Wednesday - mid morning

I just decided not to get up early today. Haven't done that in a while. I almost feel like just going back to bed for a few hours.  Why not? No one is home, even Taylor is gone, she appears to be at the new parents house. They  have been begging her to come over repeatedly to feed the baby and help it go to sleep - so they can get some sleep.

They were informed many times over by several different people that sleep would become a thing of the past in these first months of the baby's life.  One of them even has 3 months off for maternity leave.  But no matter, they are not used to having to be awake basically all night long.  I get it, it sucks. Having the baby is great but dealing with the baby an entirely different story. Perhaps they can get a taste of what Taylor has been through for all of this time.  

I have understood that there are many professors in colleges around the country today that are basically brainwashing their students into this progressive type of thinking that basically tells them to hate America as it currently is and that it needs transformed into some Socialist/Communist type of hellish nightmare where the government dictates the lives of every citizen. I'm sure they don't put it that way, but I could make it even worse considering the history.  

What I didn't know until this Israeli war is the hatred they have been teaching to include anti-Semitism.  Really, that took me by surprise, that giant gatherings of students around the country at these elite universities are chanting against Israel and also anyone here, in the U.S., that stands up for them and against the terrorist group known as Hamas.  If this was happening in my town, I would be there. To do what? Talk to these people. Find out what is driving their hatred.  How do you hate people you don't know and have mostly if nothing but peaceful intentions? Do you see Israel trying to take over the world?  

Yet, nations and people have hated the Jews since before the time of Christ.  I don't understand it, but I can say, at least in my world view and what I have learned from the bible which I firmly believe IS the Word of God, that you are taking sides against the Creator God in taking a stance against Israel and the Jewish people.  I know many of these people are atheists. That is the other thing that is bewildering. That we have colleges full of students that are mostly atheist, taught to believe there is no God and even mock anyone that has such beliefs.  This is where the breeding grounds for totalitarianism and dictatorships start, with young people who have no clue what they are talking about believing things that only people in power or wanting to be in power would proffer to them as absolute truth.  

Are we on the brink of a world war?  Only God knows that, perhaps the evil behind the people running these evil nations such as Russia and China, North Korea, anyone with nukes or raw hatred enough to drive them into action will know that.  Is this nation ready for war?  I don't know, if you take the analysis of "experts", we are not recruiting enough people and our war chests are emptying out, handing it over to the Ukraine and apparently now we are going to ship munitions to Israel.  I can agree with giving it to Israel, the Ukraine? Not so much.

The peace that passes all understanding comes from God and God alone.  You can get filled with fear about world events or you can have that inner peace God gives you.  I do take certain steps to make sure our mouths are fed regardless of what happens, I don't subscribe that to fear but to preparedness.  Why take chances with your food supply? It isn't just wars that can deplete grocery store shelves in just a few hours. Look at what happened with Covid.  A bad weather event can knock out the power for days or weeks or bad weather can stop trucks from being able to deliver to the stores. 

We went through a week of no power and spent almost $500 on fuel to keep generators running.  Was it worth it? In my mind, yes. It was summer time and it was HOT.  We used some of the power to run window AC units and the rest to run freezers, refrigerator, lights, power electronics, etc.  Could we sustain that for months? No.  I don't have the wherewithal to be buying that much fuel for that long. The other folks here also pitched in and bought fuel during that time. It was expensive but it would have cost that much or more to stay at a hotel, unless you are talking one of these dumpy hotels. But, they didn't have power either.  Holiday Inn, Marriott, all of the big name brands were down as well. 

Generac? Good idea, but expensive, not in my budget.  Runs on natural gas which keeps pumping regardless.  They do have compression stations for natural gas, I've seen one on the way to Gurdon.  I don't know if that's necessary everywhere or what.  I do know it's under plenty of pressure just coming out of the ground. I have one of those operations on my property.  I'm only saying this because of course, a compression station uses power, the one I saw had giant backup generators.  

Just my musings today as I watch this Israeli offensive take place and wondering if Iran is going to intervene beyond their use of proxies, such as Hamas, and bring in the IRGC or somehow escalate this to the entire region.  

I will head to Ollie's soon and see if they have a deal on space heaters.  They have them listed online. Otherwise I'll just have to go to Walmart.  

And the dreaded act of collecting money. It's just a chore.  People may or may not want to pay, but I have to go chase them down.  I have at least 3, I think 4 actually, payments due.  Well, that and if the welders stayed - they were there yesterday - there should be a check in the mailbox for them today.  That payment alone would almost pay for the electric bill due on the 10th.  

I didn't get paid last night so I "assume" I will get a direct deposit tonight.  If I don't, well, there will be a phone call being made tomorrow.  They haven't screwed me over yet on pay, just hope that trend continues.  

And we will continue to check on the rye grass seed. There is grass popping up all over the place, but that was happening before I spread the seed out.  The ideal time to plant, at least one website says, it between mid August and the end of September. Great, I got it down before the end of September, let's get with it now.  But, it says 7 - 10 days to germinate, they all say that, so I have a bit of waiting to go.  

There are plenty of things I need to get done over there.  Nothing urgent.  My 4 wheeler won't start - it doesn't like to in the cold weather since that guy "fixed" it, I suspect a small shot of ether will get it going. I didn't have time the other day when it was raining and I was dragging a heavy board from 200 feet away to drop the trailer.  I suspect I will hear about that from the manager considering the desk clerk's reaction when I told her I didn't bring the trailer with me.  She wanted me to take it to a washout up there.  Very glad I didn't have to - it's 45 minutes each way, the wrong way.  I don't know why they'd care one way or the other where I leave a trailer where I've been leaving it.  It is their property, of course, but it's under my care.  They know where it's parked, the truck shows up on their GPS.  They know about my RV park, they know everything, I told them up front. 

Oh, well the 4 wheeler would simply be used to trim back some brush along the driveway and go back into the trails and cut that rotten tree into pieces.  I have potholes forming on the driveway as well.  That will be a chore because I'll have to hook up the trailer, shovel dirt onto it and then take it to the areas needing dirt and shovel it in.  It really needs gravel mixed in with it.  I don't really have the money to be buying a $750 truckload of gravel right now.  I wonder if they'd just sell me a bit of it dumped onto my trailer?  It would still cost.  

I guess in terms of priority, those potholes take the cake.  Physical labor of which I definitively do not feel like engaging in today.  I have this mind right now of just sitting here and doing nothing.  Of course, that doesn't pay the bills or keep guests happy.....

So, get dressed, get moving, get stuff done. It's like this pretty much every day, whether a full plate the entire day or just half a day, I am busy most days now with this job.  I apparently will get a reprieve this week beyond the truck swap and the trailer drop, I dunno.  If I collect what I think I will be collecting from tenants, no worries.  I have to get trained at Ennis anyway, they were talking about me going there 2 days ago, the manager wasn't in. 

I informed them that the manager declared I needed training at that particular plant and I agreed with that.  Plants have different rules, you need to understand the nuances of what they want before you go in there.  If we are slow, the man can come on his way to Ennis to pick me up, take me there, show me the ropes, bring me back home.  Ennis is 2-1/2 hours, you'd expect a 7 hour give or take day out of it.  If the GPS says 2-1/2 hours, I give it 3.  Make that an 8 hour day, for offloading can take any varying amount of time.  They say this stuff is less dense and offloads faster, if that is true, you can drain an entire tanker load in 45 minutes.  But you still have to weigh in and out, which takes time and whatever else they make you do there.  

Whatever, I'm ready to get the training over with.  If they want to do it this week, great, give me the assignment and lets go.  

Well, I guess I'll get my @$$ in gear and get out of here.

G'day

 Maybe 3 hours round trip this morning, was back by 11:15 am.  That done I headed over to a local Mexican food restaurant for some of their excellent Birria tacos, so delicious.  

 Unfortunately, no new calls for a lot.  I turned one away as I stated previously because the "purple people" were supposed to come and didn't cancel out until evening time of the day they were supposed to show.  Live and learn.  People want a lot that bad? They can give a deposit for it.  

Anyway, we met up with some other families tonight for a Halloween candy fest (otherwise known as trick-or-treating).  We went to a neighborhood known for the large amount of houses that give out candy. This year? No so great.  I wasn't a total bust, but there wasn't even half the number of houses giving out candy and it was a good thing we were sitting in the back of the pickup, there were many areas with long walks in between. 

The boy that was mauled by a large dog on Friday?  I'm standing on the street watching him run down a concrete driveway and fall flat on his face.  Bloody nose, bloody lips, this boy is having a bad streak of luck going here. He got over it pretty quick, took a minute.  As it was, I had to help him on and off the truck, he still can climb onto things without extreme pain.  

We left that neighborhood, went over to one of James' friends' house who loaded up the boy's buckets with a lot of candy. After that, we went to see the baby. I hadn't seen it in person yet, but I got to hold him for a while.  Taylor had just breast fed him so he was sleeping.  I tried to talk to him, I know that boy has been listening to my voice for 9 months lol.  I talked to him a lot through the belly.  He didn't wake up for me - or anyone really - he was pretty content after that breast milk.  

They gave the boys even more candy and then I took them across the street for people who were basically done for the night and also gave them handfuls of candy as well.  So, even with the dismal results at the first neighborhood, they ended up with quite a lot of candy.  

Home and everything done and over with.  

It's gotten pretty cold here.  I mean, we just walked right out of summer and straight into winter?  The trees haven't even dropped their leaves yet.  They either know something we don't or they are also caught by surprise.  It's like we skipped fall.  

I haven't seen my personal checking account this low in years, lol.  I "think" I'm getting paid tonight, but in case I'm not, I just deposited a paycheck from the business account.  I have a lot of money to collect as well, I didn't get to that today but tomorrow I'm going around to whoever's home to get I think 4 of them.  And more coming the first few weeks of the month before the electric bill is due.  

Anyway, it's been a rather long day and I'm done for the night.  

 Just a fast one here, I'm on my way out the door.

Okay, not such a big hurry.  Yesterday was just go up to El Dorado, switch trucks and come back.  They wanted me to take the trailer to a washout up there - sorry, didn't bring the trailer.  Switch trucks, not trailers. They can have the trailer if they want it, they didn't say anything about that.

So, this morning, leaving in a few minutes actually, take the trailer to the washout in Nacogdoches.  It's 80 miles each way and that's it for the day. Leave the trailer there, I don't have to bring it back.  That's nice, that trailer is a pile of garbage. Someone totally trashed the passenger side of it, ran it into something.  It looks ugly.  

I think I have rents to collect today, that will be high on the list as well as inspecting the grass seed and seeing if anything is popping up. Probably too soon, but who knows.  It's been raining quite a bit, the rain is over.  I will probably go buy a few more bags and overseed a bit in hopes the morning dew will water it enough to make it grow.  It's cold out in the mornings and cool in the afternoons. That seed won't be drying up. 

These people in the purple rv that were going to come back? Screwed me over royally.  They wanted to move in, kept contacting me so I finally got a space for them to give them.  In the meantime, I had to turn down an overnighter and a long term.  So what did they do? Cancel. The overnighter and the long term are gone, history, will never hear from them again.  Those purple people are never coming back to my park and I am seriously considering charging a $100 non-refundable reservation fee for long term.  You cancel? You lose your $100. 

I've had this happen a few times - this is all a learning experience.  I have 15 trailers in there out of 16 spots available.  I want 16.  I would have had 16 if it weren't for these people. They texted me late yesterday - the day they were supposed to move in - telling me they had "changed our plans". Well you wouldn't change your plans so easily at MY EXPENSE if you had to pay something to reserve that spot.  It'd be another month's worth of lot rent in my hands right now, not an empty spot.  It just irritates me people do this stuff and I understand why many RV parks require a deposit.  Some RV parks make anyone reserving for 2 or more days to pay it all up front. I make them pay a day up front and depending on my mood if it's refundable.  In ink, it's non-refundable.  

The thing is, there are people leaving soon and so I will have empty spots.  You fill up all the spots, sure you don't have anything for overnighters but it won't stay that way for long.  

Well anyway, I want to leave and get this over with and have the afternoon available for work at the park.  I am told there isn't much to do this week because of that plant shut down.  Mixed feelings.  Love not working, don't love not getting a paycheck.

G'day

 Monday - early

Raining. As forecast - for once.  "Rain continuing through 1 pm". Well, that precludes waiting it out to go drop that trailer.  It's real-feel 37 degrees, so the first real day of cold this year as well.  

Whatever the case, I went out to the kitchen to get creamer for my coffee and there was some unhappy people. Mondays, I guess.  I don't really care about that at this point, I have a light day even if 5-6 hours of driving, that's pretty much it beyond having to switch things back to the pink truck at the yard in Arkansas.  Well, the manager wants to "chat a bit", about what I have no idea. I have guesses, I'll find out soon enough,.

The new parents? Had a rough first night.  I figured as much.  They've basically been up all night long. It's not going to get any better for a while.  

I don't have a lot this morning. Kind of sluggish, not in a bad mood just not feeling it today. Probably the cold and the rain mixed together, just make me want to sleep in.  Instead, I'm up, second cup of coffee, already shaved/showered and fixing to get out of here.  

They said nothing about bringing the trailer and I have no idea why they would want me to bring it anyway, so it can stay at my place and speed up the process of getting up there and back by being able to use back road with weight restrictions. Those weight restrictions won't keep a semi tractor from going over those bridges.  Or, I can just run up to Ruston on I-20 and up whatever road that is up to the yard.  It's a much easier drive than the previous way I was trying.

Either way, I'm out of here.

G'day

Sunday- night - heavy rain in the forecast going on all night long (allegedly) and well into tomorrow. 

The only thing I have going tomorrow work-wise is driving this pile of junk tractor up to the yard and bringing back the pink behemoth.  Probably going to take longer in the rain, but I'll still be home early, I think anyway.  I am kicking myself for not remembering to drop that trailer today before the rain started. 

Oh well.

The boy is doing better. Stiff, sore, pain when trying to do certain things, but there is improvement.  I took pics of the crap that dog did to him.  

They were gone 2 nights ago so I watched them overnight. Well, not watch, lol, just left my bedroom door open. They never bothered me, tho the youngest got up early as well as I to complain about pain.  I gave him 10 mls of children's Tylenol and that helped him a bit.  

I took the 8 year old to church today while the youngest went to the hospital with daddy to get mommy.  The oldest told the entire children's church about the dog attack and the mom having the baby because of it.  They came out when they saw me and said that boy is a very good story teller!

Well it's not a story, he was right there when the dog attacked his brother, he saw everything. They didn't mean it that way, tho, they just meant he's good at portraying exactly what happened. Yes, I agreed, the boy was mauled by a large dog and then a baby was born because of it!  I'm sure they'll have some kind words for the 6 year old next time he's at church.  I'd like to hope so anyway.  

Taylor said the whole hospital must have found out about the dog mauling, there were people saying stuff to her about it that she had never seen before.  Yes, she came home today as well as the newborn went home with his  new parents.  She can barely walk.  Not only did she have the baby, but she hurt herself when the dog attacked the boy. Pulled a muscle, tendon, who knows but between the two she is walking very slowly.  

It's why I intend on leaving early enough tomorrow to be home before the boys get home from school. If it's still raining, I will go up to get them instead of her having to do it.  

You know, you can see videos of dogs attacking people and yes, it looks bad.  I've seen videos of it.  But it's nothing like being in the middle of it attempting to get the thing to get his mouth off of the human it is - attempting to kill? I don't know if the dog would have stopped had we all not been there. 

The story sort of evolved, I wasn't sure what Taylor was doing, but I guess she was grabbing it's tail while James and the lady next door were trying to get the dog's mouth off of him which is when I kicked the living s*** out of that dog.  If that hadn't worked, I was going to go for the throat of that dog or run and get a gun.  When I say the throat, I mean crushing force if possible, you'd be surprised what adrenaline can do.  It was pumping through everyone's veins, there was nothing we weren't willing to do in order to save that boy from that dog.  

I don't know if the dog has been put down yet, there was some thing the police department wanted done first for unknown reasons before doing that.  I'm like, screw that, the dog has cancer anyway, just take it up and have it put down because of the cancer.  The lady is under a serious guilt complex right now. She has been over twice bringing new blankets for the boys and candy.  We have tried to convince her we don't hold anything against her, there was no way of knowing that dog would turn aggressive like that.  

I have no idea yet how the new parents are doing - they are literally new parents, this is their first child.  We have been filling their head with all kinds of information for almost 9 months now, especially the part about being prepared to being up all night long for awhile when you take him home. Their lives are going to change dramatically, as it usually does when people have their first child and start to learn just home much time, energy and mental fatigue they can take out of you, not to mention money.  

I'm not saying it's a bad thing, not at all. But it is a dramatic change.  Your life is upended, your priorities change, your whole way of thinking changes at least to some degree about the way you see life and perceive things differently.  It will settle you down if you a "wild man" type of person.  For most people, I think, their children become the apple of their eye and they find that their kids can have strange powers over them, lol.  

It will be interesting to see their transformation.  I'm guessing their family members are over there visiting and helping. One of them has 3 months off of work for maternity leave, the other is taking two weeks off right off the bat.  That's a good sign, they are willing to do whatever it takes to make this work.  Taylor said there was an odd feeling after being asked about handing the child over to them. Maternal instincts. I think they are going to refer to her as an aunt while the child is growing up.  I don't believe anyone wants the kid to know she's his mother.  I dunno, but that might be a tall order with the kids here keeping that a secret.  

Anyway, the weekend is over. The kids are in bed, it's not really late yet, but I am fixing to go to bed soon.  I want to get up relatively early to get over to the property to get that trailer dropped and get on the road headed up there.  Just want to be home in time for the kids, as I said before, in case it's raining. Taylor is in no condition to be doing much of anything, really.  

I have no idea what the week is going to hold in terms of work. I just know that if there is work, it's going to be an Ennis run and it's going to be in someone else's truck to get trained. Apparently you can't take 2 tankers in there at the same time, ie: they don't need that much product all at once.  I expect it to take one time in there to figure out what's going on and that will be the end of that training. I'll take notes if necessary, but it can't be all that much different than what I am already doing.  

The dude that trained me for Gurdon said the only difficult part is trying to get a 3 inch hose through a tight hole and that it's better to take a 2 inch hose.  I don't know, I have a 2 and a 3 inch hose on my truck.  Neither of them have the caps or plugs, I need to remember to ask for those when I'm up there tomorrow.  

I'm starting to get this whole, wild weekend behind me.  I see that boy's wounds tho....that dog wasn't just nibbling on his skin.  I am not going to be posting those pics online, just don't think that's appropriate, but if I did, you would get a better understanding of what I am talking about.  Several deep puncture wounds and a heckuva lot of lessor bite wounds.  I just say lessor in that they weren't as deep, it still looks horrible. 

Fortunately, the boy got over the initial fear he was experiencing with my Dane.  He's now calling him and petting him. Obi, from what I can see, would never bite a human.  He might get into it with other dogs, but I think it's all bark, no bite.   

That's enough for now.  I have rents to collect tomorrow, I probably should have today but today Taylor came home from the hospital and family takes precedence over park stuff. Not like people won't pay, lol. There is also a long term allegedly showing up tomorrow and that will be a full park.  I should have a lot to come open very soon, I know for sure the QT manager is leaving this coming week.  He didn't know for sure the exact day, but he was pretty sure he would be done the first week of November.  I like to keep one lot open for overnights.  I'm just hoping it isn't pouring rain tomorrow morning for dropping that trailer, I do have an umbrella at least. 

 Quite a lot has transpired today and at almost 11:00 pm, there is more to go. 

The story starts out with a normal afternoon when everyone is home. James had acquired a load of free wood from somewhere and was busy taking the screws and nails out of all of it.  The boys were playing in the front yard.  Taylor was on the porch sitting on the couch.  I was walking out to my vehicle looking for something, what I don't remember. 

I can clearly say all of this because it is all on film. Whatever a person doesn't remember, the camera never lies.  We have 2 cameras out front that record continuously 24 hours a day.  

I remember looking at the 6 year old going over to the next door neighbor who had called him over to give her a hug.  She is a sweet lady, probably around my age, nice people.  The man is a banker and ex-cop, I think he still has his cop credentials and is employed by a nearby county so he can retain his badge.  

I thought nothing of the boy going over to see the lady, they do it all the time. She had one of her dogs on a leash.  A Cane Corso, nice doggy, hasn't ever shown any aggressive behavior towards humans or even other dogs.  Never, that is, until today. These are large dogs, massive chests, lots of muscle, big heads and big jaws and teeth.  

I'm rummaging around in my vehicle when I hear this high pitched screaming.  I look up, James is jumping over vehicles, landed on his face in the dirt in his rush to get over there, Taylor was running as fast as she can (she is heavy with baby right now) and I just automatically started running over there, not really knowing what was going on. 

When I arrive a few seconds later, the lady has her hands in the dog's teeth, trying to get it to release the 6 year old, James is trying to pull the dog's jaws apart, Taylor is fighting with the dog, all to no avail.  I'm well versed in these situations, tho never with a dog grinding it's teeth into a human's flesh, I've pulled lots of dogs apart in vicious fighting situations.  

In this case, the dog was surrounded by those 3 at the front, I knew what to do to get it to release that boy.  I got to the dog's ass and hauled back and kicked that dog as hard as I could.  The dog released the boy, James dragged the boy from the dog and it was over.  Well, that part of it was over anyway.  James took the boy to the truck, James and Taylor jumped in with the boy and took off.  I was left with the 8 year old and this lady who was completely freaked out and having a serious panic attack. Her hand was covered with blood from the puncture wounds her own dog had inflicted on her.

I immediately told the 8 year old to go get a roll of paper towels, I took that damned dog to their house and forced his ass through the front door - I was ready to kill the damn thing anyway - went back, took the roll of towels and began cleaning the blood off of her hands.  

Funny how thoughts of other people's blood on you just goes right out the window in an event such as this.  I had her blood all over my fingers wiping it off of her to find where the wounds were so I could wad up some towels and apply pressure.  There was a very large puncture wound and a smaller one, they were both bleeding.  It didn't take long to get it to stop, but I couldn't console this lady.  She was terrified of what happened to that boy and begging and crying out about how she hopes he will be okay. 

I helped her get up, she was in a bad way.  I escorted her to her house where she said she would go sit down. Are you sure you don't need any more help?  I will stay with you if necessary.  I called her husband: there is a serious situation going on here, you need to come home.  She started yelling at my phone what had happened and how the boy had been bitten. She had no concern for her own health, she was overwhelmed by what had happened to that kid.

I can tell you, it was shocking.  I saw the dog viciously digging his teeth in to that boy's flesh.  The boy was screaming bloody murder, a very high pitched, intense screaming that would make your blood curl.  Even after we got that dog off of him, he was screaming like he was dying. He probably thought he WAS going to die.  She was in her house, they were gone, now to console the 8 year old. He was crying hysterically and I thought to myself, I'm going to have to take him to the hospital to show him that his brother isn't dead.  

No matter, they had left their phones and her slippers had fallen off of her feet when she was running to help save that boy's life.  Literally, I do believe that dog would have kept on going until that boy was dead.  

The hospital is less than a mile away from our house.  I decided to get her a pair of shoes, get her phone and get over to the hospital to see the boy and show the older boy that his brother was indeed, still alive and wasn't dying.  

It was a horrible sight.  His right side rib cage was covered with lacerations and puncture wounds, deep puncture wounds at that.  It was a lot to take in.  The older brother just stood there with his mouth gaped open, but he had the reassurance that his brother was still alive.  I wasn't thinking the boy was dying, but you have to understand what happened and how that would affect an 8 year old's thinking.  He was right there when it happened and even ran over to try and help, but there was nothing he could do. In fact, I wouldn't have wanted him involved, if that damned dog was willing to bite one child, what would stop it from biting another one?  

We stayed a little while, but we left.  The kid is in pain, that is to be expected. Traumatized? Yes, of course he is.  Fearful of dogs now? Yes, that would be a given as well. 

It was maybe an hour later, I had left with the 8 year old, we went to Taco Bell for something to eat and then home.  Taylor had come home for some other stuff.  She was trying to get into her truck.  She could barely move.  She was in extreme pain. I asked her if she needed help?  No, I can manage, while attempting to even get into her truck.  This was serious enough that the hospital checked her out when she got back there.

And then? I get the text that SHE is now going to Longview Regional by ambulance.  I've been in communication with her since I left the hospital. 

James then texted me telling me he's bringing the boy home.  Ok.  He wants to go to McDonald's. I'm fine with that.  He showed me his bandages but some of the wounds were visible above them.  The bandages in his back were already soaked with puss coming out. They didn't put in stitches because of the puncture wounds and apparently better to leave them open.  Well, because of bite wounds, more specifically.

So, James left and I took them to McDonald's. We came home from that and I started getting texts and dm's from all kinds of people. I had posted on Facebook about the boy.  Some of the people areTaylor's close friends, so I told them what was going on.  It was about that time that both Taylor and James texted me again: they are going to induce. Her blood pressure shot way up with this incident where her boy was being viciously attacked by a dog and they couldn't get it to come back down. They decided it was best to induce labor because of it.

They were going to induce anyway on Monday, so 3 days, no big deal, at least not in my mind and Taylor has been wanting that baby out.  

This event occurred shortly after 4:00 pm and it is now 11:12.  It has been non stop activity since this thing began.  I texted the husband of the lady and just said I hope she is ok, no one is holding anything against her, but Taylor has been moved to Longview. He replied it is a horrible situation all around, she is still crying over the boy.  I don't know what else to say.  She didn't do this on purpose, she had no way of knowing that dog was going to attack that boy.  

James just left again. They didn't know when she was taken to Longview via ambulance that they were going to induce, she is lacking any supplies and especially the breast pump stuff that is needed for getting the milk to feed the baby.  So he drove clear back home for a list of things Taylor had given her. I decided to let the boys stay up until he got home so he could tuck them in and give some reassuring words to the injured boy.  

So. The boys are in bed, James should probably be back at the hospital by now and I'm just sitting here taking all of this in.  

You don't wake up in the morning and say to yourself, self? Today, the 6 year old is going to be mauled by a dog and it's going to cause the mom to have to go to the hospital to get induced into labor.  

I've watched that video several times.  What's amazing is how your mind thinks it went on forever and in reality, it was less than a minute, actually I think less than 30 seconds from the time the dog started biting and the time we got the dog off of the boy.  I said this to Taylor and she agreed, it seemed like an eternity but it was actually a very short period of time.

James was a hero to his son.  He was standing there in the driveway, his truck backed in with my trailer filled with this wood he was working on.  He was looking over at his boy with the lady and her dog for a second and then back to what he was doing. The boy starts screaming and he looks up, starts yelling and running at the same time.  Jumps over the hitch on the back of the truck, over the tailgate but trips and falls flat on his face, his legs pumping him right back up, you could tell extreme adrenaline rush.  

He couldn't get that dog's teeth off of that boy. The lady had her fingers IN the dogs mouth with her hand being chewed on. Taylor was doing what she could to try and get the dog distracted. I'm not patting myself on the back for kicking the dog and getting it to release, I just know what to do. The dog has to be distracted and that was accomplished by kicking the s*** out of him.  James immediately had the boy in his arms after the dog let go.  

I'm tired. It's been a long day. I want to try to stay up for the baby's delivery, but why? I can just leave my ringer on and if they contact me when he comes out, I can rejoice with them. The new parents are over there waiting on the boy as well.  Remember, she is a surrogate her, she is "manufacturing" the baby, it's theirs to take home with them.  Yes, there seems to be little reason to stay awake for something I am not present with. I am a very light sleeper, that dinger on my phone going off will wake me up instantly. 

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Got lost in thought. Almost midnight, think I will hang it up for the evening.  It's always this strange feeling when the other adults are gone.  I feel the need to get out a pistol, make sure it's fully loaded and ready to rock and roll. Especially with kids home under my watch. Leave my bedroom door open, the dog is good at one thing: alerting to anything out of the ordinary.  You could not break into this house without him letting me know about it before anything happened.  

 Friday - Mid morning

Woke up in a fog.  Didn't sleep particularly well, tho I guess cumulatively I got enough sleep.  

It dawned on me this morning that I had forgotten to turn in the last run paperwork.  Curious as to why they didn't contact me about it, other drivers indicated that if they sit on them too long, the company will come a calling to get that stuff turned in so they can bill it.  

That done, I am supposed to call the manager in a little while to find out about the truck. Whether I drive up there today is up to me, or it was the last time we spoke.  

I got a new phone last night.  My Iphone 13 had been dropped one too many times and actually had a hole in the back of it.  It's why I do the insurance on these things, it's almost guaranteed I'm going to do something stupid with a phone such as dropping it into a toilet or crashing on to the floor and have to replace it.  The insurance isn't particularly cheap but neither is replacing an entire phone to the tune of 7 or 8 hundred dollars.  

I actually ordered a new phone yesterday and some rep from Assurion brought it to me, same day service.  The process of switching phones is much easier than in the past.  It just accesses your I cloud account and starts migrating everything onto your new phone. I paid an extra $3 yesterday for increased Icloud storage so I wouldn't lose any of my notes.  It's the only way I know of to get your notes from the old phone to the new one.

I owe around $350 on that phone. Love to pay it off and get rid of a monthly payment.  Not in the cards atm and would rather pay off that washer/dryer set at the park and dump $220 per month payment right off the bat.  I still owe 4 payments on that set, maybe when I get down to 2 payments left I'll pay it off and ditch that payment.  Leaving only the the mortgage and the shed payment.  Still a ways to go on that shed, probably another year's worth. 

Another nice thing is that they don't require you to return the damaged phone for 10 days.  That's good because several accounts have been wanting to send a notification to the old phone asking for permission to do whatever to an account on the new phone.  I have to put the passwords in for everything on my phone, a huge downside to this adventure.  

I put 250 pounds of seed down yesterday, took several hours. I no more left the property and it started raining.  Light rain but after a while it transitioned into a moderate rain.  It rained pretty much the rest of the day, stopping here and there and went on into the night.  It may have rained too much, washing some of the seed away.  I will be checking there in a little while, waiting on a call from the manager.  They allegedly fixed the truck but he wants to be sure that everything is done right on it.  

I just realized that if I am only bobtailing up there with no trailer, I can go the Louisiana back highways and save a lot of time. Those highways have weight restrictions on them but nothing that will stop a bobtail. The lowest I saw coming back from El Dorado last time I was bobtailing was 10 ton weight limit.  Bobtail is generally around 18 to 19 thousand pounds.  It literally shaves off like an hour of driving time.  

Well, I'll deal with that when the manager gets back to me.  I am not going to tell him no about going up there and back, it's about 5 hours of driving round trip.  It's also paid driving, that is the plus side and I have the weekend off coming up.  Monday I have no idea what's going on.  

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Hours later....

Manager finally called back, said the truck is ready to go  - but - he doesn't have anything for me to do Monday (because the plant will be shut down), Ennis has a bunch of preloads sitting around but they haven't called for them yet and so, you can come up here Monday if you like.  That was my invitation to take today off.  

I went over to the property to inspect the grass seed. Yes, it had been moved around by the rain but it appeared much/most of it still there. This is what happened last year, I ended up seeding 3 times before I was satisfied it was thick enough to look good.  

I don't want to do that this year.  I will just put seed down the second round without any indication of rain and see what happens. If that seed from last year can come up without rain, then so can fresh seed.  

Went back to the bridge daydreaming about having a house built back there.  Then thought about building a deck for a glamping tent and then thought, well, that's all nice fine and dandy, but I really need to expand the park. 

Having no experience with septic, it finally dawned on me that I could, indeed, put more lots and connect to the existing septic, it would simply mean having it pumped out every 6 months or so.  So, would that be worth it with a $450 price tag for every pump-out?  I dunno. There is space right next to lot 8 on the north end for another trailer.  In fact, I could make it another premium lot and have a large yard with a pine tree on it to boot.  I've already got the pedestal and the wire, I would need to simply connect in to the sewer line and T into the water line.  I would also have to have a truckload of gravel brought out.  

Looking at about $1,500 to build it - cheap compared to the "normal" price but that's simply because the infrastructure is already there and I already have the wire and the pedestal.  In fact, the most expensive thing would be the gravel. 

 Thursday - mid-morning

Slept in.  Needed it badly.  I woke up to find the dog laying next to the door giving me a strange look. Yes, Obi, I can see you need to go. At least he holds it in.  

According to my weather phone app, it's supposed to start raining around 1pm.  I've been here before, attempting to make plans according to the weather. You get closer to the time for rain and then it gets moved out and then it gets moved out again and sometimes, well many times, it never rains at all.

However.  I'm going to get my @$$ out of here soon enough, get the grass seed and get it put down on the lots only to start with. The rest of the areas can wait unless I have both the time and enough seed to cover more territory.  It's going to take a couple of hours, I'm guessing, from the time I leave here, get the trailer, get the seed and get it spread. It's not a difficult job, it's just going to consume a bit of time. 

I think I'm going to do that anyway, lol, I'm feeling pretty unmotivated right now.  I could just go back to bed, honestly, for a couple more hours and sleep.  

But no, I'm not going to do that, it's time to get some grass growing again, I've been looking at weeds and crabgrass for many months now, it's unsightly but there's nothing much I could do about it.  

I've been having a steady stream of overnighters coming in for the only available pull through lot.  Just curious how that just started popping up. I am thinking it's people heading to warmer states for the winter.  I'm not really in a "warmer" area, not with freezing temps in the winter.  It's not all winter long freezing temps, but it does get pretty cold at times.  In fact, the cool temps are starting next week starting on Monday with a high of 49 degrees and a low of 39, at least according to the weather app.

That's cold in my world.  It's probably cold in most people's world that don't live in those frozen regions up north.  

We have a mass shooter that killed at least 22 people and probably hurt a bunch more.  I am not watching much of it, the news is just focused on that and the war right now.  I watched enough of the news to find out they pretty much know who the guy is and who has apparently disappeared.  With the kind of manhunts LEO's do in such cases? I doubt it's going to be long before they find him and either arrest him or kill him.  

Well enough of this, now that I think of it. This grass seed is something I have been wanting to do for a while now, motivation or not, I'm heading out of here to get this done.

G'day

 Afternoon offload times make for a long day.  I got there early, but the first truck was still there.  He was there another hour after I got there. I still started unloading earlier than my appointment time but it wasn't really worth it to leave that early to find another truck there.  Didn't get home until after 6:00 pm.  Not the end of the world and at least it was still daylight - that will change as we get further into fall and then winter and it starts getting dark in the 5:00 o'clock range.  

So, when I was completely done - everything put up and put away - I went looking around for whoever to come check my work. I don't really have to do that but they seemed interested in making sure everything was correct.  Not in the office. Not in the production area, back to the office, where are these people?  I decided to just leave, I had everything right, I didn't have any issues leaving. 

I walked outside and remembered that they might be in the tank room.  That's where the product we deliver goes into those giant tanks.  I go in there, crawl around things - it's tight quarters and wasn't really built with mobility in mind, usability was their main goal - and saw something strange on the floor.  A stream of this resin was running.  Like, what? Now I'm fearing I did "something wrong". Went through my brain quickly to figure out that there is nothing I could have done excepting if a tank was overflowing. And if there was a tank overflowing, they are the ones that determined which tank to deliver the product to, I make sure I do that every single time.  

So I start following this stream of resin to it's source. There is a very long, fire-hose type material hose running on the floor from one room to some vats in the back of the other room.  I'm looking and there it is, a hole in the line spewing the stuff all over the place.  Definitely not my fault, this is old equipment and they need to redo all of that. Shouldn't be pipe that stuff on the floor through what amounts to an old fire hose.  

I hurried out of there to find someone - anyone.  Went on the production floor and found a dude operating some sort of control panel with all kinds of dials, buttons and switches on it. Hey! There is resin spewing out of a hole in a hose in the tank room all over the place!  It's not my business to deal with their problems, he asked if I had turned off the valve? What valve?  No! I did my self-appointed duty to find someone and tell them. He set off an alarm, people appeared out of nowhere and were shutting down the production line immediately.  Apparently a pre-planned course of action.  

I stood there for a few seconds taking all of that in.  These people were in a big hurry and they hadn't even checked to see if what I had told them was anything of value. But rest assured, resin shouldn't be spewing out of holes in lines.  It's not a health hazard, the floor is built to divert just such things into holding areas that don't allow anything to get into the ground or down drains and such.  But, I mean, those things can only hold so much liquid.  Anyway, the man came running past me to go into the tank room, I said just letting you know....thank you for letting us know....

I wasn't about to wait for them to check my work after all I had done to try and just find anyone.  I triple checked everything, the last thing I need is to add fuel to the fire by not having something right before I leave.  I am 100% confident that everything I did was correct and the only thing you really have to do is make sure you have all of the valves closed, the air and water turned off and obviously, the hoses disconnected and put away.  

I don't know what became of that, I would guess they turned off whatever valve runs liquid through that line and then did some sort of temporary fix on it. They are shutting the plant down, I found out today, for 15 days for maintenance and repairs.  What a time to have that happen, I just started working out of that plant and they are doing scheduled maintenance.  Gag.  

So, my load tomorrow was cancelled tho I don't know why, that has nothing to do with the maintenance.  Then I called again and asked if I wanted weekend work? No, you said I didn't have to work every weekend, I need Saturday and Sunday off and I emphasized my need to go to Church on Sunday.  That isn't a lie or even an exaggeration of the truth.  I kind of repeated that one several times, perhaps it would get into his head that this particular driver likes his Sundays off to go to church. 

He said, no, it's fine, I did say that and it's ok, I just wanted to be sure.  Ok, thank you.  Another call for  a preload on Friday.  I didn't want to but I said sure!  Lol.  It would be a very long day to go down to Nacogdoches, wash out the tank, down to Lufkin, load and drive clear up to El Dorado. It just takes forever to get to El Dorado.  Anyway, I wanted to be a team player to some extent and refusing to help out isn't really the definition of a team player. I do not consider telling them I don't want to work on weekends part of team playing. These were things I asked about before I ever went to Oregon.  Work one weekend, off the next, I guess I can deal with it tho I really don't want to.  

Yet another call - that preload was also cancelled.  Ok, well this is getting crazy, lol. He then tells me I can bring the truck up on Friday and switch back to my truck - or - I can do that on Monday.  I think he's just trying to find ways for me to make some money, he stated that I would get paid for driving up and switching out trucks.  However, there is no guarantee the truck will be finished on Friday. They ordered parts for the door and haven't received them yet, supposedly coming tomorrow.  

So I dunno about Friday, but maybe.  I was also informed that I would - likely - be training at the Ennis plant.  But, they can't give any definitive yes or no for that scenario apparently changes so frequently, they don't really like to hand out assignments for it until close to the actual delivery date.  So I have no idea what I"m doing next week but I do have at least 3 of the next 4 days off for sure. 

I'm going to get rye grass seed tomorrow if it doesn't rain me out first. There is a 42% chance of rain.  If that happens, I will probably do some tree trimming along the main driveway.  

Also watching this mass shooting on the news in Maine, 22 people dead in 3 separate locations.  A photo of a gunman with what appears to be an AR walking into a bowling alley.  Yikes.  Grainy pic of the rifle in the gunman's hands, but definitely appears to be an AR15, at least to me, they haven't identified the type of gun.  If it IS an AR, there are going to be more calls for banning them.  It will instantly turn into a political agenda, they will deride everyone for saying "thoughts and prayers" to the families and friends of the deceased and it will turn into a shit show.  

Whatever, my thoughts and prayers DO go out to everyone affected by this madness.  

I'm done, I think.  I had people calling for a lot for tonight. They still haven't shown up, it's after 9, they said they wouldn't come in until late and if that would be ok?  Well, yes it's ok, as long as you come down to the shed and take the U turn to get in there.  I had some people come in the wrong way and run over the pedestal on the lot you are taking.   It's not a big deal coming in at night if you go the correct way. There ARE signs.  It isn't left up to the person's guesswork.  I know they haven't shown up yet cause' there isn't a video of them showing them coming in. Lots of videos of vehicles going in, it's a fairly busy place at night.  Daytime it's basically dead, night time there are all kinds of vehicles coming and going.  

 I'm leaving 2-1/2 hours early today for Gurdon.  I was informed by the manager that I could do it, whether that was in perpetuity or not, I don't know, but getting there at noon sounds far more appealing than getting there at 2:00 pm.  If no one is there offloading, there isn't going to be anyone coming after that.  This gets me home at a decent hour versus getting home at 7 or later.  

If I thought I could get away with even earlier, I'd be almost there by now.  I am assuming this other guy that trained me the final day is getting the early spots.  Good for him, I guess, but this late day stuff is going to get old quickly.  

Anyway, I expect to go to the feed/seed store on Saturday, get around 250 pounds of seed and put it down.  Actually, I'm going to need to mow that existing junk down as low to the ground as I can get it.  I dunno, I'll be thinking about that today to figure out what to do.  

As of Monday, allegedly, the daytime high temps are going to come down substantially.  I say allegedly because these forecasters are garbage. You try to plan things according to the weather and at least half the time if not much more, they are wrong.  Often times so far off, it's ridiculous.  

I've got rye grass coming up all over the place from the seed I planted last year.  It isn't enough to give any kind of lush, green covering, but if that stuff can grow without any rain, I'm assuming it's getting it's moisture from dew.  I put down a lot of seed last year, a lot of it washed off, but washed off where? Well, apparently a lot of it got into the ground I guess. I dunno, but it's definitely rye grass and every site I've read says it has to be replanted every year.  

It doesn't like hot weather and will die off quickly.  This is basically my main focus right now for the park -  get it green again on the ground. I already have to mow weeds anyway, might as well be nice, luxurious grass.  I'm just going to have to buy a new mower, I've gotten quite a bit of use out of that one I bought used, but it's having problems firing up.  I think it's a fuel issue and I may very well remove the gas tank, clean it out and see if that fixes it.  It acts like it's being fuel starved.  

It is unbelievable watching this news of students at campuses calling Israel and evil entity for taking the fight back to Hamas.  The Turkish president calls Hamas a "liberation group", apparently attempting to normalize the idea that killing a bunch of innocent civilians is somehow acceptable and the idea of that nation that was attacked fighting back to be somehow evil.  Or students at MIT calling for an intifada, which I had to look up. Basically the eradication of Israel in the Palestine occupied territory.  

Even more amazing is the lack of condemnation from these University officials of these student uprisings that are clearly backing an evil organization that is funded and controlled by Iran, who hates Israel AND America and has made statements to that effect unequivocally clear that they would like both nations eradicated from the earth.  

These are curious times we are living in and I wonder where it's leading.  I can only say that your relationship with the Lord is more important than these things going on in this world. None of this is taking God by surprise.  Peace, inner peace, comes from the Lord, even in the midst of dire situations such as some of these university professors who are Jewish or are taking the side of Israel.  

It is indicative of what these colleges are teaching these students to see these students protesting against Israel.  It is also indicative, in my view, of the anti-God stance, basically atheist, that these students have.  I don't know what kinds of homes they are being brought up in, but if my conversations with a large number of Democrats is any kind of indicator, they are being taught that God is not real.  

Anyway, I need to get ready to leave here. Another day of driving up, offloading and driving back. I don't know about the truck, they haven't contacted me.  The truck that is "in the shop" or allegedly so.  I'm still feeling this company out, but it's become obvious to me that they are cheap and petty.

G'day

 I ask questions.  I am the curious type.  How does a thing work? What is the science behind it?  Just in my mind, the things you encounter in life are to be examined and if enjoyable, enjoyed and certainly attempt to have a basic understanding of things.  

So, I thought it odd that this driver that did the partial, last-day training for me didn't know how to judge when the tanks are full or empty.  It was the 4 feet that the tank shows filled after an entire truckload thing I was referring to in a previous entry.  He didn't know how they knew when a tank was full and when the loading hose had to be switched from the east to west tank or vice-versa.  

He's been doing this for years, the same route, all the time.  He doesn't really do anything else.  He said he was hired for this route and this route only.  He doesn't even want to do the Ennis run. I don't know why and it's none of my business.  

I found out from the man that runs that portion of the plant how many feet of the tank the gauge will move when you unload an entire truck into it.  At only 4 feet? Not that much.  Yesterday, it was at 4 feet before full and that's why the worker asked me to look at it. I said I already had, it's got just enough room for a truckload.  None of this is rocket science or brain surgery skills.  It's just information that is learned and the learning is there if you want to. 

Personally, I don't want to see their tanks overloaded to the point it overflows all over the floor. It's a disaster and cleaning it up is an equal disaster.  I wouldn't think it funny to see that happening or amusing or entertaining.  Much of the thinking I have encountered with drivers in this company is like union thinking: this is my job and the rest of THIS is NOT my job.  I was even lectured by one of them in Oregon that if you say you'll do something one time, they'll take that as a foot in the door to ask you to do it every time. 

I didn't really respond to that for I don't necessarily think that way.  Perhaps some things should be left to plant employees, but things that could affect you? Or your job, IE: the plant shuts down because of whatever and you lose that account temporarily?  

People just plain don't care. That's "their" problem.  

Just my thoughts tonight.  I will be heading back up there to offload again in the morning.  It's turning into a routine, not necessarily one that will continue much longer - or it might - or who knows?  

See, they have some sort of sensor in these trucks that tell them if the thing is going even 2 mph over the speed limit.  So, if you're going down a steep hill and happen to let it go over a little, you have this dinging noise coming into your ears.  That's craziness. Even the anal-retentive company I worked for the last job didn't care if I went over even 5 mph.  Of course, there is a report sent to the "safety department" and then you apparently hear from them. 

I haven't heard anything. But I can tell ya, I'm not in the mood for people getting rude, acting like tyrants with super-authority powers or whatever. They have nothing over me.  I like having health care coverage and these meager paychecks are better than nothing.  But seriously, working as much as I am every day, it's going to get to the point where I'm going to say to myself: self? Why are you working for sub-standard wages? 

It really isn't the wages as much as it is the hours involved getting those wages.  If you have to be involved with a job for 8 hours, you should be getting paid for 8 hours, miles be damned.  

Anyway, just some thoughts on a Tuesday night.  I have a 2:00 pm appointment time, but I am told I can show up early. Not too early, since there is another truck ahead of me apparently, but a couple of hours shouldn't be a problem.  You can't offload 2 trucks at the same time, it's only set up for one.  I intend on show up there around noon. Get out of there no later than 2 and get home around 4:30. Well, to my park anyway, home a little while later.  

BTW, there is both a Greyhound Bus stop in that town and hotels if it comes to that. Comes to what?  Finding a new place to work, silly. It just dawned on me a company that pays excellent wages and used to be based in our town.  They moved somewhere....gotta look into that.  

 Tuesday - semi early

They have given me work to keep me busy until Friday.  If they try to send me anything for the weekend, I will reject it.  I want the weekend off - I need the weekend off.  To do nothing or do many things, it makes no difference, I want something besides work.  I guess after this weekend, I will work 12 days in a row?  So far, it's just the Gurdon run.  I don't know if/when they are going to switch me to this Ennis run or what that even entails.  Not that it matters that much, it's probably more miles and a longer day, which I don't want.  

As I said in another post, if this job starts taking up too much time, I can go find something else that pays more with the same amount of hours.  I'm not saying anything to them about this for now.  

What I am going to do is start keeping record of how many hours I have worked each day and then I will calculate the hour rate.  I doubt it's anywhere near where it needs to be.  I hate to waste my time with a cheap company that doesn't pay, but I'm here now, getting the experience, not much of a choice in the matter atm. 

Well, yes there is, I just choose to stick with this a while longer and get this type of tanker down and have no issues with going anywhere, really, and just figuring stuff out at any given plant.  That's what those guys in Oregon do, if they are tasked with a "new" product they haven't done before, they just figure it out, step by step.  

I intend on leaving the yard (my yard) at 9:00 am, which is an hour from now and see what happens.  I've been leaving 3 hours early and that doesn't seem to work too well.  If I were just driving to Lufkin to load, it wouldn't be an issue. But, I'm driving to Nacogdoches to wash out the trailer and then to the plant to load.  If they have an issue with me showing up early at the Lufkin plant, they can tell me and I will alter all of this yet again. It really just depends on how long it takes to wash out the trailer.  

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Well I guess I forgot to post this, got distracted with starting the day and left.  The washout place kept me waiting for 30 minutes and the plant kept me waiting for almost an hour. So, that much time lost into nothingness and getting home that much later.  This truck I'm now driving is a pile of junk and I am going to call them tomorrow and find out how much longer before the pink classic is done.  But, I suspect they'll have to order the parts they said they were going to order and probably didn't.  

Or, that other guy will see it and tell them to give it to him instead.  I'm kind of thinking in the negative because so far, the entire experience has been almost completely negative.  The drivers I have encountered have been the only real exception, most of them are pretty cool guys.  

 By the time I left the park, it was like 10:30.  They wanted me to bring the truck first to the yard and then drive another truck up to the plant.  I decided against that and drove to the plant first, dumped that load and then spent 2-1/2 hours going on these back roads going through a bunch of small towns with slow speed limits and most of the highway speed limits are 55 mph. It's Arkansas and that's what they do.  Interstates being the exception.

There is no fast way to get to El Dorado and the location makes zero sense.  They should have a setup near an Interstate, not some hick town in the middle of nowhere that is far from Interstates and costs a lot of time to get to.  But whatever, this company is pretty backwards in its thinking all the way around.  

So I have this offloading down now.  No questions in my mind about any of it, just get it done.  One of the operators wanted me to keep checking their tank - that is not our venue and tho I know how to check it, that is really on them.   He was afraid it was going to overfill.  They have this setup with 2 giant tanks.  They're like 24 feet tall.  An entire tanker full of product only fills them up 4 feet worth.  That's a big tank lol.  

I went inside several times and checked the thing, it was getting close but I figured it would be right at it's maximum fill line and I would be done and I was correct.  I got done, put everything away and went back inside, something we don't really have to do but these people seem to want to check my work.  I asked them, I'm done, do you want to check my work or can I leave?  They wanted to check.  I figure they're looking for any spills and to ensure there are no lines still attached to the tanker.  Well of course not, I'm not going to just drive away with lines attached lol. 

What I was looking at was the fact that another driver had put the drip bucket into the containment area - this is the area where their line and filters and inlets are for their setup, if it leaks, it just stays in the containment area and yes, it leaks constantly while offloading - on the floor instead of up on the ledge.  They had used all of the cloth blankets to put the bucket on and had left a bunch underneath the bucket. It was all stuck on there. 

I was scratching my head. Do they have other new drivers and if so, why would they do this? There is obvious resin on the floor, why would you put the bucket into the resin?  I wondered if everyone would be blaming me for this mess. I cleaned up the cloth blankets and threw all of that in the trash and got out new ones.  

Off to El Dorado  - 2 hours worth of that, then 30 minutes in the yard dropping the trailer, moving the tractor, getting the other tractor, hooking up to the trailer, moving my stuff from one truck to another, updating the elog and then finally leaving.  I took another way to get home and it's definitely much easier drive and faster.  It was coming from Gurdon that took forever today.  There is only one way down and it's zig and zag and what a drag.  Going any other way looks like it would add 50-75 miles.  

Home several hours later.  They day was done for everyone else, the boys were already in bed and the parents not far behind them. Me? No thanks. I have to wind down, think about my next steps, catch up with the news, visit with the doggy, stuff like that.  

Whatever happens, I am keeping the goal front and center in my mind and with everything I am doing.  Pay off debt.  But I've got bills that are coming due that will have to move some of the goal further out.  The property taxes and the insurance, to be precise.  I'd love to pay off the washer and dryer, $800 owing on that.  Just get rid of $220 per month payment.  If you look at getting rid of payments, that one makes more sense than paying down credit card debt first. It's only $800 and it's $220 a month.  That's a decent chunk of change.  

Getting late.

 Monday - 8:00 am

I don't have to leave here until 11 am.  

The dog got up in the middle of the night, started wretching and puking all over the floor. Out with him fo the rest of the night, cleaned up the mess and went back to bed.

I thought maybe sitting on the situation (not the dog) overnight would help after writing a pretty anger-filled post last night and not posting it, and it has to some extent.  

The problem - the inside door latch quit working yesterday.  I have to roll the window down, lean out the window and reach down about 3 feet to open the door from the outside.  I complained about this door in Oregon and I said something to the mechanic in Arkansas and then I said something to the manager in Arkansas. It's not like I didn't say anything to anyone.

That and the AC only working half the time? I don't want to drive this truck again until they fix it. I'll take this load on there up today, but after that, I intend on forcing them to fix this damned thing.  It isn't so much that the door handle broke as it is I reported this several times over to the people that could do anything about fixing it.  And it's been warm so the inside of that truck gets nice and sticky with humidity and feeling icky in there with the AC not working.  

Last night? I was ready to quit.  I have had this feeling a couple of times with this company, most of it was over in Oregon going through that hellish orientation trying to sleep in that A frame office with that laundromat going on all hours of the night underneath me- and several other things that I have written in this blog for memory's sake. 

I need a job, but do I need this job? My senses told me before I even left for Oregon that I should just dump this idea and move on.  Move on to what? I don't know, there's go to be something out there local that will work for me.  I think what set me off initially was this idea that you have to bring a sleeping bag for the bed, the don't provide sheets.  When I got there, the whole situation escalated greatly.  I made sacrifices, to put it mildly, to work with this company.  

I think I should just start looking again and seeing what's out there.  I have to make a promise to myself that I will never knowingly go into something like this ordeal ever again.  In fact, I just now decided that yes, I'm just going to start looking for another place to work.  The only thing that might stop me is that I am getting experience on tankers that I have never done before and these types of tankers are all over the place. They use them for milk/dairy, gas/diesel/jet fuel, the resins I am hauling, caustic materials, all kinds of stuff.  Stick with it long enough and I can call myself experienced with it and open up a very broad field of opportunity.  

Cryo is ok, but local jobs are very limited.  I imagine they haul it from the Longview plant to plants in Dallas and Houston, I haven't found those jobs, yet.  Gasoline I could easily learn now, but you have to still find a place that will train you.  

Just calming myself down and letting some time pass was good. 

I'll just think about all of this for while and find out what their decision is on fixing the truck.  I shouldn't have to keep asking. I don't care how much of an inconvenience it is for them, it will certainly be an inconvenience for me if I have to take it to their shop in Arkansas and sit there and wait for who knows how long to fix the thing.  If more than a day, I expect them to do something other than put me in some horrific "bunkhouse" type of situation. There's hotels in El Dorado, amazingly, didn't think it was a big enough town for that.  

Anyway, just sent them a text now that it's Monday morning and they are all in that office up there.  We'll see how this goes......

And now they are asking me to bring the truck up there, of course.  I replied I need to deliver the load today.....

They aren't replying to that so I assume they want the load delivered and then, back to their yard, where they leave early so ......

well nix that. They want me to bring the truck up there, drop the trailer, get into another truck, take it up to deliver the load and then come back to the yard.  The mechanic will "work" on the truck while I'm gone, lmao.  Okkkkkkkkkk........

I'm leaving much earlier than I originally thought.  Give him as much time to see if he can deal with this today as possible. 

G'day

 Sunday  - not particularly early, but certainly early compared to anything I was doing before this job

I don't want to do anything today.  I'll just have to erase that from my mind and embrace all of this. Probably 7 hours total, leaving here at 10 am and likely arriving back at around 5 pm.  The kids will probably be home by then so that will be more stuff to deal with.

I can tell ya, I love the kids, but I also love the peace and quiet we get around this house when they aren't here.  If those kids are awake, there is something going on.  Screaming, fighting, loud laughing, running, they can be a real annoyance.  Don't take it wrong, I just like these infrequent breaks we get from them.  It's sort of a psychological thing where you have to get your mind back into the groove of constant noise. 

Anyway, when I got home yesterday, I decided I was going to take the dog for a walk.  He needed the release and I wanted to see the deer feeders that tenant bought, he has them up on both side of the rear of the property. Deer have been feeding at one of them, varmint at the other one - or both.  Well, I got out on the trails and the 2 night stay people were out there with their German Shepherd.  It didn't like Obi.  

It was a surprise as well, I walked around a turn and there they were, fortunately their dog was on a leash and for whatever reason I had Obi by the collar.  I just walked on, they asked if the trail goes around, I said yes but there is a section of weeds you would have to walk through.  I hate to have to say that, but it's true.  Oh, well we don't want to walk through weeds, we'll just turn around. Well, at least go to the bridge!  The lady said yes! Let's go to the bridge!  I left them since the dogs weren't getting along. 

This tenant is buying his own piece of property, clear out in a town that is literally out in the middle of nowhere.  I mean, whatever makes you happy.  I figure this town I am living in is small enough lol.  That place is 20 miles from the nearest town, which is our town.  He wants me to go out there with him to throw in my 2 cents worth, I don't mind doing that but not today.  I'll be out til 5 or later and then home to greet the kids and then I will have to take that load to Arkansas, tho the offload time is not until 2, which sucks.

I'll probably end up showing up a little early.  Half an hour anyway.  It's 2 hours offload so at best I'll be home by 6 pm tomorrow evening.  And then, I have no idea, they haven't sent me anything else. That doesn't mean they won't, I suspect I'll be working all week and then the weekend off.  If they don't give me the weekend off I will likely refuse any loads they try to dump on me.  I don't care, they aren't going to keep me on this kind of schedule endlessly.  This was their promise and it's beyond what I wanted to begin with, to take it even further? No thank you. If you don't think I'll refuse loads for next weekend, you don't know me very well. They could offer me double pay and I'd still turn it down.  I don't want to work that much, I don't care if it's shorter runs, it's still a full time job in the regular world.  

The trucking industry, as I have endlessly stated, doesn't care about driver's personal lives or mental health.  They don't care if you don't have opportunities to socialize with your friends or go to church.  They only know their greed and they want you to work and if you don't put your foot down, they will work you to death.  Because these trips are normally (I think and hope that 11 hour day was an anomaly) short, I could work every day until I die.  

It's a 70 hour work week, but it's not set  by days, it's just set by how many hours you worked the previous days.  If they don't add up to 70, you have however many hours it does add up to to be able to work.  So, in a 7 day work week, you would probably come up in the low 50's for the number of hours you had worked before any given day.  You would never run out of hours on the 70 hour clock.  If I were in my 20's and had no life, I might think about working every day, but I'd probably just go regional or OTR and make the money.  I'm in this for the money, yes, but not the high dollars you get for working 14-16 hour days.  

They keep saying Israel - the IDF - is about to go in - but it doesn't happen.  I'm guessing it will happen, who knows why they are holding off. Attempts to get more hostages released, a comprehensive invasion plan, getting their military situated? It's not a really good time in this world right now.  China, Russia, Iran. These are the main hostile actors and you combine all of that together and you have a scenario where people are talking about WWIII.

I dunno, but I'm 45 miles from an AFB with B-52 bombers and world headquarters, it is on a nuke target I am sure.  If a nuke comes, stand outside and wait for it, you won't be able to get far enough away fast enough, everyone else will have the same idea and the highways will be at a standstill. Might as well die at home.  Just a realist view of it. At a younger age I would have the flight fear reaction, now? 

I don't actually believe we are facing a nuclear war, I am just reading it all over the internet and references to it in the news.  I think I have enough problems to have to think about a war with whoever - china and russia - if it happens, it happens but the end of it is predictable and therefore, I just don't believe the big nations would start a war. Now, Iran? If they had nuke capability? You can be rest assured Israel is eyeing Iran in this military initiative.  Iran hates Israel and has called for its destruction throughout - well I think my entire life I have been hearing that rhetoric.

But back to my world? I'm fixing to leave.

G'day

 Saturday - early

Not my idea of a Saturday - the getting up early part - but whatever.  I got up early so I could enjoy some coffee and see what's going on over in Israel.  Nothing has really changed excepting they are reporting that Hezbollah has decided to fully involve itself in this war theater and so, I assume, a lot of them are going to die as well.  

And watching the politicians going full tilt meltdown.  I consider the Squad to be anti-Jew trash and they can go jump into an icy, cold lake. I don't say such things often or lightly, you can't take the side of terrorists that kill innocent civilians - or even if they did vote the Hamas in, you still don't take the battle to the civilians unless they are engaging in a guerrilla style warfare.  

If citizens in their districts keep voting them in, they are also anti-Jew trash, at least the constituents that voted for them.  If you are one of those people, yes, you are a pile of trash.  I don't suspect anyone that reads this journal takes sympathy with Hamas, but if you do, you have an idea of what I think of your viewpoint. 

This reminds me once again of the situation with Iranian students in the US protesting against our nation.  That didn't last very long if memory serves correctly as Americans had more balls back then and weren't putting up with this nonsense.  I could say a lot more, but this is as far as I go with it on the internet.  

Yes, I find this situation insufferable with so-called American citizens taking sides with evil, is what it boils down to.  

As hoped for, the current power bill, which just came up this morning, is lower than the last 2 months at around $1,300.  It's still high, the heat has lingered, AC's have still been pumping out the cold air during the daytime excepting during some days where the temps didn't go too high.  

Today slated to hit 90 degrees.  2 Mondays from now, if the forecasters are correct - which they more-often-than-not are wrong, the temps will go down and pretty much stay down.  The next coming week is low to mid 80's, after that we are going to be in the 70's.  

As an example of what I am now assuming is just taking guesses at what the weather will be like, a very high percentage chance of rain for tomorrow, Sunday, is now gone.  3% chance tomorrow and then 42% chance Monday.  The 4 day swath of pretty good percentage chances of rain this coming week? Down into the 20% range.  I could put up a dart board and then write in the little separate spaces on the board things like "90% chance of rain", "Cloudy with some blue skies", "Rain likely", throw a couple of darts and there ya go.  That's the forecast and about as accurate as what we get with these people that work at the national weather center, or whoever these people are and whoever is paying them for ridiculous, errant, wrong, zilch, nada, bad, incorrect weather forecasting.  

On a lighter note, the dog is doing well. He didn't wake me up last night, he does want out right now, lol.  But I'm fixing to leave so he can go out for the entire day, or at least until I get home. If I get home at a decent hour, I will take him to the property and take him for a nice, long walk.  Get some energy out, get him running around. He runs around the back yard tho.  He chases the Shepherd, they play together a lot.  I think it good for dogs to have other dog companions, especially when the humans in the house are gone for the day, which is basically every week day around here. 

Oh, I also slept fairly well last night. That is an amazing thing in and of itself.  It's around 5 hours total of driving today, 2-1/2 hours of total unload time including weighing in and out and finding the dude to indicate which tank he wants the product dumped into and signing off on it. That can take some time in and of itself.  I have my methodology down in my mind at this point at least.  I'm no longer worried about it, I made it through the first day alone without any issues and even had my work checked by a plant supervisor. He is welcome to check it whenever he wants, actually, doesn't bother me at all.  I just wish it wouldn't take so long to pump out the product.

It didn't take near as long to pump out similar product in Oregon. Maybe 45 minutes.  This is 2 hours and I have a gauge on the truck that shows the suspension load in terms of air pressure. It is at 70 right now, when it gets down to 22, I know it's almost done.  The 22 is the weight of the trailer itself pushing down on the air suspension.  I also have the pressure setting down pretty good.  I monitored it closely last time and finally figured the angle for the valve handle to leave it at to keep the pressure at 30 psi.  

I was initially told 25 psi, then I was told by the trainer that he goes as high as 41psi.  Others say in the 30's range, I'm just sticking with 30.  I don't want to do 25 because that will just make it take longer to offload. Mostly what I learned is to make sure the dome lid is on very tight so it doesn't leak any pressure out, that will cause offload times to go into overtime as well.  

I think the training was ok, not great, but ok, considering the wide disparity of ways these drivers do it.  They all end up getting it done without any problems but the lack of an actual method that is followed by everyone is - strange.  The driver I trained with the other day doesn't use the velcro straps.  I asked him about it, he just gave me a strange look.  I said, well, the company wants us to do it so I'm doing it on mine.  It isn't likely those arms would just fall down on their own, but if they both did at the same time, you would have a disaster.  You could turn the valve off - there is an internal valve you just hit a lever and it closes almost instantly. But you'd still have product on the ground and you'd have to report it and who knows what actions the plant might take against you.  

IE: ban you from their plant.  It takes 5 seconds to put the things on there, it's a safety net that I am willing to continue using just to have that peace of mind.  

Anyway, it's time to get out of here.

G'day

 Today was about as long as I want to go on any given day.  It took almost an hour for the washout, but amazing, it only took an hour to load the trailer. The first load took closer to 3 hours.  It was 7-1/2 hours round trip.  The washout was a new experience, nothing terrible tho. The person checking me had no idea what he was doing, apparently new to the office, he was actually doing the washouts and doing office work.  

Off from the washout place in Nacogdoches, over to the plant to load.  This guy there today was efficient, fast and wasted no time at all.  We suspected after discussing it that the previous crew was giving me a hard time for being new and wasted hours for no more reason than their own, personal entertainment.  

Back to my yard, the grumpy old man, lol, met me with a beer in his hand, asking about where the "alleged" firewood is? It's right there, dummy.  He was looking right at it and somehow didn't see it?  Whatever the case, I didn't feel like lingering at the park. My sleep was a mixed bag last night, waking up in the middle of the night and taking hours to get back to sleep.  

Tomorrow, I'm supposed to be up there to offload at 10:00 am, which I consider a decent time for it means not having to get up extremely early. Probably 6:00 am if I want my coffee time, but that's a far cry better than 2:30, 3:00, 3:30 am, etc.  So, get that thing offloaded no later than 12:30 pm (hopefully anyway), get the 2-1/2 hour trip back over with and be done by 3:00 pm.  The Arkansas portion of the trip is definitely longer both for more miles and a much longer time in the plant.  This is the run I'm doing for now, I don't know when they will start me on the Ennis TX run.  I don't really care if it's never, but the plant is south of Dallas so not a terribly long drive, but definitely more miles than what I am doing now.  

Ennis is 150 miles, but 3/4's of it is 70 mph at least Interstate.  I'm not going to concern myself with something I haven't been scheduled to do yet. I have to finish this run tomorrow and then start over again on Sunday - and hope that Sunday goes at least as fast as today did.  That'll put me back here, in my bedroom, early, even before the automatic internal sleep thing kicks in. 

Oh, I somehow mistakenly thought today was Saturday. I dunno, folks, you start to lose track of days in the trucking industry. They don't care about your weekends, they DO care about theirs.  I really want Sundays off permanently and I am going to have to cross that bridge here pretty quick.  I will also want at least some Saturdays off as well.  I probably won't be offered Sundays off and I will have to decide whether to eat it.  I will probably eat it, because starting at yet another company atm doesn't sound particularly enjoyable. Not after what I just went through getting the training done with this company.  It's easily the worst time I have ever had at an orientation/training. 

It's a no-contest thing, where I can think back to other places I have worked including the last job and think, orientation was a breeze compared to this place.  

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Dinner done, lunch for tomorrow made, dog fed, everyone gone - they went on a dinner date, no kids still, I'm tired, I'm going to lay down, watch some tv for a few hours (still early) and go to bed. 

 Nothing fancy this morning.  Saturday - early and drinking coffee after already having had taken a shower and pretty much ready to go.  

So we have Israel going up against Hamas, Hezbollah allegedly going to join the fight against Israel, we have Russia v Ukraine, China threatening war against Taiwan and allegedly North Korea was involved in the initial assault of Hamas killing well over 1,000 Israeli citizens.  Anyone ever think we might be on the brink of a world war here?  Iran is threatening Israel as well, but Iran controls Hamas so that's nothing new or shocking.  

Biden claims Israel wants to "completely annihilate it's neighbors, completely annihilate it", which is a ridiculous and outrageous statement.  Israel has no intention of intentionally killing Palestinian people, they are out for Hamas, while Hamas is using it's ago old tactics of human shields, including the killing of over 500 people in that hospital. They're saying it was an accident, I have my doubts.  

"Pray for the Peace of Jerusalem".  That's the only thing I can do about this, trust that God has His plan in place, for the scriptures clearly say that Israel is the apple of God's eye and it becomes obvious with many scriptures through the Bible that Israel is his chosen nation.  God is the same yesterday, today and forever.  

Oh, it didn't take long to figure out the reason I don't pickup and deliver the product in the same day is that it's impossible to do so in 14 hours.  It's around 7 - 8 hours to load and that long at least to offload. Plus the driving is likely more than 11 hours. It doesn't bother me, I'm glad it doesn't all happen in one day or I would be running 14 hours every single day.  I wouldn't be working there under such conditions and I don't want to come anywhere near 14 hours on any given day.  Exceptions are ok if something breaks down or something happens at a plant, but certainly not on a continuous basis.

Well anyway, it's about time to leave.  The kids are coming home today or tomorrow.  The house has been quiet.  Taylor is heavy with that baby and suffering pretty good. Another week and a half and it's coming out.  I am just wandering through this current phase of life wondering why I am doing all of this, effectively working 2 full time jobs.  I know why I took this trucking job, but was it the right choice? It's kind of saving my @$$ right now, so at least temporarily, I'd have to say probably.

But did I seek God about what He wanted for me right now? Not really. I just figured it was the "right thing to do" and here I am.  So now, a little late in the day, I am praying and seeking the Lord His will concerning all of this and some direction about what I should be doing next. Keep working like this indefinitely?  I don't know, but I don't want to do this forever, that's for sure.  I don't even know if I could last a couple years doing this and the park.  

Time to leave.

G'day

 It took far more work than I anticipated to get a truck route going through that area.  It was a lot more dirt than I expected and ended up having to haul it from other areas.  I could say I wish I would have never dug that trench in the first place, but seriously, I had a vision for a HipCamp area that in the end? Never panned out.  I could probably produce an effective Hipcamp arrangement, but it, like everything else, would cost money. I would rather gamble on a Glamping tent than a Hipcamp setup at this point.  Or just add more spaces to the park, but of course that costs a lot more money.  

I dunno, but I worked my @$$ off getting that all done, the only thing left is taking the tree trimmer over there. it's basically an electric chainsaw on a pole that can reach up probably 15 feet with my long arms anyway.  That's probably 20 minutes worth of work I need to do there and frankly, I'm done for the day.  That trimer is her at the house. After I left the park, it was bank, near Harbor Freight, Great clips, lunch, Krogers and then home.  

I was kind of sad, actually, to have to chop that tree down.  It was about 25 feet tall and was living a good life. Well, I chopped it up into firewood sized chunks and so, it can be used for something at least.  There was absolutely no way to make it around that tree, unfortunately.  I don't even know if I want to continue with this job, but for now, I'm going to make accommodations for it and having today off was the perfect timing for it.  

Tomorrow is a trip to Lufkin again to get loaded. I think they are going to have me on this run for a short while to get used to it.  The trip will now entail stopping at a washout before getting to the loading plant.   The manager said today that I should add about an hour for the washout, meaning leave an hour earlier that I would if I were just driving straight to Lufkin.  It's a 10:00 am load time. I'm going to leave 3 hours in advance to figure this out and leave ample time.  The load doesn't deliver tomorrow, so unless I get stuck at that plant for another 3 hours, I should be heading home around noon.  Or earlier.  I want short days, that's what I signed up for. 

Not 11 hour days such as yesterday. My mind is here: if you are going to work me 11 hours, you are going to pay me for 11 hours whether the miles reflect that or not. I'm trying to keep my mouth shut for now, because I'm just now getting out of training and the whole scenario - should - change.  We'll see, but now that I'm back into this nonsense, I have no problem finding another job if it becomes necessary. Let's hope it doesn't become necessary, I don't want to have to go through this again.\

And even if it's not what I want, I will probably stick with it long enough to get this kind of trailer hauling down to a science. I can tell you that I haven't forgotten anything about hauling the cryo products I was hauling before. It's all methodical. Do this, that, the other thing, back to this and get it cranking. All you want to do is get the stuff out of your tanker and into their tank.  It's the process of getting it there that can get confusing and even a bit complicated - only because there is no continuity to how it should be done. 

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The day is done. I figure to get up at 5:30 am for coffee and time to reflect, contemplate and pray.  I need to leave my park at around 7:00 am. That's enough time to get washed out and get down to the plant on time for the loading.