Sunday - Early

Woke up out of a deep sleep. I wasn't in a deep sleep earlier in the night and I could easily have spent another 3 or 4 hours in bed.  

Sundays - not work days. Not in my mind anyway.  The only good thing is normally it's 7 - 8 hours and it's over, I'm done by 2:00 pm at the latest and I have the rest of the afternoon and evening to do whatever. 

Mark contact me last night, wants to come back for his firewood. I replied with one word: yup. But he had to take it further so I just dished out another dosage of reality. He was blaming the lady that he cussed out and I wasn't even going to deal with that, this was all done through texting this time.  

Take responsibility, get help with your excessive drinking and stop the victim and manipulation garbage, it gets old. Or something like that.  I didn't bother to read what he wrote back for it was bedtime and I didn't need his poison invading my mind when I'm trying to go to sleep.

His lot has an overnighter in it right now.  Another 4 night stay coming in on Thursday, I think, but that was slated for another pull through lot with people pulling out of there soon.  I would rather the lady behind the shed take the other lot and leave lot 1 open. It's that or she is going to have to pay more for that lot...it's what I do with that one and the one across from it.

And in sad news, one of the welders in my park had some sort of brain trauma which resulted in him having to have brain surgery a few days ago. I don't have the whole scoop on that but I do now know that his trailer is being moved out of there to take it home to wherever in Oklahoma.  He, his father and friend have occupied those 3 spots since January of last year. 

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Late afternoon. 

I call the washout and they say they are already there and opened. I get there and there's no one there. I call the number on the door, the normal dude answers (versus whoever answered the phone the first time), said he'd be there in 20 minutes. Get to the plant.  Oh, well there's a truck that just got here that is loading first.  My appointment time was 10:00 am, I was there at 9:56 am even with the holdup at the washout.  

At the inspection station was closed on the way back.

I go talk to the dude that beat Mark up.  He was high as a kite, you could tell just looking at him. I don't really care that much about that, it's the stuff that makes people violent and rowdy - meth/crack or alcohol - that concerns me.  He said Mark and him were drinking, Mark started using the N word (racial slur word) and this guy said, ok, I'm going home.  Mark allegedly grabbed him by the shoulder and that's when the fight broke out.  

I knew they were both drunk, or I guessed that anyway.  Do I take this guy's word at face value? I take the facts of how Mark acts, especially when drunk and then make rational deductions.  Mark speaks, offends someone, the someone gets mad, hits Mark, end of story.  

It's over, Mark is gone, if this dude starts any more trouble, then I might have to think again about letting him stay there. For now? I doubt it.  Mark has a way of getting on your nerves to the point you can get angry with him.  

Mark hasn't replied to the 2, rather-long, texts I sent him this morning after his reply to me.  I don't know if he will.  I also spoke with Tina and then the lady behind the shed. She wants lot 1 - where Mark was. I tell her fine, but that lot costs more money. She agreed so I said fine again.  She wants to move there on Saturday.  I opened up the reservation system for that lot in case I can rent it out for an overnight before then.  This lady is really nice, she is going to have her boyfriend living with her. I haven't seen him yet.

I already feel so much better about the park.  Just getting that man out of there.  Apparently the entire park knows about it, lol.  I also took the 8 going on 9 year old to Gamestop for his birthday present. He couldn't decide. So we go to Walmart. Still couldn't decide. Finally got to the gaming section and he saw a pair of headphones - he's been wanting to talk to the other kids playing for a long time.  So, that's what he got.  

Stopped at Chili's, I wanted to speak to the lady that is connected to this lady at the park.  She said, yes! That's my mother in law. She never connected her mother in law with my park even tho she had said my name.  That's your park?!! Yup.  Well, people stop at her trailer, knock on her door and tell her everything that's going on in there.  Ok folks, that park has some sort of social structure that inevitably arises when you have a bunch of people living fairly close together.  

I looked to see if the guy that had brain surgery's trailer was gone. Not in a hurry to get him out of there, I had just heard they were going to move it back to wherever he lives.  I don't know anything about brain surgery in terms of recovery time or what was wrong with him or what the prognosis is.  Can he go back to work, ever? Or a recovery time? Or is he done?  Must pray for that man, he's much too young to be going through some extreme, life-altering event such as this.  

So, lot 1 and 2 are currently empty. Lot 1 will be taken on Saturday, lot 2 will be kept open for overnight.  I have an ad up on facebook for the "alternate" lot behind the shed, just an ad on my facebook business page.  I will boost it in an ad format once she gets the whole situation taken care of. She is going to haul out her current trailer back there and then haul in a 40 foot - guessing 5th wheel trailer in there.  

The weather forecast changes as frequently as the blades on a ceiling fan go around in circles.  I'm seeing between 21 and 28 degrees for Friday.  The week after are days slated for 20 degrees.  Tuesday is my day off, I'll go to lowe's, hope they have that noodle insulation, buy enough to fix everything back up and get it all covered.  

 I was looking at the camera for several hours this morning - Mark's lot is clearly visible. He was out there with his buddy. They put in the slide outs, unhooked the water hose, sewer line and the electrical line. It was about an hour later and he was gone.  Shortly after that, the lady he was calling a slut, cu** and other lovely names sent a video of it.  

It is a liberating feeling to force him out of there and be rid of him. Whatever the aftermath is with other guests who liked him, it is what it will be. I hated going to the park with him being there, honestly, because the first thing he'd do is come over, start calling me an ass****, a grumpy old man and interrupting anything I tried to say to him.  I had had it out with him numerous times and was done with him as it was, but finding out he was harassing this lady to the point of calling her foul names was the straw that broke the camel's back.

Now I can go over there and not be bothered by this shell of a man. I actually feel sorry for him, for he has no clue, apparently, how abhorrent his behavior is.  I told him, trust me, I told him several times over but it never sunk in.  He had plenty of chances to straighten up his act, he was getting too drunk, too often and that was and is that. He is gone and I will never have him back there. His lot is now available and I already have an overnighter coming in tonight, I had to turn another one away unfortunately, I only have that one lot available for overnighters.  

It may change if Mark was trash talking me as I have heard he was and had an effect on the handful of partiers that liked him.  It won't be shocking to me if, when their rent is due, they up and move to wherever he went. However, his work is far from my park and it isn't likely that people will want to move so far away just to - be near him or spite me or both?  No clue.  I just prepare myself for whatever may come, maybe nothing will happen and everyone will stay. 

As I said in a previous post, I have nothing against anyone else there. I haven't had the kinds of problems with anyone else as I have had with Mark, unless you consider the guy that beat the s*** out of Mark a problem.  I don't think he is, but I haven't had a chance to talk to him. He was home when I got back from my run, he took off before I could go over to his trailer.  I do want to his side of the story, highly unlikely I will do anything, highly likely Mark started it by mouthing off to him in a drunken stupor.

Mark claimed that some of the guys were sick of him, but he doesn't really hang out with those people. I think Mark was shooting off at the mouth yet once again. 

Now then, we had the birthday party today for the 8 turning 9 year old.  Just cause' it's easier to have birthday parties on the weekend and the actual birthday is on Monday - school restarts after 2-1/2 weeks off. Still astounding to me that a school would have kids off that much time for any holiday break.  It's got to be hard for the kids to get their minds back into school mode after having that much time off.  It was fun, lots of cake, money and gifts to the kid and a bunch of people came over to celebrate it. 

As for me, tomorrow - Sunday - work, Monday, work, Tuesday off, Wednesday and Thursday - work and after that? No idea, but I want Sunday off.  If I miss one weekend, I'm getting the next off.  It's non-negotiable and I've let them know this in no uncertain terms.  As for all of these new viewers that showed up out of the blue? Apparently they left as quickly as they showed up, lol.  Kind of strange.  

Tuesday I'm going to have to assess my pipes and get covered back up any of them where the insulation has come off. It will likely be  along day.  Friday slated to be 22 degrees low overnight, that's getting into hard freeze territory.  I'm thinking re-cover the pipes where it's come off and then potentially just get 5 gallon buckets to turn upside down over top of the pipes. They don't stick out of the ground that much, a bucket would help keep the frost off at least.  

What I'm worried about, however, is this polar vortex situation and the idea that the jetstream holding it back over Canada is going to buckle and allow it to move into the US, including southern states.  You get down into single digit territory and you have a real threat of frozen, burst pipes without serious and even drastic measures being taken.  In this case? I would likely turn off the water to the park, drain the water out and not have to worry about it.  Fire it back up the next morning after the temps rise.  I haven't seen any forecast for anything that low - yet - they were saying about a week and a half and we'll see what's going to happen. 

My water meter is down low, at the bottom of the hill, the water in the park would naturally drain back down to it and if there is no water pressure and no water in the pipes, there is nothing to cause the pipes to burst.  

Ok. It's bedtime, up early even tho I know I'm not going to want to work tomorrow.  

 Saturday - early

Weekend working is not my favorite thing to do, small paychecks aren't my favorite either.

On that note, last paycheck was substantially higher than the previous one and has me rethinking the idea of going and finding a new job. If I were to get that kind of pay every paycheck, it's just on the cusp of the minimum amount I want to make at any given company for the hours given to it to perform the tasks the company requires of me.

Today is Gurdon. The temp outside right now is 41 degrees, cold (my version of it anyway), but not near as cold as it has been.  

The man causing the problems is leaving "this weekend". I told him to be out no later than the end of today.  I just want him gone at this point, he has caused too many problems and has broken one of my own personal rules of cussing out ladies,, calling them vile names and acting like a child.  Much of this has to do with his constant drinking problem.  He's bored, he drinks, he opens his mouth, a bunch of shit starts pouring out and then all hell starts breaking loose for those that he dislikes.

He's lucky that dude he followed up to the store didn't bust his ass.  He's also lucky the state of Texas hasn't caught him with the booze considering his status with the state and he's further lucky that this lady that he called a cu** didn't report him, for she was tempted to do so.  If he leaves today, I'll wash my hands of this, hope that I never have to deal with a person like this again. I actually had one a while back something like him, but his drunknenness caused him to lose his job and the problem fixed itself.

This guy was laid off, or so he says.  I don't really believe a word he says now and I really don't want to hear him speaking at all.  The amount of lies that spilled from his mouth along with the vile speech crossed my line a while back when I had it out with him the way he was talking to me.  Yes, I'm still agitated with this situation, it will dissipate once he's gone. Other people in the park like him, that's fine and that's their choice, but his incredibly foul behavior is making life hellish for several people including the ladies in the park and I won't tolerate it. 

I do ask people if they have any felonies on their record that are of a violent nature.  I don't do that just to keep that kind of person out of the park, I also do it because my previous insurance required it. I don't know what the current insurance requires, the insurance agency had to switch companies on me after the last one declared they weren't going to insure RV parks anymore.  I haven't received the paperwork yet from the new one to read over.  

As for this blog, a sudden influx of viewers has come onto this page and I'm wondering who, what and where.  I have never seen Facebook or X or other social media sites giving suggestions for people you may know about their blogs, otherwise I would wonder if park people didn't find this page. Not that it matters, if that's the case, you now know how I feel about this situation and my mind isn't going to be changed about it.  

Regardless, my time is up. I was sitting here watching a Bar Rescue show, lol, some of it is highly entertaining.  Jon Taffer just goes straight for the throat with his criticisms of the owners, usually, of any given bar and how they aren't really running the bar.

Anyway, all the new viewers? have a great day as well as the regulars.

 Friday - early

Slated to work at least through Monday. We'll see how that pans out, as for right now, today is still a go.

Rain, rain, rain.  It's raining moderate to heavy and it's not going to be any fun getting out there in it.  It will likely add time to the run as well, plus it's chilly and yes, I do have an umbrella - in the truck lol\

I tried to set the field on fire yesterday, no go. I poured out a swath of gas onto the weeds, lit it up and poof, the weeds burned up but did not set any of the weeds next to where the gas was, on fire.  It's quite dead and dried out, I was hoping for a little better result than that.  Next will be a weed torch.  This is simply a long line with an attachment for throwing out flames, basically. It attaches to a propane tank.  It's a relatively cheap setup, it won't be something that goes quickly but I'm hopeful if I spend a few days at it, I can get a lot of those weeds burned down.

After the weed torch, if that really doesn't work - it'll be trying the riding mower. I can't see how the torch won't work, I can see if it just takes forever to go through all of that with it. Unless, of course, a good wind is blowing and just blows the entire thing on fire. It doesn't matter right now, the rain will cancel those plans for several days.  Since there is a 98% chance of thunderstorms on Monday? It's going to be a while before I get back to that.  

Interestingly, however, there is a lot of grass growing in the field, all around the weed stalks coming out of the ground.  This is what I wanted out there in the first place - get the weeds out and get grass growing.. Naturally growing grass even better, it should be the type that grows in any weather including hot summers?  There's ground weeds in the mix as well, but still, nothing growing straight up and looking ugly.

Mark - I still haven't seen him come out of that trailer for 3 days now.  I mean, he has a dog, what is he doing with the dog's waste in there?  I start to get concerned that a person is having suicidal thoughts - his life isn't exactly going too great here.  He hasn't ever spoken anything about suicide, it just comes to mind when someone is holing themselves up in a small space and not coming out of it.  He probably doesn't want to move, I'm not sorry, he brought this upon himself.

First it was all the crap he was saying to me.  He goes around calling his "friends" as**oles, grumpy old men and a lot of other things that constantly flow out of his mouth, non-stop.  It got old and I confronted him on it several times.  He would go into the victim and manipulation stage at that point, tell me he'd go into his trailer and not bother anyone ever again. 

Of course, he doesn't do that. Then he got into a fistfight with another person in the park, getting a black eye and then, I find out he was calling the ladies all kinds of vile, vulgar and reprehensible names. That is when it became completely in tolerable and when I called him and let him know his presence is no longer welcome in the park. 

Regardless, it is time to leave and I still need to make a small thermos of coffee to take with me.

G'day

 Wednesday - late

I ended up driving over there a few minutes ago to collect from the newest addition to the park.  Nice guy, really nice doggy, good looking trailer.  We talked for a while and then I did a drive around the park to check things out.  Mark has not come out of his trailer that I have seen since we had it out.  I haven't seen him out of on the camera, either.  If I don't see him out of that trailer tomorrow, I'm going to start asking if anyone has seen him come out of there and if not, I may call the sheriff to do a welfare check.  

The park is full if only temporarily. The overnight lot is booked up until the 15th.  It is all blocked off on the reservation software grid so people can't book a night. I hate to turn overnighters away, but that's the story temporarily. I suspect another guy that came in about 3 weeks ago will leave with Mark. They both hit it off right off the bat.  I don't really care who leaves with him, tho I really don't suspect anyone but perhaps that guy will.  Things seem to work out lately that someone leaves and then it's not too much time and someone else comes in.  

The lady in the trailer behind the shed said she wanted to move her new trailer onto lot 2 on the 14th or the 20th.  Well, unless Mark leaves - and if I have to force the issue I am going to - but if he's not gone by then she is going to have to wait until the 20th.  She never gave me a definitive date after asking her a couple of times, I am going to make the money there is to be made until she takes it.  I'd just as soon keep lot 1 open for overnighters anyway.  It's good for the experience of coming into the park and having a really nice lot to stay at. 

So that's that.  Today was akin to a Monday.  People driving crazy and stupid.  I was in a town about to pass a pickup when another one came zooming up in the slow lane - this is a town mind you, not the open highway and just started moving over.  He would have hit the front of my truck had I not hit the brakes hard.  I could have just let him run into me, but I thought better of that idea.  Let the idiots drive like idiots, I don't want to get entangled with them. It wasn't like I had been sitting in the passing lane for 10 minutes, I had gotten over there to pass the pickup when this other guy did that.  

Another one pulled directly out in front of me from a driveway on a 70mph 2 lane highway where there was a passing lane where they cut me off. Fortunate for the passing lane. And a few others that did some crazy stuff, it's a daily thing but today there was a lot of it.  

The day is done, I have to go to Gurdon in the morning and am scheduled through Monday. But, it seems like every time they try to do this, a load gets canceled or something happens.  I don't really want to work on Sunday, then again, I didn't work for 5 days straight so I will eat it and work it without complaint - if it actually happens.  

And with that? I am off to bed. Tired and feeling it. 

 Tuesday - semi-early

Woke up at 4:00 am, was able to get back to sleep around 5 and then jolted awake for unknown reasons a little after 8:00 am.  That 3 more hours was very good.  I'm not glad my load was cancelled today, at the same time I'm quite happy about sleeping in a little, at least more than the normal 5:45 to get up for work.

I dunno what's on tap today.  It's very cold outside at 28 degrees so I'm in no hurry to go do much of anything. My room was 62 degrees when I woke up and it's still 66 in here with the heaters on. That will slowly change, but to help things along, I fired up the central heat furnace and opened my  bedroom door. Seems like everyone is in a fog this morning even tho no one went to bed late as far as I know. 

No work for me or James, I'm still contemplating setting that field on fire and see what happens.  

My eye was caught earlier with this rather smallish gazebo kits that Wayfair sells. Upon clicking on the link, however, I saw unbelievably high prices for very small setups. I just sat there and scrolled through looking at these things and the ridiculous price tags they have attached to them.  Even in this economy and the high price of wood, I could build one for half those prices or even less. 

It's like I started building my park at the absolute worst time in terms of inflation and prices of everything and since that was completed, the price of everything has continued to go up, skyrocketing to the point I must believe these people that somewhere along the line here, a recession or depression is coming.  I don't think most people can afford to buy things at the inflated prices they are currently sitting at for most everything that is for sale anywhere.  I am definitely not wishing for a depression, however, that would be catastrophic as history shows us and the people who are still alive that went through one in the early period of last century will attest.  

They don't forget such things and it affected their lives for the rest of their lives. How they see things, how they save, spend, everything.  My mother was born a bit after the depression but it definitely affected her life as well. She isn't cheap but she is very frugal.  There is nothing wrong with being frugal and if we end up in a serious recession or depression, I will be forced to take steps I dread to take, such as perhaps bankruptcy.  

However, these price levels can't stay up there forever.  If you set your prices so high for something that they become unobtainable for most people, how long will your business survive with a spartan crowd of consumers actually buying your wares?  

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The lady that Mark was calling a fat c*** and other vulgarities contacted me a few minutes ago telling me it was time to pay.  So, I took her card info and then she told me it "looks like Mark is moving out".  Sure enough, after looking on the camera, he has his truck hooked up to the trailer and is packing everything up.  Good riddance.  We had it out yesterday, as stated in a previous post, I mean, we had it out. I wasn't allowing him to bring up his s*** or allowing him to interrupt me.  It got loud in our house because I raised my voice on the phone to overtake him attempting to steer the conversation away from him.  As I have said repeatedly, he is always the victim in everything.  

It's not my fault.  No, a man just gave you a black eye for nothing.  A lady says she can't stand being around him and stopped going over to his place, but "it's not my fault".  Another lady says he's calling her all kinds of vulgar names, "it's not my fault".  Yet another lady said he invited her over to party with her, she said no thanks.  She never got involved with him but obviously she had bad vibes.  He's drinking when he's on parole, that will get him thrown back into prison if he's caught as far as I understand it.  Not my job to watch over him, the state of Texas will be visiting him.

He will drag his woes with him wherever he goes and likely he will be invited to leave other places as well unless they are just trailer trash parks that don't care what anyone does.  He will get drunk, start hell with someone somewhere else and then he'll get contacted by management or someone that is affected by his stupidity and he'll say "it's no my fault".  Well, dude, it's not your fault until it something like this happens.  I wonder if he'll leave negative reviews.

I'm bracing myself for an exodus of his friends he's made in the park.  They can leave, I don't care.  I already have someone moving in today and another one just called saying she wants to move in today if she decides my place is the right one for her.  

However.  I do have to say that I have to wonder if he's really leaving or if he's doing the manipulation crap again.  Like, I'm leaving, poor me, pity me, etc.  I am looking at his place, the truck is definitely hooked up to the trailer and he's loaded the truck bed up with stuff. However, the slide out isn't moved in and I don't see any movement from him.  Still, you have to put stuff away and lock things down when you're moving a trailer, there's a lot to it actually.  

So, I'll sit here and wait to see what happens. It's a premium lot and I charge more for it for it has a huge yard.  I can also use it for overnighters if I so choose, but again, I'm suspicious he's playing mind games again.  Regardless, just like that I have 2 people coming today to move in.  That leave one open lot even with Mark still there if he doesn't leave.  I'm kind of in a money crunch right now, I need finances, the lady that wanted to move her new trailer to a regular spot?  I dunno, hopefully Mark leaves and she can move to lot 5.  If he doesn't leave, my bad, so sorry.  I always hope things will work out because I hate turning people down when I have lots available.  And I've asked her a couple of times now when she thought she was going to get that trailer and she hasn't responded. 

That's sort of when I think, well, she doesn't know and I wonder if she's even going to get a new trailer, somebody will move out and that will take care of that.  However, if Mark is moving out, she isn't getting that lot.  I'll keep that one open for overnighters and give them the "premium treatment".  It's arguably the best lot in the park, tho some think the one across the driveway from it is better. They are both end lots with the huge yards on the passenger side of the trailers where the entrance doors are, meaning they walk out of their trailer and they have this huge space they are living on.  

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1st long term made it in, they are paying tomorrow. The 2cd long term paid, is showing up later tonight. 

The park is currently full. Mark did not leave.  I did not go over there today, I don't want to deal with him.  I will be over there tomorrow morning to go to work and back over there after I get back.  I really want him out of there now that I have that taste in my mouth, like, get this dude out of here. 

As far as any issues with spot availability, I just checked.  I only had one, 4 day stay coming up Thursday of next week. The Hipcamper that showed up today will be out of here on Sunday.  I have everything blocked out now excepting the days between when the Hipcamper will leave and the 4 day stay shows up.  After that, I have everything blacked out for I don't want people reserving a spot that that lady behind the shed may be taking. I need to talk to her again.  

Hipcamp doesn't pay until after the stay, but the pay is so pitiful, I'm just thinking, huh, didn't expect that. Hipcampers typically stay overnight and leave, not stay 5 nights and then leave.  Just seems like I'm getting ripped off, lol, but I changed the rates on that for the regular lots.  No one is going to be getting away with that again.  I don't get that much traffic from Hipcamp anyway, no loss there if I don't get any more stays out of it.

Just tried to run the card of another guy that's given me permission to run it when it's due. "If the trailer is here, I'm here, run it".  Unfortunately, the card declined for lack of funds.  It's due today, but I think I'll wait and see if he leaves. He wasn't staying there forever, he's rail manager that goes around directing fixes of faulty tracks and train derailments.  This is why you won't see me turning down anyone wanting to come in long term if there is availability but a potential conflict down the line.  I figure it will work itself out. I screwed myself too many times out of long term tenants by telling people I didn't have anything because someone was "coming". 

Then that someone didn't show up and I lose all of it.  With Mark leaving - if he actually is, this wasn't supposed to take place until the end of this month, I'm not returning his money for a variety of reasons, not the least of which violation of several rules. The other is he took my chainsaw bar oil - $20 and used it to start fires and a $25 can of chainsaw gas which he also used to start fires.  After using it, he told me he would be replacing it.  Sure, and pigs are flying, it hasn't been replaced and if he leaves, I'm sure he won't be replacing it.  

Anyway, quite a bit of financial juggling later and my bills are covered. Collected a lot of money, have some to go but we're good for now. 

 Now there are several "experts" saying this year is going to see the beginning of a recession so severe that it may dip into depression level severity. However, their main concerns and investment in the stock market. I am completely out of the stock market now, no 401k's, my cash cow is sitting in the form of 25 acres and an RV park.  Not that I'm making much money off of it - yet.  They are also saying a housing correction to come in the form of home values going down as much as 50%.

I dunno, maybe it will maybe it won't, but "they" have been saying this stuff for several years now.  They have their excuses why they have  missed the mark up until now.  A correction of the severity these people are talking about would have a major positive effect: the price of pretty much everything will come back down to non-ridiculous levels. I'm referring to the price of gasoline, groceries, home goods, etc.  

My washer and dryer have 2 more payments on them and that will be done, freeing that money up.  It will leave a mortgage payment and shed payment on the property beyond the normal, recurring monthly bills.  

I'm going to have to do better this year at managing finances.  I can't afford to be paying property taxes all at once, ie: just finding the money somewhere to pay it. It needs to be like a house payment where the property taxes are factored into the monthly payment.  I've got a couple more months to go before they start adding late fees to it.  

It's all making me rethink my rates and how I am charging people for electricity.  I really think I need to install meters on the pedestals.  Lower the monthly rent rate but make them pay for their own electricity,  all of it.  It might rid the park of people finding greener pastures but it also wouldn't leave me screwed during the summer months with such high electric bills that I am spending much of the park income on that bill alone.  People don't care if they turn the ac down all the way on all of their ac units and basically running everything when they don't have to worry about the electric bill.

I'm not making enough money off of this long term stuff, that's the nuts and bolts of it, the biggest culprit is electricity and also being force to charge lower rates to get people in there.  I need the financial stability to be able to weather a mass exodus after installing such things and then taking however long to get new people in there.  Not to mention those meters would set me back a good chunk of change as well. Money spent is money earned in this case.

It doesn't help the new park is lowballing us all as well.  It's what this area didn't need - another RV park.  

People are shooting off fireworks again tonight.  Please, folks, it's over, we are already in 2024.  The cats don't like it and both dogs are equally aghast at the sound of it.  My dog is particularly unhappy with fireworks.  

 Monday

So I'm sitting here watching TV and get another text (there's been lots of texts today): hey ben, sorry to let you know but your load canceled tomorrow.

A bit of a letdown.  I need to work, I didn't get this job to sit around all the time. Holidays have been fun for the most part, but it's time to get busy.

As for today?  Oh what fun!  I get a text this morning from mr grumpy informing me he's moving out.  I did not respond to him.  This is the 4th time in a month or longer span that he's informed me he's moving out and then goes into the current victimization he's experiencing with whoever at the park.  He's an eternal victim and a half decent manipulator.  Tired of it, I almost texted him back and said goodbye. 

Instead, I just waited. He then went into this lady that is staying at the park and calling her a bi*** and such and that he can't deal with it.  I called him and he went off on her, making all kinds of accusations and saying things I had my doubts about.  In fact, I didn't believe much of what he was telling me based on his demeanor, the way he talks, the vulgarity of his speech, the foulness of his mind, especially when he's been drinking.

So, I got all of that and then texted her.  She called me.  She went into a lengthy list of things he had been saying to her - all of which are easily believable including calling her a fuc**** c*nt (that word I particularly loathe),  following her boyfriend to the store, letting his dog s*** on her lot, cussing her out last night after she said something about them lighting off fireworks IN the doggy park and several other things.  

So, I called him back and confronted him on it, especially the part about calling her a stupid b**** and worse, a fuc**** c*nt.  He admitted he had, 2 sentences later after I started digging into him about it, he said he didn't.  No, you just admitted you called her that, where did you learn that it is acceptable to talk to ladies like that?  I handed him has @$$ on a platter.  I don't need his ilk in the park.  I'm tired of the drama, I'm tired of his mouth, vulgarity, foulness of speech, I'm done with it.  

It's exacerbated with his drinking.  He has been sitting around for quite a while now, laid off, not doing anything so he starts drinking out of boredom.  Then he finds someone to mouth of to. This is why he has a black eye, from the dude that was beating the s*** out of him.

The real, underlying problem is that he has spent time in a federal penitentiary - a thing I didn't find out about until after he moved in - and his mindset is still sitting in the facility.  I've tried to coax him to get that garbage out of his head, I am done trying to be his counselor.  He's paid up through the end of January. 

He then got quiet and then stated he would "keep to himself". Yes, you've TOLD me that SEVERAL times now.  Even if he isn't drunk, he still talks in a way using words that most people don't want to have to listen to on a continual basis.  

I texted her back and told her if he says ANYTHING else to you, let me know.  Like right now let me know.  This guy is the center of problems and I am done with him. 

Last night we stayed up very late, I was up until 2:00 am. Another family came over - 4 of them - and a couple - and we played cards and hung out until midnight, where we set off fireworks and ushered in the New Year.  James and his couple friend stayed up long after the family left and we went to bed.  Like, until 8:00 am this morning he was up, his friends left at 5:00 am lol. 

The oldest boy leaves in the morning with grandma who showed up some 5 hours ago.  The middle one is sick and the youngest is going stir crazy. I took the 2 that aren't sick to the property today to walk off some energy.  Helped a bit I guess.  While we were going the sick one was throwing up but also had a meltdown because he couldn't go with us.  Yeah, sorry, but being sick and it being very cold outside today with a crisp wind giving a pretty good wind chill factor, he needed to stay home.

So what to do tomorrow? I haven't decided yet.  It may be that I will stay home with the kids who are off until next week. They were going to take them to daycare tomorrow since we are all working, but now both James and I have had work canceled.  I am thinking of trying to burn off those weeds tomorrow tho. It's worth a try, just put some gas on some of the weeds to get them going and see what happens.  I'm definitely not going to be paying anyone to do anything right now, I don't have the finances for it.  It's fire, a scythe, or possibly trying to mow it down.  It's what I have available, it's what I can afford - nothing, lol. Nothing more than what I already have anyway.  

If I can't get it done with any of those methods, it just isn't going to happen right now.  Just would love to get them cut down, put down a spartan layer of seed and get something growing in there besides weeds.  And have that grass in there and in place when weed season starts up again.  Just set the spreader at a much lower setting. It's more about the view you see when you come to my park.  You see 2 signs, trees and then a field full of weeds.  Ugly, not a good first impression, I'm tired of it.  

Keto. I've been off 3 days again for the holidays.  Tomorrow I will start back up and then there won't be any excuses to cheat. Christmas is over, New Year's is done, I'm good with going a couple of months without any cheating.  It's not a New Year's resolution, I don't really even do those anymore. I always break them and feel foolish for having had made them.  This is something I've been doing for 3 years now, on and off, I'm ready to get back on it and stay on it for quite a while.  I could see, now that I'm thinking about it, taking my birthday off of it to go get ice cream.  

I guess there's more, but right now I'm a little preoccupied with the situation going on a the park. I didn't sign up to be a counselor, mediator or having to be an adult man's nanny.  Just going to relax, take it easy for the rest of the night and eventually go to sleep.  

 Saturday

So what is the worst that can happen? 

If I use my riding mower to try to cut down the weeds in the front of the property.

Why am I asking this? Because I don't really have $600 to pay someone else to do it and in the past when I did pay someone to come out, they did a terrible job of it and exacted premium prices for it. 

My riding mower is $150 plus the parts I have put on it.  I was reading about it.  The blades can get ruined.  Fine, the blades are already done for.  The housing can get damaged. Fine, it can be fixed.  Anything else? It's got a strong and larger than average engine on it that has lots of power.  

I'm going to try it at least.  If it doesn't work, I'll find that out pretty quickly. Set the speed on the lowest setting and the engine speed on highest and see what happens.  If it takes forever but it does the job - I"m fine with that.  If it doesn't do the job, I have lost nothing.  I think, lol.

The only other cheap method is getting a scythe and doing it by hand.  I don't really think I would last very long trying to do that, that's a lot of work for there are a lot of weeds. I'm tired of looking at the damned weeds, they are a huge eyesore, I have to at least try whatever I can.  

The driveway is also a source of frustration but so far, I have found nothing that I can do to fix it. Not without spending a lot of money anyway.  There is no hand solution to that, it has to be a blade on a machine, I see no other way of fixing it.  

That's where I've been at today, looking up things on youtube, google, etc trying to find some way to rectify these problems without spending a fortune I don't have on it.  

Well, anyway, in a couple of hours we are headed downtown for the first-ever, in-town fireworks display. Or at least, the first I've ever heard about here and everyone else for that matter has said the same thing. Fireworks are not allowed in city limits.  Everyone does fireworks shows outside the city.

It came to my attention today that the owner of the local company pretty much knows everyone, he must have pulled some levers to get it done.  The only drawback to tonight is it's cold and will be down in the mid 40's by the time we get there. The plus side is I was looking up at the roof of the place yesterday and saw one of those tall propane outdoor heaters up there. For the price, yes, we should get at least one of those, lol.

Oh, there is also this thing called "controlled burn" for the weeds.  It is actually a possibility since there isn't really anything that could go up in flames beyond weeds - and 3 telephone poles?  They're stone dead weeds At worst it would hit live trees - small ones - in it's path and doom them. I'm quite fine with that.  I just don't necessarily think it's dense enough to keep a fire going through them.  You think this a bad idea? No, I don't.  I've seen them doing these burns around here.  

Even the Texas Parks and Wildlife Department have instructions on how to do it. Mostly, disc-ed fire stops. Yup. a driveway on one side, a street on the other, the end of the weeds on another and an empty field on the other.  

This is actually by far the best idea I have seen yet.  A little gas on a small area to get it started and then see if it takes off or just peters out.  I might actually try that on New Year's Day. I have 3 days off including today.  I delivered yesterday at Gurdon, fairly painless process tho it was freezing cold with a bone chilling wind factor going.  I got in and out of the truck as little as possible, staying in the truck, running with the heater on.  

They don't care, we run the trucks there all the time.  They want you to be competent in what you're doing and so, as far as identifying problems, I think I have sufficiently done that by now.  The head dude is amenable and easy to get along with.  He might come out and check on any given trip up there, that's his prerogative.  He can check all he wants and frankly, if he sees something wrong, I want to know about it.  So far, they have liked my work and those are the people you really have to make happy. If they are happy, my management will be happy. 

 Friday - early

I have no idea at this point who is staying and who is going out of that park.  I know one dude is allegedly leaving today, something I would have liked him to advise me of in advance.  I don't know for sure, even now, I guess when I get back to the property after driving today I'll see if he's still there.

Someone is still letting their dog defecate in the park and not cleaning it up. I have not installed that security system yet.  I was going to but other things keep getting in the way.  The lady that's been cutting the grass said she found yet another one yesterday, tho it's been a while since it's happened.

I'm fairly certain it's going to be the tent lady's brother taking that dog out there and letting it do it's thing and him not cleaning it up, I won't know until I get cameras aimed that way and have actual proof positive. Installing that system hasn't been high on my list of priorities.  I'm more concerned right now about finances.  

It's been cold here, at least our version of it. It barely got out of the 40's yesterday and the wind blowing made it chilly. Down in the high 20's in the morning, it's allegedly 30 right now, I believe it.  My room is cold, it gets that way when the outside temps drop and I just don't get enough share of the heating system to warm it up.  I do have room heaters.  

Anyway, I'd write more but as always in the mornings, I am limited on time. Today is the run up to Gurdon.  The place has been packed at the scales.  I don't know what those logging truckers think, when they're lined up in 2 rows going back at least 1,000 feet to the highway and I just merrily pass them by. But then again, I face another 2 hours anyway offloading, while they get done relatively quickly once they get off the scale and down the road to the machinery that scoops the logs off of their trucks.  

I'm just happy the scalemaster doesn't only suggest we bypass that mess, we should bypass it and "I don't want you waiting here".  Good, cause there is enough other stuff that can and sometimes does happen over at the offloading rack that eats up time.  Today will be the cold temps and thick/dense liquic trying to be forced through a tube at the bottom of the truck.  I know it will take at least an hour and a half just for the offload, which doesn't include finding someone to sign off on the paperwork before I can even begin or finishing up at the end by purging the tank with water, air and then purging the line with water and more air.

It's 2 hours easy.  

And here it is, that time again.  Finish making my coffee for the thermos and get out of here.

G'day

 Thursday - early

I was going to leave even earlier than normal, but waking up this morning has been a chore. The alarm went off, I was in a deep sleep and I had to lay there for a while to even think about forcing myself out of bed to go shave and shower. 

35 minutes later and I'm still like, gee, I could just go back to bed and sleep a few more hours.  

Yesterday was nothing special. Got to the offload plant, there were logging trucks double stacked in 2 lines all the way back to the highway.  I don't know what they think when I just drive right past the whole lot of them, bypass the truck that is about to get on the scale and weigh in, but it's with the scalemaster's insistence that we don't wait, so I'm good with it.  

It would take an hour at least to get through that line.  It didn't help, at all, that yesterday one of the scales was broken, the outbound scale.  So, one of the incoming scales was changed to the outbound scale which further slowed things up.  

After that, I got the tanker hooked up, got them to unlock the valve and then started offloading. Their fitting hooking up to my truck was leaking.  So, I had to close my valves, shut off the air pressure inside the building, hook the line up to the fitting on the line where it attaches to the truck, pump water first  and then air pressure to clear out the lines, turn all of that off, go find the head dude, have him find a gasket, it was the last one they had. "hmm, maybe I better order some gaskets". 

Uhh, yeaahhhh?  Lol. Got that on, leak stopped, an hour and a half later the tanker was empty.  It's amazing it's coming out that fast considering the temperatures. It was cold yesterday morning and it didn't warm up much later on.  A chilly wind was blowing the entire time I was outside and it didn't really feel all that great.  

This morning, another trip down south to clean out the tanker, load and go back to the park.  

And looking at the clock? That's all I have time for right now.

G'day. 

 Tuesday - early

As stated, I will not start looking for a new job until after the New Year.  I don't have the desire to do that right now. I really don't have the desire to start yet another new job, but this one isn't panning out.  

Christmas was quite lovely.  We didn't get up particularly early, which was amazing in itself that the kids didn't get up at the "buttcrack of dawn" as Taylor put it lmao.  One of them did come barging into my room around 7:30 am telling me to get up and "Come on! Come on! aren't you coming?!!"

We had fun opening presents and then going for the traditional Christmas breakfast at IHOP.  After eating there, I wasn't really hungry for most of the rest of the day, only eating a little shrimp and some crackers with cheese and summer sausage later on.  

The total bill for this 2 day feast fest? 4 pounds.  I really didn't go that crazy excepting yesterday afternoon I did, indeed, make myself a chocolate milkshake. I would have gone to Diary Queen for a blizzard, but they, like most of the town, were closed.  And I ate potatoes.  A lot of potatoes on this 2 day, eat-whatever-you-want thing.  It's ok, I'm fully back on Keto today and won't even take my first bite of food until this afternoon. 

The grandma is here with the oldest child.  She is, allegedly, leaving this morning and coming back next weekend to get him.  We are going on Saturday evening to a fireworks show that is going to take place downtown. It's a first for this town as far as I know it, they don't even allow fireworks in this city, they must have received a permit to do so and obviously, it would have to be pro's doing it.  We have reserved a spot at a local brewery on their rooftop. IT just opened a few weeks ago during a Christmas parade that was going on around the local square and therefore, right in front of it.  They will have, easily, the best view of the fireworks in the entire town.

Alas, my time has run out.  I actually feel like writing in my blog this morning, unfortunately I don't get up too too early for going to work. I find that 5:45 am is about as early as I can stomach it.  So, with that? I bid you a Good day.  

 Sunday

I woke up about 15 minutes ago, fully expecting it to be raining. Heard nothing so checked the app, it's supposed to start  - now actually.  It isn't yet, but it will  rain today and soon, the radar certainly is showing that.

So, I jumped out of bed and got the dog outside before the rain hits. He is not a fan.  He'll go pee in it and come right back under the cover, I just figured give him a chance to do his duty and maybe sniff around a bit before the rain starts and isn't stopping until later this afternoon.  

It's church day, I will probably go.  I warned the kids  - there is no kids church today, they are going to have families at the regular church service.  I kind of think it would be lame if they decided not to go, at the same time I'm not going to sit around at church listening to them griping about not being able to play in the giant tube assembly or run around on platforms elevated way up on the walls. 

I haven't posted in the last few days for there hasn't been much to post about.  The same old conundrums that faced me 3 days ago are still here today. The driveway needs fixed and a lot of other stuff that costs money I don't have.  

However. 

I get a series of texts from the grumpy dude.  He goes straight into how he's "probably going to move to another RV park" and "I won't stand other tenants beating the s*** out of me".  This is the 3rd time he's threatened to move - so move! I'm tired of hearing it, if this place doesn't work for you, go find one that does!  But you know that the place he's at isn't the problem. It's him that's the problem and that problem will drag around with him wherever he goes. He drinks too much is the first thing.  He spouts off at the mouth - drunk or sober - all the time is the second.  Well, let's reverse that, the spouting off at the mouth gets highly annoying, fast.  He thinks he's being funny when he goes around calling people a-holes and denigrating everyone.

It's why I had it out with him. I've had enough, I finally told him one day.  I don't want anything to do with you. If other people want to hang around that nonsense, fine! Not me.  

So what happened? I put the phone down and said I would call when I had a chance, I was out with family and I wasn't about to subject everyone else to his ridiculousness.  So the next morning, which would have been yesterday, he goes off about a person that "took a pot shot at me and then started beating the s*** out of me for no reason". 

I didn't believe a word he was saying.  We just had that other dude over at hour house a few days ago, James knows him from previous work place.  He's a totally laid back, chill person.  He may have his moments, I'm sure he does - don't we all - but he's got the demeanor of an angel compared to the grumpy dude.  I'm thinking, there are always 2 sides to a story and there is definitely going to be a completely different version coming from him.  I haven't even asked him about it yet.

Anyway, Mr. Grumpy finally admits they were all drinking, he "probably said some stuff to him", etc.  Yup, your mouth.  You likely said some incredibly foul things to the man and you were probably talking tough, like you're a bad-@$$ and this is the result. Apparently the man beat him pretty good before another tenant pulled him off of him - this other tenant is a big, muscular dude, neither one of those two would be a match for him - and sent him back to his trailer.  Go sleep it off.  

The thing is, I didn't hear about this from anyone else. And it wasn't even told to me until what, almost 5 days later?  Shrugs shoulders. The worse part is, this dude isn't supposed to be drinking at all. I am not going to go into the details of why on the internet, I will say he has very strong reasons why he shouldn't even be touching a bottle of beer, much less a whole 12 pack of them.  Very strong, motivating reasons.

So now, he's going to "stay in my trailer and keep to myself". How many times have I heard this from him?  A walking drama Queen, a Hallmark drama movie all by himself, it's getting to the point of unbelievable and really, intolerable. If this stuff keeps happening - which it likely will, it's in his nature - I'm going to throw his @$$ out of the park.  Money be damned, I don't need this at my park or in my life.  I'll find someone to take that spot.  I have 2 spots open right now - the one I keep available for overnighters and the one that was vacated by a temporary worker.  They are both booked next week, otherwise I'd be running my Facebook ad boost post again.  

I'm not really sure about anyone else leaving, if they are they haven't informed me.  I mean, it's the nature of the business, people come, people go, I just prefer people give me some kind of head's up if they know they are going. Many of these temp workers I get in there don't know about their departure until shortly before they are reassigned to somewhere else. 

Krampus. A sort of funny, ridiculous, evil and scary movie all in one.  The kids have watched it twice in the past 2 days, now they want to watch it again, calling it a Christmas movie and informing me it's the day before Christmas. Perhaps and tho Christmas is the theme, believing in Santa and all is the point, it's still not a traditional Christmas movie lol.  I fully intend on watching A Christmas Carol tonight, after these kids go to bed, the version with George C. Scott. 

I began watching it a few weeks ago but wasn't in the right mood, so I put it off.  I'm in the right mood now. I don't need do anything else for giving, 2 people have a free lot using my electricity and facilities and have been for months now, in a coach that was being sold to them that is making me nothing right now.  I'm not doing it begrudgingly, the lady had a stroke - she is getting better tho. I saw her walking around without a 4-legged walker a few days ago, that's a sign she's definitely on the mend.  

Ahh, here comes the rain.  35 minutes later than their prediction.  I knew it was coming just for the fact that the radar was showing it coming from the south and covering our area for at least a 1/4 of the day.  

With that, I guess I'll go watch this movie for the 3rd time in 3 days.  Lol.  They don't normally do that.  It's probably the scary parts that get them liking it.  

 Friday 

Paycheck came in overnight.  It sealed my fate with this company. No way am I going to spend the kind of hours I am spending washing out trailers, loading and unloading coupled with the driving to get that small of a check.  Just a non-happening event.  I have decided that after Christmas and New Year's are over, I am going to start looking for a new job.

I say looking, who knows how long it might take to find a similar situation that will at least pay me for the time spent doing it.  I was appalled at the sight of the amount of money for a 15 day period of work, many of those days spent working.  Just not going to waste 7-8 or longer - the other day it was 13 hours - and get paid pauper's wages like that.  If I have to switch to something like the previous job, I may just have to do that.  I need more money than this and the promise was that I was going to get X amount of gross pay per week, that is not materializing.  

Just a little peeved this morning seeing this kind of junk going on at Christmas.  Most of my presents have been bought, I just have a few small things to buy for the kids left so it's mostly normal bills and thankfully, I have lots of rent payments coming up soon.  Much of it is around the 1st, a few days before and after.  I feel like I have wasted a lot of time with this company considering what I went through to get this job but I know I had this feeling more than once  - several times - that I should just move on.  My fault? Yes, I should have just listened to myself, but I was already invested into it by the time I got over to Oregon and was in the middle of that hellish landscape of working all day and getting almost no sleep at night.

I'll never forget that experience for it was one of the worst experiences of my life overall, not just for trucking but for much of anything.  I just really thought I would get a larger paycheck than this, by at least $500. But, obviously they aren't paying much for the "stop" pay, which is the pay for loading, unloading, washout, etc. 

I'm going to expand my search beyond trucking.  I don't know what else I could do - but I do know forklifts, I have operated them on and off since the mid 80's, a bit rusty right now, it would come back to me quickly much like ice skating the other night.  I don't know, can't predict what I might find or end up with, I am just going to expand my horizons on this front.  If there was something else I could do with my land that I am not thinking of that wouldn't cost a lot, I would do it.  

I kind of feel like I'm stuck right now.  I can't expand the park for I don't have the funds to do so.  I won't have the funds for a very long time at this rate - if  ever really.  I don't know what I can do.  I actually could add more lots to the current septic, it would mean having it pumped out, well who knows how often, every couple of months probably anyway.  So, would it be worth either putting up another lot or building a small cabin for the kind of return I would get minus the pump outs? 

I have no idea for I don't know how often I would have to have them coming in to do that.  

I'm a little preoccupied with these thoughts all of a sudden after seeing this paycheck.  Like, I need a lot more money than this to start getting ahead.  

I raised my rates on Hipcamp.  I am not going to let people get away with that again.  I had them very low, just overnight stuff, this person took advantage of it and will staying for 5 nights at a rate that doesn't make hardly any money.  I don't care if there isn't any traffic coming through that site, there is no way I'm going to be taken advantage of again with that nonsense.

Changing the gears at least for a minute, Keto is going well. It shows "trace" amount of ketosis, but I suspect it's just that I'm what they call "fat adapted".  Meaning my system produced enough ketones to deal with everything but not a lot of extra, hence it doesn't show up on the strips for results.  I'm not looking at strips for the results, however, I'm looking at my belly and my weight.  I'm down to 214 today, a 20 plus pound drop in the almost - is it a month now? - that I have been doing it.  So, I am at least happy about something this morning, lol.  Yes, I am going to cheat Sunday and Monday, I'll be right back at it on Tuesday and continuing on as long as it takes to get this gut gone.  

The guy has  definitely shrunk quite a bit. Still have one, but not near as big as when I first started this diet.

And sitting here musing all of this, I am going to go to Lowe's today and price out lumber and supplies to build a cabin.  We're not talking about anything fancy.  Wood floor, maybe elevated a bit to keep moisture off of it, one window, one exit/entrance door.  Maybe around 400 square feet of space, plus or minus.  Heck, I may not even have to go to Lowe's, there is always lumber of various kinds being sold on FB marketplace.  Companies doing projects with leftover wood, people with wood for unknown reasons they are selling, who knows why they have it, but it's sold less than retail/market value at places like Lowe's, Home Depot and local lumber places.  We have a few of those in town, actually.  

This something that will happen overnight? Of course not. Money is the issue, it always is.  I tried to get a big loan to pay off the debt and have one, monthly payment at a lower cost than all of it put together, that fell through for the idea of huge interest rates that didn't really help my situation that much.  Just didn't seem prudent to be taking out a loan at ridiculously high interest rates. 

Well, unexpected days off, I need to go over and figure out how I am going to install the new security camera system.  I also need to go get some stuff I won at auction a few weeks ago, I got some good stuff for almost nothing.  Especially the boxes. One for inside storing tools and things, the other for outside for a package drop off for the delivery services.  

Watching footage of people waiting at airports and such, lots of traveling they are predicting for Christmas.  I'm not going anywhere.  I saw my mom and my son a while back, visited with friends, that was it for this year.  Next year, we are all going to Las Vegas on Memorial Day weekend for a wedding.  I figure to stay 3 or 4 days.  I also figure to spend credit card points to pay for the flight there and back.  It's not cheap, either, which was a bit surprising considering how far off it is.  I'm going to keep looking at the various sites offering airfare, maybe I'll find something a bit cheaper. 

I dunno what else. Just going to have to try and get this pay situation out of my mind somehow.  It's Christmas, would rather be in the holiday cheer, festive attitude I had the other day.  

Regardless, that's enough for this one.  

 Wednesday - late

It was  a pretty seamless day as far as work is concerned.  Got out earlier than normal, the washout place got it done quickly and the guy that gets loading the trailer done quickly was there instead of the slow dude. 6-1/2 hours and it was over.

During the loading, the manager called and informed me there were "cancellations".  Well I hope it isn't what I'm loading now, we're done here.  My Friday load was cancelled, of which I considered nothing short of a minor miracle - I really didn't want to work Friday and Saturday after everything else this week. I mean, I would have done it of course, but here we are.  It happens frequently enough that I figured something would happen along the way here that they would cancel a load eventually.

Actually, they were filled up after my last load, neither tank could have taken another truckload. I don't know how fast they use the stuff, it's a 24 hour operation.  I have no idea whether it's too much product, or perhaps Christmas and they shut down, or something wrong, who knows.  I just know I'm delivering this load tomorrow and that's it for the 4 days following. 

I will be calling the rental place and seeing if the tractor with box attachment is available for Friday.  I can't exactly afford it, I can't exactly afford not to type of deal.  

We went to the Christmas Wonderland of Lights tonight downtown, the church had some family that paid for it for everyone.  They must have footed quite the bill.  There were a lot of people there.  We went ice skating lol.  They set up an outdoor skating rink every year at the town square. We haven't gone skating until tonight.  It's been a few decades since I went ice skating last and about the same amount of time when I used to roller blade a lot for fun and exercise.  

So I took one of the kids and James took the other. The youngest gave up quickly, I had the older boy who just couldn't figure it out.  He tried tho, I'll give him credit for that.  I pushed off and started skating around, I had to see if I could still do it.  The ice was badly gouged, they needed to do a resurface job on it, but I still managed to skate around all over the place - without falling.  And let me tell you, there were people falling all over the place.  Old and young, lol.  

We did the merry-go-round and then the kids went on the inflatable bounce house slide and that was it.  They left one way, I went another. My belt broke this morning at the Park, I've been holding my pants up all day long.  Like, I have to go to Walmart regardless of whether I want to or not and get a belt. They went to Taco Bell, Super 1 and then took the boys to a friend's house for 2 days. Christmas break started today after they got out of school - half day at that.  

They are off for 2-1/2 weeks, amazingly enough.  I'm working now so I can't watch them the whole time like I was doing last year.  Next week, James is off so they will be home and the week after, they are going to be put in a local daycare for the entire week. If I happen to be off any of those days, I'll watch them, I have no idea about that and won't even bother to give that any thought until that week comes rolling along. 

I had a lady saying she wanted to stay for 2 weeks, she disappeared off the radar.  Hipcamp got me a 5 night stay - I"m going to have to up the rate for my regular lots for that. They got a smoking deal, I'll say that.  Good thing it's nice and cool, I'd be eating a lot of electricity costs for a lot not making me that much money.  

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Continuing from last night - forgot to publish this post lol...

It's Thursday morning, early.  Get up to Gurdon, get this stuff off the truck and try to get this day over with and get my 4 days off started early. 

Whether I can get that tractor is totally dependent on whether the thing is at the store.  It wasn't there last time I looked.  

My mind has been running all over the place with this idea of expansion.  I think, I need more lots. Then I think, hmm, it's difficult enough to keep my lots full.  I have turned people away, it's not like I've turned 50 people away tho.  

If I get another septic system, would my money be better spent building small cabins instead of putting in more lots?  What is the Return On Investment for more lots versus cabins I could probably rent out easier? But then, I think, well they're going to start up this Interstate project in 2025, shouldn't I think about being ready for an influx of people needing lots to rent? 

What if that doesn't pan out?

And then, I think, what I really need is something IN my park that draws people in.  When it comes down to brass tacks, it's what you have that's important to travelers and long term.  I have some stuff, I could use a lot more.  

When I get to the end of all of these trains of thoughts, I just throw up my hands.  I don't have the money for any of it.  No sense stressing over stuff you can't change. 

I've been working, that's what I can say.  I think this next paycheck determines whether I stay at this place or move on.  It will be a "full" check, a check where I"ve worked about as much as I can expect to work and have it show up to represent 15 days worth of work. Pay should be coming in tonight.  

There is a place that is hiring or local work that hauls sand for fracking operations.  You have to have some sort of certification before you even apply according to their website.  It's an hour course, I didn't see a price tag on it.  If you go through that training, pass and apply, you aren't guaranteed a job, of course.  

I'll wait until I see what I've got before attempting to make any decisions.  

Anyway, it's time to get my coffee thermos filled up and get out of here.

G'day

Wednesday - at the plant getting loaded. 

I ended up stuck in lufkin Monday night, I had yet another flat tire. On top of 5 hours getting the truck fixed, now I wait 3 plus hours to get a tire fixed, and yes I was at the shop, there were several trucks ahead of me. 

I slept quite well, actually. 9 hours of sleep. I was stuck there 10 hours on the required break and frankly, when I woke up I could have gone back to sleep for a few more hours. 

But I got myself moving and when my 10 was done, I drove straight from lufkin all the way up to the Gurdon plant. I got home in time for everyone to go out to eat. A friend of James and his girlfriend paying. It’s a super good Japanese restaurant that gets rave reviews from people passing through who wonder aloud how a place like that in a small redneck town out in the middle of nowhere can get such fresh seafood. 

I could guess…they have a box truck that is refrigerated, they may send it to somewhere on the coast to get it. 

Anyway, the last 2 days have been rather rough, I’m hoping for an easier day today. Besides the normal plethora of idiots doing stupid things on the highways, it’s going pretty good. 

I’d like to get off work early, go home and do nothing. Leave out early tomorrow morning, get it delivered and get home early again. 

I dunno, but I’m writing this one in my phone, writing with a keyboard is my h easier so maybe something on here hater today. 

 Tuesday - 5:30 pm

I don’t typically do posts on my phone, but since I have ample time…

Started out this morning, as mentioned in previous post. I got to the repair shop around 8:45 am. Never been to this plus, but it’s a combination of junkyard, landfill, a lot of junk vehicles stacked on top of each, “stuff” laying all over the place, a wrecker/towing company and both truck and car mechanics. Pretty much a shit hole. 

It took them quite a while to figure out what was wrong - a cam sensor. Over an hour for my company to approve it, at least two hours to get the parts and another 45 minutes to install said parts. 

I was stuck there 5 hours. No other businesses out here, no place to get something to eat, nothing. I ended up getting into my sleeper and taking a nap. 

Durkk ok by this nap, this old hag came out, screaming: “where is the son of a bi*** that drives this piece of shit truck? Did he go on a hike?” I can tell you that I had been friendly and respectful to everyone there including this witch (she looks like one and acts like one, get her a broom) up until that point . I had words to say about that garbage coming out of her mouth and yes, I said something about it.

She tried to claim she was talking about her computer. Do you think I’m stupid? Calling me an a hole, calling my truck a piece of shit? Do computers go on hikes? 

Some other people came out, oh she says that to everyone! Maybe everyone that works there, she isn’t about to get away with talking that bs to me.  I settled myself down and just ignored her the rest of the time I was there. 

Took 20 minutes to get the truck started. You get air in the lines and it can take a while to get it all out. Left there, went to the wash out, got in and out of there. But here? At the loading plant? They are loading other trucks and I will have to wait, I am told. Yup, it’s been a long day and no telling when it will be over. 

 Monday - early enough

I contacted the repair department yesterday afternoon, I sent them 4 text messages over a span of time and still have heard nothing back.

Shrugging shoulders. I have texted them several times in the past now with almost immediate response.  They don't reply, that's their problem and I won't take any flak for it. I contacted my dispatcher who replied within 5 minutes and that was on a Sunday.  I mean, it's just the way this company is, but you can bet your @$$ they'll still want that load picked up regardless of how much trouble I will have to go through to get the damned truck fixed.

Okay, I am in a fairly good mood, just thinking about this stuff sort of gets me, so I'm switching that off.  

I think Biden is toast, btw, as far as winning another election. The polls have changed slowly but dramatically over time to the point now that a vast majority of Americans don't believe his economy is helping them, at all.  You aren't going to be unpopular if the cost of everything is to the point that you have to worry about buying the basic necessities of life and paying basic bills.  

But, if you are a "MAGA Republican" according to Biden and high ranking Democrats, you are a pile of dogshit.  That's the message they have been conveying and they continue to convey, but I don't think that message is resonating anymore excepting with perhaps the most staunch Democrats that will vote Democrat regardless.  Why go off about this? Because their decisions affect my- and yours - daily life.  I'm looking at interest rates through the roof on a loan that would have cost probably half of that 2 years ago in interest.  Borrow 40k and pay back 22k in interest? That's crazy!  

It's an absolutely horrible time to get a loan and I have to keep that in my brain while I'm considering my next moves.  The Fed will have to bring down interest rates to stop this madness. I wouldn't be surprised if they do in order to boost Biden's numbers. A last minute, Hail Mary attempt to say "look at me and how good I am doing!".  As if everyone will automatically forget everything that led up to the need for having to take drastic measures. Then, if they win, it will be right back to draconian, ridiculous and outrageous policy that costs you and I a lot more money than we need to be paying for everything and hit with ridiculous regulations over electric stoves, water heaters, gas house heaters, etc. 

So I just texted these people again.  We'll see what happens, it's 7:20 am. I should be on the road, lol.  Nope.  That truck won't pull a loaded trailer, it will just die and then they'll have to send a wrecker and pay a lot more money to fix the thing.  I mean, if that's what they want, but if I tell them in advance that the thing can't pull a load and they do nothing about it, that's on them and yes, they will pay me for waiting.  

A little angst this morning I guess.  Just a bit irritating.  I figure I'll give it til 8am and then I'll contact the dispatcher and tell her I've sent 8 messages so far without any reply.  Maybe the dude is on vacation, I have no idea.  But I am not interested in being out until 7 pm tonight simply because this company doesn't have it's act together. 

Next.  Nothing. I can do nothing without a day off.  Apparently not going to get one.  And getting a weekend day off doesn't help for renting a tractor.  Well, maybe if I rented it on a Saturday morning and took it back before they close, but I think they close at 1:00 pm on Saturdays.  I want the thing for a whole 24 hour period.  In other words, the entire day, get it early, take it back just before they close.  

Other things I can do over there, just need the time and not being tired after getting up early and driving/loading/unloading.  I really find it hard to do anything after driving, even if it's only an 8 hour day.  

Current forecast is rain starting Friday and going through Monday.  Lol, a wet Christmas.  Or not, their forecasts are frequently wrong.  

Okkkkk.......so I finally hear back from someone else.  The man is on vacation lmao.  He gave the phone to another person who wasn't looking at the phone, lmao again.  Are you supposed to unload today? No, I'm supposed to load but I'm not going to make it. I have to have the tanker washed out and then go load at 10 am.  See? The dispatcher didn't even know the man that works, right there with her, was on vacation?  

I think I'll just get another cup of coffee and watch this clown show continue on.  

G'day

 Sunday - late

The last offload took - 3-1/2 hours? I think - today it took an hour and a half.  The trailers have internal thermometers on them and I think this is what's causing the problem, cold resin that flows slower and slower the colder it gets. 2 days ago, it was 45 degrees and got colder as I continued to pump out the product. Today, it started at 50 degrees and ended up at 62 degrees.  Big temperature difference.  I had never been there on a Sunday, finding someone to go into the scale house and print out the scale ticket was not a short ordeal.  

However, the real problem started driving back.  It started cutting out when taking off from a start and taking forever to get up to speed, much longer than normal. The situation deteriorated all the way back to the point I was wondering if was even going to make it back.  But it did. I didn't want to call dispatch about this beforehand, I know what they're going to say, take it somewhere and have it looked at.  I'm 90% certain the problem is a clogged fuel filter and tho I could probably fix it, I have done anything like that in decades.  I'd hate to try and replace it and not get it right. Then they have to send out a mobile mechanic. 

This isn't like changing a fuel filter on a gasoline engine.  

I contacted dispatch who told me to contact the mechanic department,  of whom I tried 4 times to get a hold of and then gave up on it. Don't care really, it is Sunday and driving up, unloading and driving back was enough for me.  I'll have an ordeal, I'm sure, trying to get this dealt with tomorrow.  Oh well. There are several places in town that do truck repair.  It's going to be a long day, that's all I know. They originally gave me work for this weekend, then Friday and Saturday of this coming week, then Tuesday and Wednesday of the week after.

I had no idea they were going to dump even more work on me for this week.  

I got a call earlier from this couple that was sitting at the local Walmart, do you have a spot available? yes.  We'll be there in 10 minutes. They claimed they showed up, said nope, we don't like it and left. However, they never came back to the park, so I assume they saw the driveway or perhaps the weeds and just didn't care for that part of it.  I dunno, but I need to somehow find a way to fix that driveway.  

If the gravel wasn't so expensive.  $750 per truckload and that was the quote last time I checked which was quite some time ago.  Inflation, I'm told. Rocks? Inflation?  

I won't go into those sentiments again, not worth it.  I'm definitely going to try renting the tractor - next chance I get.  Perhaps I'll get Wednesday and Thursday off, perhaps not, but I need a full day off to do that.  I want a full day's rental to get the most time out of the thing.  It's a long driveway and it's not a particularly large tractor.  I have to try something, this is the only thing I can afford right now.

Keto - it finally showed a slight trace of purple again. After many days of not showing it. I've been following the diet closely this time around and it's still elusive on getting anything to show on the strips.  But, I am losing weight.  Just the fat is being rather stubborn, especially around my belly.  I haven't been doing the diet long enough this time around to really get impatient, it's been what, a couple of weeks? You don't lose a gut in 2 weeks.  Or even 2 months, but you can certainly get it to shrink quite a bit in 2 months time.  We'll see. I'm going to keep with it cause' it's the only thing I know that works.  It's just that you have to stay on it- eternally I guess - to keep the weight off.  I might do a cheat day on Christmas Day, but I'm thinking not.  I don't want to find excuses to eat whatever I want.  

I finally started getting approved for larger loans - I want to pay down credit card debt to get my credit score back up and lump it all into one payment at a lower amount per month.  The problem? Interest rates are ridiculously high right now.  I'd only be saving $150 per month.  And it's a 60 month loan.  Here's the thing, tho.  If I take on a loan like that, pay down all that debt and then if interest rates do, indeed come down sometime in the next - year or so say - I could refinance it.  It's an interesting proposition.  I wish I could take on more debt load to be honest, I'd just take the loan and build out the park.  

But I can't afford $832 per month on top of everything else. The whole thing of paying down credit card debt is just that, you pay off the credit cards so you no longer have those payments, those monthly payments just get transferred to the loan.  What I'd really like to do is take the loan, pay down credit card debt and get another septic system off of it. Just the septic system. Once I get that in, I've got a ticket to more lots installed. But you see, after the septic system, you have to install electric, water lines and sewer lines, plus a driveway, or the beginning of one anyway, etc.  So, getting a septic installed is the beginning of being able to get something going, but there is still more money needed to get there even if just talking 5 lots or so.  

I dunno what I'm going to do, nothing right now.  Sit on it, think about it, make a decision whenever I feel comfortable with it - or do nothing.  

Well, it's getting late. I'm going to get up at my normal time, even tho I have no idea where they are going to want this truck or when I'm going to be directed to move it there, there being wherever there is. 

 Friday- not particularly early morning, not late either

It totally slipped my mind until just now that it's supposed to rain today. Fortunately for me, rain doesn't start until this afternoon. I say that because the truck is pointed in the wrong direction - I am doing that now to keep the noise of that motor from reaching the park as much as possible. It's a very loud engine, I am projecting that sound towards the rear of the property instead of towards the RV's.  

Anyway, I prefer to turn the truck around at the back where this is a turnaround in the gas production area.   This is the area they tried to tell me long ago that I "can't drive through there".  OH? It's my property, I'll drive where I please.  I had to become almost insolent with those people for they were acting like mini-gods to me, attempting to dictate what I could and couldn't do on "our lease" as they put it.  Your lease does not supersede my ownership of the property the lease is based on excepting you are allowed to do what the lease states you can do. 

I can't turn the truck around, getting back to the point lol, if it rains.  It gets muddy back there and I already got stuck once after it had rained and a day's worth of drying had occurred.  I was able to back out of it, thankfully, left some pretty deep tire ruts in the ground. Nothing I will try again shortly after it rains, tomorrow after I get back I will just have to turn the thing around in the area I have designated for it, which is right in front of the motor coach and the other trailer behind the amenities shed.  

A new guest has informed me that the router that is on the pole needs to be elevated well up above what it is now.  Yup, I know that.  Well, cell signals travel downwards, not upwards.  Yup.  You want to do it? lol.  I'll have to buy the longest 4X4 I can find at Lowe's, which is probably 16 feet, drop 4 feet of it in the ground and probably cement it in there for the assurance the thing isn't going to come down on top of a trailer nearby.  It's nothing on my priority list.  One person was complaining that it "keeps dropping the signal".  Nope, it's more likely too many devices trying to connect to it and why aren't you connected to the other router which is literally right there? He did that and I haven't heard a peep from him about it since. 

It's that or buy a metal pole - somewhere - that is likely costly.  I would also have to deal with being able to get up that high on a ladder, it's just something I have put off.  

I'm not feeling particularly motivated, I have to work tomorrow and Sunday so I would love to enjoy the day off, however, I must get at least a few things done over there.  I'm just sitting here drinking coffee and musing the things of life.  Nothing highly profound, things like how they must have loved me having to get 7 new tires on that trailer yesterday.  They have to approve it tho, I only wanted 5 on there, the Love's said it needed 7. Yeah, it did, but I didn't want to push it too far.  Of the 2 extra tires that needed replaced, one of them was severally dry rotted and the other had a small piece of the outer skin of the sidewall that apparently had been hit on something.

Someone had actually placed an X over it, noting it needed replaced but did nothing about it? What I'm finding is that the driver who gave me the local training here cares about keeping the trailers in good working order, everyone else? Not at all.  Everyone else are OTR drivers that are brought in to take a load here and there when their runs dry up and there is nothing to do. 

The plant is taking forever to offload. We have conjectured several things that may have happened. The line may be clogged up - some of these drivers are not flushing the line out with water as required. A filter sock may have been swallowed up into the line or the product is too cold and has thickened substantially.  Whatever the case, I spent 4 hours dealing with tires yesterday and then 4 hours dealing with offloading.  I was on duty for 13 hours, even getting warnings that a "potential violation" will occur in X amount of minutes, the damn thing kept sending me those notices. It was a long day and probably why I"m not feeling particularly motivated to go work at the property. 

However, I am fixing to get up, get my shoes on and get over there.  Maybe take a thermos of coffee.  It's cool out but not freezing cold. I'd take the dog but he won't stay in the doggy park, he just tries to get out and stands there whining.   Would love to take him for a walk but work calls first. 

And the biggest thing on my mind over there right now is the driveway. It needs bladed. I don't have a grader in my back pocket.  I'm thinking to rent the tractor with the box attachment from the local rental company.  It's relatively cheap at $228 per day.  It's my only option right now, renting a grader is out of the question as there aren't any available rent anywhere nearby and hiring a person to do it would cost a thousand dollars or more. 

I also am expecting Christmas off. I worked Thanksgiving and I'm working this weekend, that should - will - get me next weekend off and Monday as well.  I'm not going to give them an option on that one, I'll work New Years if it is necessary to get Christmas Day off.  

And I'm waiting to see what this next paycheck is.  It should be more in the "normal" range of what I will be making on any given paycheck, what with having had worked quite a few more days than previous pay periods.  It's hard to make the goals I am making without understanding how these goals are going to be realized considering it's all based on income/outgoing expenses and what's left over.  Originally, I wanted to pay down a grand a month on debt, I haven't even started on that.  Way too many expenses have hit to be able to pay down much of anything.  That and smaller than necessary paychecks to even begin to start doing that.  I will see another paycheck on the 22cd.  

As for now? Time to get out of here. The sun is still shining, the rain doesn't appear to start until around 4:00 pm now - it originally said 3 - that gives plenty of time to get some stuff done over there.

G'day.  

 Thursday - early

5:25 am early to be precise. Just got up early to get tires replaced on the trailer before I end up in Gurdon, AR.

I don't even know if they are available to authorize such things early, but it won't but until after 7:00 am before I am at the Love's to get them installed.  Surely they're up that early? The mechanics shop seems to be, they leave at 4:00 pm, you'd think that means they start earlier than 8:00 am. 

You'd think. Lol.

Anyway I just realized the intended arrival time up there, I need to leave out of the house in about 10 minutes. 

That means no time for blogging this morning.

G'day

Wednesday - night

So, Biden is now facing formal impeachment investigation.  It simply means they can force the people they want to question to show up.  It will also force the White House to give up information they are obstructing.  I don't know why anyone would have a problem with this impeachment inquiry, Trump was impeached twice on ridiculous, bogus and sham nonsense. This is actual criminal activity, allegedly anyway, that occurred with officials from China, Ukraine, Russia and allegedly other nations.  

Hunter showed up to an inquiry that he was subpoenaed to testify in, gave a statement to the press and then left without going into the building.  Calls for contempt charges. 

And a bunch of other stuff in the news that only slightly interested me, I'm more interested in the Israel war and that has been shifted well down in priority or even coverage. Weird.

As for today and yesterday.  Well, it took 3-1/2 hours to offload yesterday and the other driver also spent that much time offloading today. So we've taken it to the head honcho over there, it's obvious the line is clogged and needs attention.  We don't want to spend that much time unloading.  I don't care about the detention pay, it isn't that much and definitely not worth sitting there for that long.

Today, loading, it took them almost 4 hours to load the truck. That is also ridiculous.  It's not the plant, it's a particular operator who really should find another line of work. Other operators take far less time than him. He always make excuses about how he has to transfer liquid from one tank to another - the others do as well. He always has an excuse, it gets old.  I flatly asked him today why it was taking so long and that was his rather lame excuse, he's given it several times now.  

There is nothing we can do about that, it is what it is.  I was there almost 4 hours. Messed up my plans for the day after I was going to get back to the property and start wiring up outlets for the new cameras.  I gave up on that idea getting back to the yard at almost 4;00 pm.  

It was chilly out today and it never warmed up. The sun hid behind the clouds and never peeked out from behind them.  

Whatever the case, we did end up taking the boys to the church Christmas party. I'm actually about to head over there and get them. A 2 hour affair, they were blaring loud music in the auditorium, which I didn't know they had services for kids in there since they have their own, rather large, room.  Then they were to go outside and play and then inside to that room for more playtime and pizza.  Hopefully they enjoyed themselves.  

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And oh yes, they did. I went into their giant playroom/auditorium and couldn't find either one.  There is a giant set of those pipes you crawl through on one side and then a sort of tunnel that goes from one side of the room to the other - approximately 15 feet up in the air and then more play stuff up there on the other side. It's huge.  I finally had them call for them, the oldest showed up the youngest did not.

Found out they separate them by grades so the youngest was in a different room altogether.  

That's it, end of night and going to bed soon even tho it's only 8:20 pm.  I went to bed early last night as well and slept pretty well.  I am running this sleep app all night long - it listens to you.  It gives a report of your sleeping patterns, snoring and potential for sleep apnea.  Some night it's been mild snoring and no risk of sleep apnea, 2 nights ago it went way up on the sleep apnea scale but then decreased last night.

It says my room is noisy, lol. It's the fan on the window ac unit, I run that thing 24 hours a day.  I have to have it to sleep, there are far too many noises in this house at night that will wake me up, the biggest is 3 cats wandering around doing what cats do.  Drowns out noise of cars/trucks going up the road and just allows me to sleep better. If I were to turn that thing off, I would just lay there awake.  I might eventually fall asleep, but it would be short-lived.  So, it can tell me whatever it wants about that, that's not something that's going to change.  

At least I don't snore all night long lol.  It'll give me a summary of averages after it does it's thing enough nights.  

Keto - not in ketosis yet, or if I was, I'm not now.  Funny because I'm definitely not eating carbs.  I had finally weighed myself in the 230's range and now down to 219.  It showed 216 a few days ago but that was short lived. At least I'm no longer gaining any weight - fat.