Saturday, April 17, 2010

Saturday

I believe I have finally decided where to put those ponds. When all is said and done, it should look nice - like in about 6 months, lol. I am not normally in a huge hurry when I get started on these kinds of projects - first because I like to take my time and make sure things are done right the first time and second because usually, projects take money. I am a pay as I go type of project worker. In this case, acquire the ponds, figure out where to put them, install them and then move onto the next need, which would be a bio filter and pump. Oh, and a waterfall as well to aerate the water. Part 2 will be more expensive than the ponds. That may take a while.

Meanwhile, I am doing my normal Craigslist thing in looking for another roommate by writing up a new ad every day - sometimes I'll write up 2 ads at different times of the day and delete older ads. Some people will not go through too many of the ads that are on there in looking for a room to rent. There are literally hundreds of them posted every day. I have found in the past that some of the people that moved in here found my ad near the top and I was one of the first or THE first ad that they responded to.

Umm, unfortunately, I have yet to receive a single reply to, so far, 3 ads I have posted plus the one I just posted a few minutes ago. THAT - is odd. Interlude. No more than I wrote the preceding sentence and a man calls. He's a paramedic with "Con Air". I laughed loudly - he works for the U.S. Marshall's office and flies all over the place taking care of prisoners. Proves my point to myself if no-one else: people see the first ad they find that looks appealing and look no further. He is - allegedly - coming over this afternoon.

Onto other things. Arizona passed the legislation - it will soon be legal to carry a concealed weapon in the state of Arizona WITHOUT a permit. Good - and bad. I think there are people out there that REALLY need to go through some training before they start carrying around a loaded 9 millimeter and considering the thought of actually shooting someone at whatever point in time when their life is threatened. REALLY, a person should know without hesitation the laws concerning such and when it is allowable to fire on a person and in what situations it is NOT allowable.

I do know that if you happen to come along on someone that is raping someone else, for example, that person committing the act? You can shoot that sucker. But, I don't claim to know all the situations where you might be able to fire upon a person and where you should NOT.

Well, today's farings, or at least this morning, is to go into the now empty room and clean it. It isn't dirty, really, but that guy was using the vacuum cleaner in there, which is nice, but he didn't empty the already full canister, which is not-so-nice. Means I have to take the vacuum cleaner apart, clean out the undoubtedly-now-clogged ports to get it to work again. I figure to head up to the store here pretty quick and get some of the stuff you sprinkle onto the carpet to make it smell fresh/nice. Of course, I could get the carpet cleaning machine out and do a nice little leaning of the traffic areas in there as well. Dunno, it's still early and I am still drinking my morning coffee.

I also want to keep on plugging away at this drip watering system. Everytime I think I'm just about done, I realize I still have a bunch of other things to deal with.

I am not sure whether I will start on the ponds today - or even this weekend. Probably will start the digging process tomorrow, just not sure how motivated I am to do that while I have this tenancy issue going on. It kind of consumes me - getting a room rented - until it actually is rented and I have money in-hand.

Well, I'm off to read the news and see what kind of nonsense is going on in this world today.

G'day.

Ben

Friday, April 16, 2010

Friday

So, here we go again, the relentless search for a roommate until I find one. I won't be going anywhere this weekend, that's a fact.

Well I just blew most of my pre-work time in writing up another Craigslist ad. That takes precedence over writing entries. I didn't even get to look at much of the news!! Waaaaaah!!

Lol.

Well, anyway, it's Friday, the end of the work week is almost here, bummer that there isn't any work in the truck routing system, hope something comes up soon that will take that problem away.

Anyway, have to cut this short, have a great day!
ben

Thursday, April 15, 2010

No Advance Notice

So, I go to Caleb's award ceremony. All the JROTC cadets were there, a lot of them. Caleb got a couple of awards - I think he did not get what he was hoping to in terms of authority command for next year. Can't help him there, those people running the show don't ask for parents opinion and - they shouldn't anyway. He is in a position of some authority now, I do imagine he will be promoted, just not to the level he wanted. He's a good kid, big heart, don't know about his future, that's up to him, God's will and how motivated he is to follow through.

So, it was pretty cool ceremony. I get home, there is a pickup truck parking in the street in front of my house, partially blocking my parking space. The tailgate is open, there are Tupperware style storage tubs in the bed. It came to me right then that the dude that is behind in rent is moving out. No fore-notice, nothing. I started to get upset. This guy gets a job and then moves out, owing me money and not even giving me at least a few days notice? I also started getting mad at the dude in the pickup who wasn't moving his vehicle to let me back in.

One of my failings in life is a sometimes-short temper. I can get REALLY mad, REALLY fast when I am being shafted or dissed. Not exactly the traits of a "real" Christian, well, we all have our failings, short-comings and whatever else. I sometimes get visions of beating people to a bloody pulp. Just beat them until they are not conscious and won't be for a while. Break some ribs, knock some teeth out, maybe break an arm. Bad stuff, yes.

But, I never act out on those feelings and they don't last long as I battle against them until it subsides. I will NOT act out on that junk, but I have had to deal with it my entire life. I gave into it when I was a teen, most people never believe the things I did to people, cars, houses, whatever I felt like during that time frame. I don't much care to talk about it, either. I have written it all out in the past, but that was on JS and all of that is permanently gone. I may write it out again - on another, mostly unused, journal as I take no pride in my past and it haunts me to this day.

I have had people talking trash to me to the point that I had to relinquish my "normal" mind, ie: blank stare, and deal with what's going on in my head that seems to be going all over my body. The desire to just punch the person's head a few times, knock him down and be done with it.

Look, I am always wanting to be honest on my journals. But I want to state here that I have NEVER had such desires against any woman/lady/female beast. I wasn't brought up that way. I will just walk away from it. But dudes talking s*** to me? No. That's all it is: no. No thanks and I am not going to stand there and listen to it. I don't go looking for trouble in the physical, hurting type ever. I do pick my battles against corporations, but always on a professional level.

I have totally digressed here. I come into the house - 3 teenagers in the living room, not an unusual thing to see here, I ask them what's going on. "That guy in that room (telling me the room it is ) is moving stuff out of there". I knew it was that guy. He got a job - he claims anyway - but it didn't pan out. Well, whatever. "Why didn't you at least give me notice?". I listened to a well thought out answer - undoubtedly a rehearsed thing he had been going over in his mind. I had thoughts of telling him how I feel about it, I bit my lip. Just get your stuff and get out, I thought, I didn't say much of anything. He is to be out of here by tomorrow.

I am going to let it go, just get him out of here and find someone that has enough money - and a job - to take his place. I have already posted another ad on Craigslist. I have let several of these things go in the past - it isn't worth going after them for the most part, just get them out of here and get someone else.

It's very late for me. I couldn't just go to sleep - that ceremony went on for hours and took me all the way til' my bedtime by the time I got home. No big deal - maybe it will help me sleep through the night. 6 hours of sleep is the same no matter how you get it.

Umm, ending this one, time for bed.

G'nite.

ben

More

Unbelievable that this work week is almost over already. This one flew by - I was very busy today and yesterday. Unfortunately, there is nothing in the truck routing system for tomorrow, but I am always optimistic that something might be dumped in there - the inside sales guys work much later than I do (a dream that I could get my hours back). I still have 3 coolers to work on at our branch if nothing comes up, though, which would take a good portion of the day to put the new pads in and clean out the units.

Caleb - my son - called me earlier asking if I am coming to the awards ceremony. What awards ceremony? I think it's for JROTC - he isn't sure whether he's getting one, but he wants me to come. I am not a big fan of anything that has to occur in the evening on a weeknight - not at all, but I'll go for his sake if nothing else.

I already took a rather long, afternoon siesta. I usually try to make up for the night before's lack of sleep - at this point anyway, I didn't used to - after I get home from work. Still 2 and half hours until I have to be at his school, so I am going to go outside in a few minutes here and take yet another look at this pond situation. I have not made up my mind where I want it for sure, but the place I am looking at would entail moving one of my sissoos. It is one that was planted just before winter last year - it is still small and should be easy enough to dig up and transplant if that's where the final stamp of approval dictates it to be.

I'm "eagerly" waiting for some dough to come my way. The newest tenant should be paying me tomorrow - it's the dude that just got another job a few plus weeks ago that's up in the air. I NEED the money from him and soon. $200 now and the rest in a few more weeks would work for me.....I have not seem him in several days (which is normal for him) so I don't know. No, he really couldn't move out of here without my knowing about it - ie: taking off and leave me hanging (though if this goes on much longer, I will force the issue with him anyway) - he has FAR too much stuff in there. Took his friends the better part of a day on several trips to get it all over here.

Nothing much else. I totally forgot to go to the doc's office and get that scrip today - I ain't going now. Not with having to go to Caleb's ceremony this evening, plus doing laundry right now plus a visit to the great outdoors - the east side of my house to be precise. I read about a "biologial filter" that everyone says you pretty much have to have if you want clear ponds, those things are EXPENSIVE. But, in my "cheap" style of trying to get great results for as little money as possible, I found several sites that show you how to make your own. One of them is using a plastic tub (already have several of those), a large amount of cheap sponges (dollar store stuff) and a small pump. So, for 30 or 40 bucks, I can do what they want MUCH more for at Home Depot or whatnot.

Having settled on doing that - though not even thinking about actually doing it yet - no need to until the ponds are in and I am ready to put water into them - I am now looking at trying to find a small waterfall. Apparently a necessary item to keep the water aerated and also help cool the water in the summer months.

I have also been reading from various sites of people in the Phoenix area who have these ponds with fish in them year round - apparently they can take the heat as long as you take the necessary steps to keep them as cool as possible. BTW, the fish are pretty cheap, so are the plants. Plenty of people are raising fish in their ponds and selling them at great prices and also pond plants.

I still need to see a lot more pics of different set-ups before I make any decisions on how my finished product will look. In fact, I am going to email some people on Craigslist and ask them for advice as well as all the searching for sites on the web for info. I would like to ask people around here how they deal, specifically, with heat issues, I don't think fish really like hot or even warm water, but I really don't know.

Anyway, the great outdoors is calling my name, I must respond!
ben

Thursday

Not to be a proliferator of doom and gloom, but the big headline this morning was: Foreclosure Rates Surge, Biggest Jump in 5 Years and that the banks are on track of taking back 1,000,000 homes this year alone. That's unbelievable. 1 in every 138 homes received a foreclosure notice.

Look, I wish the economy to get better and soon, but I don't see how that's possible with all of this stuff still going on.

Whatever the case, there ARE ways people can save their homes, they just don't want to do it. All well and fine, but still, if you lose your home and don't exhaust your options, I don't want to hear about it. Not to be cold, but this foreclosure business is what started the tanking of the U.S. economy to begin with. It had a cascading effect that started affecting industries that catered to the building of new homes and it spread out from there.

Just because everyone else is doing it does not make it right. If you CAN'T make your payment and have tried everything, then great. I know I'm struggling - greatly - but I'm still there. As I have said before, I will move out of my master bedroom and into a TENT out back if I have to, renting out that room with it's own bathroom and walk-in closet for $500 minimum per month and - not be happy about it, but still have my place. Alright, no tent. A wood structure, about 15X15 with it's own facilities.

You don't think I would do that? Lol. You don't know me. Simply because I don't want to go under again, ever again, in my lifetime, I am willing to go to great lengths to try and keep what I have. Going under means going bankrupt, avoiding that at ALL costs is worth doing whatever I can to make it through. Which reminds me, I keep forgetting to send out that letter requesting a reduction in the loan to reflect the value of the home to my lender. I have a great excuse, though: yesterday was that physical and my mind was not going anywhere else until I got that nonsense OVER with, thank you very much. Physicals are a good thing to do, especially when you break the 40 mark, but it ain't no fun.

I'm sure somebody wants to slam me for my statements about walking from a house. Don't care, really. People got into loans that they knew they would not be able to afford with the interest rate was going to adjust in 5 years or whatever on those ARM's. People expected the housing market to continually go up. Buy a house, wait for it to increase in value, sell it, start over. People were doing that, great - but - as we all now see - it can't go on forever. I have no expectation that I will be able to sell my home for a long, long time. That's because the mortgage is higher than the market value. Which is why I am continuing on with projects. Might as well do what I can to make it a very sellable place whenever that magical day appears when I can get out of it.

Oh yes, I could walk like everyone else is doing - and if I were FORCED to, ie: lose my job and simply have no means to make the payments - then I would. But, I have an ethical problem with walking, dumping it onto the bank and making them pay for it when I still have options open to stay in it.

Anyway, the work day is here and I must be offa here.

G'day.
ben

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

That Deserves A Drink

Oh, yes, it does.
I went to the doctor for my annual physical today.
Thank God it's only once a year, because I have serious doubts that I would be able to handle anymore of it than once.
Now ladies, I am WELL aware of what gynecologists put you through. I was married 16 years, I DO have a clue in this department.

However. I still don't think that having a doc sitting there, telling you to bend over, him putting on rubber glove and KY jelly and sticking it up your @$$ is somehow "better" than the clamp ordeal you have to go through. I don't care as much that he has to look at my nuts and determine whether I have a hernia or not - it isn't intrusive, not NEAR-SO as the finger test.

Well, that unpleasantry is over, the "results" were good. There were 2 things the doc was concerned about. First, my cholesterol. BUT, when he started looking at the results, he said it wasn't as bad as he had first thought. My GOOD cholesterol is WAY higher than the average person. My bad is like 30 points higher.

Then he said my kidney "levels" -whatever that means - were slightly higher than the last time they did bloodwork - which was about a year and a half ago. So, I have to start taking this cholesterol medication and I have to go back in 6 or see weeks and give more blood. They will check for any continued rise in whatever level they are looking at for the kidneys. My heart is still pumping, my blood pressure is good, my liver is good, I don't have diabetes - a whole list of things they apparently start looking at as you hit certain age levels.

Well - it's OVER. I am not dying, yet (we all have to do that one day, I just hope my appointment isn't terribly soon and that I stay in good or at least reasonably good health until then), the trauma of the finger test is wearing off - neither he nor I are gay so there is nothing sexual to be derived out of such a thing - but to make it wear off faster, I have given myself permission to have a drink - or two. Grin and bear it, that's what I tell myself cause' I am always trying to talk myself out of going to these physicals which are totally voluntary and self-imposed.

But, I always think, I am getting older - if there is something wrong, I want to know about it early because medicine has improved so much over the last 2 or 3 decades that early detection of many things can mean the difference between life and death.

Doc did tell me - in a nice way - that I should cut back on red meats. Well, I eat a LOT of chicken, I like chicken but I absolutely LOVE steak! I don't eat it often, though. I admitted all my junk - I smoke a cigar here and there and I drink beers here and there.

It's over, I keep telling myself, but I have to say that this kind of thing I find to be very unsettling. Call me a wimp, but any guy that has had a finger up his @$$ knows what I am talking about. They don't even start doing that until you're 40, so you are given a LONG pass on that. Then, every year, you have to endure such. I think after age 50 they then want to start sticking some camera device WAY up in there and looking at 'things'. LOL.

Onto other things, thank you. I take a quick look at my ponds this afternoon when I got home from work - which I left work early because there wasn't anything else to do in deliveries, I wanted to take a short nap before going to the doc's office and I am over hours for this week. Or last, who knows, the thing shows all the hours from the start of the pay period which started last week. I just keep track of total hours, make sure I am getting all of what I can get, but also making sure I don't go over.

So, pretty quick here, I am headed out there to try to start to form a plan in my mind - how I want this whole setup to look after I am done with it. This is really going to take some pre-planning. I will try to come up with where I want these ponds to be before this weekend so I can start working on it. The digging will be a pain in the rear, no doubt, but - it's great exercise and I know the end result will definitely be worth the effort put into it. Still, I have alot to learn about these ponds and I am reading crazily all kinds of sites that have all kinds of info.

In fact, that sounds like a great idea. Take my drink out there, sit down in a chair, look at the pre-formed pond liners and attempt to figure out how I want to do all of this.

Later.

ben

Wednesday

Well, I'm finding that my newest adventure - a pond - has all KINDS of information about it on the net. I guess the hardest part about a pond is actually installing the thing, or so they say.

Considering the rock-filled dirt on my property, I would say that would be correct!
Well, anyway, I'll undoubtedly be writing about the fun, the pain and the pain in the @$$ stuff I will endure in getting this thing put in the ground and up and running. And, I am quite sure, it will be a while before I actually have anything living in it as there are a few things I have to have before that is going to occur, including aeration/waterfall system to keep the water full of oxygen and a pump/filtration system. I have seen these things pretty cheap on CL, but right now? I'll just get the thing in the ground first, that will take some time, then think about the other stuff.

News: Stricter abortion laws enacted in Nebraska - I'm all for it. In fact, I am all for doing away with abortions completely except where the mother's life is at risk, then it's the mother's choice who lives and who dies.
Arizona - enacts the toughest immigration bill yet. I'm ALL for that as well. I read the story, not going into it here, you can find it on the news outlets. I'm still waiting to see whether this concealed carry without permit thing is going to go through.

Another plane crash. Seems like the Airbus A300 and like are having a rough go in recent times, doncha think? However, this crash sounds like they are saying it may be pilot error? Don't know yet, it'll come out sooner or later.

And yet ANOTHER earth quake. These quakes coming all over the world? Sign of the times referring to Biblical proportions? You know, like the end? Dunno that, either, I'm not God. Just interesting to watch all of this going on.

Old news: the foreclosure plan of Obama to save homes basically isn't working and a relative handful of people have actually been able to successfully negotiate a loan modification (and I can say, thankfully, I am one of those people and didn't even have to have a "company" do it for me!). 6 million families are at least 2 months behind in payments and allegedly 200,000 families receive foreclosure notices EVERY month.

Lots of turmoil in the world. I only know one thing right now: work day approaches and I must get signed in and be about the business of the company I work for : )

G'day.

ben

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

My Pond

I was going to call it a Koi pond, but those ponds apparently need to be at least 3 feet deep - I don't think either of these ponds are that deep, haven't measured them yet, apparently goldfish and other such can survive in shallower, no big deal.

The offer was too good to pass up. 2 ponds, about 300 gallons total worth of water.

This will be a long project, probably, because there are several things you have to buy first before putting a single drop of water into them. A pump/filter system being the first and foremost. I have started reading about installing the ponds and about what the ponds need to thrive and survive.

My drip system project is almost done. I have the east and south side of the house left to run - and that is halfway there.

This is actually exciting for me - my current projects are running out of steam - not much left to do - and I have several things I still want to get done out there. Since I am pretty much "stuck" in this house for an undetermined period of time, but guessing at least 5 years, I am going to continue with projects as I can afford to do them.

Speaking of water, I found out today that I can run more than one station at a time. I hadn't even thought of the possibility, but didn't do the math, either. A station using 25 psi on a main water system that is around 75 psi should be able to sustain 2 of them going at the same time, thereby reducing my time spent out there making sure everything is going as needed. I had already watered a station before trying that or I would have tried 3 stations at the same time, thereby effectively watering almost the entire property at one, fell swoop.

I will not just turn these things on and go into the house. If I wanted to do that, I would have a timer on them and let them do their thing. The heat that is coming dictates to me to make sure I supervise the watering. I don't mind doing that, even in the heat. When it's that hot, the plants need the daily watering and if one of the emitters isn't working, depending on the plant, good possibility it could whither and die.

And on the heat note, I am glad to have these ponds NOW - it is still nice enough outside to make the digging not so terribly unbearable. My only concern is what to do with the dirt? I have a thought on that, but haven't even got there yet - this weekend I will be starting on the digging project and what to do with the excess dirt.

The digging will totally suck. Prepare myself now. The dirt in my yard is full of rocks, it makes digging by hand an experience. It is GREAT exercise, though, so maybe not so bad.

On a different note, I am seriouslyu thinking about getting back into a gym. Summer is coming and though I am doing some roller-blading here and there, it is not enough. I don't need a lot of motivation - if I'm around people doing the same thing - working out that is - that is enough for me. I would love to have some "personal" music to work out to - but - everything costs money. I'm talking about an ipod - an mp3 player work just as well. I think I am READY to start working out in a gym again. A gym has the specific equipment I am looking for to work on certain muscle groups and also specific aerobic equipment that also gives me what I am looking for.

Not there yet. The cost isn't GREAT, but it would be another drain on my finances. One consolation would be that the place I am thinking about going to has no contracts. Sign up, pay the registration fee, yes, but then it's month to month. It is also on the way home from work - do it then or I won't be doing it.

It should be no surprise to anyone if I come on here and start talking about my daily workouts. An hour a day - that's all I need to do at least 4 days a week. I'm giving it thought, that's all I can say for now. I would love to get back into the condition where I could ride a bicycle clear to work and back every day.

Have to see about that. It's a commitment and though I think I am ready to return to the gym, I am not SURE about it yet. I spent many, many years working out in gyms and I was in excellent condition. Twice I had my body fat measure in the water tank during those years and they both came back with 4.9%. I wasn't skinny, I was lean and toned.

Well, that's enough. I have been reading the politics for a while today - normal garbage. Nothing exciting, some of it is annoying, however.

G'nite.

ben

Tuesday

FINALLY, something to do in the truck routing system! 3 deliveries with a couple of pickups and over 50k worth of product, that helps, quite a lot.

The video posted below was only put there because I have never seen anything like it before. It's a pretty intense slam on McCain's opponent - Hayworth. I have heard the birth certificate rumors since before the election ever took place. We all have. Have we ever seen a birth certificate that clearly identifies him? I don't think so. But, who started these rumors? Dunno - in the world of politics, are bets are off and so are most moral and ethics. Just like this video - it is one of the most intense - and funny - slams I have ever seen in a political race.

The thing that strikes me is you'd think the election was next week or something - McCain is running ad after ad after ad - the polls won't be open til' November 2! I've already decided who I am voting for, all these ads do nothing for me - and probably for most everyone else, either. I always wonder about how much time and money are spent on advertising for these elections. I would think most people are off the fence and decided quite early on who they are going to vote for. It was a no-brainer for me in the McCain v Obama deal - I had never even HEARD of Obama before he came out of the woodwork and suddenly, here is this veritable stranger that is "leading" our country?!!!

I give the man absolutely no credibility after watching the way he has been treating Israel. Go talk to IRAN like that, leave our friends over in Israel alone. Obama appears to be off on his own, saying what he pleases when he pleases to say it without giving any thought to what the majority of the American public want. I doubt the majority wants us slamming Israel and taking them to task because-----they want to build apartments in their OWN friggin' nation - or the so-called "settlement" of Jerusalem. WHO comes up with this stuff, anyway?

Craziness. I'm just along for the ride. I sincerely hope that the November elections will produce what the GOP believes it will because several more years of this nonsense is going to drive me crazy if it continues. I'm no staunch republican, either, but this health-care business and spending trillions of dollars when we HAVE no money is outrageous at best.

Off that subject. I got absolutely nothing done yesterday at home. I mean, I watered stuff and planted a couple of tomato plants but that was it. I realized I did not buy the compression elbows to finish running the 1/2 inch line around the back of the house, do that today.

I also found out about the Koi pond: the lady bought them to use for watering her horses and has no inclination of getting rid of them. Well, I don't know about spending money on such right now, I will probably let that go until I have a little better financial footing.

It IS something that I want to do - it would fit in perfectly over there on the east side of my house. Definitely. That and build a little gazebo type of thing and put my BBQ grill over there with a nice misting system. Misting systems are very cheap, wood for a gazebo could be acquired mostly for free, it's that pond that would end up costing by the time you factor in a pump and fish, plants all that kind of stuff.

Meanwhile, my vines are growing like crazy on the chain link fencing over there. I can't wait until it totally covers that thing up and blots out most of the view of my "neighbors".

Speaking of which, I sent them a letter which should be arriving today. Concerning their dogs - of whom they left unattended for 7 days. I am sure the letter will fall on deaf ears, but I figured to say it anyway. It basically stated that it's not normal to simply isolate yourselves from the rest of the people living around you, that if you weren't so unfriendly I would have taken care of their dogs for them and the fact that I put their dog back into their back yard after the thing was running around all day long, up and down the street, trampling my plants, etc. I ended it with "you're welcome".

Well, the workday approaches and I must be outta here.

C'yall later.

ben

Monday, April 12, 2010

Monday

Allergy season - apparently - as my nose has been running like a train since Saturday. Pretty miserable stuff. One could blame the plethora of plants around my house as cause, but I have been suffering this kind of nonsense since I was 26 years old, regardless what is growing around me.
There is absolutely nothing in the truck routing system. This will be day 3 of no deliveries. I have stuff to do around here, most notably the evaporative coolers - I am taking one of them apart to replace bearings and the other 3 need cleaned out and new pads installed.

I am very distracted this morning and think I will come back to writing later on. There is all kinds of stuff in the news and I want to finish it before I have to sign into work.
G'day.
ben

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Michael.......and the Bible?!!!

I'm sorry, it hasn't clicked in me for several days. I dunno, maybe 4 days ago, Michael asked if I had a Bible he could read. Of course, it's on my desk, it always is, you are welcomed to read it anytime.

I dunno what's taken over the boy's mind, but obviously, God has something to do with it, I know I don't say much about the subject anymore. I have "preached" to the about the Good News of Jesus Christ throughout the last 6 years I have known him - and Anthony as well - but, I don't get pushy. It does no good, at all, to get pushy with anyone about the Lord. God can break through the heart where we mortal souls can't even put a dent.

So, today, it suddenly dawned on me that Michael has been reading the Bible every day since he asked about it. Sometimes for hours on end. I had NOTHING to do with this, either. The seed has long been planted, it's up to the Lord to give it the growth, that is out of my realm and the only thing you can do with the seed that is planted is pray over it. Which reminds me, for those that are so inclined, PLEASE remember to throw a few words in about Michael to the Lord in any moment that you might find yourself in prayer.

Twice today, he has picked up the Bible, walked to one of the living room recliners, and sat there and read chapter, after chapter, after chapter. He started with the Book of Genesis and apparently is inclined to work his way through the entire amount of scripture.

Again, I have not prodded, nagged, or even brought up the subject in any recent history, I know the work of the Lord when I see it, I must discuss this subject with other Christians, mainly some of you folks and an online prayer group and hope that some people are moved to pray through on this. This is a "seize the opportunity" moment, perhaps a fork in the road that God has placed before Michael and he is listening and acting on it. I really have NO clue what brought this on.

I have the New King James version and I suspected he might be having trouble with it. It is a FAR easier read than the King James version - which is the version I "grew up" with in my early Christianity. It takes a lot of research into the words that are used in that version to understand what is being said, but I never had a problem going into the Greek or Hebrew dialect in my studies to try to identify, exactly, what is being said.

I don't EVEN want to lay that kind of burden on this kid: I promised to get him a much easier, current-language version of the Bible. I have no clue what is even available. I just like the New King James version so I don't bother with anything else. There are several Christian bookstores around, I will be visiting one of them in the next few days.

In a circumstance like this, I could be next-to-nothing broke and I would find a way to get a person a Bible who wants one. I suspect a good rendition will not be cheap, either, they usually aren't. But, isn't this what it's all about? Is eternity not the prize in terms of heaven? This life - there are few things in this wordly realm that are even of interest to me. I am no saint, but I grew to dislike much of the world's offerings long ago. I have my faults and "we" are working on it. I say that in the very-real factor of the Lord my God.

You want to know why I rarely go out and do much of anything in "societal" terms, it's because I have no interest in such. Even the lure of the casino is beginning to fade. I haven't been in quite a long while now. I DO have interest in finding a woman, but it is something I have little control over. I have all but given up on internet dating sites. I'm sure they work for some people, I have connected with a few but it never led anywhere. I figure a church group, or a club where singles go on hikes, movies, adventures of all sorts, meeting someone in person really has much more allure to me than doing it the internet way. I have been giving it some serious consideration, but - at this point, my lack of appropriate clothing is in the way. I don't have much, really. I never gave it any kind of priority after the house burned down. I will have to start looking for some deals on such, because what I currently have is TOTALLY lacking for any kind of serious attempt to go out and find someone.

Well that was the main subject in this entry. Had to get that out there, I KNOW there are Christians that read my journal, I appeal to you to please lift Michael up in prayer.

As for today? I went to Home Depot, got a few fittings that I was lacking for the 4th station on my drip system, built the station. Hooked up the 1/2 inch line and got about 2/3rds done with laying it out. I turned on the water to blow out the line, my entire manifold came bursting out of the fitting that the entire assembly goes into to supply it water.

I had wondered where the leaking water was coming from, this was obviously it : ) That is already fixed, just re-cemented it and have been waiting quite a while to make sure it is dried and not have this happen again. I also planted the rose bush. I bought one yesterday at Home Depot. It was $6.99 for what is normally a $19.99 bush. I couldn't resist - my dad used to grow roses and I figured at least one of them out front would be cool. The only drawback to having roses is that people love to steal them. Usually kids - come right up into your yard and pluck them suckers. Kids used to go into my parents yard and take the roses and give them to their teachers at school.

I am headed back out side soon. Came in to make some hamburgers and grill them outside along with a manager's special T-bone steak that was half priced. Yes, I got the steak, the kids can have the hamburgers. The steak was absolutely glorious - I don't know of any better eating than a nice, juicy, rare, thick steak. YOU might know of better, this is just my opinion. My favorite of all steak is Porterhouse - oh so wonderful and OH so expensive.

C'ya later.
ben

Sunday

I spent a good deal of time yesterday attempting to get that irrigation system dialed in and done. Yes, I got a lot done, no, it's not done, lol. I decided to go ahead and get the last remaining plants on the sides of the house covered by yet another drip station. I did not, however, even get a start on that. I was putting in line all over the front yard trying to get all the plants, included the potted flowers, serviced. I have a line of plants against the front of the house to go and that should be done. I have a birdbath out front that I am also going to run a line to - with a valve on the line so I can simply fill it up without having to bring the house out there.

Today's venture will be to build the 4th station and run the main line next to those plants already mentioned. I am not even going to bury this line, I just want to get the system out there and doing it's job on these plants along with everything else. Unbelievably, I have already used 400 feet of the 1/4 line that runs from the 1/2 line to each individual plant. I kinda was a little shocked to find out yesterday that I was almost out of that stuff again. At the price I'm paying for it? $1.00 per 100 feet. Lol. I think I'm going to buy 1,000 feet of the stuff . That's less than the price of 200 feet at Home Depot.

Oh, and yes I did finish the cooler installation yesterday. The guy living in the trailer apparently isn't very comfortable working with electricity. I am not, either, if the lines are live. I ALWAYS just shut off the flow of electricity and then it doesn't bother me. The main jist was simply getting it to turn on - motor and pump. They wanted a switch, I said fine, go buy one, they are like $30 and I am not spending that kind of money on this stuff. Otherwise, I am going to install it by simply plugging it in. Yes, that's what I did and also effectively disconnected the AC, I won't have to worry about that rather huge amount of electricity being drained every day. This Mastercool on that trailer? Is FAR bigger than it need be. But it was free, so who cares. I still ended up paying around $100 to get it into working condition, but now it has brand new pads in there. I also told him yesterday that I have no intentions of spending any more money on that trailer for quite a while now as I have other things I need to do with my money.

Hopefully, the "non-paying" tenant who finally got a job will get caught up and I will have enough money to get the AC fixed on the car. The AC in that car takes precedence over much of anything else. If you've never gotten into a car sitting in the direct sunlight in an AZ summer - well, it's an experience. At least 135 degrees inside of it, it takes a while for any AC system to cool it down. I still wish I could have gotten a motorcycle instead of a car when I bought the car I currently have. Well, sort of I do.

Well, I am trying to find stuff - free - for those folks, but so far have struck out every time. A bed was the biggest item - I see them once in a while on Craigslist free but - they are always taken by the time I get to it. Carpeting, too. People give away carpet here and there, stuff that is pulled from their floors and some of it is in good condition. They install ceramic tile or wood flooring in it's place, hence the need to get rid of the carpet. Still, haven't connected on that one, either.

As for this neighborhood. There is a 30-something that lives down the street from me. He is living with his parents, he always has. He doesn't have a job and has no inclination, apparently, to ever get one. Why his parents allow him to live at home, no clue. I would have booted him at around 19 or 20 at the oldest age. It is not natural, at least from my perspective, to stay with your parents that late in life. Anyway, a while back, he was taunting me from the window of "his" house, in a high-pitched voice saying all kinds of stupid junk laced with curse words. Yesterday, I'm out front of my house, admiring my work I had done with all the drip system stuff, when he came walking down the middle of the street.

As he was walking by, he slowly turned his head towards me and gave me - this look. I assume it was intended to be a "I'm a bad-@$$, don't mess with me" type of stare. This is the kind of stupidity that goes on in this neighborhood. Although I'm not afraid of him, fighting over nothing is juvenile and a waste of my time. I just looked back at him while he was walking by.

The "man" that threatened the lady next door? Apparently is friends with my next-door-neighbor again. The man, from a societal standard, is a waste of human flesh. He has no life, he doesn't work, his mother pays for his rather wasted existence. He spent some 8 years in prison for drug dealing. JUST the kind of neighbors I want. NOT. I ignore him completely. He is mouthy, brash and cocky. Sticks his nose into everyone's business, including, apparently mine. A neighborhood kid was over there yesterday and this man told him that Caleb, my son, was up all night last night and was probably sleeping. HOW, pray tell, did this man know THAT, and WHY is the doings in my house ANY of his business? Again, this is the kind of freaks we have in our neighborhood.

THEN, there is the very-old lady that knocked my neighbor's motorcycle type of scooter over, on purpose. She is not all there. She stands out front of her house, staring at everyone and walking around the edges of her property, looking at neighbor's properties. No clue.

Then there's my other neighbors on the other side. These are the freaks that left the dogs unattended for over a week while they apparently went on vacation. I was staring at him yesterday. I was tempted to say something to him about his dogs and his neglect of them, but I let it go. Instead, I am going to send him a letter with a picture of his dog running down the street.

There are even MORE nutcases like this. But these are the ones that I either saw or heard from in various ways yesterday. I so ever-loving want out of this neighborhood, yet - the only way to do that is to walk from this house.

Every time I walk out front of my house, I wonder WHAT, exactly, is going to be next? Never know. Some sort of lunacy is very possible.

Anyway, I'm outta here. I'm going to go out there and get started on this drip station - or not - maybe I'll just try to finish the lines out front, though I don't think I have enough 1/4 line left to do that. Still, I can get SOMETHING done out there!

Happy Sunday!
ben

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Saturday - Moving On

I'm going to start moving past this little ordeal with KCL - though I don't know that it's over yet - and simply continue to blog in peace. I will also be writing entries on my "third" blog, one of a few dozen of them, actually.

Today, we end this ordeal of getting this Mastercool evap cooler up and running on that trailer, or at least I hope we do. I want it done because I don't want the electricity to continue to be used at unbelievable rates. The only thing left to do is connect the electric lines, put in a filler plug and hook up the water line.

It was last year that I had a man come over - who ended up bringing his dad with him - to dig a trench clear down the side of the house, to the other side of the property and then back down again. I decided at the time I would want to run an extra water delivery line through there, just in case I would need it for something. Well, here we are, Justin Case, you were needed. That line is in the perfect place to supply water to that evaporative cooler. The cooler doesn't need high pressure water, just a small, 1/4 inch delivery line to attach to the float to keep the reservoir filled.

I am considering seeing if that guy wants to come back and dig another trench. I would like to run a sewer line to that trailer and make it fully "self-serve". They could run water in there and mostly not even have to come into the house as the thing also has a toilet as well. Our yard at work has enough damaged sewer pipe to run the full - somewhere around 160 feet to where I would be able to hook into where the cleanouts are located. The pipe is damaged but not unusable. It has dents in it - meaning it would restrict the flow of sewage if those raised dents were put on the bottom. One need only make sure those dents are at the top and there will be no restriction and the pipe is free.

So, that's today's doings, get that thing running and also continue hooking up feeder lines for drip emittors where needed. I kind of slacked off of that this week, did a few but nothing grand. It's yet another beautiful day outside - just taking all of this in while the taking is there.

I fully expect the non-paying that is now-paying tenant to give me a nice chunk of change on his next paycheck. He flipped me $100 the other day, which brought him down to $400 in arrears, but now he is back up to $500. I would like to see $250 or even $300, but I'd be happy with $200 per week until he is caught up. He has been broke for a while, don't want to take all of his money, I just want him to make a big move towards getting from behind to present. This would help me immensely right.

I always have people asking me how I can handle having all of these people living in my house. Some of these are people that walked from their homes on upside down mortgages or lost jobs or whatever, huge, dramatic circumstances that caused them to lose their homes. Those people are living in rented condos or apartments now, I am not. Those people's credit is totally TRASHED. I have been working on bringing up my credit score for some time. It went WAY down after it showed 120 days late on the mortgage last year, but now I am 8 months running with on-time payments and the score is slowly starting to come back up.

I have hashed this out a few times already on my blogs, but I continue to get asked both online and in "real world". When you simply walk from a house, when, do you think, a bank will EVER allow you to get back into one? Plus, most of these people are going to be forced into bankruptcy or they will have lenders coming after them for HUGE sums of money. I WENT through a bankruptcy once, I hope to NEVER cross that bridge into the abyss again. Bankruptcy affects your credit score for 7 years, is on the record for 10. It REALLY messes with your life. I would attempt to even endure garnishments or whatever before going down that road again.

So, I have the option: keep the tenants or walk from the house. Or, continue to find a part time job. I am, technically, a part-time worker at my company - as are all hourly employees on the 40-hour work week plan. That hour that I lose every day adds up to a lot of money. The 4 hours I lost every week in overtime was HUGE.

I weighed the possible paths that I could begin to travel on. I prayed and thought about this for a long, long time. I figured that I could at least try the tenancy situation, if I didn't like it/couldn't handle it, well, do what everyone else is doing, I guess. Pack my bags, bid the house goodbye and be on my way. I have endured this tenancy business for a while now: it ain't perfect and there are times when I get to the point I can't stand it, but it ain't all bad,either, when considering the alternatives.

I wrote up a letter to send to my mortgage company requesting a principle reduction. I have fine-tuned it and it is almost ready to be sent out. No clue whether they are going to participate in such or not, I will find out soon enough.

The only other deal I have going is that Koi pond that I want. It is just sitting over there, at the neighbor's across the street, doing nothing. It is calling my name - ben, come get me. The neighbor has not ascertained yet whether her daughter wants to sell it, give it away - whatever or not. I am going to try to find out today. I really, really want that thing. It would be a crowning jewel to that side of the house where I would install it.

Well, I must get about today's business, the day ain't growing younger and there is plenty I want to get done.

g'day

ben

Friday, April 9, 2010

More: KCL

Look folks, I have certain beliefs that I try to be constrained by in my walk with the Lord. One of those things is to have as much of a forgiving nature as I possibly can with whoever, regardless of what they have said or done. We're all human - when something happens, especially something in some sort of relationship whether it be a lover; best friend; family member or just an acquaintence, we all handle it differently.

For example, who hasn't been stabbed in the back by someone you know? That is some deep pain there, the hurt can be tremendous and the recovery time can take years. Some people never recover, holding grudges and bitterness in their heart, mind and soul to their graves. I have an oldest brother that is in such a condition with my dad. I contend that it is no more healthy to walk around with that kind of baggage as it is to smoke 3 packs of cigarettes a day, every day, until you (probably) get cancer and die a horrendous, miserable, painful death.

So here we have all kinds of individuals that have had, apparently, some very negative experiences with KCL. I am all for venting and letting it out - if you feel the need, either on this blog in the comments section or your own, feel free, I will not hold it against you and I also believe it is very good for an individual to get that stuff out until you are "freed" from it.

For me? I'm a pretty forgiving person. I have to be. I committed so many heinous acts of wanton destruction, theft and violence in my teen years - and so many of my friends died during those years - I count myself to be lucky to even be alive. The Lord has forgiven much in my life span. Even in my adult years, where I call myself a Christian, I hardly could sit here and say I am a lily-white angel. We're imperfect people. Many people writing these comments, I believe, are professing Christians. Yet if each one of us takes a good, hard look at our lives, even right now, what does the talking mirror tell you? Realistically? I'll let you do the "math" and speak to yourself and possibly the Holy Spirit can unearth some things inside as well. In fact, I'm SURE He can in any and every individual.

So, for KCL, the people there, the unfortunate incidences - the MANY unfortunate incidences that have taken place on that forum since it started - I give a wide berth of mercy and grace. The next words will be very unpopular with many people, but - frankly - many of those people are unsaved, some of them are outspoken atheists. They are not on the straight and narrow path that leads to eternal life, they are on the broad, wide road that leads to eternal destruction. With that in mind, and with the Christianity that at least some of you have, look at the place as a mission field. Look at the people spouting the vulgarity through the eyes of the Lord - remember, He is no respector of persons. He causes it to rain on the just and unjust alike. Pray for those people, ask the Lord to send them a spirit of conviction. If you think they are beyond that, please rethink that stance.

God is able to break through the hearts of anyone, He has HIS ways that are far higher than anything we can think of or see. He knows each individual person and what it will take to break the hardness of the heart. My own testimony provides proof of that - I was the hardest hearted fool out there and I HATED Christians with a passion ever-so-long ago.

I always believe there is hope for anyone and everyone. When people don't need a god, then they oftentimes don't care about whether there is one or not and can and oftentimes will speak very haughtily about the existence of god and any "idiots" that are "stupid" enough to follow after this imaginary entity.

But trust me when I say that somewhere along the path of life, EVERY single person alive is going to come to the point - whatever the circumstances may be - where they start thinking about a god, is there a god, or even the utter NEED for Divine Intervention. Americans mostly don't NEED a god, this is where this utter contempt for Christians - or at least a large part of it - is derived from. OH, but when that "call" comes about a loved one in a car accident or some other devastating, tragic, unthinkable and irreversible thing happens - what then? Desperation.

Look, I've talked to numerous people on their death bed that rejected God, the idea of there being a REAL and living Christ - their ENTIRE lives, only to be facing eternity and suddenly, the reality, the grasp of facing eternity without some kind of assurance, all of the sudden hits them square in the face. These people, as far as I know, gave their lives to the Lord, asking forgiveness for their lifetime of sin. I believe these people, regardless of the fact that they waited until the last hour, or more like the last minute, to reach out and cry out for the Lord to fill them - are in heaven now. The "worst" place in heaven is FAR better than the "best" spot in hell.

Personally, speaking for me, I would feel like a true and total hypocrite to go beyond what I have already said about KCL, the owners, whatever. I must do, for my own conscience, the best I can to not delve into = really, the same thing that has been heaped upon so many of us. I am NOT condemning or pointing fingers at anyone that has said anything - we each must walk our own path. I just thought I would give some fodder to think upon.

ben

Friday!! --- KCL

Look folks, I am not going to sit here and trash KCL, it's owners or the people that participate. I also was NOT trying to attract attention to myself as Susan apparently thinks in her last comment on my blog on KCL. If I wanted attention, then I would post 10 entries a day and go around leaving comments on 100 blogs like some people do over there solely to get traffic going to their blogs.

When I post an entry, it's because it's something I wanted to write out - regardless of whether important, stupid, mundane - whatever - not because I am trying to "attract attention to myself".

I admitted I didn't do something I said I would - the first time it was simple procrastination the second time there was legitimate reasoning but I can't and won't go into the details of any of that since it was a personal exchange through the messaging system. When I was told they don't give a damn if anyone leaves or goes, I decided to leave. Not to attract attention, but because those people OWN that blog. How can I sit there and continue to write on their blogging site and act as if nothing happened when there is no resolution to the contention? I cannot. It's as simple as that. And yes, I most definitely will write a goodbye - and I am definitely going to give at least a generic reason as to why I left, which I did.

This blog will have to serve as my primary blog, I have another blog that I revert back to when another site goes down - or in this case - I am not writing in that blog for a while - or ever - or who knows? So let's get this clear, in case someone comes and starts the flow of juices about my leaving or not leaving: I did NOT say on my KCL blog or here that I was leaving KCL forever. Okay? If I decide to go back and write, as long as the blog is still there, of course (and it should be, I paid for pro-access until October of this year, I think, if nothing else that in itself should keep the thing up there) I will.

I am going to try to save the entire blog into an XML file that is available, at least have it on a disc or something. I don't want to lose another blog's worth of writings such as occured with JS. I don't HAVE XML on my home computer, unfortunately, but I may be able to do it here at work, try that after I get off work today.

As for today, it's Friday, weekend is almost here, I'm elated! I am enjoying being outside in the cool, fresh air as long as there is cool fresh air to be had. I bought the roof jack for the Mastercool for that trailer yesterday at our company's heating and cooling division - nice to work for a company that has all of these different divisions that are relevant in one way or another to home ownership - at half the cost I would be able to get it anywhere else. In fact, if my AC ever goes down again, I am going to try to find a person that can do side jobs and simply buy whatever I need from there myself. I can get an entire AC system at cost. We buy directly from the manufacturer, getting something at cost is no small amount of savings.

I did NOT want to spend anymore money for a while, at least, on that thing, but the savings in using evaporative cooling over AC will be substantial. MUCH more than getting that unit up there and operational would ever cost.

Well, I missed the news and everything else this morning in writing this entry and now - the word day is here, I must get offa here and on company time.
G'day.
ben

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Thursday

Now they - Obama administration "peoples" - want to impose a National Sales Tax. I'm sorry, doesn't enough of my paycheck go to the Federal Government? Now they want to also add it as an automatically collected sales tax? How do democratic followers of Obamaism feel about THAT little nasty? Tell ya what, they wanna do that, then get rid of ALL the federal taxes that are taken off of my paycheck and I'll be good with it. Where is this all going to end? Hopefully at the polls in November, thank you very much. I have been saying this all along - you can't just keep spending and spending money and not eventually have to come up with some way to pay for all of this nonsense. Hey, November isn't that far off and I ALWAYS welcome November in Arizona cause' it means the end of unbelievably high temperatures and the beginning of a beautiful winter.

Not that the temps are bad here now, but, the house is warming up enough during the day to have to have the AC on. I am going to pay to have the air ducts cleaned out - there is a lot of dust that comes into my house and I am sure it is at least partially clogging up the system.

Yet another very weird dream last night. These dreams keep coming. However it got there, there was a HUGE tiger in my living room. It was living there. It had a broken leg and couldn't move. It was on top of one of my Great Danes, using him as a pillow. The Dane was alive - but it was ohhh so weird. This animal was at least 7or 800 pounds. I was terrified of the thing and wondered what it was doing in my living room. There were 2 young tigers in the kitchen. They were sleeping next to my other dogs. That was the jist of the dream. I kept walking in and out of the house, hoping these animals were gone. I did nothing about it (such as calling animal control). I was terrified of the huge lion. Someone else in the house wanted it there, but I don't know who it was. The thing had giant teeth - looking at them up close and personal without bars/a cage separating you is enough to make you pee your pants (I did not, however, wake up to a wet bed, thank you very much). There seemed to be no reason for any of it.

That's it. That was the dream. I woke up with a head full of that stuff. 3 days in a row I've woken up with this stuff going on inside of my head. Dunno, man, it's just plain weird. I'm not a dream analyst or interpretor, but I have some thoughts about what it might all mean, if it means anything, to my "real" life. No time to go into that now - the work day is almost here and I'm getting offa here in a minute or 2.

I should have bypassed the news this morning - seeing that stuff about imposing a Natinal sales tax is quite irritating. QUITE. I give the government enough of my money. I don't wonder if something like this, if actually imposed, is going to make a lot of people start considering ways to cheat on taxes. Who wants to be a criminal? I don't. I won't be cheating, but I will have to find ways to make ends meet even further if this nonsense comes into play.

Well, c'yall later.

ben

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Roller Blading

One gets an idea of how bad one is out of shape when one takes on a pair of blades and attempts to go 3 separate rounds with 3 separate dogs. The idea is to get the exercise and to get the dogs burned out.

Well, the dogs are full-fledged running the entire time. I do not allow them to slow down, sniff, bark at other dogs - whatever. I don't want or need to do that. If those dogs - or any individual dog - doesn't want to get with the program, that dog can stay home and I could care less. Prince is on the verge of that disqualifier. He wants to run, but he wants to stop and smell everything. I nearly ended up on my face when he decided to cut in front of me to go into a yard that had a dog out front.

I have very good balance on those things, fortunately, but I must say that after 3 dogs worth, my muscles were giving out. In fact, after the first run my leg muscles were burning - that's cause I took Coco - the Dane/Catahoula mix for a much longer run. She is MUCH easier to deal with and will obey my commands without hesitation. She is one of the best dogs I have ever owned - and to think she was headed to euthanization because of everyone else - fully 4 families before me - who said she was out-of-control and destructive. She is also in excellent condition - she can keep up with me longer than I can keep up with her, that's a fact. For now, anyway.

Whatever the case, roller blading is a great cardio exercise and that's what I'm looking for. But. The streets around here totally suck. The asphalt is old, full of cracks, very course, they all need to be resurfaced. It has needed it for a long time now. I don't care if the city of Phoenix is broke - they are resurfacing streets all over the place, I see it every day. This is my next campaign. I will start calling them - and calling them - and calling them - if need be until I get some results.

I am also considering stopping at a very large park on the way home from work, skip the dogs and use the cement walkway that goes around the entire circumference of the park. It is very nice, there is hardly ever anyone there and it would be far easier to get the workout I'm looking for without the dogs. I could still give the dogs a run, but this way I wouldn't have to worry about falling over the dogs, just concentrate on the workout at hand. It's at least 1/4 mile around that park.

Umm, those are some of the thoughts that consume me these days - growing old and getting fat. Can't stop the age part, everyone has the choice about fat, skinny or in-between. Right now, I'm in between. There are other thoughts as well, and not all of it is confined to the economy, finances and how to keep the house.

But I won't got there as it's almost my bedtime and I wore myself out. I wonder if, perhaps, that much of a workout as what I did earlier might help me sleep better? Or, conversely, it was too late to do such a workout and I will sleep even worse.

I'll find that out tonight and, of course, report it tomorrow.

OH!! I went to Fry's Food Stores - I always go to that place - at least 4 times a week anyway - to start using the gift card I was given. Well, the gift card didn't work. It was the same floor manager that had been ignoring the self-serve stations the other day that was there today. I don't dislike the lady - but please. If your job requires you to give full attention to something - most jobs do - then DO your job. It IS possible to gab and still do an efficient job in the case of grocery sales. You can talk with your customers while attending to them, I'm sure of it, I know because I do it every day. I don't miss a beat while getting what I need to get done - done - but I am always open to a good conversation with anyone, even a total stranger. Aren't you? Lol.

The point? They usually aren't talking with customers, when the "infractions" occur, they are talking with other employees and wasting a lot of valuable, customer time while they are at it. In the case of a customer like me, who wants in and out of the store as quickly as possible, it is VERY annoying. Well, this lady was all about business today. Took the card, fooled with it for a few minutes, asked if I wanted a new card to take it's place cause' that card isn't going to work every time I try to use it. Great. Sure. She half runs to the other end of the store and back, I'm serious. She was in a BIG hurry to either deal with me efficiently - or just get me OUT of there, lol.

Dunno, but I am usually always friendly with all of them and I bid her a great day while leaving and she did the same back. I say usually cause' if they get nasty with me when I have not been nasty with them, I either let emotion take over and give it right back - or usually - head straight to the manager's office for a nice conversation about employee

Well, it's bedtime -
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G'nite.

ben

Wednesday

No clue how it got to Wednesday so fast. Really. I slept okay last night - I have been having some really weird dreams that I am waking up out of when the alarm goes off in the morning, hence I am remembering some of them (verus usually not remembering any of them). Today's - would take far too long to go into all of it, but it is another horror flick movie style thing where a group of us were taken hostage, removed to a huge desert compound literally in the middle of nowhere - and the whole story was REALLY strange. I think they were aliens in human form, lol.

In all of this financial chaos I have been going through with non-paying tenants lately, I managed to keep my credit-stained fingers off of the credit cards. I remember an ordeal I was going through last year I think it was - no the year before? Anyway, I was using the gas card frequently and ran that up to $300. For credit, I guess many people think that's nothing. That's huge for me, I hate getting that far into debt for something that should be included in a monthly budget in cash, not credit. I have that almost paid down to zero now. I won't be getting rid of it when it is at zero balance - it lowers your credit score by getting rid of cards and what if I need to use it again in some financial mayhem that might come my way?

I don't want to rely on credit cards - and I don't anyway - but there are uses for them beyond credit scores and I think it's good to have a few - IF - you can be responsible about it and not use it as a store spending spree to buy everything you ever dreamed about - and then start making hundreds of dollars per month on card payments with a huge chunk of that money going to interest.

I ALMOST got myself into payments on a large screen TV, but thought better about it and ridded myself of that thought that grew to unbelievable sizes inside of my head - an almost intense desire after I lost my big-screen to the house fire 2-1/2 years ago. I REALLY want another one, but sanity returned to me before I fell for it. Yes, I want one, no, it isn't any time at all to add to the monthly payment load that I already have. In fact, the better plan is to save up for one. If I thought I could me whatever the payments were going to be, then I should be able to take that monthly payment and put it in a savings account instead, paying cash for it in the end which would be 2 full years from now.

Yes, well I haven't done that though I may start if my situation improves.

Anyway, work day is here, must be offa here.

G'day.

ben

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Tuesday

To the masses coming here from other places - the masses of those that I know, I should say, not the masses doing Google searches for Cafe World - you are welcomed to read and leave and come back or do whatever you want (but please do not leave nasty messages) - I am using TWO blogs at this point and have been for some time now. I write in both of them. I do that because each one has a different feel to it.

I don't know how to explain it, but one blog is on a small site that and this blog is a universe of site - how many millions of people have Blogger accounts? I don't necessarily have a favorite, either, but I do use this blog for entries about corporations or things that I want to be able to have Googled and the masses able to find it. You may have noticed my Cafe World entries; Grocery store entries; all kinds of stuff. I also started something about dogs and want to continue with that as well.

My other blog is almost purely personal stuff. I do that here, too, but it is not JUST that. I have SEVERAL - MORE - blogs that I write in occasionally. Prolly no-one knows about those because they are incognito. Purely diary type stuff that is available to the world, the world, however, doesn't have a clue who is writing it. In fact, one of them I completely change my writing style so that no-one that may know me will be able to figure it out. Why? Cause' I feel like it. No, really, there are simply some things I would like to be able to express freely about certain subjects and not be found as the author. Nothing crass, illegal or gross, just life, really. This particular blog here - well - I know there are some people that are coming here that I simply am not going to reveal that much information about my personal life to. Nuff said.

Just sayin. I'm not out to offend anyone, if you are offended for some reason, bring it to my attention. If it's something I should apologize for, then I will. If it is not, I will tell you such.

Anyway, this is a clarification for purposes I will not reveal, either, but wanted to get that out there.

Work day is here, I must be-gone.

G'day.

ben

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