Friday, September 3, 2010

Resolution

First off, I freely admit I was out-of-control angry 2 days ago with the situation at work (which is detailed in previous entries, so no need to go into all of that here). 

I have had an anger problem all of my life - to one degree or another. 

Anger has gotten me into a lot of problems that, in hindsight, would have easily been averted if I would have just let it sit for a few hours/days/however long it takes to cool down and get back into rational thought.

We all have buttons, I'm sure of that.  When someone finds mine, it's not a pretty sight.  I am not making excuses for anything.  I am, instead, capable of admitting my weaknesses and when I feel berated, humiliated, talked down to - to some degree authoritarian issues - I can say that there are occasions where I have not reacted well, at all.  In fact, if I told some of the stories from my distant past, people that know me now simply would not believe me.  

One thing I have pounded into my brain after my reaction was FAR worse than the offense that created it is: don't take action.  You wanna be mad, great, sit there and stew in it for as long as it takes to get over it, but keep your damned mouth shut (me, talking to myself).  If it is REALLY bad, don't do ANYTHING for several days.  Just wait.  Get your peace back.  Pray, seek God, think where this is going to go if you really follow through what your emotions are attempting to sway you into doing.

I learned that lesson - maybe not THAT long ago, but certainly years ago.  In this case, I did nothing.  Well, except when my manager called me that day after hearing the Ops manager's wife telling him what is going on with me - she is not a clueless blonde - she IS blonde but very intelligent and sensitive.  My manager wanted to express to me that HE had NOTHING to do with this.  Okay, I had no problem with him anyway.  He has enough on his plate with a divorce that is causing him to lose weight to - bad - proportions.  Meaning he isn't eating and the situation is messing with his head. 

So, 2 days pass.  I went through the company's website and I found the section on ethics and even specific types of statements that the encourage you to report.  My company has keystroke recognition - they can see whatever you have typed, including IM"s, everything that you wrote.  I thought about this man's personal life - his wife, just married last year I think it was, their newborn baby.  I thought about filing a formal complaint with headquarters.  I'm sure that with the content of the IM, he would get into trouble.  I then thought about all the shit I have done in my life span - transgressions and making life difficult for people (even IF I thought it deserved) and the foulness I did in my teenaged years that, again, most people won't even believe the half, or even fourth of it. 

What do Christians do? Forgive.  Try to, oh so ever-loving hard to do in some cases, but I am still a fan of the idea a person should ASK for forgiveness to GET it.  I believe that is a principle that is overlooked by many.  The Bible talks about ASKING for forgiveness, not assuming that you must get it "because you are Christian" and if you don't, you must, therefore, NOT be a Christian.  BUNK.  I will not be a doormat anymore in my life, determined that some - maybe 10 years ago, maybe a little less.  I could go into all of it - but it would take days to write and no-one would bother to read all of it and I don't really want to anyway. 

Okay.  Well, the Ops manager's wife was at our branch again today.  She likes to work at our branch because it is close to her house and the -yes - baby.  She went to get lunch.  She left HER computer up and open.  Yup, I could have gotten on there and gotten all kinds of very sensitive information regarding the company - but at the branch I am at, there is a level of trust, I hope anyway.  SHOULD she do that?  In corporate terms, no, no-one SHOULD do that.  It's not, however, like she left her computer at a Starbuck's with an aircard inserted and all the company's info exposed for the world to see. 

She came back and I "informed" her that I had made IM"s off of her computer.  Yes, I said it jokingly and it was taken as such.  She then told me about a conversation she had with her husband, the he understands that I don't like such, etc etc etc.  I replied:  well, it really wouldn't have been a problem until we got to the gay stuff.  ???? she replies.  I told her what he was telling the employee.

Fast forward.  I'm driving home and the phone rings.  I recognize the first three digits as a work number.  Ben speaking.  It was the Ops manager.  It was an apology and it didn't just sound like it was genuine, I felt it too.  It was a good conversation.  I won't go into all of that - just that it ended well. 

I don't really feel like writing anything else tonight - lots going on but I am tired, didn't sleep well last night and I must get this internet stuff over with.

ben

Friday

Friday.


Thursday's post eliminated - not by me, but by sending the thing into cyberspace.  It's floating around out there, somewhere, I suppose, but getting it back?  Impossible (and not a great loss, either).

My mind's in a lull right now - rough sleep last night, kept waking up for whatever reason. Plus I have been mulling over what to do about this situation with the ops manager, so far I have just sat on it. Never wise to make rush decisions especially after getting upset to that degree.



So far only one reply to my ad for the room. But then again, it isn't available until the 11th, which is still 8 days away. It is paid up until the 11th and I would love to see a seamless transaction in the payment department. It doesn't normally work out that way, but one can wish.



No, I will have to clean the carpet in there and paint whatever will have to be painted. I haven't really been in there since the Marine moved in there so, I have no idea the condition of the room. In fact, I'm pretty sure the carpet needs to be replaced in that room, but - no funds to cover that right now.



3 day weekend en-queue. Labor Day on Monday. Just going to take it easy - the temps are still high: 111 today, 108 tomorrow and 107 Sunday. After that, the temps come down to low 100's or high 90's for the next 2 weeks - I'll take that anyday over this sweltering heat junk. It's going to be hot enough today that the National Weather Service has issued yet another Excessive Heat Warning, as they like to name it........wonderful.



"Our military and people will deal a merciless blow if warmongers stage reckless provocation," North Korea's government-run website, Uriminzokkiri, said in a commentary Friday.



Lol. That's North Korea pulling out the rhetoric machine again as U.S. and South Korean troops get ready to stage yet another set of anti-submarine excercises apparently designed to "deter" North Korea from doing anything such as blowing up another sub as they allegedly did so earlier this year. I don't wonder if one of these times, NK will actually do something.



I hope not, really, but still........



Well, I have no time left even if there is nothing to do in the truck routing system for today. At work, I'm referring to.....



G'day.



ben

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

MAD

That's all I can say about my state of mind right now, I am FREAKING MAD.  I have been in that state all day long and I don't know that going to bed will and a "good night's sleep" will do anything but make it worse. 
I WON'T SLEEP, that's the point. 

What am I referring to?

Regular readers might find this unbelievable, but this has nothing to do with tenants, kids, dogs or even Herons. 

I am referring to WORK. 

Here's the story.  I go to work early every morning.  I do this that and the other thing before signing into the computer network.  I pull up my work email account and put on my communicator - it's a system to communicate with other associates in the network via instant messaging - through work only. 

I leave my up when I'm gone.  Our store is run by fully 2 people: the manager and me.  I don't have to worry about 50 or 100 people walking by an unattended computer and accessing personal information. It simply doesn't happen.  If I were at the main branch, I would NEVER leave my account open.  And let's clarify this here: I don't leave all that stuff up on the computer screen, it is accessible if you click on my email account of communicator (instant messaging).

Okay.  I am driving around doing the parameters of my job - delivering and picking up stuff (well, a lot of other things, but my job description is listed as a truck driver). I end up at our main branch downtown.  I have a load of stuff I brought from our branch to transfer to them - mainly 2,000 feet of sewer pipe that they need to fill orders.

I am sitting at a desk in the warehouse doing paperwork - always a lot of paperwork - when a guy comes out of the main store, looking at me, says to the people behind the dual, swinging doors: "He's right here!".  He walks off laughing, muttering comments under his breath.  What the bleep is THIS about?  I get up and walk in there.  "What's going on?" 

One of the counter guys says he has an instant message, FROM ME, that is going on RIGHT NOW.  The message is from "me" asking this guy if he wants to hang out this weekend and have some drinks.  Alarms.  I don't engage in this kind of childish behavior at work, I am 46 years old and this kind of shit is pure bullshit. I like to have fun in life, a person abusing their position in this capacity is total BULLSHIT.  I look at the IM and read everything.  I instantly came to the conclusion, in my mind, who was doing this.  This counter guy thought it was my manager, I thought differently. 

This person that started this IM continues on and on.  Do you want to hang out?.....followed by, "I like you".......followed by........."I like you alot".  The intonation is that I am going to have this guy over for drinks and then it's going to be GAY SHIT SEX.  FUCK A GUY UP THE ASS.

I'm sorry to the Christian readership here, I really am, but I am PISSED OFF.  I looked at this guy and wondered if he really thought it was me contacting him before I showed up and and refuted, without know it by mere act of BEING there, that it WAS NOT ME. 

This man was at the computer I use at work writing this stuff from my communicator/instant messenger.  The message shows that it is me, not him, writing the content of that material. 

Yes, I knew who wrote it because I heard he had done such things in the past.  However, those things did not include sexual BULLSHIT.  He is allegedly trying to teach the person a lesson that you should not leave your account open when not present at the computer.  All fine and dandy in a place that has dozens of emplooyees and even more contractors, vendors and people from other divisions walking in and out of there.  BS when it's a 2-man crew and MOST of the sales generated from the store are from the deliveries I make in the semi. 

Who is this person?  The Operations Manager.  Do you see anything such as abuse of power going on here?  The use of your position to do whatever you want because of the veritable lack of any kind of responsibility to be had on his part for saying WHATEVER he pleases?  Further, with the gay shit, SEXUAL HARRASMENT.  Can anyone say LAWSUIT?  I'm NOT gay, but if the guy is going to paint me that and there are several witnesses to it, why the bleep should I take another iota's minute's worth of this SHIT that I have endured in my life span because of some IDIOT that thinks they can do what they want, when they want to?  Ohhh, yes, the economy. SCREW the economy, I determined long ago, after being ABUSED by management at various companies, that I would NOT put up with it even if it mean LEAVING THE FREAKING COMPANY or risk being FIRED. 

The man could have simply approached me and said that the company does not want you to leave your account open like that - though I have NEVER read any such thing on any of the REAMS of company documents I have seen.  It MAY be there somewhere, I don't know.  NO, he has to start SHIT with me by IMPERSONATING me, that's what it is, impersonation.  I am going to look into labor laws and such, there is NO WAY I am going to just tolerate this stuff.  Yes, I am mad. I'm not just upset, I AM MAD.  I HATE being treated this way by ANY management.  My company does not stand ethical corruption and to me, this is ALL about ethics and morals. 

Ahhh, BenB taking a deep breath.  There is, actually, more to this story but I cannot go into it right now.  I can feel my innards in the way that only anger brings up.  It is not good for me and I would like to actually sleep tonight.  I must stop now. 

Wednesday

Wednesday




Came home yesterday from work to find things "out of place". Couldn't quite put my finger on it, so I checked video surveillance.

Ahhh, good ole surveillance cameras. They always give it away.



2 black boys, ditching school. I didn't throw the black kids out, they just don't come around much since Michael isn't there anymore. However, I do not believe my house should be some sort of refuge to take cover in while playing hookie and I will be addressing that post haste.



Fishies: I am pulling plants out of the water and doing head counts every day now. I SHOULD have 18 fish in there, large ones anyway, I actually have 12. If I lose any more of them, then I will be putting up fencing around the pond edge to keep birds/Herons out, as they are the only thing around that could eat a fish that big.



The experts tell you to look around your yard, sometimes they pick up a fish to fly off with it and then drop it. No fish bodies. I mean, if the bird already has the fish, he might as well eat it versus just letting it lay on the ground to rot.



I prefer them not even coming around my yard, thank you very much.



Turtles are still plain terrified. No biggies now that I have the info I needed to figure out what to do with them concerning their terror: nothing. And now I know I can simply put them in a cardboard box lined with a quilt or something and "store" them in the shed for the winter. Don't have to worry about them freezing to death in the cold water. Hey, that's what the expert told me to do, just store them on a high shelf in the shed from mid October to sometime in - March I think he said.



Whatever. I haven't done any work on that pond instllation in over a week, I simply decided to take a break from it. I will, however, be starting back up as I have noticed that this work must be part of the impetus that was causing me to lose weight which, as soon as I stopped the work, is also another point where weight loss also stopped.



Okay, folks, it's the first day of September. My "mind-frame" will begin to change as the temps and weather change along with it. That probably won't be happening today since the forecast high is 107, but still. Just the fact that the 3 hottest months are done and over with is enough to get me into a bit better - mood. Probably the extreme use of electricity is what sours things for me as I see my money going to operate a piece of machinery that cools the house.......



So, do I go for the year-long plan that equalizes the amount paid every month? Dunno yet. October is when they said to do it. I rather enjoy the 7 or 8 months of not having high electric use/bills. Just that summer always catches me and I am always struggling to get the money to pay it up - and this year was easily the high electric use in terms of money that I have ever seen being chucked out the window.



Well, anyway, work day almost here, only one thing to do in truck routing system but - it's better than nothing.



G'day.



ben

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Tuesday

Tuesday




The news is full of it today. Iran calls French first lady a PROSTITUTE? A giant "boot print" scar on Mars that is "baffling" scientists, Arizona being named in a state department report (going out to the world) about civil rights - yada yada yada.



Politics certainly is going to hell in a handbasket. It isn't mud-slinging anymore, it's throwing fireballs at each other. I guess it's normal, just seems like there's a LOT of it going on around the nation right now.



I suppose of concern to me is this issue of Iran wanting to stone a woman to death because she was caught committing adultery. It doesn't take a great leap, after hearing their president talking about the destruction of Israel and the U.S. on MANY occasions, to say that if they had nuclear warheads it wouldn't take much to get them to use one of them.



I do wish we had a real President in the Oval Office instead of what we have sitting in there now. I don't think he has the cahoneys to stand up to Iran. In fact, I'm not sure he even cares one way or the other, he certainly doesn't want to hear the voice of the American people when it comes to several issues and overwhelming majorities opposing him on issues such as the healthcare bill - and still doing it anyway. I heard him say the other day that he is working to "help future generations". Yeah, sure, to load them down with debt from THIS generation.



Gobbledygook I'm tired of it. Anyway, there is nothing in the truck routing system to today, but the Ops manager wrote me an email asking if I would try to sell all of our non-selling drip irrigation stuff on Craigslist.



Why, actually, I would be happy to! Lol. Give me something to do!



G'day.



ben

Monday, August 30, 2010

Monday

Monday




Well, here we go again - looking for a new tenant that is. There is a guy that has been calling me for months about whether I have a room available or not - I think this person might turn out to be high maintenance and I already have one of those.



The female tenant that had the kids over this weekend - definitely high maintenance. The ex-Marine had told me not 2 weeks ago that he was talking with his mother .......add a lot of words here......and that he was just going to stay at my place.



Somehow, I figured when he started getting that free money from the military for monthly expenses that he would be leaving. I also think the Army reservist lady is going to leave soon because she just registered for school and as soon as it starts, she will also start getting a good chunk of money every month.



As I said, here we go again. She has not, however, given a move-out date. Well, I have a date for the Marine: the 11th of this coming month so I am going to get moving with starting to run ads - probably on the 1st. His friend that he is moving in with wanted him to move out by the 1st - giving me all of 2 days notice.



Yes, I would have gotten pretty mad, really, for someone to do something like that. All I can say is I hope I can find someone and quickly as summer isn't quite over, yet, the high today is quoted at 97 degrees. I'm referring to electricity, the extreme use of it to keep the house cool through central AC and the fact that without 3 tenants, the house will not be very cool : ) Turn the thermostat up to about 90 and I can probably afford that.



Well, anyway, it is what it is, deal with it as it comes. The trailer tenants - dunno about them. I don't think they're going to be able to get the place they were looking at because they simply don't have the down money to get in it. They want first month's rent and I think a $200 security deposit. Sorry, I can't help ya with that, you're welcomed to stay until you figure something out.

August 30, 2010 5:55 AM

Anonymous said...

Turtles. Well, I wrote some experts on an internet site about them, the fact that they are terrified, on and on, and I got a very detailed and lengthy - and informative - response back. Don't worry about them, don't even try to feed them for a few WEEKS. Lol. Okay. I was informed that they can live for months without food if the prior owners fed them well (which they definitely did) and that it is quite normal that they go to the bottom of the pond and - pretty much be mortified. Further, those turtles were at eye level in their old habitation, now, they are on the ground. When someone like me - 6'2" walks up to them, it's more like King Kong to them.



Here comes the kicker: he states that they probably aren't going to survive a Phoenix winter, it gets too cold for them. Not cold enough to hibernate (I didn't know turtles were hibernating creatures) but too cold to survive. So, what to do with these turtles in winter? I will probably get rid of them if it's going to turn into a high-maintenance nightmare. I thought about making some turtle soup. Lol. No, really,I don't have any place in the house where I would want to put a tank, I do have a shed outside but it will just get cold in there, I think I may just start looking for a new owner for them.



As for the fish, well, I have enough fish now, thank you. I need more plants, but there is a pond club meeting coming up in a couple of weeks and usually you get free plants. This time, I will arrive earlier. There was a family at the last one that was hoarding the free plants - helping themselves to everything and not leaving much for anyone else. I was at those people's home at the pond club tour - they can use as many plants as their greedy little fingers can walk off with out of those meetings. I did end up with a nice umbrella plant which is in one of the ponds now and it does, as the owner that brought them in say, reproduce very quickly. In fact, I think I might be able to separate some of them now and repot.



Work day approaches. There is one order in the system but I have to go 4 or 5 different places to get all of the materials, including one place that is a good drive from here, so I will be busy at least for most of the morning. Which is nice. As for the home front, well, I have new things to worry about - finding more tenants. Always a hassle, always causes some amount of trepidation, always.



G'day.



ben

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Plecos

So, I went back.  The pond owners are trying to get rid of all of the fish.  I wish I could oblige - I took some, yes, but not all of them.  My 2 ponds with fish cannot further handle, I don't think, any more fish.  I have a huge filtering process, yes, but it can only handle so much.  I just cleaned it out - a giant pile of fish poo. 

Both of the ponds for fish are pretty much full.  I mean, sure, you can put more in them, but is it wise?  I have good filtering and great aeration on both of them  - but - I have read ample material on the subject that yes, there is a point where you can have too many.  It's the point of amount of toxins that accumulate in the ponds, not feeding them - feeding is cheap enough and that doesn't really do anything to turn me away from getting more fish. 

Anyway, catching the Plecostomus proved to be a challenge - much more so than even the Koi yesterday.  They are mud dwellers, they can hide down there.  The man drained the pond down until there was very little water and we were able to get them all out of there - 5 large ones.  This was the score as well as the heaters, I took 8 of them.  I paid for 6.  They threw in a couple extras in case one doesn't work, but they basically said they always discard the ones that aren't working.  Okay, I paid $2 a piece for heaters that are normally $30 a piece.  THAT'S why I went there today.  Now, I am prepared for winter.  I need only get floating thermostats for the ponds to make sure they are warm enough - since that's quite a while away, I am not going to concern myself with it right now. 

Upon viewing the new fish in both ponds, a large white goldfish that I got today and one of the goldfish already in the pond are - doing something.  I don't know if goldfish will get agressive with each other but one is chasing the other around.  Another plausibility is that there are mating rituals going on.  Not really sure.  I'll give it some time to see if the activity dies down - other wise I will remove one or the other from the pond and put it in the other pond. 

Hours long interlude as life occurs and I have to deal with things.

One of which is the ex-Marine's 5th declaration that he is moving out next month on the 11th.  This turned into a long, drawn out conversation.  The fact of the matter is:  he has no idea what he's getting himself into.  Renting an apartment with a friend.  I can think of nothing that can end a friendship faster than living with friends at a young age and attempting to learn the things in life - that many readers learned decades ago.

I gave no warnings about such: most people have to learn that on their own.  I can find another renter, I am not worried about that.  I just watch people come and go out of here - some will make it, some will not.  One was carted off on a stretcher.  He is STILL in a nursing home. 

Uhhh, even more interruptions and this post is over, as I have to go to bed.

G'nite.

ben

Saturday and Sunday

Started an entry yesterday but never finished it. The unemployed tenant had her 2 kids over - a 4 year old girl and 7 year old boy.  They were here ALL day long.  She had little control over them and I will be having a discussion about whether I want them over here again or not considering the yelling, screaming and perpetual chaos that went on for most of the day.  At around 7:00pm I had had MORE than enough when the little girl came into the hallway and started screaming at the top of her lungs - just to hear herself screaming apparently. 

I, in turn, began speaking very loudly that "You need to get your kids under control, stop the screaming junk - NOW!!"

They left shortly after that - I disappeared into my bedroom.  I have my computer out here - here being in the kitchen area - there simply was no peace.  I can handle quite  a bit of stuff, but yesterday was ridiculous.  I had thought she was thinking about having them over another night the way she was talking, I would have intervened and said, no thanks, they've been here long enough, take'em home, thanks. 

Anyway, I DID go and get some more fish yesterday.  2 more ponds shutting down.  My mission: Koi, no more goldfish.  I have lots of goldfish, I only had 2 Koi until yesterday.  I was the first one there, the guy claimed that there were "hundreds" of fish in his pond - simply not true.  He only had 2 Koi, but the 2 he had were huge.  He wanted $10 a piece for them.  A 16 inch long Koi is going to get at least $50 on the market, if not much more.  I bought both of them and considered that my "fun money" for this pay period.  His pond was not much larger than the pond I put those Koi into - he said he had them about 4 years - so, I guess these giant fish can do very well in smaller ponds. 

Catching those suckers - as it always is with Koi - proved to be a lengthy process.  The first one took about 10 minutes to snag, I got him with my small net, put him in the container where he jumped out onto dry land.  Not smart, Mr. Koi, not too smart.  Picked him up, dumped him in there, put a lid on it and then we proceeded to try and catch the other, larger one.  HE was a pain the rear.  He did NOT want to be caught.  Spent a good half hour trying to catch him.  I finally suggested to the guy to block him in at one of the pond and it should be easier to get him.  Sure enough, 2 minutes after blocking him in, I snagged him.

He also had several large plecostumus.  They are algea eaters and I want several.  I dunno how hard it would have been to catch them, the water was too murky from catching the Koi to even see them so I gave up on that idea.  I told him if he could catch them I would come back and get them.  Haven't heard back from him so I dunno.  Maybe I'll call later, he only wanted $3 for a giant pleco, that's a good price.  I have seen people advertising pleco's that large for $15 and up. 

Well, that guy has another ad up so I called him just now - he is selling his pond heaters for $2 each, that's a SMOKING deal and I want them.  I don't need them now but I also don't want to be caught red-handed when winter FINALLY - IF EVER - gets here and the water needs to be warmed up a bit.  Later on for that is all I can say. 

My son is a good boy.  He wants to get my old Buick running and said he had $200 to do so.  I had thought he had much more money than that - yes, he did, his mom is unemployed and he gave her $200 or more to help her out a bit. 

The problem with getting that car going is it's going to cost around $400 or so to do it.  I don't really have "extra" funds right now.  Spending $20 on fish and maybe a few more dollars later for those heaters is about the end of it. 

However, the food bill has gone down considerably around here and the electric use is starting to fall as the temps have come down.  I don't, however, even think about calling summer done - the extended forecasts still show some hot days ahead.  The forecasters in these parts don't seem to have a clue what they are doing.  I mean, it rained yesterday and there wasn't anything in the forecast for rain.  Stuff like that.  Anyway, my problem is that I pretty much got sucked dry in the finance department trying to keep up with huge electric bills and dealing with late paying tenants.  I spent $500 last month on electricity and just hit $400 for this month - 3 more days to go til' the first I'm going to call it about a $430 month for electricity.  Better than last month, still far too high. 

I told Caleb he might ask his grandpa to help him out with the car if he wanted to hand write a letter to him.  Grandma won't help with such things, I know that for a fact so not even worth bothering to ask.  Meanwhile, I'll come up with a budget for next month and see if I can look forward to some extra funds what with much less food being eaten and hopefully shrinking electric use as the hot days start winding down to and END, thank you very much. 

Well, I don't have much more.  It's quiet.  Caleb just left for work and tenants are either sleeping,  awake and I can't hear them or not here, I haven't checked and don't care to.  I have numerous things I want to get done today - I was going to go to church but once again, I didn't make it to a clothing store so, no-go.  I just won't go to church in blue jean s and t-shirts, it's not my style and I wouldn't feel comfortable showing up in such "condition". 

G'day.

ben

Friday, August 27, 2010

Friday

Friday




So here comes this dude that is always messing up my Friday pre-work morning rituals. I mean, like right now as I was going to start writing this entry. One problem for him: I locked the door behind me this time. Again, if it were a customer, great, come on in, what do you need? But a truck driver? I AM a truck driver, I KNOW what it's like to have to wait until the doors open. Still 21 minutes left of pre-work stuff, I am not about to go deal with him for the next 15 minutes.........



I just find it aggravating is all.



Anyway, I was just reading a little blurp written by Karl Rove - and Obama's "Summer of Recovery", of which there is no legitimate way that Obama could possibly define this summer as one of recovery in any economic sense, none.



Where is this recovery? Where are the jobs? The housing market? Wall Street? I mean, get real, dude, there IS no recovery and the gloomists are saying another 2 and a half YEARS of "corrections", they like to call it, in the housing crash. In other words, that much more time's worth of foreclosures.



Well of course! How does an unemployed person that has no or little income pay a mortgage? I am, apparently, the exception to the rule: I have tenants, basically, paying my mortgage. Most people, apparently, would rather lose their home than have strangers live with them.



OHHHH, this guy. NOW he's at the window. AMAZING. At 6:00 am, I will go open the door. If he leaves before then, it's on HIM, not me. HE CAN WAIT like everyone else. I just announced to him very loudly that "I'm BUSY" and turned my attention away from it. What's he going to do, report me? Lol. Next time I'll put some over the window so he can't see in, either.

August 27, 2010 5:56 AM

Anonymous said...

Ummm, anyway, lost my thought. Oh, yes, Obama and his recovery program that is, ultimately, going to have our children's children paying for this s***. Talk of repealing the health care bill, is, fortunately, still very present. Look, let's have health care but let's do it in a responsible manner, not just say here, let's dump a trillion dollars at it and hope the problem goes away.



Anyway, weekend almost here. There is, again, nothing in the truck routing system for today to do, which totally sucks. Another long day. Manager's meeting meaning all managers are "offsite" today doing a yearly meeting going over what, exactly, no idea. I hope to leave early today and just use vacation hours to cover it unless, of course, something comes up (which would be very nice if it did).



The weather forecasters around here, as normal, can't get anything right. Yesterday, rain wasn't even in ANY forecast, yet it was raining all over the place! LOL. This entire weekend now is supposed to have cloud cover, chance of rain and temps below 100 degrees.



Oh, the turtles. Yes, well now they're just hanging out at the bottom of the pond, underwater, terrified, don't know what to do for them. Really, I don't. I'll look on the internet to see if I can find anything, but, I doubt it. Time, I'm guessing, is the only factor here that will allow them a chance to settle down and grasp the reality that yes, this IS your new home. Prince, the giant black Great Dane, is fascinated by them. I pull them out of the water, oh yes I do, when I come around. Afraid or not, I am not going to just let them hide down there. He sniffs them, doesn't try to bite them or anything with this look of fascination on his face.



IF the temps stay down this weekend, I will be out front of the house doing yard work. I did several weeks ago - spend several hours out there - but there is really much more I need to get done. Grass is trying to grow everywhere and I'm going to have to put more plastic down to stop/contain the growth. A pain, yes, but I don't want grass growing out there at all.



Anyway, work day - whatever work there may be to do - is almost here and I have a few more things I wanna do before signing in.



G'day.



ben

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Thursday

Thursday




Apparently I forgot when I got home yesterday from work to post that morning's post from this comments section to it's own post.



Oh well. The only reason I do it this way now is because I don't always feel like writing in the afternoon and now I can't log into my Blogger account at work, soooo, this is the only remedy.



Anyway, I guess my notices worked because the other tenant - of whom I was prepared to hand a 5-day notice today and already it had it prepared and ready to go - handed me over the rest of the rent.



Apparently, her paying me the rent is on her time, not mine. I have to wait every 2 weeks for her to get paid. So, the rent that is due on the 1st won't get paid until the 8th.



We got to talking. She wants to go to college and went to some community college over in Gilbert. Her parents and her both decided it was too far away. I suggested a community college that is all of 2 miles from my house. She leaves, comes back 2 hours later and informs me she has enrolled in college, lol, that the military is paying for it and when she starts, the military is also going to be giving her over $1,300 per month for living expenses. I'm telling you, it MUST be NICE!!



She then declared that she will be getting her own place after she starts getting her money. I asked her to please give me enough advance notice when she intends on doing that. She replied that she will be staying for a while until she can get some stuff paid off.



That's as much conversation as I've gotten out of that woman as I have had since she moved in. Literally. The only reason I got it was because she locked her keys in her car, couldn't get into her room, etc etc etc. I offered to open the room, she said NO!! Made me curious as to what, if anything, she has going on in there that she would get so defensive about having her room opened for her?



Well, whatever. I don't hear loud banging noises and I don't think she has someone else living in there, so, no big deal.



Meanwhile, the turtles. It's becoming rather comical. They are SO afraid that they just dive into the water whenever I walk up to the pond and then start swimming up against the side of the pond, apparently trying to get out! I decided to wear my straw hat, like I do with the fish, so that I can be more easily identified by these creatures.



Uhhh, well anyway. I have been trying to get something done on my mortgage - lower the interest rate again, refi - whatever. I can't get another modification, they told me yesterday, because I am not behind in my payments. Well and freaking good that is. So, what, let the payments go for 3 months and the call them back? They suggested a refi which I KNEW I wouldn't qualify for because the loan to value is WAY off kilter at this point.



I called the bank anyway, who called me back. We had a nice little discussion, didn't bother to apply, no need to, it wouldn't have been approved and would have been a waste of mine and the bank's time. I'm guessing the house is 30 to 40k upside down now. Yeah, somewhere in that range. It's a very difficult decision to make in deciding whether to walk away or stay.

August 26, 2010 5:59 AM

Anonymous said...

Well, it isn't that hard. I mean, a short-sale is the best option if the lender will go for it, but I think offers would be low and the lender might not like it. If I walk, then eventually I have to go bankrupt. If I stay, how many years or even decades before the house is worth at least as much as the mortgage that's on it? One thing I hope I never have to do again is go bankrupt. Once through that misery was more than enough.



I'm just going to sit on that one a while, think it through, make a decision eventually. I hate the neighborhood I am living is what the real deal is. A lot of the people are just trailer trash, literally. Dump garbage out their side doors as if their entire property is nothing but a landfill and trust me, some of them LOOK like a landfill.



OFF of that subject that is AGES old, unfortunately and gets me going every time I start thinking about it. Really - WHY can't they just keep their properties CLEAN at the very least, even if they have no landscaping? TRASH.



That's life in my fast lane, what about yours? Oh, the trailer tenants. Well the guy has been working outside and now inside as well. Cleaning out the utility room - looks very nice. I needed some acetone to remove glue sticking on the molding from - yes my - leaving tape on there. I was painting and forgot about it. He has done so much work and it's the end of the month (they are broke) I handed him a $20, told him to go buy the acetone and then keep the change. Acetone doesn't cost that much. So, he's going to get that junk off of there, paint it and it will look wonderful again.



I have seen 4 different weather forecasts for this coming weekend with wildly different predictions. It's CRAZY. How do these people come up with this stuff? One says Saturday will be 98 degrees, another says it will be 107. Whatever. I mean, I could just throw out a guess and that would be as close as anything they are coming up with.



This is crazy, NOW they have TOMORROW'S high at 100 - 2 days ago they said it was going to be 109!! ROFL!!! Gee, I think I want to be a weather forecaster, pick numbers out of a hat and that's what the temp will be!!



I put an ad on Craigslist for pond plants - either free or cheap. One guy wrote back that he would hand me a slew of plants for $20 including water lilies. Hmmm. Well, water lilies aren't cheap and I could use several more of those plants right now. Thing is, people thin out their ponds all the time and some of those people just chuck the stuff in the trash. THAT is who I am trying to get to in my ad - yes, folks, I'll come get them and get them when you're doing the thinning process. Think I'll wait instead of spending money. Plus, there is a pond meeting in 16 days I think it is and people bring plants from their ponds and give them away.



Okay, so, the Taliban is going to attack aid workers in Pakistan. To me, that is just plain cowardice, not to mention stupid. Those people are bring food and medical supplies and such to those people that have lost homes and have no access to food because of the flooding disaster going on over there. I think if those people do attack aid workers that there will be a special place in HELL reserved for them for engaging in killing anyone that is over there that is trying to HELP THEIR PEOPLE.



Work day almost here. This, so far, has been the slowest week yet. Work is so unbelievably difficult to make it through a day when there is literally nothing to do.



Anyway, hope you have a great day!



ben

Wednesday

Wednesday




It was virtually guaranteed that McCain was going to beat Hayworth yesterday - even though Hayworth predicted yesterday that he was going to beat McCain in a "landslide victory that will go down in the history books".



I never used to give much credence to polls, but I "came around the corner" and figured they are usually pretty close - in this case, the polls were showing McCain FAR ahead of Hayworth, the polls in this case didn't lie. I'll take McCain over Hayworth ANY day - let Hayworth go sit back at the radio desk and do his little daily talk show.



As for Governor Brewer, I didn't even look at the polls, no brainer: she's going to take it and she did. The Immigration bill that she signed into law made her WILDLY popular in Arizona despite what the loudmouths are saying all over the place. It brought the border, border security and immigration problems back into the limelight and has made it a significant sticking point for the upcoming November elections.



Terry Goddard is Brewer's opponent. I can say one thing with certainty: If Goddard wins in November, I will be wanting to leave the state of Arizona. That may not be feasible or happen, but I won't want to live here under his "leadership". The mas is a FUBAR, and clusterfreak, a walking jumble of nothingness and hot air.



Okay, enough of that. I'll donate $20 to Brewer's campaign fund just to know that I did something to back up my feelings about it. I also voted yesterday - even IF I figured the election was going to turn out as it did with the candidates I am interested in. People who mouth off about how our government is being run but who don't bother to vote? SHUT UP.



Tenants. Always issues with tenants. Well, I came out this morning and found an envelope with my name on it in front of my computer. I knew who that was from and figured what was inside. Money, yes. For being unemployed I'll give her some kudos for coming up with money. She is getting unemployment but child support is deducted from it, leaving not that much left over (and certainly not enough to even cover the weekly rent).



She must like my place or she wouldn't be trying so hard to get the money to stay there. I'm not like a lot of landlords renting rooms who don't want you to have ANYONE over. No boy/girlfriends, no family, no friends, nothing. They give a hard time to their tenants and I imagine that people like to get out of those situations.

August 25, 2010 5:58 AM

Anonymous said...

I don't care - for the most part - what people do in their bedrooms as long as noise levels are kept down. When noise levels go up, then I start knocking on doors: Please turn down the volume on your activities, the rest of the house does not want to hear about it, thank you.



I mostly do not have to do that. The other lady that I gave the "friendly notice" to, 2 days ago, has not replied and is hiding. She has been in her bedroom and doesn't come out -until I have gone to bed/work/whatever. She IS working so I don't understand the problem here. However, the next notice, which will be delivered tomorrow if I don't get money from her, will not be so friendly, it will be just a blunt, 5-day pay or quit notice. Pay up or get out, plain and simple. She has a large bedroom, satellite tv, access to the internet, room is nice and cool with AC, I am definitely providing a service and I definitely do not overcharge.



So there.



Okay, I tried to see the turtles this morning, but - the sun is coming up later now and it isn't light out that early. Well, I trust they are okay. They are in for another scare, I am guessing, when I come to the pond today and look down in there and see what they're up to. Probably, they will be on the dry area and probably, when they see me, they are going to plop into the water and hide at the bottom. Yes, well, they are going to HAVE to get used to me is all I can say about that.



The 6 new goldfish in other pond seem to be doing okay. Well, they haven't died and don't show signs of dying, so I will hope they are going to survive in there.



Antonio, the smaller goldfish that the family brought over last weekend, is doing quite well in his new environment. He apparently loves the "open space" that a 7 and a half foot long by almost 5 feet pond gives him as opposed to the 10 gallon aquarium he was in. In fact, that pond is doing so well I am going to hate to "shut it down" when the time comes to get that big pond going.



I will transfer the water from that pond into the big pond - fish and plants as well. Then I will have to decide what I want to do with that one. I am thinking that it isn't all such a bad idea that maybe one of these ponds just stays an above ground setup - and that one seems the perfect one to do it with.



The issue - besides digging out that hard ground - is what to do with all that dirt. That is a larger pond and will also prove to be a difficult task to find a good place to put the dirt and not have the area I am putting it in look - bad. So, I'm thinking of moving it from where it is, yes, but put it somewhere up against the side of the house and start anew with it.



Well, that's enough for one entry. There is, again, nothing in our truck routing system, which really is no fun at all. There is something for tomorrow in there, yes, but that doesn't help with today. It will be a long seven and a half hours is all I can say about that.



G'day.



ben

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Turtles

The turtles are absolutely terrified. 
I had read that they probably will be for even up to several days worth.
I did not expect them to be THAT mortified, however. 
But, thinking about it:
I just took 2 reptiles that were living in a glass aquarium for 4-1/2 years.
Living in an artificial envirnonment in a teenager's bedroom, they knew nothing more
than a log and water.  That was ALL that was in that aquarium.  There were no plants,
no fish, nothing but water, gravel on the bottom and a log in the middle.  I mean - really.
Umm, well I intend on at least trying to put plants in there.  They say turtles may - or may not -
eat them. 
Well, anyway, I took them out of their box, put them on the dry area I made for them, they just sat there,
looking at me.  One of them jumped into the water and went to the bottom.  The other did the same.
They wanted nothing to do with me, lol. 
I stood there and they were clawing at the side of the pond, apparently trying to get away from me.
I decided to make some hiding places for them so they might settle down a bit - of which they went directly for. 
So that's that.  I just left them - other things I wanted to do and I figure I will spend more time tomorrow out there and see if they are "coming out of their shells" a little bit.
No, I am sitting here waiting on primary results.  Supposedly the first rounds of results will be given out at 8:00pm  which is in less than 5 minutes.
ben

HOT Day

There were just six of them.  6 pallets.  Loaded with heavy fittings for ductile iron pipe.  A contractor returned all of it  and now we are sending it back to the manfucturer, it is oddball stuff that we can't resell and are not going to just keep in "inventory" forever.  The manufacturer will charge a 25% restock fee, but at least the contractor gets something back out of it.

Well, my job was to make all of that stuff fit for transporting on LTL trucks.  LTL is simply a term for less than load - not a whole truckload.  You see them all over - Conway/Saia/Bestway all kinds of companies specialize in picking up materials that are not a full truckload but are FAR too heavy or large for UPS or Fedex to pick up in one of those vans they drive around.

Well, I have ample experience with these freight companies.  The stuff gets moved around endlessly until it makes it to it's destination.  It doesn't just get moved around, it gets bashed into by other freight and crashed into by forklifts and hand trucks.  So, I had to really package the stuff well.

WEll, it was 110 degrees out there and that's in the shade.  Banding the stuff up and then walking around each pallet endless times with shrink wrap to entomb it in plastic and then tape it up and the move it back outside?  About killed me.  I had another heat headache, I HATE those.  I will freely admit that this summer has totally kicked my @$$.  I have never experienced so much heat with the humidity levels at what they are for such an extended period of time.  111 degrees with up to 50% humidity?  It's like being tortured.  I'm not trying to be funny, either, it is literally HELL out there right now. 

I got done with that and felt like passing out.  Even my manager took one look at me and asked if I was okay.  I didn't say anything, what's to say?  It totally SUCKS outside during the daytime, especially for those of us that have to work in it.

I went on a delivery run after that - something finally came up and I decided today, after going through all of that, would be the day to cheat and totally blow the diet.  Ohhhhh, and I did.  No, not the sub sandwich this morning that had ham, loaded with veggies and topped with a little vinegar, mustard and pepper.  Nope, that's been a staple of this diet, actually.  It's the only fast food I can find that has low calorie and low fat offerings. 

Ahhhh, no, I went for the Dairy Queen Blizzard.  A LARGE one.  German Chocolate.  I hadn't had one of those  - I dunno, in a year?  I stay away from ice cream because I love the stuff so much.  You wanna put on a nice gut, just eat ice cream every day.  It was heaven in a cup.  I devoured it - too fast actually, should have taken a little more time and enjoyed it a little more cause' honey, there ain't gonna be no more of those offerings for quite a long time.  You know, I didn't feel bad at all after I ate it.  I thought - I have done so well making good eating choices and literally shoving temptation back down my throat and not giving in SO many other times, I thought it was a treat well-deserved. 

I think next month I will do something out-of-diet, but it won't be ice cream.  Instead I'll have a meal of something that I haven't been eating and just forget about the calories.  I am totally resolved to continue eating the way I have been since I started this diet for a long time to come, I don't have a problem with what I am eating because I happen to like the stuff.  I DO need to find some new recipes, I will be spending some time doing that soon enough.

In 2 hours I go to get the turtles.  Never had turtles as a kid, I think it might be cool.  But, if I end up hating it, I can always sell them on Craigslist, those kinds of turtles don't last long on there, people buy them up if you are giving a good price.  They actually had posted these turtles for sale before I even saw them, but contacted me via email - they don't really want money for them they want a good home.  I promise to give them a good home while they are here and if I end up liking having turtles around, they will be here until I either lose the house to foreclosure (hope not, but reality is reality) or they die, or I move - though if I move and it is voluntary (not foreclosure) to another property that I would buy, all animals - dogs/fish/turtles/some humans - would go with me.  These are preformed ponds and come out of the ground easily.  It's DIGGING the ground out FOR them that's the pain the - rear.  No, coming OUT of the ground is simply the act of removing living water creatures - put them in temporary quarters - take out plants - temp quarters as well, pump out the water, grab a hold of the liner and walaah - it comes right out. 

Uhhh, gotta go out and feed the fishies : )

ben

Tuesday

Tuesday




Yesterday afternoon, I found an order that our main branch was taking out that is supposed to be for our branch. The trip includes going to Tucson and then up to the mines in the mountains. My attempt to thwart the action - failed :(



The reasoning was that there was going to be stuff in our system to do locally today, we can't be traipsing around the countryside. Well, there is nothing in our system - as there was nothing in the system yesterday before I left - and now - nothing to do when work starts besides attempting to invent things to do, as always.



Vote for J.D Hayworth or John McCain - that is the question.

Easy one there. We ALREADY got rid of Hayworth once and the ads McCain has run against him? Hayworth couldn't refute and actually ended having to apologize for his part in running ads in Florida that bilked people out of a lot of money.



I'd RATHER vote for someone else - but there is no-one else besides some dude I have never heard of and won't be voting for.



Anyway, I have my pond set up for the free turtles. A small pump that I already had, an aerator and that's it besides the pond I also already have. This one is going to be an experiment. If they turn out to be too much work and trouble, I can sell the suckers for $25 or so a piece and be done with them.



Tenants.

1st tenant I was going to hand an eviction notice to yesterday stated that she was coming up with enough money to cover at least one week's worth of rent. Okay, well, I want to see that no later than the end of today or - the eviction notice will be handed to her.



2cd tenant - avoiding me. I gave her the friendly notice - well I put it under her door, she was home and never did leave yesterday. She doesn't come out when she's home except to use the bathroom so I don't ever really see her. If I don't see the money in the next few days, it's going to be an eviction notice. Actually, in 2 days so I can have her out by the first of next month. She has a job, I don't know what her problem is and I noted on the notice that if she is going to continue to have problems paying on time, she needs to discuss with me the situation.



The only "guaranteed" money I ever get is from the ex-Marine, and that only because he gets money from the military every month. Whatever the case, dealing with deadbeat tenants gets old.



Work day is here, gotta get offa here.



G'day.



ben

Monday, August 23, 2010

Monday

FINALLY came into work and found something to do in the truck routing system. I was NOT looking forward to having to attempt to invent things to do all day long as was the case for most of last week, sans one day when I was running around all day long.




I am simply not the kind of person that wants to sit around doing nothing at work. It gets boring, monotonous and I start to get lethargic.



I placed an ad in Craigslist a while back asking for "things for the pond". Instead of constantly scouring the ads for people shutting their ponds down and either giving stuff away or selling very cheap, I thought I'd just put the ad out there and see what happens.



Yesterday, a family contacted me through the ad saying that their son is going to college, they have to red eared slider turtles, do you want them? I had to think about that. What do turtles eat? How much does it cost to keep them? I started looking it up - they LIKE to eat fish and even some vegetables, but the main thing that keeps them healthy is some prefabricated food that you buy at the store, much like the Koi pellets I have to buy about once a month (at $6.00 per large can, I am not spending very much money keeping all of those fish).



I have an extra pond and was thinking I could put them in there and see what happens. Keep them from the goldfish - definitely far away from them, I don't want them crawling aroud my yard, finding the other ponds and then having dinner on a goldfish or Koi. That's kind of the dilemna - where to put the pond so I know they won't be bothering the fish. The only answer I can come up with is out front where I was going to put one of those ponds anyway.



The front of my house is starting to look like a tropical rain forest or something. There is so much trees and vegetation - well - it's really the effect I was looking for anyway. Most of the sissoo trees that I have planted around the property - over 20 of them - have taken off and growing like giant weeds - that includes the trees out front.



I'll have to clear a place for the pond - it's a small one I have no intention of putting a large pond out front and taking up precious space for trees and shrubbery - but I do have a place in mind.

August 23, 2010 5:59 AM

Anonymous said...

One problem, however, is getting electricity out there. Have to have a small aerator and a small pump to keep the water from stagnating and going foul. I have the pump, I have an extra bio-filter - I do not have an aerator but they only cost $10 for a small one so no big deal and they don't use much electricity.



Which leads me to the next "problem" I was facing in this array of ponds I am going to have out there - I need an electrical box mounted on a pole with at least 12 outlets to really do this right. Fortunately, there IS electricity out there - the line that feeds my AC unit could be tapped to provide the power.



But - funds are very tight right now. I have a big plus in my corner going: the elimination of all of those kids coming over had an instant effect on finances: a lot of food not being consumed. Chips, cookies drinks? Haven't bought any in over a week. My son doesn't want any of that stuff so I have no further reason to buy the junk. I don't eat it, either. But far beyond that is the huge amount of food I was buying to fill teenaged stomachs, which, if you've ever had teenagers, you know how much food they can eat.



I'll bet I dropped $300 per month - AT LEAST - in the departure of all of them. The only ones left are my son and J.D., the oldest black brother who comes over at night to get on the internet. No, they don't have internet at their house. He's been coming over to my house for.....years now. He does like the junk food but I am simply not going to be buying any more of it, or very little of it at this point.



I'm still in the deep woods- not out of the woods yet - in terms of finances and money spent on electricity and all the issues with tenants. One tenant will be getting a 5-day notice - she is paying me a portion of the rent with her unemployment but not all of it and now has entered a 3 week "behind" period that I will not let go any further, as I have no belief that she is going to find a job anytime soon.



The second tenant should have paid me the other half of the rent by now, she has not. That will be a "friendly notice" - please pay up. She does have a job and should have paid it by now.



So, do I get the turtles? A stop at Walmart today to find out how much that food costs will determine that. If it's as cheap as the Koi pellets and goldfish flakes, then I will have no problem with it.



Antonio - the 4 inch goldfish the family brought over yesteday - is doing quite well in his new environment. He's the smallest fish in the tank besides the mosquito eaters, but, apparenlty, goldfish don't really mess with each other that much, at least not from what I have observed.



The jury's still out on the 6 free fish I got yesterday and dumped into the other pond. They weren't doing well to begin with with the conditions they were subjected to at the previous owner's house, only time will tell if they are going to pull out of it.



Anyway, work day is almost here....



G'day.



ben

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Sunday

Pond next to the house was overflowing this morning.  Yes, it rained last night.  Free water to fill the pond (and water my plants)? Take that any day.  Anyway, I have a trip to make this morning to go get some more fish - free - another pond being shut down.  Got in on that one too late:  they were giving away Koi and goldfish.  Koi are gone, goldfish are left.  They claim they are 8 inches long and have 7 of them.    Well, for free, who cares what kind of fish they are, a big point of having ponds is to have fish in them.  These fish will go into the smaller pond as I believe I am maxed out on the number of fish the bigger pond should have in it.

Too many fish and the water will start to get full of toxins even if you are running a filtering system 24 hours a day.  After that, a family of however many is coming over to bring their beloved goldfish and want to see what kind of setup the fish is going to go into.  Okay.  Another free fish and I don't have to go anywhere to get it.  After that - well this may be pushing it timewise but I am hopeful to make it to church again.

2-1/2 hour break.  Got 6 fish from the shut-down pond and another goldfish arrived, family in tow, a few minutes ago.  These people wanted to shut down the aquarium but apparently wanted the kids to know that the fish was going to a good home.  So, they came into my back yard, mother had camera, papa had bucket, slowly dumped it into the pond, fish dumped out, kids started screaming with excitment - and they left.  That was it.  No elongated this that and the other thing, the got the fish in there and I guess that was their way of washing their hands of the fish and keeping it something in a good light for the kids.

The 6 fish are in the other pond.  They went to the bottom of it and sat there for a while.  They had been kept in a small tub with water so murky and dirty, you couldn't see those fish in there even though it was only maybe 14 inches deep.  The transport home probably didn't help them any, either.  Shock treatment should help them and so I dumped some of that in there.
Now that this is all over, I am attempting to decide whether to go to church or not.  I woke up too early this morning and now all this driving around and "excitement" has worn me out.  I'm ready to take a nap, not get dressed in Sunday Nines and go to church. 

Well, I have half an hour to decide.

Meanwhile, I'm still dieting.  My quit date for this diet?  When I lose the weight?  That probably won't work too well, now will it.  If you spend a year losing the weight and then just gain it all back again after you are "done", what possible good does that do?  I would think that would be depressing, to be honest.  I have no idea, honestly.  A life change in eating habits is what this is really all about.  I have kept a pretty strict approach about it - no cheating.  But, I have decided, I have been on this for quite a while now, the weight is ever-so-slowly dropping - but - I need to be able to cheat at least ONCE in a while.  Just one thing that I want, too: a German Chocolate Blizzard.  Pretty much guaranteed that before too many more days pass, I will have bought and consumed one and I won't feel bad about it one iota.

Now, if I go out and get ANOTHER one, then we have trouble. 

Well, I"m going to go check the fish and try taking a 20 minute nap.  Perhaps that will be enough to motivate me to go.

ben

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Saturday

So, I'm sitting here this morning attempting to play Cafe World - which was down - so I started reading other stuff.  Like the president and family on - another - vacation. I mean, these people take more vacations than most people's heart's beat in a single day.

Okay, a bit of an overstatement, still - they are so out-of-touch with the reality of the rest of us, it's just another slap in the face. 

Well, the ex-Marine comes out and asks for a favor - take him to wherever his truck got a flat tire last night.  Most certainly did not feel like doing that -it's hot and humid out, my car's AC isn't working, but - of course - I "sluggishly" agreed to help him out.  Got all the way over there - there just happens to be a tire shop across the street.  We go over there - his mother, who is lives and is IN Germany - was going to pay for the tire with a credit card over the phone.

Well, they put a good used tire on it and then find out his method of payment.  Their setup will not allow such to be input by hand, apparently it's card swipe only.  $25 for the tire and mounting it.  Yup, I paid for the tire - put it on my credit card so I wouldn't lose the cash that I have now, which isn't much.  His mother is sending him a check and he is going to start getting ample funds from the stipend the Marines are giving him for living expenses while going to school starting next month. 

Get back from that and Caleb needed a ride to work.  That is going to get very old, very quick.  He is getting his license in 2 or 3 weeks (provided he passes the driving test, of course) and he can take MY car to work when he is here as I don't care - I don't go out that often in this heat.  We are discussing fixing up my old Buick for him to drive.  It needs about 4 or 5 hundred dumped into it to make it a good, reliable vehicle. 

MUCH time has passed.  An offer to give a goldfish to me from an ad I placed almost a month ago on Craigslist came into my email.  Now?  They want to bring the whole family over to see where the fish is going to end up.  Young kids, I'm taking it they are not taking the departure of their beloved fish very well.  The fish has a name: Antonio.  Lol.  I had fish when I was a kid and I never named any of them. I just watched them with fascination. 

Don't know if they are going to come or not, waiting for a confirmation one way or the other.

John Wayne Saturdays on Direct TV.  I have watched 3 of them today.  Told ya I was unmotivated.  My favorite today - and probably most Wayne movies - is Chisum.  GREAT movie. Rio Bravo on tap right now. 

Diet - going well actually.  I have my temptations but I mostly ignore them. Those that raise their ugly heads I battle with one way or the other, but so far haven't given into.  Yesterday, I had a huge desire to go to Diary Queen and get a German Chocolate Blizzard.  It was literally HOURS before I could get that little compulsion to subside.  I have no such desires today, but I'm guessing I will eventually give into something and I won't feel bad about since - the rest of the time I am  following right along with keeping with it. 

Look, I saw a news story the other day that said that 25% of Arizonans are OBESE.  How many more are overweight?  How many of my friends from the past are grossly overweight, even morbidly obese?  Get old and fat?  And die young?  What possible allure does that have for me?  NONE,thank you, NONE.  Summertime is the worst time here - people don't WANT to go outside,they want to stay indoors and keep cool.  Great - if you can contain your desire to eat and eat.  Nightmare if you cannot.  I drink FAR more water than I drink anything else.  All day long, especially at work, I am drinking glass after glass after glass of water.  You now it's hot when you've drank almost a half gallon of water and the only thing coming out of you in elimination is sweat.

Lol.

Well, I am going outside for my daily, elongated visit to the pond with the fishies.  It's very therapeutic, even if it is 109 degrees out there right now. 

ben

Friday

Friday




Well looky here, it's Friday!! Facing another weekend and the potential of going to the same church twice, well, all I know is one thing: it's going to be HOT this weekend and I probably will feel like doing nothing again.



I am so ever-loving through with this summer and the heat you just don't know. I can't stand it. This summer has been worse than any in recent memory because of the high humidity factor. I don't remember the humidity levels being as high as the have been especially on days when the temps are getting up into the 110 arena.



The DC shipment just arrived. This guy shows up before we start - every Friday - and expects me to deal with it before I am signed in and before our store is opened. I always forget to lock the front door after I come in (therefore eliminating this man taking up my free time before work starts) - I did not forget today : )



If a CUSTOMER shows up early, then yes, I will deal with a customer, but this guy KNOWS our hours of operations yet feels no compulsion at all about coming in here and basically forcing my to deal with him. Just a bit irritating is how I will address it. Of course, I did remember to lock it once a long time ago - this guy had the gall to come to the window on the side of the building and try to get my attention. I completely ignored him.



Anyway, they FINALLY caught those fugitives - the guy that escaped from prison and then allegedly, with another escapee, killed an elderly couple in New Mexico. I have very foul feelings for people that do something as evil and selfish as an action such as that towards innocent human beings. Kudos to law enforcement for not giving up or even slowing down until they found those beasts. Why did this guy have to end those people's lives? I will never understand such actions because they are incomprehensible.



Meanwhile, a "giant oil plume" lurks underwater near the BP spill. The idea that this oil just "disappeared" - as some experts have stated - is ludicrous at best. WHERE did it "disappear" to? A spacecraft come down from the heavens, suck it all up and walaah, it's all gone?



Oh, and I think I'll not be eating any eggs anytime soon - not that I eat them that often anyways. Well, better yet, just make sure they're from a local source - we have plenty of them around here. I'm referring to the salmonella outbreak that is linked to tainted eggs and 1,300 cases so far being attributed to those eggs.



Well, the work day is here, the dude is outside, I have to get offa here, get signed in and get moving. Of course, that will only take a few minutes and unfortunately, there is NOTHING in our truck routing system to do today........



G'day.



ben

Thursday, August 19, 2010

3 days in a row now I have weighed in at 194 pounds.  I hit it 2 or 3 weeks ago and then went back up.  I had hoped I would have broken the 180 barrier by now - but - whatever.  I'm determined to get down there.  When the weather cools - will it ever - I will start walking and exercising again. 

Ballys is offering me a year membership at $99.  Yes, for the entire year.  I had a lifetime membership that only required a monthly service fee after the thing was paid off - that took a long time to do so.  I let the service fee go and lost it - a LONG time ago.  I could take an alternate way home from work that would not add any mileage and hit the gym - for what, $8 per month? and get some aerobics and free weights going.

I have absolutely no funds to do that right now, but they offer me this deal every month.  For years.  I paid the price, that's a fact - but another fact is that when I had that membership, I USED it to the nth degree.  I remember a big van had showed up out front of that place one day and were doing free body fat tests.  I measured - at that time - at 4.9% body fat.  I wasn't just skinny, I was lean - lots of muscle, toned, in good shape.  Not even near that now and neither would getting to that body fat proportions even be a goal.  I just want to get back into shape.  I am 2 pounds into the "ideal range"  - I have been out of that for quite a while now - maybe 2 years anyway. 

I'll tell you what got me cooking even more on this diet.  I read a local news story that fully 25% of Arizonans? Are OBESE.  That's unbelievable.  The story was obesity and didn't go into numbers of the adult population here that is overweight.  I had NO idea.  That is a staggering percentage of just the AZ population that is beyond overweight. 

If this nation is headed towards morbid obesity; obesity and overweight and the scientific facts that allegedly declare that that alone leads to more health problems - a lot more health problems and if it's true that it's of pandemic proportions, then perhaps there is merit to giving people that are in their normal/ideal weight range a huge discount, a rebate, whatever, for being in such condition. 

IF we are going to subsidize everything else - a thing that just frustrates me to no end, then perhaps we should do such in an arena where the desired benefit from doing such is a much healthier society? 

My Danes.  Doing well, of course. I always take care of my dogs as best as I can.  They sleep alot - it's a dog's life, yes?  However, they are not fat, obese, overweight - whatever.  I limit snacks.  They mostly only eat dog food.  I handed out an entire loaf of bread today split between  all of them - I am perfectly sure they could have eaten 4 loaves and would have wanted more.  They love walks - but I have refrained in this heat.  I take them 1/4 mile and they appear to be next-to-death with panting so heavy you'd think they had just been shot.


Waiting for cooler weather.  I will be much more active and if I can stay on this diet - I will lost much more weight.  Humidity and high temps are killers.  High temps - 110 today with 50% humidity this morning. 

Much more? Yes.  However, it's 8:30 pm and I think I am going to go to bed.

G'nite.

ben

Thursday

Thursday




Week dragging by as far as work is concerned because it has been very, very slow. So, to say it is "already" Thursday is better than nothing.



I am still putting in applications here and there for jobs that I am qualified for - ie: that I can show ample experience in doing. Just looking for part-time work to supplement my regular job's lack of hours. I have been looking for quite a long time and have only received one response, of which I replied back and never heard anything else again - probably because they were looking for full-time workers and I was and am seeking part-time.



Meanwhile, Obama is going to Ohio, apparently, to meet with some middle class family. The news put on a slew of people that live in the area that are unemployed, have been unemployed, have put a hundred/s of applications and received nothing in terms of any kind of prospect for employment.



Of interest was the lady that has 18 years of paralegal experience and can't find anything, anywhere. This is the field I was looking to go into some 5 or 6 years ago and opted against it because of the high cost of education to get any kind of degree AND the fact that lawyers were telling me that getting into the field is difficult unless you know someone.



Indeed. I can imagine being $45,000.00 in debt right now for student loans, having a degree in the field and have no job in that field and no prospects of finding one. That kind of thing is what leads people into depression, I do believe. Not financial depression, mental depression.



Anyway, yesterday I was scouring the web for more information about the CSA 2010 regulations that are - whenver it's going to happen - come into effect. Allegedly there is now a shortage of truckers.



??????.....and the numbers of truck drivers that will be needed by the end of next year? The figures range from 20,000 to 500,000. Reason? Drivers that are disqualified from the CDL pool because of the new regulations; baby boomers that are going to start retiring and truck drivers that were laid off during this recession and who these experts believe will NEVER come back.



It was interesting the many reports I found with drivers giving their testimonials of the crappy work that trucking is - referring to long haul/OTR. Never home, low pay, substandard living conditions, companies that don't care, not being paid for a lot of the work that is involved with the process of driving truck (such as loading and unloading, drivers simply aren't paid for waiting around a loading dock unless the company has some sort of fee they charge for making them wait over 2 hours).

August 19, 2010 6:00 AM

Anonymous said...

Yup, and the news isn't good for younger generation coming into the profession, either. The average yearly pay is $37,000.00. If I were starting out all over again, I would not want to get into a field where that kind of money is the only thing I was going to expect to get out of it. That used to be entry level pay, apparently that is way down as well.



It's interesting to read about the profession that I have been involved with starting in 1985 and remembering FAR better days in the trucking industry than they are now. Now, it is simply WAY over-regulated and WAY underpaid. The pay situation will iron itself out, at least to some degree, as the shortage of drivers will drive the pay scale up - drivers will become very selective about who they work for, especially veteran drivers, because they can. Perks, please and money while you're at it.



I have no such problems. I am paid for everything I do. Fueling the truck, loading the truck, driving the truck, unloading the truck, whatever it is, I am paid by the hour. Trucking industry balks at the idea of paying ALL drivers that way - of course, it would cost them a lot more money. Drivers would actually get paid for what they are doing.



How about a combination of miles driven and hours worked, then? Nope, they don't want anything to do with it. Okay, how about miles driven and a bonus for each load delivered? SOME do that to a limited degree, most won't. Doesn't matter, they simply don't want to pay enough to lure people into the profession.



Good luck with that. Eventually the hand will be forced. No drivers equals no products on the shelves and as I relentlessly point out, rail cannot handle all of the volume that is transported (trucks deliver 70%) and even if it could, trucks would still have to take most of it from a railyard to the stores.



It may be years before any real changes occur, dunno, but I guarantee that it will change eventually, it will HAVE to. Let the cost of paying drivers be passed onto the consumers, truck drivers sacrifice thier lives on the road and that's a fact. If the pay were MUCH better even I would consider going back OTR or regional. Lol, but I wouldn't consider it very long, I want nothing to do with OTR anymore.



Well, I'm still getting adjusted to the "new life" of not having any kids around. Amazingly peaceful and I don't miss the constant in and out all the time - at all. My son still coming 3-1/2 days per week, but his schedule is so busy now with school and work I hardly see him.



Anyway, work day approaches and at least there is SOMETHING to do in the truck routing system. Thank GOD Almighty!



G'day.



ben

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