Friday - early

Just a few minutes of time to spend here, at least for now, probably write again later for the kids are leaving for another 2 weeks to Arkansas this morning, meaning I don't have kids wanting this and that...

Biden was a total disaster last night.  I mean, I may be a bit on the biased side and despise many of the policies Biden has enacted, but even mainstream (read: communist) media are having meltdowns about his performance. He was mumbling, incoherent, you couldn't understand at least of one fourth the words coming out of his mouth.  

I am going to say one thing here I thought I would never say, tho: CNN moderators were very fair and didn't just ask questions that would be hard for Trump.  Trump had instant answers for everything, Biden would start mumbling. Biden had this blank look on his face as if he wasn't there, like he was in a dream - a bad dream for him.  I had an issue with the mic mute when they first announced this a few months ago, but over time, I thought: this will work both ways so maybe it's a good thing and yes, it really helped.  I think Trump not being able to talk over Biden actually helped keep him toned down.  

Biden brought up several lies or uncorroborated statements such as the economy being in a shambles when Trump, I think he brought up the inflation lie again and then brought up the alleged statement about Trump calling people who died in wars fools and would rather spit on them, etc.  

Joy Reid "The universal reaction was panic", Joy Reid is an ultra left commentator, I think on MSNBC, the bastion of communist propaganda.  

MANY democratic big names are saying Biden should now drop out.  If you watched this debate, can you imagine this man representing us on the world stage talking like that?  And after he spent what, a week in Camp David preparing for this debate?  His performance was so horrendous, I have to wonder if this was all staged, like giving democrats an excuse to replace him?  

Well here I am getting fired up and now I have to leave. 

Please wish me a good day, the last time I went to Lufkin, 2 days ago, I spent 8-1/2 hours in the plant and I do not want a repeat of that. 

Thank you and good day!

 Thursday - evening

I dunno about that sleep app. It's usually correct but today? I woke up after 3 hours of deep sleep, pretty much normal for me, but I went right back to sleep - not normal for me - and slept the rest of the night.  It gave me "average" sleep rating and I'm like, uhh, no.  I feel great today. It was hard to wake up this morning, yes, that alarm went off and I thought, I could sleep for many more hours.  

Anyway, days worth of contention.  First, these young people with the 4 dogs and second, this dude that is a "workamper" that isn't working.  I just got off the phone with them, this wasn't texting and yes, I confronted them - him and his wife were on the phone.  I just can't do this anymore and I laid out the reasons they can just start paying rent and no more work is needed.  

I just can't go there right now, it blows my mind how people can make up stories, defend themselves with lies when I know because I have seen it with my own eyes, not because someone else is telling me.  It's ridiculous nonsense.  I mean, yes, I have dealt with this stuff before, but not on this scale. What's it like with 40 lots worth of people?  I am coming to an understanding why many of these RV parks are so hardnosed about their rules. People don't give a shit and they will do whatever the HELL they please until someone confronts them.  I'm just sitting here shaking my head.

I bluntly asked him after all of their bs: what have you done in the park in the last 7 days?  Well we just mowed the dog park! Great, what else.....I can tell you because I know: NOTHING. They got mad and I don't care.  Get mad, get upset, leave, do whatever you're going to do, but I'm getting rid of the baggage that I didn't know was going to be baggage and that's that.  I want a reputation of a great place to stop and these people? No thank you.  

They can't leave on their own, I dunno what they're going to do but I pissed them off and I somewhat did it intentionally.  It's more of: I know how they are going to react but I'm going to say it anyway, get the cards on the table and whatever is going to happen, happen.  They likely won't want to stick around any longer, fine by me.  I'm tired of the drama and I'm just going to hit it hard when it comes to me, stop it in it's tracks and be done with it quickly.  I'm learning, that's all I can say. I had this going on at the house and room rentals, but as I said, not to this degree with this many people.  Fight that battles that need to be fought.  

Meanwhile, the new couple that decorated the shed and made hand made signs and have hung them already came running up to me today as I was leaving the park. I was in a hurry. The kids are leaving yet again for grandma's for another 2 weeks and I wanted to spend some time with them before they left, meaning take them to the movies.  Well, the man came running up. He's got a work ethic and offered to be the "Park Hosts".  Yessss.  I need this in my life. Park hosts deal with people coming and going, deal with the day to day as much as they want to do it and keep things running smoothly versus what I have been doing. Working a job and working the park.  It wears on me so some things get done when I have the energy and motivation to do it. 

These people are living the RV life, are totally into it, totally want to have a thriving community and I am all for that.  The things they are doing to their lot make it appear to me that they are planning on sticking around a long time.  They have also said this, but for me, I want to see the signs of that and yes, those signs are there.  I'm switching the free rent to them and the "workamper" will pay rent - or leave.  I as much said that quite directly to them, for they lied to me and I am done with that.  

 It's a quarter after 9, I've been home maybe 35 minutes.  I am a bit perturbed atm  as well.  

First, it was the loading plant. I arrived there at 9:28 am and left there 5:45 pm.  You read that right, I was there for well over 8 hours.  I mean, sitting in a truck all day long, 3 or more hours of it in a truck that isn't running, they don't allow the trucks to run when they are actually loading the truck.

It took me all day long to finally find out what had happened.  The line that delivers the product to the fill line from the tank was completely blocked.  The loader - this is at the end of the day - pointed to the large container filled with a charcoal like substance. He said they had had to take the entire assembly apart to clean it out.  

I was wondering if I was even going to make it home today.  I had 20 minutes left on the clock before I finally was able to sign out of elogs.  I dunno, but I was very cranky and that because I hadn't eaten all day long. I had no intentions of fasting today, I just didn't take food for I figured at most I would be in the plant a couple of hours and if I got really hungry after that, I could get a salad at Love's.  I figured wrong, obviously. I normally take lunch with me up to Gurdon, I normally do not to Lufkin for the fact that I can get a low carb meal at Love's if I absolutely have to.  

After I got back to the yard, people started complaining yet again about the dogs in a particular trailer that are barking "all night long".  I don't know, I'm not there at night.  But, when enough people complain about the same thing, you figure they are probably at least close to telling the real story and I've already talked to these people about the excessive barking as it stands.  

So, I texted the dude and informed him the dogs can't just be sitting there barking all day and night long.  He apparently copied and pasted the message to the girl who then started blowing up my phone, making accusations about me and going off on me, everyone that is complaining and saying "I am making it personal about them".  No, honey, I'm dealing with numerous complaints.  I didn't call her honey, but I was thinking it, like what on earth is this incredible meltdown about?  

I addressed her accusations and she then wrote 3 long paragraphs going off even more.  I just wrote back to her: I don't want to get into an endless argument with you.  I stopped responding to her after that, even tho she kept going off.  I am not going to get caught up in such ridiculous nonsense, if they can't control their emotions, that's on them, I want no part of it, especially in writing.  It was all texting.  

I am sitting here after a near 14 hour day and now all of this trash and nonsense wondering how I got myself into all of this.  I know it's a juggling of attempting to appease as many people as possible, but at the end of the day? I also understand after decades of doing this that you can't and won't be able to please everyone and perhaps it will just mean that some people leave and that's that.  That's where I'm at, I am dealing with it to the best of my ability, if people don't like it, they are free to find other accommodations.  

Perhaps I'm just being whiny because I don't get hardly any downtime before I have to go to bed. That's in 15 minutes if I follow my normal routine - which I probably won't tonight.  

BTW, I don't deal with issues until I find out about them.  Or if I see something myself, obviously I will deal with it directly.  It's the only way to do it, get it confronted and get it over with. If people even feel an inkling that you are not serious or you won't follow through, they will walk all they way around hell to walk all over you, smear their feet on top of you like a doormat and spit on you while they're at it, metaphorically speaking.  It's just the nature of humans to take advantage of something as far as they can take it, attempting to find your boundaries.  My boundaries per the park are in writing and that's what I go by.  I may need to add some things to those rules now that I think about it.   

Oh, and a dog has parvo so now "the park has parvo".  It's ridiculous mob mentality that gets such things going. If your dog has been vaccinated against parvo, it isn't going to get parvo. Facts.  "No one can use the doggy park now", a man informs me as I ask why? Because such and such German Shepherd "over there" has parvo.  Okay? You do know if your dog has the vaccine current/up to date, your dog won't get it?  Ok, there is a slim chance a dog could still get it.  

But, to appease these people, I will have to buy a product that kills parvo on contact.  There are several of them out there that I have seen, remains to be seen how much of it I would need to buy to cover 9,000 square feet.  No, it's more like 8,100 square feet.  One guy said "I'm going to spray the park with bleach". Uhh, no you aren't, you'll kill the grass that I have fought so hard to get going in there.  And anyway, from my reading, the thing that a dog will likely get it from in a doggy park is from a dog's poop that has the virus.  

Looks like a product called Rescue! is the one to get. Pricey, of course.  A gallon of concentrate is 60 bucks.  I hate spending money on such things, just eats into my profits. Like, why have a dog park in the first place? And who has dogs that doesn't get them vaccinated and shots for everything?  Lots of people, probably.  I am considering making it a rule that dogs must be up to date on rabies and parvo shots.  

There was one bright star in the sky today.  My notifications coming from the camera inside the shed was blowing up today, so I eventually took a look. The lady that moved in with the dude had made up some shelving, flower arrangements and other "cute" stuff and hung it up on walls in the shed, both the laundry portion and the bathroom.  They didn't ask for permission to do this but it looks really good.

The place needed a woman's touch, that's for sure.  I certainly wasn't complaining. She also made some hand designed, wood signs for the shed and the doggy park.  These people have been setting up camp over there since they arrived, in a good way.   I think these people with the dogs are going to leave and frankly, I don't mind seeing them go.  I wouldn't say it's a good riddance thing, I just don't want to continue to have to deal with the same people about dog issues all the time. It gets very old.

I suppose I should change the subject.  Presidential debate tomorrow, it's going to be skewed, I know it because CNN is hosting it and Trump haters are moderating it.  They picked sides before a debate was even considered or agreed to.  The muted microphones are to silence Trump.  I dunno how Trump is going to behave, personally I'd like to see him tone his rhetoric down a few notches, especially with the name calling junk.  But, Biden is no better and has been deriding the entire Republican party since he took office with all kinds of vile rhetoric.  Our democracy is at stake! They say but I know they don't believe.  Trump already had the office for 4 years and our nation was in far better shape than the near 4 years Biden has been at the helm.

And off of that, I think it's time to just end this. I seem to be full of negativity.  Probably because of an entire day's worth of a negative atmosphere.  I just know I have to get up at 5:30 am, but hope and pray that tomorrow is much better than today's stuff.

 Wednesday - early

If my alarm wasn't going off? No worries, the motorcycle firing up every morning with James leaving at the same time I'm getting up for work will instantly wake me up. Not that I'm complaining, excepting perhaps on a day off.  

The next day off is Sunday, amazingly.  The manager fired the dispatcher and now he's doing the dispatching. He knows I like to go to church on Sundays and now apparently is fixing it to be available more often than not? I don't know but the scheduling for this week was intentional for that result.  Work Monday through Saturday, off Sunday and start over.  

I don't have next week's schedule yet so I have no idea if it's going to stay that way.  There are many things this company does wrong, getting my scheduling right would at least be on plus on a board of negatives.  

Not shockingly, AOC won the district in New York she represents in the primaries.  Anti-Israel trash, she and the ilk supporting her despise Jews in particular and obviously have no problem that Hamas killed a bunch of innocent Israeli citizens.  She is one of the "people" perpetuating the genocide theory/declaration of Palestinians, but you really cannot separate Palestinians from Hamas.  The one thing that all of these people cannot escape is the fact that the Palestinians voted for Hamas to rule over them. Perhaps they didn't foresee being used as human shields, however, maybe they are regretting that vote, then again, maybe they aren't.  

AOC is a giant fruitcake with legs, her mental deficiencies going well beyond just the anti-Israel sentiment. She frequently declares things that are at best propaganda but almost always just plain out false as truth and she is frequently fact checked by the right, if no one else.  

Speaking of fact checkers, did you see where Snopes, the far left noodles that are "fact checkers" extraordinaire, actually retracted a false conclusion regarding Trump?  Have you seen any of these fact checkers doing that, ever, since all of this "fact checking" started? It was concerning the left making the claim that Trump said that all the facists and neo-nazis at a demonstration were "very fine people", concluding that he condones and is  one of those types of people.  It was clearly evident he we referring to some of the people that were bystanders or just there watching that had no part of either side of the equation.  

Oh, and then there's this presidential debate tomorrow, hosted by CNN and 2 CNN anchors that have been Trump haters from the get go.  Not just opposed to Trump, they abhor him.  No audience, microphones will be muted when it's not one of their turns, you can't have cards or prompters (that will benefit Trump and is likely why Biden has disappeared into Camp David attempting to memorize the lies that will proceed from his mouth) and other things I don't recall now.  The fact that it is going to be hosted by trump hating, elitist "news" anchors or commentators is telling.  Biden would only agree to that, of course, none of this nonsense came from the Trump camp.

Well, I got myself started and looked at the clock.  See, I woke up at 5:30 am, I didn't say I got out of bed at that point in time, lol. I laid there for a while trying to get my head into the awake, up and running state of existence.  I'm finally there, but the clock is also there, time to leave.

G'day

 Monday - early

Woke up 40 minutes before the alarm was going to go off, knew I would never get back to sleep so just got up.  

The first Presidential debate is on Thursday. The rules are .... interesting.  No notes or props. That won't hurt Trump, Biden is holed up in a cabin right now preparing for the debate because the man doesn't have a clue.  Biden will come out swinging, attacking Trump, calling him a felon, bringing up lies from the past - lies perpetuated by the Biden camp, will attack Trump on a personal level and will avoid most of the issues because his idea of running the nation is to run it into the ground. 

Microphones will be muted. That is a pathetic and ridiculous rule that can easily be abused, especially since leftist communists are going to be running the show.  It's all going to favor Biden, I'd be willing to bet money on that.  They've got something or things up their sleeves to make sure that Biden looks "good" and "Trump: Orange man bad!".  It's amazing Trump even agreed to this setup, but there was no other way to get a debate in without it.  Remember, these people running this debate are people who believe Trump AND his supporters are threats to our "democracy". 

I don't actually believe they think this, they just throw that stuff out there to try and dupe the gullible public who pay no attention to politics and apparently don't understand how politics affects our personal lives to a very great degree, whether it be our freedoms or especially things concerning our finances and how much of it we get to keep.  Or allowing this land to be invaded by illegal aliens who are slowly changing the scope of our culture and are bilking the public treasuries dry.  Who is paying for all of this free medical care, cash vouchers, phones, food, clothing and shelter?  

Yes, I'm going to watch the debate but I expect it to be skewed towards Biden and that's why I think it's a risky proposition for Trump.  But, Trump is taking the chance because he needs to reach the populous that's more in the center, Stein supporters and third party. His push for having rallies in staunchly blue states and area is also an interesting tactic.  

And then there's these people that think the climate is going to change to the point that we are all going to die!!!  The latest one was running out onto a PGA? not sure which venue but a golf tournament, spraying paint and running around like penguins out of water in circles and the police literally, almost magically appearing out of nowhere, tackling the whole lot of them and escorting them in cuffs off of the premises.  It's as if the police somehow knew these people were going to show up and were highly prepared for it.  You know, these people aren't having the effect they think they are having.  I would think most people look at their antics and think, that's highly annoying, childish, juvenile, stupid. Not, oh wow! We should demand our politicians change everything to GREEN RIGHT NOW! Lmao

Anyway, just preparing for another day of work.  At least I have the first load today, I don't care for getting up this early, I also don't care for work days to be ending at 4 or 5 pm. On a day like this, I can reasonably expect to be back by 1 or 1:30 at the latest going to Lufkin, 2ish or so going to Gurdon tomorrow.  Barring any problems, of course.  I've been flat free for a little while now, I wonder how long I can on without having another flat tire/blowout?  The tires on the truck are good.  

Obi...I'm out back yesterday evening adding water to the pond, cleaning out the pump and getting it running right again. Boy was that water warm!  Fish are still alive but it must be a bit oppressive environment for them in such warm water.  The pond was down around 7 inches so the water input help bring the temp down quite a bit.  Well, the dog runs over to a panel on the side of the house, growling, jumping around, going crazy. That dog has a very high amount of endless energy.  I mean, allllll dayyyyy long, that dog is just running around constantly, he's still quite skinny but I've managed to put some weight on him at least.

Well, he's sticking his nose into the ground next to the house, just going bat-s*** crazy until I see the issue.  He's got a snake in his mouth!  OBI!!!! I couldn't tell what kind of snake it was and was concerned the thing was going to bite him, but he was flinging the thing around wildly.  I'm telling you, wildlife has no chance in our back yard lol.  Varmints will be killed by the small dog, snakes apparently by my big giant goofball.  I made him drop the thing but after I saw the damage to it I wished i had just let him kill it.  It was a plain-bellied water snake, a snake I particularly despise for they will go straight into the pond and eat my fish.  

I told him to Get it! and finish the job, mostly because it had huge holes in the side of it from the dog's teeth.  But, by the time he got back to it, it slithered underneath the house behind the panel and Obi couldn't get it.  I'm thinking that snake is going to die anyway, but I'm also think, dang, we've got those damned water snakes back.  I thought they were gone.  I mean, there are always snakes around here, if not water snakes, copperheads and if not copperheads, cottonmouths.  I'm not a fan of snakes, btw, they can ALL die as far as I'm concerned.  But, I'm happy I have a dog that isn't afraid of them, I just wonder tho if he's going to get himself bit by a venomous snake.  

Btw, ""Apt (sic.) time to recall that the modern day police system is a direct evolution of slave patrols and lynch mobs," he stated in a separate post months later.

In 2018, Cherry called for Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE), the Homeland Security Department agency tasked with preventing cross-border crime and illegal immigration, to be abolished. 

Cherry was also posting support for "Palestine" on social media in 2014 during the Gaza War in which Palestinian forces, led by the radical Iran-backed terrorist group Hamas, launched hundreds of rockets into Israel, sparking a forceful Israeli response that involved airstrikes and a ground invasion."it.  This is the type of people the Biden admin promotes to important positions.  

Well, something happened to the spacing when I copied and pasted that, lol, so I'm just signing off, it's almost time to leave as it stands.

G'day

 Sunday - morning

2 hours before church.  

We had a party over here last night for one of the members of the group, there were a lot of people here and lots of fun.  Getting up this morning and walking out to the kitchen?  Well I just spent 45 minutes cleaning and loading the dishwasher.  Don't really want to start a Sunday with a dirty kitchen, just my mindset.  

I did absolutely nothing yesterday.  By design, I laid in bed most of the day until it was time for the party. The people showed up too early, lol, I just wanted to stay in bed.  I haven't done that in so long I can't even remember the last time I just decided to lay around like a sluggard.  I'm not a sluggard and no one could reasonably accuse me of that, but it was nice to spend a day doing - .... - nothing.  

Some new people moved in Friday and they were already complaining about the dogs. The people next to them have been a thorn in my side with letter out 3 or 4 dogs just to wander all over the place.  I have contacted them at least 3 times about this, pretty soon it's going to be an ultimatum: You  can not let your dogs roam free, unsupervised and obviously shi**ing everywhere and obviously you aren't cleaning it up. Either conform to the written rules or please leave.  

It's a young couple and the man is not a nice person.  He has the personality of a rock.  He doesn't like to chit chat and I've seen some interesting people they are bringing in there with them.  Judge  a book by it's cover? Meh, maybe a little.  I've been around those types of people before, I can spot them pretty quickly.  The street I used to live on was full of such people.  My problem is if they decide that my property is now going to become their looting place, a place to steal whatever they can get away with. 

But, whatever the case, the dogs are the immediate concern. They had 1, then 2 and now allegedly they 4 dogs living in that trailer.  No one wants to deal with someone else's dogs, especially these new people.  The man looked at me and said: "well you have rules about that don't you?" He isn't against dogs, he just wants them under control, which is perfectly understandable.  They don't have pets and they don't want other people's pets visiting them.  

Honestly, I'd rather cater to the normal people than the people that think they can do whatever the hell they please and nothing can be done about it. Yeah, they'll find out that when they push me far enough, I'll throw them and their 4 dogs out of my park.  There are lots of dogs in the park, people do not let them run free except one dude that is also getting under my skin.

However....he is always with the dog at least.  He doesn't just boot it out the door and say goodbye, go poop somewhere and then someone else can clean it up.  That has quickly become and Achille's heel with me, people not cleaning up after their dogs.  Everyone in that park that has a dog knows I won't tolerate their dogs just shitt*** everywhere and then leaving it.  

Ok let's get off of that. Keto.  I dumped 5 pounds overnight a few days ago and tho a few pounds came back on, the fat is starting to come off.  I can tell from my love handles, which were getting escessively large and .... not so appealing in appearance.  They have shrunk considerably.  Last night, it wasn't even that hard to say no to delicious looking birthday pie (the dude wanted pie, not cake).  Why? Because I had just checked ketones and it was dark purple.  Meaning, my body is burning fat for energy, not carbohydrates.  This is exactly what you want and it amplifies the fat loss exponentially compared to other diets.  

I have noticed in the past that the scale may not even change but the fat loss is quite visible and noticeable.  So, I'm sticking with the diet for now, at least a month but if this continues, I'll go on as long as it needs to to get the weight and fat off of me and drop at least one pant size.  I still have 34 jeans, a whole drawer full of them. Haven't been in them in quite a while and was headed to size 36. That's when I said nope, we aren't doing that, I'm going to try lose this weight no matter how hard of a struggle it is. 

And yes, there are times I want sweets, I just either put it out of my mind or I have unsweetened tea and add monk fruit sweetener to it.  It's pretty good, actually, you can add enough that you don't even know you are drinking anything but sugar.  I did buy some Atkins chocolates, but I've only had one of them.  I think that stuff actually hinders progress by the sweetener they use in it.  I also saw that Walmart is now carrying a line of Duncan Hines Keto fudge brownies, cookies and such.  I need to find out what kind of sweetener they are using in it to determine whether I want anything to do with it.

Note that a disclaimer does, indeed say that it is not a low calorie food.  It's basically: I'm needing some sugar, I'm having some of this stuff, I'll just pick up the next day and move on. The point is that it doesn't throw you out of ketosis, or so it claims. Lots of these products are being made saying "KETO" or "Keto friendly" or similar verbiage, but you start reading the carb count or reading the ingredients label and you find that that isn't actually true.  Especially the ones that say "keto friendly" and you see it has almost 20 grams of carbs.  20 grams of carbs is an entire day's worth of carbs on strict keto.  

They might be able to claim it is "low carb" but they shouldn't be misrepresenting it as keto friendly.  And the price tag with such stuff....

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Many hours passed. Got into a cleaning mode and started going to town.  Not just the kitchen by my room, trash, etc.  There are no great plans for today beyond church, stop at the park and give a receipt to the new people, ask them if the dogs are still wandering around, etc.  Go out to eat as is weekly tradition - I have significantly cut back restaurant visits in a move to save money - but - I am not going to forgo my Sunday restaurant visits after church unless I'm working, of course.  If I don't do at least one weekend shift per pay period, my pay will be down that $450.  

As it stands, days off just seem to fly by.  Seems like a few hours ago it was Friday afternoon, I had just come home and was doing stuff around the house.  Now? It's still Sunday morning, yes, but it will disappear.  James off to work, Taylor off to her game event every Sunday, I will have the kids for several hours, but that's normal for a Sunday.  

There must be some movies I can watch on satellite...speaking of that, I plan on buying the entire series of old shows I like to watch, think Star Trek the next generation, The Big Valley, etc and get a large collection of movies that I like, mostly older stuff they are cheaper as well, build that collection up nicely and ditch the satellite. Tired of the ridiculous amount of money they charge, it's too much.  I'm getting cheap again, I guess, but I'm trying to save money, not dump it into the coffers of giant corporations who are, truthfully, overly greedy.  

I think satellite tv is doomed unless they decide to do something about their pricing tiers.  I wouldn't mind so much, but  for decades, BOTH companies have played the endless "let's agree on a price" game and almost immediately, within 3 months anyway, start ratcheting the price back up.  They come up with their excuses, I'm tired of hearing them.  I don't care what your excuse is, I can't just do that with my customers.  Every month: sorry, folks, but the lot rent just went up $15.  Take it or leave it. Most would probably give me a middle finger and tell me to stick it.  I wouldn't blame them, either.  

Well, it's almost time to leave for church.

G'day

 Friday - 7:45 am

Who knows what this other driver will do today.  He was actually late yesterday to the loading plant, I just didn't show up particularly early since I don't want to be subjected to this driver's antics.  The question is: when should I show up in Gurdon today? I've landed on 11:30 am, an hour and a half past his appointment time and see what happens.  I'll be the squeaky wheel with the manager about these drivers showing up late, repeatedly, until he either does something about it or he invites me to find employment elsewhere.

I don't really care which at this point.  Don't want to have to find another job, at the same time, this situation is insufferable.  The idea of giving these drivers early load times when he - the manager - knows they won't show up on time is ridiculous.  I know he knows because they all went through a list of drivers and when they typically show up.  As I say, they can show up as late as they want - on the second run.

I am not going to complain about not having to get up at 5:30 am, however.  That's the only good thing  about getting the second run.  

Paid today, it was around 2k, which is the minimum I want for take-home pay.  

If I wanted to make a case for getting rid of satellite tv, this is it right here. I have it on, trying to watch the news, was trying to watch an episode of Bar Rescue before that, but what is there in ample abundance for a service you pay through the nose for? Endless commercials.  Most of them are at least 3-1/2 minutes worth, that's on the low end of the scale.  I see them going on as much as 5 plus minutes.  In fact, I was trying to watch a movie I had recorded last night.

There was 4 minutes and 45 seconds of commercials every commercial break. The movie would play 5 minutes and then 4 - 45 of commercials, endlessly. It's why I usually just record shows and watch later: I can fast forward through all of the endless commercials about a drug that causes you to lose weight, but, wait!  It will also give you a stroke, heart attack, heart palpitations, seizures, headaches, etc.  You listen to the list of  potential side effects and you are left wondering why anyone would take such a thing with the possibility of death, even, as a result of having had taken that pill.  I've never quite understood why they are showing these ads anyway?  I guess to pressure your doctor to give you that particular pill?

Anyway, it seems I could just buy the entire series of shows I like and watch them at will on a DVD player and have much, much cheaper services showing me a few of the channels I "must have".  

I was looking at mortgage interest rates, they are more than double what I am paying on the cashout-refi.  And then housing prices are way up, a double whammy to anyone trying to buy a house.  Just lamenting the interest rates right now.  It makes buying anything unapealling.  

Mother is back in town, but only long enough to get supplies and go back up to her mountain property.  Apparently my oldest brother volunteered once again to take her up there to get away from the 4th of July and the effect it has on her dog.  Any excuse to get up there, I am sure. If I were living there and  retired I would certainly do the same thing for her.  You can't just take her up there, dump her off and say ok, I'll be back in 2 weeks. It's not that you can't leave her alone or that she doesn't stock up enough supplies to live off of, she's been doing that for decades.

It's the threat of forest fires that force the issue that a person must be mobile and can get out of there.  In the summer, AZ forests become bone dry and the fire danger always goes up to high, extremely high and severe ranges.  In fact, her property had burned decades ago before she bought it by a raging fire that would have killed anyone in it's path.  My brother's cabin is something like 7 miles down the road.  The other thing is, if there is a fire, they will shut down the roads leading up there, making a rescue effort impossible without being able to convince authorities that they either let you through or they go up and get the person themselves.  

On tap today is simply go up, unload, come back and then start the weekend.  The weekend off, that is.  I'm also expecting a reply from the LS dealer. I was told yesterday that the salesman wasn't in and he would be in tomorrow (now today) and he would contact me then, or, I could call.  I like stuff in writing, I said I'd be happy to wait.  It's one thing someone quotes you whatever over the phone, entirely another to have a person writing it out in an email and sending actual product quotes that you can't deny or try ot change the parameters at the last minute.  I've encountered enough salespeople that do that that it's prudent, imo, to get that stuff in writing. 

If the dealer in Alabama has the kinds of pricing advertised, I'd like to hope the dealer 2 states away (they are in Louisiana but near the state line) would have similar pricing.  

Have you been paying attention to all of these illegals killing people, especially innocent children?  "Migrants Charged In String Of Violent Crimes" is the headline I'm watching right now. Then show a pic of a 12 year old girl that was strangled by these human rodents.  Doesn't it seem extremely coincidental that all of a sudden, Democrats want to get "tough on crime" and enact inconsequential border bills that don't make a damned bit of difference?  These people have a huge invitation to come here, get cash, phones, medical, housing, transportation, food.  Free.  Just..free.   They always pull these tactics which sometimes sway enough uninformed and gullible voters to vote for them, then they switch back immediately to their "defund the police" and open borders.  You must be a racist and afraid of latinos if you are anti-open border stance.  

Yeah, whatever. That word salad gibberish isn't working on me. I'm not on board with progressive communist desires and agendas.  Call me all the names you want, I'm pro America, not pro change this nation into an elitist run, tyrannical driven  dictatorship where capitalism is rejected for the "common good". These stupid people don't understand that even communist theories run their models on top of capitalism, crushing it, but keeping it alive enough to keep any given economy running.  

Whatever.  I don't want to get started on all of that nonsense this morning, it's a beautiful day and I don't want to dwell on negativity.  I had a decent paycheck, I'm not broke, things are running relatively smoothly and life is good.  I have 7 plus hours of work to do and then an entire 2 full days off plus whatever will be left of this one.  I am contemplating going 2 towns over tomorrow to see the new Planet of the Apes movie.  I have always loved those movies starting when I was a little boy.  That franchise has been around for a long, long time.  The last one they put out I thought was good.  I saw a trailer of the new one and it also looks good, keeping in the theme of the franchise and carrying it to new possibilities.  

I don't know if I'll go, they were showing it in town here, I didn't get there in time to see it before they moved on to other movies.  The local theater here is cheap - $4.50 for matinee adult pricing.  The snack bar is as expensive as anywhere else, I'll take the cheap tickets any day, especially toting 3 children along with you.  They all want snacks, I just buy popcorn and a soda. The youngest didn't go last time because he demanded to have a child's "tray" that has all kinds of junk on it.  I just said, it's popcorn and soda. If you don't want it, that's up to you. He stayed home. Now he is "threatening"  not to go to church. That won't stop the older boy from going, at all.  He loves church and he has come to love Jesus.  He goes both for the playtime and the teachings. And the worship too, I forgot, they have their own worship service in the kids ministry room. 

I don't cave to 7 year old demands is the point.  I won't force anyone to go to church or try to manipulate them into going by offering them treats or whatever it is they are wanting.  They go because they want to.  It is, in fact, true that the ministry workers have to separate the 2 in the children's church because the younger starts "stuff" with the older and has authority issues.  Specifically, he doesn't like to be told what to do and will do what he pleases regardless of consequences.  I said that correctly: regardless of consequences.  

I'm guessing he'll change his mind about church, but who knows? He is way smarter than anyone knows about, he has plans when he does things like that. Mostly, it's about treats and can he badger his mom into giving him a treat just to get him out of her hair? He will just go and go and go on about treats until he either gets into trouble or someone caves and says ok, have a treat!  He isn't fat, it's just the idea of attempting to force anyone to cave in to his will. I flatly reject that premise and will resist that every .... single...time.  He doesn't like church as a whole anyway, he only likes the play time and the treat at the end, which I stopped letting him eat for when we go to eat lunch, he will just sit there and stare at everyone.  He won't eat.  

Since I am dieting, I will probably not go to Applebee's on Sunday after church, I will probably take the 2 older boys - the oldest is still visiting and assuming the youngest isn't going - to McDonald's, they can eat what they like and I will stick to my diet by eating at home.  Or, I can go someplace that serves wings, I can have maybe 4 or 5 of those on this diet and not ruin my ketosis status.  I won't tell them they are going to McDonald's, that will sway the youngest view on going to church. He needs to go to church because he wants to go to church, not because he gets some sort of prize at the end.  That's my view of it and I'm sticking with it.  

Anyway, it's getting close to departure time. I have decided to arrive around 11:30 and see what happens.  That would get me home around 3:30 pm. An hour offload plus scale in and out and driving time.  That's just a guess, even if the driver is long gone there are other factors that can make it take longer.  

G'day 

 Thursday - semi early

Another early load.  The first load driver showed up....5 minutes before I did.  When I got to the scales in Gurdon and went up to the window, the scalemaster said: "I have some bad news for you".  Oh, what is it? That other driver just left here 5 minutes ago.  Mind you, I was almost 2 hours beyond his appointment time.  I didn't get angry but I was definitely irritated. These people demand to get the first load times and then they squander it by showing up late? 2 days in a row. This dude showed up late to the washout the day before, I learned from the employees there. 

So, he lied to me at the plant in Lufkin.  He said he had been there "on time".  Whatever dude, if you don't want to show up on time or even early (as I always do), why do you so adamantly want this loading time?  I immediately contacted the manager.  I don't care what anyone thinks, this is bs and I'm calling these drivers out on it.  In the trucking industry, appointment times are sacred.  I know this from many, many years of trucking and having been turned away from being offloaded, through no fault of my own (usually dispatch putting on unrealistic appointment times because that's what the shipper or receiver wants) and put off sometimes for many, many hours.

"We'll get to you when we can".  Gulf Relay did that to me on every single load.  That dispatcher would dispatch me for the next load before I even had the current load off the truck. So, if there was a disruption in getting the truck unloaded when he "thought" it should done, then that set off the entire process.  I didn't last there long, I quit after a month and a half for a myriad of reasons, that being one of them.  That place sucked, quite frankly.  I wouldn't recommend anyone to work there, especially if you don't live there locally where their yards are at near Jackson, Mississippi. 

Anyway, if this stuff continues, I'm just going to tell the manager he can start giving me the first run all the time.  He probably won't like that or even agree to it, but that's where I'm at.  Get your s*** done on time or get the Freudian Slip out of my way (putting it nicely here, folks).  Where did these drivers (there is more than one of them that does this) get it into their heads that they can just show up whenever they please?  I put up with enough from this company, this situation is intolerable. 

So I have the late load again today, that's 2 in a row.  I best be getting at least 2 runs in a row that are first loads after this. Well, I do have first load on Monday next week.  Today and tomorrow is the last run of this week, I have the weekend off as agreed to when I ended up in Arkansas in front of the manager and discussing schedules.  He made it clear that drivers get a weekend off and a weekend on.  I force them to stick to that unless they have some sort of emergency going on.

There may be a 2 month emergency going on here pretty soon.  The driver trainer is starting his chemo therapy for his prostate and says they are giving him mild doses of it every day for 2 months straight. He has no idea how that will affect him (I suggested yesterday he Google it, I'm sure someone, somewhere has printed their story of their time going through it and how it physically and mentally affected them).  I may Google it myself out of curiosity.  He's a good guy, tho he's also one of those that shows up late every single time unless it's the second load.   

As far as I've ever seen it, anyone getting any kind of chemo treatment is basically getting an extended lease on life.  I'm not trying to sound cold about it, it's just the way I've seen it play out on many occasions. You get 10 extra years or so. That's just anecdotal.  I know chemo makes people feel like hell while they're going through it, which made me wonder about his plan to keep driving.  I'd be looking for ways to avoid work altogether.  This company at least has short and long term disability insurance you can (and I have) buy that is very inexpensive.  I've had that at every job for decades now, I thankfully haven't had to use it.  It only pays 50% of your income, but that's better than nothing.  He's in a rock and a hard place, tho, they just bought a second house and she, the wife, just lost her job.  The pressure is on him, yes, but life is "interfering" with that and sometimes, life takes precedence regardless of your particular situation.

I dunno, but the weekend looms and I'm looking forward to it. I have nothing in particular planned, that's the point. Nothingness.  I can deal with nothingness and doing whatever I please much better than constant this and that all day, every day.  Even a small RV park presents it's challenges and people will complain about something, tho those that have been around me for a bit know I won't tolerate bs. If it's legitimate, I'll deal with it but if it's petty or nothing at all?  Best approach me in the right way about it because if it's a harsh, demanding type of stance? I can dish it back and I have.  No one is going to get rude with me that is totally uncalled for.  Even if there is a situation where I might have been slacking or something, that still shouldn't trigger rudeness. Maybe if you've asked several times with no results...sort of like my dealings with satellite tv companies over the last couple plus decades.  

Oh, I'm thinking about getting rid of it. At least in this house.  It's a lot of money and I've started watching other stuff.  Hulu is one of the biggest ones I've been watching for different content I can't find on satellite tv.  I get so tired of them giving you a price and then, after a few months, they start jacking it up again. Then you have to call them and ask, why did you do that? They always have their excuses sitting in front of them on a computer screen and then I always ask them to put it back to what we agreed to. It goes back and forth and it gets old.  It's endless. 

Or the dumpster. They keep raising the price on that and I keep calling them, what the fractional felony is going on here?  Why are you continuously jacking up the price?  I've called around, there is no one else that does it. There is a company that does regular residential cans on my street, but for whatever reason, they don't and they won't do dumpster service.   There is a host of businesses that have agreed to switch over if someone would offer a cheaper service. Republic Services is way over-priced. Everyone else is at least a third lower in monthly rates than them.

I don't know how I got myself going like this this morning, time to chill out and enjoy a hot cup of coffee.  

And then there is this workamper.  I told him what I wanted done 2 days ago, but did he do it? No. He gave the excuse that "everything is too wet".  It rained for 4 minutes the previous day.  I didn't reply to him, this was on texting.  I had half a mind to just get out there and do it myself and he can then try to prove to me that it is too wet outside to mow grass.  No, it is not.  He may not want to do it, that's a different story entirely. I think this weekend I'm going to write out a list of things I want done and send it to him.  He's really not all there, tho.  There's something in his head where the elevator is definitely not making it to the top floor. Or even several floors below it.  You sit there and say something to him and it's a Biden look he gives back to you. Like, am I even existent? 

If he doesn't have it done by the time I get back today, I am doing it myself and then we're going to have to have a discussion as to whether I even need his services....

As for Keto...slow weight loss. A pound here, a pound there. Nothing significant but at least the scale is going down, not up.  It's day 11 and I've eaten zero sugary stuff, no pasta, no potatoes, etc.  I've followed it diligently.  I am in ketosis, I check that daily.  I don't really need to check it now, I just do for the motivational aspect.  I'll stick with it for the month and see the overall results.  I want 10 pounds off as in previous rounds of doing this diet or....nothing. I don't think most diets give 10 pounds per month results, or do they?  

I haven't even been thinking about a tractor for the most part the last several days.  I need one but I don't need high payments.  I have looked at various loans.  Heloc is 10.99% now that I've done more searching, that's the lowest rate I've seen, which in my view is extremely high when you're talking 15 or 30 year repayment plan.  I don't even know if I would qualify for that.  Creditkarma is showing me guaranteed personal loans the cheapest being it 16.99% if I recall correctly. Maybe one of them was in the 13% range.  The only versions of those loans that look good are the short repayment plans, the amount paid in interest is obviously going to be much lower than a 5 or longer year repayment plan. The payments, however, are pretty high.  

I'd actually just like to pay off the credit card debt and a personal loan that I have and replace it with one, lower, monthly payment.  

I'm mixed between getting something going now or waiting until interest rates finally start coming down.  The question is: how long will that take? 

Oh, well I sent off an email to a local dealer selling LS tractors.  This is equipment made in South Korea.  I've seen ads for dealers giving some pretty low monthly payments, which includes a backhoe.  Those dealers are not anywhere near me so I decided to find out what someone local might want, if it's in the same ball park.  This dealer is about 50 miles away.  If you're talking less than $300 per month and it includes a decent warranty, then yes, I would be interested.  

I got in on the low interest for that cash-out refi before interest rates skyrocketed for actions of the fed.  Now? I see younger generations blaming baby-boomers for holding on to their houses and not selling them, creating an "artificially" high price atmosphere where there isn't much housing inventory on the market, which is consequentially driving up prices.  Excuse me, but those low rates were available to anyone that had decent credit and either a decent down payment or if you already had something worth more than you owe as collateral.  I think it's the down payment department they can't get a hold of.  

I can understand that but you can't blame baby boomers. I wouldn't refinance my house right now, what would I get out of it? Nothing but a much higher monthly payment.  I mean, I guess I could refi-cashout, it would be a stupid move with ridiculously high interest rates.  People are looking to blame someone, somewhere, for everything that happens. Much like this TDS - Trump Derangement Syndrome - where 4 years later, Trump is still being blamed for rainy days and hot weather.  I think it will be a dark day for America if Biden wins a second term. 

He won't survive 4 more years, that is fairly obvious, so we will have a Harris presidency.  Biden is all about clean energy without having any plan in place to replace all of the generation plants that are being shut down all over the place.  He has created a war against natural gas - everything, including appliances sitting in your pantry or your kitchen or the heater closet.  He has created an open border where illegals know if they come here, they are going to be given cash, food, clothing, medical care and transportation to wherever in the US they want to go without any real possibility of them ever having to leave.  

We have a "cold civil war" going. That's what I would call it. There are distinct lines drawn and there are 2 sides.  Yes, I see it is one being evil and the other at least having some morals if not God involved with their view of things.  You see them accusing 2 SCOTUS justices of being compromised and needing removed from the bench.  You have a 2-tiered justice system that goes after Republicans but does nothing to democrats (for the most part unless they want something to "show"  that they aren't the way that they actually are) for doing the exact same things.  You have wokeness, DEI, transgenderism which is being completely shoved down our throats, thought police, word police, it's all evil.  Biden, who was going to "heal this nation", has done more to divide this nation than anyone can currently be blamed.  Couple that with that mouthpiece Pelosi.  A staunch Catholic who believes in "women's rights", read: abortion on demand.  Constantly denigration Trump, Trump supporters and the Republican party as a whole, I don't see any type of religion coming out of her mouth, at all.]

Have you heard that the term "cockpit" is now offensive?  I can tell ya, I won't be adhering to their nonsense.  If I am talking about the flight deck of a commercial airliner, it's also known as the cockpit and I don't have a problem calling it that, at all.  The pilot union denouncing the term is calling it "masculine generalizations". Have you noticed? They want men to become effeminate.  Manliness is a no-no in these deranged people's minds.  God made us man and woman.  Two distinct (and the only) genders with different roles.  

Let me get off of that train of thought.  I am just looking forward to the day when I can just work at my RV park or whatever it turns into and not have to do anything else. Still, I have resolved myself that realistically, Lord willing and I'm still alive, I will have to work until I am 65 so I can get Medicare and not have to pay a grand per month on health care coverage.  

I am seriously considering dividing the property into 2 pieces. The 7 acres up front and the rest of it out back.  Have a permanent easement down the main driveway giving me access and then, if something happens and I lose the park, I don't lose the 15 acres out back.  I would have to put the lease on the 15 acres as well, guaranteeing me access.  I don't know the legalities of it, but that's what I would really like to do. It's probably a pricey proposition, tho, hiring a lawyer to do all of that.  When I say "lose the park" I'm referring to sue-happy people that will find a way to take you to court and try to take everything you own.  I have the signage up that is required by the state for the law they enacted last year.  It states that there is limited liability for RV park owners against people who are engaging in normal activities in an RV park and these sue-happy people with get-rich quick and easy schemes. I have no idea how this new law will play out in the courts, sooner or later, if not already, some park owner is going to use it go get out of some lawsuit a person brings for them tripping over their own feet in the park and blaming the park for it.

Well, the time to leave here is fast-approaching.  Another day in a truck.  Late load, wondering if this dude is going to actually show up on time and get his stuff done.  If he is late again today, I'm going to "suggest" that I get early loads from now on.  At least up against the 2 other dedicated-run drivers.  If an OTR person shows up late, that is more acceptable.  Stuff happens. Getting up out of bed late and taking your sweet time is not a valid excuse.  The thing is, when he shows up to the Lufkin plant late? The plant just says screw it and they start loading their own trucks.  They want you there at 10:00 am or before, not after.  They have a day's worth of loading to do and they aren't going to wait around for you if you aren't going to be there on time.  

That will be my argument if this scenario doesn't change.  If it does change, I'll just eat these late loads and oh well.  I can't expect early load every time, it's just not reasonable with everyone else wanting them.

With that, I bid you a good day. 

 Tuesday - late afternoon

So I think I have this workamper straightened out.  I don't need him if he can do the work I have for him to do.  Do not mow around any vehicles. I don't care if it's only half mowed yard.  Just stay away from vehicles.  I repeated that 5 times and then asked him if he understood.  I don't want to treat him like he's a dolt, but please.  He actually did install the new parts for the riding mower today, another plus.  I need to put the deck back under the thing but at least the work is done. I removed the deck, he doesn't know how to put it back in and I don't really want him to do that anyway.  

He's been mowing everything I was mowing with the riding mower by hand.  So, it has all looked nice regardless, but maybe I can get more done out of him with the riding mower.  Maybe not, we'll see.  

The loading took much longer today than it needed to. The other driver was just backing into the hole when I pulled in there. Yes, he showed up on time, they admitted they hung him up.  It's another one of those ridiculous "we're preloading a trailer first" and it's in that spot that partially blocks us from getting in. We can still get in if the driver is good at backing, but it doesn't matter, there is only one loader that will do that.  So I waited for him to load and thankfully, the good loader dude showed up and got mine loaded quickly.  It's still almost 4:30 pm.

Tomorrow is more of the same, but we unload ourselves. The other driver was complaining that it took him 2 hours to offload.  I said yes, some of the product lately has been super cold and it always takes longer to offload.  The product thickens and it comes out of there slower. It's summer, it's hot, I understand why they are chilling it that cool, but we end up paying for it in terms of time.

I think I'll show up in Gurdon around 11:30 am tomorrow and hope the other driver is either done or getting close. I mean, it is what it is, if I have to wait I have to wait.  

I'm still planning on seeing my mom, btw, she's still up in the mountains. I'm assuming she'll stay up there as long as my oldest brother will stay up there. He loves it up there in his cabin, they planned this so I dunno when she's coming back. Probably not a minute sooner than she has to come back, I can say that.  I dunno how that's going to work out what with going to Galveston beach, but we're only staying there a couple of days.  Leave Saturday, come back Sunday. I'm taking the Monday off as well.  I find that vacations are usually energy intensive and by the time you are done, you are more worn out than if you had gone to work.  

I dunno about anything else.  I'm going to try to get the workamper to start clearing out the back land.  He doesn't have to do it overnight and he did offer to start working on it once the riding mower is finished.  I wouldn't mind renting a bobcat from somewhere and spending a day plowing sweetgum trees under and trying to clean it up. My problem is I don't typically get weekdays off.  Last week was a plus because the load was cancelled and I did, indeed, take advantage of it.  I'd like to get that all cleared out again and keep it cleared out until I can get things rolling.  I kind of have to decide whether I want to try to put some tiny houses back there because they need 100 amp service.  RV's only use 30 or 50 amp service and set up accordingly. 

 Tuesday - semi early

I didn't plan on waking up this early today, it just happened, I went to bed early enough last night that I ended up with over 7 hours of sleep anyway, so I just decided to get up and get moving.

I have a late load today, not the day off.  Manager called me yesterday asking what I "want to do" for work coming up, in other words, do I want to work the weekend? without actually asking it. He went immediately on to hinting about the load tomorrow (now today) and I said yes, it's in the tablet I know about it and plan on doing it.  Oh, ok, apparent relief in his voice.  I don't communicate with them about loads I'm doing because they don't communicate much of anything with me.

If they have a question, they are free to text or call.  They do - infrequently.  Mostly, one of the loads I have turned in on the useless tablet will not go through, even tho it says it went through, and they want me to "send it", as if I never had sent it.  No ma'am, I sent that a week ago.  Well, it didn't go through.  Ok.......

That is typical "communication".  I don't envy working in a trucking office, companies put those people under a lot of unwarranted stress.  It's constant this and that.  If it isn't something to do with paperwork, it's a broken down truck. An angry/upset customer (load didn't arrive on time or at all).  A driver calls in sick.  A situation arises where they need another truck and driver but there isn't one readily available, jumping through several hoops to try and arrange it.  It's not a job I would do, just not worth the constant aggravation.

However, those people sometimes get so stressed that they lash out at everyone.  

A newer tenant calls  yesterday, goes straight off on me.  "What's with the grass between the trailers?" apparently trying to intimidate me with a deep, gruff voice.  I had to control my mouth right off the bat, I don't take kindly to people with disrespectful tones right off the bat.  It ended up with "I'll get to it when I get to it".  He had me on speakerphone, I suspect there were tenants standing around egging it all on.  

We can have a face to face about it.  Because every last one of them can leave, I won't tolerate it.  I'll find more people to take their place. Might take a while, but it will happen.  I also told him he can mow his own grass if he so desires.  I was giving it back to him in a "respectful" manner.  I can find fault with every single person in there concerning their living habits in my park.  I don't do it because it is unproductive.  I don't go lording myself over people to do this and that unless it's a direct violation of rules that are intended to keep the place nice and safe.  

But....if someone is going to get in my face, it's going to get ugly.  

Let's move on from that.  People take ridiculous liberties with other people's boundaries and think nothing of it - until the table gets turned and you give them a dose of their own medicine.  I try not to go there for I don't really think it's Christ-like.  I've got my faults, I've been working on how I react to how other people treat me in very negative and frankly, abusive manners for some time now.  There is a line, however and once someone crosses it, I just let loose.  I was a welcome mat for many, many years, thinking that's how Christianity is supposed to be until it got to the point that I was being treated as if I were some kind of piece of machinery to be turned on and off at will.

What else.  Well, we're going to Galveston beach next month for a couple days of fun.  It's their annual vacation where the whole group goes off together to relax and play.  An AirBNB house is being rented to accommodate all 19 people.  Yes, you read that right: 19 people.  It's the group of ladies that met at a pre-school several years ago and started hanging out. It evolved into card nights, going out to eat nights, going to local event days, etc.  I didn't go last year for it was a "family only" thing as it was described to me, I just shrugged it off.  We went back a few weeks later as a single family thing.  

The only people that are "integral" to that group are the ladies, everyone else is expendable, lol.  I'm not dissing them, it's their group, I'm just along for the ride.  I don't mind a couple days on the beach tho, I love the ocean.  I don't like that beach as much as other beaches for the water is very warm and the life guards don't want you going out more than 200 feet.  "We can write you a ticket", a 16 year old lifeguard was telling me last time. There were no signs or any indication that there was some sort of limitation on distance. I was probably 600 feet out when I saw 2 of them frantically waving their arms. 

I wondered what they were doing, lol.  Couldn't hear them, didn't care.  I don't know what's going on when you're that far out. Sharks?  Nah, if there were sharks anywhere near the beach they would just shut the beach down.  Rip tides? Maybe, but the water isn't very deep.  Of course, it doesn't take deep water for a rip tide to carry you out to sea.  People don't understand how to get out of them, hence they end up - dead many times.  You don't try to fight it going straight back into the beach, you swim across it until you're out of it.  They show pics with overlaying red zone where a rip tide is and it really isn't that big, usually.  A few hundred feet across at most, maybe?  

Oh, the property. There was some discussion about using the back 15 acres to build a house.  I think it got a bit ..uncomfortable.  Not for me, I don't care either way. It would be nice to have one back there, not the end of my world if it never happens.  I'm not giving the property away, so that's sort of the point of discomfort. I wouldn't say contention so much, just, hmm, how is this going to work out?  There are other properties around and probably would work out better if they got their own.  It's just that property is expensive now and mine is in the school district they want to stay in, replete with buses going up and down the street.  

It's also right outside of town.  I mean, if someone took you to my property with a blindfold on and you had never been there and then took you down the driveway and to the rear of the property? You would have no idea that there is a city less than 2 miles away.  Well, even if you were exposed to the RV park. Oh, there is an RV park here. Walk you out to the road. You wouldn't see a city scape, you'd see a country set  up with cattle ranches and other things that delineate that it is out in the middle of nowhere.  

That's the appeal of it, at least for me.  That and the lack of noise.  I'm not pushing the idea. They are going to wait until next year to start the hunt for land.  The longer they wait, however, the higher the price of land will go.  I know from experience that once land prices get jacked up, they never come back down. That's what happened in AZ in the mountain properties where you are spending more than the cost of a house just to buy undeveloped land.  It's so high that it is out of reach for most people, you have to be semi-rich to buy the land and then build a cabin on it.  All the good properties are gone and have been gone for many years now.  

I get the idea tho: get out of the city, live out in the country, preferably in a wooded area.  I gave my suggestions. Any property you want to buy, make sure you walk the entire property first.  I found so many great properties, until I got Addler out and we started hiking and found the land under water, usually constantly under water. Useless property.  Then you have to think about water, septic and electricity.  If there is a water line nearby, sure, but even 100 feet away will cost you many thousands of dollars to have it extended.  And internet.  If there's no internet out there you are going to hate living there.  People are reliant on it now, it's just a fact of life. 

Keto. I lost 10 pounds, then up to 7, now to 8 gone.  I don't really think I've lost any fat, but then again, it's only been 9 days.  I'm sticking with it, cut out sugar and carbs almost altogether. Well, definitely no sugar regardless of the fact that there is all kinds of it laying around in various forms around the house.  Just cutting out sugar will likely make a person lose weight in and of itself.  

Tractor.  Just not in a rush to get into the wrong deal.  It's interest rates that I'm balking at.  Everything I've looked at is high.  Even a HELOC at 11.99%? For 30 years?  Are interest rates ever going to come back down? I'm sure they will - eventually.  You look at a loan and it shows how much you are borrowing and how much you will have to pay back. On Creditkarma, it breaks it down.  So, you borrow 31k and and end up paying 24k in interest plus the loan amount?  That's crazy.  

I wanted the park expanded in time for this Interstate construction project.  I just can't see getting into a loan that has that high of an interest rate.  Maybe if it's a short term loan and a smaller amount.  

Who knows.  I do know that this has gone on long enough.

G'day

 Monday - early

I have a few minutes to burn. 

A HELOC would cost me 11.99% for a 30 year term.  Which I consider to be extremely high interest rate for 30 years.  But then again, my credit isn't great and interest rates are high.

The consideration here would be to take out the maximum amount I can get, pay off all credit card debt, use what's left for a tractor and anything else that's left over for expansion purposes.  I actually think it would be lovely to have a tiny home community on the other portion of the land and ditch the RV park stuff.  Rentals are much more popular here.  I fight with keeping the place full and tho it doesn't bother me, I doubt it would be that much of a battle with units to rent. 

The down side of course is the expense.  BTW, that payment on the HELOC would be extremely high - but - if I pay off all credit card debt, that's the payment right there.  It wouldn't add anything to what I am currently paying out on a monthly basis. But, it would be a 30 year term. 

Two good things to come out of this if I could get that loan?  My credit score would soar into the heavens.  I have no late pays on anything at all.  It's just too much usage that's killing my score.  Second, would hopefully be the further expansion of the park regardless of what form that may take. 

With increased credit score by say, 100 points, we're talking access to better interest rates for whatever. I will add here, however, that every tractor dealer I have contacted is giving out zero interest loans.  They are just jacking up the prices of the machinery.  And yes, I have qualified at 2 of them for that rate, I just didn't like the monthly payment so I backed off of it. 

My  park is slowly getting filled with much longer-term tenants. Like, people that want to live there indefinitely.  I get one here and there, the rest are people that have aspirations of getting their own home, buying their own land, etc.  These retired folks, however, like it there.  Again, every new person that comes in there gives me this look and says: It's so quiet here at night!  They love it.  It's a major selling point. During the day, if you tune into it, you can hear the faint noise of I-20 in the background. At night, that noise almost completely disappears as traffic dies down to a minimum and more importantly, less trucks out there using engine brakes making all kinds of noise. 

I never realized how much noise engine brakes make and the disruption it can make on a community until I stood there, in the park, one day and just listened to it for a while.  It's the people that put straight pipes on their rigs, those are the main offenders.  There are no mufflers on those exhaust systems, they make an incredible amount of racket of which they designed it that way to make as much noise as possible. These people think it's funny to make all that noise and it's why you'll see signs when driving into cities/towns that say engine brakes prohibited. Mostly, these people do this stuff at night when people are trying to sleep and let them things rip.  

Anyway, I have plenty of thinking to do and at some point, decisions to make.  I've kind of talked myself out of a new tractor - not completely  but I just think a used machine would be a better idea that cuts the price more than in half.  

I also must get moving now that I'm looking at a clock. 5 minutes until departure time and I still have another cup of coffee to make, heat up a little more and dump into the thermos. 

G'day

 Sunday - early

Guess I haven't posted since Thursday .... it's just one thing after another in this lifestyle of 1 job that would be considered full time by most people (it's anywhere from 42 to 56 hours per week, sometimes more, definitely not anything less than that), running an RV park and just home life and other things that life has to offer.

The boys came home on Friday late afternoon, were home a couple of hours and then I took them to the church "Friday Fun Night", 2-1/2 hours of fun for kids worshipping the Lord first, then a pizza dinner then playing outside on the bounce houses and all the stuff they had for kids to do out there.  They told me it was over at 8, so I went there and then they said, no, it's over at 8:30.  Oh.  Church is only a couple of miles from the park, so I left to go collect money. Got into a discussion with people over some things going on at the park, collected rents and past dues (I have a few "needy" people, but they pay up at some point) and got back a few minutes late to get them.

It's Sunday and unfortunately I have to work today (versus going to church and just sleeping in).  The good news, at least for me, is that I slept very well last night.  I put that sleep tracker on most every night, sometimes I forget but I did not forget last night. The crowd was over playing cards, they all showed up late.  They asked if I was going to play but by the time they were starting, it was only 40 minutes til bedtime.  Going to bed, I thought, hmmm, wonder how this is going to work out with a house full of people?

Turned the fan setting on high on the AC unit, put in my ear plugs and can honestly say I haven't slept that well in a long time.  Even the sleep tracker had it in green (which is good) and had words of encouragement how wonderful it was!  It usually says "let's get you some better sleep" but nothing it suggests works, I've tried all that stuff years ago. I feel pretty good this morning even if I'm facing doing a chore I pretty much dislike: driving trucks. Especially on Sundays.  The washout is closed, you have to call them to come out. I call 20 minutes in advance and they still don't show up for another 20 minutes after that.

Then to the plant and it's a roll of the dice. There definitely aren't going to be many people working and if they already have a truck being loaded and it's one of the loaders that will only do one truck at a time? You're screwed, you'll have to wait.

So, last night (yes I'm wandering all over the place with this post) we went to see IF.  It stands for Imaginary Friends.  The 9 year old has been wanting to see it for quite a while now, they went off to grandma's and were there close to 3 weeks.  Coming back, the 9 year old brought it up again.  Pleeeeeaaaassssseeee.  I said I would after work "tomorrow", we had been discussing it on Friday to go see it on Saturday "If your parents don't have anything planned for you".  

The 7 year old tried to force me ahead of leaving to buy him candy or he wasn't going to go.  Sorry, 7 year olds are not going to dictate to me how it's going to go, so I flatly refused. You can have popcorn and a drink, the same as always.  He just asked his mom if he could stay home and I was good with that. Stay home, I don't really care. The other 2 went - it was their idea to begin with - and were quite happy that he wasn't going, actually.  

The movie is a real tear jerker, amazingly enough.  It's about a 12 year old girl who has "grown up" and "I'm not a kid anymore" she states several times over at the beginning of the movie, chiding her father who she had come to town for to be with him for an operation he needs done. One will guess that the parents are divorced, I never heard that part.  Then, the girl sees this cartoonish type character (this wasn't animated, thankfully) running where her dad lives in a sort of apartment style, old building.  Long story shorter, these characters are forgotten imaginary friends that they were assigned to when those people were kids, but grew up and forgot about the IF's.  She can can see them, but the only other people that can see if the IF's are the people that the IF's were assigned to.

Anyway, she tries to reassign them to other people, but it doesn't work, they can't see them.  Then, she figures out to put them IF's back with their former people.  And so, there are certain moments near the end where even the boys were teared up, wiping them off of their eyes.  I was surprised that kids that age would be crying at a movie.  The 12 year old gets a bunch of these IF's back with their original people, the people can see them and they have "magical moments" I guess you could call it of a reunion. I'm more into action/thrillers and yes even some horror movies, but this one was pretty good considering it's really a kids movie.  

Well, the tractor.  I've have been running the gamut in my brain trying to decide if I even need  a tractor, which I really do, but do I really need all of the implements that I want for it? The answer is yes, but do I have to have all of them right off the bat? The answer is not necessarily, I can still rent a mini-ex if I have to.  Do I have to have a brand new tractor? That answer has always been no, I'm perfectly fine with an older machine as long as everything works and it runs well.  So, trying to figure out if I can find some kind of financing for it without the payments breaking the bank.  

I found a personal loan at 13.99%, which I consider high, but it's better than other stuff at 27% and going higher.  We're talking credit card territory with interest rates that high. 

Blah. It's time to leave.  Get back to this later...

G'day

 I'm done. No, make that well done. Toasted, fried, over-cooked, had enough and quit after about 7-1/2 hours of tractor use.  They allow you 8.  Whatever, I just had had enough.

Up and down the driveway endless times, and this time a new strategy: take some of the gravel at the far end of the driveway that is never driven over and is thick and put it in the pothole areas up front.  I don't know how many times I went back there and box-bladed gravel into a pile and then scooped it up with the bucket.  Many, many times, I can say that.   

Near the end, I decided I'd give the walking trails a once over.  That was a mistake, sort of.  Going down the west side and cleaning that out was relatively easy and the dude that likes to ride his bike through there had cleared out the felled trees.

It's the east side where I got into trouble.  First was the creek where you just enter the trail head.  Have to go over it, I almost got stuck. Actually, I did get stuck momentarily.  It's like a giant V and down at the bottom is mud.  But, rocking the tractor back and forth it came out.  Then I came up on the giant tree.  It had finally fallen off of the trunk that is still in the ground where it busted off. Pushed that out of the way rather easily. Then around and back to the creek where I would have to cross again.  

I got to the creek and thought, this doesn't look good. I thought about going back, but that wasn't great either. So I plowed into it and yes, got the thing stuck.  My mind started racing, how am I going to get this thing out of here?  Well, looking at it, it appeared that just digging out one tire would do it. Off to the shed to get the shovel, put on boots and come back. 

Dug it out, got on the machine, moved a little but nothing.  I had completely forgotten about the trick you use to get a machine like that unstuck, but it came back to me after also thinking about having to get some kind of equipment down there to pull the thing out.  You simply use the bucket to lift the whole front end of the machine up.  I could have kicked myself for not thinking of that in the first place.  

So, I pushed the bucket down, the whole front end lifted and then I curled the back back towards the machine, which pulled it forward.  One more time of that and the thing busted free.  That was a sigh of relief.  But I was toast after that. It's in the 90's today and tho not terribly hot, or at least I didn't think so, it was hot enough to drain me.  

I took the machine back to the trailer, drove it up on there, drove to the fuel station to refill it (they charge you $80 if you don't top it off when you bring it back, high motivation to fill it up considering for all the time I used it, it didn't even use 5 gallons of diesel fuel) and back to the shop.  They had let me take the thing without paying for it first, which is unheard for that place. But, it's because they wanted to charge me 3% to use a debit card and I said, dang, that's like $11 just to pay for it. Well, do you want to go to the bank and get cash? Thought about that and said no, I'll just pay for it with the card. The manager walked in and said, meh, you've been in here so many times, you can just bring cash back with you tomorrow.

Wow, that was amazing.  They're pretty hard-nosed about their rules there. I can understand why I just never thought there was any wiggle room with them.  Well, it was just over $300.  The $400 the charge you up front is the $80 fee if you don't fill it up, they give it back to you when you return the machine.  

I can swallow $300 a little easier than $400 plus per use.  

Well, I got those trails cleaned up, btw, it is passable now whereas before there was a very narrow trail where the dude had been riding his cycle.  I was happy to get that done and it only took maybe an hour.  

I'm just plain tired now and I have no plans for the rest of the day.  The driveway was continually on my mind, just couldn't shake it.  It was in truly horrible condition and tho this tractor can't make it perfect, it's 100% better than what it was. I've fairly well blown off the idea of buying a tractor, at least for now.  I want to clean up the land on both side of the RV park, that's going to take a different piece of machinery and it's going to have to come from somewhere else for that place doesn't allow you to use their machinery in brush like that. 

Okay, I'm just wishy-washy on this tractor purchase idea.  Just don't want to get into $500 plus per month payments right now.  

Whatever, I'm hungry, had a piece of toast with a little cream cheese on it for breakfast. All keto friendly and yes, I'm back into ketosis. Just need a bit more food than that to tide me over until dinner.  

 Thursday

Well for a day off, it's awfully early

No choice in the matter, to get my money's worth out of that machine, I had to get up early to make sure I get the full 8 hours out of it.  There is a rather large area where I'm going to have to find gravel somewhere else, scrape it up and fill in that area.  Although a lot of it is because of the constant water that runs over the driveway when it rains, some of it is people and doing things in vehicles. 

Final day of kid free house.  It's been quite a while since any of them have shadowed the door frames of our bedroom doors and no one - well besides the kids - is complaining.  It's nice to get a break from that, it is constant this, that and the other thing having children around of that age.  Tomorrow, I'll go to work, get home around 1:00-2:00ish and then they will be arriving shortly after that.  

I could get used to not having to get into a truck, 2 days off was nice, especially during the week.  

I am at a dead end with this tractor business.  I don't really want to get into that much debt what with the debt I already have.  It's a conundrum.  The machines this local rental company has to offer, they don't allow you to get out in the brush to start clearing out land.  They are adamant about it to the point of getting very sour with you if you even bring the subject up.  I would guess that some people have abused the machinery.  But that's what that type of machinery is built for.....

To get anything over there  that would do the job, I would have to have a machine delivered and pay a lot more money for it.  

The fat burning diet is already at a stall?  I don't know, lol, the strip didn't show much of anything this morning whereas it was showing slight purple yesterday.  I ate maybe 15 carbs yesterday.   I'm also watching calorie consumption and only had 2 meals. 1 was a single sandwich with a salad the other was chicken with some seasoning (completely carb free) and a salad with some fixing that ramped up the carb count - by maybe 3 or 4 carbs.  IN fact, I didn't even eat 15 carbs worth, more like 10.  Well below the maximum of 20. 

No matter, I suppose, the body will shed weight on a caloric deficit regardless.  

Well it's time to get out of here and get this show on the road. This time, I'm using ear plugs. That machine scraping along that driveway?  Pretty high on the decibel range. 

G'day

 I just couldn't do it, at least not yet.  

I went to the Kubota dealer after going to the TYM place.  I never even got started with TYM. I walked in there, a man walked in after me, they went immediately to dealing with him and completely ignored me. Hi, how are you doing!  To that other guy that is.  I just stood there thinking, well, I can wait even tho this guy just cut right in front of me.  I'm trying to do better in life beyond just going off on everyone. The temptation was there, instead, I just stood there looking at all of these employees in this place, there were a lot of them, wooing this customer and then going back to whatever they had been doing.  

I took all of that in for a minute, just standing there, the man behind the counter glanced at me, 2 other employees did the same but I didn't even get a hello, or how may we help you?  I said nothing the entire time in there, at this point, it was a test to see how I might be treated in the future and yes, I did have a smile on my face, possibly forced but I wasn't frowning.  I decided that this isn't the way I want to be treated, turned around and walked out without speaking a single word to any of these people.  

I then drove to the tire shop where I got the new tires, horrible vibration from both the front and rear, I assumed they didn't balance them very well, that or defective tires.  They balanced them again and then I headed off to Longview.  No more vibration, so that was good.  Had a sit down with the Kubota salesman, pleasant conversation but the end of the story?  38k at $539 per month, 96 months (8 years).  That's a good long time to be forking out that kind of money for a machine you hope but certainly don't know will last that long.  Interest free, too, I shudder to think what the payments would be with interest. 

No, I got up and left there as well, tho not in bad terms, I told the man I would have to think about it and look at my finances.  I've never even spent that kind of money on a personal vehicle.  I just don't know that I want to get into payments that high for that long.  I could bring the payments down by eliminating the backhoe attachment, but then I wouldn't be happy.  Like, I'm spending all of this money on this thing and I don't even have everything I need?

I went out into the parking lot, called the rental place, asked if their tractor was available? Yes, ok, I'm heading that way, got there, loaded it up and started work on the driveway. That driveway is in even worse condition than I thought, it really needs a dozer or a grader, neither of which I have access to and certainly, the rental place doesn't even have such equipment. 

I probably went over the worst of the areas 30--40 times but also was going up and down the entire 800 foot stretch of driveway that is used by the RV park.  I spent 2-1/2 hours on it before quitting.  I was getting hot, it was getting late and I have the thing until 2:30 tomorrow.  They allow 8 hours per 24 hour period.  I intend on getting my 8 hours out of it.  I'll just go over and over and over it until it's either smooth or I just don't have any more time.  I did get it better, but there's still a lot to go.

I ate a sandwich and a salad earlier and that tided me over until dinner.  The folks were on their way out to a local pizzeria when I got home, no thanks.  I wasn't even tempted, tbh.  I still had roasted chicken left over from yesterday, heated a bunch of that up, made a bit better salad than yesterday, chomped that down and in a while, my dessert will be keto break with cream cheese and sugar free strawberry preserves.  I need something to put the sugar desires in check.  It's the best I can do without buying expensive treats that are filled with chemicals.  There are recipes for stuff that I will look into at some point, just not now . 

Manager called me today asking if I was okay with the weekend schedule?  I thought, no, not at all, I said, well I had last weekend off so I figured I'd go with the flow and do the weekend.