Things Of Various Nature

I got my carpet cleaning machine - but not free. No big deal, I got it for almost half off. Not a bad deal considering I still have some Christmas money from my mother to deal with. She has a set amount of money for each of her 3 boys to spend on Christmas - and I'm guessing they buy their own present as well, but don't quote me on that. I have no clue, really, what or how she deals with my brothers.

I finally have a date set for Saturday morning at a Starbucks in the west valley with a 'gorgeous' blonde, she quotes herself being as. Actually, I have seen her pic, she's not bad looking for a girl just a little less than my age. I'm amazed she is still making babies, though. But - if what she says is true - she's going for a doctorate's in an education degree and also works. Very admirable - again - if true. I have given up on formal education, the cost is prohibitive and the gains are not that much. Perhaps the gains would be significant if I went for something that takes - 8 years probably - to get a degree in, such as being a lawyer - I don't have the energy.

Going to work, coming home and doing that for years on end is out of the question for me. I would like to take some courses - in something - I think it good to continue to learn things throughout the course of your life, but at 45, I simply am not going to learn "how to be a lawyer". I could do the paralegal thing in 2 years. Again, at 45k, I don't see the benefits of it. The cost of education is through the roof and won't be landing on me anytime soon. I have enough financial problems in life to also be dealing with a school loan. They come after you, too, trust me when I say that, I know many people who have had wages garnished for however long it takes to pay them back.

That is a pressure I don't need or want this late in life. I have other ambitions to make money - but - as always - it takes money to make money.

Ummm - so - it was "suggested" to me in a PM on the other blog host by a person I have come to like that there is another person on that site that is looking and what do I think about that, basically. Uhhh, that's a kinda difficult question, really. I had already thought about that option, if it is indeed even an option. Dunno. I'm going on this date Saturday and see if and where this goes, then I will think about that potential.

I took a 45 minute nap this afternoon after getting home from work - I am not sleeping well at all. I wake up at midnight now and lucky if I'm back to sleep after 2 hours. I am going to take reading material into my room at this point. When I wake up, I'm going to start reading until I get sleepy again and fall asleep. Try, anyway.

I have spent no small amount of time working on the east side of my house today - it is a little closer, but still have lots to go to get it ready for planting grass seed.

Enough.
ben

Tenant Issues

What else is new.

The older gent informed me today he needs to move out at the end of the month because of a situation with his daughter. She is renting an apartment, the lease isn't completed for a while and her roommate lost his job, meaning he has to move out and - no-one to pay the other half of the rent bill.

So he's moving in with her to help her out. Well what am I going to say, well gee dude, that's really rank of you? No, no big deal, thanks for letting me know far enough in advance to hopefully get someone else in here. Not really looking forward to having to have yet another person move out and potentially another move in, but that's life right now.

Though, it may very real be searching for 2 more tenants. I left the "non-paying-tenant-who-has-partially-paid" another 5-day notice. Today, he came in and walked by me without speaking a word. Indeed.

I got my bonus today - almost $450 after taxes - it will help me keep up with all of the mess I am going through now. Yup - a bonus that is going to help shore up the eaves, not for doing whatever I want with it. Sucks in one sense, in another, wonderful that I have got a bonus to begin with.

Non-paying tenant is in "his" room - did not address me about the notice and therefore - I assume that eviction process will have to go into full swing.

So - today I was feeling very good - dunno why, but I'll take it. I mean, REALLY good. Non-paying tenants aside and tenants moving out - this is a factor I will be dealing with as long as I have tenants - it was a good and very busy day.

I was at a jobsite today - in the middle of a street, lol. Literally, they shut down the street to unload my truck. This was interesting - people aren't particularly happy about having to wait - yet, there are signs warning them of such well in advance. Still, you don't have to figure to wait THAT long. The City of Mesa is bent on getting this project done and behind them - this particular situation made all the local news media when it first began and I'm sure they'd like to get the attention off of that situation.

But I'm tired now. I have spent considerable time dealing with the Walmart situation after work concluded today and it isn't over yet. In fact, I may just escalate this situation to an entirely new level if it continues.

I have other things to report, the Walmart scenario - all of it for today's adventure - is on the other blog. Perhaps I'll just copy and paste that into an entry over here.

Anyways, Ava' g'nite and c'ya later!
ben

Monday

I was so tired today coming home from work that I bypassed stopping at the grocery store.
My total bad.
And no, I am not going up there now, even IF it's only a mile away.
I have absolutely no fresh vegetables in the house. No lettuce; tomatoes; onions; mushrooms - on and on. I consumed the rest of what I had this weekend. I did have a salad for lunch this afternoon, so I don't feel totally bad about not having anything here - but still.

My fatigue is caused by waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to get back to sleep. This is not an infrequent occurence for me - but - I usually end up getting enough sleep anyway so I'm good for the next day.

Not last night. I figure at most I got 5 hours of sleep and I was busting butt at work today.

Ummm, that is it for now. Short entry - yes - just don't have it in me to write a long detail of things going on.
ben

Sunday - My Trip To Walmart

I think this time I'mg going to put the location of this WalMart on here: It's located in Tempe, Arizona, at Elliot and Priest.

I don't seem to be able to make a trip to Walmart without some kind of bs - usually lousy customer service - involved. I go there anyway, always with a mission. Today's mission was to get a Hoover Steam Vac With Surge F5914-900. Yes, they had a display model, no they had none in the box - and they didn't even have a location for a place for them, just the model location.

Thinking that odd, I got a person over there to check it out. None in stock in the back, either, but 4 on backorder with no intended date of arrival. Can you please tell me if there is one at another store? His little handheld device actually had all of that information in there, including the "fact" that there is one at the store right down the road from where I work.

Okay, not the end of the world - I can pick one up after work this coming week, right?

Okay, well, I always go to the deli counter if I'm going to Walmart because they have good prices on turkey and ham - sliced to order of course. Note that my visits to Walmart are at most once a month average where it used to be I would be going in there at least once a week. The deli counter is always a wonderful place - there are usually 3 or 4 gals working in the back. And usually, they ignore customers for a while before whatever it is they're doing - they get done with, and then, and ONLY then, they will come up and help customers waiting.

Typical Walmart BS. Today, there was a man already being helped and I know from experience at this store that probably, a second customer service associate will NOT come up and start helping people, you have to wait. I decided against waiting 10 or more minutes for a pound of honey breast turkey. I went over to the seafood counter as I thought it would be nice to have some cooked and already de-veined, fresh shrimp this afternoon. There was NO-ONE in sight over there. I stood there for a minute weighing my options. I seriously considered going back there and helping myself. There are no signs saying I couldn't go behind the display case and no signs saying I can't just get my own bag and load it up with shrimp.

Of course, I wouldn't have a clue as to how to work the scale thingy that prints out a sticker with the price on it, but - if I really wanted to make my case, I could do it, go to check out - and then see what happens. I didn't do that. I gave up and walked away. Did some other stuff - and then, as is my want, called the store - from within the store. It was a new manager lady - she hasn't been working there very long and she was totally disinterested. I spoke my peace short and sweet. Went up to the garden center counter - I was going to buy some perennials from there if their prices were better than Home Depot - not at all.

Half flats at Home Depot are $5 and change, they weren't even selling half flats, just the 6 packs. The lady ringing me up there said that many customers have complained about the deli counter. Ohhhh?

I called this manager again, this time informing her that apparently, your own customer service reps know about this problem, why is it never addressed? She had no answers for me, I didn't expect any. I called the district manager's office and left a message. Now they really are interested in customer's opinions. They will call back tomorrow, just about guaranteed and ask what happened. I will tell them - I have never called them on the deli counter stuff but I figure it's time - it's been going on for YEARS at that particular location, and see if they can do anything about it.

But I have my own methodology in mind. Next time - which won't be anytime soon, really - I go in there, I am going to demand that another associate come up to help customers if only one is helping customers. When they ignore me, then I'll drag a manager over there and see what might happen. The only real way to get these people to change their ways is to force the issue. Note that the same personnel have been working at that deli for literally years now. A short little Asian woman is the one that normally services customers - and that after you have waited there (if no one else is there getting served) for a couple to several minutes while she does her thing, totally ignoring you. Or, she might say it'll be a second - usually at least 120 seconds and even more than that.

It's really quite unbelievable. I will invite the store manager to "spy" on their own workers - they can do that easily through the extensive video surveillance they have in every single store - and watch what happens when any given customer comes up to the counter to get some meats or cheeses cut and packaged for them.

The only thing today's visit did for me was to further entrench into my mind that Walmart has some of the worst customer service in the world, really, and that I really do NOT want to go in there very often and be subjected to it.

I'm not angry or even unhappy right now, I have come to expect this kind of thing from that particular store. My take is that they simply don't pay for quality help. Walmart would go out of business if they actually paid their associates anything. They couldn't possibly keep their brand title with the happy faces and constantly lowering prices and all that riggormoroo if they paid their associates, say, $12 per hours instead of minimum or close to that wage. Even $12 is rather pathetic, but it's a far cry better than taking home $7.25 per hour.

I do no support Walmart. I do go there here and there, yes, I won't lie. But the main brunt of my expenditures for everyday items is NOT at Walmart and not likely ever to be so again. I have done my Walmart rant many times on my blogs before, yes, long-time readers will see me doing this yet again and probably shake your head. No matter - I like to put this stuff out in the open because - these things are "crawled" and the crawls end up in internet search engines. People find this site because of it and see what I have to say.

Just like there's nothing better than customers giving kudos and praise to a store in terms of advertisement, there is also nothing worse for a store than for customers to rant about something bad that has happened - or in this case occurs on a regular, consistent basis - in any given store.

So there it is. Another Walmart rant, likely not the last one, either. Probably, the next time I go in there, I am going to follow through with my deli counter idea and probably, I will have a very interesting story to tell about that experience, if/when it occurs.

As for the rest of today? Cleaning, cleaning, cleaning. I just fixed the shelf in the refrigerator - Super Glue does wonders for stuff like that - and then started cleaning the fridge out, one shelf at a time. However, I threw the dogs out earlier and they have been out there for hours now, so I decided while I have them out there it would be a good time to sweep and mop the kitchen and utility room floor. That is done, the dogs can come back in - though they don't know that yet. They made me mad this morning and I had had enough - animals were made for the outdoors, some quality time spent out there certainly isn't going to hurt my feelings - it's beautiful outside anyway.

I have stuff to do outside, but my main focus today, really, is getting the inside of the house spic and span clean.

Have a great one!
ben

Saturday

Yeah, I know it's been a few days since I posted here - I have been busy and just posting on one blog was more than enough.

I'm still mulling the situation with Michael. I haven't seen him in going on 3 weeks now - and no, I didn't kick him out - but the info that came my way yesterday, though not surprising was still disturbing to me. He's basically fallen into the ways of the rest of his family. He's not going to school at all now and he's smoking weed all day long - just like the rest of them. It will not surprise me to eventually hear of him getting into trouble for stealing of some sort.

It's disturbing in that he's been living with me for 5 years now - a few stints here and there where he left to be at home for a short period of time - but this time, not even a goodbye. Just leave and act is if none of us ever existed. It's not just me, either, it's his friends in the neighborhood as well. I will not, however, have him showing up here out of the blue some day - which likely will happen - and have him thinking he can stay here without going to school OR while smoking pot. He can just stay at his family's house to do that, they are all birds of a feather in that regard.

Well, enough of that. The food consumption around here has dropped dramatically without him being here, which is a good thing in one respect, but - if it meant keeping him off of drugs AND going to school, then really not a good tradeoff from my perspective. Again, I would be pretty reasonably sure in saying that the reason he isn't coming around at all now is because he knows my stance on school and drugs/pot. I don't really want that kind of influence around my son or JD - my son's friend who lives down the street. They are both totally straight kids, have made it into the Junior years at high school without doing all the junk and I would like to see that "trend" continue on throughout high school.

I ended up getting 2 and a half "extra" hours at work this week. Not a lot, but if I could swing that next week as well, that's 5 extra hours on my paycheck and yes, I could use that money just about now. The "non-paying-but paying-tenant" informed me of some check that he is expecting in the mail today and would I please slide it under the door. Apparently his way of telling me that he is going to give me money after he gets that check. Well, I hope so, really I do, because I will simply issue another 5-day notice on Monday if he doesn't hand over at least $100 by this weekend. I think he figured that out after I did that on Monday of this week. Yup, after receiving a partial payment, I have to issue a 5-day notice all over again.

Today? Well it's beautiful outside and I'm headed out there shortly to continue raking up rocks. I am making piles of them on the east side of the house and then sitting down and sorting through them. The rocks have both river rock (ugly) and the natural rock that is underground here. The natural rock I put into now-empty planters and haul out front to continue on with trying to get all the ground out there covered, the river rock goes into the trash can.

It's a very tedious task but it's one that must be done. I mean, I could just trash all of it, but I have some barren spots out front that need covering. It's good exercise and since the weather is perfect - at least in the mornings, it's still getting warm in the afternoons - I want to take advantage of it. I'm also going to head up to Home Depot and buy a couple large bags of mulch and start that grass project all over again. I assume the grass I put down is not going to grow because I didn't cover it. I just couldn't remember how I did that last time I did it - which was many years ago. The point is that the mulch keeps the moisture in so that the seed stays wet at all times.

Since I'm going there, I will probably buy a few more Petunias and Stock to finish the effect out front. The flowers transplanted nicely - one flower out of all of that drooped over and died, the rest are doing perfectly well and putting out such a wondeful fragrance.

I just checked Caleb's Geometry grade after getting that 24 out of 25 earlier this week his overall average is a C- !!!! Yayyyyyy! A FAR cry better than an F!!! He's also done much better in his German class - I sorta gave him a hard time about that because he had F's in classwork and homework - now I am seeing 100% on both those current categories and he just got a B+ on a test this week. Anyway, he now has 4 B's and 2 C's in his classes.

I know it doesn't set well with some folk, but I am going to reward him for the obvious effort he is putting into getting his grades up. I'm not sure what yet, but I will think of something - probably a few bucks or a trip to the movies or something like that.

Ummm, anyway, I best be getting out and about.

Have a great Saturday!
ben

Wednesday

So - I spent an hour or more this morning loading up the truck and then a trip up into the mountains. Woo-hooooooo!

Got my camera freshly charged for just such occasion as might pop up to warrant taking some pic - and more to the point - hopefully pics of Autumn in full swing.

I'm also here - here at work that is - even earlier than I normally come in so I can spend a few quality minutes reading the trashy world news, drinking free coffee and basically waking up. No, I am not on the company clock when I'm doing this, which is pretty much a daily event. I intend on signing in early, though, cause' a truck is showing up early and then I have a pretty good drive ahead of me and want to get a good jump on the day.

Ummmm - now I'm reading an email to me from the boss saying something different - well not different. We are delivering to a project for ADOT - Arizona Department of Transportation - and though it probably doesn't say it on the ticket, they are specifying we use American made fittings. Yes, we have such fittings, mixed in with a pile of fittings also made in China.

Yup, they say China right on them just as the American made versions - actually don't say made in America, it's just a particular brand that is only made (allegedly but really it's not true anyway) in America.

The other blog is apparently down - I always wait in wonder on the smaller blog hosts to see if I will actually have a blog after the day is over or if everything is lost. One would hope a hosting site would back up their material - but - we have found out that hard way - that certainly isn't always true, now is it?

So that's it, really. Just excited about a nice road trip. I don't usually get to do the mountain trips, I really don't know why our branch is doing this one - perhaps a mistake. But, the main branch is very busy today from what I heard so even if it was a mistake, they wouldn't have been able to do it anyway.

C'yall later - ava' great day!
ben

Tuesday

I'm going to have to figure out how to post pics on this site that show the entire pic, instead of half of it. That is rather annoying. Perhaps changing the size when I snap the shots - but then they don't look as good. Anyone have any suggestions?

I have already posted in my other blog the same thing I am going to post here, there is no need to re-write it twice so I'm copying and pasting that stuff.


First, my son just called me. He took a 25 question test in Geometry today. He went to Homework Lab yesterday and this morning he went in to get help from his Geometry teacher before school. I was puzzled about him going to see his teacher before school because we butted heads about that situation on Sunday. He didn’t want to have to do that because he’s already going to Homework Lab after school, I wanted him to do BOTH until his grade in that class comes up to at least a C average.

I’m guessing he’s trying to make me happy with him by doing everything that I am asking - well demanding in some things as I find much of it unacceptable - and today was the best news yet. He got 24 out of 25 correct! Yes, folks, that’s an A - he hasn’t come anywhere close to that at all this year. His teacher gave him his score early - a thing that teacher never does, because Caleb told him this morning that he HAS to get at least a C- minus in that test today or much heavier study time is going to be ‘induced’.

I’ll call my jubilation over his grade today “Temporal Elation”. Elated, yes, but only for right NOW. There are lots of tests to go and he is going to have to continue to work hard to keep his grade up in that class. He will be rewarded for doing - almost miraculous - job on that test today. Dunno what, yet, didn’t tell him that either. Probaby send him off to the movies or something.

The other bit of good news is that I am actually getting a bonus this year! Like next week!! Freakin’ too me TOTALLY by surprise. A company that’s laying off people; shutting down stores; getting rid of equipment; cutting back hours; this that and the other thing and the come along and surprise us with a bonus? I’ll take it!! Yayyyy!

Another nice thing that is going to happen is that tomorrow I get to take a trip up to Globe. The whole area up there is basically mining based economy. There is an old mine right next to the main highway going through there and this time I am going to take a minute to stop and get a pic of it. It’s basically a man-made canyon, really. It’s huge and breathtaking. I love taking the scenic routes up into the mountains, and I’ll bet there will be some autumn colors along the way once I start getting up in elevation!! I hope to be able to get some pics of that, too. Take my break time to stop a couple of times and hopefully get some good pics.

I get a day of reprieve from all the negativity. The tenant handing me some money last night was - at least helpful. Better than nothing at all.

So, that's the copied from the other journal but not stale news going on.

I'm very psyched about the prospect of driving up to Globe tomorrow. I will be driving through several areas where Autumn colors should be showing very beautiful, paintable, picturesque scenes. I'm going to recharge my camera tonight to make sure I don't miss the opportunity to capture some of that on - well it isn't film, so whaddya callit? Caputure it into electronic circuits that keep those pics in there somehow - probably they invented how to stuff a person into a container that is the size of maybe a large jewelry box - well you never know - and he or she does all of that in there.

Hey, I'm just open to a wide range of things. 30 years ago would you have thought that the technology we have today was even possible, much less in the hands of virtually everyone on the planet? Talking on telephones through the air? The list is long, not even worth going into.

I would probably not just drive up there on my own to see Autumn. What fun is that? It would be fun, yes, I can make it fun on my own, but I sooo need someone to share my life with.

Ummm, so that's it. A beautiful day here - temps up in the high 80's I think is what it got to. Though, you go into the direct sunlight and it is definitely much hotter than that.

I'm hungry and it's right at my no-eat time - I'll cheat a little, only at once today.

G'nite.
ben

Monday/Hot On The Trail

A lady that I "met" online through Craigslist - I placed an ad and she was one that responded - well we have been writing each other for some time now. Months and months anyway.
The problem is that she lives in Flagstaff and I, of course, live in Phoenix. We talked about everything in mostly PM's for quite a while and though I thought we could definitely make a good fit with each other - I finally had to come to the conclusion that attempting to date someone that doesn't live in the same metro area probably isn't going to work for me.
We talked yesterday - she said I am too busy for her, but really, I can't just drop what I'm doing and drive up to Flagstaff, plus I don't really LIKE driving much anymore - and that's really my problem with it. We parted ways amiably.

I gave some thought to this before this conversation yesterday. There are millions of people in the Phoenix area, surely there is somewhere here that I could meet up with and hopefully we are compatible with each other. I hope the best for her, I truly do, she is a great lady/person and it shows through the time we've spent "together" chatting in IM's.

But, once it was mutually agreed upon to part ways, had another ad up on Craigslist. This one a bit different than most of what I see on there - and yes it got a lot of attention. So I am attempting to figure out if any of those respondents are something that would work out mutually - only way to do that is by a lot of correspondence back and forth.

Oops, one wants to speak on the phone later. I'm far more preferential to a lot of writing back and forth first, but that's just me. I would rather just go meet a person, in-person, than doing endless chatting on the phone. Might as well speak together - I don't really care the place - a Starbucks or something similar would work for me.

I'm thinking I'm ready to start dating again - I say that and then something with the ex comes up and then I remember why I am divorced and not with a woman. BUT - there is a built-in need for companionship with the opposite sex, I won't deny that and I won't even try.

Huge time lapse = got busy doing other things = I'm tired and ready to go to bed.

Ava' good evening!
ben

BBQ - PICS

Ahhh, yes, I found the energy after a full day's work and yes, I fired up that BBQ.\\

It did not, however, want to cooperate. I turned the valves on and - nothing.

Got me a little stick and hit the regulator - yes hard enough to free it up - and yes, gas started flowing.

Pork chops and chicken.

I'm only writing because I'm ecstatic that the weather has changed so dramatically and it's actually NICE to be outside again.

I have only been in the house today to write a couple of posts - though I posted a bunch of pics on my other journal and that took QUITE some time.

If I remember correctly, posting pics here is MUCH easier, simply copy and paste.

Okay, so I did it. I posted the pics. I did not give the explanations here as I did on the other blog - if you have questions about any one or more pics, simply ask or - go to the other blog and explanations are given under each photo.

I will say that this my property - a lot of it but not all of it. Especially cool were the plantings of the flowers today into the pots - shown in some of the pics, of course!

Dang, I forgot, this blog cuts the pics in half. I'm serious, you look at those pics, there is half the view on there. To see the whole version of any pic, just click on the pic. To see a bigger version, click on the pic that shows up after you clicked on the pic the first time.

400th Post

I can hardly imagine that I have put up 400 posts on this site including this one, especially considering this is not really my main blog right now. Well - perhaps it's really a close mix of half and half. A little more than half on the other blog, just a little less here.

No biggies.

Grass cut. Fertilizer applied. Watered. Fence posts and fencing put up. Grass seed applied. Watering now.

That's consumed several hours of this day - that on top of everything else I have already done.

I look around the INSIDE of my house and figure a cleaning rampage is in-cue. But I am running out of steam, it's gonna have to be tomorrow morning when I start that - though I intend on at least cleaning my bathroom today.

In fact, really, I don't plan on doing anything else outside today. I was going to BBQ, but unless I get really worked up for it - which I am just drained out of energy - I doubt that's going to happen either. Although it would be cool to BBQ the package of center cup pork chops I have in the fridge. I have BBQ'ed in a couple of months. I was grilling outside well into the summer but got incredibly sick of the heat and wanted nothing to do with it, not even cooking out there.

It's no surprise, as I may have mentioned on here before, that this is the second hottest summer ON RECORD. Well, folks, they have been keeping records for a long, long time here.

BTW, how do you "work" thousands of grass seeds 1/4 inch into the ground? That is what the directions on the bag say to do, yet give no comprehension whatsoever on exactly HOW a person is supposed to accomplish this feat? I was going around just taking the steel rake and puncturing holes everywhere, but - I need to water more in areas where it's not quite soft enough to easily go into the ground yet.

I do know they make a device that puts holes into the ground - I am hardly spending that kind of money on this little patch of grass. I'm going to have to do some internet scouring and see if I can find some tips about that little gem. I fully intend on planting the seed on the east side of the house - I have a LOT of seed left over. I think I could plant grass EVERYWHERE if I really wanted to.

I don't really want to : )

Okay, I think I am going to go back outside and admire my handiwork out front. Heck, I might just take some pics and post them up for everyone to see!

Later.
ben

Saturday

After doing all the work this morning - would have to see other blog to find out about that, but in a nutshell I bought perennials today and planted them along with starting the groundwork to plant winter/rye grass and a lot of other stuff - I took a break.

But - it's time to start grilling outdoors again. I went and filled up my propane bottle which has been empty for quite some time in anticipation of grilling at least one package of the bone-in chicken breast I bought at Safeway yesterday (99 cents per pound).

2 tenants have paid up and my dad sent what is becoming his 'usual' amount to help me out during these tough economic times. The non-paying tenant - well it's really getting to me. He promised to pay this week yet he walks through here and produces nothing. Not even excuses, there is literally nothing. I will be thinking about writing up another 5-day notice tomorrow. I say another - as I have had to do with other tenants who didn't pay such as Mary and Justine.

I still can't believe this guy is doing this to me. He NEVER withheld rent money in the past when he lived here before. Seriously, he always paid on time and it wasn't an issue. I truly hope I don't have to take him to eviction court - it would be a waste of my money in filing the suit and then if I wanted that money and rent money back, I would have to go for a wage garnishment.

MUCH easier if he would either pay or get the heck OUT of here. At this point, I don't care which, just do something - I can fill that room up pretty quickly I would like to hope.

Well, anyway, I have just short of a grand in checks right now to be deposited, with at least $200 from him, I would be doing fairly well. Not perfect, but good enough. I am definitely going to push for whatever extra hours I can get at work, every bit helps.

So anyway, this is just a short update. Caleb's Rifle Team competition ends in 15 minutes - but his mother is going to bring him home and I have made as many outings as I care to do for today, I am going to spend another several hours outside working and then come back in and "kick-it" as the kids like to put it. I figure to stop working in the hottest hours of the day - though it's only going to get up to 92 degrees today, hardly call that hot unless the humidity is going to shoot up as well.

I also have PLENTY of cleaning to do in the house this weekend, tomorrow morning I'll hit that one hard and try to get it knocked out in a couple of hours.

That's it. That's my life, really, I don't really do much in terms of getting out - but then again - I really don't WANT to. I have a certain amount of need that continues to build to find a member of the opposite sex and start a relationship - but that always kind of nixes itself when the ex starts all of her stuff and I start thinking: Do I REALLY want to start another relationship? It takes a while, but I end up saying yes - even though I'm not really doing that much about the situation.

Have a great Saturday.
ben

The Woman At The Store

I'm a pretty amenable person. If a stranger wants to kick up a conversation somewhere about something we are both doing or looking at buying - whatever - I'm all good. Only if I'm in a hurry will I dismiss the conversation - but politely of course.

Well, I went to Safeway on the way home from work today. They have chicken breast on sale for 99 cents per pound, I wanted to get at least 4 packages of it. Of course, GETTING to Safeway was an adventure in itself with rude and stupid drivers attempting all kinds of dangerous and idiot moves on the road.

I say attempted because what people can get away with in cutting me off in the semi - they cannot get away with when I'm in my car.

Case in point. I'm driving the semi today - I leave enough space between my truck and the vehicle in front of me that I can shut the truck down in case "something" happens. You will see many truck drivers lagging behind vehicles - it's not because they are necessarily slow, it's because they NEED that room to slow down if traffic does so in front of them in a hurry.

When YOU cut into that space, you are literally taking your life into your own hands. I don't say that lightly, either. It's not a joke. The situation may not EVER happen when you cut in front of that truck like that hundreds of times per year, but in that one occasion where it might happen, you will be having a semi crushing you to death becuase of your impatience.

That's usually what it is, too. People waiting until they are 100 feet from the exit they want to get off on - notwithstanding the fact that they are fully 6 lanes away from that exit and will have to cut off all kinds of traffic to get to it - and nowadays? People couldn't care less.

And just as unsympathetic as life is, there are people killed on Phoenix freeways on a DAILY basis. BECAUSE of that stupid stuff people are doing out there.

Man, I have double-digressed. Okay, well- a lady driving an SUV decided that she wanted in front of me on a surface street. She simply inserted herself there without any warning at all. When she did so, she hit the brakes. I hit my horn and then got over into the other lane. There was NO valid reason for this woman to do that.

Oh, here's another little dandy that happened today. I was on the 60 heading west to go back to the branch from Florence. I was in the high speed lane allowing traffic to enter from an on-ramp. A car going at least 20 mph slower than I was going decided that they were going to get onto the freeway and head directly over to my lane. That person is lucky they are going home alive today. I took evasive action as I was totally cut off by this freak, and got into the "slow" lane - or tried to. This person realized their mistake - their utter stupidity in my view in simply getting into a lane without even freaking looking as far as I could tell to see if traffic was already there - and then was going to go back into the slow lane of which I was already halfway in.

I was already braking, this person freaked out and didn't know WHAT to do. The vehicle was now tweaking between lanes, not know what I was doing - though in reality, that person shouldn't have put themself in that position to HAVE to attempt to decide what to do.

I was not smiling at that person as I passed by him. I didn't do any hand gestures, but I made it well known my discontent for this person putting mine and their life at stake.

Ummm, I was talking about Safeway. Easy to get caught up in stories on the road because so much of it happens everyday.

Well, I got some potato salad - on sale - get 4 large packages of bone-in chicken breast - 99 cents per pound/sale - and searching for other stuff on sale.

I always head to the produce department, I am eating salads, have been for quite a while and am not opting out of it. I get to the tomatoes. There are the "on-the-vine" things and there are Roma tomatoes. I wanted the vine thingies because they are larger and I like larger slices of tomatoes - but they didn't look right to me for some reason.

There was a lady standing there going through the Roma tomatoes that educated me all about these vine tomatoes. She picked them up ( the reason I thoroughly wash my produce when I get it home, Lord only knows who and WHAT with that who touched that stuff) and started pointing out the flaws with them. White spots and unripened areas of the tomato. Her deal-breaker, though, was her fact that they have no flavor and the Romas have much better taste to them.

I like Roma tomatoes - but I much prefer the meatier, larger tomatoes. She proclaimed her tomato expertise - didn't doubt her. In fact, I pretty much just listened and showed the signs of registering that I was listening (versus the blank look on a face of someone that is totally tuned-out). I opted for the Roma's just because I had already had my doubts about the "on-the-vine" variety before I had even spoken to her.

I then gave her my little piece of info. There is a farmer's marker in the town of Guadalupe and they sell some pretty good stuff there and it's all locally grown. "Is it a REAL farmer's market? I mean, is that all they sell or are they doing everything else as well?" No ma'am, this is a vegetable and produce store, that's what they do and that's what they've been doing for something like 40 years now. Oh, the glee and perponderance in her face. She's going, I could bet my toenails on it. Okay, that's a bit much. I did advise her to go there in the DAYTIME, not at night. I didn't want to fill her with fear, but ..........

Lol. Oh, and by the way, when I lol - I am actually lol'ing. It ain't some quaint nicety, I'm chuckling or laughing.

I always digress, always. But, it's my blog, so there.

ben

Things

Stuff today.

I spent a couple of hours out front pulling weeds and grass. They weren't huge - I just let it go for at least a month because of my hatred for the everlasting heat wave. Today they said something like this was the second hottest summer since they started keeping records. I TOTALLY believe that.

Well, when I went out there the sun was starting to set and it was already cooling off considerably. It was 63 degrees this morning when I went to work. Of course it heated up dramatically during the day - and I was busting my butt at work all day long. So, pulling weeds and the dogs out front was nice. My newly returned neighbor was laughing it up loudly with his neighbor on the other side - the ex-felon (though I have to wonder if the ex part is permanent) and I decided to tune that crap out.

I have also decided that since my neighbor is going to spend a majority of his time with that freak next to him, I am going to distance myself from both of them, unlike last "season" when he was here and I was talking to him anyway. I have further decided that I am no longer going to tolerate a street FULL of his junk vehicles.

Apparently he got the message last night - I made a phone call to certain authorities about one of his vehicles out there that didn't even have a license plate on it. Today when I got home from work. the trailers were off the street but there were still 3 of his other vehicles out there. It's progress. I will definitely not tolerate this dude selling vehicles out of his house ever again. It's just makes the neighborhood look pathetic. He hauls down these rusted out cars from Michigan and sells them here for greatly marked up prices.

Won't work in this economy anyway. People are hunting for bargains and stick their noses up at inflated prices on anything. This is definitely a shopper's market right now, not a vendor's. I know this for a fact just from my own company.

Well, anyway, the high temps are now below 100, meaning I can start thinking about this weekend in potentially planting rye grass and buying those 99 cent clusters of very pretty flowers - my favorites being Petunias. I want to load up the front with arrangements of them all over.

That will be a weekend gone in a flash if I start in on all of that - but - the grass will take priority if it's the right time to plant it. I will have to ask or look online. It takes weeks for it to fully come in and be "trampled" on - meaning dogs. I will have to surround that patch of grass with a good fence to keep the dogs off of it - again, it's going to be work.

Safeway has chicken breast - bone-in - on sale for 99 cents a pound. BBQ is on it's way. 10 day forecast shows highs in the low 90's to high 80's. I'm going to start spending a lot more time outside.

I'm not counting my chickens before they hatch, but the non-paying tenant made a promise to pay and I fully expect that payment. I think tomorrow. I'll have to re-read the notice, I didn't give that much perusal - I gave the idea that he IS going to pay more. If he does not pay - well I'll keep a lid on that, I have no reason to believe he won't pay now that he has said he will. Anyone reading me for the last 1 and 3/4 years knows what I eventually end up doing with non-paying tenants, and it ain't keeping them around so I can just have - freeloaders living here on my dime.

Today's driving adventure. Something is being built - I haven't asked what they are building yet - in an extremely busy/high volume shopping square. I have been in there 3 times now, and every time, the parking lot is completely full. There is no room for a semi to maneuver in there. I can't even get into the job site, I have to sit in the main thorofare where all these people are going back and forth the entire time.

Those people are, of course, extremely annoyed that a semi is slowing them down. I do not block the entire drive, but the volume of traffic is so heavy that people have to decide who is going to go and who isn't. One woman declared today that she needed to leave and I was blocking her from backing out of her parking spot. There was MORE than enough room for her to get her car out of there, but she wasn't taking my explanation that she wasn't driving a semi and that there is ample room for her car to move.

Yes, I spent a great deal of time pulling forward and then reverse to accomodate for all of this.

Then came time to leave. I was 400 feet or so into this place and there is NO way I am going forward. The turn ahead is so sharp and narrow, the only way to do it would be to take out the cars parked there. Yeah, right.

I wish I would have had my camera so I could have taken a video of this. I had to back out of there, and not, this volume of traffic in this place didn't like it. The corners are so sharp and narrow that backing was definitely a challenge of my skill - but not that much. No, the challenge was navigating the traffic. At the end of it, I had to block traffic coming in from the main street and traffic attempting to leave from fully 3 different directions.

Not only that, but these cars moved in very close to the point I had to stop and look at these people - who figured out my stare at them was that they needed to back up their vehicles because I am NOT running into cars if I can help it. And yes, I CAN help it. It took several minutes of backing around this turn to get myself positioned so I could leave nosing out, not backing out. Of course, you could see the agitated looks on these people's faces.

But, the job was done quite professionally and I didn't have to do a single pull-up. I just took it slow because of the huge volume of traffic and the fact I was movoing in their path - in reverse - and they weren't liking it.

No, they never like it, but these people love the end result of a business they want to go to and spend their money.

Ummm, I'm in a little better mood today, but - I still have a lot of things pressing me and I don't like being pressed. I am not a grape and I don't intend on turning into wine.

ben

Renting Is Not For The Faint Of Heart

No, it most certainly is not.
You go into renting a house, an apartment, an efficiency - my case: rooms, and you start off nievely thinking that everyone thinks the same way you do. Pay your rent on time, use common sense in the house, treat each other with respect. Oh, and BTW, if you happen to miss the bowl, clean the - mess I'll put it as another word came to mind - up.
You find out after not very long that people that are renting are more unsensical and somewhat selfish in their ways of doing things around your house than not. Some are very sensitive, I'm not throwing out the blanket of totalitarianism.

But, I have had my share of the bad kind and I have learned to shore up and not be so giving.

However. In the case of the ex-tenant who came back for a few months, I was thinking this person was going to behave as he did when he was here before: he paid his rent on time and then when his girlfriend moved in, he paid extra for my extra monthly incurrences. Okay, so I made my input before she moved in: for each extra person that moves in here, I incur more costs regarding electricity and water. I can't put a definitive number on it as I had no desire to go that far with it, but I did go beyond what I figured it would cost me, I stated an extra $100 per month.

It's not dishonest - there is also extra wear and tear. Well, honesty really has nothing to do with it. I find it acceptable to simply charge an extra $100 per month for an extra person in the same bedroom. If the person that is already renting that room doesn't like it, then that person can either not have that person move in, or that person can go find a new place to live.

I already thought of myself as a person that could confront others easily when the situation necessitated it. But, when they are living in your own home, there was a feeling that overcame me that I wasn't expecting. Not that I didn't wany my money, or that I didn't want to confront people on stupid, gross habits, especially in the bathroom, but - they are in my home. It puts a different feel to the matter.

However, after having had a couple of totally rotten/bad apples in here, that feeling has dissipated. It totally disappears when I start looking at my expenditures and my income and finding that if one single renter doesn't pay his/her rent, I'm going directly to the hole.

I'm digging into the 401k loan money that I took out some time ago, actually, to save my @$$ when I thought I was going to lose the place after the AC quit, I paid $650 for the repaid and was totally broke. I'm not far into it, and I haven't cashed one tenant's check yet - I'm waiting on the number 2 tenant to pay his rent which will be due tomorrow and I have no reason to believe that he isn't going to pay it.

The 3rd and temporary tenant a totally different matter. I delivered a notice to him today via slip-under-his-bedroom-door mode. I am very agitated right now. My next door neighbor returned and his junk vehicles are littering the neighborhood. He literally drove in with a mule train of garbage vehicles plus someone must have driven more vehicles behind him - his modus-operandi. GARBAGE. Junkifying the neighborhood I am going to call a complaint in tomorrow. I am further repulsed by his adjunct to his neighbor on the other side - an ex-felon, about a year out of prison, a drug dealing SON OF A BITCH. Freakin' bastard, I despise the man.

I am speaking out of character tonight, I find that I can't stop myself. There is a backlash of s*** inside of me that needs to be vented and here it is, coming out in full force. The ex-felon is a mouth freak - if he says ANYTHING to me again like he has in the past when this returning neighbor comes back - and this freak is over there - I am going to give him an earful of his own medicine. He is on parole, in fact, BOTH of them are on parole, I could freakin' get them into serious problems with them saying ANYTHING in terms of a threat.

But really, I feel like hauling off and decking the idiot. I know, I said it already, I said it in my other blog earlier today, I am cranky and irritable. I have too much on my plate and it's going far too slow to get it removed. But I cannot stand mouthy a-holes voicing lines of ignorance that goes on forever. When it's in person, and if it's bad enough, you can bet that I am going to say something blunt, frank and to-the-point. I tried to give this ex-felon freak a bit of latitude - I am not into starting wars with neighbors, but this guy is not a neighbor. He is living totally off of his mother, who bought the house for him, bought him a new car, buys his food, pays all of his bills.

He has no job, he does nothing, he is a waste.

Again, I am not myself today and I have no excuses - but- I offer none either.

Anyway, after delivering the notice, I go outside to water plants. I did that for a while and then I sat down on a lawn chair on the east side of the house and simply emptied my mind. I was already mad at the dogs - one of them got into the trash can and another got over a fence and trampled some plants. NOT the fencing that I put up on the east side of the house for the dog-free zone, another area in the rear of the house.

Grouchy. I am being bombarded with too much from all sides and it's eating at me.

Okay, well back to the non-paying tenant, another source of EXTREME irritability. He obviously read my message because while I was outside - and didn't even know he had returned home from work - he had delivered me a hand-written note.

Without going into all of the details - he alleges to pay me this week and then $100 every week after that to get caught up.

IF this is true, then there is a big sigh of relief. I will no longer be digging holes into the finacial realms of ruin, I will at least be breaking even, but actually doing a little better than that.

I have to do something. Get some prayer, have some drinks, whatever, but I have to find a way to calm down, because I can tell you that with everything going on right now in my life, I am freakin' on the edge.

ben

Fall Is In The Air...........

.........I'm sure of it - everywhere but HERE. Okay, the dying leaves on my tree out front are the only indication I have seen yet that fall is here. 105 is the predicted high tomorrow - but - 89 is the predicted high for Thursday!!! Yoohoo - and better be true.

Well, anyway, I have finally decided to sell off the Lazy Boy love seat and ottoman. I have no room for it - it's a beautiful piece of furniture - but it is taking up space, is never used and looks very gawdy where I have it. And where I have it is the only place it can go, besides out. So, out it's going to go. Either sell it for what it's worth - or trade for something.

Yes, I'm just changing subjects as fast as I change gears in the semi - which is pretty fast actually. Not really focused on any one thing right now. The situation with Caleb's teacher is dealt with as far as I'm concerned - the District thinks differently but it's totally out of my hands and whatever his fate will be, I put my 2 cents in.

My 2 cents? I said I hope nothing serious in terms of consequences happens to him because he made a very impassioned statement about his love for teaching and that he was truly sorry for what he did and said it would NEVER (his lettering of it) happen again, and from reading about the guy, I'll take the optimistic and hopeful side and trust that he's telling it like it is. The man is going for a docotorate's degree, that is some serious commitment to his profession. I told the principal that today and I am calling the superintendant tomorrow and saying the same thing.

.........and hope I am not wrong about the guy. Heck, he's a Steelers fan, what else need I know? lol.

BlackBird on the other blogging site suggested that I take a trip to see autumn in all it's colors. A day trip will do that for me. I'm quite sure my son wouldn't want to go with the old man for a - trip into my own world of seeing and soaking in the breathtaking views that nature has in autumn. I know just the place to go to see such - about a 100 mile drive I'm guessing. Hey, I live in a desert, to really see the goods I have to get out of the desert. Really what I would like to do is simply drive up to the place, park the car and go for a long hike into the mountains. I care not that it would be alone. I suppose I could take one of the dogs - any of which would love the trip I am sure. I will NOT take all 3 of them, that would ruin the trip - too much to deal with.


I'm thinking of doing that this coming weekend - get up early on Saturday or Sunday - get to the place in a couple hours or less - probably less the way I drive - spend a half day there.

Will I do it? I may very well. I need a change of scenery, something to shake me out of this stagnation I feel I'm currently in. It's just that the summer heat has been so stifling, it has done it's job on my psyche. I look forward to BBQ'ing outside and simply enjoying the outdoors again.

I sent the form in to get my 2007 W2 from my company. An entire form that you have to fill out and sign, plus send your ID plus pay $10. Yup, my bad, I have looked and looked and looked for that tax stuff and I simply cannot find it anywhere. I have no idea what I did with it, but wherever it is, I expect I will find it AFTER I needed it. That's the way things work sometimes : |

As I stated on my other blog, I may have been exposed to Swine Flu. A worker at the main branch came down with it this weekend, many of us were close enough to him to "catch" some germs on Friday. No idea. If I get symptoms of flu, I'm headed to the nearest medical facility to find out if I have it, and if so, get me the drugs, now, please. That worker has been confined to his house and his family was asked to leave for at least 5 days. Incredible.

Hey, a tenant actually paid me BEFORE the rent is due for once!!! Amaaaaaaazing!!!
The older gentleman, of course. I haven't heard from him about any discontents here, but then again, he doesn't like to talk much, he just walks through, says a few words and disappears either into his room or out to his truck with his dog. Well, I don't demand or even expect tenants to have any kind of friendly relationship with me, as long as they're civil - which he always is - what he does is his business.

Ummm, I'm just waiting for the heat to disappear, really. It WILL change things. I hate being indoors as much as I am. Oh, the Michael report: nothing. He isn't around at all now that the Playstation III is broken. His life is dictated by video games, he's truly a junkie. To the point he will miss as much school as possible to stay home and play stupid games. I wish I had parental authority over him - I would vanquish those stupid games until he returned to a normal life without them - such as going to school everyday.

Well, I have no control over that and I always wash my hands of it. My son is asking to have the thing fixed - the Playstation III, I'm not really that interested in it. Not just because of the money involved but also because of the fact that since that thing has been shut off, kids are finding other things to do.

That's it. It's not bedtime for me yet, but I'm very tired. I slept about 5 and a half hours last night and worked all day straight through without a break or without eating. I got to eat after work, yes, but it always does something to me to work all day without having a chance to stop and get a bite.

As for you all, have a great evening/day/whatever's going on in your part of the world.
ben

Tax Papers

Never found them. Have spent several hours going through the entire house, car, everything. Checked at work - nothing.
The last time I saw them I had taken them into a tax preparer's office to see about getting it all done. They told me $250 per yer plus more for the 2007 year. I balked at that and decided to just let it go.
I did take those forms back out to the car with me, and that's the last time I can remember seeing them.
I have searched everything - and I do mean everything. It took me an hour just to go through the stuff in the closet - ALL of it.

So, I resolved to myself that I would just have to start over.
Which really isn't that bad - except - all that time I spent going over all the things I lost in the house fire. I spent days worth of time attempting to write it all down, and now that so much time has passed, I couldn't possibly remember all of that.

The good news is that I wrote it all into an email that I sent to myself - just in case this happened. Yup, I found that email and yup, if I hadn't written it down I would have forgotten half of that stuff at least. That would be the singlemost difficult thing to replace.

The rest? Call my company and have them fax me a copy of 2007 end of year W-2. I have the amount to have the house removed memorized - $4,100.00
That should also be able to be a write-off, but I'll have to call the company and have them fax me that document as well. Hopefully they will do that. I'm assuming an automatic audit which is the 2cd reason I haven't done it, I have no desire to sit in an office with a tax man attempting to prove that what I say on that return is actually the truth.

Another thing that I never did get is a copy of the report by the fire inspector. Guess I'll have to track that down this coming week - have to prove that the house burned down. I do have pics of it, though, on my Photobucket account as I recall I took a large number of them. It shows half the house completely gutted and the rest of the house with extensive smoke damage. If an audit does occur - which I recall everyone telling me they will do it - I will have proof of the fact that my house was nothing but charred wood, melted metal and ashes.

I will have to fully prepare myself for an eventual audit, but I am going to get the return done this week regardless. I am still half tempted to just buy TurboTax software - but - I don't know how that would work for the year 2007? I'll have to look into that. I'm just going to have to grab the bull by the horns here and tackle into this and discard the anxieties of the thought of having to prove all of this and sit there with some geek dude or dudette wearing horn-rimmed glasses behind a huge desk sitting there glaring down at me with them figuring they will do me in somehow - the tax man that is. That's they way I like to think of those people, they chose that profession, they are probaby not well liked by too many people.

I've got the house write-off; the removal of the house write-off; I assume something can be gained from the purchase of a house, dunno about that; and of course the taxes I paid that year. Also wondering if having to pay for 2 residences at the same time would be considered a write-off - the stays at the hotel rooms and then subsequently having to rent an apartment while also paying the mortgage on the property at the same time. Certainly worth asking about. As it stands I can claim probably 100k write-off on the house and lost personal property contained within. It was an old mobile home, can't really say it was worth THAT much! I'm just going by what the market said at the time it was worth.

This is more than I really want to deal with right now, but I have no choice. I am not about to let the IRS do that tax year return for me. I will spend the money to get this done and I'm going to have to use a tax preparer now that I think about it, at least for that year, because I have no idea what I can write off and what I can't or even how to go about doing it.

Fun fun.

There is nothing more I can do today unless I can think of somewhere else to look for that paperwork. I'm kicking myself for not putting it in a safe place - or maybe I put it in TOO safe a place but I can't think of anywhere else I might have put that stuff. I pulled the bench seat out of the car wondering if it got jammed down under there, searching under the seats, the glove compartment even the trunk. I have this feeling I brought that stuff back into the house - but if it's here, it's invisible to my eyes and as I said, I am highly annoyed with myself for losing that rather valuable data.

Oh well.

I'm off to the grocery store - I'm going to make something today - dunno what, I figure walking around the store will give me some ideas. I'm hungry right now, really, but I don't feel like cooking, I just expended a huge amount of energy going through everything looking for that paperwork - and to think it was a waste of time since there were no results in that activity.

ben

Summer Will Never End

I'm sure of it. It's just going to stay at least 103 for the rest of my life here.

If you could get an inkling of fathomation of how tired I am of the heat, you would understand. It's going to be 105 today and 107 tomorrow - near the end of September!

I was hoping I could both go get some perennials and some rye grass to plant on my patch out back - but no way. The heat will kill the flowers quickly and the grass probably won't even grow - but if it did, it wouldn't last very long.

No, the high temps must be below 100 and stay that way before I consider doing any of that.

Meanwhile, Mary took her nice little wrought iron table when she left - of course she would it's hers. I would have offered her some money for it, but she owes me so much that there is no way on earth I'm giving HER anything. I have put out of my mind for a while in suing her as I have other things going on, not the least of which is dealing with this IRS situation.

I have plenty of time to sue her, she may think she's gotten off the hook but she's going to get served eventually by a process server and reality will come back to her. I have not let go of the fact that she attempted to have me arrested on a bogus charge. If it weren't for that, I doubt I would even still be thinking about it.

Meanwhile, I have had enough of not having a working printer in my house - I could have used it 6 ways to Sunday by now and I keep putting it off hoping I will find one on Craigslist like the one I have now so I don't have to waste the freshly bought ink cartridges, but I've held out as long as I am going to. There are plenty for sale on Craigslist for cheap, just hope the one I get has at least half filled cartridges.

So, I'm looking on Craigslist for a cheap wrought iron table for the outdoors - and there are plenty on there for very cheap and now I'm going to look for a printer as well. I have sent off a dozen or so emails on tables - one of them is gorgeous with a glass top and they only want $20 for it!! This is a sign of the times, folks, that stuff would be going for 10 times that amount in a normal economy.

An outdoor table makes the situation on the west side of the house look inviting. I do have a glass top table set up next to my grill, but that is for grill use. I want a low-heighth table for sitting and drinking coffee and eating out there as well. Set it up right next to the grass and against the western block wall - I already have chairs out there.

So, I'm just waiting for anyone to write back. I kinda hate to take advantage of someone that's obviously selling off stuff for a few bucks, but they are setting the prices. It's not like I would try to talk the guy down that is selling the $20 table or anything. That would, I am sure, be insulting considering what the table looks like in the photo, he might as well be giving it away for the $20 - it may already be sold for all I know.

It's too hot outside for me to want to do anything. I'm tired of the heat, I've had enough and I'm just going to stay inside. I cleaned up the dog dung and watered some of the plants that need watering, I'll get to the rest of it this evening when it starts to cool down. Supposedly, after the next 3 or 4 days, the temps are going to cool off considerably.

Well they SHOULD, it will be OC-freakin-TOBER by then! It BETTER cool down in OCTOBER!!! Geeze.

I have not gone to the casino in ages and I suddenly got this hankering to go. That is usually a very good sign, but I'm not sure I will go anyway. I hate the smoke filled rooms, it just makes me naseous by the time I leave I'm feeling sick half the time from inhaling all that second-hand smoke. I would love to go "earn" a couple a hundred bucks, though. When I have this feeling - hard to explain - I can pretty much expect that I will walk out of there with more than I came in with.

Oh well, maybe later - maybe not at all. It would be nicer than sitting in the house all day long, though.

I think I will head up to Home Depot to look around the garden center even if I ain't buying nothin' yet - kinda the man's version of women's clothes shopping.

ben

I'm Not Upset

I am not upset about the situation with KCL - I'm disgusted in some respects, but there is no anger here.
It's simply that I find the stuff going on on certain - which could be labelled as many - blogs to be unacceptable, at least for me. Which is fine, the point is that even the home page has been absolutely littered with pure garbage in terms of lewdness and sexual references laced with f bombs and just - junk.

I took Fin's post today labelled sex in the toilet to be tongue-in-cheek - dear Fin, I would have been interested to see what comments you would have gotten on that entry. Oh, now that I think about it, good idea to close the comments!

Will my "rant" get anything done? Dunno, but I was at the point that I felt that I must say something - especially considering the people in question writing the content that is questionable (at best) certainly have no inhibitions whatsoever in displaying that content in their titles, proudly, for the world to see.

That is done. I'm still over there and even posted yet another entry - this one title The F Bomb - but that entry has nothing to do with KCL, instead having to do with a certain of Caleb's teachers - a high school teacher to clarify - engaging in a tirade of foul litany today including the f-bomb being dropped towards the teenagers that were in his classroom. I don't really want to write all that again - if you are so inclined as to want to read it, it's "over there" on the other blog.

The weekend is here. This is a good thing. The temps, however, are not agreeable yet. They are dealing nicely cooled morning temps - by Phoenix standards anyway - but it was definitely HOT this afternoon. The armored car guy came in a few minutes ago - smelled horrible. Large man, sweats all day long with all that garb on he has to wear with a huge bulletproof vest and such. Yes, please do take a LONG, hot or cold or whatever shower, thank you.

I haven't been out in the yard yet - which is not good because the sun is starting to go down. But, I can ignore it for a day in watering since the temps are getting lower, still hot but not THAT hot - I'm trying to save on water bills.

Oh, I've done enough writing today - I'm done with this.

Have a great evening, take care of yourselves - later!
ben

Darkness

There are days in my life where I am confronted with extreme temptation. I get the feeling of letting go, putting down the guard and doing whatever I please. I read people who grant themselves permission to do just such every day and I wonder why they can do such things and I can't. The list of things I see is long. Whether it's someone's blog, a co-worker, a person I know from online that isn't blog related, a friend. It's not just the daily junk you see in the news - celebrities who seemingly do whatever they want to in life without and kind of consequences, but it eventually catches up with them, too.

This was one of those days. I've had strange emails coming from people I don't know asking to do things - how they got my email I have no idea. I think of all the things I'm not doing that I could be.

It happens. The mind is a battlefield. It is if you want to try to keep it pure, anyway. If you don't care what goes on in there, then there is no battle - you've already lost and are a prisoner, shackled and chained whether you want to believe it or not.

I come back to my senses eventually and fortunately do not actually ACT on those impulses. It's always a relentless battle, though. I look at the people who do whatever they please, say whatever they please, etc - and realize that many of these people's lives are mere existence. No real life, just a daily grind of doing the same thing without any more expectation than to gratify themselves in one way or the other. The excesses with which these people live are beyond imagination.

I wonder about people who can simply mouth off to anyone at a moment's notice and think nothing of it. I wonder about people whose goal it is in life is to go around and challenge anything and everything that anyone says - nothwithstanding the fact that that person hasn't got a clue. Maybe in some areas they know something, but no-one is an expert in everything, only God can make that claim, yet these people will argue with you and even start to attempt to humiliate you simply because you state something you believe, or that you KNOW for a fact.

The I'm-right-and-you're-always-wrong-crowd. Seems like the blogosphere is FULL of people like that.

I have to say that I am at a loss about situations going on at a specific blogging host. I don't hate the place but the incredible amount of hate, anger and then extreme carnality leaves me at a loss. People seem to feed on that stuff, especially controversy. Here, my mind is racked with trying to find stuff for the IRS and what did I do with it; keeping tenants in the house and making sure that I have paying tenants to boot. Paying for the house and all the bills. Trying to beautify the property and keep it maintained. My work life and attempting to keep myself pure. I'm not a lily-white angel, but I'm certainly attempting to lead a clean life, I utterly fail at times but that's the down-side to be human.

I do wonder how reading all of that stuff on a daily basis is helping me at all.

Well, I don't blame other people for my problems in life, unless of course someone has done something intentional and then I can say something about it. I also don't blame people for temptation that comes against me. We are all tempted from time to time with something - whatever your weaknesses are, it's guaranteed that some wonderful opportunity to fall into that weakness will come at you with unprecedented accuracy in it's aim at your mind, soul and heart. It's so easy to just give in, isn't it?

Yet, if you fight the battle and win, it's so wonderful to come out the other side and look back at the personal, inner battles that you conquered.

Today's stuff is over, literally. I had to sit back and start giving serious thought to what was going on inside of me, what triggered it and how to not let that happen again. The last part of that may mean some extreme decisions, really, on my online activities, and more pointedly, blogging. How can blogging tempt you, you say? How does anyone get tempted? It isn't my own blogging, this is pretty tame stuff comparitively speaking. That's the point, I think, without going into it too far here.

ben

I was going to.........

.....write a nice entry this morning, but even though I'm at work early and not signed in, I checked our truck routing system and there is a LOT to do today. In fact, more than I can get done, I'm thinking. I'm going to sign in a little early and get a jump on the day and see if I can knock all of this stuff out.

It does feel good that I will have a full day of stuff to do. Yesterday was a little slow and that can get to having mind games and such.

Regardless, hope everyone has a great day (or evening, depending on where you're at!)!
ben