Friday - night

So, the main character starting trouble with me was "schooled" by another driver who told him to simply try and communicate instead of starting s*** every time.  Yes, that's my language, you want to get something done that involves me and potentially a conflict? Try talking to me first before you do whatever you are going to do, it will go over a lot  better if we are congenial and upfront with each other - before the fact, not after the fact. 

Thank you.  So he called me today, asked me when I was going to get up there, I told him and then we had a decent conversation - for once.  He wasn't getting up there that early anyway, he had been held up too long at the loading plant yesterday.  

At the receiving plant in Gurdon today, they were almost empty.  They are cleaning their 2 giant tanks. One at a time, obviously, so they don't have to shut down production.  But you get down to one tank only and you have to keep on top of deliveries. There wasn't even a truckload of glue in the tank they are using and that was causing them great concern.  You don't make plywood without glue - well they call it resin, same difference.  

Anyway, 3 of us went up there today and got them in good shape.  I was back relatively early - the delivery run takes longer so getting  back at 1:15 pm is pretty good time. 

I am loading tomorrow again and delivering on Sunday.    Monday off for whatever reason and then loading again on Tuesday.  

I get a call today. "Do you have a spot available?".  Yes, i do!  Great, we are passing through Jefferson, we'll be there soon.  Funny thing is, there is that brand new park in Jefferson. Right next to the highway. Yup, these are repeat customers and they don't want to spend the night next to a very busy highway with trucks making all kinds of noise.  I wonder if people who tell me how great my park is and how quiet it is don't put up reviews because they want it to remain a hidden secret? 

I thought about paying for reviews.  You give them money, they put up reviews. But, that would be unethical so I uindecided that one.  Yes, I know that's not a word.  When you see a brand new park with 45 reviews in a very short period of time, you know there is something up with that.  Especially when you read the reviews, they give a one sentence "it's so great here!" and you know there is some bs going on. 

I guess I will still try to get people to review the park by sending them a google link that takes them straight to the review section.  They don't ever do it, but  it's worth a try. Just a bit exasperating.  

Oh, yes those people did show up. The tent camper that had my ear for 15 minutes on the phone yesterday? Never showed.  What a waste of time for a few bucks.  The impeller pump showed up for the boat, I'm just going to mozy on over there tomorrow after work and ask Trey, did you get that installed?  

I dunno, but tomorrow? We're going to a local attraction with the kids. It's something of an adventure park, I guess you could call it. Different times of the year they have different themes. I don't think they're calling this halloween, something like harvest festival or whatever.  I had to go back to my Christian roots to remember that Halloween is a celebration of evil.  Sorry, I know people call people who think like this zealots and radicals, whatever.  Witches, warlocks, demons, the devil, etc.  That's what it's hyping. 

It's fun and it's going to be free. We have a friend that works at that place and she is getting us free tickets.  

Insurance. I called the insurance company last week and told them I wanted to cancel. They told me I had to come in and sign something.  Why? Just cancel the damn thing, what on earth.  I was going to go in the next day...and completely spaced it out.  I get distracted a lot with so many different things going on.  I was looking at an insurance ad today on Facebook and it hit me: dangit! I forgot to cancel!  

I went in there today - top priority, get my money back - and it took 15 minutes for this lady to go through a bunch of junk on her computer screen to cancel the policy.  Are you serious? I bit my tongue but the thoughts were flowing.  At some point I finally was handed the paper to sign and then was leaving. Oh no, I am going through all of these screens!  More than just hinting I need to stay, so I did because I stood to lose a lot of money if they don't officially cancel the damn thing.  

I then headed over to Applebee's, pulled into the parking lot and then thought, what the forbearance am I doing? Made a U turn, headed home and made lunch out of the refrigerator.  I've eaten 3 salads today, gag.  Enough salad already.  I have to admit that tho I made it through the day eating low fat/cholesterol junk, I ended up having a scoop of rocky road ice cream.  For shame!  

I'm feeling better tho I didn't sleep worth petunias last night.  I woke up at 3:00 am after 5 hours of sleep and that was it.  Whatever.  I'm used to it.  I hate it, but I'm used to it.  

I am on my laptop btw.  I don't use it much, it works great and yes, using a regular keyboard via USB port. Why? Because the oldest kid is using my computer lol.  

I dunno what else.  I have Monday off, I"m going to buy probably 250 pounds of rye grass. It's supposed to rain 4 days in a row start Thursday.  Wait and hold up. I forgot to see what the temps are going to be for the next month. It's still pretty warm and rye grass doesn't like warm.  No, of greater concern is the fact that it isn't showing any rain after that for the rest of the month. I'm not spending $200 plus tax on seed that is going to end up dying.  

Unless the forecast changes, I'm going to wait. Well, I might buy the seed and have it available, but it's not getting spread until regular rain comes back. We are and have been under a burn ban for a while now and that ban is lasting fully 90 days unless weather comes along to change it.  

Yeah, I do hope we are getting more then 4 days of potential rain in the next 90 days! 

Friday night, just another work night for me. I've had my time off. I was asked to go hog hunting on a farm somewhere with the boy - the kid in the park that brought his tractor. Sounded like fun, let's show them things! But, I have to work.  I'd love to blow some of them things away with my AR. They are a nuisance in these parts and it's always open season on them, no permits needed. 

That's it. It's starting to get late and I am getting up at 5:30 am. 

 Thursday - late afternoon

I have no idea where this week has gone, but gone it has.  

Today was half miserable.  I don't feel very good, whatever everyone else has in this household is now affecting me.  I don't have the horrible coughing but I certainly don't feel right. 

And getting to the loading plant today.  "Well you can pull around and park in the parking lot, when the other truck comes out you can back in there".  What? So another driver beat me there?

Well, yes, sort of. Another driver from another company loading some other type of resin out of the same bay that we load from.  It was and hour and a half before they got him out of there.  I found out later that this product takes fully 5 hours to load! Why? No idea, something to do with the idea that it has to be put into these little square containers first and then pumped into trailer. The other driver had shown up at 5:00 am.  

I wondered how many of these cheaters in our company have shown up early only to find they are going to have to wait for a looooong time before they can get loaded? lol!

It's a good thing there is nothing pressing at the park for it wouldn't get done. Not the way I'm feeling. I have no idea whether the kid fixed the tractor or if the park host son worked on the 4 wheeler.  I am not in the mood for bs right now, tho the kid doesn't really dish out bs, if he says he's going to do something, he does it. 

At least I got the holes fixed yesterday. There is still one area that I need to take a whole bucketful of gravel and dump it and spread it out. Still, it's a much smoother ride in there now. 

A person from the University of Tyler has sent me the form to fill out via email to start the loan process for SBA loan.  I don't have the quote on the project yet, I'm not sure I even want to go this route, but I think I will fill it out and see what happens.  Actually,  I had already filled out the form but I needed to look up gross revenues from last year and never got around to it.  That information should be on the business account on quickbooks.  Dunno, don't feel like doing that right now, don't feel like doing anything, not really sure why I'm sitting here pounding keys on the keyboard lol.

I'm going to have to take tylenol with me tomorrow, I wish I had taken some with me today. I would have downed at least one of them while waiting at that plant.  I don't really care how bad I feel tomorrow, I'm taking this load up there and delivering it and fully plan on working the entire weekend as well. I can't afford to get sick, but since I am, oh well, keep working!

Oh, the loan.  My mind is all over the place about that, I just think that if I do go through with this loan, all of those new lots need covered parking and all of the electric outlets need meters.  Skip the pool and replace that expenditure with the covered parking. Meters might cost a couple thousand extra, worth every penny to have them in there and at least seeing who is using what.  

It is also likely that I will get the 16X40 barn constructed next year - depending on the payments.  It's the same guy that built the shed for the laundry room.  He's about half the price of everyone else.  I can put in an office, a pool room (pool tables that is), another laundry setup, at least another shower and storage.  I really need storage.  So half the building for storage/shop purposes.  I'm figuring about double the payment of what I had for the first shed, so probably close to $500 per month.  

This is something I really need, not want.  I've only put it off because I don't want anything impeding me from getting the SBA loan, but in reality, I could add that to the loan as well. He reduced his price from 10k to 9k.  It's built on-site and is pretty good construction.  A precursory search shows the same barn being sold for almost 23k.  The guy just buys the materials in bulk and has crews going out every day building them of all different sizes.  Even if I weren't to get the SBA loan, I could get it through the ridiculous company he uses for loans, Tower Loans. But I think I'd go another route with it, I don't like that loan company at all.  

I'd go 30 wide but for whatever reason, some rule that he has to abide by by the state or whatever, the biggest he builds is 16X40.  It's a lot of room tho. 20 feet of it being a shop/storage facility, it's exactly what I need.  I think a lot of the 'extras' will depend on the cost of the expanded operation.  But, covered parking and meters are mandatory, at least in my mind.  

I'd really love to add a goofy golf course to the mix, 18 holes with all the crazy gadgets doing weird things that bring the people who have very little else to do in this area with their families.  I do wonder if I could build one of those courses myself.  I really need some earth moving equipment on property, owned and not rented.  It would be an interesting project.  Lots of concrete, artificial turf and pre-manufactured obstacles would be needed. Perhaps not quite a goofy golf, the things they use are pretty expensive, but I am looking prices for obstacles and it's not bad.  

 Well, I didn't go.  I ended up sleeping too late and I just gave up on it.  At least I got my Bible out...no church this weekend for I am working, the manager sent another run that covers tomorrow through Sunday. I would like to keep on working into next week, frankly.  I'll try the Bible study again next time I'm free on a Wednesday.  Note that I don't feel bad in not going.

I hooked up the trailer, went over to the park and then this park host son comes out. Haven't really talked to him in many moons for I was not happy with the results and the deal for that free spot was between his father and I, not his father, him and me.  Or, his father, mother, sister, him and I.  So, we chatted and were looking that the 4 wheeler trying to figure out what was going on with it.  Made some headway, he said he'd fiddle with it...if he can get it running I'll hand him some cash, not too much but enough to keep him interested in doing more.  If he can't, it's going on the trailer and to yet another shop.  

I then got on the tractor -after filling up a flat tire on it, it's got a slow leak on one of the front tires - and got busy taking gravel from the rear and filling holes in the front.  During all of this, the other guy did, indeed, show up with a massively long trailer.  That was a bit of a relief. Not staying more than a month, I just take whoever whenever for however long.  I can't be picky about that, especially not with so many open spaces.  I don't have any overnighters coming in for 6 more days - tho that can easily change of course.  

Got done with those holes and was heading up front to try to take down that big mound when the boy showed up. He's the one that owns the tractor - well his family owns it but they are letting him use it.  I had tried again today to use the bush hog attachment, just not doing anything.  So we discussed it and he said he'd get to working on it later after school.  He's got a job and going to school here.  Hopefully he'll get it fixed for there is plenty more weed whacking that needs to be done.  

Yeah, got quite a bit done but then decided to go home for lunch. Lately, it's go somewhere to eat, like Applebee's, but I'm trying to follow through with my decision to cut back on eating out. Plenty of food at the house, especially since I went personal grocery shopping yesterday.  

With the rest of today?  I think I'll start sifting through endless papers and start chucking old stuff. That is going to be a process that will take a lot longer than one afternoon, but I'd like to get a start on it.  I've got far too many papers around here, just need to get rid of "stuff".  

 Wednesday - early

I don't have work today but one of the alarm clocks went off, woke me up and I was like, oh well might as well get up and see the kids off to school.  They get up amazingly early for being young children, I remember those days of getting up before the sun comes up.  I'd make breakfast for dad and then I'd get my stuff and walk a few miles to school.  It's good, I think, to get kids into the habit of getting up early and having to go through a structured day where the entire day is one thing after another after another until the final bell rings and they get on a bus and come home.  

It's a veritable mess trying to take kids to school nowadays where you see a hundred cars lined up to either drop them off or pick them up. You've seen it, surely you have. It's 3:30 pm somewhere even out in the middle of nowhere, you come up on an elementary school and you see a huge line of cars waiting.  We have a school a block away and it happens every day around that time.  They are forced, at least, to wait on certain streets and not allowed to line up every single street in the neighborhood.  

Oh, one of the alarms? A motorcycle.  James rides his bike to work.  I'm used to having either a motorcycle or a pickup waking me up every morning if I'm not already awake.

Now then, to go or not to go.  I"m struggling with this because of the past and my extremely negative experiences with churches. Just get over it, right? I hear people saying this to other people and the other people get pissed off and tell the person that just said that to go eff themselves or something similar.  One of my friends whose wife died a few years ago goes through this with people he knows.  My friend has  meltdown, he gets extremely pissed off.  Who are you to tell me to get over anything?  You go through a traumatic experience and you don't just shake it off. You try to get past it, yes, if you are so inclined. Many people don't even get that far.

So, I'm doing good just to get myself to church every Sunday, worship the Lord and listen to a message - and then leave.  It has nothing to do with God, I love the Lord, but I am not in love with people who exert themselves over you and say rude or nasty things to you and think they are doing a service for the Kingdom of Heaven.  I'm full of faults, I freely admit that.  I am not Mother Theresa or Paul the Apostle, Moses, Elijah or anyone else that is either famous for their humble service to the Lord or are written about in the Bible.  

It is without a doubt I will not make the 7:00 am study and I'm still contemplating whether I will even go to the 8:30 am version.  Im not going to the 7:00 am one because I would have to leave in a few minutes and no.  I spent my time with the kids this morning, one of them asked me to get up today. That's not a problem with the motorcycle alarm clock lol.  Umm, I'm thinking about it, that's what I can say.

Meanwhile, a man moved in yesterday, he paid up in advance and then later on I saw him pulling in on the outside camera. Nice looking trailer, no issues there. Another person is supposedly moving in today and a third is perhaps moving in the next couple of days. I have a "confirmation" from the one moving in today, the others - who knows. Probably not.  

I'm also struggling with the idea of increasing the size of the park, it's taken this long to get a few new people in there, how long, if ever, would it take to fill up 25 more spaces?  And in the interim, if that even happens, how will I pay what would likely be around a $2,500-$3,000 mortgage?  Oh I can pay that kind of mortgage and make great money if the lots are mostly full.  Big if in this market.  There are X amount of people in campers and they want the cheapest deal they can find and they don't care where they stay in that quest, for the most part anyway.  

I just don't know right now and this question has popped up in my mind because the contractor texted me yesterday and said they just need a few more quotes and they will have a price ready to send to me.  It's going to be well over 100k, I am guessing that for sure. The cost of everything from wiring to gravel has gone way up and they sure aren't paying for it.  Plus you have a 20 year loan maturity, so you are stuck with those payments until it's either paid off, death or sell it.  I wouldn't mind being stuck with the payments as long as the revenue is good.  

I see so many new parks and new parks being built in the region, not just my town but you have to take into account all of it around you if you are trying to get the overnighters. I'm not really, not anymore anyway.  It's too sporadic and you might get 5 in one night and none in the week after that and then a few here and there.  I just don't have that kind of traffic coming in, I need the long term. 

Or, I need such superb amenities at such a cut throat rate that people won't be able to resist coming in.  A clubhouse with pool tables and a pool, hot tub, out door games, etc.  When you see places like that, you understand they've spent millions of dollars building it out like that.  

No thank you.  Even if I could get a loan for that kind of money, I wouldn't do it.  What I had of my life saving's are tied up into this venture I have now, I do not want to put that at risk.  

I found my Bibles. Yup, it's been a minute.  I go online to find scriptures now, I don't typically look at a book version anymore.  But I have 2 Bibles, I think I have 3 but I don't know where the third one is.  

You know what the thing is about a paper Bible is for me?  I have very often, in the past, just randomly opened it, looked down at what it opened up to and started reading scripture that directly spoke to my heart.  I just did that and what did I see? "Assemble yourselves!".  

I think I'm going to go back to sleep for half an hour, I didn't get enough sleep last night for I went to bed late.  Then I will try to make a decision about this church bible study....

Tuesday mid-afternoon

Got up earlier than normal, left about 40 minute earlier than normal, arrived up to the plant in Gurdon with apprehension. Is this other dude up here already and is he going to hold me up. Note that he's not supposed to be up there that early, not even close.   Thankfully not there, I got down to business to get that over with and get out of there.  

I checked the tablet, ahh, yes, there is a run for tomorrow. Or is there? I checked the date, it wasn't for tomorrow, it starts on Thursday. Yet another unwanted day off. There are 2 things going on at that plant, however.  First is the cause of the shutdown, they have an entire tank emptied out and they are going to clean it out completely. They to that yearly.  Second is today was cleaning day, so the entire production floor is shut down to clean out all the machinery.  Well, if there isn't any product being made, they aren't using any glue.  I was a bit shocked, tho, to see the second tank they are still using with only 2 truckloads worth of glue in there.  

They said they had plenty. Lol, not like normal when there is one tank full and the other has at least 1 or 2 truckloads worth in it.  

Taylor is in breathing hell right now so I got back to the yard....well. This guy calls. You have any ltos available? Yes, I have several.  Back and forth for a while, he said he's coming.  Ok, well I'll be here a few more minutes but you are welcome to take a look if I'm not here when you arrive. "My GPS shows your place is 1/2 mile away from me".  Lol, what?  Turns out he was down at the power company yard at the corner of my street and the main highway. They are going to build a 330 foot tall communications tower which he says will take 3 months.  

330 feet tall? Good Lord, how do you do that?  Well sometimes we use a helicopter others a crane, I think we're using a crane this time.  I have no understanding how they get cranes up on the main structures of those things while they are building them and I want to watch this construction as it unfolds.  They certainly don't have a 330 foot tall crane, I can assure you of that.  

He showed up, paid the first month's rent, said he'd be back later with his trailer and that was that.  

This is one of those times where I wish this would repeat itself 4 more times and then I'd be full again.  But whatever, I'll take whatever I can get.  Certainly convenient for him when his job site is only half a mile away.  

The brown grass as the park is unsightly. The grass is turning brown everywhere out here what with no rain, that isn't unusual but it's no particularly appealing.  I'm keeping my eye out for the next rain days.  Supposedly next week.  

Oh, Taylor. Well I went to Kroger's and got her medicine and then spent an hour in there looking for low fat low cholesterol stuff.  It takes a while to find stuff, I'm new to the low cholesterol scene, or at least in looking specifically for those kinds of foods.  Over to Starbucks, because I felt like it and no I don't go to Starbucks every day or even every week.  Just an occasional thing for they are way overpriced, albeit their drinks are quite delicious. 

I'm going to be looking for one of these free or super cheap hot tubs later today.  Why? Because I have tomorrow off, the trailer has finally been unloaded and I can go get one if I can find one. If I don't do that, I could also go get the materials for covered parking. But, I still have some research to do, I need it to be able to hold the weight of roofing shingles since that is the cheapest type of roofing there is. I know this because I have spent many hours looking. The other cheap stuff are the endless barns that are being taken down in this region and people save the galvanized panels.

Some sell them cheap, others not so much.  I know what they cost new, so if they are attempting to sell them at or near new prices? They can keep them.  

That's it, I guess, for today.  It's 3 pm and tho I was going to get some tractor work done, the man moving in and getting Taylor medication took precedence.  That is the other thing I might do with tomorrow, just work with the tractor. 

Any way about it, I will not be sitting around the house doing nothing like I did last week with those 3 days off. Well, ok, I did get quite a lot done on Friday, but the weekend was a total loss for any productivity.  I'm not real happy about not having work tomorrow, that was my real plan.

Oh yes, and the paycheck today was as small as I figured it would be.  I won't be taking any more lengthy times off any time soon unless of course health issues arise like they did for that 2 week stretch.  I will likely force myself through any sicknesses coming along, 2 people in the house are coughing and snotty, but that's allergies I do believe.  

Wait! Tomorrow is Wednesday. My earth-shattering revelation is that if I find it within my capabilities, I will get up and drag my butt over to church early morning for an in-depth bible study they do every week. I think?  I wasn't exactly invited but I would have a hard time believing it's not for everyone.  The worst they can do is tell me it's a private affair and then I will go find a new church.  Which means I need to dig my bible out. I read online bibles when I am reading it.  It's just easier to read.  

According to their website, it's Wednesday mornings at 7:00 and 8:30 am.  Probably the latter, a day off and I want to work doesn't mean that I don't want to sleep in just a little? 

Alright, one new person in (and paid for already), I just need 4 more!  Actually, with the "alternate space" I could do 5! That alternate space hasn't worked out so well the last 2 people.  

Enough for now.  I'm going to relax a bit and then I'm going to make dinner and then I'm going to hook up my trailer for tomorrow. Even if I don't buy anything, I want it back over at the property.  Just too much stuff over here.  

 Monday - early

I've been thinking a lot about finances and it just doesn't make sense to me.  I've got all of this credit card debt. I've been waiting for interest rates to come down to take out a loan to just pay all of it and have an end date probably 5 years down the road.   That's a long time.  And I don't know if/when rates are going to come down enough to make it worth it to take out yet another loan.

So what then.  Well I'm going back and forth in my mind about expanding the business in some direction and now just saying screw all of that and start focusing on paying down debt. Something along the lines of fix the driveway, be done with it and leave everything as is and focus on reducing my eating out and other things that can be at least temporarily eliminated, send that money to the CC companies and start getting my finances in order.  

I mean, I know the park isn't full and I don't know if/when it will fill back up, but in reality, I've got it pretty good right now.  I've got monthly expenses associated with the park, yes: electricity, water, trash, septic inspection, wifi, phone and a few other minor expenses. The only real expense in all of that is the electric and that is going to come way down now that we're entering a period of lower temps.  

In fact, if I shut all of that off and just said screw it, no RV park - it's all paid for I don't owe anything on any of it - I would be left with a $440 per month payment on 25 acres of land.  

I'm really thinking to shift my focus to getting rid of this debt and then, I won't be in such a position of financial slavery on cc companies to ..........

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13 hours later.  Got distracted, got busy getting ready to leave and that was that.  I was back by 11:45 am.  It took them longer than normal to load so I'm assuming it's going to take longer to offload.  I'm setting my alarm for 5:20 am, if I wake up earlier, I'll just get up and go.  Get it over with and have the rest of the day to do whatever I need or want to. 

I was on this thing about paying down credit card debt and I think it's an actionable plan, a very good goal and get started it on it as sson as possible instead of waiting for interest rates to come down. Which means significantly cutting back on recreational type of expenses.  It's mostly eating out stuff of which I had already been cutting back on.  But now, it would be cutting back to maybe my Sunday outing with the boys at Applebee's and that only on weekends when I am free to go to church.   I would like to try to pay down $400 per month, it may be too much tho.

The plan is Ramsay's, I think that's his idea anyway. Where you take the card with the lowest amount on it, pay it down, then start on the next one, and paying it down plus the payment on the previous card and so on and so forth.  If I could get out of this credit card debt I would have so much more money freed up every month.  And less worries.  

But who knows. Right now I"m so far out of whack with having had 2 weeks off with the severe pains that hit my body and then 9 days off with this vacation - it wasn't supposed to be that long but a load was cancelled giving me 3 more days off.  Take a while to make a comeback from that much time off.  And I still have 6 open lots; I'm getting some interest, people are contacting me about lots for long term but so far, none of them have shown up.

But, I have gotten over the exasperation of not getting any new people in. They'll come sooner or later, I hope they do anyway, but stressing over it is a useless waste of internal energy and mental resources.  I've got the ads running, the free ones anyway I stopped running pay ads for they weren't coming up with any results.  I have thought about posting a Google ad, they're a lot more expensive but it might be worth a try. I just hate seeing the park almost half empty and just staying that way.  

I dont really think a hot tub is going to bring that many people in.  It might, I can't say for sure it won't, but I am not going to spend a lot of money on it if I do go that route. There are some cheap ones available, just long drives to get to them.  One of them is near Dallas and I'm considering it.  I asked them if they had people that could help load it on to a trailer, I can't expect to take people with me for that far of a drive. It's a 2 hour and 20 minute drive each way.  I hate to go that far, tho, and then find out the people aren't home, don't have the people there to load it, whatever.  

Actually, there was a very cheap hot tub nearby, it was put up and sold in 10 minutes time.  And another that was close, they had it up for an hour and updated the post saying that 30 people were already waiting in line. It's one of those things where you just have to keep checking and hopefully hit it at just the right time when someone posts a deal like that. 

Dallas is full of them, cheap prices on good units.  People just get rid of them.  

No, the real answer, if there is one, is covered parking.  It's not just for the heat of the summer, it keeps the rain off the roof and keeps the sun from weathering it.  This is beneficial to owners of RVs for that is the most vulnerable part of any RV.  If you don't have a good roof, the rest of the thing is going to slowly fall apart.  

You wouldn't believe how much thought I've put into all of this.  And research. And more thought. And more searching. If I wanted to prioritize, it's fix the driveway and put up covered parking spots.  This park host kid told me today he would help me.  Okkkaaaayyyyy.  I don't really believe anything he says, especially if he's offering to help with anything.  

Anyway, it's getting late and I am getting up early. 

 Sunday - evening

I'm both looking forward to and not looking forward to work tomorrow. Get the mind back into the daily grind and get with it, get it over with.  Get back and possibly do some stuff on the driveway.  

We did go to church today sans the youngest who opted out for unknown reasons and I'm not into forcing anyone to go to church, especially kids.  I was forced to church when I was that age. I don't hold it against my parents at all, but they had to carry me out to the car to get to church.  And once at church, this was an absolutely enormous building - I would run all over the place after the worship service and mostly not go to the class I was "supposed" to go to.  So, it's whatever to me. Neither one of them has to go, the oldest loves it, I doubt he'll stop going.

After church, we went to the surprise birthday party at the local mom and pop restaurant.  Had an enjoyable time there, I knew all the people there and was glad to be among friends.  I even opted for the senior menu - "60 plus ONLY" the menu stated. People informed me their seniors meals came with a ton of food and I was not let down.  I'm slowly drifting into the idea of just taking the cheaper menu, what do I need with all the food on the regular menu anyway? It's the same food just smaller portions and lower cost. 

After that, I ran over to the park.  Checked the tanker, it was quite clean inside that thing, no visible flakes at all, good to go, wrote that one off.  That trailer is in better shape than the one I just let go before I went on vacation. I did not think that was possible, but they had replaced almost all of the brake components on all 4 wheels and all 8 tires are in good condition.  All the lights work, what's the problem? Nothing I guess, I was stuck on the other trailer because so many of them I have gotten under have so many issues that previous drivers apparently don't report OR deal with. 

Now? Well, the day is basically over.  I mean, it's 3 hours til' bedtime but it's late enough I have no plans to do anything else.  Actually I may go to the courthouse tomorrow and get the new plates, title and registration for the truck.  OHH!! I NEED to go to the insurance agency and sign off on whatever. I was going to do that yesterday but they are closed on the weekends. JUST before they charge my account $408 and then have to wait however long to get that money back. 

I'm putting a note in my notes folder on my phone to remind me.  

I've found several hot tubs, large ones in allegedly good condition, for cheap.  I dunno, people just get rid of the things when they are moving or don't want them anymore for whatever reasons.  It is highly likely I'm going to pull the trigger on all of that and get it done.  

What I've been doing for many days now is looking at roofing for a covered RV pad.  I want the cheapest option to be frank and through all of it, actual asphalt roofing shingles come up as the cheapest option. I don't know how much that stuff weighs and what kind of support system I would have to build out to hold all that weight up there, that is my next search mission on the internet.

Very compelling sermon today, btw.  I was totally lost in thought after thinking about scripture I hadn't read in quite a while. Old Testament stuff, still as relevant today as it was then. God is the same yesterday, today and forever.  It was actually the toughest sermon I've heard this guy put forth and he undoubtedly got some feathers ruffled with it.  I was glad to hear it, I wonder what his bible studies are like on Wednesday mornings?? Probably won't find out this week for I intend on working as much as they will keep me working, but the next time I have a Wednesday freed up I'd like to go and find out.  Perhaps his church version and his more intimate settings are different.

He does refer to deeper things after one gets saved.  But his message is consistently about salvation - which is great, wonderful and Biblical - but - there are people coming that are hungry for the Word.  For a fresh message that the Lord has compelled on the preacher to speak forth.  I'm not judging the man at all, I just need more depth.  I can get that on my own of course, but there is the idea of believers pushing each other on in the faith.  There are people that are gifted with the 5-fold ministry - that is also biblical and who God uses to speak forth fresh revelation.  

I'm really ready to get myself back into the flow of things in church - I think I am anyway.  I guess I'll find out.  I have to force myself to put down the offenses of the past, of which I could go into great detail and write 10,000 words about, but why?  I have already done that. I have been trying to let it go and I keep running into the roadblock. I think, I want to get involved with church! Then this "thing" rises up in my mind and says, look at what happened before! And so many times!  I almost feel like the enemy is speaking that stuff into my mind.  Like it's a temptation: DON'T GO TO CHURCH AND CERTAINLY DON'T GET INVOLVED.    

I'm tired of all of it, wherever it originates and I can also remember ample times of serving in ministry and having the joy of the Lord and the feeling of contentment.  I still give and help people, that never left me because that came from the Lord, not from man.  

There is nothing like losing your bank debit card.  You panic, then you start searching, then you start thinking: where was the last time I saw it?  I went through all of this and couldn't find it. Then I went onto my account, did anyone use it?  No, everything on there was my stuff.  So, at wit's end, I called the bank,  cancelled the card and having them send me a new one.  Actually, it was due anyway. They don't last forever and Chase ended the policy to make a new one while sitting there waiting, at least around here.  

So there it is. I"m not going to bed early, it will be 8 hours before I need to get up and if I don't sleep well, oh well, if I do, great!

 Sunday - mid morning

I was just informed that today is Saturday.  This came about because I had just taken a shower and I said I didn't want to go to church smelling like dirt, such as you (the kid I'm talking to) do.  Well church isn't until tomorrow why are you doing that now?  Today is Saturday!

I'm thinking, am I in the Twilight Zone? Because I'm 100% sure today is Sunday and yesterday was definitely Saturday. "uhh, how could it be Saturday? You spend the entire day laying around on your butt playing games, literally all day long. If today was Saturday, that means you stayed home from school yesterday to play your Switch".  I then looked at my phone and showed him it clearly stating it is Sunday.

Oh, I guess I was wrong about the days then.  Now he is all upset because we aren't going to Applebee's after churh today.  It's just a thing we do that he absolutely loves.  He had this look on his face and I dug it out of him. Yeah, we're going somewhere else to eat, it's someone's birthday and it's a surprise party for him.  Oh.  That didn't help him, so I just had to tell him sometimes life throws us curveballs and we have to learn to adapt and adjust. Then...he was banging on the keyboard.  What are you doing?  This is what you do when you're sitting here!  Yes, but I'm actually typing out words, you are just putting up a bunch of gibberish lmao.  I informed him he could learn how to type like that in - I dunno when they teach that now? Seems important enough they would start teaching the keyboard in middle school?  I said high school and that I had taken 4 years  of it.  

It's actually quite late in the morning, I didn't go to sleep until midnight last night. I have been treating these 3 days off as if it were a staycation, sort of anyway.  Just binge watching shows on Netflix and doing the minimal amount of things necessary to keep things rolling. The only new thing was an overnighter calling yesterday asking about a place to stay overnight. Yes, so and so forth, they actually showed up, paid cash to the park host and I have no idea if they're still there or not.  

So that's pretty much it.  Church, party, might stop at the park and home. Correction, definitely stop at the park.  Gonna get up on the trailer and make sure there are no flakes laying in there.  It happens even after they wash them out. If there is, I can just sprinkle water inside, get the flakes down into the drain pipe and done.  

That write up for expanding the park isn't done yet.  It's a lot of work, yes, but it's been quite a while since we met and they said they'd come up with a price.  Perhaps it doesn't matter, the park isn't even full right now?  I'm feeling a bit - not sure the word. Not really pressured, my expenses are easily covered by the lots filled in there and even if the place were completely empty, everything is paid for excepting the land itself and that payment is quite low atm.  

Just want the place to be full,  I guess.  I really should have gotten out there yesterday with all the free time and filled a few holes up in the driveway. You do the things you can do.  I've watched a lot of episodes of Bar Rescue and one of the most common things you see at the beginning of the show when Taffer is walking in there to give the bar owner/s heck is the bar is quite disgustingly filthy.  Like, cockroaches, black filth, dust, dirt everywhere.  Even if you don't have the money to do serious upgrades to the bar, you can definitely get off your lazy @$$ and clean the place up.  I personally don't care if a place is a dive bar but it has to be a clean place that doesn't look and smell like a landfill or sewage treatment plant.  

My park is not dirty but there are some things in the driveway I could temporarily fix. The real fix would be getting a dozer in there, blading the entire driveway and then bringing in 6-8 truckloads of fresh gravel.  I don't have the money for that, well I could cover a couple of truckloads, but what's the point when the surface of the driveway itself needs a blade taken to it, smooth it all out and get it even.  Then dump gravel on it. I can't rent a dozer for I don't have the credentials, ie: experience, to operate one.  It figures the company would rent one out to someone that has no idea what they're doing, that customer destroys the engine and walaah. Tens of thousands of dollars to rebuild a cat engine. Ruin it for everyone, in other words. I would definitely have the thing delivered and get it done.  I can learn any earth moving equipment, I already know how to operate trackhoes, backhoes and graders.  And bobcats.  

The other thing I will definitely be doing is dumping copious amounts of rye grass whenever we get a good stretch of rain.  We're in such a dry spell that the county has imposed a burn ban.  No fires of any kind excepting in grills.  Not even barrel fires are allowed right now.  The grass is brown, a good indicator of the dry conditions and I'm not about to start watering it, it would cost far too much money.  

 Saturday

Yesterday, I did, indeed, end up getting a lot of stuff done. We cleared off that trailer - we being the lady next door and I. She offered to help and I refused, it's not her job lol. She wanted to so I said fine.  Got all of that off of there and then went all over the place. Dumped cash rent money in the bank, over to the courthouse. 

Got new plates for the SUV- I never did replace them after the flooding we drove through on vacation in Galveston. Texas has 2 plates and they can write you a ticket for missing one of them if they really want to.  Then asked about how much it will cost to register/title the Tundra. $275.  I couldn't do it tho, I needed to get an inspection. Which I did immediately after that.  Waiting in the mechanic shop line for a while, this one actually has a lane dedicated for inspections and no, they don't take very long.

The guy asked: "How many miles on it?". 54,000 I replied.  He turned around with a look on his face. He asked without asking if I had actually said 54,000?  Yes, it is my mom's, she can't drive anymore, it's had an easy life.  He shook his head, that truck is what - 16 years old I interjected.  He looked at me again. You know those Toyota trucks can get up to half a million miles on them before they are done and over with?  No, I did not know that. Yup, we have them come in here all the time with high mileage on them.

That thought got me to thinking that I could basically keep that truck the rest of my life and will never have to replace it.  Which is fine by me, a truck payment is easily $500 and up even for used ones.  Over to Walmart, needed a license place bracket for the freshly replaced plates.  I stopped at Chili's - wasn't planning on it but since our friends work there, figured to stop in and say hi.  Got into a long conversation with one of the people that works there, she had recommended my rv park to a person that helps her with something (not getting into specifics here), who then called me later on asking questions. 

I was going to go to the park and install that license plate holder after that, but instead I just went home. I had spent many hours getting all of that done. 

So, that makes me feel better because today? I have cleaned the kitchen and that's it. Been watching a Netflix show, doing a staycation mentality and being lazy.  Are there things I could be doing? Of course.  But, the park is clean, the grass is mowed, everything is working, it's whatever to me.

Tomorrow will be church, then going to a birthday party directly after church at a local mom and pop restaurant and then after that? Probably nothing.  I have no intentions on getting up earlier than normal for the first run Monday since I won't have to do the washout, it will save around 80 minutes of time, meaning just drive straight to the plant and hopefully get loaded quickly.

I say that because another driver told me the last 2 times he's been there, it's taken 4 hours and 2-1/2 hours respectively.  I think one of those times another driver cut him, but the 4 hour thing was a problem at the plant making an error on making the product and had to start over, apparently.  

It's a quarter after 4 right now and since no one has contacted me, I am not bothering with going over to the park today. I will stop by after church to put eyeballs on everything.  I've stopped stressing over occupancy, people will come eventually.  I don't know when, it's been a pretty good dry spell. I've put up several ads and besides getting a Google ad going, I don't know what else to do beyond the added amenities I'd like to install that I've talked about rather endlessly but haven't done yet because I've got a "hold" in my mind about it.  

I'll say one thing tho.  If I find another deal like the ones I have been seeing over in Dallas where a 10k hot tub is going for $500 or a grand, I'm going to go over and snag it.  That would be a day trip, but yes.  There isn't a lot of down side in my mind to getting something decent in great condition.  I have a contractor who will come out and pour a cement slab for me, I want a decent sized lounging area for the hot tub and then put some tables and chairs around it.  It will need a gazebo or something over it, I've found the cloth kind for $300.  I'd probably sink $2,500 or less into the entire project.  This isn't resort style setup, it's "this is an amenity in great condition and looks nice" setup I'm talking along with if I decide to do a pool next year, it's going to be an above ground pool, set about half way into the ground and costing a fraction of what an in ground plaster pool costs. 

I've just made those decisions based on the type of park it is. I never considered it a resort park and never will.  Still thinking about setting up cabins or something, just haven't pulled the trigger on it and probably won't for a while.  It's all a gamble, folks. You spend the money and you hope and pray that it gets the desired results.  If it doesn't get results, you kick yourself for thinking that you would get more people in and it didn't result in anything. If it does get results, then you say, yayyy!

For example, the yurt tent I was thinking of doing a while back. That little thing is still sitting there on the back of my mind.  But it's not free and it's a hotel style setup so you have to clean it after every use, meaning you really need someone to work it. 

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Like, 6 hours later lol. My mind has been wandering all day long.  

I think I'm going to go to bed.

 Friday - late morning

Yup, I just laid in bed watching a movie called the Covenant this morning.  Sort of deflated not going to work, I just blew everything off. Until now, that is.  The movie over, I went searching through reams of paperwork to find the boat motor title so I could tell the mechanic what year it is so he can order the correct water pump.  In the process, I found my birth certificate and my social security card, both in bags of junk papers where it shouldn't have been.  

They are now safely in my desk file cabinet where they can be easily found. The title were in the filing cabinet the entire time, the rest of the piles of papers I went through I decided much of it can be trashed. Not that I am going through all of that again today, I was looking for specific paperwork. A task I will start doing in the next couple of days, getting rid of old paperwork that really is rather useless now.  

Now that that is done and the information has been forwarded on. 

I tried to cancel my Progressive policy just a few minutes ago, yeah, no.  You have to go in and sign a form?  Whatever.  It's 2 blocks from the house.  I need that done before they charge my account $408.  I already paid the $257 to Allstate so yea, I don't need 2 policies.  

Now? Well, I was going to go over and work with the tractor but I am putting that off. I'm going outside, getting that tree junk off of my trailer and have it free to go.  Just realized the truck doesn't have a hitch on it. It has the receiver, it needs a ball and the insert into the receiver.  I guess I can just switch the one I have on my SUV back and forth for whatever I'm trying to do.  I'd like to pull the trailer with the truck and see if it's got any better handling. It's heavy trailer, the SUV can handle it but I do wonder if the truck might do better.

Anyway, I need that trailer available for my next potential move. It's either materials to build the first cover or get a hot tub - or both.  Or none.  I'm still kind of wondering if it's the correct move and I really sort of don't have an answer for that.  

What I keep saying I need and definitely do is more people living in the park.  I may drive over to the new competitor today and see what's up over there. Is he taking my potential clients? And if he is, how is he doing it? He isn't giving a better deal tho he does have big trees, that may be the allure for people and there is nothing I can do about that.  Well, beyond putting up RV carports.  I've figured that it will cost $735 for the materials, not including lag bolts, screws, hardware in other words.  Add $100 anyway to that.  Probably need a new cordless drill, add another $75 or so for that. 

In fact, probably going to need several new tools.  Harbor Freight!

So yes, I'm going to go outside and drag all of that stuff off of that trailer and get it freed up. It's been sitting there for months like that.  I want to drag the ATV to another shop that is "highly recommended" and see if that person can get the thing running. I really miss the use of it.  It is a highly useable tool in performing tasks at the park and I haven't had use of it for quite a while now.  Supposedly, this shop is the best in the area.  

Supposedly.

What else....nothing. I may end up over at the park and work with the tractor anyway. I want to scoop up gravel from the back of the driveway where nothing ever drives over it and fill in some holes near the front.  While I have the use of the tractor. 

I have watched zero news today.  I saw yesterday that the Hamas leader that masterminded the October 7th massacre of innocent Israeli citizens was killed.  I don't wish death on anyone, really but if I did, that man would be near the top of the list for the brutality of the assault.  Bin Laden was up there on that list as well.  Iranian leaders could also be on that list.  These aren't just dictators or tyrants, they are murderers.  I always have to try and restrain myself on such thoughts because the Bible says that the Lord would have all come unto him, that none should die. Salvation, that is. Christ came for all of us, we don't all accept or even believe in Him (I definitely do, just making that clear here).  He knew that when he came, but that didn't stop Him at all.  

Anyway, I think I'll get the trailer emptied and probably get the hitch on the truck from the SUV - I have it parked at the RV park, I won't have 2 vehicles sitting out here in front of the house, just too much of an eyesore.  Oh, and drag the trailer over there as well.  I don't want it parked here either, it's just in the way.  I didn't park it where it is currently sitting, but I do want to deal with it while I have the time and the sort-of motivation.

With that, I'm offa here. Typing on a keyboard is not going to get that task accomplished. I'm sure I'll do some more blogging later on today.

G'day

 Lovely.

My dispatcher just called and informed me that all loads are cancelled until Monday (at the earliest).  Like, even Monday isn't guaranteed, the glue plant just shut it all down and said c'ya. Now, I understand stuff like this happens at plants, but I was very much ready to go back to work and start getting some runs in on the pay period for 2 paychecks from now.  I already know this next check is going to be spartan.  Just really couldn't happen at a worse time.  The park has 6 open spaces so there's a good amount of money not coming in and top that with a job that I have missed a lot of work and you get a person that is glad that a good chunk of change came in from a different source recently, otherwise, I'd be up the creek without a paddle.  

I'm a little discouraged with this change.  I was really ready to go back to work. I might despise the trucking industry, I don't despise paychecks.  It's what I do and I do it well.  I can't just go out and find something to do to make up for it beyond my park and attempting to figure out ways to lure people from other parks over to mine. It is a thought I've had.  I don't mean going into other parks and soliciting them, but finding something to give them that is so appealing, they can't resist or at least give it serious thought.  This is where I started thinking about the covered parking and the hot tub.  

I'm just going to lose money here for the next month or maybe less depending, I just checked the tablet and they took out tomorrow's run and put in a run for Monday. I need to work pretty much every day for several weeks to make up for it. That won't happen, it never does. I think, ok, I'm going to be driving every day for a while now. Yes, that was true under the old dispatcher, she was fired and the manager took over her job. He gives me time off I don't ask for or want.  I get sick of driving every day, yes, but again: paychecks.  I'm just going to have to be the squeaky wheel. If he gives me late runs, I'll just have to eat them and do them. 

Christmas is just around the corner, birthdays are coming up, Thanksgiving, I was half entertaining a thought to fly home for Thanksgiving but - yeah/no.  I've just lost too much time working and I suspect a short visit will cost me a fortune flying at the time of the year.  

Well. I found relatively cheap flights out of DFW.  Flying out of GGG is a non-starter.  Way too expensive. We're talking 3 days off and then working a weekend and into the next month after that.  I don't want to spend Christmas in AZ, but I'd do Thanksgiving.  This is more like a pipe dream at this point, going back there so soon. I don't have much CC points left, certainly not enough to even remotely cover flight expenses.  Still Frontier and Spirit have good rates on round trip flights. I know, Spirit charges you extra to breath on their airplanes, I don't know about Frontier.  

I think I'll put that out of my mind.  Tho it would be now or never, I would feel like I'm stepping out on a limb asking for time off after having been off so much. 2 weeks sick and a week traveling.  I don't regret anything, I just don't think it's a great idea.  Others have highly likely asked for time off as well.  Play the "good boy" role and just work through the Thanksgiving holiday and then - sort of demand but not really demand if you know what I mean - Christmas Day off.  It's a thing I have set in place for - ever.  I get one or the other off.  The only thing that could change it is if either plant is open on either of those days, but I doubt that. They are 24 hour operations. 

I don't know how the receiving plant is dealing with this, I was  told it is the shipping plant - the one that makes the glue - that is shutting down.  That really can't be right.  Because if the plywood plant wants to operate, the glue plant only need switch to their glue plant in Crockett, AR to get continued supply to the production plant.  

Well whatever. It's getting late, my version of it anyway: almost 10:00 pm.  Not that I have to go to work tomorrow....I did get a lot done today but I want to clear off that trailer and get it back to usable status.  

Oh, the park host kid? Came up and said to me today, well, I need to install a water pump in that motor before we do anything else.  He can't do any more work until he can run it, he says.  I thought, well and fine, what about everything else? Yeah, I zipped it on that one.  If I get a new water pump - they are around $150 - and he doesn't install it - I'm going to unload on him.  Somebody needs to....

 Thursday - 9:00 am

Yup, slept in.  Why not.  I haven't made any decisions about upgrades yet so I don't have a lot to do over there. The park hosts have gotten their act together, even if temporarily, that usually happens when the mom shows up and tells them what to do and get it done now, thanks.  She can't do any work but she can boss those kids around. I take it back, kid (32 year old) - the other one is in jail for some drug charges or something from the past.  

I also called the state of Texas just now before starting to write this, they were threatening to take away my franchise/business license.  Why? Because, I was told on the phone, I had put in the wrong year. Well wasn't it for 2023? I asked...yes, but you have to put 2024 on it.  That literally makes no sense to me whatsoever.  Anyway, she sent me a link to efile, I was able to bring up the correct form, it autofilled, she looked at it after I clicked on continue which sent it into their system and walaah. No more hassles with that.  

At least I got something done and probably why I didn't sleep well last night, I kept waking up thinking about it and how I was going to call today and resolve this issue, if possible.  

Actually, I intend on going over and spending a few hours on the tractor.  I want to get some more gravel from the rear and fill in some holes up front on the driveway and also see if the thing will dig into the mounds and start removing those hills formed after burning down the forest.  

I think I will go to Lowe's and price out the materials to build a covered parking setup.  Specifically, I want to know the various prices of roofing I can put up, looking for the cheapest that still looks decent.  It is highly likely I will press the GO! button in my brain on building a covered lot and get with it.  I will build the first one 30 feet long by probably 12 to 14 feet wide, depending on material costs.  I'm figured around a grand to build one but that really depends on the roofing costs.  

Oh and I'm going to take the pickup to the car wash, wash it and vacuum it out.  Vacuuming being the operative word.  Dog hair in the back seat, it's been there a long time from a dog that is no longer among the living.  So yes, I do have an agenda today, I just didn't feel like getting up early was necessary and especially since I had troubled sleep last night.  

La Quinta refunded my money for the night's stay over there.  Although that's good, I want more.  I have definitely suffered. The constant itching was unbelievable and the sleeplessness just as bad.  Admittedly taking Benadryl helped with the sleep substantially, but then you have trouble waking up and have this foggy feeling all day long.   At least they didn't try to say that I was making stuff up about the fleas.....

Oh! The grouchy driver.  See, I get along real well with the mechanics at the yard.  We're like minded and see things pretty much the same. So when I asked about "Johnny's" truck - it was obviously his because there was a mountain bike mounted to the rear of the thing, the lead mechanic said he had trashed a transmission.  Oh myyy.  I'm sure the company isn't in love with that, transmissions in semi trucks are extremely expensive either to buy or repair.  A new one is at least 10k.  You can buy used ones cheaper but you don't really know what you're getting.

He also twisted off a drive shaft on another occasion.  I know how that happens, but that's usually with oversized loads that are extremely heavy and you aren't getting into granny gear without extreme caution.  Our loads are at most 79,000 pounds and I just don't see how he could do that without extreme malice, like doing it on purpose.  But whatever, the point is that he's not a particularly good driver and also got cranky with the mechanics.  I can tell ya from experience, mechanics will give you a hard time if you've done something stupid.  They don't care for the man and I've had a couple of unpalatable experiences with him, he feels entitled to show up whenever he pleases, including during my loading or offloading time.  

The latest poll has Trump at 50 and Harris at 48 percentage of the national vote. Meaning, Trump is going to win? Oh, I've been predicting a Trump win regardless of the polls.  Even if Harris wins the popular vote, which I don't even think she'll do that, Trump will win the electoral college.  But now the polls are starting to catch up with Harris word salads.  She was asked specifically on 3 separate occasions on 3 different venues now how her presidency will differ from Biden's, she goes straight to Trump and never answers the question.  

She doesn't really answer any questions, she just goes off on how she feels, how people feel, how life was when she was young, yada yada yada and giving no specifics on the economy, the border chaos, the world stage, etc. 

I just can't envision that person being  the President of the United States.  No one wants to hear her blabbering about nothingness, they want to hear about how she is going to help their bank accounts. As I've been saying, people are going to vote with their wallets and people affected by illegal aliens swarming into and flooding their communities are going to vote for whoever they think will deal with the problem. Helllllloooooo?  Harris is IN office and was supposed to deal with the border crisis already and what has she done? NOTHING.  She finally went to the border a few weeks ago and blamed it all on Trump, blasting him and his policies that they immediately got rid of when Biden was sworn in.  Helllloooo?  WHAT is going to CHANGE? The answer is obvious: NOTHING. No, take that back: it will get far worse.

Are we supposed to somehow accept a bunch of murderers and known terrorists crossing over into our country illegally? Venezuelan gang members taking over the streets of certain communities?  I'm voting for Trump not because of his eloquent speech but because he'll take immediate steps to rid our country of these people.  Trump said the other day he's going to get rid of sanctuary cities.. How? By sending ICE in those cities, rounding these people up and deporting them.  

On a rant I guess, but this stuff is unnerving. To idly sit by and watch the destruction of our country and call yourself the President or the VP is maddening.  And people want 4 more years of this chaos?  No thank you.  If Trump loses, things are going to get a lot worse than it already is.  Will Harris carry on Biden's war on natural gas appliances and new oil leases?  

I'll stop now.  I have things to get done today after I started writing here about it.  However, coffee takes precedence! And I've only had one cup lol.  

Oh, the State of Arizona already sent me the title for the truck. Clear over here in Texas, yes.  That was fast.  And from Texas' website I have figured out that I will end up paying $395.31 in vehicle sales tax.  I don't think there is any way around it.  That's just the sales tax, btw, that doesn't include title and registration fees which will bring it to around $500 total. That's pretty outrageous.  AZ charged me $41 to do the same thing.  One need not wonder why the state of Texas has billions of dollars in a "rainy day fund".  

Wait, maybe not. The title is in my name already, I read some fine print that it's referring to having it switched over from a seller.  I dunno, I guess I'll go in and find out, if it's really going to charge me a sales tax fee I'll wait until I get at least a paycheck in to help pay for it.  I need to go in anyway, I never did get new license plates for my SUV after driving through that flooding in Galveston.  The front plate is gone and a cop could pull me over for it if they really wanted to.  So far they haven't wanted to, but it's just a matter of time and I don't know if that's a ticketable offense and if so, how much.  At least it's not a moving violation.

Which reminds me, time to start pricing car insurance.  I've got 2 vehicles in my name now and it's going to cost me pretty good every month to keep them both fully insured.  I don't want to get rid of the SUV just yet.  Well I don't want to get rid of it at all.  It's worth around $7,500, it's got some issues that need to be fixed and well, I just don't see a good reason to get rid of it.  It's got new tires and it will have new brakes and rotors on it soon enough and eventually I'll get the rear AC working.  I don't need to deal with ac now since it's cooling down and frankly, the front AC blasts cold air to the point that when driving it long enough, the entire vehicle cools down anyway.  \

Oh my yes, I'll save $135 per month switching back to Allstate. I got rid of them after they jacked my policy up - and at the time with no accidents or tickets.  Now, they're far cheaper than Progressive.  I think I'll check a few more tho. This is with full coverage on both vehicles including if I cause an accident again - which hopefully I won't - and the vehicles are fully covered.  Of course, they are only going to pay market value for a totally trashed vehicle.  That would be a ripoff but that's common in the insurance industry. 

State Farm turns out to be a lot more than Allstate.  I dunno how they come up with these quotes. I'll probably do a few more and then settle on Allstate if nothing else shows up better.  All I know is I don't want to spend $408 per month with Progressive.  It's probably because they had to pay out the repairs for both vehicles in the accident. The good news is that it really wasn't that much, especially to the other person's vehicle.  A bumper and a broken tail light. 

Meh, I'm done with that for a while.  Time to get out of here and get some stuff done.

G'day

Wednesday - evening

Long day.  It's 2 hours and 40 minutes up there and the same back.  Tho that's a  little bit, the problem was they wanted to go through the whole truck.  I got in there and they told me at least 3 hours and that was with 2 of them working on it - but also included taking an hour lunch break.  It was 4 hours before I left there. 

I took the company van to a local restaurant, it was an old, wooden, passenger rail car that had been turned into a cafe, tho I tend to call such things diners.  Whatever it was, the food was quite good.  Amazingly good, in fact.  Spartan crowd, friendly people.  I was only gone maybe an hour and then I still had 3 hours to burn, so I just went into the driver's lounge - no one in there, muted the noisy tv and took a couple of naps, actually.

I had wished I had taken my laptop this morning, I didn't even think about it.  Maybe next time I go up there I'll remember.

Anyway, I am not scheduled to load until Friday morning.  I picked up a different trailer, this one is actually in good condition and they just replaced all of the brake components - slack adjusters, brake shoes, bearing, hardware and even the caps with windows that go over the hubs.  They put windows in there to be able to check that there is oil in the axles.  

Typically, it's a much longer day going up there and today was no different, tho I hoped it would be lol.  

Still no bites on any of my ads.  I hate to run a Google ad for much more money and get nothing out of it, but I'm sort of stuck here with 6 empty lots and I really need to get some of them filled. This is the time of year where you are making more money because the electric bill goes down for lack of hot weather.  I've run free facebook and a couple of pay facebook boosts and tho I'm getting some overnight traffic, no long term has appeared.  

Tomorrow might be a good day to get all of that wood off of my trailer and get it ready to go find a hot tub somewhere, or carry stuff back to the park to build a carport or whatever.  That wood has been sitting on that trailer for months, I'm tired of it stopping me from access to my trailer.   It's not my doings but if I want the use of my trailer back, I apparently am going to have to offload it.    

 Wednesday - early

Didn't sleep all that great, but I feel fine anyway.  Today will be a relatively easy day with no loading or unloading, but still going to take at least the same amount of time as doing either.  4-1/2 hours of driving total, if I'm lucky and unknown amount of time at the yard doing this and that.  I dunno, but it's why I'm up early.  Get it done and get the day over with as early as possible, I can take a nap when I get home.  

Temps have taken a turn for the better, currently 49 degrees outside, I'm done with summer, thanks.  Over the next few weeks, the highest it will get is 86 degrees and the lowest is 41.  This is all very good for me. The only thing not so great is that there is very little chance of rain in the next 15 days.  I need a good week's worth of light rain to throw some winter grass seed down everywhere including the freshly cleaned out front and get some nice looking rye grass growing. 

The stuff is so easy to grow, one wonders why they can't "invent" see that is the same for summer grass.  

I did fire up the truck yesterday, no, the day before, and let it warm up a bit and air up the tanks and air bags to ensure I didn't have any issues.  It did just fine, thankfully and so I'm hopeful they just will want to do the oil change, try to get them to fix the windshield wiper fluid motor and rotate some tires.  I have no idea about the trailer I"m picking up excepting that it's "just been through the shop" so it's "fine".  I've been told this many times over in the past only to find minor and even serious issues with them.  It will be one of the first things I do when I get up there, do a thorough inspection and make sure I don't see bad tires and such. 

I haven't been finding too much information on hurricane Helene victims, on many "news" outlets, the story has disappeared. Scroll down 40, 50 posts and nothing.  Weird.  Don't see much about these drones that have been hovering over military bases and - what are we doing about that? Or near them, I don't remember the story precisely, just know it was on or near bases.  Why aren't we shooting the things down?  

We're getting quite close to the election day where we'll get this nonsense over with and get the next President determined and move on with our lives.  

 I ended up getting a Lyft to the airport, found it in the same condition as I left it excepting a half flat tire and a paint scratch that definitely wasn't there before.  I filled the tire back up and of course no one leaves a message telling you they are sorry they dinged your vehicle.  

The ride was funny tho.  It was a black lady who was talking up a storm to her black friend (I am only saying the race because they thought it important to iterate it).  We got into this long conversation: the driver, her friend on speaker phone and me about life in general and then the proposal hit: I'm a young, beautiful black woman, single and I need a man!

Lmao! Ok?  I am not looking for a woman.  You've just been getting the wrong peoples!  I blew it off pretty quick, this lady on the phone was serious. I am definitely not looking for a woman and certainly not in some random encounter where I can't even see what she looks like.  

Today is the last day of vacation. It actually should have been over as of yesterday morning, but if my manager doesn't contact me and I am not feeling it, I won't call him.  But, I did contact him this morning, let him know I'm ready to come to work and he is having me come up there to get a trailer, get whatever needs to be done with the truck, get some paperwork and turn in papers.  I'm leaving the same time the kids do, which is typically when I leave for either direction on a run if I'm the first load.  

The truck needs an oil change the windshield wiper fluid motor isn't working.  It's the only things I can think of wrong with it beyond the AC which I have gotten used to and now we're going to be entering "winter" months, temps coming down.  Oh, there is a drive axle tire that is wearing funny for some reason, need to switch it to another position.  Save the tire from ruin before the rest of the tires wear down.  I figure to be there a couple of hours - at most.  I don't like going there for several reasons, but since it's the only thing I'm doing - not loading or delivering - not quite so bad. Plus, they have an empty trailer there so I don't have to drive clear over to the Crocket washout to get one. That adds at least 2 hours.  I was very happy to hear that.

That trailer should be washed out as well, so I won't even have to go to a washout.  

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Many hours later.  I wasn't going to leave the truck over at the park, I'd rather leave the SUV over there, but I never made it back over there and I don't have anything pressing to go over there for.  I've run endless ads and not making any progress for long term. I get calls but they don't convert into anyone showing up.  It's a bit disconcerting.  I have ideas for possibly bringing people in, but if I spend the money and nothing happens, then what? 

I've wasted money on a non-starter.  I don't want to throw money at this place and get no results.  I feel like I need to take a different direction with it but those directions are pricey.  Mobile homes, tiny homes, cabins.  In other words, also offering the housing.  When you are working with limited money, whatever decisions you make, you are stuck with them.  If they work, great, if they don't?  Not so great.  

I have the old motor coach the needs to be refurbished inside. The lady isn't going to do it. If she was, it would have been done by now.  It's too late anyway, she had the surgery done on her arm and that is going to stop her from doing much of anything for a while.  I don't think I'm much of a "refurbisher",  but I guess I could give it a try.  Tear out the carpet, tear out the entire kitchen setup, tear out the shower stall and replace with whatever I can find.  House type stuff, not RV stuff.  Much cheaper and just as easy to integrate.  

I may very well do that myself since I'm having no luck. It's really where I need to direct my attention I suppose, now that I think of it.  I could spend a couple thousand on it and hope that I can find a decent renter.  It will also need a new bed.  Or a very good used one anyway.  I think it's going to be a lot of work trying to figure out how to integrate a new shower in there.  It will be a lot of work to put in a new kitchen but I don't think that will be as difficult.  The toilet also needs to be replaced.  

Toilet - $150

Shower stall - small - $229

Kitchen counter stuff - around $300

New cooktop or stove with burners?  Now that will be a dilemma.  Do I put in propane or electric?  If I put in electric, will there be enough power in that thing to power it and the rest of everything else? Probably not.  I would likely have to go with propane.

Then you have to have a propane water heater.  Look, a lot of RV stuff is run off of propane. It's only a 30 amp setup, it has to have stuff running that isn't drawing off of that.  It can be a pain to have to get propane, but if you want to cook or have hot water? That's how it has to be.  

Some of this stuff could be found used and in good condition and I don't mind going that route to save money.  

I'm thinking carpet for everything but the kitchen area, which had carpet but kind of dumb I think to have that where you're cooking.  I'll be glad to get rid of that kitchen set up, it's old, bad condition and ugly.  I think that's it. That should be the next direction, that or installing at least one covered parking and well, everyone is all over the idea of a hot tub, even in the winter.  I'd have to have a concrete slab poured, get the hot tub and buy a cover kit to have it covered.  Not enclosed, just covered.  

These are the things I can do.  They're within reach and frankly, to bring new people in for the lots, the hot tub isn't going to cost that much and - who knows?  Maybe it will draw people in, maybe it won't?  I figure a grand for the slab, whatever for the hot tub - I may end up driving a longer distance to get a cheap one from the Dallas area - and a $300 soft top gazebo.  

I"m looking at a new gazebo for $258, 13X11 dimensions which is enough room for the hot tub and a table and a few chairs next to it.  I guess I'll have to put up a fence and a padlock door around it now that I think of it, that will add to the cost unfortunately.  I rarely get kids over there but it only takes one tragedy to ruin everything.  Well, even that isn't terribly expensive for enough to surround it with a gated entry.  

But, the gate has to be a self-closing type so the people who don't care whether the gate is left open or not won't cause someone else to have something happen. Honestly, the boys here are the only kids over there right now, that and one of the ladies bring her baby granddaughter over to watch while her daughter is working.  Still, for safety's sake, gotta do it. 

"There is a way which seems right unto man, but the end thereof are the ways of death".  Seems like a ghastly scripture to apply to such a situation, but I always think, hmm, it sounds good to me, but what does God have to say about this?  Is my thinking astray? What do I do to get the park filled again and keep it that way?  How do I get the people in there?  Good thing I have a job right now.....otherwise I might be in panic mode.  I'm just saying, what does the Lord have to say about any of this? Do I pull the trigger on any of this stuff or do I just sit patiently and wait until I see some definitive sign that I know it's the Lord showing his will? Or has He already done that and I've been blind to it? Or is my thinking about some of these things right on and His blessing would be upon it? 

I could go on like that for a while.  "Fools think they are right, but the wise listen to advice".  I haven't had any advice on this matter from anyone.  I'm certainly open to other's opinions, even if I think they are wrong I still hear people out to see if there is something to glean from what they are saying, especially in situations where I feel like I am groping in the dark. 

The book of Proverbs speaks about fools, sluggards, lazy people.  I think I will read that entire book again before I make any decisions. There is a lot of wisdom in that book and there might be something that speaks to my heart.  I feel like I am losing out on perhaps some input from church members who are also business men/women who could give me some direction.  I haven't gotten involved with the church - yet - after all the time I've been there. There are plenty of venues.  Wednesday morning bible study, Sunday morning adult groups, the Lord's Supper twice a week....they do it differently than most churches, they actually have a meal and then drink the blood/wine.  Well I doubt they are serving wine, that's sort of a Catholic thing moreso than in protestant churches.  

So there it is.  I've come up with some path to find wisdom.  Here's my thing: I am not a seasoned businessman.  I have spent a lot of time researching, and things have gone reasonably well until recently. People that were only staying temporarily - a month, 2 months, whatever, left town and left my park.  And people? Haven't been coming in their place.  I've only had overnighters since the last long term left.  That's been a while now. I looked at this new dude's place, he's been running ads all over the place and so far, he's gotten 5 or 6 people in there.  There isn't a large pool of RV'ers to draw from.  Not with all the RV parks in my immediate area and all the new parks going up all over the place.

That is sort of a confirmation in and of itself that I either need to be offering housing or I need to get amenities in there that no one else has - or potentially better: both.  I don't think a single RV park in my area is offering a hot tub.  Many of them have trees for shade, I don't have that.  Hence the thought of covered parking which appears to be highly popular anywhere I see it offered. But see, just because it's popular at a park 90 miles away, does that mean it will be popular enough to draw people into place?  

Again, if that was my only source of income, I would be in panic mode right now.  

Which reminds me, I have to get up early and the hour is growing late. Late for an early rise anyway.  I have been going to sleep pretty early this entire time I've been off anyway, not much of a transition excepting forcing my @$$ out of bed at 5:30 am.  

Enough.  I throw myself into a conundrum of thought attempting to sort out what I should do and at the end of it, I just come up with: I need wisdom.  Wisdom coming from those that are experienced in making business decisions.  People who have no vested interest, but want to see others succeed.  This is where I have been stuck at for a while now.  Without wisdom and clear instruction, it's kind of hard to proceed in any direction - all of them require spending money and I am just not willing to go there atm without decisive direction.

BTW, God uses people for such things in many cases.  This is why I am open to whoever, wherever that might have something to say that I am just not seeing. A person might say something that confirms to another person the direction they should go and the person saying it might not even realize that what they are saying is akin to revelation to the person hearing it. 

 Tuesday - late morning

I haven't been posting - I get started on an entry and then get distracted by things and don't get back to the blog.  

I left off at the 700 mile mark in Odessa, spending the night there at the Marriott Residence Inn.  It was a good night's sleep and I ate a wonderful breakfast - they have a huge breakfast bar at all of them and it includes meat, potatoes, cereals, waffles, scrambled eggs, etc.  I didn't eat too much meat but they were serving egg white scrambled so I scooped up a bunch of that.

The rest of the drive home was uneventful even if full of stupid people who have no business having a driver license.  Ridiculous nonsense.  

The truck ran perfectly, never a single hiccup.  It gets almost 18 mpg which is good for that thing, I have subsequently found out looking it up online.  My SUV only gets 15 on the highway, I was already used to gas hogs. In fact, the SUV is still at the airport and I am trying to find a ride over there. Taylor doesn't have to go over there all the time anymore and by the time she goes back, I will be on the road and won't be able to take advantage of hitching a ride.  

So, I am likely going to have to pay for a ride. I dunno if I can get an Uber or Lyft over here but I'm going to try.  The SUV can be parked at the property for now, it needs work and tho I want to do it, it's not high on the priority list.  Front brakes and rotors, rear ac not working and a bushing.  I'm guessing a grand need be dumped into it, but I will likely replace the brakes/rotors myself and save a ton of money.  

Anyway, I stayed at a local La Quinta the day I returned for reasons I won't get into here, unpleasantries I will label it as. It was the first really good night's sleep I had had since the Sunday I had left. Marriott was good sleep, but not great.  I forgot about the part where someone was stomping up and down the hallway at 5:00 am-ish, I was planning on sleeping in until 7 - 7:30.  The noise went on so long that I was tempted to get up, get dressed and go out there and confront whoever.  I didn't do that, but still.

La Quinta was great sleep - but.... it's also the "Dog Inn" where people are allowed to bring their dogs in for stays as well.  Not a problem, except....I realized my bed was full of fleas too late.  My arms, chest and back were bitten all over and I have the bumps and red marks to prove it.  I have spent the last 2 days in itching hell and took a Benadryl at 3:00 am last night.  I went to sleep, yes, but now I have having trouble waking up, that stuff will knock you out.

That was the point of taking it, I just have things I'd like to get done today. I am not back at work, the manager hasn't contacted me and frankly, didn't really want to go back to work right away.  I am thinking of contacting him later  on today and working out getting back to work tomorrow. I'll need a trailer to start with, which is why I'm dreading going back to work. It is highly unlikely I'll get the trailer I have been using for many months and I'll have to start back at ground zero with whatever issues some other trialer - WILL - have because they always have problems and drivers don't get the stuff fixed. 

The truck needs a complete cleaning, I will say that. Dog hair and it just needs wiped down good and get that dog smell out of there.  I might do that today.  The city has forced a water limitation on everyone and the car washes were shut down. They had a main valve bust and they have to have one manufactured.  This city has a very old water transmission system that needs to be completely replaced.  They piecemeal everything together and constantly fixing water leaks.  Apparently, one of the local washes got permission to open back up, I'd like to get it washed and then spend quality time vacuuming out the interior.  

However, I am going to go to the park in a bit and see if I can get an uber from there to the airport.  I have heard Uber is up and running here again, I will try it. It will be an expensive ride but I can't leave my vehicle sitting there forever.  I don't want to bring the SUV back here, too many vehicles here as it stands I have one, the folks have 2 and a motorcycle.  

I just texted the manager the dreaded text: ready to go back to work tomorrow or whenever such is available.  I can't stay off work forever and trust me, if I'm not forced back into it and I get into "that" mindset, I will just sit it out for as long as I can get away with it.  Lol.  It's been long enough, I think the flea bites are starting to heal sufficiently but if it isn't oh well, deal with it.  

It's really bad on my fingers.  I didn't realize what was happening until too late. Started itching my fingers and cranking on them without thinking about it.  By the time I realized what I was doing?  Too late.  Have these giant bumps all over.  

And was on hold with the Texas State Comptroller. Required filing every year, I sent it off months ago and now they are threatening to take away my business license because I didn't file?  I sent it off to them via snail mail.  No clue there, but I intend on getting to the bottom of it for I need that license to operate my business.  

Whatever else?  I just talked with the manager. He wants me to come up and pick up a trailer, plus do whatever service the mechanics deem necessary and I have paperwork to turn in as well as hazmat paperwork that needs renewed.  I'm not hauling hazmat atm, but if the situation arises, need to be legal for it.  I'm going to leave early in the morning so I don't have to waste an entire day doing that nonsense.  Like, out of the house by 6:30 am, out of the park by 7 and up there around 9:30. It's only 136 miles but it takes 2-1/2 hours to get up there, probably spend a few hours there and the same amount of time back.  Gets me home no later than...2:30 we'll give some extra time there. 

I don't know what else. Still running ads and not getting a lot of hits.  I'm being undercut by other parks so I have advertised $200 off, given out over a 3 month period. I'm not giving $200 off the first month, it's long term and if they want the discount, they'll have to stay 3 months to get all of it. The new guy has meters so he's advertising much less and disclosed in fine print that the power is extra.  People will figure it out after they stay there a while, it isn't the bargain they think it is.  

However, I could install some meters on some lots for fairly cheap and try it.  Just take the profit in the rent and the guest can eat the electric bill.  I'm still about these covered parking setups and I'm going to have one installed, or do it myself because they will probably charge a fortune to install it.  Just rent an auger machine, dig out the post holes, put the posts in, cement them, etc.  I kind of want to build a woodens structure, they don't look tacky such as their metal ones do.  I have seen several parks with the metal versions I just don't like the way it looks.  I don't know if anyone else cares, but I am about nature and the metal isn't about nature.  

Shrugs shoulders, obviously my "old" way of getting people in isn't working I have to reinvent the park.  That only happens with additional amenities.  

Oh, and Lyft is actually available here.  $38, it's 40 miles there so that's not really a bad price. Get my vehicle back and have that issue taken care of. 

In fact, I'm going to finish getting dressed, head over to the park and order the ride.  

G'day

 Friday - night

I started early today.  Got up, sat down with mom at the kitchen table, chatted a bit, drank some coffee. I knew this was going to be hard, but it was time to go.  I took her second and last vehicle.  I didn't ask for this vehicle, btw, I didn't even know she was considering that until she asked me if I wanted it.  A truck with 53,000 on it that's loaded for it's year and is in excellent condition? For free? And knowing it's mom's truck. She loves this thing - loved.  I feel so bad for her.  I know she's very old and it was very responsible for her to give up her driving privileges knowing that she basically was posing a threat to other motorists with her vision problems - but in our currently reality? 

Not having the freedom to go wherever you want to when you want to after living a life of doing so is a hard thing to digest. The flip side is Uber/Lyft are quite abundant out there. But yes, you give up a freedom that you might take for granted until it's gone. Seeing that truck - it was really something to her - backing out of that driveway and seeing her face? I started crying. She's my mom.  It's one of the few reasons I want to live there, I would be over there all the time asking what she wants, what she needs, do you need to go anywhere? 

I knew this would be hard but knowing it didn't make it any easier.  I have mom's truck she's had it since she bought it new in 2008 and I will never sell it. It's in excellent condition, as noted driving it 700 miles today and it will be around a long time before it's ready to be smelted and made into something else.  I lost everything I had in a house fire in 2004, things from my grandma that are absolutely irreplaceable, things I wish I still had.  You get mom's truck? You aren't getting rid of it. Sentimental value, memories, things that are irreplaceable.  

So it was a bit of an emotional departure this morning.  

Anyway, I got 700 miles covered and I called this right.  I reserved the room at this Residence Inn yesterday figuring I would want to stop at the 700 mile mark and I was definitely right about that. I was more than ready to stop driving when I got here.  And I was very glad that the points actually worked, my name was in their system and I didn't have to show them anything beyond giving a credit card for "incidentals".  

I just want to go back again, not a year from now, but during winter.  It was just unbearable for me.  I don't care how hot it is outside as long as you can go inside and cool off.  I don't even know if it's going to be better at her place in the winter, she probably turns the heat on when the heat is not called for?  But there is a remedy for that. Close the outlet on the ceiling and open the window. 

It was a sign for me that I did the right thing when I booked this room: I walked in here and the thermostat was set at 65 degrees. I probably could have driven the other 500 miles out, miserable, get it over with, blah blah blah type of mentality, screw that.  

I didn't sleep well last night. I haven't slept well since I got there. I am not trying to find fault with mom, I just can't sleep in conditions that resemble being outside in blazing heat.  And she really needs to replace her bed mattress. I do not want her bedroom  but she always insists I take it.  She's a very wonderful person and no one could ever tell me differently.  I sent her flowers after I left : )  

I have had people telling me I should just stay at a hotel when I come to town. And do what?  Offend my mom?  Her place isn't good enough for me? She lives for family.  I'll lie in coals before I do that. I might say something about it on my blog but in real life, I would just deal with it.  

She sent me off with a cooler full of food. Sandwiches, oranges, a plastic baggies full of banana nut biscuits - do you understand?  She is very precious to me and I do not want to offend her and I definitely ate a lot of that food today.  So, as long as she is among the living, I will stay there when I come and even tho there won't be a vehicle to drive, it will be good.  Uber/Lyft. They are abundant out there.  

I'm tired.  It's getting late. I'm going to bed.