork, drove to some stores and went home before I heard anything. That's when my mom forwarded me a communique from Caleb's wife, he's fine. It was a pretty short thing. Well, I'm over at the other house. A new person moved in with 2 dogs and they didn't want to introduce the dogs without me being there. Neither of them would be capable of stopping a dog fight if it occurred. I've stopped a large number of vicious dog fights throughout my life, it's not that hard. You pull the dog on top off and get in the middle of it. Or, in certain situations, you pull the top dog off and pull back away from the other dog with the top dog collar in your hand and pulling him away at the same time.
Whatever the case, my phone rang, the screen showed Caleb. I answered the phone. My son? High as a kite. Slightly slurred speech but going off into ridiculous, hilarious tangents. I was cracking up.
My wife has nice calves! he opined without asking. Did you know that crackers are good when you are down? I mean, this went on for 20 minutes, the Caleb Entertainment Hour. I've never heard him like that, I wish I could have recorded it. The surgery is over with, the damage is as fixed as they are going to get it, I imagine there is going to be therapy visits. That phone call set my heart straight. I was totally relieved. I don't know what kind of hardship he might endure from this ordeal, but he's going to be alright.
Umm, anyway, the truck? Yup. all those same old idiot lights came up, the same s*** I've been dealing with forever. But this time, those lights were actually on when I came into the yard. So, I found the mechanic, working on a trailer with another much more tenured driver. In fact, I think he's been there the longest. A really delightful person, he always has a good attitude. If someone comes at him with crap, he just smiles and shines light back at them. We chatted for a while. The trailer? A brand new one, already having a problem with the lights and shorting out.
But my turn finally came, I wanted this mechanic to look at these lights - just some proof that I'm not making this stuff up considering this truck has been in the shop 4 times for this problem. Well lookit there, he actually had the $10k software to diagnose problems. Amazing. So he got into the codes and the huge numbers of pages that showed up was unbelievable. After 30 minutes of going through stuff, he informed me that it would take a full day - at least - of doing nothing but going through each of those procedures to finish all of that.
Whatever. Not my job lol. But he's not doing it now.
Cause when I went in to turn in the paperwork, my manager informed me I am going back out again - tomorrow. This is a shorter run tho, thankfully, I'd like a day or two off right now. It's a run to Barnsdall. The run used to have me going to a bowling alley parking lot for the night and enjoying fine Mexican food at a restaurant and sometimes bowling. A few times staying at the hotel next door. But now, this is a drop and hook run. Get up there, drop the trailer and hook up to an empty. I can get 2/3rds of the way back.
IN fact, if I'm lucky, I can get back to the casino just at the Oklahoma/Texas border and maybe win some more money? Or just keep driving as long as I can before I have to find a place to stop. But it's only like 2 hours from the casino back to the yard. Who knows, I'll figure that out tomorrow, I just have the Jackblack bug in me.
Oh, this last run. Didn't post anything about that. Well, I got to the plant to load the trailer on time, but I sat on the scale for 45 minutes waiting for anyone to show up and weigh the thing so I could go to the rack. I ended up at the plant 3 hours. That pretty much kills any idea of getting to where I normally would on this particular run. Worse, I had awakened at 1:30 am for whatever reason and never got back to sleep. So I drove all day on 4 hours sleep. There is a truckstop that the app I use never had on there before. There's a corridor south of St Louis where I can stop, but most of the stuff is already full when I get there.
Not this little gem. It's off the beaten track. It's only a mile off the Interstate but it's nothing you would just "find". I found myself a place to park and an extra added bonus: a grill/bar next door. It was 24 degrees when I got there lol. Next morning, up to the plant, no detention. I was hoping for a free stay at a motel and get some sleep. But, no problem. The head honcho guy there and I always yak it up. He's big time into smoking meats and I learn a lot from him.
For example, my disasters with smoking brisket. Yeah, that's a cut of beef that you actually go WAY higher than what you would think for say, a beef roast. I pulled that Prime Rib roast out at 130 degrees on the last one and it was perfect! I never imagined a cut of beef that you need to heat up internally to - 195 degrees? My mind goes to stiff leather. Like, the roast coming out looking like a piece of charcoal? Inedible? Turns out, that's what actually gets the toughness of the meat to collapse and turn nicely tender and juicy.
Guess what I'm doing when I get a day off? And Kroger's has it on sale. It's not cheap even on sale but it's oh so wonderfully nice cut of beef! I'll be back - I hope - from this trip on Sunday late morning. My guess anyway. Nope, I'm wrong. I have the 3rd load so I probably won't be back until early afternoon on Sunday.
I'm a little busier than I'd like to be. Trying to find a tenant for the other house was a huge headache. Just a small market out here and lots of rooms available vying in contention. I lowered the price and got what I needed. I'll be eating maybe $100 per month, maybe a bit more in these cold months for gas heating consumption, but that's fine. And likely more like $50 to $75 during summer months. But I'm looking to change this situation after this lease is up coming April and make it a zero sum game. No output on my part, people paying to live in a place at a reasonable price and be done with it.
It would be far easier, however, to deal with the current place and either have them lower the price of the rent, or upgrade the insulation in the house, or upgrade the AC unit. Anyway about it the house is not large and isn't worth as much as they're charging in this market. I took it to deal with a deadline. I shouldn't have tho. Other houses were available but they were being picky. We could have a 4 bedroom house right now at less rent. It is what it is, but this situation will have to change. I'm not into losing money at all. There is an exchange of Rene watching my dogs in payment for the rest of the utilities that are unpaid for, but in reality, she loves the dogs as much as I do and misses them greatly when I take them home. It's just been tough to keep get that 3rd renter and the rooms aren't exactly large in that place.
March, I will be looking for houses that have a rent-to-own option, or as house with owner financing - and still wanting to get into this auction business of homes and land. I figure something will work out to make this a cash-free proposition for me.
Ugh, well anyway it's starting to get late and I need to get some other stuff done.
Started at 9:30 am when my son called me. They were about to take him in for the surgery.
He was nervous. Dad, I looked up this stuff on the internet and people can die from the stuff they use to put you under.
Wow, ok, he's thinking he's going to die on the operation table. I reassured him: that hardly ever happens. This is in God's hands, you are going to come out of this alive and well! I was on the road, somewhere in northern Arkansas. I'm sure I would have some nerves going into an operation too. I reassured him the best I could, we "hugged" over the phone, told each we love you and that was that.
I prayed after that. My thoughts went to the Lord. And asking Him to intervene, to give Caleb peace and to guide the doctors. As bad as the injury is, tho, this isn't anything difficult for specialists. They do this every day. They know what they're doing and they do a good job at it, usually anyway. But they told him he would likely have wrist problems the rest of his life.
It's motivated me to find out who did this, why they didn't stop and yes, make them pay. I'm going to be contacting some private investigators and see if they can say whether they can find this person or not. From what I was hearing, the police weren't especially motivated to find whoever committed this crime. Hit and run, injuries? Definitely a crime. I'll be working on that next week.
Well, I drove all the way back to the yard, spent an hour and a half there with the mechanic and doing paperwork, drove to some stores and went home before I heard anything. That's when my mom forwarded me a communique from Caleb's wife, he's fine. It was a pretty short thing. Well, I'm over at the other house. A new person moved in with 2 dogs and they didn't want to introduce the dogs without me being there. Neither of them would be capable of stopping a dog fight if it occurred. I've stopped a large number of vicious dog fights throughout my life, it's not that hard. You pull the dog on top off and get in the middle of it. Or, in certain situations, you pull the top dog off and pull back away from the other dog with the top dog collar in your hand and pulling him away at the same time.
Whatever the case, my phone rang, the screen showed Caleb. I answered the phone. My son? High as a kite. Slightly slurred speech but going off into ridiculous, hilarious tangents. I was cracking up.
My wife has nice calves! he opined without asking. Did you know that crackers are good when you are down? I mean, this went on for 20 minutes, the Caleb Entertainment Hour. I've never heard him like that, I wish I could have recorded it. The surgery is over with, the damage is as fixed as they are going to get it, I imagine there is going to be therapy visits. That phone call set my heart straight. I was totally relieved. I don't know what kind of hardship he might endure from this ordeal, but he's going to be alright.
Umm, anyway, the truck? Yup. all those same old idiot lights came up, the same s*** I've been dealing with forever. But this time, those lights were actually on when I came into the yard. So, I found the mechanic, working on a trailer with another much more tenured driver. In fact, I think he's been there the longest. A really delightful person, he always has a good attitude. If someone comes at him with crap, he just smiles and shines light back at them. We chatted for a while. The trailer? A brand new one, already having a problem with the lights and shorting out.
But my turn finally came, I wanted this mechanic to look at these lights - just some proof that I'm not making this stuff up considering this truck has been in the shop 4 times for this problem. Well lookit there, he actually had the $10k software to diagnose problems. Amazing. So he got into the codes and the huge numbers of pages that showed up was unbelievable. After 30 minutes of going through stuff, he informed me that it would take a full day - at least - of doing nothing but going through each of those procedures to finish all of that.
Whatever. Not my job lol. But he's not doing it now.
Cause when I went in to turn in the paperwork, my manager informed me I am going back out again - tomorrow. This is a shorter run tho, thankfully, I'd like a day or two off right now. It's a run to Barnsdall. The run used to have me going to a bowling alley parking lot for the night and enjoying fine Mexican food at a restaurant and sometimes bowling. A few times staying at the hotel next door. But now, this is a drop and hook run. Get up there, drop the trailer and hook up to an empty. I can get 2/3rds of the way back.
IN fact, if I'm lucky, I can get back to the casino just at the Oklahoma/Texas border and maybe win some more money? Or just keep driving as long as I can before I have to find a place to stop. But it's only like 2 hours from the casino back to the yard. Who knows, I'll figure that out tomorrow, I just have the Jackblack bug in me.
Oh, this last run. Didn't post anything about that. Well, I got to the plant to load the trailer on time, but I sat on the scale for 45 minutes waiting for anyone to show up and weigh the thing so I could go to the rack. I ended up at the plant 3 hours. That pretty much kills any idea of getting to where I normally would on this particular run. Worse, I had awakened at 1:30 am for whatever reason and never got back to sleep. So I drove all day on 4 hours sleep. There is a truckstop that the app I use never had on there before. There's a corridor south of St Louis where I can stop, but most of the stuff is already full when I get there.
Not this little gem. It's off the beaten track. It's only a mile off the Interstate but it's nothing you would just "find". I found myself a place to park and an extra added bonus: a grill/bar next door. It was 24 degrees when I got there lol. Next morning, up to the plant, no detention. I was hoping for a free stay at a motel and get some sleep. But, no problem. The head honcho guy there and I always yak it up. He's big time into smoking meats and I learn a lot from him.
For example, my disasters with smoking brisket. Yeah, that's a cut of beef that you actually go WAY higher than what you would think for say, a beef roast. I pulled that Prime Rib roast out at 130 degrees on the last one and it was perfect! I never imagined a cut of beef that you need to heat up internally to - 195 degrees? My mind goes to stiff leather. Like, the roast coming out looking like a piece of charcoal? Inedible? Turns out, that's what actually gets the toughness of the meat to collapse and turn nicely tender and juicy.
Guess what I'm doing when I get a day off? And Kroger's has it on sale. It's not cheap even on sale but it's oh so wonderfully nice cut of beef! I'll be back - I hope - from this trip on Sunday late morning. My guess anyway. Nope, I'm wrong. I have the 3rd load so I probably won't be back until early afternoon on Sunday.
I'm a little busier than I'd like to be. Trying to find a tenant for the other house was a huge headache. Just a small market out here and lots of rooms available vying in contention. I lowered the price and got what I needed. I'll be eating maybe $100 per month, maybe a bit more in these cold months for gas heating consumption, but that's fine. And likely more like $50 to $75 during summer months. But I'm looking to change this situation after this lease is up coming April and make it a zero sum game. No output on my part, people paying to live in a place at a reasonable price and be done with it.
It would be far easier, however, to deal with the current place and either have them lower the price of the rent, or upgrade the insulation in the house, or upgrade the AC unit. Anyway about it the house is not large and isn't worth as much as they're charging in this market. I took it to deal with a deadline. I shouldn't have tho. Other houses were available but they were being picky. We could have a 4 bedroom house right now at less rent. It is what it is, but this situation will have to change. I'm not into losing money at all. There is an exchange of Rene watching my dogs in payment for the rest of the utilities that are unpaid for, but in reality, she loves the dogs as much as I do and misses them greatly when I take them home. It's just been tough to keep get that 3rd renter and the rooms aren't exactly large in that place.
March, I will be looking for houses that have a rent-to-own option, or as house with owner financing - and still wanting to get into this auction business of homes and land. I figure something will work out to make this a cash-free proposition for me.
Ugh, well anyway it's starting to get late and I need to get some other stuff done.
Tuesday, January 1, 2019
Happy New Years!
Happy New Year!
2018 was a very strange time, politically speaking. But as weird and outrageous as some of all of that was, 2019 presents itself to be far more entertaining in the political world. Or frustrating depending on how you look at it. But I find the current government shutdown to be highly entertaining. It's a poker game, who is going to fold first? Or who will ante up? Supposedly both sides have their offers out on the table, but neither side is budging and now we await the new House to be sworn in.
Beyond that, you have Pelosi promising endless investigations and Schumer acting like a petulant child in a nursery day care center. He accuses Trump of throwing a temper tantrum, but from all appeearances to me? He's the one looking pretty stupid right now. Anyway, I'm guessing this coming year, in that context? We will have never seen anything like it before. Strap yourselves in, take it in stride, the nation isn't going to collapse, fall off the earth or just "go away" because of these idiots running our nation.
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Okay, a house full of people. James mom and grandparents came own and brought a 4x4 pickup in excellent condition for him. Sitting in their garage, not doing anything. It has less than 30k miles on it and although they aren't flat out giving it to him, for 10k, that's an excellent deal. I mean, at a car lot I would imagine a truck in that good of a condition and especially a 4x4 to go for twice that, even if the thing is 10 years old. In these parts, pickups retain a lot of their value. It really isn't a good place to buy used anything, but especially trucks.
Anyway, there are 3 extra adults here, an extra child and an extra, unfriendly, non-socialized dog. I've had to keep Addler and Aspyn apart from it My dogs have no fear of it, in fact, Aspyn snapped at it pretty good when it got into Aspyn's face. That was king of the - well we're going to have to separate them - moment. Not sure why they brought that dog. But it's whatever. It's been nice talking with all of them. They have let down their guards quite a lot since the last time I saw them. I don't really mean with me, just with family fighting with family.
I think they were hoping I would be out of here when they came, but I can't say I am complaining about being home for New Year's Eve and New Year's Day. Hey, I worked on Christmas. My Christmas was spent in a hotel with literally nothing open - no restaurants, nothing, in the area and the hotels were ghost towns themselves. I'm not complaining, I had dinner I brought with me in suspecting that that would be the case. I made the best of it.
Tomorrow morning, early, I'm going out again. Back up to Mapleton, Illinois. That's the place where there's at least a 50% chance that I will get some detention time, which I would really love right now. I always hope for it but prepare my mind to have to turn right back around and head back home. Either way will work, but a boost in a paycheck would help. Not to mention my shorted "paycheck" which only had a $75 bonus on it, that problem I have heard nothing back about. Likely has to do with switching companies. Every driver is complaining about it. Numerous drivers are talking about switching companies. Some drivers are saying they are definitely going to find a new place to work.
mind to have to turn right back around and head back home. Either way will work, but a boost in a paycheck would help. Not to mention my shorted "paycheck" which only had a $75 bonus on it, that problem I have heard nothing back about. Likely has to do with switching companies. Every driver is complaining about it. Numerous drivers are talking about switching companies. Some drivers are saying they are definitely going to find a new place to work.
I'm just sitting this one out. Besides a shorted paycheck which I will get, one way or the other, I'm still making good money. The other drivers are complaining about the 'lowest" paychecks they have ever seen, but excepting for time off, I haven't really noticed that. Note that my manager never did put those vacation hours on the check that I wanted them on. So I have full vacation hours.
I'm just sitting this one out. Besides a shorted paycheck which I will get, one way or the other, I'm still making good money. The other drivers are complaining about the 'lowest" paychecks they have ever seen, but excepting for time off, I haven't really noticed that. Note that my manager never did put those vacation hours on the check that I wanted them on. So I have full vacation hours. And I come to find out the reason it was better to wait until I had been there a full year is how vacation hour pay is calculated. I will get much more per hour than what I would have received doing it before the full year up. As per getting my own truck, that's going to sit on a shelf for awhile til' I see what happens at work.
I finally started working out today. We have close to the full weight set and bench and everything we need, I didn't want to wait any longer. This is not a New Year's resolution. I've all but given up on that stuff and haven't made any to myself, God or anyone else. It's just not worth it. You fail, you feel bad, you resolve not to make any more resolutions, so my previous resolution fulfilled. I hope to work out at least 3 times a week, but 2 will work. Just muscle building. You don't have to do that every day to see results.
I've been going over calories on my diet, but I still remain on the Keto diet. I was down to 203 and now it's up to 205. I'll get serious about it after today. We're having a New Year's feast, tho much of what they are going to be serving I can't eat anyway. I smoked a Prime Rib roast yesterday and it turned out perfect. I kept checking the internal temperature - I hate when I miss the goal and end up going way over. Then the meat isn't rare and that's a waste of a good rib roast. I got that sucker pulled out of it at 130 degrees, let is rest for 20 minutes and it was hot, tender, juicy and nicely rare. The thing is, once the internal temperature hits the 115 range - it goes up quickly after that. It's easy to miss your target temperature. I need one of those fancy remote setups that you put a probe into the roast and it sends the temperature constantly to the remote. That way you don'e have to keep checking the temp and you don't have to keep opening the door, letting out the heat.
My travel aspirations remain unchanged. I've started yet a separate travel fund, apart from 401k, automatic bank withdrawals into a savings account. That is going to be an emergency fund. I want at least 20k in it, it will take a while to reach that goal. But I don't want to deplete from the fund for travel. As long as I can keep working like I have been for the past couple weeks, my paychecks will reflect what I need them to to be able to do all that saving and still pay the bills and such.
I'm resting today. Besides the workout, I am just going to take it easy. Get my stuff ready to go, yes, for tomorrow considering it's the first load. Check my credit cards since it's the first. A few I have balances on to pay down to zero. But I always check all of them anyway.
With that, I think I'll end this one.
Sunday, December 30, 2018
The start of (at least) 2 days off. 3 would be nice at this point. But not 4. I'm really down for 3 days off. Anyway, I have no motivation to do anything so - I'm not. Besides a trip to the store and take an inhaler up to Taylor at her second job and help james move his Harley, well and a few other things, I haven't done anything.
But saying all of that, I guess I have lol.
I wanted to sleep in this morning, but a screaming child nixed that at 7:00 am. I wanted to take an extra long hot shower, little did I know someone was running laundry and someone else had just taken a long, hot shower. I just figured this was going to be a nothing day after that.
The tornado that came close (a mile away) caused winds here that did some amount of damage. They said there was a whistling sound outside as the tornado hit. It's the only thing about this region I really don't like - tornadoes. Every year they hit around here. I don't think one has come this close tho since I've lived here. There's a season for them and when that season comes, off we go!
Diet: My plateau has apparently ended. Down 3 pounds in the last week. I'm so close to 199 I can taste it. My goal is in the 180's, but hitting the 199 mark would be a celebratory deal for me. I'm sticking with this diet for now. I've been on it for quite a while and it's done wonders. And, we have a weight bench now, just need to locate weights and bars for it. I'm trying to find someone selling their set versus buying them new. People get rid of that stuff and sell it a lot cheaper than the cost of new stuff.
And for my paycheck. Besides the fact that I was shorted all of my trips that I made, I couldn't understand what the $61.02 was for. What on earth do we do that gets that small amount of money? Turns out it's a $75 bonus for getting through a roadside inspection by a State Trooper without any write-ups. Well that's not bad considering it was maybe 30 minutes spent.
However, besides my manager acknowledging the trips I had to get to her to prove that I was shorted, I have no idea when I'm getting this money? Shouldn't an employer ante up immediately when they screw up like this? If I were broke I'd be all over it. If I don't get it next paycheck I'll be asking for a name and phone number of whoever is in charge of payroll. But I will get it dealt with next paycheck if it's not on there. Which means next paycheck should be incredibly huge. Well, I will be rocking the boat if it's not in there, that's what I will say about that.
Texas actually has a law about getting paid - on payday. "Texas Payday Law". No less than 2 paychecks per month.
Just interesting that after I supplied this information to my manager, she did not reply. I had to text her again to confirm that she had received it? And then no word on what was being done about it?
On another note, after 2 plus months of being on this diet, I caved and had 2 very small slivers of Taylor's birthday cake. I dunno if it will kick me out of ketosis, but if it does I'll go right back in, I believe, cause it wasn't a huge carb overflow. Tho I have to say the icing tasted like pure sugar. Again, I only had 2 very small slivers. Who knows. It's actually something I really need to understand, cause' I read about people cheating on this diet once a week and they claim they are still losing weight.
But it's the internet. There is no way to verify that information. In a while, I'll test on a strip and see if I was kicked out of ketosis and then, if I was, how long it will take to get back into it. Many say a good long fast will deal with it. I mean, if it takes 2 weeks to get back into ketosis, I'll regret it. If it takes a couple days, probably not. If it's back tomorrow, definitely not. I've been very tempted to go in an all out day where I just eat whatever I want - which would be a large Dairy Queen Blizzard and mounds of potatoes and probably a plate of spaghetti thrown in.
Just the little of issue of ketosis. It took a while to get into it. I've been in it steadily the entire time. Just a few day where it showed weak, but still there.
Well okay. I couldn't wait any longer. I'm in mild ketosis. That's good. That means an 18 hour fast should throw me back into it.
Meanwhile, I'm smoking - I think I will anyway - one of the rib roasts tomorrow. I'll have the day off, no one will be home. Oh, I take that back, the inlaws are here, I assume the kids will be too. But they won't go out back. Make a nice fire in the pit, get the smoker fired up. Maybe do some things, I dunno. The tornado took the cover completely off of the greenhouse. Amazing. That thing was on there tight. They didn't take any videos of it. Then again, they were crowded in my bathroom shower stall, so I get why they didn't get video.
Okay. Offa here.
But saying all of that, I guess I have lol.
I wanted to sleep in this morning, but a screaming child nixed that at 7:00 am. I wanted to take an extra long hot shower, little did I know someone was running laundry and someone else had just taken a long, hot shower. I just figured this was going to be a nothing day after that.
The tornado that came close (a mile away) caused winds here that did some amount of damage. They said there was a whistling sound outside as the tornado hit. It's the only thing about this region I really don't like - tornadoes. Every year they hit around here. I don't think one has come this close tho since I've lived here. There's a season for them and when that season comes, off we go!
Diet: My plateau has apparently ended. Down 3 pounds in the last week. I'm so close to 199 I can taste it. My goal is in the 180's, but hitting the 199 mark would be a celebratory deal for me. I'm sticking with this diet for now. I've been on it for quite a while and it's done wonders. And, we have a weight bench now, just need to locate weights and bars for it. I'm trying to find someone selling their set versus buying them new. People get rid of that stuff and sell it a lot cheaper than the cost of new stuff.
And for my paycheck. Besides the fact that I was shorted all of my trips that I made, I couldn't understand what the $61.02 was for. What on earth do we do that gets that small amount of money? Turns out it's a $75 bonus for getting through a roadside inspection by a State Trooper without any write-ups. Well that's not bad considering it was maybe 30 minutes spent.
However, besides my manager acknowledging the trips I had to get to her to prove that I was shorted, I have no idea when I'm getting this money? Shouldn't an employer ante up immediately when they screw up like this? If I were broke I'd be all over it. If I don't get it next paycheck I'll be asking for a name and phone number of whoever is in charge of payroll. But I will get it dealt with next paycheck if it's not on there. Which means next paycheck should be incredibly huge. Well, I will be rocking the boat if it's not in there, that's what I will say about that.
Texas actually has a law about getting paid - on payday. "Texas Payday Law". No less than 2 paychecks per month.
Just interesting that after I supplied this information to my manager, she did not reply. I had to text her again to confirm that she had received it? And then no word on what was being done about it?
On another note, after 2 plus months of being on this diet, I caved and had 2 very small slivers of Taylor's birthday cake. I dunno if it will kick me out of ketosis, but if it does I'll go right back in, I believe, cause it wasn't a huge carb overflow. Tho I have to say the icing tasted like pure sugar. Again, I only had 2 very small slivers. Who knows. It's actually something I really need to understand, cause' I read about people cheating on this diet once a week and they claim they are still losing weight.
But it's the internet. There is no way to verify that information. In a while, I'll test on a strip and see if I was kicked out of ketosis and then, if I was, how long it will take to get back into it. Many say a good long fast will deal with it. I mean, if it takes 2 weeks to get back into ketosis, I'll regret it. If it takes a couple days, probably not. If it's back tomorrow, definitely not. I've been very tempted to go in an all out day where I just eat whatever I want - which would be a large Dairy Queen Blizzard and mounds of potatoes and probably a plate of spaghetti thrown in.
Just the little of issue of ketosis. It took a while to get into it. I've been in it steadily the entire time. Just a few day where it showed weak, but still there.
Well okay. I couldn't wait any longer. I'm in mild ketosis. That's good. That means an 18 hour fast should throw me back into it.
Meanwhile, I'm smoking - I think I will anyway - one of the rib roasts tomorrow. I'll have the day off, no one will be home. Oh, I take that back, the inlaws are here, I assume the kids will be too. But they won't go out back. Make a nice fire in the pit, get the smoker fired up. Maybe do some things, I dunno. The tornado took the cover completely off of the greenhouse. Amazing. That thing was on there tight. They didn't take any videos of it. Then again, they were crowded in my bathroom shower stall, so I get why they didn't get video.
Okay. Offa here.
Saturday, December 29, 2018
Brownsville.
No detention this time.
Tho the trailer that is here is damaged. Either Something backed into something or another vehicle ran into it. Either way, obviously unreported damage so I took pics and sent them to my manager with my normal disclaimer of "Sorry to bother you, but I"m sending these now because I'm not taking responsibility for someone else's screwup". And I'm not taking responsibility for someone else's shit. It probably happened in Mexico and they get away with this nonsense.
In fact, every trailer I've pulled out of here for the last several times has had some kind of issue with it. I'm not sure what I'm going to do about this one. The light is busted, the lense torn off - but - it still works. I think FMCSA only requires them to work, they aren't going to care how it looks.
I dunno, but I do careful, slow walkarounds on these trailers. It's ridiculous to even have to do it to the degree I do it, but I'm not going to drive something that isn't roadworthy or won't pass a DOT inspection.
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That was last night. I'm actually home now lol.
House full of people. Inlaws here - not my inlaws as I have none at this point but there are 3 extra people.. I'm sure they were hoping I was going to be on the road and I can't say that I wouldn't mind being out there right now. I drove the day out and could do it again tomorrow. The only thing that I usually start missing is my doggies. Other than that, I could probably live out there.
The stuff my mom said to me several days ago is really messing with my head. It was very subtle, but it was, I think, an internal thing with her reaching out. I have seen some things on her Facebook wall, just never connected it. Mama is not going to spend her days in an assisted living center if she doesn't want to. She'll have to make some concessions. She lives alone. I don't live alone, but by design. She likes her privacy. So do I, but that doesn't mean I can't live with other people.
I'm really just thinking about an appropriately worded statement to her.
I'm very perplexed with this situation.
It's not so strange that your parents in their winter years need help. It's just the way that this is coming about.
I dunno what to say. The dynamics of this. Nothing being forced at that moment, she's thinking about the days coming and .....
Really, this is bothering me. Just because I'm living with friends and there isn't anyplace to put her up here even if it came to that.
I could go on - and on - and on about this. And will, but not in one single post. My mom is so independent.
Well it's late. Time to go to bed.
No detention this time.
Tho the trailer that is here is damaged. Either Something backed into something or another vehicle ran into it. Either way, obviously unreported damage so I took pics and sent them to my manager with my normal disclaimer of "Sorry to bother you, but I"m sending these now because I'm not taking responsibility for someone else's screwup". And I'm not taking responsibility for someone else's shit. It probably happened in Mexico and they get away with this nonsense.
In fact, every trailer I've pulled out of here for the last several times has had some kind of issue with it. I'm not sure what I'm going to do about this one. The light is busted, the lense torn off - but - it still works. I think FMCSA only requires them to work, they aren't going to care how it looks.
I dunno, but I do careful, slow walkarounds on these trailers. It's ridiculous to even have to do it to the degree I do it, but I'm not going to drive something that isn't roadworthy or won't pass a DOT inspection.
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That was last night. I'm actually home now lol.
House full of people. Inlaws here - not my inlaws as I have none at this point but there are 3 extra people.. I'm sure they were hoping I was going to be on the road and I can't say that I wouldn't mind being out there right now. I drove the day out and could do it again tomorrow. The only thing that I usually start missing is my doggies. Other than that, I could probably live out there.
The stuff my mom said to me several days ago is really messing with my head. It was very subtle, but it was, I think, an internal thing with her reaching out. I have seen some things on her Facebook wall, just never connected it. Mama is not going to spend her days in an assisted living center if she doesn't want to. She'll have to make some concessions. She lives alone. I don't live alone, but by design. She likes her privacy. So do I, but that doesn't mean I can't live with other people.
I'm really just thinking about an appropriately worded statement to her.
I'm very perplexed with this situation.
It's not so strange that your parents in their winter years need help. It's just the way that this is coming about.
I dunno what to say. The dynamics of this. Nothing being forced at that moment, she's thinking about the days coming and .....
Really, this is bothering me. Just because I'm living with friends and there isn't anyplace to put her up here even if it came to that.
I could go on - and on - and on about this. And will, but not in one single post. My mom is so independent.
Well it's late. Time to go to bed.
Friday, December 28, 2018
Lol.
Yesterday.
I got out of the hotel, decided on a particular area of Interstate where I would stop for the night.
I look on an app, what's available. It shows the truck stops, but it shows much more than that.
Well, I figured on a Love's truck stop on the Arkansas border - tho not set in stone. That one gets filled up. No parking spaces. I had several other alternate locations, I just thought I'd figure it out when I got closer. I mean, I was 580 miles off when I started thinking about that. You really have to look in advance nowadays. When Elogs were forced upon us, truckstop parking lots starting filling up at 7:00 pm.
The day dragged on, I have things to keep my mind busy while I'm driving, because it gets very boring. Excepting for today tho. I was intentionally run off the road by a FedEx truck who - no known reason. Well I guess I didn't slow down to let him pass? On an Interstate Highway? With a passing lane? I went full blown Fedex on that one. In fact, that video will gain traction. You can't run another truck off the road because why?
Well anyway, I was near the end of the day - end of the day means I"m almost out of driving hours - 11 of them - and I see this billboard. Whatever the name of the casino and "truckers welcome". Hey, I'ma trucker! and I love blackjack. I've been up and down this 75 mile stretch of highway and never saw that billboard.
It sounded like fun! After being in a town on Christmas with nothing open, no restaurants, no socialism, I was ready to engage. Getting off the Interstate? 5 miles to the casino? Dang, I wasn't prepared for that. I don't ever go more than a quarter mile to find a place to park. But this wasn't about parking, I love blackjack. So went on down the road and the road? Ended 5 miles later at the casino.
What I didn't understand is the road ends because the Mississippi river? Yeah, that's what's there. Well there were already about 10 trucks there - room for 50 more - I pulled up, did my paperwork and then a courtesy shuttle showed up. I didn't order a courtesy shuttle and neither did I know I was at the Mississippi River and neither did I know I would end up on a boat to play blackjack. Not unusual, Shreveport has boats on the Red River.
I shut off my truck - hey, can you give me a couple of minutes? I need to finish my paperwork - there wasn't a line of cars or trucks coming in there - he said sure, I have nothing else to do. The driver was the person that informed me that I was going to a boat and that the state has it mandated that casinos must be on the water. Well, I tipped him, might as well, I have this idea that tipping is the way to winning, start the good vibes, walked in there and walked down this long, enclosed corridor.
At least 100 feet long, probably more. I get in the entrance, looking around for tables. Blackjack tables to be exact. Nothing but thieving slot machines. I won't put a penny into those things. If they don't have Blackjack, I won't play anything. It's the only thing I will gamble on at a casino. It's more likely to win me money - and have a good time doing it - than anything else there. Yes, I do go in with the idea of winning money, but it's on the level of $200 to $500, not thousands or getting rich.
Second room - I found an ATM. I didn't have much cash on me, I won't sit down at a table with at least $150 on me. It's psychological thing. I won't lose more than $200 before getting up and walking out, either. If I hit $200 loss, I'm gone.
Then, going around, looking for a table. 3 blackjack tables, all full with people standing around them. I just stood there like a fox looking at prey and waited. I'll get my chance, I thought, and I'm going to win tonight, not lose. After 20 minutes, a man got up off the table on the either side - 3rd base at that - and I rushed over to fill that seat. Google "Blackjack 3rd base" if you want to understand that. It basically means you can win or lose for not only yourself, but the entire table. In many instances, it's very true. A sucky 3rd base player will cause players that have a clue to get up and walk to another table.
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And got caught up in a bit of a scuff with Rene - once again. Blowing up my text messages with this dude that's living over there and..issues.
Anyway, I played that table for about 2 hours. I was up $400 at one point - not including tips with house money to the dealer for the good hands - and walked out of there with $250. Spent the night in their parking lot, drove back to the yard - yesterday as of now - and here I am, 5:00 am, getting ready to go back out again. I requested it.
Well now. I just checked my bank account. $61? I should have had near a lot more than that with 2 runs on that check. We're on weekly pay now, there's 2 runs that should have shown up on this pay period.
Have to deal with that later, about last track of time here. Time go!
Yesterday.
I got out of the hotel, decided on a particular area of Interstate where I would stop for the night.
I look on an app, what's available. It shows the truck stops, but it shows much more than that.
Well, I figured on a Love's truck stop on the Arkansas border - tho not set in stone. That one gets filled up. No parking spaces. I had several other alternate locations, I just thought I'd figure it out when I got closer. I mean, I was 580 miles off when I started thinking about that. You really have to look in advance nowadays. When Elogs were forced upon us, truckstop parking lots starting filling up at 7:00 pm.
The day dragged on, I have things to keep my mind busy while I'm driving, because it gets very boring. Excepting for today tho. I was intentionally run off the road by a FedEx truck who - no known reason. Well I guess I didn't slow down to let him pass? On an Interstate Highway? With a passing lane? I went full blown Fedex on that one. In fact, that video will gain traction. You can't run another truck off the road because why?
Well anyway, I was near the end of the day - end of the day means I"m almost out of driving hours - 11 of them - and I see this billboard. Whatever the name of the casino and "truckers welcome". Hey, I'ma trucker! and I love blackjack. I've been up and down this 75 mile stretch of highway and never saw that billboard.
It sounded like fun! After being in a town on Christmas with nothing open, no restaurants, no socialism, I was ready to engage. Getting off the Interstate? 5 miles to the casino? Dang, I wasn't prepared for that. I don't ever go more than a quarter mile to find a place to park. But this wasn't about parking, I love blackjack. So went on down the road and the road? Ended 5 miles later at the casino.
What I didn't understand is the road ends because the Mississippi river? Yeah, that's what's there. Well there were already about 10 trucks there - room for 50 more - I pulled up, did my paperwork and then a courtesy shuttle showed up. I didn't order a courtesy shuttle and neither did I know I was at the Mississippi River and neither did I know I would end up on a boat to play blackjack. Not unusual, Shreveport has boats on the Red River.
I shut off my truck - hey, can you give me a couple of minutes? I need to finish my paperwork - there wasn't a line of cars or trucks coming in there - he said sure, I have nothing else to do. The driver was the person that informed me that I was going to a boat and that the state has it mandated that casinos must be on the water. Well, I tipped him, might as well, I have this idea that tipping is the way to winning, start the good vibes, walked in there and walked down this long, enclosed corridor.
At least 100 feet long, probably more. I get in the entrance, looking around for tables. Blackjack tables to be exact. Nothing but thieving slot machines. I won't put a penny into those things. If they don't have Blackjack, I won't play anything. It's the only thing I will gamble on at a casino. It's more likely to win me money - and have a good time doing it - than anything else there. Yes, I do go in with the idea of winning money, but it's on the level of $200 to $500, not thousands or getting rich.
Second room - I found an ATM. I didn't have much cash on me, I won't sit down at a table with at least $150 on me. It's psychological thing. I won't lose more than $200 before getting up and walking out, either. If I hit $200 loss, I'm gone.
Then, going around, looking for a table. 3 blackjack tables, all full with people standing around them. I just stood there like a fox looking at prey and waited. I'll get my chance, I thought, and I'm going to win tonight, not lose. After 20 minutes, a man got up off the table on the either side - 3rd base at that - and I rushed over to fill that seat. Google "Blackjack 3rd base" if you want to understand that. It basically means you can win or lose for not only yourself, but the entire table. In many instances, it's very true. A sucky 3rd base player will cause players that have a clue to get up and walk to another table.
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And got caught up in a bit of a scuff with Rene - once again. Blowing up my text messages with this dude that's living over there and..issues.
Anyway, I played that table for about 2 hours. I was up $400 at one point - not including tips with house money to the dealer for the good hands - and walked out of there with $250. Spent the night in their parking lot, drove back to the yard - yesterday as of now - and here I am, 5:00 am, getting ready to go back out again. I requested it.
Well now. I just checked my bank account. $61? I should have had near a lot more than that with 2 runs on that check. We're on weekly pay now, there's 2 runs that should have shown up on this pay period.
Have to deal with that later, about last track of time here. Time go!
Wednesday, December 26, 2018
Morning after Christmas.
Like, woke up at 5am stuff.
No particular good reason for it, excepting I had to go unload the truck.
Well, I fell back asleep and here I sit, lol, 45 minutes late and will probably be an hour and a half late.
It's bitterly cold out there and the truck is a piece of ice, basically. I went out, turned it on, put on the defrost on high, set it at it's hottest setting and figured at least 20 minutes before that's going to deal with the ice on the windshield.
I wasn't particularly liking the ice crystals on the ground, either. It's 27 degrees outside, it never did snow that I can tell. But I have to go stand out in this nonsense for an hour and a half or more and the only thing I can say is it's a darn good thing I brought all this heavy winter gear with me. I've got a jacket from Ferguson - yes it's mine, they bought it for me and said I could keep it - but the one I picked out is extra heavy duty. It will keep you warm at zero degree temps. But I can't really wear that thing under the fireproof jumpsuit so I'm switching to thermal shirt and a sweatshirt and see if that works.
And more info from home, the place is wicked sick. I'm not even all that interested in going back there right now. It's 2 days back anyway tho, perhaps that stuff will pass by then. Whatever the case, it would be nice simply because of that to get home and turn around and go back out somewhere.
Brownsville would be nice. I know I always say that, but it's just a good deal.
Ugh. I'm looking at the truck from my hotel room window - the ABS light is on. Actually wouldn't care if that truck totally broke down after this delivery and I was stuck somewhere for days and days. See, with a truck approaching 700k miles, that's always a possibility. Everything has been running on the engine for all those hours and that stuff doesn't last forever. Water pumps, alternators, turbo chargers, fuel injectors, fuel pumps, etc etc etc.
Very likely this truck will have continuing problems with all the miles on it. And it doesn't have an APU - auxiliary power unit - meaning no other source for power and AC/heat when parked, so the truck would have been running pretty much 24 hours a day when the team that was in it before me was using it.
Hotel breakfast fare was untouchable. Not surprising in a low budget hotel brand. The only thing I could take out of there was coffee. What I thought interesting last night was all of these hotels here including the one I'm at are veritable ghost towns. The Holiday Inn didn't have a single vehicle parked in the parking lot at 10 pm. And yet, they wanted $130? lol good luck with that. Hilton Hampton across the street is a much nicer hotel and was cheaper.
Well, I guess I best get this show on the road. The truck should at least be getting warm by now. I mean, it takes quite a while for a semi to warm up when it's this cold out side. The only thing that can help it is to shutter the grill closed, but this truck doesn't have one of those on it. It stop most of the air coming in from the front to cool the engine, hence the engine heats up faster. In cold winter weather up north, you will see trucks with blanket looking things covering the entire front grill. It's simply so the engine can generate more heat, it gets cold in those trucks lol.
Off to the races.
Like, woke up at 5am stuff.
No particular good reason for it, excepting I had to go unload the truck.
Well, I fell back asleep and here I sit, lol, 45 minutes late and will probably be an hour and a half late.
It's bitterly cold out there and the truck is a piece of ice, basically. I went out, turned it on, put on the defrost on high, set it at it's hottest setting and figured at least 20 minutes before that's going to deal with the ice on the windshield.
I wasn't particularly liking the ice crystals on the ground, either. It's 27 degrees outside, it never did snow that I can tell. But I have to go stand out in this nonsense for an hour and a half or more and the only thing I can say is it's a darn good thing I brought all this heavy winter gear with me. I've got a jacket from Ferguson - yes it's mine, they bought it for me and said I could keep it - but the one I picked out is extra heavy duty. It will keep you warm at zero degree temps. But I can't really wear that thing under the fireproof jumpsuit so I'm switching to thermal shirt and a sweatshirt and see if that works.
And more info from home, the place is wicked sick. I'm not even all that interested in going back there right now. It's 2 days back anyway tho, perhaps that stuff will pass by then. Whatever the case, it would be nice simply because of that to get home and turn around and go back out somewhere.
Brownsville would be nice. I know I always say that, but it's just a good deal.
Ugh. I'm looking at the truck from my hotel room window - the ABS light is on. Actually wouldn't care if that truck totally broke down after this delivery and I was stuck somewhere for days and days. See, with a truck approaching 700k miles, that's always a possibility. Everything has been running on the engine for all those hours and that stuff doesn't last forever. Water pumps, alternators, turbo chargers, fuel injectors, fuel pumps, etc etc etc.
Very likely this truck will have continuing problems with all the miles on it. And it doesn't have an APU - auxiliary power unit - meaning no other source for power and AC/heat when parked, so the truck would have been running pretty much 24 hours a day when the team that was in it before me was using it.
Hotel breakfast fare was untouchable. Not surprising in a low budget hotel brand. The only thing I could take out of there was coffee. What I thought interesting last night was all of these hotels here including the one I'm at are veritable ghost towns. The Holiday Inn didn't have a single vehicle parked in the parking lot at 10 pm. And yet, they wanted $130? lol good luck with that. Hilton Hampton across the street is a much nicer hotel and was cheaper.
Well, I guess I best get this show on the road. The truck should at least be getting warm by now. I mean, it takes quite a while for a semi to warm up when it's this cold out side. The only thing that can help it is to shutter the grill closed, but this truck doesn't have one of those on it. It stop most of the air coming in from the front to cool the engine, hence the engine heats up faster. In cold winter weather up north, you will see trucks with blanket looking things covering the entire front grill. It's simply so the engine can generate more heat, it gets cold in those trucks lol.
Off to the races.
Tuesday, December 25, 2018
My mom.
Wow.
Interesting discussion tonight.
I've thought about this for awhile anyway.
She can't live on her own forever. She's going to need help.
She made this image up when we were kids.
I eventually saw through the parody of not being able to reach out to others
and tried to correct my course through that. Parental influence on your early
years is pretty much life long whether anyone wants to admit it or not.
It was a long battle. I still have problems reaching out to people if I really, really need
some help. I have lost faith in most of human kind tho. People are generally selfish in this
current day and age and have very little concern for their fellow man/woman.
There are exceptions of course. I'm not even sure my view of it is realistic. It's what I
was raised in. Just like - tho not really coming from my parents - black people are bad.
In various forms. I was racist as anyone could be at my early ages. But I was fighting
them every day at school, I didn't start those fights and I remember being dragged out into
hall by them frequently. They beat the shit out of me, to be honest. I couldn't defend myself
against a gang of people. They hated whites, we hated blacks, that was how it was.
I spent half a lifetime getting that out of my system as well. God had a lot to do with that.
He created all of these races, all of humankind, the only partiality I see in the Bible is to Jews.
But that isn't a race. Yet, look at how much they are hated.
Well, she brought it up in a way that I recognized that she had thought about for a while.
I don't even remember how we got there. It was out of the blue, it had nothing to do with what
we were discussing. It was things like "I guess I messed up in being too self sufficient" type of things. "I understand I would be difficult to live with". I just listened to it before offering a
rather - I dunno - a reply that didn't give any promises but not devoid of hope either.
She would be very difficult to live with. I was there at her house for 5 days and I can tell ya, after
that period of time, I enjoyed the visit but I was ready to leave. She has no "bad" traits at all, I can't really say. But her lifestyle and mine are not copacetic for living with each other. Yet, I would never see her moved to a nursing home. No way. Not unless she wanted that. And even if she said she wanted that, I would never believe it.
So now, the reality of my mom growing old enough to the point she needs help. She has a sound mind, she isn't dull in the head at all. But her strength is obviously giving out. I watched that when I was there. Things she could do last time I saw her, she can't do now. She asks for help but she stops when it's met with a cold shoulder. It's obvious she needs someone to go over there once a week or a couple of weeks at least and help her do things that she can not longer physically do.
I have such a connection with the family I live with tho. I really love them as family and as far as I've heard and experienced, they do me as well.
To make this work where I am currently living, we would all have to move. They would have to sell the house and we would have to move to a much larger place, including a setting with an "inlaw suite" type of thing where mom could have her own place but connected to us and have access to help when she needs it. I have already talked to my friends about moving to a much larger place with land, they aren't opposed to it at all.
But I would be dragging mom into a place where she knows no-one. Yet, she just moved last year from one side of the valley clear to the other side - about 60 miles. She doesn't know anyone out there. She said she did it to move closer to her drive to Payson, and yes I believe that's partially true. But I also believe it's true that she hoped her sons would help her when she needs help.
I saw my dad in his final days last year. But he had a loving wife that was there for him the entire time. My mom literally has no one like that. She did have a man in her life that she dearly loved, but he died of cancer. I guess she never felt the desire to seek out anyone else.
It wouldn't really be a hard decision for me to have that kind of setup, but I wouldn't be moving in with her. She would have to deal with where I'm at, and the situation I'm in. My friends would probably go along with a much larger house as long as there was help paying the mortgage. I could really see how this could work out. I don't necessarily think she's there yet - but the time is coming.
I'm going to let some time pass on this. But it's obviously a concern of hers. Do you want to live in an assisted living place when you grow old? Never or rarely seeing anyone you know? I think I'd rather die. I am living with younger people for several reasons, this is one of them. Tho assisted living is, hopefully, a very long ways off. Mostly not living alone. My mom isn't like that. She likes living alone. She has her dog and that's all she needs. She's told me of guys hitting up on her, so I have to believe she could find someone if she really wanted to.
Well, food for thought for me. But as I said, I had already given it thought. She can't do this forever. At the least, she already needs someone to come help her once a week or so with stuff she can't do. I'm going to give my friends at my house in Phoenix a proposition. They can take it or leave it and I won't have ill feelings if they leave it, but it's a monetary proposition that will help them immensely. And they already help the elderly in various ways. They like helping people is what I am saying.
But I kind of don't know about asking them. They might feel if they say no, they're going to not be welcomed there or whatever thoughts that goes through the mind with such apprehension. I wouldn't hold it against them at all, they already do enough, but their money factor and my offer would definitely come into play. People I trust that wouldn't try to take advantage of her.
This thing will play out. I dunno how, but it will. My middle brother wouldn't do it. My oldest brother is retiring next year. Don't really think he'd like that at all. Like, maybe build a separate dwelling for her on his property. She has a place to live, but not in anyone's hair. Just, I need this and that, please. I don't think she'd want to move out here, there are no mountains. She would lose access to her property up north. But that day is coming anyway. Sooner or later she won't be able to drive and her freedom will be stripped from her.
Have you ever thought of driving as a freedom? Well, get rid of it for a while and then come back to me about that experience. When you become reliant on someone else to take you everywhere, your freedom to move about as you please is gone. Granted the area she lives in has abundant Uber and Lyft and it's pretty reasonable, but going up north?
I'm just going to wait and see how this plays out, that's all I can say.
Wow.
Interesting discussion tonight.
I've thought about this for awhile anyway.
She can't live on her own forever. She's going to need help.
She made this image up when we were kids.
I eventually saw through the parody of not being able to reach out to others
and tried to correct my course through that. Parental influence on your early
years is pretty much life long whether anyone wants to admit it or not.
It was a long battle. I still have problems reaching out to people if I really, really need
some help. I have lost faith in most of human kind tho. People are generally selfish in this
current day and age and have very little concern for their fellow man/woman.
There are exceptions of course. I'm not even sure my view of it is realistic. It's what I
was raised in. Just like - tho not really coming from my parents - black people are bad.
In various forms. I was racist as anyone could be at my early ages. But I was fighting
them every day at school, I didn't start those fights and I remember being dragged out into
hall by them frequently. They beat the shit out of me, to be honest. I couldn't defend myself
against a gang of people. They hated whites, we hated blacks, that was how it was.
I spent half a lifetime getting that out of my system as well. God had a lot to do with that.
He created all of these races, all of humankind, the only partiality I see in the Bible is to Jews.
But that isn't a race. Yet, look at how much they are hated.
Well, she brought it up in a way that I recognized that she had thought about for a while.
I don't even remember how we got there. It was out of the blue, it had nothing to do with what
we were discussing. It was things like "I guess I messed up in being too self sufficient" type of things. "I understand I would be difficult to live with". I just listened to it before offering a
rather - I dunno - a reply that didn't give any promises but not devoid of hope either.
She would be very difficult to live with. I was there at her house for 5 days and I can tell ya, after
that period of time, I enjoyed the visit but I was ready to leave. She has no "bad" traits at all, I can't really say. But her lifestyle and mine are not copacetic for living with each other. Yet, I would never see her moved to a nursing home. No way. Not unless she wanted that. And even if she said she wanted that, I would never believe it.
So now, the reality of my mom growing old enough to the point she needs help. She has a sound mind, she isn't dull in the head at all. But her strength is obviously giving out. I watched that when I was there. Things she could do last time I saw her, she can't do now. She asks for help but she stops when it's met with a cold shoulder. It's obvious she needs someone to go over there once a week or a couple of weeks at least and help her do things that she can not longer physically do.
I have such a connection with the family I live with tho. I really love them as family and as far as I've heard and experienced, they do me as well.
To make this work where I am currently living, we would all have to move. They would have to sell the house and we would have to move to a much larger place, including a setting with an "inlaw suite" type of thing where mom could have her own place but connected to us and have access to help when she needs it. I have already talked to my friends about moving to a much larger place with land, they aren't opposed to it at all.
But I would be dragging mom into a place where she knows no-one. Yet, she just moved last year from one side of the valley clear to the other side - about 60 miles. She doesn't know anyone out there. She said she did it to move closer to her drive to Payson, and yes I believe that's partially true. But I also believe it's true that she hoped her sons would help her when she needs help.
I saw my dad in his final days last year. But he had a loving wife that was there for him the entire time. My mom literally has no one like that. She did have a man in her life that she dearly loved, but he died of cancer. I guess she never felt the desire to seek out anyone else.
It wouldn't really be a hard decision for me to have that kind of setup, but I wouldn't be moving in with her. She would have to deal with where I'm at, and the situation I'm in. My friends would probably go along with a much larger house as long as there was help paying the mortgage. I could really see how this could work out. I don't necessarily think she's there yet - but the time is coming.
I'm going to let some time pass on this. But it's obviously a concern of hers. Do you want to live in an assisted living place when you grow old? Never or rarely seeing anyone you know? I think I'd rather die. I am living with younger people for several reasons, this is one of them. Tho assisted living is, hopefully, a very long ways off. Mostly not living alone. My mom isn't like that. She likes living alone. She has her dog and that's all she needs. She's told me of guys hitting up on her, so I have to believe she could find someone if she really wanted to.
Well, food for thought for me. But as I said, I had already given it thought. She can't do this forever. At the least, she already needs someone to come help her once a week or so with stuff she can't do. I'm going to give my friends at my house in Phoenix a proposition. They can take it or leave it and I won't have ill feelings if they leave it, but it's a monetary proposition that will help them immensely. And they already help the elderly in various ways. They like helping people is what I am saying.
But I kind of don't know about asking them. They might feel if they say no, they're going to not be welcomed there or whatever thoughts that goes through the mind with such apprehension. I wouldn't hold it against them at all, they already do enough, but their money factor and my offer would definitely come into play. People I trust that wouldn't try to take advantage of her.
This thing will play out. I dunno how, but it will. My middle brother wouldn't do it. My oldest brother is retiring next year. Don't really think he'd like that at all. Like, maybe build a separate dwelling for her on his property. She has a place to live, but not in anyone's hair. Just, I need this and that, please. I don't think she'd want to move out here, there are no mountains. She would lose access to her property up north. But that day is coming anyway. Sooner or later she won't be able to drive and her freedom will be stripped from her.
Have you ever thought of driving as a freedom? Well, get rid of it for a while and then come back to me about that experience. When you become reliant on someone else to take you everywhere, your freedom to move about as you please is gone. Granted the area she lives in has abundant Uber and Lyft and it's pretty reasonable, but going up north?
I'm just going to wait and see how this plays out, that's all I can say.
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