Sunday

Dog woke me up a couple of times last night, but other than that, sleep was finally good again.  I wonder how long it would take to try and get to the point where I'm feeling like I did before I left on that trip.  One driver over there said "you have sleep deprivation" after I described the nights of sleeplessness because of constant noise.  I didn't disagree with him on that as he went on to say that trainees should be well rested and that they should just put you up at a hotel.  Yeah, well, the nearest hotel being 17 miles away, that probably wouldn't have worked out too well having to be up at 3:30 at the bunkhouse and then be at the fuel pumps at 4:00 - or whatever the day called for, either earlier or later.

I can tell ya I won't want to go back to work. At all.  Not after that.  I didn't say I won't go back to work with them, I just won't want to go back to work.  So, button down the hatches, make some more changes to spending habits and pay off debt. That was the whole purpose of getting this job and I'm hoping I can pay at least a grand per month on debt.  4 cards, specifically, that are "well up there".  I had no way of paying them down with the income being generated by the park and I was still having to use them in cases where something comes up and I had no real money in the bank to be able to afford it.  

I'm going to drag this thing out in case they want me back at work too soon by driving the truck in on-duty mode over to the park today.  I could legitimately do it in off duty mode, but if I do on-duty, it will keep me from getting a 34 reset.  I have like 5 or 6 hours left on the 70 hour clock.  I don't really want to have to do any tricks to keep them from forcing me back into the driver's seat, I just need enough time off to mow the grass/weeds over there and whatever else has to be done beyond that and collecting rents.  

I texted the NJ people and heard nothing back from them. They are far behind on their rent.  So far that they will be receiving an ultimatum: pay up or leave.  I don't care which at this point, she got money at the end of last month and tho I haven' been there to get any money from them, they also haven't responded to my text messages.  She hasn't tried to contact me, the games are getting old.  Pay up or get out.  Take that old trailer with you as well.  

Well, off to the races. To church and then hopefully to get my vehicle from the airport. 

 Saturday night.

After a very long day, it is finally over.  I am home.  I pulled the truck up in front of the house and the 8 year old came out yelling and jumping up and down.  It was a rather surreal experience walking back into the house. It had been so long.  

The dog remembered me, but we hadn't been together very long, I knew it would be like starting over.  And so it is.   

I just now got into my bedroom after being home several hours.  Had to visit with everyone and the kids wanted me to sit on the couch with them.  

Yes it is good to be home.  I am so tired.  I finally get to sleep in my own bad after 20 days.  It has been a rather horrid experience that I do not ever want to revisit again in my lifetime. It was no vacation, it would have been a lot better if I could have at least got some decent sleep. I have never heard or seen a setup such as the one I have described repeatedly in previous posts about that ridiculous bunk house.  

 Whatever the case, I have no plans for tomorrow, tho I may go to church and will definitely visit my park, I have no gumption to do much of anything beyond collecting rents that are past due. Not the fault of the park tenants that are at that point, I just let some of it go until getting back.  They are only a few days past, it's not like weeks.  

One of them contacted me today declaring she has never been late on her rent and it is due today. Yes, ma'am, but I'm driving right now and I just can't collect today. She seemed on edge about. It's my fault for not getting the rent, I'm not there, no worries.  That seemed to relieve her tensions and so, I will be visiting with her and another person that is acting out a bit too much about dog poop. I think that problem has been resolved, there is no reason for her to carry on like she has been.  

I get it, it's gross, it's nasty to have it laying all over the place, but the man has been set straight about his dog.  Keep an eye on it while it's out, don't let him just poop anywhere and then leave it. That's nasty and not allowed. 

 I don't know what else, I'm so out of it and the drive was so long today.  I just pushed it hard to get it done. They added hundreds of miles to the trip forcing me to take that trailer to the yard.  They didn't need it, it's just waste water. It will get unloaded and stored with a bunch of other totes filled up with that stuff. It isn't hazmat and won't hurt anyone.  

So, off to bed for me and hopefully a good night's sleep. 

 At a truck stop somewhere in southern Kansas. Nice place. However. Not one, not two, but three reefer units parked side by side right next to me after I had gone to bed. The noise was ridiculous. 

I didn’t get enough sleep last night. 

489 miles to El Dorado and then home. 

Plenty to say but I’m not on the computer and I just logged in. 10 minutes and I’m leaving. 

G’day. 

 Friday night.

made it just short of 700 miles, would have gone further but there were no truck parking areas available that were within range of the 55 minutes i had left on the drive clock.  my gps is showing 489 miles left to go to El Dorado at 6 hours and 59 minutes.  however, those are usually some pretty optimistic drive times.  i would add an hour to that and call it accurate.  

8 hours to get there and 2-1/2 hours to get home.  call it 3 hours for the same-said reason.  that taps me out tomorrow with a full 11 hour driving day.  will it actually happen that way? i have no clue, i'm just hoping.  This truck will drive as fast as i want it to. on 75 mph interstates i was going around 73 today.  

i'm at a mom/pop truck stop, there was a parking area 10 miles further down the road, but what is 10 miles? especially when you are weighing between a place with a store and bathroom and a place with - nothing.  

the inverter in this thing doesn't work and this old laptop battery doesn't last long, so type fast and get off of the thing quick.  

i was checking my checking account this morning and surprise, a 2grand paycheck had been deposited.  i have no idea what the gross pay was, but 2 grand is a welcome sight in there.  that literally wipes the pressure right off of me for paying bills, especially the power bill coming up which i was, honestly, sweating.  i knew when i agreed to this hellish ordeal 2-1/2 months ago that by the end of september, i would be draining out my bank accounts for paying everything, but especially that high dollar electric bill.

my prediction was right on the money.  Got into october and here i am, not completely broke without that paycheck but certainly wondering about making it through the month.  i don't have to worry. not only this paycheck but next will be healthy as well with this 2,400 plus mile trip on the books.  

my cow pasture time on the hill this morning talking to people on the phone was hilarious.  i like to make fun of cows, lol. i make noises at them and they look all stop what they are doing and look up.  i make more noises. the calf i spoke about in the last post wasn't none too happy and it's mama was talking to me.  she wasn't particularly concerned but she was making noises back to my noises lol.  i am easily entertained.  i always have been. 

driving a pink truck with barbie as a company id, lmao.  it's hilarious to me, especially with these other trucks pulling up to look in to see the babe driving. i have to wonder if they think i'm gay lol.  it doesn't bother me near as much as people think it should lmao. 

i can tell ya one thing, i felt better today than i have in - 3 weeks.  i slept well last night and it paid off.  i could have driven many more hours if it were legal to do so.  i can only hope that i get as good a sleep tonight as i did last night.  

well, it's after 11 pm, it's time to wind this down and i might want to make a post in the morning, this thing has gone from 54% to  36% in maybe 15 minutes time. it's a priority to get a new laptop, transfer files, destroy this thing and dump it in the trash.  

g'nite

 On my iPhone sitting at IHOP for breakfast/lunch. 

I ended having to stop at a parking area with no facilities last night and no internet access. Although that sounds sucky, reality was I spent 9 hours in bed. Got some decent sleep even next to a highway. 

Not an Interstate but a 2 lane highway shortcut. Well, I really needed to call the new manager for guidance. I need to go home, frankly, how do you want to work this? 

So I walked up a dirt road to get higher elevation and hope for a signal. A calf was wandering down the road with its mama on the other side of the fence. There were no gates to shoo the calf back into or o would have put it into pasture. That highway not far away. 

At the top of the hill I had good reception. Asked the manager, he said bring the trailer to the yard and then bobtail home. 

After that, checked my account. Definitely got my first paycheck, desperately needed money. 

Lunch is over. I gotta get rolling. 

G’day. 

 10:35 am, somewhere in idaho (shift key has now completely broken off on the left side, the main side where i use it so forgive lack of caps on certain words} but not too far into the state.  i drove until 1 am, had 35 minutes left on the 14 hour clock which therefore limits whatever driving hours you may have left to that amount of time.

i was so tired that i just wanted to find a place with available parking. took awhile, but i eventually found this place and very happy that i did. not only ample parking but a very nice restaurant with great food and large portion.  i had a couple of sandwiches yesterday.  this breakfast meal today will last me until dinner time, but if i get hungry, i bought a 6 inch sub at their deli as well plus a very large cup filled with ice and then water and also a bottle of water.  i have a goal to get at least 725 miles behind me today.

orgegon highways are a bit ridiculous with truck speed limits set at 60 mph, even out in the middle of nowhere.  i tend to stick to or stay close to the posted speed limits since i don't want a speeding ticket and i also dont' want to hear from the company about speeding.  however, the second i passed over the state line, the speed limit went up to 80 for cars and 70 for trucks.  i'd like to cruise around 72 mph, so close enough.  

the fatigue plus driving all day must have caught up to me, not to mention having that lovely rumble of the massive engine lulling me to sleep, i slept like a rock. woke up a few times but went right back to sleep.  my head is still not right and i've been awake for an hour now, but that will pass. 

i was dehydrated and the waitress saw that instantly after i was brought a cup of water and just made that disappear in a few seconds. she brought out a giant glass of water which i worked on for a while until i needed more, didn't have to ask her, she brought a pitcher of water out lol  i'm feeling better getting all of that water into me and now i have ample water in the truck.  

anyway, if all goes according to my intended plan, i should be somewhere just north of denver by tonight.  there is pay parking at a couple of truck stop in that area and i will probably just do that.  it's amazing how many truck stops are out here in the middle of nowhere and equally amazing the lack of them north of denver on whatever insterstate that is that heads north out of there.  i feel like i'm going to do much better today having had slept so well.  

i made it almost 600 miles on one fill up and i still have half tanks, they have huge diesel tanks on this truck, this thing is so old that it doesn't have and doesn't have to have DEF tank and bs on it.  Well i guess i better verify the amount of fuel in the tanks by visually inspecting, don't need to be running out of fuel but would like to make it around 300 miles before stopping for diesel.  

With what was collected and other stuff coming in, my checking accounts are now looking much better and i am thankful i have friends to deal with this stuff when i cannot.  i don't know how much this first paycheck is going to be, but considering there should be something like 2 weeks on it, i would like to hope it's a decent amount of money to further fatten my personal account. Transfer back money i borrowed from it to the business account after i get back and pay that rather hefty electric bill, sitting at around $1,800.  i will probably still have a high bill next month since it stayed hot much longer than expected or even forecast.  the temps over there now are nice tho.

Speaking of temps, the ac in this truck quit working maybe 5 hours into this trip.  thankfully, it's nice out up here and i can just crack the windows.  they will have to fix that and a few other things.  i hope there isn't a problem with telling my new manager, of whom i haven't spoken with in 2 months and surprised he hasn't called me yet since being hired, that i intend on going home.  whether it's take this truck and trailer with me or drop the trailer at his yard and bobtail home or whatever, i AM going home.  and i don't mean for a day or 2 days.  at least 4 if not 5 or 6.  i have a lot of stuff to get caught up on at the park and no trucking company should expect people to stay out for 3 weeks without a decent home time schedule. yes i know it's a day job that gets me home most of the time, that doesn't matter,

i've been gone too long to not have a good  chunk of time to visit and reestablish myself with that dog.  i have no idea how that dog is going to react when i get back there, but i would think by now i'm just another faded memory in his past of people getting him and dumping him. i need to spend some serious time with him and give him the security he needs to not have to start acting out like he has when he sees any of the family members petting the other dog.  he can't stand it and has attacked her twice now

i'd be willing to bet money that when i come back and start lavishing attention on him, that behavior will disappear.  i don't think we are connected that much yet, in fact i'm sure we aren't and it's why i hesitated in getting the dog in the first place, knowing i would have to leave for an extended period of time.  if you would have told me i would be gone 3 weeks, i would have said, oh, well i'll find something else. i fully expected a 2 week stay, not a 17 day stay plus a 4 day trip home.  

well my time is almost up.  this truck has at least run hard without any major issues, for that i'm happy. they have competent mechanics that know what they're doing, but it was a mystery to me why they didn't fix the door, it became clearly obvious that they knew about it after i asked the lead mechanic yesterday, whose response is that the door hinge is probably just old and needs replaced, he knew all about it. 

btw, i'm driving a pink truck and my company id is something close it barbie - not saying what it is on here i don't need trolls getting into my personal business. at a younger age i would be embarrassed to drive this thing, now i don't care, lol.  people can laugh if they want, i'll laugh with them.

oh, did i say that whatever this thing is governed at, it's more than what i even want?

someone said they're governed at 75. yup, old days i drove even faster than that, these days, no thank you.  70-72 is plenty.  i'll get plenty of miles behind me at that speed. 

with that, i have 2 minutes left on the 10 hour rest clock, going to shut this computer  down, put it away and get ready to roll.

g'day

 Wednesday, 8:00 am

I was up much earlier than this, but this stupid laptop decided to once again do yet another update and took at least an hour, probably longer, I just gave up on it and started the process of packing and carrying stuff to the truck, which is about 2 football fields of distance away. 

I dunno, but I finally found the trailer they said has these totes on them, loaded with what? Who knows.  It's going to be at least 2 more hours before I get out of here.  There is the load to be strapped, get situated in the truck and find out about missing paperwork for DOT purposes. There is a registration card in there but there is no insurance and other paperwork.  

I don't really care at this point as long as I get out of here before noon and get rolling down the road AND hopefully not have any problems with the truck or the trailer.  I haven't even inspected the trailer yet.  But it will take half an hour to strap down, at least 20 minutes to inspect the trailer and who knows how long to get proper paperwork.  On top of that, I have to fuel and I likely will have to weigh out after I leave here.  

I still have some stuff to carry over there, but it's the last of it.  Coat, computer, tablet for HOS/load info, a few odds and ends.  I cleaned this place up regardless of how I feel about all of this.  THEY can come in here and vacuum and mop the floors, thanks, I'm not doing that and wash my hands of this place and hopefully never come back here again.  

Meanwhile, we have this circus going on in the House.  McCarthy hs been voted out of speakership role and some dude I never heard of took h is place temporarily and immediately proceeded to kick Pelosi out of her suites that she had in the halls of Congress itself.  How much contention and ridiculousness will occur for them to actually vote in another speaker?  

I'll have plenty of time to listen to the news coming up here, get fully caught up on that and seek out some old you tube channels that I listen to to pass the time while driving. Mr Ballen being one of my favorites He tells eerie stories of events in the past that have actually occurred.  

Anyway, I think I'll end this one, the computer is back up and running, the battery is completely charged so I can make an entry later on today or possibly tomorrow, not sure about that.  

I haven't driven in over a year besides that road test the other day, so this should be interesting. 

G\day.  

 I was so tired this morning when I got into the passenger's seat of the truck, I could barely keep my eyes open.  I was just sitting there thinking about an entire day of working feeling like this.  I couldn't fathom how I was going to make it .

Never-the-less, the trainer came with the trailer we loaded yesterday and we went straight to the plant that I was to do my "final" on . It wasn't a big deal.  I have this stuff memorized. This guy is a good trainer and I wished I could have been with him last week instead of with all of these other people. The other people are good at  what they do, but they aren't training minded.  This guy understands what newbies need to hear, he trains drivers constantly.  

He focused my attention on some things that were important.  Such as opening the customer tank valve before opening any other valves when offloading (pump or air off).  And even more so, when done pumping off, you do not close the customer valve with the pump still running. Shut the pump off first.  You still have air pressure being dumping into the fill line with a separate air hose, the pump doesn't need to be on.  After you shut the pump off, THEN you can close the tank, shut off the air pressure and start dismantling everything.  

Apparently I don't have to load the trailer. I just have to offload. Loading is actually quite a bit easier than offloading, I was loading a truck this morning after we did the "final".  He passed me on the final, said I had a good mind and easily learned and adapted to this type of trailer set up and forcefully told the big wig management at the office the same thing. 

It was good to hear this, because I was having my doubts.  I tried my best to pay attention the last 9 days of truck training and anything I missed, I paid double the attention the next time we were doing it.  I just got through writing a complete set of notes for everything from offloading to loading to steam outs and washouts.  There is a lot of information to remember. It's not rocket science, but you need to remember all of this stuff.  I know I will forget something and now I have complete notes on my phone from start to finish on everything that I was trained on.  

Anyway, it is over. Training is done. As I said this morning, I was going to be done today regardless of the verdict.  I was going to go home regardless of whether I passed or failed. I had no idea whether this guy was going to pass me or not, he wasn't letting on at all. Probably learned behavior after going through hoards of students and some are great and some suck.  

I feel like a giant weight has been lifted off of my shoulders, I can't say how horrible this experience has been, solely attributable to the lack of sleep.  We got back to the yard and I started the process of getting out of here.  Fuel card, tablet - has HOS and load info on it both for the company and DOT (troopers and such), more books, assigned the pink Peterbilt, went over and did a thorough inspection of that thing.  It's old school and it's bad @$$.  It's got a huge Caterpillar engine that they just overhauled on the top end, they obviously put new tires on it, new shocks, new airbags and other things.

No oil or air leaks.  Driver door a bit hard to shut.  No mattress - I asked them to put one in please and the western states manager said he'd get them to do that.  They are allegedly fixing and loading a 48 foot flatbed trailer with loaded containers for me to haul back.  I didn't ask them what is in it, my mind is floating around in sleeplessness space right now. 

After everything was done that I know of and chit chat and such over with, I came back here, to this hell-house and tried to take a nap. It lasted probably 30 minutes before people started making excessive noise downstairs.  People came from the RV park and stopped right in front of where my window is, albeit 2 stories, and talking loudly.  Someone else had gone into the laundry room.  I was amazed I even got the 30 minutes worth considering all of that noise.  It helped.  I don't feel quite as cruddy as I did before I took the nap.

I"m basically out of food.  I have some eggs left, ate a disgusting frozen dinner (I bought it, I didn't realize it was going to be gross) and only ate it because I was hungry. I do have some lunch meat left to make sandwiches. But I think a trip to the food truck across the way is in order with a celebratory meal.  They have great food there, just a bit pricey.  

I just can't tell ya how happy I am that I won't have to get up at 2:45, 3:00 or 3:30 am tomorrow morning.  I don't even think this truck is going to be ready to go until tomorrow morning anyway, plus I am out of hours for today.  Well, until 10:00 pm anyway, then I get my full 14 back.  I will NOT be leaving tonight even IF the thing is ready.  I can see getting up around 7:00 am, take a shower, get my stuff packed, get it over there and leaving then.  But the way I feel right now? No way would I even think about leaving tonight. 

So that's it. I no longer have this burden of training on my shoulders, now it's just time to go home,.  Well, right now, it's time to relax and chill because the western region manager said he made a request to have that trailer ready to go no later than 5:00 pm tomorrow. 

I've got - or should have - a paycheck coming on the 7th.  Well probably the 6th since the 7th is Saturday. At least that's the way they described it.  That will start to getting my finances headed in the right direction.  I had to transfer from one account to 2 others today for having otherwise bounced payments that would incur fees as of tonight.  It's just because the money I had coming in was going to one account and I had to wait until it hit the bank before I could transfer anything.  I'm safe there, for now. James went and collected rents as well from a few lots and that money will be waiting to be deposited when I get home, but, with what I already have plus a paycheck I'm going to be fine until then.

I do have a $1,800 electric bill coming up, so yes, I need to get as much money in the business account as I can before then.  I'm not going to worry about it.  I'll have the money and then some.  

These New Jersey people apparently think they can skirt paying anything.  I'm willing to throw them out if they don't pay another full month's rent.  James can come collect it.  I don't need them in there using my facilities and just not paying anything.  They get money, they have had money since the 28th and they have offered nothing.  

So, I texted them.  

I don't have anything else right now.  

 Tuesday - 3:00 am

Did I pass their test yesterday? No.  He put it off until today.  No idea, not my show, I don't call the shots. 

Today is it. If I pass, great, I'm leaving. If I don't pass, great, I'm leaving.  I have come to the definitive determination that I am leaving regardless. 16 days of this hellish place, I can' take any more of it.  Sleeplessness, fatigue, constantly tired.

Last night the same old story.  People in the laundry room making all kinds of noise.  You can't sleep through that.  Well, I can't anyway.  

I'm so tired that I really don't even feel like going out in a truck again today.  I just want to get a ride to the airport and fly home.  

It's 3:00 am and there is constant Interstate noise, lots of trucks with loud exhausts is the biggest thing.  

Yes, I'm cranky.  These facilities are like walking through the gates of hell.  If I could sleep at night, I wouldn't be like this at all.  But now I'm facing a very long day on less than 4 hours of sleep. YOU try that for as many days in a row that I've had to do this s***. It's constant moving, there are no breaks but if there were? I wouldn't want it, let's get this junk over with so I can go back.

I'm telling you that today is the last day I'm doing this training.  I'm at the end of the line here, whatever happens, happens and I will deal with it either way.  But I AM going home, whether driving a truck or flying in an airplane.

That's really all I have to say this morning.  

 Monday - very early

It was many hours before I was able to actually go to sleep last night after I went to bed. 

One thing was the revelation that it\s fleas, not bed bugs that have been eating me alive every night in here.  I know this because one of them landed on my Iphone screen.  Then there were people doing aundry below me making a lot of noise.  Clunk, clank, dryer doors being slammed shut, etc.  

Then there is the Interstate.  Constant noise.  Then someone pounded on the front office door again - I have no access to the office and I don't know why someone would be banging on that door . 

So I just laid there awake until it all subsided hours later and now? I might as well not have even bothered to go to bed.  I want out of here.  Badly.  I will be doing my best to impress the man today to get signed off on the paperwork.  

This place sucks and here I am back into sleepless  mode. Probably a bit cranky, wanting my own bed in my own bedroom. I've been 15 days as of today and it's time to get rolling towards home.  

I say that stuff and the realize, of course, that I am at the whims of this company unless I just say screw it, pack my bags and go home on my own, wish them well and I'm outta  here.  Well, I made it this far, I'm certainly not going to do that - yet. 

Well, it's almost 4:00 am now. I've just been sitting here dirnking coffee. I got up earlier than the alarm because I wasn't sleeping.  It happens that way that when I go to bed and things such as noises keep waking me up, I eventually just can't sleep at all.  As I said, I might as well have not gone to bed last night.  The only good thing for today is that I have a coat to mitigate the 45 degree weather currently being shown on the weather channel.

With that, I am offa here. 

Wish me luck.

G'day.

 Back at the bunkhouse.  I decided today I would just sit out in the living room and watch whatever tv is to be had.  There is a small table - very small, nothing you can sit at and a couple of dirty recliners out here.  But, they have Dish and it's got a pretty range of channels on it.  Better than sitting in that bedroom all day.  There is no one else here and I have no idea if they're bringing in another trainee this weekend. If they do, they would show up sometime today  

It's only 12:45.  

I am dreading tomorrow if what I interpreted off of the Friday text correctly that the day will start at 2: 00 am.  I'm not a night owl and certainly don't want to be getting up that early. A bit ridiculous.  If these local drivers like it, great and good for them. I have no intention of starting too early unless they absolutely require it once I get home.  But you know, if it gets me out of here, I'll have a lunch bagged and ready to go.  I bought food at Walmart this morning. Was getting low on lunch stuff. 

It's cold in this house and I have no access to thermostat. Whatever they have it turned to, it's quite cool in here.  Good for sleeping, not so great for daytime hours.  

The dog.  He has started attacking the other dog when she - the other dog - is getting attention.  This isn't shocking, actually. This dog has lost his family, then I came along, started gelling with him and showing him a lot of attention, then I left and have been gone for 2 weeks as of today.  Obviously we can't having this new dog attacking the dog of the house. I do think when I finally get home, I will be able to give him a lot of attention, petting, talking to him, scratching his ears, etc and I think he will get over this.  I don't even know how this dog is going to react when I get home considering it was just a few plus weeks that we had to get to know each other.

I'm watching Gordon Ramsey. Guy has a pretty good potty mouth, but his adventures all over the place are entertaining.  Hoping a decent movie will come on on one of the other channels. _______________________

Many hours and a long nap later.  No word from the trainer. He was texted by dispatch on Friday to give his start time, which he didn't respond to.  So, I texted the group a little while ago requesting start time.  No word.  That was 2-1/2 hours ago.  

 Sunday  Mid-Morning

Got up somewhat early, just to get things done.  Got up, had some of that nice, free, complimentary breakfast with coffee, milk, orange juice, meat and potatoes.  It was very good.  

After that, I made the decision to go get a coat at the nearest Walmart supercenter.  Uber there, Lyft back (I check them both, whichever is cheapest).  They had a decent coat for $22.  That was the cheapest thing they had. Not that you would expect to get a coat for any cheaper than that.                          

Now? It's a little after 9:00 am and I am going to have to leave here by 11.  That's their checkout time. A bit early if I do say so myself, but whatever, I need to get back and get my mind into this frame of thinking that I'm going to have to get up super early tomorrow morning and try to convince this trainer I'm good to go by being able to recite everything from memory.  

Trust me, I've endlessly gone over this entire thing from start to finish in my mind.  Today, once I get back, I will be speaking it out as if I'm talking to someone.  It's one thing to go over it in your mind, quite a different thing to verbalize it.  Once I feel comfortable with that, I'm going to write it all down, step by step and have a training tool in case I get flustered at the racks for whatever reason and have a memory lapse. 

It happens.  

I'm just trying to get out of here, folks, memorizing all of these steps is the only way to do it.  This trainer isn't going to sign me off without seeing that I know certain, major things not to do and to do at the same time.  

So I'm bagging everything up and fixing to get out of here.  I will try Uber and Lyft again, I tried earlier and they had cheaper prices than the taxi service. But, will they actually show up to take me out there? One of the drivers this morning said he couldn't understand why they would turn it down, it's not that far and "I'd rather drive out of town than being stuck in this city all the time".  So who knows.  I'll get everything ready to go and then see if I can get one of them over here.

Back later.  

 Saturday is over for all intents and purposes.  

Went out for a bit, did quite a bit of walking, got some Thai food - spicy chicken curry to be precise - at that - wonderful.

The price of everything here is high.  That was $16 for a meal that probably should have been around $10,   I just ate a blue cheese burger that cost $12.50.  That was the burger only, nothing else and that's all I got.  

Got my laundry done with no problems, no one was using it and no one wanted to use it after I was done.  I know because I checked that laundry room several times today attempting to decide when, exactly, to do it.  One more thing I don't have to do tomorrow. 

I will probably Uber myself to the nearest grocery store tomorrow before checking out of here, get what I think I will need for the next .... well we'll call it 4 days ....and then get a ride back to the A frame house.  I asked the taxi company if they are open on Sundays, yes, we are.  Okay, because I didn't have any luck with Uber or Lyft to get a ride there.  It wouldn't be good to not be able to get back there, lol.  

I need lunch stuff and a few dinners.  And another bottle of unsweet tea.  And whatever else I am not thinking of here.

I miss my new doggie.  I think by the time I get back he's going to have let me go out of his memory banks.  I'll have been gone longer than I've had him or somewhere around the same amount of time.  

I really don't ever want to do this again - taking off for what will amount to 3 weeks. They best not be giving me a hard time about going home for - many days.  Many, many days.  Like 5 to 7 days.  I might go down to 4 but it's not going to be any lower than that.  Sorry, I have stuff to do, y'all kept me out a lot longer than I was informed of, my vehicle is still sitting at an airport, I have thing to do, I'll get with the driving after I get this stuff done, g'day.

Well I miss everything really. Home, the kids, Taylor, James, dog, fish, cats, the feeling of home, the feeling of being home, all of that stuff that makes you feel like you are living a life.  This hotel diversion was very much needed, but it's not home.  If my new doggie was here I probably wouldn't care about much of anything.  

I don't know when checkout is here, but I'll guess  noon and work my day around that appropriately.  I brought the entire suitcase because I had all of those dirty clothes. Today was the last day worth of clean socks I had since the last time I did laundry - a week ago?  

I am, of course, hoping for another good night's sleep. It will be the last for a while. Tomorrow, I can take an afternoon nap - at that "thing" they call a house.  

I know, tomorrow another day off. But, I am ready to get this over with.  I spent quite a bit of time today going over loading and unloading routines in my mind and calling it out.  I'm alone, lol, I can do that without people looking at me funny. 

 Saturday  Semi-Early

Well, my new definition of early anyway.  Since getting up at 3:30 am is a thing with this company, I'll have to redefine my old version of "early", which would be something like 6:00 am-ish.  

As hoped - very much hoped - I finally slept.  8 golden hours of sleep.  Only woke up once, was a wake for a little while but eventually dozed back off.

No people clanking things around in the laundry room. No laundry room door smashing against the building. No people in the middle of the night banging on the office door.  No bed bugs.  No uncomfortable bed.  NO Interstate noise at all.  That was one of the biggest ones, all night long, cars and trucks rolling by as if they are passing you in the room.  

Just the sound of the wall unit AC system that I turned the fan setting on high. That is my optimal sleep condition, white noise in the background, a comfortable bed and no other noise.  

I do not feel all that great tho.  You can't lose as much sleep as I have and expect to feel all wonderful and such with such sleep deprivation going on.  I will be walking to a store later on, maybe a restaurant much later on and that will be it, the rest of the day I'm going to laze around here, rest, nap, rest some more, nap some more, see if I can find anything on this cable tv system worth watching and that's about it.

The complimentary breakfast here was amazing. Cubed potatoes, bacon, sausage, eggs, a whole line of fresh fruit, cereal, coffee, etc.  You don't see that much anymore at hotels.  I also apparently hit it quite lucky: The Ducks are playing an away game today.  I had no idea I was a mile away from the University and if the Ducks were playing here today? This room would have been more than double the price and there would be people everywhere.  Apparently these Ducks fans will travel wherever to go see their team play.

I had to come to terms with my situation this morning.  However hellish this trip has been - and it's been a doozy - I had no choice but to come out here and get with it and get some money earned.  It's really the only reason I pushed through all of these days of trying to work on sleepless nights.  It was in the back of my mind - my checking accounts aren't so peachy right now, have to get some money in my coffers before I am so broke, I can't even pay current bills. 

I don't have to do anything today or tomorrow beyond laundry, which I am doing here since it's cheaper.  Apparently get up very early on Monday, I think if I interpreted the text from dispatch correctly, there is a start time of 2:00 am.  I hope I read that wrong.  I also hope I feel much more rested by the time whatever the start time is on Monday.  Pretty sure I will if last night was any measure, I can sleep another good night and then - well let's not go into trying to go to sleep in the "bunkhouse" Sunday night.

As I said in a previous entry, I am going to be focusing my mind today on the steps you take to load and offload a certain product, which is what I am pretty sure they will have me do a "final" on.  It isn't rocket science but there is a sequence, an order of the things you have to do and I want that firmly settled in my mind so that Monday, I can just breeze through it like I've been doing it for a decade.

Whether it works out that way or not, who knows? lol

In another - quite helpful - event, the house in AZ says they are making their deposit today.  This basically saves my @$$ on the mortgage.  Well, it's the weekend so I could have made that payment anyway without consequence, but I have gotten so far down in the money department that I have been waiting until the last day of the month to make the payment. So, I'll make that payment - right now actually while it's in my mind, get it over with.  

Whew.  That hurt, lol, I hope they are telling me the truth about the payment, but even if they didn't make it today, as long as they make it by Monday afternoon, I'm good.  

I think I'll see if the laundry machines are free and get my laundry junk over with. 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            

 So I'm here at the hotel. 

Downtown Eugene.  

It was the nicest thing available without spending a fortune. If you can believe it, Motel 6 was listed at $80 and I think it was America's Best Value Inn was in the $90's range. These are low quality, dive, crack-hole hotels. I might as well just stay at that facility at the trucking company, it's about the same.  

So whatever. It's a nice room and I hope I can finally sleep for once.  Or not?  

Who knows.  I just needed a substantial change from the 12 days of that horror movie called "3 Weeks In Earthly Hell".  If I would have known I would be staying here and ending up not getting home for 3 weeks, I probably wouldn't have come.  Instead, I would have started looking for something else in the local range. 

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A college town, walking to a Mexican food restaurant with rave reviews had me walking around young people frequently.  

The birria tacos were amazing.  So tasty and the bartender brought me some sort of sauce he says he dips his into, even more amazing.  I sat at the bar because there was no other seating available and why not.  I don't really care.  No one else at the bar but I struck it up with the bartender.  He looked to be a college student himself.  

He had no suggestions for things to see and do here, I didn't expect that he would but I asked anyway.  Back to my newest temporary home, I can hear nothing but the fan on the window ac unit.  If it stays this way, I will sleep well. Or even if I don't, I will not have to get  up at 3:30 am, I can get up whenever and the same Sunday morning.  I intend on at least attempting to getting myself to feeling better by getting some sleep.  

It won't be surprising to me if I just lay in bed til' mid-morning tomorrow and then get up, use the Keurig machine they have in the room - or go down and get the free breakfast. And come back up, get back in bed and screw all of this.  

I'm just tired and cranky. The Mexican food outing was fun but that's over and done with now.  Time to get ready to go to bed.  

 I'm exhausted.  Not tired, not a little weak with fatigue, I am exhausted.

This was an 11 hour day and it got me pretty good.  

I went straight into the office, put my stuff down and waited there until people were "unbusy" with stuff.  Then we got into a discussion.

Not a heated discussion or contentious, but I wanted a game plan - well I called it an exit plan but whatever - and I wasn't going to be leaving until I got it all laid out in front of me.

Because it was a foregone conclusion in my mind that I was going to have to spend another weekend here if I'm going to follow through with this and finish it out.  I'm making money and right now?  I need a cash infusion. It's to the serious point because I'm not there to collect rents.  I have near 3 grand owed me in the next 3 days and I am asking James to please go over and collect, I can't go another week on the money I have in my checking accounts, payments will start to bounce. 

Anyway, the manager over the entire western region was still there, thankfully, he came up with a smile on his face and asked me how it's going?  I said great and went straight to the question: What is the exit plan for me?  He didn't understand so I clarified: for going home? 

Oh! Well, we are putting you with Ken on Monday and possibly Tuesday, when he thinks you are good to go he will sign off on you and you can leave no later than Wednesday.  

I can tell ya nothing is what I "really want to hear" right now beyond fly home and take some time to get my stuff in order.  But whatever, this is pretty much what I expected to hear, that the dude that decides whether I get to leave or not says I can leave - or not.  Well, I can tell ya, I will be going over in my mind all the steps it takes to get loaded from figuring out how much product to put in the tank to the loading process and then all the steps it takes to offload.  There is a particular product that they deliver a lot of which I am guessing will be what this guy will have me doing to sign off on me.

I'd really like to get it done Monday and be out of here on Tuesday.  I get that they want to be sure I know what I'm doing, hence the idea that I'm going to sit around and write down everything on paper out of memory and then just get it into my head.  Pressure offload:  Get out of truck. Chalk the tires. Get out small tarps and buckets. Put them under connection points - you don't want any product getting onto the ground.  Get the air hose and hook it up to the connection point on the trailer.  Get up to the top of the tank and open the small valve up there, that's where the pressurized air goes.  

Hook up the hose from the trailer to to the plant.  Double check everything.  Check that you are at the right tank, with the right product  and product name and number.  The numbers on the tank should correlate with the number on your paperwork.  You find out if there is enough room in the tank for what you have.  If there isn't, you can't deliver it, they don't like you having partial loads driving down the highway.  So you have to find out the capacity of the tank, take 10%  off, that's how much it can hold, they don't fill them more than 90%.  

Then you find out how much product is still in it, subtract the full amount from the amount in it and whatever that comes out to is how much product it can take.  You verify with the operator everything.  They have to sign a paper acknowledging receipt of product before you start delivery.  

When everything is good to go, you open the valve to let pressure start going into the tank.  You do not let it get up to 30 pounds of pressure. That can and will cause "tank failure".  Delivery pressure is 25 psi for most products.  Get it up to around 15 psi and then you can open the internal valve on the trailer first and then the hand valve. Make sure no leaks, go to the receiver's valve, open that up and product will start flowing into their tank.  

You just stand there and wait until it's empty.  You know it's empty when the line starts cavitating.  You get up on the top of the tanker and make a visual check that yes, indeed, it's empty.  Get down, close the internal and hand valve on the trailer and turn off the air pressure to the air line.  Take the air line and hook it to the bleed off valve at the hand operated valve.  Open the valve before connecting the line to ensure there is no product to come out.  Hook it up, turn on the pressure and the product is forced through the line and into the customer's tank.  They do that for maybe a couple minutes and then turn the valve off at  the customer's tank. Close the valve at the hand wheel for the air line and then go to turn off the pressure.  

Open that valve again and let off any pressure still in the line.  Pull the big line off, there shouldn't be anything more than a few drips coming out of it.  Put the camlock lid on it, seal it, go to the customer side, same thing.  Put everything away and, double check your valves are closed and you can leave.  

If it sounds complicated, it really isn't. It's just a lot of steps you have to remember.  I just wanted to write this down now before anything slips out of memory.  Writing it helps me.  The big thing about pressuring off is not to let the air pressure in the tank get up to or above 30 psi.  

Far different than cryo days where you build it up to around 85 psi to pump the cryo out of the trailer.  

Anyway, I have the fill and offload procedures memorized.  I stood up on the rack the other day and just went over the loading procedure from start to finish probably 20 times - 15 at least - while standing there waiting for it to fill up.  

Now then. What to do with an entire weekend?  I can tell ya right now, there is going to be at least one hotel night if not two.  Im seriously considering getting a room tonight. 

Yup, I'm going to Eugene tonight - I think, lol.  $20 for Uber shuttle.  Get there, get in the room, take my laptop and clothing with me and do laundry there if I want to or just wait until I come back sunday afternoon and do it then. I'd say for sure Sunday but I have no clean jeans now.  I'm not sleeping in this hell hole for the entire weekend.  No thank you and no thank you please.  It's going to cost a few bills, I'll put it on a credit card and pay that back when I get my first paycheck on the 7th.  

I've been sleeping like hell and I need a diversion from this ridiculous place.  I'm tired but not so tired I can't just up and leave here right  now and take off.  I've basically talked myself into it. There are numerous restaurants within walking distance and that's what I'm going to do.  My first paycheck will be over 2 grand, I'm not concerned about treating myself after 12 hellish days/nights of this nonsense. 

I'm getting off of here and will make an entry later when I'm all set up.

 

 Friday - early

And when I say early, I'm talking 3:30 am rise.  Not 6 or 7 am. 

And I'm irritated. I have been irritated with these people for numerous reasons, but now it's becoming clear.  There is only one driver trainer here that I am actually supposed to train with.  

They have him training someone else this week.  The person that is responsible for signing off on my training isn't available until next week.  How do I know this? He doesn't work weekends.  He will sign off on this other dude today and then they might? get to me next week.  

The reason this is irritating is because this trip was set up 2-1/2 MONTHS ago.  Not 2 days ago, not a week ago, not 2 weeks ago.  They did it this way so I could have access to this person, his knowledge and experience and learn the correct way. 

Instead? I am going out learning about giant bladders today.  These are large plastic bags that hold thousands of gallons of liquid that they strap down to a flatbed trailer.  I won't be doing any of this.  I won't be pulling a flatbed and I won't be hauling bladders. The only good this does me is earn some money for a paycheck.  It does nothing to help me finalize my learning and go through "finals".

Finals is apparently the last day of training when you go with this official trainer. You get assigned a load and you have to do the delivery from loading it into the tanker to offloading it at the customer. If you can do that, you get signed off.  That isn't even in the works and it certainly won't happen this weekend since the trainer....doesn't......work......on.....weekends.  

So, I am facing another full weekend here either working or doing nothing.  Working? I've just done 6 days in a row and going on my 7th of work.  Not classroom training, working.  I haven't been sleeping, which is another story I've been talking about, last night being no different.

There are definitely bed bugs in this bed.  But beyond that, someone or something made a loud banging noise at midnight and I woke up and - never really got back to sleep.  Every day, I've been operating on 4 or so hours of sleep. This  makes me cranky.  I've got my last day's worth of lunch food in the bag ready to go for today, after this? I'll have to go to the nearest walmart or safeway some 17 miles away to buy more food on my dime.  

I don't want to work another weekend and more importantly, I don't want to be here another weekend.  

In fact, this is pressing me so strongly that I am just going to text them once they are in the office later on and ask them the "exit plan" out of here.  If they don't think I'm ready, fine, that's on them, actually. I'm a fast learner and I have most of this stuff in my head now.  I could probably do the entire load from loading to offloading and get all or most of it right.  The serious parts i definitely have memorized now. The biggest thing is making sure the dome on the top of the trailer is opened when offloading - unless - you are doing a pressure offload.  

There are other important things, but not destroying the trailer is the most important part. 

Anyway, I have more to say but I have to get out of here.

G'day

As stated in previous, short post, the day turned out to be something much different than what I expected.  We drove most of the day - it was about a 12 hour day.  I got a chance to take a  nap and the dude I was with was very cool and like minded on many things.  Offloading was a breeze, I could easily handle that one.  In fact, I can pretty much do all of it now.  A few refreshers would be good, but I'm going to write it all down out of memory and keep it for future reference.

However.  There has been no word on leaving.  I was assigned to another driver tomorrow - but - the driver responded an hour after the text was sent and said TWIC card.  Meaning i have to have one to get into the plant he's going into.  Yea, I don't have a valid TWIC. It expired a few years ago and there was no need to renew it.  

I will be asking about going home tomorrow afternoon.  I'm not very much interested in another week of this and my checking accounts are bone dry. I need to collect rents. I can probably do some of it from here, but the cash paying customers...I'd have to have Taylor or James go over there collecting and then I'd have to have them deposit the money into the bank.  I may have to try to get them to do that anyway.  I'm going to be looking at the accounts in a while and see what hits when from previous months. 

Forgot. I can easily scroll through on my phone and see what's what. I'm actually good if it's all correct for now.  Plus I have a house payment coming in on the 1st.  If the 3 people don't leave, their check will be sitting in the mailbox between tomorrow and the 1st.  So I can breathe easy a little bit, I'm not spending any money out here besides the food I bought.  I mean, I did make a trip to that food truck once and spent $10 over there.  I've spent less in the last getting close to 2 weeks than has happened in a long time.  

Well, I am with the same driver as I was with today.  He has a relatively easy day tomorrow.  I will learn nothing with being with him on that trip.  He is doing bladders and I will never be doing any of that.  So, I am getting up early and can only hope that I will be able to sleep tonight as I did not last night and the last several nights before that. 

I'd take a nap right now but I'm too wired out for that.  I actually don't feel that bad right now, those naps helped me today.  So, an easy day tomorrow but that may mean I don't get to get out of here until next week? I really have no clue what they want from me.

What I do know is that my guess about yesterday was correct. We were, indeed, empty.  The catastrophe in the plant could have easily been averted if we had shut the air off and closed the valves going to the tank.  The air would have stopped pumping in and the foam would not have been created.  This was my guess yesterday afternoon while at the plant.  When I saw the weight of the trailer after we scaled after leaving the offload area, it was pretty obvious we were empty.  

So, the driver was partially at fault.  In my view anyway, not that I'm saying anything about that to them, they can draw whatever conclusions they want. But, if he had picked up the hose to see if it was heavy or light and repeated doing that during the offload, we would have known when it was empty, shut everything off, everything would have been fine.  The plant, however, is at fault for not having an operator monitoring that tank from the inside, we can't see it from the offload area and also at fault for not having the information provided that introducing air into the mixture will create excessive foaming.

The easiest thing to do is climb up the ladder and just look down into the tank to see if it's empty. That plant and many others do not allow you to climb up on the tanks. But, some of these plants instead have rolling staircases that you put up next to the plant, they have platforms on the top and you just walk up the stairs.  This is something they should consider having at any offload area where there is any caustic or hazardous chemicals.  

That guy was not in a good mood today and I'm glad I'm not with him. The reason I know the tank was empty is the office personnel had it checked at the yard.  We saw him driving the truck up to the wash station this afternoon.  We kind of laughed because he obviously didn't start his day until very late.  They instructed him to take that tank up there ASAP at 9:00 am and it was almost 3:00 pm when we saw him driving up there.  

Enough.  The boys called today so I got to talk to them for a bit on the phone.  I also got to see some very beautiful countryside today.  The plant we went to was nestled up in the mountains and it was pretty cool all of the stuff and the little towns you pass through.  Again, this day turned out nothing like I thought it would but it turned out very well.  Thankfully.   

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Many hours later. I had some wine to maybe help me sleep at the winery across the road.  Note that I didn't say drunk or anything remotely close to it. A sleep aid.  I made my lunch for tomorrow and now am out of supplies to make any further lunches.  4:30 am depart time, I will have to get up at 3:30 am again to shave, shower, coffee,etc.  

I was informed to ask the dispatchers and manager over this entire region tomorrow of when I am departing tomorrow after work.  Okay?  Why doesn't she know this information?  Not her problem, of course, but whatever.   

I'll get my ass out of bed at 3:30 am, get myself ready to go, leave and come back.  I need to be impressed, for I certainly have done my part in this matter.  

 

 I got lucky. On the road writing this, not driving. Turns out this truck has to go to a plant in Washington on the coast. It’s a long drive but we’re in Washington. After we offload and drive back, that’s it for the day. So just a couple hours in a plant and I’ve already taken a nap to make me feel a little better. 

 Thursday - 3:30 am

Slept very poorly.  I just can't sleep in this house for a variety of reasons.  This driver telling me "t's going to be a llong day" didn't help.  I will likely be forced to take nap while he's driving and I don't care what he or anyone else thinks about it, send me home if he or this company doesn't like it.

Literally.  Send.  Me.  Home.

This is day 12 of this nonsense and I am beyond done with this.  

To think that I am leaving here in 10 minutes and probably won't be back until 14 or 15 hours from now isn't even in my scope of comprehension atm.  How many loads is that? 3 or 4?    

Oh well. Wish me luck.