Short trip, got that over with.
I no more than got back to the yard and left for home when I got a text from yet the newest version of a dispatcher: You're going to Brownsville tomorrow.
Yayyy!  I think.
Okay, it's my favorite run, I've just gotten used to at least a day off between runs.  But hey, I have most of today off so it's not that bad.

Meanwhile, yesterday when I was getting the trailer loaded at the chemical plant.  Another driver pulls in behind me.  Most of us drivers have this text group going where we text if everything is going smoothly - or not.  This dude is a transplant from another division. Actually he's only supposed to be a temporary driver, but I know all too well that he's around probably permanently.  He was gloating the other day that he will never have to learn how to unload the trailers.

Thusly, he will never get any of the crappy runs.  I bit my tongue on that one.  There's nothing I can say or do that will change anything, no sense in starting needless trouble.

But, this dude also refused to participate in the group text - even tho he's in it and takes advantage of the information that is given.  So, I texted the group, saying: "3rd load done, 4th load driver who does not participate in reports is pulling in".

He had a freaking cow, lmao.  Exactly what is that supposed to mean???

Elaborate for me!!!

I politely wrote back that it means that if you get to the plant and something is wrong and they aren't loading for whatever reason, it would be courteous to let other drivers know of the delay.  Or at least contact your manager so they can let others behind you know.

This is the driver that was sitting at the plant on first load a while back that wasn't getting loaded because the plant's pump wouldn't turn on.  He was in the group, he didn't bother to text anyone and he didn't bother to contact the manager at the very least and tell him what is going on.  I lost several hours of on duty time waiting there.

Anyway, he complained to both my manager and his manager. He is still under his manager in Louisiana even tho he's working out of our yard.  So when I get to the yard today, my manager calls me into his office and - nicely - asked me to please not call out other drivers. Some of them are easily offended babies, he explained and you know what people like that do: they complain to everyone.  I had an idea that this driver was going to complain after seeing his reaction on text messaging.

I didn't actually say his name on the group text, hence no one else knew who it was - until he texted that is with his faux outrage.  My manager - the new guy - said he would be working to get everyone to at least contact him whenever there is a hold up.  Fair enough, but that's what everyone should be doing instinctively anyway if they aren't going to text all of us.  They all know if the plant isn't working, everyone coming in after them is going to be delayed.

I just said look, when I'm at the plant I'm focused on getting in and getting out of there as fast as possible. I have a schedule for every run.  I can tell you where I will stop on longer runs and approximate time I will arrive at destination.  Many of us rely on getting in and out of the plant in a timely manner.  For me, the biggest thing is not turning a two day run into a 3 day run, or 3 into 4, etc.

He did throw me a compliment: I have to call more than half the drivers in this division to tell them I need their trailer back the next day,  please get it back here.  You, however, I don't ever have to ask anything.  I give you the run, you get it done without any need to call or bother you.  You're one of the few I don't have to worry about.

That was a nice thing to say, I thought.  If I do experience any delays on the road, he's the first one I text.
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Tuesday morning.  Off to Brownsville wonderland - in the rain. 

Happy Independence Day to everyone!
Beautiful day in northeast Texas. Well, it's hot and humid but oh well lol.
Good day to re-read the Declaration of Independence.

The owner of the other house where Maria lives has changed his mind yet again. Now he is backtracking on his offer of staying in the house for an extra $100 per month bringing the rent up to $900 monthly.  This after he told us we could continue to live there.

Outrageous at best.  You can't just tell people they can live there and then arbitrarily change your mind. This is the roof over their heads, not some installment loan for an appliance or something.  So we are left scrambling.  There isn't much available in this town right now. The monthly cost isn't important anymore, either, since the other lady over there is going to pay for it out of her trust account - inheritance from her father. He must have had some serious money for all the recipients are suddenly quite well off.  In this lady's case, tho, the money can only be used for housing expenses.

I don't know why and it's none of my business. I'll just be happy to have all of those bills out of my name.  Maria will be living virtually for free with her.  We just have to find a place....
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And Sunday early. 
We lit off a lot of fireworks last night.  That was a great time, even with the heat and humidity.  Odd when you walk back into a cold house after being out in that for hours, like walking into a walk-in freezer. 

Home, dogs were okay, Aspyn a bit shaken up but I left them both in my room, I'm not going through her jumping the fence and taking off because of loud noises like that again.  But, of course, people in our neighborhood were popping firecrackers and such, until at least 1:00 am.  Yup, I was awake until then. Then, after all of that finally died down, a loud clap of thunder.  That has gone on all the rest of the night.  I haven't gotten very much sleep and going to work right now is not on the top of things I want to to do today. I would have just laid in bed until at least 9:-00 am and tried to get some more sleep.

Considering the thunder, I have my doubts the plant is even open right now.

Whatever the case, it's going to be  a very long day. 

Well enough of that - the previous post that is. Excepting that I found out the hard way this morning that there is ammo hoarding going on, even the online suppliers are out of the most popular rounds. I was specifically looking for 1,000 rounds of 9mm and found none of it available on 2 handfuls of popular ammo sales sites.

I did find 40 caliber, but there is only one of those in the house.  I think there's 3 9mm's here.  I used to just go to Walmart for pistol ammo.  Academy Sports probably has it, but driving 37 miles one way is not on my list of things to do.  I'll just have to wait and see if they all get their supplies back up.  Like, check it every day on certain sites with the best deals.

Trip to West Virginia tomorrow. 3 day trip - usually - sometimes 4 depending on a variety of things that can slow down the process, not the least of which is the loading plant and traffic.  Really would like the option of having a firearm in the truck, now that I'm thinking about self defense. 

Anyway it's first load, the worst one IMO and I think 4 of those in a row now?  Like they think I'm some sort of early bird out for the worms? I'd take the 9:00 am loading slot and be very happy with that.  But I never say anything to them about it, it's not worth potentially limiting loads I am getting if they think I am just going to complain. 

The call did come from the lady in Amarillo tho, as the new setup has been implemented and underway.  3 days off this time including today.  Not complaining about that tho, I really wanted a longer rest.  Our industry and our particular division is finally being affected by the virus and economic shut down. I knew this would be coming sooner or later, I'm thankful we were as busy as we were up until now.

With that, time to finish laundry, dishes and mow the front lawn. 

The Desolation of America: COVID 19 and Cancel Culture.

About to pull the trigger on 1,000 rounds of ammo.  No pun was originally intended.  That will be 9mm.  Probably 500 rounds for the 40 and whatever I can find for deals on 12 gauge.  But the 1,000 rounds comes in a big box and handily stored.  Also going to get a couple of high capacity magazines for the pistols and looking at perhaps obtaining either a .45 ACP or a high powered rifle. 

Why? Well, if y'all think this situation is going to just disappear, I have news for you.  Okay, I just have an opinion.  I'm going to be prepared all the way around for come what may. Food, ammo, buns, water.  Hunting rifle.  That can both be home self protection and deer hunting.  Lots of deer in these parts. Good eating too. 

I've never been a prepper in the true sense of the word, I've just liked to keep enough food around to last a few months.  In case something happens.  I usually think of natural disasters when thinking of that.  But now? The price of meat has skyrocketed.  They are still rationing certain food items at the grocery store and meat is still being rationed, but probably not many people hoarding it at the current prices. We've gone up to $17 for a 3 pound chub of 70% "lean" ground beef.  It's good for hamburgers, but not much use for dishes that you don't want a lot of fat drippings getting into everything. 

I've got 3 months worth of food if rationed correctly.  That's everything from dried beans to rice, tuna fish, all kinds of canned and dried goods and 2 freezers almost full of meat.  I've got a new generator to run those freezers if the power goes out.  Really, the main thing we are not necessarily fully prepared with yet is ammo.  You can have all the guns in the world but if you have no ammo for them they are useless in a combat situation. 

Call it overreacting and being paranoid if you like, I'm just calling it being prepared for the worst. These people want to tear down a statue in our little town and surrounding towns.  I believe it's all confederate statues, I have no personal interest in them excepting they are a part of American history.  The one near us I think has been there 100 years. It's made out of granite, I believe, some sort of rock anyway, it wouldn't topple quite as easily as you are seeing those statues being toppled in the news.

The point? We are not immune to this nonsense and opportunists in the name of protesting - otherwise known as domestic terrorists - leave no opportunity behind to loot, burn down buildings and assault people.  They aren't coming into this neighborhood and engaging in that s*** without a battle.  People will die and blood will be shed if they come here to burn down our houses or steal/.oot our home and inflict carnage.  And that's perfectly legal in Texas - the castle doctrine here is amazingly good. 

What's going to happen if we get wave 2 of the COVID-19?  People are already facing the end of the federal government stimulus for unemployment at the end of July.  Some states the rent is due again - and people without jobs have no way to pay it.  The stimulus checks were a speck of dust in the pool of outstanding bills for people who are no longer working and have no source of income.  Couple that desperation with the increasing demands for defunding the police, calling white people racists and white supremacists and creating a hostile environment for law enforcement in this nation.

There is a great divide forming.  You are either a part of this outrageous cancel culture or you are a patriotic citizen who stands up for the heritage of our great nation and to let people live freely as they please - with certain constraints of course - but still free to live their lives as they see fit.  The cancel culture is demonizing far more than just monuments and statues. They are now targeting Facebook - which has lost many billions of dollars in ad revenues as they cancel culture ramps up it's attempt to coerce FB into censoring white propaganda.  What is that propaganda? Trump and his supporters, I found out after reading several articles to try and get to the bottom of it. 

Will Zuckerberg bow to their demands? I'm guessing yes, his wealth is literally dropping off a cliff in front of his face on a daily basis.  All major corporations have been bowing the knee to this notion that most if not all white people are racist and that we should bow in repentance to people who are claiming to be affected by actions from our forefathers centuries ago.  Welcome to the age of the people who got participation trophies, were coddled when they should have been spanked and are spoiled brats that have had no real hardship in their lives. 

I can tell you unabashedly that I am not bowing to anyone, regardless of race, and taking an oath.  I am not a racist, I don't need to repent for something I am not engaging in and if I did feel the need to repent, it would be on my knees in front of the Lord Jesus Christ, not mere mortal men and women.  These people have been emboldened and are taking it for every inch they can get out of it.  If you feel the need to repent to mortals, remember there is scripture in the bible if you give that book any credence at all that says you are to do otherwise.

Exodus 20:5 “You shall not bow down to them or serve them, for I the Lord your God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and the fourth generation of those who hate me.”


This is referring to idolatry, which in my estimation is exactly what people are being coerced into doing when they are bowing before another race and making an oath.  There is a spiritual war going on here, most people don't understand it.  There is always warfare going on in the heavenlies, but now we are seeing a battle for the souls of men and women that I haven't seen in my lifetime.  God's will will always prevail, He has a plan and it will be executed. But that doesn't mean you just sit around and do nothing. He who has ears to hear, let him hear! 

I'm not imploring anyone to do anything. I'm just looking at the writing on the wall and understanding that we may very well be in the end times.  Whether we are or aren't, the reality is that anyone that has the ability to should stock up on food, water, basic supplies that will ride you out through the coming storm.  I'm taking this as far as going to the store today and buying up all kinds of vegetable seeds.  They aren't expensive and I want them around.  I have a greenhouse - unused at the moment and I was going to get rid of it but I have changed my mind since all of this rioting and virus has come around and literally transformed the way we live our lives. 

There has never, IMO, been a stronger case to at least stock up a few months worth of supplies than what we re going through and seeing in front of our faces right now.  I live out in the country, there is a cattle ranch that sells beef on the outskirts of town. There are farmers that grown all kinds of produce - they show up at the farmer's market every Saturday.  I scored 2 giant tomatoes the other day, I mean big big tomatoes.  This area is filled with deer and wild hogs.  Food is in abundance out here, populations are low and the chances of any rioting happening out here is probably pretty low compared to big cities.  But, if COVID continues to interfere with food production - namely the meat processing plants - then what?

We're already seeing inflation, I said this a month ago but in the meat department at your local grocery store, you can see it for yourself.  I'm taking other steps as well.  Things that can be bartered if money becomes worthless. 

Look, I'm watching right now a conference of these "officials", Fauci in particular, going on about staying 6 feet apart, wearing masks, avoiding crowds etc etc etc.  How long do these people think that we can keep America shut down?  This is simply an ingredient to the recipe of chaos in America.  When people start getting desperate enough - and that will start to happen when government stimulus disappears unless they extend it - the s*** is going to hit the fan.  These are unelected officials telling the entire nation how we are to live and engage ourselves in society.

Y'all do what you will.  There are numerous people I know that are doing the same thing.  If nothing becomes of it, I'll do the same thing as I always do with the food. Eat it all up and start over. 

Unmotivated to do much of anything today.
I was a bit repulsed by this state's governor shutting down bars shortly after he reopened them.  I don't go to bars often, it's the idea of the government dictating business when they can and cannot operate because - reasons - pandemic - "state of emergency".  What a wonderful way to authorize authoritarian control over your fellow citizens and ruin their livelihoods in the name of "safety".

A bar 2 towns away had it's liquor license suspended after the bar owner told Texas authorities she wasn't going to shut it down.

Whatever the case, I was invited to go to Longview today with everyone to celebrate a friend's birthday at Texas Roadhouse.  Not my personal friend - we have talked alot but we're not friends in the sense of being close or anything like that - I said no thanks.  Just wasn't in the mood.

I ended up watching the boys - they were going to take them to Maria's.  They have been cranky and crying and getting in trouble all day long before parents left.  So I wasn't exactly thinking that was going to change. But after about 30 minutes after mom and dad left - and sending one of them off to their room for 10 minutes- they came around, settled down and stopped all  the bs.  I am quite serious, they were getting into trouble alllllll dayyyyyy long. Doing things they know they aren't supposed to do, mom and dad getting on them all the time about it.

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That was Sunday, now Monday morning.  I would expect a run to be sent for tomorrow since this is day two of being off, but who knows now that we are all being handed over to yet another dispatcher in Amarillo Texas.  The one that I am getting knows what she's doing, but there is room for problems in making that kind of handover.  I really wouldn't care yet another day off as long as I get another run before the end of the pay period on the books for next week's pay.

The 5 year old here passed tests to enter into the STEM program, which is described as follows: "STEM is a curriculum based on the idea of educating students in four specific disciplines — science, technology, engineering and mathematics — in an interdisciplinary and applied approach. Rather than teach the four disciplines as separate and discrete subjects, STEM integrates them into a cohesive learning paradigm based on real-world applications."

Those are good fields to learn, can produce a very nice annual salary and has some value to it.  These people going to college and getting degrees in art and useless stuff that only a fraction of the people getting degrees in such fields actually find employment are wasting their time and money.  But this is early on training, which is great.  I dunno how they teach a 5 year old science and such, but then again, I haven't been in school in many decades. 

And you have the news. Constant Trump bashing. Constant new narratives such as the NYT coming out saying that Trump did nothing about intel that shows russians paid to have US military personnel targeted and that x amount were killed.  Then it comes out that Trump wasn't briefed on it. After the bashing of his alleged incompetence, it comes out that it wasn't a credible story, hence he wasn't briefed.  This is endless.  It's an election year and the haters will invent stories to make him look incompetent and always attempting to make him look as tho he is in bed with Putin.  It's pretty outrageous that news organizations are no longer interested in simply providing the news and let the viewer decide, they are now engaged in nothing more than sheer propaganda. 

So, I shut the news off after maybe half an hour of it, just don't want to hear it.  The Dow Jones is up 329 points 15 minutes into the session.  I have no idea how this economy is going to play out with states shutting down again - and the effect it will have on the stock market.  I'm not necessarily worried - retirement is a long ways off for me. At least 9 years.  We just went through a "crash" that had the market down into the teens and now it's in the 25k range.  I know I am not "supposed" to, but check my 401k's after every DJ session.  Just because it lost so much money in such a short period of time and then just like that, it came all the way back up - and for a few days a bit more.

Okay, so Taylor is going to her dad's wedding next month, James was going to be going to Missouri with the boys to visit family during that time. Work, however, has panned out to stop him from that endeavor.  I thought I would be having the house to myself lol.  I even thought about travel. There are some great deals to be had - but where can you go?  Lol, no thanks on wasting the money.  Today I'll call about the boat instead and see if they're ready for me to take it on a test run.  Get out on the lake - someday.  Boating has become very popular, but if you want a new one, you best be loaded with cash. If you get an old one, you likely going to have to do work to it.  Not really a win situation either way.  I didn't want to go into payments on something I didn't know how often I would be using it.

Anyway, there are some things to do here today that I want to get done.  Namely, patches of bare ground out front. We got organic compost and a bag of seed. Just need to till up the ground, put the seed down and cover it with the compost. Nothing to involved, it's not a huge amount of area that needs it. 

With that, time to get about the day's business. 

Ya know, when you are trying to drive on 2 hours sleep? That makes for a miserable day.  I woke up a few hours after going to bed 2 nights ago with a hellish fire sore throat and a huge headache.  I'm getting sick again? After just getting over whatever it was I was inflicted with?  This went on all night long, I didn't sleep after that.  Trust me, I tried.

Going to work, get the truck hooked to the trailer, get to the plant.  Figured I try to sleep again while waiting.  Of course, we can't have the trucks running so I opened up the windows. That was a huge mistake. I had no idea a thunderstorm was coming. In fact, I had actually fallen asleep when a clap of thunder hit so loud, I literally jumped out of bed, opened the sleeper curtain half expecting to see the plant on fire. 

That didn't happen, thankfully, but the rain was driving through the driver side window soaking the entire interior of the cab of the truck. I quickly moved to get all paperwork out of there and into the sleeper. I have to give the keys to the operators when I pull up.  I do have spare keys, yes, but to turn the ignition to the on position? The trailer makes a very loud beeping noise. A bunch of safety stuff on the trucks.  I got out of that plant eventually and was fighting fatigue. 

The reststop I usually stop at to go to the bathroom before going into Houston?  I never sleep there. Yesterday, I did. 30 minutes worth, felt no better, traveled down the road.  300 miles later, I stopped again to sleep again. Just the way i was feeling.  This time, I was deep asleep after the alarm went off 40 minutes later.  That helped me to get down to Brownsville and get the run over with.

A bunch of the mexican drivers were in the yard along with some management - drinking heavily.  Huge coolers full of beer and bottles and bottles of liquor.  They alwasy get drunk as hell.  They wanted me to join them. I had  a few beers and was entertained by them singing to me in English lol.  I sat there a few hours, actually, but finally decided bed was calling me.  Sleep came quickly and rather forcefully, 7 hours later and 5:30 am alarm went off. 

Just another normal drive back besides Houston, which had all kinds of freeway shutdowns for construction - nothing showing on the Houston app for ridiculous traffic snarls and nothing on the Houston digital signs .  I ended up going 25 miles out of the way to even get through that city. 

Home, no one at the yard and likely off at least another 2 days.  

Maria came over for dinner, James/Taylor invited her.  I was asked if I would have a problem with Kim taking over the rent and all the payments on the other house?  Lol. Hard decision.  Sure! Kim is getting rich with inheritance but is no longer going to be required to move to Arizona to get that inheritance.  The big question was whether I would agree to it and whether they could get rid of De the newest lady there that is in a perpetual bad mood.  Umm, yes?  

Well there's more but I'm exhausted. Time for bed.  

Well the other drivers were wrong, my manager had told me that it wouldn't be "that long" and that he was "working on it".  That long, as in 4 or 5 days before I get another run.  Wasn't really looking forward to it, there's nothing much to do. I don't mind a couple of days in between runs, but 4 or 5 days is just too much.

With that said, he texted me yesterday and told me that I would have a run going out on Friday.  He didn't say where to, could be anywhere really, but that's a welcome bit of info.  Just that it's another weekend down the tubes when everyone else is off work and at least other people around to converse with. 

Well an entire day passed. Walmart for dog food, Chili's for a bite and home to do laundry. And the text for work came this afternoon as well as a phone call while looking for stuff at Walmart.

It was the manager.  He wanted to explain to me the new setup coming. I already knew about it, but I didn't know when it was taking place, as a higher level manager had informed me before this dude came along about the new scene they were creating.

Basically, they have brought/are bringing dispatchers to a location in Amarillo to all work together out of the same building. The company feels it will help in seamless dispatching.  When one division needs help, they can just "yell across the room" basically and talk with each other about who is available for what. 

It will, in theory, open up opportunities for drivers that are sitting idle for too long of a period of time to go do something else, somewhere else.  He mentioned call and demand, a thing I have no interest in but made no comments.  Call and demand is being "sent out into the system" to work for someone else, basically. Our company gets paid for the driver and still pays the driver, but we are working for another employer. 

You get home maybe once a month. I'm not that kind of driver, i want nothing to do with it, if it comes my way, I'm going to politely say no thanks.  I don't want to work for another employer and I definitely am not staying out on the road for 30 days at a time, screw that.  My interest in this company was the fact that it's - semi close to home. 35 miles, not that much really.  I get to go home after almost every trip. Only here and there do I decide to stay in the truck in the yard if there is a run the next morning, early. 

The point is, things are continuing to change with the new company takeover - it's been over a year now,  but the changes keep coming.  Right now they're broke and probably desperate.  I just do my job, go above and beyond when possible, get the job done quickly regardless.

Anyway, I'm going down to Brownsville tomorrow. Not really expecting any detention pay on this trip because they had two drivers bobtail back up the other day, I would think they'll have several empties there. But, the last time i thought that, they didn't.  Who knows.  Just go with the flow with all of these changes. Some stuff I don't like, but nothing I'd quit over.  Just nice perks that have permanently disappeared. I'm still on track to having last year's pay be this year's pay and that's fine by me.

Anyway, first load, early rise, time to go to bed. 

Well, home again.
Uneventful trip to Brownsville. In fact, made it down there in record time, as I was only at the plant to load for maybe 2 hours.  That's how Sundays go when the right people are working there. When the wrong people are working there, it can and usually does take significantly longer, especially with a certain individual that works at the scale house that does the final paperwork you have to take with you before you leave the plant.  BOL - Bill of Lading is required, especially while hauling hazmat loads.

I waited down there overnight and all the next day -until 9:00 pm actually, when 2 empties finally showed up. There was no good reason to drive all night long, so I just decided to sleep there another night, get up early and get back earlier than normal.  OK, so now that that's out of the way, something is going on at the plant where the product goes into Mexico, so return deliveries of empties are going into the days realm instead of overnight.

Meaning that the two trucks that came down the next day full of product? They were told to turn around and bobtail back to the yard instead of waiting for empties.  Bummer, I thought, for them anyway.  I got ample detention pay, which is a good thing because now I'm hearing that not only is this plant having issues, the other plant that is one of the biggest accounts has been sold and they aren't taking any product until sometime in July.  You eliminate those two accounts? There is only sporadic work.  A couple of  loads per month to West Virginia.  Another account has canceled all deliveries to all of their plants.

They cited the fact of the global slowdown and less demand.  Another account saying they are taking 1/4th the amount of product they normal use, for the same reason as indicated before.  The Brownsville run is really the only thing that saves us, without it they would furlough a lot of us drivers and I would most likely be on that list since I have lessor seniority than a lot of them.  Not all of them, but certainly a larger percentage of them have seniority over me.

Several drivers went home. I was informed by another driver it will be next week before I get another load.  I asked him how long he had been waiting - he said since Sunday and going out on Thursday.  So his dire prediction probably won't come to pass, it's probably going to be a 3 to 4 day stint in between loads and there is nothing anyone can do about that.  I have enjoyed some excellent paychecks in the last 3 weeks, this week should be good, then next week with only one trip on it that will be well down.

The point, however, is that I can sustain a bit of lower paychecks.  I build my checking account up - and then we go through stuff like this and it goes back down again. About the time I get anywhere near a grand in there is when I will start to wonder what I should do next.

Well whatever. Now I have to figure out what to do with the next 3 or 4 days.  The boat isn't fixed yet.  A movie might be nice, tho won't take up all that time I haven't been to a theater in quite a while - well I suppose no one has since corona started.  They've opened the theater back up in our small town, but they only have showings at evening time during the weekdays.

Uhhh, not sure really lol.  I don't think travel is a good idea since most of the world is in some sort of lockdown mode, it's no better anywhere else than here.  Lol cruises aren't even available to book until October, at least the site I just tried. No matter, I have no desire to drive clear down to Galveston.

Just another stay at home deal.

With that, I will find something to do in this house!

Editing: Just got off the phone with the boat repair place.  They finally got the parts in.  I have my suspicions that this fix isn't going to make much of a difference, but we'll see what happens. They are going to install the parts and then have me come and do a test run on the nearest lake. 

My sleep is really weird.  One night I'll sleep 10 to 11 hours - when I'm home that is I don't ever do that on the road unless I am waiting on an appointment time or waiting on an empty trailer.  The next night, I'll get 4 or less hours of sleep and be awake most of the night attempting to figure out - why I can't sleep.  Nothing new, but when it happens on a night where I am getting up early for work to drive all day long?

Yeah, today was no fun.  I have to really push myself to get to my destination on such days - today is Brownsville.  Since it's Sunday I automatically assumed there would be no empty trailers down here, which gives me more motivation to get down here.  That assumption was correct.  2 full trailers sitting there, no empty trailers but I didn't see any other drivers waiting. Odd, since there were two full trailers, usually they pull the loaded trailers out and then bring back empty ones for the waiting drivers.  Tho it could be they might be around town somewhere and decided not to stay in this yard - which is full of trailers, the only place to park is out front, full of water-filled potholes and no bathroom. 

I got here early, too, like probably the earliest I have ever arrived down here.  I could almost take a hotel and make it worth it - but I'm too burned out to even drive out of this yard.  I got the trailer dropped, my paperwork done, checked the other two trailers sitting there to ensure they are full and not empties and parked out front.  I"m here for the night.  I wouldn't mind having some wings from Wing Stop delivered.  But other than that, I'm pretty fried right now, just that's its wayyyyy too early to be thinking about going to bed.

Yesterday - was interesting.  James and the boys at a friends house, Taylor wanted alone time, but apparently not from me lol.  We went to Lowe's, went to Chili's after that and then home, chatting and then having some conversation occur that I won't disclose on the internet.  No, it wasn't sexual lol and no I'd never go after another' man's lady, but it was very personal stuff and would be inappropriate to disclose it here. 

Despite that, we had fun with an empty house.  Some friends of hers kept asking to come over, but she wasn't having it.  Nothing wrong with the friends, she just wanted the house alone, no kids running up and down the hallways, screaming, crying, etc etc etc.  My son texted me so after talking awhile, I gave him her phone number - he knows Japanese, she is learning it. They hit it right off since they are both into anime.  Caleb, my son, is one of those people everyone loves.  She ended up in the pool, I didn't feel like it.  I went to bed with her still in the pool. 

Their cat has decided to reclaim me as it's own after dumping me some months ago.  So it sleeps on my bed now.  Lol.  Cats are unfathomable, can't figure them out, don't know what's going on in their minds, dogs get very jealous lol.  Well there's two cats there, the other one wants nothing to do wtih me.  I'm fine with that, my dogs are always down to get petted lol.

My son called me and wished me a happy father's day - we chatted for an hour about the degrading situation going on in this nation.  He and his wife had finally decided to buy their first handgun. Citing the crap going on with rioting and overall desire to increase their own sense of safety.

He then told me they had X amount of dollars saved up - a pretty good chunk of change - for a down payment on a house.  Their rent in their apartment is going up to $1,250 per month after their lease expires - which is really high. The reports I have been reading about the Phoenix area are apparently true with rising rent and housing costs.  The American Dream is still alive and kicking, don't let the media fool you into thinking otherwise.  My guess is they'll get a 4 bedroom house. Lots of those in that whole metro area. But if they're going to have kids, which he insists they are, they are going to need room for them. I dunno when they are going to take that route, I didn't ask, that's really not my business lol. 

Well I think I'm going to end this.  Drowsy, attention span waning, I may just very well go to sleep early.

I was soooo tired yesterday.  Driving was a chore.  Moreso than usual when I'm tired and still have hundreds of miles to go.  It is highly likely I will never do the Houston trip - which was the previous trip before this one - like that again.  Getting up that early just messes with my head and takes days to recover from.  Drive down there the day before or convince the manager that yes, they don't care if we show up later because of their demands.  They weren't even ready to take the load off when I got down there. Their tank was at 150 psi, that's about 100 pounds of pressure too high for me to open the valves and start letting liquid out. I only mention the Houston trip because it was still messing with me yesterday and that was days ago. 

I can't even go into what the rednecks at the plant I was at yesterday were saying about BLM.  A bit racist, putting it mildly, replete with N bombs.  They asked me if I knew what dan means.  Dan?  Dumb Ass n******.  Uhh, yea, sorry, that isn't amusing. But, no one said there isn't any racism going on in this nation. I just don't believe it's near as bad as the media would like to portray it.  But then again, who knows?  People like this two, 50's aged white male adults I was talking with yesterday could be more prevalent than I believe.  It's Alabama, tho, that's the south, probably more of it in that region than other regions of the US.

No, I'm not naming them or calling their company and trying to have them fired.  They can believe whatever they want, I don't have to agree with it but I don't believe in destroying people's lives because of it.  This cancel culture was born out of the pit of hell and I'm not going to engage in it.  I can guarantee  you that if I did call the company and filed a complaint, those two dudes would be immediately fired.  Providing I was believed, of course.  It's a very large corporation and they have a name and reputation to sustain.  I could go on social media, find pics of these two guys, post them on Reddit or Twitter or wherever it works and call them racists and then see their - lives destroyed.

This is what is going on in America right now.  The Cancel Culture.  It's an immediate effect, as anyone that follows the news knows full well.  A bunch of spoiled little devils that weren't reprimanded or spanked when they were kids grew up and here's what we got. The participation trophy holders, envious, selfish, little brats.  You offended me! I'm going to get you fired!  There's a reason I don't have my current company I work for posted anywhere  on the internet.  I think I took a pic of me and the truck and posted it somewhere that I need to find and get rid of it. These people don't care if your life is ruined.

Back to these two guys. Racism is bad.  I fully agree with that, based on the Bible and God's principles, not some earthly concept.  But - so is a lot of other stuff people do.  People that are otherwise "law abiding" citizens, got some "stuff" going on.  I'm not going to spend my life going around trying to find the skeletons in people's closets. We've all got them and we all should probably have a bit more humble attitude towards others whose skeletons aren't in a closet, they're out in the open.  These guys must have figured I would agree with them, because they full know the aftermath of what would happen if they were exposed.

I'm just saying all of that because I gave a lot of thought to that when i was driving back yesterday - 10 plus hours of driving gives plenty of thinking time lol. I grew up in racism, I know how these guys think and why they think it. When I submitted my life to the Lord, my thinking changed.  Dramatically.  God is the Creator, we are the Creation. All skin colors, all nations of the earth. 

Well anyway, daddy left about 30 minutes ago with the boys.  Mom wanted time off from the kids.  She loves her kids, but she gets really annoyed with them.  They are young and they are very needy at that age.  Dad went to an old friend's place about an hour's drive from here, they are going to spend the next 2 days there. The 5 year old told me he's sorry he's leaving and informed me that he misses me when I leave.  I thought it odd they were separating like that for a few days, but then again, sometimes that's healthy, I think, for a couple after they've been together so long and especially now when hours are low and they are home together a lot.  I dunno, whatever works.  I was going to leave myself after finding this out today, I assumed she was having lady friends over. 

Nope, she said, I want alone time.  However, that alone time apparently doesn't mean that I am not going to be involved with it lol.  She restarted Keto, so dinner tonight.  Then she wants to go swimming so can I help take the cover off the pool?  Sure.  I'm not swimming tho, don't really feel like it. Oh, we carefully take the cover off the pool now to make sure the leaves and junk that has accumulated on it don't end up in the pool, thusly defeating the purpose of having a cover.

And then asked if I had any plans tomorrow.  Nope, I'm happy to be home a few days.  We're friends, mind you, this isn't anything sexual at all.  Just saying that because I know how some people think.  But we are good friends, pretty close as friends go.  I don't know what her mind was on that, but I suspect going out to eat somewhere is on the list.  I wouldn't mind going out to eat, but I'm not cheating again.  After the last cheat? No thanks.  It takes too long to lose the weight.  I'm down to 211 this morning after checking, that's going in the right direction, finally.  I decided today that I wouldn't cheat again until I'm at 200 pounds.  And after that, no cheats until 195 pounds. And after that, probably 190 and then? I'm good.  190 is 34 or maybe 33 pant waist size. Good enough. 

Uhhh, like 8 hours later, lol.  Got distracted with James getting the kids and rushing around everywhere to get everything and pack it in his truck. 

I'm going to Brownsville early Sunday, that's all I have left to say here, lol. Tomorrow off. 

Long day.

I woke up before the alarm went off - that happens pretty regularly - at 3:48 am, alarm set for 4:00 am.  Not feeling very good, at all. I could have slept another 3 hours.  But, I got up, got the day going and left the house, dogs in tow and dropped them off at the other house.

James has been watching them at our house for the last 2 runs - but that was by his request.  He likes my doggies lol.  Pretty much everyone loves Addler excepting people that are terrified of dogs and then see this gargantuan monster coming at them.  Or just staring at them. My Shepherd is also very lovable, she has a very nice disposition.  Very loyal, doesn't much care when strangers come around, she gets skittish. I dunno if that's a Shepherd trait or probably more to do with how everyone before me treated her. 

Over to Maria's - remember that Kim, another lady tenant there - told me that Maria is going to move with her to Arizona not long ago, but to keep it a secret that she told me.  Well, so far, Maria has said nothing about it.  And buying more stuff for the house - she got a stimulus check and her food stamp payments have doubled since the coronavirus took effect.  She hasn't been asking me for anything lately, which is a welcome relief.  Won't last forever, I suppose.  I still offer anyway, that's my nature. 

Dropped the dogs off and off to work. The "license restricted" driver had just pulled in from all night driving, from where else - Brownsville. That's all he is doing.  His paychecks must be pretty nice.  He is being forced, however, to go home and deal with his license. I can only surmise other drivers are bitching about him getting all these sweet runs.  The loaner driver - was hooked up to a trailer that only goes to brownsville and yet another new driver - a manager's buddy - also headed to - where else - but Brownsville. 

Yup, that stuff doesn't set well with me.  I guess I can't really complain, I won't get any detention pay on my current run but it's 1,300 miles round trip plus stop pay and other pay they give me, it still pays decent, as long as I can make it back tomorrow it's all fine.  I had 20 minutes to spare making it here today - the plant scale house held me up for a long time waiting on paperwork.  I was bound and determined to get here, tho, I don't want a 3 day trip made out of a 2 day trip.  And this is the other Decatur run, where 2 rednecks unload the truck, hilarious to listen to these guys, but they know what they're doing. 

Once I finally got on the road, tho, I experienced no delays and I took the route going through Lousiana on I-20 versus the other route going up through Arkansas, over to Memphis and back over to Alabama.  That route is ridiculous. It's 50 miles less driving, yes, but you don't save any time what with all the road construction going on in Memphis and the endless towns slowing you down.  I'm not the biggest fan of Interstate driving, but in this case, the Interstate is the only way to go. 

Well that's enough lol.  I got done here with over 12 hours to wait until the morning to offload and go back to Longview.  But early bedtime is looking better and better. I can get up earlier than I normally would on this run, get out my Keurig coffee machine and brew my own, fresh, hot, delicious coffee! And yes, I have heavy whipping cream in my refrigerator to whiten it up. 

G'nite : )

Uhh, yeah.

Yesterday's 2:45 am wake up alarm call was a bit much.  I mean, it was either get up early and not waste an entire Sunday sitting in a truck, or - drive to Houston and sit in a truck for 16 hours waiting for the next morning to arrive.  I'm not going to say which alternative I will use next time I get dumped with this s*** load, as I can't say either alternative is very pleasant.

It was even more amazing, however, on my way back after unloading the trailer - 5 hours in 90 plus degree heat and high humidity, they weren't prepared for our arrival even tho they knew last week we were coming as they should since they were ordering the stuff - the manager asking me if I wanted a Brownsville run today.

Look folks, this driving stuff takes a toll on you after a while. You have to have a day off here and there.  Sitting in trucks all the time gets old.  I have been busting my @$$ lately and that's fine, my paychecks will start looking healthy.  Still, I only had 15 hours left on the 70 clock, I told my manager sure, I'll take it but I'll have to take a 34 hour reset when I get down there.  He didn't reply for a while but called me and we discussed it. He was doing me a favor for taking this Houston run.  I appreciated it but said I'd rather take my 34 reset at home.  So, I am going out tomorrow - wherever I don't know but it's definitely not Houston it takes them quite a while to empty out an entire tank full of product into all of those little cylinders they pump it into, load them onto a truck and deliver to customers.

Anyway, turns out he didn't actually need me, he had another driver that would take it, he just wanted to play makeup.  I'll take whatever load tomorrow - I think it will be another Brownsville - and it will be the same effect since I had to take my 34.

I just got done sleeping 11 hours.  Yup, that's how worn out I was.  I could have slept longer but you gotta force yourself up at some point.  I literally could just lay in bed all day long today and think nothing of it.
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Near end of day.  Taylor is back on the diet.  She didn't last long last time - not judging her just saying.  She's going to her dad's wedding later on this year and wants to lose fat. I made ribs today - replete with keto friendly rub and keto friendly, sugar-free bbq sauce that is absolutely delicious.  I mean, I hope she sticks with it. I said to her to get the word "cheat" out of her mind and stick with it at least 30 days.  I dunno how that went over, but if you go 30 days on this diet and lose 25 pounds, that's what will motivate you to keep with it. Plus you are starting to form new habits.

I am not cheating for a while.  I do it and I instantly gain 5 pounds, my belly explodes and I'm left wondering how that happens so fast? Whatever, it isn't worth it. And now that there are 2 other people doing it - at least temporarily - that's quite helpful.  I'm always on my own, no one else is normally dieting. 

I am going back to Decatur, Alabama tomorrow. Not the one I went to last time - where they don't have a clue what they're doing and their pump isn't working - but to the other one 2 miles away, where the dudes that unload know what they're doing.  They always want out of there, as fast as  possible, every single time they talk about where they're going for breakfast. They're total rednecks, I get along with them well lmao. 

And I am not going through Arkansas and Memphis. There is far too much construction going on. I can drive the extra 50 miles going I-10 to Birmingham and then a 90 mile stretch to the plant north of there and get there faster.  Or the same time and get more money. 

Uhh, that's it.  For now lol. 

This day got ridiculous.

A trailer came into the Brownsville yard around 1:20 pm.  I texted the manager as soon as it came in - not going to be able to make 7:30 am load time tomorrow morning. 

I heard nothing back from him, got busy doing my pre-trip inspection and paperwork.  I texted him again half an hour later - So what are you going to do? He texted back "I'm working on it".  Then he asked if I could make the 10:30 spot.  Probably was my answer.  So, I was still dumped with this ridiculous Houston run.  Whatever.

I then texted him and said I would just leave Monday morning and get there before 11:00 am.  It was then he decided to call me after he said the work order says 8:00 am delivery time.  Yes, I had replied, but they give us til 11 since they are playing this game where we have to load one day and deliver the next.  It USED to be a 1 day trip - load, drive down there, deliver, go back. 

This manager needs to get his shit together.  But then again, they didn't give him any training.  According to him, the company is broke - coronavirus, other divisions are bleeding money - they didn't want to train him, just ask other dispatchers questions. That's just plain stupid and putting that person in a position of failure.  We got into a very lengthy discussion about this particular account. NO one wants to do it. Because of the fact the customer decided it should be a two day run instead of one.  So, you're gonna get paid $300 wasting two full days of your time with this nonsense. That's not even a days' worth of pay. 

He basically pleaded with me to have it there by 8:00 am. I said fine, but please get this situation clarified, as I went into the entire history of 1 day run, to 2 days be there at 8:00 am, to 2 days - be there by 11:00 am, even tho the paperwork says 8.  He said he was going to try to get more money for the trip and how much do you think it is worth?  It's worth two days worth of driving at least.  He stuttered on that one - well what does he expect? Why should I be required bow to the whims of a stingy customer? Who in our company decided it was okay to just leave the pay the same after stretching this worthless run into 2 days?

It was going to be a long day, I could tell.  I didn't even feel like driving today, just one of those things where I'd rather be home lounging around or doing something - anything - other than driving a truck.  250 miles up the road, a pickup truck passing me honks his horn and starts pointing backwards. 

I look in my mirrors a lot, I make sure tires aren't blown.  They can catch on fire if they get hot enough and then you have a real problem, tho fires usually only happen when 2 tires blow that are side by side to each other.  Those little fire extinguishers they put in trucks might be good for a spot fire, I doubt they'd do much to wheels/tires heated up.  Well I looked in my mirror again - I had just looked before he honked - saw nothing, but I pulled over.  Amazingly, this guy also pulled over. 

I met him at the back of the trailer.  A tire cap came off the tire, completely off, and was wrapped around the axle.  It was dragging 4 feet out the back of the trailer.  He said it was throwing rubber chunks behind it.  It was completely impossible for me to see this because it was an inside tire on the rear axle.  The tire hadn't blown, it was still holding air, it just didn't have the tread on it.  The dude got down under the trailer with his knife and cut the tread out of there.

I wondered how long that thing was like that before someone finally decided to get my attention?  I thanked him profusely and we parted ways. I drove another 30 miles on that thing, as long as it didn't blow I didn't care, I was on a very tight schedule and if I could make it to the TA Truckstop, I could get it fixed a heckuva lot faster at the tire shop than sitting on the side of the road.  I wouldn't have tried it if the trailer was loaded.

Without going into the ridiculous details of what happened at the shop, an hour and 15 minutes later I was on the road again.  I was still not feeling it - driving that is - plus I didn't get my normal nap on my "break". My break was sitting around waiting for a tire to be replaced.  I texted the manager at the tire problem - he never replied.  I just told him what was going on and that it might affect my return time and that might affect whether I make it back to the yard in time to get the mandatory 10 hour break and get to the plant on time. 

Just to say here, the loading plant is a stickler on drivers being on time.  THEY don't care if they're behind schedule because of a plant problem - and don't bother to contact anyone to tell us they're delayed, but if we are late, they raise hell.  And then we get notified by management. I am almost never late, the only time that happens is if there is a problem with the assigned trailer. 

This new manager needs to decide whether he's going to keep the job or not.  If a driver contacts you with problems, at least acknowledge it.  Anyway, I ran into several traffic incidents after leaving there and though, well, whatever. I can't control any of this, if I don't make it back in time, it's not my problem. Because if it was the previous manager, she would have already reassigned this load to someone else. 

I made it back to the yard with 5 minutes to spare.  In 10 hours, I'll get up, have basically no time to do anything but get dressed, get on the clock and leave.  No, I didn't go home. Seemed like a waste of time to go home just to go to bed and then get up 7 hours later and come back to the yard. Maybe if I lived closer I would have, but not 37 miles each way. 

And then, after loading, I have to make the decision whether to take the truck back to the yard and go home - or - drive down to Houston and spend the night in yet another truck stop.  It's probably going to be drive to Houston, because if I go home, I'll have to get up at 2:30 am to get back to the yard and then drive down in the middle of the night.  That is the part that bothers me. Either way, drivers are making sacrifices to get this 8:00 am load there and yet we are getting paid dirt to do it. 

I dunno what I'll do, make that decision tomorrow when I'm leaving the plant.  I just think it's ridiculous - and so does every other driver and actually, so does this new manager - to have to sit around 14 hours because this customer demands we get loaded one day and deliver it the next. This new dude said he was going to address this situation, I hope he does.

It is 1:00 am and it's time to go to bed. 

Saturday - late morning, almost noon actually, Brownsville, Texas.

Coming down here yesterday was a real chore.  Not because of fatigue, but because it was Friday, it's hot and the beaches down here are open.  It's the same thing every year.  If you come down on a Friday, you are going to run into a lot of traffic.

The problem, however, occurs in a couple of small towns where there is a stop light.  Sounds benign, I know.  However, in Refugio, traffic was backed up for miles to get through this light simply because of the sheer volume of traffic trying to get through there.  Another small town further south - the name of it escapes me, was the same thing.  And the road construction south of Houston - that's been messed up for a long time, but now they have a lane closed so everyone has to funnel into one lane - that also causes several miles of back up.  Those 3 backups plus a lot of traffic cost me a lot of time, I almost didn't make it down here. 

But, I'm very glad I did.  Cause' there was only one empty and the first driver had to take it. He asked me if I wanted it, uhhh, yeah, no thanks. It's allllll yours.  It's not just detention pay that it makes me happy I'm stuck down here til' whenever.  I also got dumped with a Houston run - the extremely low paying run that takes two days to do.  You load the first day - you take it down the second.  It's not even half a normal day's wages.  The new manager said he was trying to get the run to pay more.  He's a driver advocate, I'll grant him that. He's been turning some things around in the pay department that needed to be turned around.  Anyway, it load at 7:30 am tomorrow/Sunday morning.  Well it's almost noon. It's about a 10-1/2 hour trip back up what with fueling, traffic and half hour break.  That puts me at 8:30 the earliest I could get back, take the required 10 hour break and get to the plant.

But even better, the drivers were supposed to pull the full trailers out of here at 11:00 am, cross the border and bring empties back. They aren't even in the yard, their trucks are just sitting there.  That means a delay, probably from the plant that doesn't really care one way or the other whether they get empties up here on "our" schedule.  They're the customer, they pay through the nose for our services, they get to dictate what goes on.  Every time a manager or dispatcher first encounters this situation, they think they are going to change the world! and get them to bring them up faster.

First problem? Not gonna happen.  Second? Us sitting around makes our company a heckuva lot of money.  I told this newest dispatcher right off the bat that we like to go down and wait around, we get paid for it and it isn't any small chunk of change.  What would you rather do? Have to drive all day long to earn that money or sit around doing whatever you want getting paid to do nothing? 

Last night I was invited to partake of food with the Mexican drivers down here.  They were all drunk, lol and acting foolishly.  But, it was entertaining to watch the nonsense and hey, it was excellent food!  The dude that runs the yard said "spread the word, anytime you see us sitting here eating, come over and join us!" "You don't need an invitation". It's their culture, it's how they do things.  They are very giving people, even the most poor of them down in the interior will give you whatever scraps of food they have.  It's in their nature. 

These drivers, however, aren't poor and the dude that runs the yard just buys the stuff on company account.  He's the owner's son so he pretty much does what he wants.  He's pretty cool, too, talked for several hours last night.  They invited me for breakfast this morning, but none of them showed up, lol.  I think they are probably hungover. The owner's son just showed up a few minutes ago carrying huge bags of what appears to be food with him. But I ate so much food last night, I am not hungry this morning and have had nothing to eat yet today. 

Anyway, I may still yet have to leave today, it's totally unpredictable what will happen down here. 

I am reading a story in the news where a SWAT team in Florida has - quit. 10 members of it anyway.  They claim they are being treated worse than dogs.  Yup, this anti-cop sentiment sweeping the nation just makes me shake my head in disbelief.  I understand some cops aren't good cops,  I also understand that I don't want to have to live in an anarchist society where everyone is left to fend for themselves.  You will likely see more of this - these cops didn't leave the force, they left this special unit which is instrumental in taking down dicey situations with armed thugs and the like where a special unit is necessary. 

We have a loosely formed group of people in our neighborhood now.  One of them is a career cop, he's well versed in tactical situations where you need to know what you're doing in order to win and survive. 

Will it come to our neighborhood? I certainly hope not.  He who lives by the sword dies by the sword.  Not really interested in having to defend myself or others with lethal force, but if it comes down to my life or theirs - theirs.  But, I will pray for God's protection and that it never comes to that.  And believe He will cover all of us, even if there are non-believers in the group and neighborhood.  This situation obviously isn't going away anytime soon.  And couple that with coronavirus and the loss of jobs - people are being evicted, thrown onto the streets because they can no longer pay their rent. The amount of desperation in our society has clicked to highest levels.

I just believe in being prepared, if at all possible.  Just like with the food and electricity situation.  Both are covered at least temporarily. The prices of meat are still well up there, I dunno what plants are still shut down for meat processing, but there must be enough to keep the prices up. 

I'm still amazed this company in Mexico is still cranking out product as if nothing was going on in the economy anywhere. It literally has not slowed down at all, the numbers of orders they continue to put in for the product we deliver to them.  The only time it slows down is if their plant is having a problem.  What kind of magic wand do they have to keep up this kind of pace in the weakening global economy? I don't know but I'm sure glad they have one! 

Well, one of the loaded trailers just pulled out, meaning -  usually meaning - that in a couple of hours an empty is coming back.  Therefore, I'm going to take a nap, it will be a long night getting back to the yard and they will want the trailer back for loading tomorrow. 

Driving home yesterday was probably the easiest I've done on that particular run. Well rested, drove almost 8 hours straight before stopping 130 miles out - forced 30 minute break, I could have kept driving all the way in without stopping for anything but fuel.  Oh that all runs would go that easily.  Heck, even driving through Houston rush hour traffic wasn't that bad. Yes there was a lot of traffic but almost no slow downs. Okay, I prefer no to drive through Houston at 5:00 PM on a weekday, but it's the shortest route and I tend to go for the bull's horns when it comes to getting to the intended destination the fastest, shortest way there.  Many drivers prefer to go well around Houston adding 30 to 50 miles to the run depending on what route they take.

Now, that gets them more mileage, yes, but it also gets them the possibility of not making it down or back up in the same day.  And right now? The Brownsville run is cranking.  They want a lot of product and they don't take no for an answer.  I'm already being sent out again tomorrow.  That's just a day in between runs.

And I'll take it.  I know, doom and gloom, but there are more and more reports of impending recession.  I hope it doesn't happen, I want food and cash available if it does.  It's just about being prepared, not living in fear.  The stock market tanking around 1,000 points today because of more coronavirus fears infecting investors with fears of the economy slowing down again. 

Today is a mountain of laundry day.  I haven't done laundry in almost two weeks, completely out of clothes. I was going to do it the day before I left on last trip but it was James/Taylor day to do their laundry.  I'm doing all of it - not just clothes but bedding, dog covers, carpets.  James just invited me to join him for lunch when he gets off work - he has yet another short day.  I mean, we're talking he's off at noon or 1 pm, not the normal 5 or later he usually gets.  I'm all for the lunch tho.  I have no plans to make dinner so lunch will have to do.

Like a nice thick steak with a salad and some green beans, asparagus or broccoli. 

Diet going well again - Keto that is. Last cheat was a disaster.  My belly bloated out, I gained almost 4 pounds. I was right at the point where I was starting to dump the fat.  Fat cells stick around for a while after they are depleted, according to the experts. So if you cheat too soon, they just fill up again and you're right back where you started.  So, no, I'm not cheating again for awhile, including wherever we end up today.  I'm down to 212 and I want to get down in the 190 range.  180 range seems to be a pipe dream. 195 or so would be fine, that's 33 waist and abs starting to show again.  I'm also doing light weightlifting a couple 2 or 3 times a week. Nothing intense, just starting to try and build some muscle back up again. 

Well, I was banned 24 hours from posting or commenting anywhere on Facebook. I won't go into the specific reason, just to say that Facebook is full of dog dung and their censoring is getting ridiculous.  I have an old alt account I haven't used in a long time.  So, I'm on that temporarily.  But going through messenger requests, I found a message from my ex wife - the first one I was married to 16 years.  It was from January of last year, lol. That tells you how long it's been since I used that account.  I did respond to her but it's well past anything relevant, it was concerning our son and that situation is over and done with long ago.

Not going to wax-long on this one. Gotta keep on top of the laundry or I won't get it all done. Plus lunch date.  Plus other things I need/want to get done today before I go back out again tomorrow. Might be a pipe dream, but I hope I get stuck down there again.

Slept til 9:00 am, lol.  I woke up at 5: 00 am and said no no no no noooo, we aren't doing this.  Went back to sleep and 4 hours later I was like, what?  Uhh, got my @$$ out of bed, showered and then drove to the Whataburger for breakfast.

Well, I tried to go inside - I can't park in the online ordering spots they had set up - they are still not allowing anyone inside the store. For whatever reason, Brownsville went well beyond any state measures that were ordered and a lot of local shops are still full bore with it, even tho Texas is opening up. 

Well, I was just going to leave and wait until later for lunch, but a lady came out and said is that your truck over there? Uhh yea?  Well I will take your order here.  Trust me, I wasn't going to raise a stink about them not serving truckers.  Wasn't in the mood for that and not worth the hassle.  It was reported widely of truckers being refused service at the beginning of this virus nonsense. 

So, it was actually pretty cool that they recognized my profession and went out of their way to serve me.  I would have given the lady a tip - but she wouldn't take it. 

Back to the yard, I only sat there an hour before an empty came in. Amazing! It was 11:00 am and there are already bringing an empty into the yard.  I got hooked up, checked the entire trailer out before logging on to the drive clock - if there's something wrong you don't want to waste clock time getting it fixed, it could literally take hours.  Manager was elated. You get to come home! He knows full well I'll gladly wait down there to get that pay, but yes, I was feeling good and ready to drive.  I was leaving the yard and yet another empty came in - I called another driver down there, there's an empty pulling in. He was next in line. 

Houston - I hit there at 5:00 pm.  Yeah, worst time during a weekday.  Busy, but nothing like it normally is, virus must still have people sitting at home - or worse - no job at all. 

I could have driven many more hours after I got back to the yard lol. I was just wide awake, feeling good, let's go!  Send me back to Brownsville! OHHHH, Mapleton is coming back up!  I dunno exactly when, but it's been reported that they are going to start - slow tho.  Heck they may have already sent someone up there. 

Well I'm home, It's late lol.  Almost 1:00 am.  And about time to go to bed, but this Borg episode on Star Trek Next Generation? I'm going to finish watching it. 

Well. 

Tuesday late afternoon.

The company where we drop the loaded trailers wanted the lights fixed on it before they would take it.  My manager called me - on speakerphone - you'll have to take it to Harlingen and get it fixed. Why on earth would I want to do that? It's just lights I can fix them myself.  The mechanic, listening in, offered to order the parts at the local Peterbilt and I could just go pick them up and not have to front money. 

30 minutes later, he calls and says they didn't have the parts, but FleetPride does.  Over to fleetpride. I assumed they were the right parts, they 'looked' like the right parts, but our mechanic is pretty good so I didn't question any of it.

But, that's exactly what I should have done. I should have brought the rubber light holders from lights that didn't get broken so I could match them up.  Yup, I ended up having to back. But, they didn't have the right ones, so I went to another place down the street. They had the right rubbers, but not the right light.  Lol.  So, I went back to Fleet pride to get that light back. I had returned it because it came with the rubber thing to hold the light and I didn't want to have the company paying for duplicate. 

Anyway, back to the yard, but I had gotten the wrong light for the side marker.  Gag. BACK to the store for a THIRD time, but I got it right this time, fixed all the lights and they immediately hauled it out of the yard and to the port crossing.  Well now I know what kind of lights all of them are on those trailers, I won't have to guess again when this happens in the future.  I was very happy to get done with that as it's almost 100 degrees out and very high humidity. Great day for the beach! 

Instead, I went to Wingstop, got 21 Cajun spiced wings and headed over to the local hotel. America's Best Value Inn.  I was going to go to Residence Inn - but their prices went back up after I had found  the price down and I'm not going to pay $179 for a room.  Im not on vacation and it just isn't worth that much money to me. It was disappointing tho, really wanted to stay there.  This hotel is nice enough for the money, which I can assure, is nothing even remotely close to $179 or even the Residence Inn's normal price. 

So here I am, relaxing on the couch, watching TV, perusing the internet and out of that truck.  30 hours in the thing, I had had enough.  A small dent in the amount of detention pay I'll make on this trip, well worth it to me.  Don't get me wrong. There are trips where I'm in that truck over 90 hours, but Brownsville is different, getting paid to sit around and do nothing. And finally, a 2 day layover after the last what, 4 trips down here getting no detention pay at all?  Yes that makes me happy.  Oh an yes, I verified for a last time with the manager of the yard down here - how many more empties coming back today? 1, only 1.  Good, I thought, Joe will take that and I'm getting a piece of this detention pie.

I'm still in awe at how much has happened in the last - very short period of time.  A man is killed by a police officer - of that I am not questioning and it was merciless, brutal, savage and outrageous - but then the whole nation erupts into riots and protests...and then....they now demand to eradicate or defund entire police departments?  I''m not sorry to say that they aren't interested in defunding the police, I'm pretty sure this is a power grab move.  I'm not going to go into that excepting to say that no one in their right mind wants entire police departments. There is more to this story than what we are hearing. Even Joe Biden - a person I wouldn't vote for in my worst nightmare - is saying he won't support defunding the police. 

Soooo....
Late load appointment time yesterday, at least in my book it is. But, it definitely worked out to my advantage. I was the 3rd load coming down to Brownsville yesterday.  2 drivers were already sitting down there according to the manager and 2 more on their way down there.  I get a lot of information from the dude when I sit down in his office and chat.  Otherwise, you get minimalistic replies from him on texting or even on phone calls.

As it stood, I had to go into the office to get the run, he didn't have all the info on Sunday.  He was wasted tired - this particular job being a dispatcher will keep you up all night long on some days.  He clearly wasn't liking it, I'm wondering how long he will last at the position. I've grown to like his style of dispatching, much better than the previous manager, so I kinda hope we don't have to go through yet another new manager,  if he decides to quit.  His wife makes boocoo bucks doing whatever. They have brand new vehicles, bought a brand new pontoon boat, live on a ranch.  I'm assuming his money is just extra and I don't get from him that the extra is all that worth it.

But we'll see.  After I baked my @$$ off in the plant - they still aren't allowing us to come inside the AC conditioned unit at the loading rack, we have to wait in our trucks, not running and hot and humid gag - I started the longish trip down to Brownsville.  I was tired, I didn't sleep well and it was dragging me down.  But I decided to force myself to drive at least 300 miles before stopping for forced break.  Tho I don't really complain about that 30 minute break too much, I usually zonk out for a nap and extend it to 40 or 45 minutes. As long as I can get the trip done that day, they aren't going to care.

I was 6 miles away from having 300 behind me when it happened - again.  This is the 3rd time I've had one of those deficient tire caps come off.  So, something catches my eye in the mirror, I look back and there it is flying all over the highway and cars and trucks slamming on their brakes.  It's a busy highway all the way down. The Interstate they are building there will eventually make it a much nicer, smoother trip without having to go through endless small towns and slow downs and traffic jams excepting maybe Houston.  But that's years away, I'm guessing.  Anyway, this is a "Super Single" tire, it's one of those extra wide tires that takes the place of dualies.  So, the cap is huge.  No one stopped claiming any damage, since I pulled over immediately to see what happened, at least that was good.

Well, sitting on the side of a busy highway with trucks and cars zooming past you only a few feet away going 70-75 is not my idea of fun, and since the tire still had pressure in it, I decided to slowly drive to the next exit and get away from that mess.  You know, this whole idea of having flammable, explosive, volatile cryogenics in the trailer? And the idea of someone not paying attention slamming into it and killing all of us with a huge explosion.  That's not really my idea of a day's worth of fun, thanks.

It took them an hour and 45 minutes to find a service truck to come out.  Why? Because the company wants the same, specific tire on the truck, but, they want it to be a recap.  Well some places might have a recap and some probably won't. No one in a 100 mile radius had one so my company eventually gave them permission to put a much more expensive drive axle tire on there. Like a thousand dollar tire.  It was over 3 hours before I was on my way.

An odd thing happened, tho, while I was waiting. A red Nissan pickup pulled over in front of me.  I was thinking, Hmmm, now what?  Do I get out a club? Or is this someone asking if I need help?  Well, a boy- guessing 16 or 17 years old?  Got out, came up to the truck and started chatting as if we were long time friends. He didn't even ask if I needed help, it was really strange lol.  He had a big smile on his face, nice person, good natured you could tell, I guess he's just the type to - approach strangers to start talking?  I didn't want to be rude to him so I chatted with this boy for at least half an hour.  He was going bowling, he proclaimed and was going to meet his friends there.

Which made the encounter even more odd. Why did he stop, then, if he had a date with his friends? But I didn't ask him that. Lol. After hearing his life story, basically, growing up in that region - which I can tell ya the biggest town around there probably has a couple thousand people - he decided it was time to go meet up with his friends. I bid him a fun time and that was that.

Just one of those things that leaves you scratching your head.

Meanwhile, I was nervously looking at the 14 hour clock. By that time, it was too late, I didn't have enough hours to finish the run - but the guy was working on the tire.  It's a process, they have to take pics of the tire and write down a report before they even begin changing it out.  This to prove to the company that it was, indeed, ruined and needed replaced.  Guessing if it didn't then they come back down on the driver and ask why? Well I can assure you that sitting on the side of the highway, broke down, is not my cup of tea regardless of whether I am getting paid for it or not.  Anyway, there is this feature called a "16 hour exception" that adds 2 hours to your drive clock. You can only do it once per 70 hour reset.  I was thinking, well if I do that, it's going to be 2 am by the time I get down there.

The other side of the brain was thinking - the sooner I get on the detention clock, the more money I make. If I take a 10 hour break before getting down there, I'm shorting myself.  The 16 hour exception won, I drove until 1:30 am, stopped for fuel at the local Love's down here, uhh, the fuel gauge was in the red zone, it couldn't wait until today cause' I would run out of fuel and that's not anything you want to do - got to the yard and got the day over with.  There are still 2 drivers waiting on trailers here, that almost guarantees I will be here until tomorrow. The manager confirmed that as well, I would be getting an empty on Wednesday, I haven't seen them drag 3 trailers in here on one day in a long time.  But it's almost noon and they haven't even gotten a first empty in here, so I'm fairly safe in that assumption.

Later on today, assuming this situation remains as it stands, I"m getting a hotel, jump in the pool, relax and enjoy myself. The detention pay will go up to around $800 if 2 days occurs, the little added expense of a hotel isn't going to hurt anything and I rarely do it anymore.  Brownsville shut their town down when the virus hit and all the restrictions. They went well beyond the state mandates, so there isn't much to do down here besides just go relax in hotel. I'd prefer a nice hotel, that usually what makes it fun, but the Residence Inn? They are listing at $160 to $180!  2 weeks ago they were listing at $70 lmao.  Must be some kind of event going on?   Dunno but I'm not paying that much money for a hotel room.

Interesting. Just like that, overnight, Residence Inn came down $60.  Yes, I was checking yesterday for a room for today, so that's kind of weird.  They have great rooms, quiet, nice, and Monday through Wednesday they have dinner - tho I dunno if they're doing that now with this Covid crap in place.  I might do that.  I don't want to jump too far ahead and counting chickens before they hatch.  I know the manager says there is no 3rd trailer today, but I am not going to do anything until around 3 or 4 this afternoon.  Watching for any trailers to come in for the other drivers, I figure 2 of them will show up at roughly the same time, after that? I'll ask my manager to ensure that I'm not wasting money on a hotel room when a trailer is showing up. They will want me to leave immediately with one the second it shows up.  We go through this busy -not busy at all - routine and right now, for the next few days anyway, we're busy.  He was complaining that he had so many drivers stuck down here that he didn't have enough to cover the loads.  It's like this constantly. We either have too much work or we're sitting 2, 3 and even 4 days. 

I started weightlifting again. Nothing too intense, but my arms and chest have lost a lot of muscle mass after 2-1/2 plus years of not doing the kind of work that kept me in good shape, namely, lifting heavy fittings to load onto pallets and load onto the truck.  That was a pretty active job and that was one of the things I knew I would miss when I was considering quitting the place. This rather high protein Keto diet I'm on will help with rebuilding muscle.  Growing old is not an option, that's just part of life unless you die early for whatever reason. But growing old and weak? Unless you have underlying medical problems that stop you from being able to engage in weighlifting and workout routines, there is no reason to allow your skin to just become flabby and looking like you have zero muscle.

Just that it takes a lot more discipline to force yourself to workout versus a job where you have no choice, it's part of the work description.

Lol, the manager just sent us a text - the 4 of us down here - asking if any trailers had shown up? Uhhh nope. Anymore they don't get here til afternoon or even early evening.  He clearly wasn't happy with that answer but that's the truth of the matter.  His issue is with the customer, but I doubt he gets too cranky with them since they are far and away the biggest customer we have. And it's a different culture in Mexico, they don't do things like we do here. And don't take that wrong, it's not a slur or slam against Mexicans, but I've spent enough time around them both in Mexico and the US to understand that if you say a meeting starts at 3:00 pm, they will show up at 4 or 5 pm.  Same with these trailers, if you ask them when one is coming up and they tell you a specific time, do not take it literally.  It could be hours after that time.

Oh, and now? They want the lights fixed. I did a temporary fix on them, but they went out, looked at it, took pics and declared that the wanted it fixed before they would take it across the border. I find that laughable. They don't care about truck conditions in Mexico, you can be 20000 pounds overweight, have bald tires, leaking oil and air, lights out - they literally don't care.  So now, my manager called and said I need to take the trailer to a place in harlingen.  Like what? It's just a couple of lights for crying out loud.  I can fix that shit myself.  Yes, yes! they were all over that, the mechanic was also standing there and said he's call Peterbilt - a mile away versus Harlingen - 30 miles away - and see if they have them. So, I"m getting off of here because either way? I have to have the trailer fixed. 

In an amazing turnaround, my 401k's - both of them - have increased to the highest I've ever seen them.  Here I was 25 thousand down and now I'm up thousands of dollars more than the highest point either of them have ever been at.  Like, how does that even happen in this economic environment?

My new card arrived. Barclay's canceled my card because of inactivity.  I had totally spaced that card and hadn't used it in at least a year.  I figured to replace the lost credit line - and ensuing credit score drop - by getting another card somewhere else.

Wells Fargo kept offering me a card.  So, I took the offer.  No annual fee, lots of points for spending wherever type of card.  What I didn't realize? It's another American Express card.  Somehow, I thought since Wells Fargo is a bank they were issuing their own card.  American Express will cancel your card in a short period of time if you don't use it.  It's the highest credit line I've ever gotten in a card and that's the only reason i wanted it. In case of extreme emergency.

My credit score went up 13 points after that card was reported to the credit bureaus.

Meanwhile, a run tomorrow back down to Brownsville. And unfortunately a later load time at 10:30 am, meaning it's going to be a late night tomorrow.  Also interestingly is from the forecasts I looked at, the rain from the hurricane isn't going to affect Houston.

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That was Sunday, a pretty lazy day, no one here did much of anything besides listening to kids whining about this and that. 

And watching the news again - for a bit.  This nonsense of defunding the police is the dumbest idea I have ever heard.  If you want chaos, mayhem and death, just get rid of all the police departments.  Better go buy a large amount of ammo if you want to protect yourself!  Ridiculous. Do these people even think about what they are saying?  What kind of society do you want to live in? A handful of progressive social justice warriors are reported on TV and then half the nation falls for it?  De Blasio - moron.  Minneapolis council - idiots.  Even the liberal mayor is fighting this insane idea.  I'm just glad I don't live in any of those cesspools that are going to turn into giant morgues. Minneapolis already has high crime rate, sit back and watch what happens when they get rid of law enforcement.

Maria is finally back from Houston.  But she has a mess to deal with this lady that has a bad attitude one day, a good one the next and fluctuating like a person with bipolar.  I asked her if I could drop the dogs off, but she doesn't check her phone that much, I actually don't care if they stay home as well.  Spoiled babies, they won't like the heat but there's a 100 gallon tub of water out there.  And plenty of shade. 

The talk in the house here - sort of comes and goes - is selling this one and buying property.  I'd be on their land living with them, but I'm fine with that.  I could build my own 2 story loft.  Or whatever I want to do-just save money for retirement and not have to worry about land payments.  But who knows if they are really going to do it.  I just keep bringing the idea up - they want land as well, get away from society, people, stupidity.  I'm going to just keep bringing it up - James is a vet and can get property with a house on it without any down payment.  That's what the allure of them doing it is - but they have to sell this house first. 

I'm off to Brownsville again today - second one in a row. I'm late load I'm really hoping there will be no trailers down there, the extra money would really buffer my paycheck nicely.  2 Brownsvilles a week with the detention pay is all I would need to get very nice paychecks. 

No signs of Covid-19 here - yet.  I'm just basing that off of no one having fevers. Kids are healthy, adults are normal. 

Biggest hope going now is that maria and kim actually do take off to AZ - just to get out of that house and get rid of that headache.  Maria has gotten better about running it and not cranking on people - but it's still a "gee, I wonder if the rent is going to be paid this month or not" scenario.  I mean, it was last year? I think that last time I had to cough up half of a tenant's worth of rent, so it's not been that bad in that realm but it's still a constant nagging thing in my brain. And then all the drama. 

Anyway, time to get out of here.

Happy Day! In the Lord!

So, I was given notice today of a person in the house that is working at a plant where people have now been diagnosed with Covid-19. That's so awesome!  That's ok, I've had a cough which started out with sore throat for over a week and a half now.  Never had a fever tho.  I'm not even in the least bit phased by the news that people James works with has it.  It isn't surprising, it's not a shock to my system and certainly won't come as shocking news that we may all end up with it.

I've lost 8 pounds since going back on thee diet. Blew it tonight.  We went to Applebee's, I had the whiskey burger.  And fries.

And will be right back on the diet again tomorrow.  A little hiccup here and there isn't all that bad.  It gets tiring eating everything low carb all the time.

I went over to the other house today and finally burned the giant pile of branches off. I dumped almost a whole gallon of diesel fuel all over it, might as well have some fun with it.  Woohoo! Flames 15 feet high, heat pushing everyone back 20 feet from the fire.  I got the hose and doused the flames a bit, I didn't want them calling the fire department.

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That was 2 days ago.
A trip to Brownsville in the interim, got home tonight, company came over and pool time. I didn't get in, tho, lol, small pool too many people.  Brownsville was no detention pay, yet again.  This time? The driver that left 3 hours before me got there after I went to sleep in the truck in the yard in Brownsville.

Another driver called me - about another issue - but then informed me he is doing that on purpose so he can get the layover pay.  The other issue? We have a text group going, but more than half the drivers won't participate.  The point of the group? When you go to the plant to load, you give a report if you are loading on time - or if you are being delayed. That way, the next driver can know whether to go to the plant on time or wait to get on the 14 hour clock.

I will be having a discussion about this idea of drivers hiding wherever to get the second load to Brownsville to arrive before them. That's cost me minimum $350 and not the first time it's happened since this new manager showed up.  Not his fault, he's still learning.  But it's costing me and I'm neither happy about it nor will I just take it.  It's around 15k a year of my annual earnings, I'm not just giving it up because some other greedy drivers won't take it when they don't get it. I don't have a problem if there's an empty down there waiting, I hook up to it and leave the next morning.

Meanwhile, the situation at the other house has deteriorated.  The lady that moved in again - she moved to Dallas but the wanted to move back her name is Dee - has a serious attitude problem and has been starting shit with both the other ladies. Maria has been trying to keep her cool.  But it's obviously not going to work out. And after a long texting session with the other  lady - Kim - stated that maria wants to move with her to Arizona.  Kim has to move there as a stipulation to get her share of her recently passed dad's inheritance.  Maria wants to go with her.

Maria, however, hasn't told me any of this.  I mean, I can tell you if that happened? I would be happy to get that house situation ended and over with.  I'll give my friends some money to watch my dogs while I'm gone.  But she needs to tell me - I'm moving to Arizona.  There is a 6 month lease coming up.  Oh, the house is no longer going to be occupied by the family member of the owner.  And frankly, why wait? I'm going to suggest they move there before we have to sign another 6 month lease. I'd really like to absolve myself of this situation and this is an answer to prayer, frankly.

Kim asked if I wanted to go with them? LMAO, no thanks. Lived there 40 years.  I'd move to the mountains - maybe - but nowhere near the Phoenix area.  Kim doesn't want to live in Phoenix either, I'm sure my rendition of living there didn't help her with that.  I suggested numerous small towns going in all directions outside of Phoenix, all the way up to Rim Country.  I LOVE the rim country.

But that isn't even in the cards at the moment, not even a goal, frankly  Living alone in the mountains has it's appeal and at the same time - not so desirable.