We're on 14 hours of no power.  The storm last night was awesome.  I mean that in a way that describes the severity and intensity of the winds up to 70 mph, continuous lightning/thunder, hail and rain.  The power just  came on a few minutes ago and then, after I disconnected the extension cords from everything, went right back off.  

Yeah, that was fun. We are running James' and my generators to power 2 freezers, refrigerator, 2 window ac units and then just electronic devices, including this desktop computer. And tho we have the internet router hooked up and powered, it isn't pumping out internet. Likely they are down as well.  In fact, most of the town is out of power. 80% of street lights are out causing mayhem on the streets.  Most businesses are closed and yes, my RV park is without power as well. I can't help them. I would have left my generator over there, but we have kids, a pregnant lady and a lot of food to keep frozen/cold.  

Lowe's was open, thankfully, for we didn't have enough extension cords. It was warm in there, they had a generator running but that just to power the lights, not cool the building.  I felt for the employees working there.  The few fast food places open? Unbelievable. Cars wrapped around entire buildings all the way out to the street and on to the street itself. Gas stations? LONG lines.  People all doing the same thing: getting fuel for generators.  I got 5 gallons, if this keeps up, it won't last an entire night.  Not with 2 generators running.  

I drove around the city. I've never seen so many trees downed in this town by one storm and I've been here since 2014 and I've been through a lot of storms.  

My room is cool. I have a 12,000 btu ac unit in here that will cool this room down regardless.  I mean, it's nice in here. They went and got the 5,000 btu unit from the property for their bedroom. The few minutes the power came back on? Cooled the house back down quite a bit.  

So, my phone is providing internet to the computer and the tv for the kids.  We are not going to work over there at the shed in this heat.  Just no way. I could take my generator over there but then we would be lacking over here.  It's just a chore to keep generators going and dealing with it here.  

On another note, the grumpy people are leaving. They told me about it a while back, the job is being shut down - due to the fact that they need those transmission lines for the summer. They will likely be back in the winter months. But, another lot emptied out.  I brought my rates down as low as they're going, ac units are running constantly, I'm not going any lower.  Might as well be giving it away for free what with electric bills.  

I have had several calls today, however, asking if I have power over there? Nope.  My park isn't in any better situation than the parks on the other side of town or south.  Or north. They were hoping for power and move over to my place. For that, I wish I did have power! I would have gladly taken all 3 of them! One good thing, a short term called asking to stay 5 more days? Stay as long as you wish : )

Well, only one person has contacted me about the power, these are temporary people that have no clue what they are doing. They are very rich - building a $750k home and have a few hundred thousand worth of trailer and vehicles - but they know nothing about RV's. He said he has a generator but there isn't a 50 amp connection on it.  No, but you can buy an adapter that plugs into the 30 amp outlet and on the other end, you plug in the 50 amp cord you have. You won't be able to run everything, but you should be able to run one of the AC units and your devices.  So, he went, got his generator and the last I saw, they were trying to hook it up.  

Well, the internet is slow. Verizon system is probably overloaded. The cable internet company is down as well, meaning everyone is going to be using their phones.  So, usage goes in and out.  Right now, I can't even get on Facebook and the only reason I can write this is because I was already on here. Sort of writing, stopping, writing some more, etc.  In fact, I'm heading back to the gas station.  These generators aren't exactly gas economical units. 

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We went out to eat with some friends at a local restaurant that actually has power. There's a handful of them that are open and they are packed.  But even with the power on and AC's fired up in that place, it was hot in there. Too many people, not enough air volume coming out of those ac units.  But,  it was nice to visit with people.  Home, fired the generators back up - we shut them off because the cords were blocking the front door from closing - ac units back on, freezers, fridge, etc. 

We came home to a brown out. Meaning a very low amount of electricity coming in just enough to make a few lights shine dimly.  So, maybe we won't have to deal with power being out all night long? I dunno, but after I go to bed, I don't care if the power does come back on, I'm not getting up in the middle of the night to deal with generators.  

RV park is a ghost town. I can still see through the cameras because they run on giant batteries and they have SIM cards that send the information through cell phone service.  The RV's are still there but most everyone is gone.  I wouldn't stay there either. I have received even more calls about the park. Is your power on? Or, "we are traveling through do you know the closest area where there are rv parks and the power is back on?".  I suggested they google waskom and greenwood, otherwise, they are pretty much going to have to drive clear out of the Shreveport area.  

I mean, I could only wish I had power on, I could fill the park up tonight.  

Well that's enough for this one. James headed down to Carthage for gas for the generator, his truck and another family that needs gas. Gas stations here ran out.  I don't know how a power outage equates into trucks not bringing fuel?  That's kind of strange.  Fuel either comes from Tyler or over in Shreveport.  

 Thursday - morning - early.

We spent 10 hours over there yesterday working on that shed.  You would think we would be close to done with the drywall and you would be thinking wrong.  Progress, yes, finished? Nowhere near.  I hooked the trailer up to the SUV yesterday evening before we left, we did, indeed, use up all of the drywall I had there but we need at least 12 more sheet.  And a 6X2X16 stick of wood to run down the center at the top of the ceiling. This to be able to drop the lights lower and get the drywall up behind it.  

This is necessary. One of the big advantages of getting this drywall up will be the savings in electricity.  That window AC unit will be able to keep it cool in there without the compressor having to run all day long.  Yes, I have insulation in there but that works hand in hand with drywall which also creates a buffer to keep the heat out, cool in.  This is definitely going to be a "the money spent is the money saved" type of situation here. My electric bills are quite high and likely to get higher.  I don't need to be adding undue amounts of usage to that bill with that shed.  

I am trying to find a solar company to set up a solar array on a frame.  They can definitely do it, I just haven't found one with customer service reps that even understand what I'm talking about.  We get plenty of sun during the summer, a solar array would bring my electric bills way down. The flip side is that there are payments on the solar array itself, of course.  Still, it's a priority right now.  I will continue to contact these places until I find someone will actually understand what it is I am trying to do.

Meanwhile, the 5th wheel fell through. I may have written about that yesterday? I don't really remember, there's been a lot of work going on. Basically, I had a hauler ready to go. Not, wait until such and such time, I had the person ready to take off for the trailer. This was clearly communicated with the seller. The seller had agreed the previous day to sell it to me.  So what does he do? Sells it to someone else. I think I won't even contact the hauler until I actually buy a unit and have the title in hand first. The hauler is quite flexible. Otherwise, I may just stick to bumper pull units so I can just haul the thing back myself. Just the fact is, 5th wheels offer much more room than bumper pull units.  

I have my eye on a 30 footer right now and offered the man the full asking price 23 minutes after he posted it. He agreed to sell it to me, but you wait and watch. I didn't even say I was 65 miles away, I just said I can come tomorrow morning. He said no, how about Friday.  I said, fine, Friday it is. He then switched it to this evening. That's fine too. This one is a bumper pull, I don't have to pay a hauler. But, with all the previous people just selling it out from underneath me?  I won't hold my breath.  I just keep looking and bidding and hoping that at some point, I will actually be able to GET a unit that a seller has AGREED to sell to me.  

Money being transferred to my account, which will pay for a trailer. I do have enough money and then some to pay for one, I'm just backed up by this money coming in to be able to handle bills and expenses. I think I had another long term come in yesterday, these are people that camped in their pickup behind the shed a while back. The father of the lady passed away and they came into some money, enough to buy a decent trailer. I'm pretty sure it was them I saw going towards the property when I was going home yesterday evening.  I don't know for sure, the cameras didn't record the event of them or anyone else going in and out of the park or the shed.  These cameras are a joke and I want to sent them back to T Mobile. They work -when they want to.  

They work on live almost always. But it's the recording function that is sporadic. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't.  

I have no idea what today will bring, I just know that those kids have to come the entire day with us again.  That's getting old. They get bored and they get antsy.  There is only so much a kid can do at the property before getting completely exasperated and I'm going to suggest they be allowed to use my old phone hooked up to wifi to watch videos or something.  That's up to dad, of course but this will be day 3 of them having to spend an entire day out there, getting cranky and fussing about everything.  I get that they need to learn about what it is to spend your days working, however, it is summertime for them now and I just think it would make the day easier if they could all huddle around a phone. 

Well, it's getting late, at least for this endeavor at 9:00 am. Time to go to Lowe's and get this show started. 

G'day

 Well, yesterday was certainly a productive day. James worked on the bathroom walls all day long, I worked on insulation.  It's going to be good to get that drywall up and get the place sealed a little better. Besides just getting the project done and getting the place looking a bit better, it's also going to help with the cooling.  First line of defense is the insulation, second is the drywall.  

Anyway, his adventures in the bathroom kept him busy into the night.  I was there 8 hours, we all went home, had dinner and he went back over. I couldn't do it.  I didn't sleep the night before, I was up at 2 am and couldn't get back to sleep. I got eaten up by ticks 2 days ago, not sure what I was doing to get those things all over me. I didn't realize it until the middle of the night.  They got me good.  My legs are itching all over from ankles to upper thigh and ...other areas....

Must have been walking in the growing vegetation out front.  That's another issue that I just don't have an answer for right now. Let the trees grow back and hide the vegetation, I don't have tens of thousands of dollars for a tractor and attachments right now.  

Anyway, I got all the insulation installed. There was more than I initially imagined so it pretty much took the whole day. Once I got that done I spray-insulated the cracks. I have about a bottle's worth left to spray but I'm not doing it until the drywall is moved from the wall where I can't get at the cracks. You open a bottle of that insulation, you best be prepared to use the whole bottle right then and there, because after it sits? You aren't getting anything out of it. So, it doesn't make since to fill the remaining cracks I can get at and not do the cracks I can't.  Give me 15 minutes and it's all done.  

Having time on my hands - I just don't do drywall - I then wired and installed the outdoor light.  I have other things I need to do as well that I think I want installed before the drywall goes up.  I want that oven outlet installed. I bought the thing, I have the wire I might as well put it in. If it never gets used, it never gets used, I haven't made up my mind about it.  Waiting until after the drywall is installed would be a mistake. Then it's much harder to install, fishing line through the walls and putting it through...non-existent holes? It's the only outlet I really have left that I need to put in.  I was going to install another outlet for another dryer, but that's not necessary. I don't need a second washer/dryer set, the set I have now isn't even paying for itself. 

Well, it is getting used a lot more, haven't checked the coin basket lately.  I have no plans in adding another set any time soon, if ever.  Not at 14 spots.  If that time ever comes, I will just have to figure it out.  As it stands, I'm looking forward to ridding myself of those payments.  Shed payments as well. 

So what today?  I assume James is going back over to work on it some more, haven't discussed it yet, we're all just getting out of bed.  I have the person selling the 5th wheel saying now that they can't haul it, can you? Yes.  So I just contacted the hauler who has already replied.  This 5th wheel is 113 miles away.  It's older but it's been under a cover and is in excellent condition.  I'm trying to get that thing,it's about as good as it gets in the price range I'm looking at. No slide outs, oh well.  If I get it, I'm going to try to get $650 per month out of it plus a refundable deposit. Somewhere in the $500 range.  

I don't really know what today holds yet. That thing is up in the air but it's marked as sold on the Marketplace and yes it's sold to me, I just haven't paid for it yet. It may very well fall through the cracks if I can't coordinate this together, but I'm trying  my best.  

The hauler wants to know if the tires and jacks are good. Asked the seller, they haven't replied yet. This is likely the way this is going to go. 

 Tuesday morning - early.  I put an ad up yesterday in one of my local Facebook selling groups to find someone to install the drywall, James responded to it, lol.  I was wanting to get someone to quote me on it and then I could figure out whether I want to spend however much.  James took the whole week off for his surgery, but apparently he is doing better enough...to go install drywall. 

So, that's what we're doing today.  Drywall and several other things I need to get done in that shed. I kind of put it on hold for a while, I was sick of working on it and I have other things to do.  There's a lot of minutia to be done in there as well as the drywall, things I either can do or can figure out watching youtube videos.  I dunno how this is going to go, but if it gets it done or close to done, I'd be very happy.  

I had a retired couple message me about one of the ads I put out for a workamper.  Don't ask me about the spelling, that's how they spell it. Look it up.  I don't mean in the dictionary, lmao, but in the groups.  These people have family here - they didn't say where they're from - the dude says he's good at figuring out technical stuff and doing maintenance.  Well, the maintenance around here is cutting grass and cleaning up after people.  The bathroom too, don't forget about the bathroom. 

It isn't bad if that's all you're doing and you plug away at it a little by little every day.  I asked for 15 hours per week which gives them lot rent, electric, water, sewer, wifi and free laundry use.  Probably just hand them a bag of quarters for the free laundry.  If I got 15 hours a week out of them, that would equate to $720 per month in work at $12 per hour. I doubt I'll need 15 hours a week out of them. Just having someone around to watch over things is a good thing as well. So, this guy is supposed to drop by today.  As I said, they are retired, I'm guessing living on a fixed income, this is a no pay deal. They work a little, they get a place to stay.  Probably around $150 to $200 month extra expenses in electricity, water and laundry usage.  

What am I really doing? Trying to get the place automated and staffed so I can go back to work.  I don't see much choice at this point and I really need someone there.  People paying cash? They can collect it.  Someone complaining about grass? they can go cut it.  Something breaks in the amenities room? fix it.  Mowing the community grass? Mow it.  I've just been stuck with all the new stuff. Once it's all done - grass included - it will be relatively easy to run the place.  

I found another 5th wheel for a great price last night. I was too late.  They go fast, the decent ones anyway.  This one is old, but you can tell by the pics it's been well taken care of. Amazingly good condition for it's age and has been under covered storage.  Still.  The dude was leading me on, actually, he didn't throw in the part that there are "several people coming to look at it tomorrow" until we had thoroughly discussed it and I was at the "I'll buy it" part.  

Why even bother responding? If you have several people coming to look, it is highly likely one of them is going to take it at the price they are asking.  Then he said, well, my parents own it and they are willing to take less if it sells tomorrow. Oh.  I will give the asking price if they'll sell it to me.  "I'll tell them in the morning". Yeah, that thing is going to sell and it isn't very likely that I am going to be the person that gets it.  2 AC's, 2 doors, beautiful interior, perfect.  

I look at these ads all day long and refresh and stuff and I sometimes get the first response in, but I haven't been able to score yet.  

I was thinking what it would take to build a cabin - I get calls for those all the time.  But the shed I have was $4,200 and that was cheap compared to everyone else. When I say cabin, I'm talking about a plain Jane thing that is an open layout with the only room in the thing being the tiny bathroom.  I am going through all of this with this amenities shed.  For $4,200 I could buy a decent trailer and just rent it out instead.  Not even that much money and a lot less headaches.  And anyway, $4,200 is just for the structure. Add $8,000 at least to finish it.  You don't realize how much money this stuff can cost until you start digging into it.  I feel like the shed was a necessary thing and people are using the laundry like crazy now.

There are people in there using the machine several times a day, most days.  There are several people using the bathroom as well.  Oh, btw, I need to turn the ac down in there so it's nice and cool when we get there.  There we go, 71 degrees. Why so cold? Just get it cool in there so that when we start going in and out of the thing it will still stay decent.  

Good chance of rain later this morning. Nothing that will affect us tho the noise levels inside of that shed when it's pouring rain gets quite loud.  I only have 6 sheets of drywall in there, that won't be enough to finish it out. But trust me, with all that you have to cut around in there?  It will take half a day or longer to install just those 6 sheets.  

And still nothing in the reservation system until next month. Of course, that doesn't stop people from calling and saying yes, we'll be in late, is that ok?  I literally don't care what time they show up anymore. If you could see the video recordings of what goes on in there at night, you would see that last night? 3 tenants came in from work near midnight.  One of them at 1 am.  Those are crazy work hours, much like the trucking industry.  But yes, some people showed up last night at whatever time, it was dark and I didn't look at the clock on the video, for a 5 day stay.  Taking my computer today, they haven't paid yet and apparently want to use a card, in person. They know without asking this saves money on fees.  

But I did notice a work truck driving through at 6:05 am.  Like, just a little while ago.  They drove in and drove back out.  Frequent occurrence, assuming they are looking to see what the place looks like. Well, the grass is dead, so there is that. 

Well, departure time has arrived. I dunno how long we will be there, but knowing James? It will be most of the day.

G'day

 Saturday - installed the new AC unit.  Not sure how it's doing, I just got the thing in, installed the app on my phone, got the thing insulated around it, tested the app and walaah.  New, much larger AC and hopefully that will take care of the problem.  I can change the temperature on my Iphone from anywhere.  It was shortly after I got the thing installed and it started pouring rain and even some hail came down.  

Sunday - nothing day. I usually do a nothing day for Sundays. Well, we went to church but beyond that, it was go home and laze around most of the day. I did spent some time looking for a trailer and I did put some offers out.  I think some of my offers were ridiculously low, but if they don't like them, they don't even have to respond. I just think a lot of this stuff is way overpriced. Whether it is or isn't, I need a half decent unit that doesn't need a lot of work and my budget isn't real high.  I don't want to spend all of that money I am getting just on one trailer.  

I have one person that said maybe, another one that says "pending until Monday morning" - that one I really wanted and offered full price as soon as I saw it.  $1,500 for a trailer that is in very good condition. But, I didn't beat the first person to offer full price so I just sent them another message - since this is Monday morning - saying I could be over there quickly with cash in hand.  I mean, the pics showed the entire interior and exterior, it's in excellent condition for the money at $1,500.  There are other units I could have at the price I offered but then I found out how far away they are..

200 plus miles to get a camper? And if they've been sitting a while, they may have dry rotted tires that will pop going down the Interstate.  And trying to get a temporary tag to  move it.  I don't even know how that works in Texas, I suppose I should look it up lmao.  

I also put an ad up on a workamping site for someone to come live at the extra spot behind the shed - it has 30 amp hookup, access to wife, sewer hookup and will install a water spigot closer if I can get anyone to come.  It's free lot rent and utilities in exchange for someone to come work for 15 hours per week. That's not that much compared to most of the other places wanting much more work. I'm just needing someone to help me out and this seems like the perfect solution if I can find someone.  Help me with the grass work, keep the shed clean, etc.  I dunno if it will result in anyone coming, but it can't hurt to try.  

It's usually older people that want to do it so I guess I can write off them helping me with that crazy machine but they could water the grass seed once I get it planted.  Not that I'm younger, lmao.  If I could just get a little help in there.....it would be amazing...doing it myself all the time, not fun.

Not holding my breath on that one but I am going to be posting in all the workamping sites I can find.  

Today? Well, it's supposed to rain. Kids are out of school but the parents are both home.  I'm going to go over and see if I can get some more tilling done or maybe just start raking up area I have already tilled. It may still be wet tho from rain yesterday.  It needs to be dry to rake it smooth.  I really wish I had a small tractor, I could use it for so many things.  Out of budget.  Lots of things out of budget.  I'm focusing this next money on a trailer, not on equipment.  

Anyway, not much else besides the news cycle continuously pumping out quite strange stuff.  The Trump indictment, the lack of a Biden indictment for the same thing (top secret documents), the lack of interest in the media about the Biden revelations that have come from the FBI, the continuous news about this trans movement, California is always in the news, always.  Newsom threatening some sort of charges against DeSantis for "illegally" moving aliens.  Lmao.  I'll be that goes far.  It is not longer a downward trend of morals and ethics, it is just a straight down plummet.  

I thought it amazing they wanted to get rid of gas stoves and now they want to get rid of gas heating systems. Insisting on all electric vehicles by 2030 with a power grid that can barely handle the strain on the system as it stands right now. Finding out that the elements needed to make these electric cars and specifically the batteries uses more than it takes to build a gas burning car.  A projected warming decline of a thousandth of a percent by forcing all of this on us....

I just hope a Republican wins next election and gets rid of all of this nonsense. Of course, another democrat down the road will just put it all back in place.  I still stand in awe of the push to get rid of all coal fired plants.  And these democrat run states rejecting nuclear powered stations to replace them.  Nuclear has it's risks, but it's "clean" energy and pumps out far more power than any other method of power generation.  

Enough of that. Time to get ready to leave.

G'day. 

 So these people that wanted a lot called after I sent them 2 emails. They are actually staying long term.  Oh, and there is value to checking off the LGTBQ+ friendly tab on a Google business account.  They look for that stuff when looking for a place to stay.  This is a....well it's a lady married to a lady.  I haven't had any problem with these people in my park and I've had a couple of them now.  They're nice, friendly and the ones that I have encountered don't feel the need to announce to you that they are gay/lesbian/whatever.  Just like straight people don't go around announcing they are ... straight. 

Anyway they are allegedly showing up tonight.  I say allegedly, as always, because they actually have to show up first before I can say - yes, I finally got another long term in. 

Meanwhile, I burned up in the sun today. I knew I would but I had to get that started. It's not going to get any better, so why put it off? One of the people in the park came up behind me while operating that machine and touched me with a cold bottle of water. Yes, I'll take that.  She was asking about how to build a site. They are there temporarily while they build a house but they are also wanting someone to come and make them an RV lot so they can live on the property while the house is being built.

Well, I gave them the number of the company I used and told them these are the best in the area.  I still believe that even tho a few misgivings, nothing serious.  These people are staying a little long than a month and they are gone .

Back to this beast of a machine.  The top layer of the ground is hard and even this big, heavy things takes a bit to churn through it.  It took me a while to figure out how to use it without having to manhandle  the thing.  You still have to use some serious muscle with it, but nothing like when I first started and said, gee, I'm not going to last very long having to do this the entire time.  

But it's definitely necessary to churn up the ground. After I get a couple of lots tilled, I will have to rake it smooth, throw down seed, roll it and start watering it.  The lady that gave me the water today said "have you looked at the upcoming weather?"  Yes.  "It's going to be near 100 for the foreseeable future, the seeds will dry up".  Oh I know.  I'll have to water it probably 3 times a day.  I don't have any choice, I'm not going to not plant seed because it's hot outside. It can be mitigated, you just have to ensure that you are watering it morning, noon and evening.  

I'm going to limit it to 4 sites to begin with.  I can't be watering 14 sites all at once. I don't know how long it's going to take to get all of this done but there is no way to run water to 14 sites, 3 times a day.  I mean, I guess there is but I'd be running around all day long in this intense heat and I just don't think I can handle it. I'm not 20 something anymore. Or 30. or 40.  I'm close to 60's now.  

 So, the older couple left this morning. I saw them off and the lady gave me a big hug. They are moving in with family on the Louisiana side of the state line not only for help with the hubby who has heart problems but also - it's free rent.  They are on a fixed income, I can understand that.  I now have 5 empty lots and the number will continue to grow unless people come in. I've had some calls, but so far, no-one has actually shown up.  I do have one couple that is allegedly coming once they purchase whatever they want to live in. 

But basically,  I have empty lots and the only overnight reservations I have going right now are well into next month.  Nothing for this month besides the lady that just left today after being here for a world series elimination at the giant Baptist university.  

I dunno, I lowered the rent to levels that are as low as I can really go.  I didn't go into business to break even.  I can only hope and pray some people show up - and soon.  

I did call the rental shop in town. They don't rent an attachment for their tractor to till. It's listed on their website, but they have several locations all over the region.  They don't have everything that other stores have at other locations.  I started looking in Longview and found nothing as well.  I didn't want to go further out, so I went back to looking at new, manual versions. Then I decided to look at Marketplace, found one, bought it and here we go.  

No, I didn't even get it over to the property.  I would far rather have used a tractor and just be able to do it without all the physical exertion.  It's getting very hot outside and it's wearing on me.  We've got 90's weather for the foreseeable future.  I can imagine getting very hot. I will be packing the cooler with gatorades and water and I have a hose at the shed that pumps out cool water I can spray over my head.  

I have no plan yet. Get some lots done and start watering them? And keep plowing?  I guess.  Seems about the way to do it.  Get a lot plowed, get it prepped, seed it, roll it (get the seeds pressed into the soil), start watering it, get moving on the next lot. Rinse, lather, repeat.  I did just order a roller - it's a thing that used to press the seed down into the soil.  I dunno folks, I'm just plodding along here, feeling this thing through and doing my best.  

So, the 3rd kid is here, dropped off today.  He's here for 2 weeks, the oldest sibling that lives in Arkansas. There is a court ordered arrangement for visitation that occurred last year and now he's here on regular intervals.  This one is the result of a previous relationship.  James is headed to the hospital tomorrow for a procedure that I won't bother to go into here. The kids will just have to go with me to the property whether they want to or not - I have stuff to do and they can just play on the phone if they don't care for doing anything else.  I'm going to start plowing either the huge lot the older couple had or the doggy park.  I have no idea how this is going to turn out with this machine or how long it will take to plow through everything, a complete mystery to me.

I just know that I fired the machine up, cranked the tiller on and it went right down into the ground without any hesitation. I let it run for a while and it seemed to be running pretty good. Just don't see the need to buy a new machine that I will likely only use once or very little after the initial use and then store it.  I can imagine it taking hours to do that one, large lot and the doggy park as well, if not longer. 

There isn't much else going on. At least, nothing worth discussing here.  Well, mom sent me pics while I was there. Actual, developed photos lol.  The kids wanted one of the photos.  Okay?  

That's it. Beyond reading the news that gets more and more far out there as time goes on. Governor Newsome is started a grassroots campaign to add a Constitutional amendment which "defines" the 2A.  It's quite amazing, because I was reading what they want the amendment to accomplish and at the end? It said it will give both states and local governments the ability to enact their own laws!  

If you don't think the left wants Communism, you haven't been paying attention to their calculated moves to eventually get there. It won't happen overnight, but it IS happening at a steady pace.  I'm not sure Newsom is going to be able to get 2/3rd's of Congress and 2/3rd's of states to ratify it, probably not.  In fact, I'm sure he already knows that. But these efforts have some sort of end game to them.  Remember, they have the full backing of the media.  The media is dominated by left leaning outlets. They're experts at propaganda. 

Off of that subject, it's gotten to the point that I read the news and maybe watch a little on TV and then I just turn it off.  I believe God is still in control and that He has the ultimate end game and that's all recorded in the Bible. So, whatever is going on now with progressives in this nation or China, Russia, Iran and the rest of the bad actors is only facilitating the means to the end times.  

With that? I'm off to bed.

16 gallons spread yesterday of weed killer and that wasn't enough?  No, it wasn't.  My third trip to Walmart I bought 9 more gallons and that should hopefully do the trick today, or at least finish the lots and most of the doggy park.  I'll have to remove fencing in the doggy park to get a tractor in there.  

But, by the time I got that done I was toast. It was hot out there and I was in the direct sunlight for many hours doing the application.  I don't really care about the heat that much, tho, just drink a lot of water.  Now, the heat inside of the shed is a completely different subject.  I haven't installed that AC yet but I may start that today.  I dunno.  It will likely meaning moving the 2x4 that is holding the existing one in there to accommodate for a larger sized unit.  It will be a semi ordeal, but it needs to be done. 

Even after lowering the rates I'm still not getting calls. Although, it is usually closer to the end of any given month where people start looking to switch places.  Let's put it this way: If I don't get some people in by the beginning of next month, I will seriously have to reconsider lowering the rates even more.  What else am I to do? Have a half empty park?  But I will hold out on that temptation for at least a few more weeks and see what happens.  If only I could get a couple of rental units in there....I am still looking. 

My 2cd to last payment hit the bank. I owe $345 on that SUV and it's actually mine. Not, mine but the bank owns it, it's mine. The exterior is in great shape, the interior is okay but the driver's seat either needs replaced or reupholstered.  There is an excellent upholstery place in town.  Of course, it wouldn't be cheap and it also would probably take a few days for them to do it, so no vehicle for a few days.  Yeah, no thanks, at least not right now.  

I do very much like the idea of getting rid of that car payment every month and not getting into another one.  I have enough other payments right now, that will free up some money after I make the final payment.  Of course, instead of helping your credit score, paying off loans show as a closed account and actually hurt your credit score. Yes, I keep tabs on my credit score even tho there isn't much of anything I can do about it right now short of getting a job.  

The grass was always the final hurdle to jump before going back to work.  I knew it would be an ordeal and an ordeal it is.  Not just because it costs money, but the amount of work it entails.  There is the option of simply having a giant gravel park.  They are mostly unappealing and with the amount of weeds on my property, it would be a constant battle.  i intend on killing as much of the weeds with the spray as I possibly can and then hope that after the grass starts to fill in, it will crowd out everything else.  Grass tends to do that.  

Oh, btw, putting that much gravel in instead of grass? At least 15k.  And that doesn't include having to do the doggy park in grass anyway. Who has a gravel dog park? I've never seen one.   

I've given up on a loan for the moment.  It just isn't going to happen with the amount of debt I have and I am facing that reality - for now.  The situation won't change without paying down a good chunk of the debt incurred and that isn't going to happen unless the park fills up and stays that way or the inevitable job hunt starts.  I can't predict the park filling up, finding a job wouldn't be that difficult if my desire for a higher paying job was lowered to something less money but gets me home every night.  They're still 14 hour  a day jobs tho.  Kind of tired of 14 hour a day jobs and staying out on the road all the time, just in case I didn't make that clear through the myriad of posts I've made about it previously lol.

I take that back. My house is still worth a mint in the Phoenix housing market, but selling it means kicking everyone out including Mark. After all of these years, it would be hard to do that.  I could pocket around 70k if I were to go that route. That's deducting 30k for realtor and lowball on the amount the house is actually worth. However, people getting housing loans right now? I dunno about that.  High interest rates are probably locking people out of the housing market.  I think my refi loan was low 3% range.  

Oh, btw, now that gas stoves are being targeted by the Biden administration, what's next? Well, according to the latest news? Gas furnaces.  I can guarantee you that after they say no more gas furnaces, they'll come after the gas water heaters.  Let's see, gas dryers? I'm trying to think of all the gas appliances one could have in one's home.  In other words, welcome to Communist America!  Where big government gets to tell you what kind of appliances you can have in your home! Land of the free, huh? You believe in climate change?  

I watched a video of a scientist putting it into context.  These activists pick and choose which date to use for their fraudulent numbers.  If you go back far enough in time, the temperatures have actually cooled over the centuries and even under 100 years.  These people that are flying around in private jets all over the world to go to these conferences are as fake as prosperity preachers who live in millions of dollars mansions and drive 200k cars around.  I just find it amazing that people are still supporting Biden even tho he is basically walking through your front door and telling you the things you can and cannot have in your own damn house.  

You read accounts of people that have escaped communist nations - China being the worst culprit I think but certainly North Korea is right up there, just China has a lot more people - and they warn us of what is going on right now  in America and cite Mao as an indicator of what the "progressive left" - Communists - are doing and wanting to do in America.  It's glaringly obvious and the left doesn't even deny it anymore, they want Communism.  Property rights go right out the window and I am not just referring to land.  ALL of your property, your money, your house, your cars, everything is controlled by the state.  

Look at the endless tirades against 2A. And that the Constitution is a "worthless piece of paper".  And the desire to either eliminate the SCOTUS, pack it with more activist judges or impeach judges that dare make a decision that is against the left' will.  It's coming to a head sooner or later. I don't know when, but they will cross a line in the sand.  Look, the left is attempting to design elections laws so that they basically will stay in power forever.  It isn't just one thing here or there that is being done to arrive at Communism, it is a carefully thought out plan.  Infiltrate the schools with teachers and propaganda curriculum that are in line with their theories.  Get rid of God and the Bible - they've done a pretty good job of that already.  Fill the local governments with progressive "leaders". Get Congress and the WH filled up with communists ideology.  

It's already here, they are just in the beginning stages of getting it implemented.  I dare say most Republican congresspeople are either RINO's or career driven or cowards and won't stand up to any of this.  You get the few that will take  a stand and they are labeled as extreme right MAGA Republicans.  They label everything with a stigma and try to force it down American's throats.  

Well whatever.  I'm fixing to leave here, I need to get these last 9 gallons applied and then do some other stuff over there. 

G'day

 I'm kind of getting tired of being the first person to respond, offer what the person is asking (if it's good, there is no sense in haggling the price because someone else is going to come along and offer full price), get promise that I am first in line and then have them just go ahead and sell it to someone else. I have never really experienced this before. But, these people so far are just unethical as far as I'm concerned. They list a price, get 10 people wanting it and so instead of selling it to the first person that offered their asking price, they allow bidding wars to go on.  

I will not engage in such foolery.  When they do that, I bow out. If they wanted to do an auction, they should list it as an auction and certainly, they shouldn't be saying they will sell it to you and then change their mind.  The problem is most of the time these people aren't available to sell it right away so by the time they get off work or whatever, other people have come along and there it goes, right out the window. 

So I put my bid in for another one today. But, my caveat is I need to see interior pics.  I won't bother to even go look at one without seeing the inside of it and having questions answered about whether certain things work and if the roof leaks.  

There are new ads for trailers popping up at various times throughout the day, every day.  I've made offers on many dozens of them. Some full price, some less than full price, some far less than full price asked.  

Honestly, if it weren't absolutely necessary, I wouldn't be doing the grass right now for the cost.  

Oh well.  I got up early so I can get this spraying done early, I'm outta here.  

 The dead grass looks abysmal. It's really aggravating, but I knew it was coming. there is very little green going now, it's mostly dead, burnt looking grass.  I've spent hours looking all over Google, facebook, whatever, looking at information, sales, services, whatever info I can find.

I'm finding it hard to digest the idea that a 50 pound bag of grass seed can cover up to 10,000 square feet.  

I probably well overseeded the rye grass, but that seed was cheap.  I just can't imagine how a 50 pound bag can cover that much area?  I'm saying this because even tho a bag of summer grass seed is expensive, it comes nowhere near the price of hydroseeding or sod installation if you really can stretch out one single bag for that much area.  

Everything I've read says I need to use a machine to till up the ground.  I suspect that would be true for hydroseeding as well.  

So, here we go.  This dude has an ad going: "costs $64 per 400 square feet versus the cost of sod". So I ask him what he's going to charge for 10,000 square feet?  By his math that should come out to $1,600. He quotes $2,500. 

They will all probably tell me some price beyond what claims they are making online.  

These people are amazing. I wanted to buy a 5th wheel - the pics made it look quite good for the price. So they tell me after 2:00 today. They contact me, you want to come look? Yes, in just a few minutes.  So what do they do? Sell it to someone else. I had contacted them yesterday, I was the only one giving them an actual promise to buy.  I don't get these people.  

And now, a few hours later - I start posts and leave them to do whatever and come back to them oftentimes - the grouchy people starting in on me. This time? I gave it right back. I'm tired of these people complaining.  This is all they do in life.  She gets drunk, he drinks as well but I don't think near as much as she does. She gets drunk on wine every single night. And then? She has to open her mouth and start spewing. As I already knew, but this time she all but admitted it, she is spewing filth to anyone that will listen.  

So, I told her I'm tired of cleaning up her dog's shit and I'm also tired of picking up your husband's cigarette butts.  It went back and forth, but if they want out of there, they can pack their bags and leave. I don't need that kind of bs for $425 per month, I'll replace them or if I can't, I'd rather go back to trucking than listen to constant whining from people that take pleasure in it. She lets her little dogs run all over the place. I'm done with these people, they want to dish it out, I'm going to give it right back to them.  They think I should be there all the time.  Like what?  

What the hell do these people think I'm doing, anyway?  It doesn't matter. They will find something to complain about because that is their nature. It's poison, it's foul and it gets on other people. If left unchecked, it will just get other people to start thinking the same way. I've been there, done that. I told her that I have done room rentals for many, many years, it's the same damn thing if not more so as an RV park where people are all living in a small community and people need to respect each other.  She thinks she knows everything. "I've stayed at 100's of RV's parks" and yada yada yada. I've tolerated it all the way up until today.  No more.  They like it, stay and shut up.  If they don't, get your trailer hooked up to your truck and get the hell out of there. 

I get unsolicited compliments about my park all the time. I know I have something good going there, they can bitch about it all they want, I have shrugged it off - long enough.  I can make it better, but that all costs money. It's about as good as it gets for right now. If people like it, stay! If they don't, don't stay!  

Here's a primer about RV parks that owners forged into my brain long before I opened the park up: You can't and won't be able to please everyone. These people have been doing it for decades and speak out of experience. You focus on the things that you think make a good place to stay. Some people won't like it. There are always those "some people".  My place is a conveniently located park that is quiet, peaceful, away from the city but close enough to be right there.  It's really quite an amazing location considering the other parks around.  How do I know this? Not just because I live in town, but because other people have been telling me this for months now. What do I go by? 

I'm just venting a little bit.  She stopped texting and I was happy to stop as well.  She blew up my phone out of the blue and it was nothing but complaining.  

I've spent countless hours working at that park. Long before they ever showed up and making their ridiculous judgments based off of - what I don't know - I was working my ass off over there.  Some of the things I thought would be important didn't pan out, like that bridge I built in the back of the property. I love having it there, don't get me wrong, but that walking trail gets very little use beyond me, the dog and the boys.  Tent camping hasn't panned out, either.  It's cheap camping as far as the price is concerned at $10 per night.  

I don't really think I'm off with trying to acquire a park-owned trailer to rent out, I just don't know how it will work out in reality. IE: will a person/family take care of it or trash it?  There is always that kind of risk in any kind of housing rental.  It's why you try to do background checks and get deposits.  

I've got my work cut out for me the rest of this week and going into next week. I am going to leave the shed alone for awhile except to replace the AC unit and continue to take a break from that stuff. 

 I'm in limbo on the grass situation.  I am still waiting for the dude to come over and give me a quote.  I haven't found any other companies that do that hydrograss application nearby.  There are options to buy on your own, no clue.  I'll start looking into the DIY option today.  I want to get this started and get it over with.  The park is looking pretty dismal and it needs corrected sooner than later.  

Yesterday I didn't even go to the park (Saturday).  We got started on an immense yard cleaning project and spent a good portion of the day getting it done. I made those boys work. The youngest was going into fits of screaming and crying, irrelevant.  He doesn't like to do anything beyond watching cartoons and playing outside.  I don't know about you, but my parents started me very young doing outside chore in mowing the lawn and clipping the bushes.  You don't get a work ethic by sitting around all day long doing nothing.  It starts young and it has to be nurtured.  

At some point, James was finished with edging the front yard (I had mowed it) and came over to help. That's about the time he took off with the younger boy to give some corrective application as the boy was still acting up. I do not typically administer discipline of that nature to their kids. They can do that, that's really a parental thing. Tho I never had an issue with them doing that at schools either, way back in the dark ages when both teachers and administrative staff would spank your @$$ and parents didn't say a word about it.  My how times have changed and we see the result of these changes.

You should never, ever spank your kids! "They" tell us.  You couple that with cellphones and instant gratification.  It's a bad mix and lends to the culture rot we are now experiencing.  Well, that's what some folks call it, I call it the age-old loss of a moral compass.  That's really what it is, abandonment of morals and ethics and that is a result of people abandoning God.  You would be surprised how many people in one particular political party are also atheists.  I have Christian friends attempting to force me into thinking that atheism isn't possible.  

Maybe to some extent that is true, people believe in some kind of "god" if it isn't the true and living God. It's called idolatry.  But atheists specifically denounce the Christian God, the Lord, the Creator God and spend their lives attempting to denounce and mock and humiliate those that do believe. I don't cave to such people, they can mock me and/or God all they want, that's not going to change my view of it. I personally believe it takes more faith to believe in the big bang theory than the Creation reality.  

Well, I got off on a tangent there. Anyway, the boy came back out with daddy and his attitude had changed, if only temporarily.  When those 2 are told to do something such as clean their room, the youngest will just stand around and do nothing while the oldest gets the job done because he doesn't want to get into trouble.  However, I was out there and supervising them while working myself, that wasn't going to be an option and he was hating it.  He was required to do as much work as his older brother, tho it took constant prodding to get him to do so.  

Whatever the case, we got a huge swath of neglected yard - mostly one side of the house - completed. 

I will be going to the park after church today. A lady just called and said she wanted a lot.  I said fine, just show up, take a space and we will deal with it after you move in.  The usual questions about the appearance of the trailer, how many amp hookup, pricing and in this case, she wants to put a fence up.  I don't mind that at all, but I want it to be a decent looking fence. Not chicken wire, pallets or some other trashy looking setup.  

I also had a lady calling yesterday asking about putting a tiny home in.  I had to ask a lot of questions because, tho I'm not opposed to that at all, I want to make sure it's a good fit. My first question was one of amperage. Some of those homes are built with 100, 120 and up amperage receptacles.  I don't have that much amps at any of the RV outlets.  She said no, this one is built to use the same as an RV. Ok? How old is it? It's still being built!  This isn't some trashy looking thing.  The problem? Turns out it's still being built and she won't have it for another 2 months.  Whatever, she can bring it in if I have a lot available but my genie isn't telling me if a lot will be available. Right now, I have lots of lots available.

I reduced the monthly rate after looking at the main competitor who had lowered their rates.  I try to keep up with that because most people are just going to take the cheaper option if it means saving them money.  They might not like one place as much as another, but the savings, in their minds, will make it worth it. 

There are no others en-queue right now, but I just changed the rates a couple days ago.  And I changed a bit of wording on my website that the designer had put in there. Although I like the idea, "friendly staff awaits your arrival" isn't always true and I'm not always over there when people show up. In fact, many overnighters I never even see beyond seeing the footage on the camera.  I'm not racing over there for no particular reason if they don't need any help.  Most of them don't and they pre-pay online.  No, they say, we're fine, just calling to see what lot you want us on.

That happens frequently, even tho they are assigned a lot at the time of the reservation.  I guess they just don't read that part.  Or forget about it, or who knows what.  

No grand plans today beyond church, check the park, make sure people aren't there that aren't supposed to be there and also people lingering that have shown up.  Again, I didn't go at all yesterday.  I also will have to try and reset the camera that isn't recording motion events.  That's the manufacturers solution.  We don't have any such problems with the Nest cameras we have at the house. The drawback to the Nest cameras is that they are pretty pricey.  Same with Ring cameras.  

And of course, finding a solution for the grass situation.  It's got to be done and it's got to be done soon. The motor coach near Fort Worth apparently has fallen through as I sent the man a message and he didn't reply, that was a day ago.  There is another rv 25 miles away that I may go take a look at today. The pics make it look good as well as the description.  No, I can't move a 5th wheel but it would cost less to have it moved to my park than having to go through all the trouble of renting a car, driving to Fort Worth, turning the car in, taking an Uber to the house where it's at and hope that the man isn't making things up and that the unit actually works and will drive the 160 plus miles home without a hitch.

Not that I have anything else to do beside sitting on the side of the road with a broken down motor coach.  I'd be driving that thing about 55mph on the Interstate all the way back.  Yup, slow lane drifter, I wouldn't be in any big hurry.  Yes, I'm still set on trying to get a unit for sale or rent in there, no, I'm not in a rush to get some trashy looking thing that has a multitude of problems. The lower priced ones are usually trash with holes in the roof that have cause significant damage to the interior. I don't have the time or the desire to fix such nonsense. Taking the thing down to the frame and even replacing wood in the frame? No thank you.  

Well, it's almost time to leave. Taylor was going to go with us today but that may change since she had an appointment this morning and apparently has to work with the child one on one. I don't know, but I'm going regardless if anyone else is going or not. The youngest is currently screaming about something.....I have no clue.  

 Still trying to figure out how to get the 160 plus miles to get that motorcoach.  The man didn't put it up for sale - yet, I just happened to give him an offer on another RV he has and he showed me this one instead.  Obviously, I can't drive my vehicle over there and then drive 2 vehicles back.  I'm thinking maybe put an ad in local groups and see if anyone is heading to Fort Worth. Pretty common destination from these parts.  Pay them whatever - well reasonable - to get there and take an Uber from the closest point to the town the motorcoach is in.  It's just south of Fort Worth. 

I want that thing, is all I can say but there is a limited window where I can go get it before it he just says screw it and puts it up for sale on Marketplace.  His sentiment was he would rather deal with one person than have a hundred messages coming in asking about it. I figure I best give him an answer today or I will forfeit the sale and he will just find someone to sell it to.  It's old but it's in great condition.  Some people take care of those things - really all that matters is keeping the roof leak free. If you do that, you might have some issues inside the rv but much of that is repairable. A leak can and will destroy the interior where the water is going into it.  

The lady with the bumper pull over in Louisiana still has that thing for sale.  But after looking at the pics again, I determined it's too much of a project.  There is a leak in the roof and it's been rotting the inside portions where the water from that leak goes for quite a while now.  I really don't want another project, not right now anyway. If I were going to do a project, I would rather do a glamping setup.  It would be a lot of work just building the platform - and money - but after that, the rest would be relatively easy in comparison.  I know where I could set one up and have access to electricity and give the campers access to the shed for a bathroom. 

I keep thinking it's the weekend for some reason, it's only Friday and I have stuff to do today.  I dunno why, but the outside camera on the shed continues to stop recording motion activity.  If a vehicle or person walks by, it should activate the motion sensor and record it.  It stop doing it and I have no clue why.  The inside one works perfectly well.  

Besides not having a swimming pool and no guarantees that having one would draw people in anyway, I have no answers why I am not getting more business beyond the fact that I only have 4 google reviews and I just haven't been on the map long enough.  People tell me frequently the like the park and would come back again - but it doesn't translate into a Google review. Frustrating.  I lowered the monthly price and that is all I know to do at this point.  The nightly price is already low and I'm not going any lower than what it's at now.  There is no point in being in business if there isn't a decent profit to be made after all expenses.  

Whoever it was that called about coming in long term didn't show.  They said "one air conditioner isn't working" for an excuse to get a lower price.  But it's 50 amp service and there are quite a lot of other appliances in those units that gobble up electricity. It's probably why they didn't come. I'm not giving the park away for free.  I only know I need about 3 or 4 more long term to come in and come in very soon.  

There are other parks that are charging less.  I just don't see how they are making any money with unlimited electricity.  It's $375 for everything at one of those parks. My floor is $400. I won't go under that.  My location is closer than every other park in the area to certain things that people want, including a grocery store and the hospital.  And the grocery store is on a major highway, it's quick access to it.  I have all the right things going, or most of them anyway, I'm just not getting the business I need to keep it afloat without going back to work in the trucking industry. 

I swirl this situation around in my head a lot.  I can't live on $2,000 per month income. Which, if the park stayed like it is now with  5 lots open, that is basically the income from it after expenses.  I definitely can on 4 grand a month.  That's net income after everything.  Yes, that's a good chunk of change.  This is why I want that motor coach, I think I can rent that thing out for what I want for it.  At 2 grand and needing nothing more than a new brake caliper on the front right, it's a no brainer to me.  It's affordable housing for someone and it's close to town.  

Well, anyway, that's the musings for this morning.  Kids are on summer break but dad's home so I'm not particularly babysitting today. I'm going to have to go back to work on the inside of the shed. The walls need finished and there is still some insulation to install. Not much insulation, but the walls and drywall are not my forte.  But I want that drywall up and installed instead of sitting there as an eyesore.  

Oh and to add to this situation? There are a couple of units in there that are temporary. And the older couple leaving soon, I"m going to have a half empty (or more) park unless I can get some people in there soon.  

I did learn how to edit my webpage so I don't have to constantly ask the web designer to do it for me - and charge me accordingly. It was actually rather simple once I figured out the proper tabs to click on.  I didn't like some of the wording he had in there and I wanted to update the lot rent rates.  The first think people are looking for is the rates.....

 Some trailers/motor coaches that are listed are really difficult to tell if they are good inside from the pics.  In this case, the pics are blurry and it's hard to make out details.  It's 60 miles to go see it and I'm sort of sitting here wondering if it's worth driving that far for something that may turn out to be a dud.  I'm leaning towards the "no, it's not" side of things.  It's the only thing currently in my price range.  

The people that played the games with the trailer starting several days ago and culminating in their actions that are less than honorable claimed they are Christians "lol" so apparently that shields them from any wrongdoing.  It was amazing how callously they flipped that term out.  But, as far as I can see it, this is the state of the Christian church today.  Pastors do not preach repentance for the most part and people are given carte blanche to live their lives the way they want to. There are ample scriptures to show otherwise, but if these people are deceived, there isn't anything beyond prayer that I can do about it.  

The pastor in our church does not preach repentance at all. I've listened to enough sermons.  He has half the equation right in believing, the rest, however, is left out.  I think his intentions are good, but if he believes people are going to pick up a Bible and start reading it that simply say the words that they believe?  I don't know about that approach.  I haven't asked him directly about certain scriptures - and there are a lot of them - that lead a person to the understanding that certain lifestyles are "prohibited" by scripture and why doesn't he discuss repentance? 

But, the Bible also says to take the log out of your own eye before you can see clearly the speck that is in your brother's eye, I have enough of my own junk to deal with, they can believe what they wish.  I just think people are led astray, however, without hearing the fullness of the Gospel.  

On to other things. The man is coming today to give me a quote on the property grass. Something I'd like to get going and get behind me.  I figured at most a grand at the price for the lowest price seed he uses.  I just want grass that can tolerate full sun and heat.  I don't need fancy wancy, I need whatever works that will look good and will come back the next season after winter hits. 

I don't really know what else, besides just dealing with stuff at the property.  Vacation mode is over and it's time to refocus and get priorities straight, that's about it.  

 At .07 cents per square foot, I figure around $700 to spray the grass mulch in.  I don't know what kind of prep work needs to be done, but I have a man coming out tomorrow to take a look and give me an exact quote.  This is by far the cheapest grass alternative, tho the price could be higher depending on what kind of seed he recommends.  Still, even at a grand it would be far cheaper. 

The cons - well, the biggest one is that I'll be spending my days for 2 weeks watering grass every single day.  I'll have to install water Y spigots at every lot. That isn't a lot of money but it's still work and an ordeal. I'll have to buy a lot more water hoses and sprinklers. This is why I was balking at the price of sod or grass seed. It's not just the cost of the seed or sod, it's the cost of it plus the cost of everything else.  

If I don't do it, I'll have bare bones dirt lots and that is unappealing, ugly and nothing I want to have at my park.  So, I'll update when I get the man's actual quote and what needs to be done, if anything, to prepare the soil.  I doubt too much, that spray comes with all the stuff mixed in with it that it needs to make it grow. 

The older couple is leaving on the 8th.  The scare with the man's heart and falling was too much for them, they are moving close to their family somewhere near Waco. That is a serious blow to me, not only finances but some of the eyes in the park.  I've already got 4 lots open right now. Plus another guy's work is running out next month, he'll be gone.  And so on and so forth, 

So I get this call. It goes on for a while. The more they talk, the less interested I am in having them move into the park.  About the time he started talking about building a porch out of pallets? No thank you. But they were trying to get me down to $375 per month. $400 is my rock bottom minimum.  It's just too much money in electricity coming up to think about taking anything less, $400 is too low but I've got to try to get people in there somehow.  They wouldn't budge from their $375 and I just said no thank you, $400 is the lowest I'll go.  

Another trailer I had "in the bag", another one where opportunists sold it from underneath me. This time, I had already enlisted the help of a 5th wheel rv mover and had them ready to go. It's a long story, irritating because of what these people did and I just don't want to go into it. Maybe another day. I'll say that it was promised to me, I had my act together and getting it done in the time frame they wanted and they still just decided to have multiple people coming at the same time to "look at it".  No one was going to look at it, they were going to buy it.  

I can only say that if someone is selling a bumper pull that I want, I can go get it with the SUV.  And so far, the bumper pulls I have seen in the price range I am in are complete garbage.  There is a motor coach I saw come up today that looks very good for a great price, I am - going to see it - tomorrow.  I say it that way because they said fine, we'll see you then, even sending the address. But after these last experiences, I certainly am not driving out there without verifying that they still have it and they don't have anyone else coming out to look at it.  If they're doing that, the other person can have it.  I'll just keep looking.  I look numerous times per day, new rv's come online frequently and some of them I think I want and I try to be the first respondent. This motor coach is older but it only has 52,000 miles on it.  Again, so they say.  I doubt it has 1,052,000 on it, People don't drive RV's that much even in 25 years.  Mostly anyways.  

It's a gamble at 62 miles away, the pics look good, they say the bathroom floor needs replaced.  I can either do it myself or find someone to do it - like the dude at the park looking for extra work.  

Forget that one. someone else is going to look at it.  I am not driving out there for nothing, too far and waste of time.  I did, however, find someone that had a motorcoach for sale that I did, indeed, lowball.  Just because it's all I can afford.  They came back at me with a different motor coach that is older but in excellent condition.  After discussing it with him on the phone, I decided I really want the thing. 

The problem? It's 166 miles away.  I have looked at Amtrak, Greyhound and ride shares. No Greyhound service and rideshare starting price is over $400 to get me there.  I can rent a car - over in longview, there are none available here, but I would have to drop the car off in a town 16 miles away from the town the motorcoach is located in. So, unless they have Uber, how would I get from one city to the next? The thing is in excellent running condition, even has a working generator on it. It's old, but it has been taken care of.  IF the site is correct, there IS Lyft service in Midlothian, which is 16 miles away from the town.  So, I could get there for a little over $100.  

I dunno.  I'm just pondering a lot of things right now.  

G'day

 Wednesday, mid-morning. 

I'm trying to get caught back up on my sleep.  It's working at least today.  8 hours of precious, beautiful sleep and feeling a little better. 

I have an agenda today and I intend on trying to get it done. The 4 wheeler is ready to go and try to see if it's going to work.  I am admittedly dragging my @$$ today because of the lack of sleep for 6 previous nights, save one where I did sleep fairly well.  

Loading up the 4 wheeler with the new attachment, I am asked if I want to go to lunch? Lol, I feel like I just got out of bed. BTW, summertime is upon us.  The boys are out of school for 2 months.  There are things they will be doing this summer, including a 2 week vacation to Florida (I'm not going, this is Taylor going to see an old friend).  There are other things of which escape my mind atm, but they will probably be spending a lot of time with me out in the heat.  If they don't like the heat, they can go sit in the shed.  Either way, I have stuff to do and tho they can come with me, I'm not going to be constantly watching them.

Right now,  or in the next short period of time, I really need to decide what to do about grass. Besides cost, the other thing that crossed my mind is watering it.  If a lot has a trailer on it, they are using the water hookup.  Does this mean I need to install dual water outlets at every lot?  And if I do that, I will be installing a shut off valve at ground level on all of them. One thing always leads to another in this situation.

One blow after another. The older couple are also leaving on the 8th.  The recent fall the man had and having to have a pacemaker installed left the wife needing to move somewhere where they can have family help them.  This will be a blow in a couple of ways. First, of course, another long-term leaving. Second, these people helped me watch out for the park.  I do have the camera out there, of course.

I'm going to have too many lots open and I will likely have to resort to cut throat rates again to get anyone in there.  They were only paying $400 per month anyway, but still.  I don't know what else to do besides going ahead and posting it in the local gossip venues.  I have avoided them because of some of the caustic people in those groups that find fault with everything and make snarky replies all the time.  But, one of those is the main local venue and for that, I need to at least try it once.  

The only reason I'm saying that is that a church campground that specializes in having churches come in with lots of folks is also renting out rv lots on a limited basis and advertised in there.  The fact of the matter is, I will just have to eat it and say ok, I"ll have to go with lower rates and hope there is still decent profit after the electric bills.  The only thing that really got people in there was lower rates.  When faced with $1,100 electric bills, that doesn't really sound too appealing but having 6 lots empty after they leave? That isn't going to work either. At least there is  profit to be made at a lower rate.  I think I'll list it as $400 for single AC units and $425 for 2.  

If that doesn't get people in there, pretty much nothing will beyond expensive amenities that I don't have the money to pay for right now, which namely would be a swimming pool.  A clubhouse with activites, etc.  Just not enough money. A swimming pool would get half the town over there, not just rv'ers.  Of course my insurance wouldn't allow me to do that, just saying that pools are very popular around here.  No clue.  Get my medical card renewed and go back to work, list everything at such low rates that it would be ridiculous to overlook the place and move on.  Or, do what some other parks are doing in buying these small mobile-home looking things. Or, just buy the trailers like I have been wanting to.  People will rent them, I get enough calls about it.  

I'm waiting on these people to tell me when the pasture is going to dry enough to get in there.  I have a person lined up to move the thing if this happens. If not, I'll keep looking but I'd like to find one pretty soon. 

Whatever the case, I have a driveway to try and plow.

Editing: they contacted me just now about that trailer I want to buy.  I'm going to drive the 115 miles to look at it and probably buy the thing.  

G'day

 Tuesday - late morning, everyone gone (thankfully).  House is quiet.  I got home last night around 12:45 am, opened the door to my room and turned the light on --- it took Addler totally by surprise. He was sound asleep, woke up, raised his head, looked at me dazed and confused, eyes half open, lmao.  Once he recognized who I was he jumped up to greet me.  I turned the AC in my room down to "ice cold" setting after burning up for 5 days.  I love my mother dearly, but I doubt I will be doing any visits there unless it's winter time and the temps are much cooler.  That way, the AC doesn't have to be on in her house.  She would be completely offended if I decided to stay at a hotel, so I just have to figure out something else and that something else is just be there when the house is naturally cooled down.  

It's not a money issue, she just prefers to being warm all the time.  I don't get it, but I don't have to, just have to work around it.  

I was thinking of another visit later on this year.  If it's possible, anyway.  

I found a couple of trailers I am interested in. One I probably would have already bought but the person selling it is - who knows what this person is doing. She said her boyfriend was thrown in jail and she needs the money. It's $600 and I pounced on it.  Decent shape, you can't find something in that condition for $600.  It wasn't a "scammish" type of thing. She said she was trying to get gas money so she could show it to me.  

But, 30 minutes later, she removed the listing from Marketplace, saw my questions but didn't respond. So I don't know if that means she sold it, or thinks she has it sold to me, or if she still wants to keep it? No clue.  The other one is a 5th wheel at $1,500.  This one is in really good shape, the ad says the only thing wrong with it is the refrigerator doesn't work. Great, throw the thing out and get a new one. A new regular fridge, I should add, not an RV version.  RV versions are very expensive. These are small refrigerators and they don't cost a fortune. 

I take that back, the last time I priced them they didn't cost a fortune.  That has probably changed by now.  lt is possible the fridge in it could be fixed.  Whatever the case, it rained heavily last night and the dude said he wanted it to dry out first. Not the trailer, but where he has the trailer parked. From the pics, there are no roof leaks on it at all.  I could probably rent the thing for $600 per month, utilities/lot rent included.  I figure sooner or later, I'm going to snag something decent and get the thing making me some money.  

Well cancel the trailer that the person disappeared. She wrote back - "someone" took the ac off of it and left the roof open.  In other words, there is substantial water damage to the thing.  No thank you.   A trailer like that isn't worth anything at all. Not only that, but there are no tires on it, lol.  AND it has to be moved by "noon today".  Sketchy, at best. This other trailer, however, looks really good on the inside. $1,500 is at the threshold of what I want to pay but if I advertise it on the local gossip groups I should be able to rent it quickly.  

I've never quite understood people who just let leaks go in their trailers. They must know that any rain is going to cause damage.  Any time I had a leak, I would get up there and address the problem.  There's another trailer which looked ok from the outside, but the pics inside? Lmao.  It was totally gutted. The interior had been stripped out of it and there were wires hanging down from the ceiling with trash laying everywhere.  That is just garbage, why do people even try to sell such trash? 

Anyway, the other trailer which is definitely in decent condition is being held for me.  So they say. It's parked in a field and they are saying it's too wet, ie: get stuck trying to drive out to it.  I said I want it- it's not sight unseen, there are a LOT of pics inside and out of this thing. You can tell there are no leaks, you can see the interior furnishings are in decent shape. You just have to take the person's word for it that appliances work, excepting the fridge.  I dunno, but I'm going to ask the older couple at the park if they can get it for me.  It's a 5th wheel and I have no way of moving one. If they can't, there are people in the area that will do it, just for much more money.  This is just an initial plan, of course, they have to actually sell it to me first before I can get the thing lol.  

Ok enough talk about trailers. They at least confirmed that I can take the thing in writing, in reality who knows.  As for the park. I am so out of it today.  I just didn't sleep that much during the trip and then getting home so late last night.  I slept for 5 hours and then the sun came up and woke me up.  I need to go over there and check things out for sure.  James built that attachment for the 4 wheeler and made a new hitch plate to hook the thing up to it.  There is no way I am going to even try to do any of that today.  In fact, I just need to collect some money and then I'm probably going to go straight back home.

Oh, well the outside camera also needs to be recharged.  And there is something "orange" on the side of the driveway that appeared out of nowhere.  It's hard to tell what it is, but it is a curiosity that I want to go check out.  

Oh, well the attachment is a mini plow of sorts. I has rippers on it - tines with sharp edges - that tear down into the ground and till it up.  It has a box on the top so you can put weight into it for better plowing ability.  I'll see about getting to that tomorrow. Which means getting the trailer, loading the SUV and the attachment up, taking it over there, unloading it, etc.  I want to see if I can line up getting that trailer towed over here.  If I can get it cleaned up nicely, I'll just put it in a regular RV lot. It looks like it just needs a really good cleaning on the outside of it. 

There's always plenty to do.  

 Sitting at Sky Harbor airport.  I got here early after seeing that this would be one of the major travel days.  Although there are definitely some people here, it's nothing like what one would expect for a very crowded airport.  Not at all. I spent maybe 10 minutes going through security and could have easily spent another hour talking with mom before departing.  But, you know, I didn't want to get stuck at a security checkpoint nightmare.  You don't really know what to expect when you arrive at an airport.  

I did end up going to the bar and I visited with my old friend for about 5-1/2 hours and his friends that also showed up.  It was fun, I can say that, because it'a karoake bar and they have it almost every night of the week.  They wanted me to sing, I politely declined lol.  I can do my version of singing, I'm fairly certain it's nothing anyone wants to be subjected to.  It was getting late, at least by my standards and so after much discussion about various things, I said I was leaving.  Well, they  wanted me to cancel my flight and take off the next day.  Uhh, no.  I don't even think this setup would allow for that and even if it did, I'm more than ready to go home.

It was a good visit, I'm glad I came, I'm glad I am going home. Mom and I talked for many hours this morning tho.  The Lyft driver noted that she didn't look too happy when I was leaving.  No, she was sad, had tears in her eyes.  I might try to make it back later this year when it's much cooler and I can stand being in that hot house without feeling very uncomfortable. It's just he way she has always been, she likes being warm and 82 degrees is comfortable to her. 

I haven't slept too well excepting maybe one night because I was so exhausted. This is the major reason I want to go home. Yes, I have sleep issues, but I do, indeed, end up getting some sleep at home at least.  I won't even be home until around 1:00 am.  I did sign up for volunteering to take another flight online, but only at the $600 rate.  Leaves tomorrow morning and arrives early afternoon.  I don't know that anything is going to become of it, but I did hear the attendants at the desk talking to flight personnel who are deadheading.  That sometimes means people are going to be asked to volunteer to take another flight.  

There are a lot of standby people as well.  I am sitting close enough to the desk to hear conversations, Some of these people look desperate.  Whatever, I'd rather just fly home but the opportunity for free money is certainly right up there on my list as well.  Not to mention a hotel .  

And sitting here waiting, a man calls for a spot. Yes sir, we have 2 pull throughs and a back in spot available tonight.  He didn't actually commit, he just said "if we make it that far".  Yup, a lot of them do that, see if they can get a spot but not sure if they are going to be able to make it that far.  

That's it. My mind is a jumble of different thoughts at the moment.  Flight boards in 22 minutes.  

 Sunday - early afternoon. 

Doesn't feel like Sunday for some reason.  Mostly been hanging out with mom, saw my son and have plans to see an old friend tonight - at a bar. Not my choice, this is where he hangs out at and where he wants to meet. Whatever, at least it's not far.  That will be it for my visiting for tomorrow afternoon I am going back home. 

Good to see mom again, she's doing well, certainly for her age and I can rest easy for a while. I probably won't consider coming for a visit again unless it's in the winter time here.  She keeps the thermostat at 80-82 and that's her comfort zone. Mine, for sleeping at least, is 70. You may think that sounds like a ridiculous reason to put off another trip, but it's really not.  I was sitting there sweating at the dinner table when I first got here and finally she said something about the temp and I said, yes, need to cool it down, at least a few degrees.  

It was a great visit with my son, albeit only 2-1/2 hours. He was getting ready to go out with his circle of friends.  He turned 30 the other day and they were going to drag him off to bar and try to get him drunk.  Well, he said, I don't really drink, but they are driving so I'll go.  I don't know how that went, I think I"ll contact him and see what happened\, lol.  Since I will probably have a few beers tonight, I am not going to drive either. It's Memorial Day weekend and the cops are out looking for impaired drivers.  I will not be getting drunk but they can make stuff up. 

A Lyft ride at $20 each way is cheaper than a trip to jail and all that entails.  They do sobriety check points here, which I think is a huge infringement on citizens' rights regardless of the "good" reasons they are doing it. There is no probable cause, they just stop everyone. I saw something that said you don't "have" to go through the checkpoint, you can turn around and go the other way.  Yea, right, and you are telling me they aren't going to come chasing you down? 

I also found out this particular bar has cops that sit around waiting for people to leave. Anyway, it's just trouble I don't need, thank you very much. 

I'm not really into the bar scene, is what I'm saying.  I don't mind going to Chili's with a bar there, but that's a family style restaurant, not a bar-only thing where there is loud music, people getting drunk, people looking for fights, people have to yell to talk to anyone - not my thing at all.  I wish this interaction could be done elsewhere.  Whatever. I'm looking forward to going home tomorrow.  I have been having trouble sleeping - much worse than I already have at home.  I would have rather stayed at a hotel, tbh.  

The flight won't land in Longview until late, I figure I won't get to the house earlier than 1:00 am. I have no intentions of getting out of bed once I am there until late morning if that.  I'm just going to laze around the house Tuesday unless there is something pressing going on at the park.  There probably is, who knows, I got texts from people saying an "old trashy truck" showed up last night camping behind the shed.  Yes, that was me letting some folks stay the night so they could get a shower.  They paid $10 and spent an hour bathing in the bathroom. I know this because I looked at the notifications on my camera.  I didn't know what kind of people they are, didn't want to see things like tools walking out of there with them. 

I don't really trust people.  I got 2 forms of identification from them, pics texted to me.  The lady said they are from Oklahoma and they were visiting her father who is dying, but they don't get along with his wife who isn't her mother.  I get that, totally.  The identification showed they are from here but also another ID from a tribal government in Oklahoma. They are already gone so I don't have to worry about these people complaining about them. They originally asked about tent camping and that's what I was going on. They ended up just being in a pickup and needing access to a bathroom.  I'll bleach that shower and toilet nicely when I get back.  

I had a 6 nighter cancel. Another one gone. This one, the daughter of the man had something happen that he had to cancel and he offered to let me charge him for one night. Standard in the industry, tho I haven't even made up my mind about that.  Another RV coming tonight, or so they say anyway.  

I've got a 9 day stay coming tomorrow.  Hopefully they won't also be canceling?  Traveling season and I'm not really getting a good share or the travelers coming in. I have several lots available right now for overnighters.  Only one guy contacted me 2 days ago about a long term but he never committed and didn't show up.  

The boys were missing me to the point Taylor asked if I would facetime them.  Oh? I don't do facetime, but I made an exception.  They had gotten themselves into trouble - again. This time, they were both looking at Youtube in the bed in their bedroom when they were supposed to be sleeping.  IE: get up, go to the living room, get the device.  That got them blocked from games for the entire Memorial Day Weekend.  The younger boy cracks me up tho. He'll come home from school with a headache.  Why do you have a headache?  Too much talking.  Huh?  They talk too much at school. He is referring to the teachers lmao.  No, he doesn't like school, lol

Ok well enough.  There isn't much to discuss besides the ever evolving political and woke landscape that is basically destroying our nation - or at least turning it into something that probably most people don't want but won't do anything about it.  These politicians are something else. I had at least some hopes that McCarthy would stand firm until Democrats caved at least a little. Apparently this "deal" he has worked out isn't anything on the scope of what the bill the House passed earlier this year had in it.  In other words, as far as I can see it, he caved.  That's pretty much the mantra of the Republican party, cave.  

I'm going to take a nap, lol.  Didn't sleep well. 

 Admittedly in a bit of a grumpy mood this morning, I ended up going back to bed for a while. I was still exhausted.  An hour nap and I felt better.  Met with my son for near 3 hours at the Denny's near where he lives. It was a good visit, a lot of information passed back and forth.  His friends are taking him to some bar tonight to celebrate his 30th birthday. No, he's not a heavy drinker.  He drinks socially and not that often.  It was a fun and enjoyable visit. I doubt I'll see him again this trip.  

Back home, ate a huge dinner with mom and that's it. I have no other plans today and don't want any more plans.  2-1/2 more days and I'll be going home.  I think I will try and meet up with a friend that keeps saying he wants to, just hasn't happened yet.  He's having a cookout Monday and as much as I would love to come for that, the plane departs Monday sometime after 5 and I suspect I will need to leave here for the airport by 2 pm.  It's 45 minutes over there and Monday is likely going to be a huge travel day.  

At least the flight is shorter than the one that went from DFW to LAX.  I am pretty confident it will be a completely full airplane. They had people on standby for the DFW to LAX flight.  

Since lot 2 left, I opened up yet another lot for short term.  The pull throughs are popular and lot 2 is a pull through. In case someone needs a place to stop, they can do that online.  I had one person asking if I had a long term spot available today, yes.  Do you have 50 amp service? yes.  All questions were answered yes - and then he disappeared.  That's it, tho, I have no new prospects coming in for long term.  

Yes, obviously, I am keeping track of what is going on  at the park. An overnighter pulled in earlier - I got a notification and looked. They are prepaid, another coming tomorrow for same-said lot and then 2 more incoming tomorrow, another on Sunday and then a 5 day stay on Monday.  After that is another coming in on Thursday and then? That's it. For now, anyway, with no more short or long term booked.  As I said, this situation needs to change and in a hurry.  I need 3 more long term and I need them pretty quick.  

Funny thing, Facebook allowed one of my posts to run over and over - delete and relist option - and then today? They said it doesn't meet their standards and was deleted lmao.  The part that is ridiculous is they don't bother to tell you why, they just say it's in violation and dump it without giving the option to fix it.  In fact, I even paid for a boost on that ad a couple of times! FB and it's inconsistencies.  

Well whatever.  Not a lot going on atm.  Well, excepting the dude that fell and ended up in the hospital in Longview. He fell because of his heart, whatever happened exactly I don't know, but he now has a pacemaker in  and is home at the park recovering.  Initially misunderstood, I thought they said he fell and then had the heart problem. Then I find out he fell because of the heart problem.  Ok then, that sounds more feasible.  

The time change here is messing with me.  2 hours behind us, my bedtime is coming up soon yet it's only almost 7:00 pm here.  I'm really tired. I just never got caught up on my sleep from trip for the texting in the middle of the night last night with the power out.  I think I'm going to retire early tonight.  

 Half an hour waiting for this laptop to do an update that I didn't want.  I hate this computer.  

Anyway, we'll just go straight to that landing at PHX yesterday.  For I have never been through anything like that.  We turbulence about a half an hour before we even got to the airport.  I didn't think much of it until we started descending and the turbulence got worse.  The plane was jumping up and down, the wings up and down, kind of crazy. 

We got somewhere within 100 feet of touching down when it hit and it hit hard, the turbulence that is. The nose pitched up, the right wing went way up, then the whole plane dropped and then? Throttles.  Thank God.  The aborted the landing and did a go around.  Again, thank God because from my view, we were not lined up with the runway and the plane was not at the correct attitude to even land.  

I wasn't not the only one that became unnerved by that event. When the plane stopped, people that travel frequently were making comments.  It's one thing to hit severe turbulence at 35,000 feet, quite another when you're about to touch down.  

The second landing actually was the same thing, heavy turbulence but this time they managed to get it down.  I can tell you that I went straight to get my luggage and then I sat down for probably an hour.  My stomach was in knots and the food I had eaten a few hours earlier was not setting well.  I really didn't feel much better until I went to bed last night. I didn't eat dinner, I was exhausted as it was getting up at 2:30 am and I was toast. 

The day might may have been over, but the phone started blowing up at 3: 00 am.  What is going on?  The power went out at the park and nearly everyone was texting me telling me about it.  Another tree down, according to Swepco, but what am I supposed to do about it?  I took a screen shot of the fact they already knew about it and a tree was down and texted it back to everyone.  The weird thing is there was no weather going on. Trees don't normally go down unless there is a storm and heavy winds.  

I managed to somehow get back to sleep but I was up early.  

It seems like they have crammed seating even tighter on airplanes.  It wasn't fun that the man that sat down next to me on the flight from DFW to LAX was also large framed. I don't mean overweight, just a large framed man.  Our skeletal composure forced our arms to be "into" each other.  It was something I knew neither he nor I could change so we just both moved our arms so they wouldn't be touching at least.  A kid kicking my seat from the rear, I made the best of it.  

LAX - a cheeseburger -and we are talking a very plain cheeseburger, nothing fancy at all and a pile of fries? $17.  

Whatever. All of that is over and I am reminded once again why I don't travel to California nor do I like coming Arizona. Just watch the local news. Murders, shootings, death all over the place.  

This post negative? Well it's been a pretty negative trip so far, excepting mom and I sat down and talked for several hours last night before  I went to bed. That was good and we watched rabbits eating grass in her back yard.  

Oh, and the older couple? Saying that the people that pulled into lot 3 have 2 dogs that are crapping on her lawn and also that the husband fell and is in the hospital. The truck driver trainer is pulling out today, which was expected but leave several lots empty.  I have some overnighters coming in, one today and another Sunday.  But that's it, so far anyway.  

So, the idea of going back to work looms large.  I can't pay my bills on a half empty park and unless a slew of people come in in the next week or so, it's going to be my fate.  Might as well go get the medical thing over and done with, that will take care of that requirement. I'm sure someone will hire me even with a minor accident and ticket on the record, but the premium jobs I may not get. 

So what am I doing now? Sitting at a table at mom's house, typing out my blog entry as is my habit and trying to get over the aggravation of everything that has happened since I left town yesterday.  I love visiting mom and I"m sure I'll enjoy seeing my son, but it will be a while before I came back down here after this trip is over with.  Hopefully this will get better.  

Anyway, yes I'm set to see my son, sometime today we haven't worked that out, just that we were going to meet on Friday. After today, I have no idea what I'm doing.  

Editing this: I think another factor that is really getting to me is my mother likes living in much warmer conditions than I am used to. She has the thermostat set at 80 degrees, we have ours set at around 70 or even cooler.  I'm sitting here sweating, basically and yes, that's adding to the aggravation factor.